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So guess who just became a CPA haha. It was a very long journey; from starting this back in 2013, to I guess finally ending it in 2019. More or less 2467 days since separation anxiety set in during my last year in High School, to finally that separation anxiety I'm having from my friends from College. It was fun while it lasted and honestly I sometimes wish that all of us would still be together like Rev pero hindi na e. I still have some friends that are for keeps pero iba talaga if kumpleto e. Really, it's just high school all over again. Just when you're beginning to fit in, saka talaga mag kakahiwa hiwalay. I guess that's just life? You're never in your comfort zone e. It actually day 2470, binacktrack ko lang sya sa day na I've started working. Would have loved working with J (from my previous post) but the stars just didn't align. Tbh, never nga pumasok sa isip ko si A since I was really never into her that much pero now naiisip ko na shet sayang dapat pala sinagot yung prof ko agad and asked kung pwede sa kanila nalang ako. Sabay kami ni A sa commute so we get to talk usually. Maybe it's just wishful thinking pero sana for the first few months man lang, kami magkasama araw araw pauwi't papasok. Ang sad lang talaga na napakabilis kong ma attach sa tao. Anyway, I guess that's it for this. I don't have anymore kwento cos that board exam did a lot of emotional and mental damage for me to recall anything. All I know was that studying for that exam was the most fun and fulfilling times of my life. On to the next

