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I have to admit I really like despair disease nagito...🌡poor hajime 😅

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Feelings tonight

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I thought of analogy as i was showering,

An easy way to envision new alter forming/popping up is by imagining that they had lost the password to the previous account they've logged into, so instead of trying to re-attempt, they made a new account with the closest vibe and name they got from existing ones or past ideas.

A new social account usually have a rigid FYP, this is equivalent how they navigate self exploration and find what suits them. This is also why recently new alters can take a slight or visible changes in just a few days or weeks,, similar to how the algorithm presents more content on the account corresponding to what you like seeing.

Maybe consider viewing your newly formed alters as parts that forgot how to access a persona (with a social account) for interacting with the world without a password, and to bypass that trouble was by creating a new account and start from scratch.

I should stop showering.

- C

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some abuser introjects are like rah rah I'm mean and scary and scared to be soft and some are like uwu im just a soft widdle guy ummmh can i ummm abuse you for kink pwease im really good at it apparently

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It’s okay if you don’t know who you are. It’s okay if you don’t have clear profiles on every system member. It’s okay if you struggle to make sense of yourself and your alters.

You can take as much time as you need to figure it out, but it’s also okay if you never figure it out.

You are allowed to simply exist as you are. Even if you don’t know who that is. Even if it changes by the hour.

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I'm doing it again. I wish I wasn't alone. I have no one to talk to and I'm drowning.

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and when all the distractions dont work anymore and its the end of the day, i’m left with just myself and the want for it all to please just fucking stop.

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trauma holder culture is wishing you had more of an identity outside of the trauma

Trauma holder culture is...

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I'm sorry I don't really show you how much I love you. I love you so much and everyone knows but you. That's how I am toward everyone and I don't know why. It terrifies me to act like I love you in front of you.

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I love him so much dude it's crazy

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