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What am I doing? Is this a good idea? I can’t fall in love with him again. But I know I will when I see him. I should’ve had something to calm my nerves. All these thoughts were flooding through Selena’s mind as the car drove her to meet up with Justin at his hotel. He had asked her if they could meet up and she couldn’t bring herself to say no. She did love him. She would always love him. They needed time apart. They needed time to figure themselves out before they could figure each other out. It had been about almost a year since she had seen him in person. They talked every now and then but recently they started talking more. Her friend Taylor and her boyfriend Calvin had both given her fair warning that Justin would probably try to get back with her, but she took this in consideration but still accepted Justin’s offer.

“Here you are Ms. Gomez” her driver said turning to her taking her out of there endless thoughts “Have a good time. Call me if you want me to pick you up"

“Ok thank you, Ernie. You have a good night as well” she sighed before getting out of the car. She smoothed her outfit and made her feet walk forward.

The door was open for her and she went to the place Justin told her to meet, the bar. When she saw him he instantly stood and came over to him. He looked different when she looked at him. He looked brighter and happier then he had in a long time. He looked like the Justin she once loved. Not the Justin who was rebellious and broke her heart

“Selena” he said softly and held out his hand to shake hers

“Hi Justin” she shook his head with a light giggle, she looked up to see him smile

“Thank you for joining me” he said wanting to just apologize to her and tell her everything that had been going through his mind during the time that they had been apart.

She was wearing the perfume that smelled almost identical to the one he got her when he went to Paris. And she was wearing the sweater she was wearing when they went to Canda, the last time they actually spend good time with each other.

“It’s no problem.” she smiled and let him led her to the bar he order a drink and asked if she wanted anything. She settled for some red wine.

“So tell me how is everything in your life right now?” Justin asked turning to her and relaxing as they sat down at a table for two

“It’s good. Gracie is two years old now. I saw her the other day. Taylor had a party for Lily Aldridge the other day that was fun. What about you?” she asked turning to him

“Well. Jazzy and Jaxon are great. Jaxon is getting so old and so is Jazzy. They ask about you every now and then. My mom is doing well she is writing another book.” he let himself look in her brown eyes the brown eyes that belonged to the girl that he once thought he would marry, the girl that he once thought would be his forever, the girl that he once would never leave

“Good to hear. I miss them.” she took a sip of her drink before continuing “I heard your album it’s great. You’re sound is so different but it’s got a good vibe. I really like your song Sorry and Love Yourself"

“Really?” he asked raising his eyebrows, the song Sorry was written for her and Love Yourself was written for Yovanna, just the thought of her made him cringe

“What?” she smiled and curious to his reaction

“Nothing.” he said shrugging “I heard your album too. It was amazing. You wrote some of those didn’t you?"

“Yes” she said wondering how he could tell “I mean I know I showed you some a while back but it was just like two of them"

“I can just tell” he said simply before taking a sip of his drink and looking around and setting his eyesight on the band playing in front of them. He had asked if he could sing tonight

“Justin, why did you ask me to be here tonight?” she asked just wanting to get to the real reason why he really wanted to see her

“Well we haven’t seen each other in a while and I miss you. But look we’re friends that’s all. But you know I will always love you no matter what and I want us to be good friends.” he spoke slowly making sure he said all the words that he wanted to

“You know how I feel about you” Selena said looking down “We will never be just friends Justin."

This caught his attention and he felt maybe it was a terrible idea to do this. His whole heart shattered to the floor and he looked directly into her eyes

"What we had was real and we can’t just be friends like nothing happened. I can tell it’s too hard for you.” she tried to explain she reached to touch his hand

“I don’t care what we are as long as you are a part of my life. I need you in my life I don’t think you understand, Selena” he sighing a frustrated sigh and he looked down at the floor pulling his hand away from hers

“We’ve been through so much. I can’t have a relationship right now. I just need a friend” said hoping to get him to look back up to her

“I want to be your friend and only you’re friend” Justin reassured her and looked up at her hoping that she wanted the same

"Me too" she said quietly and looked around. "But that's just right now who knows what can happen in a few years or months. So you know if we become more the friends then I won't fight it. But let's just take life as it comes"

Justin face beamed with light. The thought of being with her again made his entire being feel warm and filled of hope. Maybe they did have a shot at being more then friends.

"Sounds like a plan. I like that idea." He smiled and reached for her hand giving it a light squeeze "can I sing you a song"

"Umm sure" she agreed and he took her hand and led her to the stage where he was given a mic

He gave the pianist a nod and the pianist began to play a familiar melody. She recognized it as his song, “Sorry”.