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Well it's been a while. If anybody cares, I'm officially going to graduate this coming February pero I'm done na with all my subjects. It's been one hell of a ride. Dapat nung October pa ako grumaduate but unfair shit happens, buti nalang most of my friends are supportive sobra. I see them everyday still in review school and last week nung may inuman, cinonggratulate na nila ko for graduating hahah. Sobrang nadissapoint talaga ako last semester kasi I did what I can do to save my grades but I got so tired to even function properly that final week. It would've been nice na kasabay ko sila pero wala talaga magagawa e haha. I've missed out a lot of details in this blog for the past year so tara, simulan natin. Gamitin ko nalang yung Term to summarize all the shit that has happened to me Term 2 Well gulat ako since kasabay ko ulit yung girl na kinukwento ko from the past blog post. Hindi ko lang siya classmate sa tax which is ok since may panibago akong kwento about don. To sum it up, the only reason I go to class is because of this girl and I didn't want to miss out on anything since baka hindi ko rin sya kasabay sa pag graduate on october(i thought). Everytime na wala siya naiinis ako since parang sayang pasok ko. We became friends eventually because of thesis. Until now, naalala ko yung convo namin about sa thesis kasi hindi ko malimutan yung tingin nya pati smile nya hahah. So those mini encounter kept me going through that dreadful thesis term kasi putangina, i did most of the work, revising and data gathering everyday and trying to come up with things that I should say during the defense, which btw no one helped me when I was choking hard. Sobrang napikon ako sa thesismates ko that time. Anyway, move on tayo sa tax. Seatmate ko yung happy crush ko from Adv1 2nd take. That was January of 2017 and classmate ko na sya ever since. For some reason kasi during that first saturday, I saw both of them sa pericos but I didn't approach any of them since hindi pa kami close ni L at J that time. J saw me and asked me if classmates kami sa tax so punta na kaming dalawa sa room, hindi rin kasi ako sure kung saan yung room kaya nag pericos na muna ako noon. Tagal namin nag kkwentuhan kasi leche 2hrs early kami for tax and since nung day na yon seatmates na kami. Classmates din kami sa lahat class ko that term which was fun sobra until I learned that may guy sya. That's fine, nag sulk lang naman ako ng isang araw then nawala rin. We passed all our subjects that term and finally we were going to the review module Term 3 Nalaman ko na classmate ko pala si L dito which relieved me since makakasabay ko pala sya sa pag graduate (lol). I tried to pull of a scheme where tatabihan ko sya for rev kasi nga we were friends na that time e, kaso on the first day tangina akala ko maaga pa yung 1230 ko na pasok. Pag pasok kong room, everyone was already there except me, my thesismates, and L. With that napunta nalang ako sa dulo which coincidentally is right beside J. From there naging close kami ni J hahah. From various rants about the system, family stuff, and all other kwentos na owede pagusapan, napag-usapan naminh dalawa. We strayed from her guy as our topic since medj di pa siya comfortable ata aminin until almost end na ng term haha. Going back to L, naging friends din kami but nothing really happened e. With that, mas naging ka close ko si J. By the end of the term, parang kami kami nalang mag ttropa unlike before na kalat pa. I gained a lot of friends that term pero sadly may unfortunate event talaga na nangyari e. Bumagsak ako sa 2 module which means di ako kasabay sa picc. Hindi ko pa makukuha diploma ko. I was devastated, lagi ko pa naman ipinapagmalaki na tapos na ko, na review nalang gagawin ko magiging CPA na ko. Sobrang sakit pero during GCD kasi, nandon si J. She wasn't really there for me since may pupuntahan lang ata siya tas dumaan lang pero her presence kinda lifted some of the bad weight from my shoulders temporarily. Binalitaan ko din kasi siya about what happened to my grades. I just told her na ilalaban ko pa kahit hindi ko kaya that time. Anyway, she lifted my spirit for a while pero habang naglalakad ako pauwi naramdaman ko lahat, naluluha na nga ako sa bus e, hindi ko alam gagawin ko kasi tangina tapos na talaga dapat ako pero bakit to nag kakaganito. It took me 2 months to get over that fact Term 1 I went to class regularly just for the sake of finishing this shit. Sobrang ayaw ko makasama tong batch na to since unang una, 3 lang kaibigan ko dito and pangalawa wala akong kausap to at least lighten up my mood. Ang masakit pa jan, everytime papasok ako doon sa lecture room, I tend to look at my old seat where me and my friends used to hangout during our 1-2hr breaks. Every Thursday talaga pare its like ripping my hearts into shreds. Then october finally came and tinawagan ako ng friend ko. Hinahanap nila ko, picture daw kami. Sobrang conflicted ko that time cos all I was feeling was shame. Tangina talaga pero I went and man, nawala lahat ng yon hahah. Namiss ko sila pre, I haven't seen them in 2months and damn it was a nice feeling. Hindi ko nakita si L pati J but I tried looking for J nalang. I haven't talked to her since august e. My friends invited me to their grad party which is mali na binayaran ko pero wala na, nag enjoy naman ako. Tangina finally, after 2 months nagkita na rin kami ni J doon sa party and we were both excited to see each other. Down side nga lang kasama nya yung guy. I had too many shots pero for some reason hindi ako nalasing. Maybe its because I couldn't get over the fact that the two of them are happy or maybe kasi nagkita nga kami pero hindi rin kami nakapag usap ng ayos idk. All I know is that i kinda cringed when nung paalis na kami, bumalik pa ako sa loob para lang sabihin if gusto nila sumama samin. I guess not since humiwalay yung group nila and we went na our separate ways. Fast forward to review school, ayaw ko umupo sa seat ko since malapit and tangina medj nakaka claustrophobic. I sat sa upuan ng classmate namin initially since akala ko walang nakaupo then I sat at J's since akala ko wala din. She arrived and puta sabi nya sakin tabi muna kami until dumating raw yung bff nya which is in 2019 pa. So biruin mo yon, 1 year kami seatmates and shet sobrang saya since may kadaldalan na ulit ako. What changed was mas naging open kami and we can talk about super random stuff na. She was more comfortable na talking about her guy and we were talking na rin about our life goals. From that day on, pinrioritize ko ang review school kesa sa sarili kong class sa la salle. There are times na aabsent ako and there were times na aabsent sya. Pero pag matagal kami di nagkita like 2 or 3days alternate kami, she would go "na-miss mo ko noh?". Ang mali ko lang that time was hindi ko sinasagot ng diretso hahaha. It worked out for the best na rin. Last week, last day ko na doon sa seat na yon and unang una nya sinabi sakin pag dating is mamimiss nya raw ako katabi since last day na namin seatmates. I told her malapit parin naman seat ko sakanya so oks lang diba makakakwentuhan ko parin naman sya. Pero iba parin daw e haha. To sum it up, this term was focused on graduating, proving my professors wrong, and building my relationship with my friends... And siguro falling hard for J na rin hahah 2018 started and ended good for me. It was full of ups and downs pero here I am still alive. Wala na ko ibang ng masabi so bigla nalang mawawala.

