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Acknowledgement

All I’ve wanted from you was this.

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@wnq-unknown​

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Touka and Kaneki doing their best, both determined to see each other once more

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"We were written in the stars"

I honestly think about this everyday before I go to bed. The story of how me and my current partner came to be. I was planning on dating this girl named Micaela. I really liked this girl and I wanted to spend a lot of time with her. One day Micaela asks me if I wanted to go see I movie. I happily agreed and patiently waited for the time for the movie. I didn't really care about the movie I just wanted to see Micaela. Well about an hour before the movie Micaela asked me if it was okay if she brought her best friend, at first I was kinda upset because I wanted things to get frisky because I was a teenager, but I was okay with her coming because why not. So we get there and I'm there before them so I get food. This would be the first and last time I see Micaela in person but at that time I didn't know that. I was kinda shy of course because I don't think to highly of myself. I then see Micaela and her best friend. I go up to hug Micaela and I stop and look at her best friend. Something inside me felt drawn to her but ignored it and shook her hand and gave her a smile. ( she didn't like me because highschool drama) she smiled back and I was like "yeah I knew you wouldn't say anything to me in person " and it's kinda a joke now. Well we watch the movie and it was kinda late so we all had to leave. We stayed after that movie and we all three talked and we had a really good time. Again I felt extremely drawn to her bestfriend but I shrugged it off. We say our goodbyes and left. Well Micaela and I kinda fell on and off I'm an extremely hard person to deal with so it was Expected. A few months go by and I start talking to this girl named Amy. Amy and I never really wanted anything but we flirted a lot and I guess we both kinda wanted something, but guess what Amy and Micaela had in common? Their best friend. Her name is Natalie and she is perfect but I still wouldn't let myself feel for it. One day Amy makes a group chat with Natalie and Natalie and I hit it off instantly. The spark that started a tiny fire was now erupting. I still tried to drown it. Natalie and I took the convo from the chat of us three to just us two and our relationship took off and we were bestfriends instantly. She is so perfect and I can't express it enough. Well I ended up sending her inappropriate pictures because she was my best friend so I wanted to know what she thought about it and she said it looked good even though she wasn't as experienced in that field. Well the next day her best friend (Micaela) found out that we were friends. Micaela didn't like it and made Natalie cut me off. This hurt but there was nothing I could do about it. I cared about her happiness more than mine and if that meant I couldn't be with it so be it. The fire that started was still burning.I went back to Amy and i confined myself in her to get over it. Well we didn't talk for about 2 months but in the middle of that two months they sent me pictures asking if it was me in a joking manner (because I have long hair it was someone who had the same hair) this was to be expected because they're both just messing around. It was whatever it still kinda hurt. So that a month went by and that's when Natalie ended the silence. She texted me saying she missed me and that kinda hurt me because she ended the friend ship right? I acted like an ass for the first like hour and I quickly let myself fall back under her spell. This time she said "we can be friends but no one can find out and we can't hang out in person. " she then updated me on her life and she was like wrapped around this guys finger named blade. This pissed me off but I couldn't do anything about it because we were just friends right? Well me and her broke one of the rules she sent within the first week that we talked. I saw her in person and the fire that started a long time about was bursting in flames and a whole forest is on fire. I fell for her and this time I was tired of fighting it. We really enjoyed eachothers company. I went home and we begain talking about relationships and she told me more about this blade guy. Well she had done oral sex and I was kinda upset even more because this guy had a boyfriend and wouldn't pay attention to her. She was his boy toy and she let herself fall for it. So she goes "oh I wish I had a friends with benefits and I hope it wouldn't get weird" I knew this was directed towards me. Blade wouldn't be there to please her sexual needs because he'd just stop talking to her randomly because blade had a gf. She told me not to get feels for her though. I knew I shouldn't have agreed to it but I did anyway. We were agreeing to have sex but she said she was saving herself for blade and I had to wait till after they have had sex. So I was like whatever happens happens. So we hung out that day in person and we were great. I asked her in person if it was weird if we kissed and she goes "wow I was thinking the same thing I wondered if it'd be weird" and I switched topics because i wanted it so bad. About ten minutes go by and I couldn't stand the lust any longer. I pulled her close and she goes "wait what are you-" I had kissed her and she loved it. I loved it too because it was so meaningful. It was great and we kept making out the rest of that night. Well time goes by I went down on her and we vent further into this relationship. Eventually she got tired of waiting for blade. So she asked me if she could give her v card to me or if she should wait. I wanted it so bad. I wanted her to cut him off and to choose me, but I didn't tell her that. I told her to follow her heart. She choose me. I was so surprised but I was also mad at myself. I feel like I made her choose me in a way. Well the next day we had great sex. I took her v card and I fell in love with her. We then had sex in the movie theater the next day. And it was good. I was also introduced to her closest friend Katherine. So we planned to spend a night Friday. Me and her were gonna fuck all night. Friday rolls around I forget blade existed. Well blade had texted her if she wanted to fuck that Friday and I didn't know what to do. "Follow your heart. You can go with him i know how bad you wanted it." I said. I didn't mean it of course but she was like "is it bad I'm considering it?" I blew up. I told her that she's going for a boy who doesn't give a shit about her mean while I had to hide all these feelings and I've been treating her like a queen the whole time but she still thought about him? I was furious. I told her "bye" and then an hour later she asked if I was okay and I didn't want to talk to her. She told me that she was gonna spend this Friday with me. Well me being the petty person I am I go "oh your other boy isn't giving you attention so you come to me?" This hurt her feelings and she said "no I pushed it aside for you " I agreed to having sex but I still treated her like trash. I was so mad. After that night I had to leave in the morning and that was that. The next day I go over and i had to leave at 9. We walk twords the end of her street and we are about to say our good byes. She goes "why do I miss you already" I go "I've always missed you" I told her I was getting feelings and it was dangerous. And she goes "yeah me too" I found this funny because I was convinced she didn't give a shit about me and I told her that. She started crying. I told her she meant the world to me and she said "wow that means a lot" again me being petty I go "I wish it meant more but whatever" I gave her a hug and a kiss and it was the hardest bye ever. About a week later she tells me that blade isn't anything anymore and I got extremely happy. So on 3/8/17 I asked her out. She said yes. This was the best moment of my life. I've been in love with her since then. We are perfect right now and I'm happy and she's happy. (: she's everything I've ever wanted. I had to write about this because I feel like I need to tell everyone you know? I don't think anyone will read this but here's my love story.

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Talking about some stuff Ive never talked about..

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“My girlfriend was coming to live with me […] I wasn’t making any money yet [from youtube], but I knew it was coming…” [x]

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