“You gotta go and get Angry at all of my honesty You know I try but I don't do too well with apologies I hope I don't run out of time, could someone call the referee? Cause I just need one more shot at forgiveness

I know you know that I Made those mistakes maybe once or twice And by once or twice I Mean Maybe a couple a hundred times So let me oh let me Redeem oh redeem oh myself tonight Cause I just need one more shot at second chances

Yeah Is it too late now to say sorry? Cause I'm missing more than just your body Is it too late now to say sorry? Yeah I know that I let you down Is it too late to say I'm sorry now? I'm sorry yeah Sorry yeah Sorry Yeah I know that I let you down Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?”

He spun lifted her hand up and spun her around. She beamed at him which instantly made him smile. She knew this song was written for her especially after all the times he tried to apologize to her by just simply saying sorry and nothing else to back it up

“I'll take every single piece of the blame If you want me too But you know that there is no innocent one in this game for two I'll go I'll go and then You go you go out and spill the truth Can we both say the words, say forget this?”

She missed the nights where they felt like teenagers. Nothing else in the world tore them down but then when they went out in public and then everything changed. That’s why she was so hesitant to meet him here. She knew the media would do whatever they could once they knew they were out. He finished the song and Selena applauded loudly. He thanked the little crowd and proceeded to sing another song that he felt when he thought of her

“I've got sunshine on a cloudy day. When it's cold outside I've got the month of May.

I guess you'd say What can make me feel this way? My girl (my girl, my girl) Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl).”

He looked at her and she blushed. She instantly looked away but looked back at him when he looked elsewhere. He worried that maybe it was a bad idea to pour his emotions out like this but he didn’t know if he’d ever see her again. He hoped they would be friends like they said they would be. So many people leave in his life and he never knew who he could actually trust to keep their promises but she had rarely let him down. He trusted her with everything he had

“I don't need no money, fortune or fame. I've got all the riches, baby, one man can claim.

Well, I guess you'd say What can make me feel this way? My girl (my girl, my girl) Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl).”

He finished the song soon afterwards and she pulled him into her arms. He was reluctant to hug her back as tight as he really wanted to. That was when she tucked her head in his chest and hugged him closer. He let himself hug her back with as much passion as her.

“That was beautiful” she whispered and then pulled away from him “Thank you for that"

“Your welcome, Sel” he said the name flowing through this lips

All the sudden the song “Dancing Away with My Heart” by Lady Antelbellum came on. It was a song that the danced to in the golden days. They always joked this song would play if they broke up.

“I love this song. Dance with me?” he asked holding his hand out to her and she giggled and nodded her head

She rested her head on his shoulder and their hands held each other. They swayed gently to the song that described their relationship right now perfectly. She hoped that this song would never end.

She remembered when they were unstoppable. Nothing in the world could bring them down. It seemed as though all they had was each other. She missed him. She realized how much she did miss him. She thought about him often she still had some of his clothing that she decided to keep. She still had the j ring he gave her in safe keeping at her house. She periodically checked online to see how he was and debated about testing him if a new scandal appeared.

“I finally asked you to dance On the last slow song Beneath that moon that was really a disco ball I can still feel my head on your shoulder And hoping that song would never be over I haven't seen you in ages Sometimes I find myself Wondering where you are For me you'll always be 18 And beautiful and dancin' away with my heart”

He always thought about her. In the smell of his bed sheets to seeing her in his mind laughing in the kitchen. He thought he could forget her he thought that other women could make him forget but it only made him miss her more. His brother and sister often asked when she was coming to play and his answer was always one day. He knew that he would never stop loving her no matter what.

He brushed back some hair that had fallen into her eyes and he knew what she was thinking in that moment, it was exactly what he was thinking.

"And the way you moved me was like you were reading my mind I can still feel you lean into kiss meI can't help but wonder if you ever miss me” he sang with the song making her look up at him

She leaned in and kissed him gently. She couldn’t help it. She let go of all her emotions of anger and pain that he had built up inside of her. She let go of all her fears of being broken again. She let herself love him.

Once he finally registered what was happening he pressed his lips into hers and held her cheek in his. Their lips moved in time and they still fit together perfectly as no time had passed. Finally he pulled away

“Wow” he said with a smile

“Wow” she answered

You can predict the rest of the story on your own. I’m sorry I haven’t been on. This year has been a lot harder academically this year so I’ve been focusing on my studies but I’m back.

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