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Its been so long pare hahaha. Already in the last month os this semester at sobrang daming nangyari. Hindi ko alam kung makekwento ko lahat grabe. Realizing that this is the last term that the three of us will ever be classmates was the saddest thought that popped out of my head. Its been almost 4 years since I met these people and they've already formed part who I am now. Grabe ok. Ang sakit marealize talaga na ilang months nalang kami magkikitakita damn. Anyway, theres this new girl I'm falling for real hard right now. We're friends and I don't want to ruin anything just yet. Its the last month of the semester and ayoko maulit yung nangyari samin ni you-know-who. I'm not ready to make my move just yet and I don't have anything up my sleeves just yet. Hindi na to timing like before. Its about making the most out of what wr have. Malabo pero hindi ko rin macomprehend feelings ko e. I like her, a lot actually, pero hindi ko alam kung mag go na ba ako e. Enough with that. Acads is okay, medj hirap ako sa tax. Sa totoo lang sobrang hirap pala because of our profs haha. Goods ako Adv1 &2 kasi line of 8 naman average ko. Met a lot of people, became friends with most of them. I guess I'm an extrovert after all. Dami kong nakikilalang tao e haha. Finally got out of my confort zone after 2-3 years hahah. Pati narealize ko lang rin, kaya lang ako nagiging ganon, introvert, is because of my friend na sobrang ayaw kumausap ng tao. I know he has trust issues but its time to move away from that kasi hinding hindi niya masusurvive ang college without us. So ewan ko kung ano sense neto pero kailangan ko iupdate kasi almost 100days ko rin hindi ginalaw hahah

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Done with mods this term. Putangina 4/6. I guess its ok given na pasado naman ako for ADV3, yoko na ulitin yung putanginang yon. Hay. Atleast nakahinga na ako ng maluwag, time to redeem myself in adv1 and adv2. Parehas akong 80 pero gg parin. Hay. Anyway, getting over I m o @n A was the best thing that happened this term pero same shit lang kasi may something ata ako for Alia. Tangina. Same situation with her, may bf and taga san pedro. Well that’s a bummer. I’m trying my best not to have feelings for her pero ewan ko. Sana mawala nalang. Ayoko rin pumasok nanaman sa gantong kagaguhan haha. GCD is on Tuesday and I’m still hoping I magically pass all of the subjects, sana joke time lang yung 80.15 and 80.61 ko. Burat talaga haha. For now, magpakasaya nalang muna ako

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So it’s been a couple of weeks since I last updated this. Ang daming shit na nangyari through those past weeks. I’ve honestly been through one hell of a subject with adv3. First time kong pumasok ng walang tulog and try my best to actually answer a fucking exam. Sa adv3 ko rin naranasan mag-aral pero walang naiintindihan. Putangina. Nakakbagot, nakakapagod; physically and mentally. Pwede na rin emotionally kasi hanggang ngayon, kinakabahan parin ako sa magiging resulta ng subject na yon. Man, that was a super stressful 2 weeks I won’t get back. Pati saan ka nakakita ng class na 9am-9pm? Punyeta po. Hay. At least I’m/We’re on the last week of mods. Super nakakpagod. Madami akong natutunan, naging kaibigan. Masaya na nakakapagod. Mukhang papasa naman ako sa last three subjects ko e. Shur na mit1, on the edge pa mit2, at himala nalang si audp. Basta, sana umabot ako. Kung babagsak man, sana 5/6 lang. ayoko na umulit ulit. putangina. Oh, the best part of being stressed is I forgot about her. All the pain I felt that first 4 weeks of not seeing her, all gone. Oks na ko. It came to my senses that there’s no point of waiting for someone that wouldn’t give a crap of how you’re doing. At yon ang pinaka best lesson na natutunan ko sa mods this term HAHAHA joke. One week nalang, tapos na rin tong kaputanginahan na to

