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realizing that sticking to the "do it bad" "do it scared" mentality implies theres also a "do it bored"

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Okay, I like this one a lot too 👀

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Took this pic this Friday and feeling hella good about it.

No harsh retouch, just fog and storm outside the window.

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Have a new camera for a couple of days now and I have

zero

regrets. Not even one.

It's unreal how this small thingy manages to make pictures this cool.

The quality is chef's kiss.

The amount of details? Unholy.

Well now i fully understand the craze around Fuji cameras.

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Decided

to get a new camera.

Welp.

During the last 12 months I've got several lenses, low-fi kids camera (adopted by my friend this year cause I failed to understand what I want to do with it), 2 film cameras + loaded film into the film camera I've already owned.

I enjoyed lenses.

I changed my style a bit.

But after all this didn't change my attitude towards photography nor gave me any kind of boost.

Yet today I'm buying a new camera.

Oh well.

It's a rather interesting one tho.

Am I searching for excuses? 100%

Will stop? No

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How

do I fit urban fantasy into a cyberpunk setting?

Originally my dolls live in the not_so_distant future. I have lot's of robots, those who are not visibly robots are either cyborgs or humans taking care of robots.

Do I really need to squeeze non_robotic fantasy guys in there? Hell no. Do I want to? Sure.

That's why I decided that there will be a group of characters who are actually a result of a bug inside the robots' neural networks which led to them seeing things. And currently things are Zhnets and Hton'.

Zhnets is a Studio Uoo New bone walker. They also need a redesign stylewise, cause sneakers and sweatshirt are definately no the vibe I am looking for them.

But overall they're adorable reaper.

Hton' is a creature. Not sure what they are but they're friendly local entity.

So robots in my story started seeing them. And just accepted it. Whoa that's an attitude we all need.

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Totally failed my plan yesterday. Nothing new.

But stumbled upon this chonky boi and feel like my Hton' might enjoy having a nice sheep. It looks supernatural enough for my liking. Additionally the character may use the wool to knit stuff and it's a rather traditional craft in my area. Welp.

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I've got really weird result of playing with my shift-ring.

I decided to shoot only with my sony+industar+(tilt)shift ring for the day. Mostly I'm not too disappointed with the results, but this one.

Ohh this one is strange.

Focus is all over the place. Focus is a mystery. Focus is overrated.

The idea is there but even looking at this mess of a bokeh and sharpness chaos makes my eyes hurt.

That's sad.

But that's a lesson.

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Well I spent some time analysing what was I looknig for.

It took me some time.

I thought about what I enjoy and what am I interested in.

And I kinda got it.

I want a character that has no face/recognisable face features hiding behind a mask. I was thinking about wicca.

But then I thought a little more and realised that nothing stops me from making a more slavic oriented character. Maybe not purely slavic, but with influence of notheren pagan culteres (we've got a lot of people of finnic ethnic groups here and I am just mesmerised with their traditions). For sure there will be no historical or cultural accuracy but I want to make it the way people can kinda understand the roots of my inspiration.

Also I feel heavily inspired by kolyadki tradition which is vaguely similar to halloween treat or treating. That also makes mask make sense!

While researching the masks I found out that there's a plenty of artist creating them, so it will for sure influense the doll as well.

In the meantime I received a blank head for a (Yomane) body and painted it black.

Plan to paint them eyes today and varnish.

Then it will be time for a mask and an outfit!

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What are my current plans?

I have two dolls to work on and some minor customization action pending.

The first of the mentioned dolls is less intimidating and also I have much more materials on my hands for it. So that's why it's the first on the list.

I accidentally got a Yomane body with no head and decided that I want to make something *mine*, something reflecting my... me.

I love the dolls and figures I bought as a fullset or simply ready for action right out of the box, but still I wanted something.

I decided to start with an animal head on a human body. The idea was there.

The result was pretty much questionable.

I didn't to buy them clothes that would make me happy, and later on the head itself stopped making me happy.

I failed to understand what annoyed me for two straight years, it was exhausting.

Finally I understood that there were several issues. The beak, the eyes, the proportions. Well some may say - everything.

I got myself together and customised a noname head.

It was way more well thought but after I finished it I immidiately understood that it's not it.

But the progress was made.

I took one photo and started digging into my head to find the answer.

The answer was found and now I'm researching stuff and thinking about the exact ways to execute what I want, but overall I've got an idea at least.

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What do I do usually?

Mostly whine about how I hate my miserable self

Photos as I mentioned in previous post are my main medium.

I have two Instagram profiles:

One for pics with dolls and figures

And one for everything else

I try to experiment on my second acc but still do not feel brave enough and post all of the results to my stories.

I rarely craft as I am one of these "gotta get the perfect result on the first try" people.

But I try to change that.

I think I'm gonna post here my thoughts on creativity and art, plans, WIPs, maybe some tips for myself. Nothing too crazy.

It's gonna be my place to journal hobby related stuff.

Feel free to comment and ask me stuff. I'm awkward but relatively opened to dialogue =)

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Okay, but why?

So.

The thing is, sometimes i have ideas.

Sometimes they stay with me, sometimes the fly away.

Most of the times I enjoy them but rarely I feel the enthusiasm to make them real things.

And today I thought that may be a place in the internet remote from my active blogs where I do not share to much of the words can be a good storage for mentioned ideas, researches and (well I believe in myself today) WIPs and finished things.

I thought that it may motivate me.

We'll see.

I speak Russian, English, Korean.

I am awkward slav goblin with wide variety of interests.

My main hobbies are photography and dolls/figures.

Here's one of my favourite pics I took to make this post look a bit more fancy.