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Just when you thought everything's going the way they're supposed to be, something blows up on your face. After a month of being friends, I m o @ n a and I went our separate ways. Apparently she already has a guy and she seems happy with him. Hindi ko na siya guguluhin. Mukhang ok lang diba? Wrong. She unfriended me on fb like wtf? Wala man akong closure, oks lang. Pag masaya na siya, hayaan ko nalang. She graduated nga pala last saturday, grabe haha. Time flies by so fast. The upside here, I think, is that She spent her last day as a student in dlsu with me dahil tanga pa ako for her hahah. I'll always bring that with me. Anyway, I'm done na with mod 1 hihi. After 8 months, natapos ko na din yung kaputanginahan na yon. Now here's the kicker. I just went through the first stage of hell, pero pinili kong mag level up and pursued mod 2. Ang saya lang nung malaman kong pumasa na ko mod 1, di ko naisip na mods nga pala ulit ako next term. Hayop. I shit you not, the stress I had in the first one is not comparable with the shit I' experiencing right now. Tons pf homework for adv 1. Manageable siya but damn. Feeling ko ang bobo bobo ko. Adv 2 was also hell. Super careless sa mga quiz. If I fail, carelessness would be the reason to it. And now adv 3. Sobrang tanga ko talaga dito, like do I even know how to do anything right? Its like everything I knew in accounting was nonsense. Sobrang nakakabobo pls. I hope I pass everything. Quiz 2 tomorrow, quiz 3 on Monday and compre on Wednesday. God I hope I survive

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It's been more than a hundred days since I last updated this and a lot has happened within those hundred days. Grabe, naging classmates kami ni I m o a n a and best part of it is we slightly became friends. Di ko pa sure kasi one time palang kami nagkausap. Finally realized what I actually feel for Mariel and tapos na ako sakanya. Met new people, became friends with some of them. Finally this years going on the track. Everything finally in place. Sana magtuloy tuloy hahah. Grabe, dami pala nangyari sa 100 days na yon. Hay. Next update would probably be on December na. Hahah

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Updating just for the sake of it. Sobrang daming pages/days ko iniskip because of mods. Hay. Well here I am, going to repeat 5 of them like last term didn't happen. Sana shurity na next term. Hay. Gagraduate din ako tangina. Anyway, Nagiging distant na ko sa feelings ko kay Mariel, Nakalimutan ko na si Bus Crush, at unti unti akonh nahuhulog kay I m o a n a. Sobrang wtf. Hays. Hirap naman po hahaha. Yun lang siguro. Hirap i-sum up ng isang buong buwan e. Heheh

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It's probably been a month since I last updated this blog. Wow, sobra talaga akong naconsume ng majors. Well, here we are today. Can't believe I'll be doing this but this would probably be my last post here. I don't see this blog as something I can do for the next 2-3 years. Hindi na siya fulfilling. I won't be deleting this because of all the memories stored here. Hay. Anyway, that's it. Almost 3 1/2 years since I started this. Goodbye for now

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Start na kami 2nd Half. I' literally dying. Ang dami ko pang gagawin pero eto ako, walang hinagawa. Anyway, I'm really confused on what my situation really is with Mariel. Wala namang kami, wala naman din kaming "friendship" na maituturing pero ba't ganon. Iba yung naramdaman ko sa kanya last friday. Malamang sa malamanh, assumption ko lang yon, pero may kakaiba e. Tuwing nagkikita kami natingin siya sa mata ko ( or ako lang 'tong tumitingin sa mata niya) hay. There's a small part of me that still says I have a chance with her. Di ko lang alam kung papaano ko gagawin. Sobrang di ko pa alam. I would probably see her tomorrow pero anong point non. Wala rin naman akong gagawin. Hay ewan ko ba. Inaanticipate ko nalang yung makatabi ko ulit yung girl na sobrang familiar ng mukha pero di ko mapinpoint kung sino siya at kung taga csa rin ba siya. Sobra talagang familiar ng face niya pero I have literally no Idea whatsoever kung san ko siya nakilala/nakita. I also think na I'm having feelings for her? Di naman siguro pero crush ko na to simula nung nakita kong bumaba a rin siya sa mcdo e. Lol. Yun lang pala basis e noh. Anyway, she's pretty but medyo intimidated ako sakanya lalo na nung makasabay ko siya sa elevator. Hahaha. Gusto ko mag hi pero why would I even. Di ko pa nga alam name niya e hahahahahaha. Napansin ko rin na parang napaka germaphobe niya, like alcohol siya ng alcohol every time she holds money, which I think is Cute. I really need to ask this girl's name before I have no time left hahah. Hay. Meron pa palang isang girl. Si i mo ana ( ayoko pagdikitin baka makita). I know nothing about her except she's taga san pedro tas nakasabay ko na siya sa bus for like 5 times. Shes pretty pero mukhang mataray just like sandra. Seriously, do all bedals look like that. Sobrang restong bitch face niya pero sobrang ganda niya rin. May upside hahaha. Hindi ko pa siya nakita magsmile pero wow she's pretty. Hay. 4 weeks left in the term and hoping na makasabay ko ulit silang lahat sa bus sometime soon. The wonderful perks of commuting

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So first half of mods are done. Wala akong ipinasa puking ina. Yun ang feeling ko ah. Di lang ako sure. Pero most likely wala talaga. Babawi ako sa second half tangina sobrang hirap na hirap na ako e. Hay. Ang dami kong gusto ilagay pero sa sobrang stressed ko sa mods, di ko na maalala kung ano yung mga yon. Hay. Wala e, wala naman na ako magagawa. Ayoko naman lumabas na, ipush ko parin to ahahah

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It’s been a month since I last updated this. Hahaha. Grabe ano, Sobra akong naconsume ng mods. Tangina. Sobrang pagod na ko pero alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ko to susukuan. Uulitin ko Fin2 sure ako. Fin1 at Cos1 nilalaban ko pa. Alam ko sa sarili ko na kaya ko to kahit anong hirap man neto. Minsan ang nagbibigay nalang sakin ng lakas ng loob is yung mga Motivational speech ni sir mec. Yun at yun lang minsan. Hay. Di ko na nga alam kung ano tong nilalagayy ko pero wow. Anyway, Tomorrow’s Mariel’s Birthday. Panindigan ko nalnag yugn pagiging snob ko sa fb. Di ko nalang siya batiin. Siguro Thursday nalnag if ever makasabay ko siya Pauwi.Sana. Hay hahahaha

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Entering modular term. Wala na ako gaanong free time para gawin to. ANyway, Mods Mods mods. Yan lang yung sammarization ng days na to. Super pagod lang ako sa pag-aral. Fin2 medyo okay na though sobrang hirap parin intindihin ng proof of cash pati kailangan bilisan ko pag analyze. Hay. Sana tama lahat ng pinagsasagot ko dun sa HW. Fin1 pati cos1 hw pa putanigna. Ang dami dami

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Mahirap isummarize kasi nalingat ako sa pag gawa nito 22-23 Overnight kina Ian. Probably the best night of my night life. Buti nalang pala pumayag ako na kasama si Jethro. Daming nag iba sa gago na yon. Mas naging okay kami, ng onti siguro. Anyway, back to that night. Sobrang dami kong gusto ko ikwento kaso di ko pa kayang sabihin sa kanila e. Kaya ko pala kaso andun si rico e hahah. Got drunk. Haven't felt that in a while. Casual drinking lang kami lagi ngayon medyo hard haha. Red label was fucking ruthless though. Yun pinakamahina. Pano pa kaya black blue gold pati doible black. Hay. Pero solid. Na truth bomb ko din si Ian about Kat e. Well at least he now knows what to do, kasi tangina sobrang kawawa siya e. Hay. So yun lang 22-23. Super solid night with the bros 24-28 Not much. Di ko na talaga feel christmas. Sa totoo lang mas masaya ako kung mas onti yung pera na matatanggap ko. Pros kasi is madami ako pera ta ako bahala sa gusto ko. Ang cons naman is di mo ramdam yung thought e. Gusto ko maramdaman yung feeling na naalala ko ganon. Kaya natuwa ako dun sa unan kahit unan lang siya na maliit ang shit probably cost like 150. Hay. So yun lang. Plus family reunion. Masaya yung ngayon. Di pa kami nakapag bond ng mga pinsan ko ng ganto. Ang saya. Hay. Ang bilis ng oras. Parang kelan lang ang liliit pa namin e hahaha hay 29 These fuckers went to our home and picked me up para lang uminom ng biglaan putangina. Di ko pa nga naalis yung alcohol ng red label sa katawan ko e. Pero oks lang. Ang saya magkwentuhan ng ganon e haha. Hay. Kamisd maging high school hahah 30-31 Nothing much though. Nag prepare lang naman for media noche. That's something new. Yun lang halos 1 Ah January 1. Can't believe that it's been 3 years. Grabe ano. Pakiramdam ko nga may mali ulit sa count ko e pero ok na yon. Hay. Started this year reminiscing my high school days. Di ko na siya ma-recall lahat. Dati kayang kaya ko pa e. Hay. Grabe ano. Parang kelan lang nagdadrama ako about graduation and entering college. Hay. Kay sarap balikan. Naalala ko din yung mga panaginip ko every new year's eve. Gusto ko magscroll down para basahin yun isa isa pero tinatamad ako. Maybe later pero yeah. Naalala ko lang is yung Dream na parang nililigawan ko si Mariel, nanghingi ako ng actbas2 notes sakanya tapos yon. Tapos may isa pa hindi ko na maalala hahah. Hay. Ang galing din ano, 2 years na akong may gusto sakanya and We still haven't had any legit communication. Hay. Grabe ano po. Anyway, 2015 was the best year of my life so far. Had some downs but the upside of it was better. 2015 started with me almost failing a subject but for some reason I passed everything. Then summer term where I felt left out every TH but felt great every MW. Okay na din kasi tangina 1 subject per day lang ako e, pakabobo. Dapat din pala nag speecom na rin ako kasi classmate ata ni Dave si Mariel. Win-win na sana summer term ko e. Anyway, first time to get a gpa higher than 3.00 kasi 2 subjects lang. Then came 1st term. Hindi ko alam kung ano pumasok sa isip ko at kinuha ko ang Manscie right after Negotin. I was stressed out with Manscie that I forgot that deliks din ako sa Negotin. Lbyacc2 was great, Conadev was even better. Tred ang humalit was ok. Nagkaron din naman ako ng friends sa tred at humalit. Tig dalawa haha. Hay. Lbyacc oks lang kasi madami din ako nakilala tapos negotin. Negotin and manscie stressed me too much that I was forced to study for quali during apec week, kung saan walang kailangan ipass or isubmit. Puro quali lang talaga. Grabe pag aral ko sa quali na yon. Mastered Partnership Accounting and Bank Reconciliation. Medyo oks lang sa corporation accounting given that the last time I've had accounting subjects was 2014. Muntikan ko na nga makalimutan mag aral para sa Finals manscie pati negotin e. Ayun. Buti naman at pumasa ako sa lahat. I expected that I was going to be part of the Dean's list pero Manscie e. I'm really thankful though that kahit di ako umabot, eto pinakamataas kong Gpa sa buong stay ko sa univ. 2.83 ata. Hay. Kung 2 lang manscie ko tas 3 tred, abot sana. Ok na rin siguro kasi pumasa naman ako quali. Sobrang saya ng 2015. New people, new friends, new relationships. Hay. Hoping that 2016 would even be better hahah. Happy new year!

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Summarize ko nalang kasi putangina wala naman akong ginagawa for the past 11 days. So far, 10 days, absolutely nothing. Talagang wala. Tangina ano nga ba nangyari at wala akong ginagawa? Ay 50th wedding anniversary pala nung lolo pati lola ko. Sobrang saya nung makita ko na yung venue hahaha. Mas natuwa pa ako asakanila, in a way. Hay. Sana umabot din kami sa ganon ng mapapangasawa ko. Anyway, so for that 10 days, puro si Mariel lang nasa isip ko puta. Sobrang ewan ko na. BAhala na. So yeah, this day, the 11th one. Putangina ba’t ko pa naging tatay to. Sana pala di ka nalang tinanggap ng lolo pati lola ko nung 2013. Sana wala akong iniisip na problema ngayon. Sana wala nang dagdag palamunin nanay ko. Tangina bat ba ko minalas at naging tatay ko pa tong putanginang to. Mas malaki pa gastos ng nanay ko sayong hayop ka. Ayaw pa maghanap ng trabaho. Putangina mo. Lagay kita sa home for the aged. Tangina. Antayin pa ko magkatrabaho. Putangina din ano. Naalala ko pa yung sinabi mo tungkol dun sa pinsan ko. Yung nagtatrabaho na nag siya pero wala naman napapala yung magulang niya sakanya. Putangina ka pala. Ang anak hindi para isalba yung napakabobo mong buhay. Kung kaya pa naman kasi ng magulang edi bat hindi? Tanginang to. Palibhasa palamunin ka na ng buong pamilya mo e. Pagtanda ko nga papalitan ko tong last name ko putangina. HIndi deserve neto magkaron ng lawyer kingina. Kinakakahiya kitang putangina ka. Tangina talaga. PAngako ko talaga na hinding hindi ako susunod sa yapak mo. Masaydong mataas pride mong puta ka. Kala mo sobrang galing mo. Tangina. tanginang buhay to

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The most stressful week of my life. Holy fuck. Saturday-Accounting Day. Di ko na alam. Sobrang naiistress ako pag naiisip kong sobrang lapit na ng quali. Hay Sunday- Didn't attend my Niece's christening because of accounting. Hay buhay hahah. Anyway, accounting all day still. Medyo kaya ko na ata. Pero mahirap maging confident knowing na if I fail, there's no turning back Monday- Went to DLSU para mag-aral. Akala ko may pasok pa sina Mariel. Putangina lang, umuwi pa man din ako ng 12 para lang makasabay siya. Hay hassle. Anyway, all nighter today. Gets ko na lahat pero ang hirap hirap talaga umasa Tuesday- woke up computing something I'm not sure of. Sobrang wtf. Nagulat ako may numbers talaga. Hay. Anyway, went to dlsu to study. From 11 to 4 aral. Tangina no breaks hahah. Last push na to. Prayed so hard for this. Sana pumasa ako Wednesday- Judgement Day. Quali Day. No turning back. Tangina nung nag aantay ako sa room sobrang kabado ako hahah. Sobrang di ko alam gagawin ko e, wala na akong inaral. Inalala ko nalang yung corporation kasi yun pinakadeliks ko. Hay. So yun. Exam took 3hrs, 3hrs of my life that I would never get back. Lol. Yun nga, quali na. Habang inaabot ni Aeson yung exam, natatakot na ako. Ang dami kong gagawin. Tangina. Sinilip ko yunf questionnaires, kita ko medyo kaya naman. Hay. So yun. Pagkastart, dumiretso ako sa Theories. Fucker took me 40 mins to finish. Reasonable naman. 1 min per item. Talagang todo analyze ako don hahaha. I did explanations on why its wrong lol. So yun. After that, nag ShE ako. Napa Wtf ako dahil di ko alam paano gagawin. Buti nalang I kept my composure and proceeded to answer it with all confidence. Hindi ko alam kung pano nangyari pero sa cash dividends lang ako natanga sa ShE na yon. Declared 1.5M tapos cumulative participating 10%. Basta hassle yon, di ko naintindihan. Tinuloy ko nalang kahit mali, basta deduction sa total is 1.5M. Yun. Nung binabalance ko na, Putangina ayaw magbalance. Burat na burat ako. Pagtingin ko sa watch ko, 1hr3mins nalang tapos wala pa ko PS. Fuck. Pagdating PS, di ko alam kung paano ko sasagutin question 1. Accrued Interest from 4 notes. Yung isa buti chineck kong maigi yon, mature na yung note kaya wala ng interest na hahah. 2nd was discounting ulit. Ang dami daming discounting. Fuck ang hirap. Natakot na ako. Sa sobrang hirap napaskip ako number. Di ko nasagutan yung 9. Pagkakita ko kasi sa 10, "holy shit corporation accounting, I need a breather". Sobrang dali nung question kaya naskip ko yung 9 hahaha. So ayun. Nasagutan ko naman hanggang 18 pero 2 yung wala kong solution kasi kinulang ako sa oras. Umimbento pa nga ako ng solution for number 18. Para lang may .5 ako hahaha. So ayun. Cinocollect na ni Aeson, di parin ako tapos magtransfer ng answers dun sa answer sheet. Natakot ako sakanya kasi sabi niya na if di niya pa hawak yung papers namin, samin na yon. Tangina gusto ko umiyak nung inaabot ko yung worksheet e. Hay. Sobrang pakiramdam ko na babagsak na ako after that exam. Sobrang lungkot ko talaga. Tangina. Di ko nga alam kung paano ako kakain sa sobrang lungkot. Wala akong gana pero kailangan kong kumain e. Waited for 4hrs for the result. Wala akong pera pati di ko alam gagawin ko kasi sobrang lungkot ko. Pakiramdam ko sinukuan na ako ng langit. Pinuntahan ko yung office, pero wala pa. Nakita ko chinecheck pa nila. Tangina. Nakita ko madami di umabot sa 114. Tangina naiiyak na ako eh hahaha. Ay before pala mung exam, nagchapel ako. 15mins ako doon. Binasa ko yung prayer to saint jude. Basta lahat na ng santo. So back to results. I waited for another hour for the results. Nanloloko pa yung mga prof hahah. Ayaw pa nila ipost hanep hahah. Nagpost sila kagad, mga topnotchers. Nagulat ako. Akala ko kasi yun na yung mga pumasa. Nagtaka ako kung bakit 10 lang sila. So yun nga, topnotcher pala. Another 30mins bago nila nirelease lahat ng passers. Hinanap ko pangalan ko. Napa fuck ako sa harap nung mga profs, wala pangalan ko. Sabi na totoo yung panaginip ko na may pumasang Que e. Nung hahanapin ko na name ni Ryan. Letter V, nagulat ako. Hiwalay pala passers ng 113. Sa pinakababa, pinakahuli ng list, nandoon pangalan ko. Napafuck ulit ako sa harap nina Tugas. Sa sobrang tuwa ko, in-FC ko si Tugas kasi siya lang yung prof na nandon nung nakita ko yung quali ko before. Sinabi ko sakanya na nakapasa na ako hahah. Sobrang naiiyak ako nung time na yon, di ko alam gagawin ko. Hay. Sobrang gusto kong magcelebrate pero wala na mga kaibigan ko, nasa mod2 na sila or di na sila bsa. Thankful parin naman ako kahit delayed na ako. Ok lang, bsa parin naman hahaha. Happiest news I've received for the whole year. Thursday- sobrang relieved na relieved ako for passing that exam. Parang di ko na poproblemahin mods ano. Hay. Basta tapos na term na to, Di man ako DL, mataas naman gpa ko at pasado ako sa lahat. Sobrang gandang year ender nito hahah

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Sunday- Accounting day still. Push hahah

Monday- Not so much to do actually. Tangina hahah. Cinacram ko lang tong paper na to hahaha. Pucha tredtri. Pag fail pa ko dito tangina ni Vanni hahah.

Tuesday- Went to school just to submit my Tredtri paper. Fuck. Sinakto ko pa ng 10:30, di naman pala kami magkakasabay. Umasa pa talaga ako e ano. Hay. Anyway, last push for Negotin. Tiwala ako sa Negotin lol HAHAH. 

Wednesday- Negotin was not that easy was it that hard. Kaya naman actually pero, you know, to be sure, nag-aral talaga ako ng todo. Medyo nag alangan pa nga ako sa iba kong sagot pero solid yon, sure pass na ako. hehehe

Thursday- Gusto ko nalang iyakan yung Manscie Finals na yon. Putangina sobrang wtf. Lahat ng kaya kong problem or kaya kong isolve, hindi lumabas. Gusto ko nalang sumuko kanina. Yung pinakamadaling problem pa nga yung di ko nasagot ng ayos e, kingina. Sana di nalang ako umulit ng manscie. Sana kahit 1.0 lang. Maawa naman po kayo sa amin tangina. Di ko kinaya yung exam na yon. 

Friday- This has got to be the most hassle week I’ve experienced. Sobrang fuck. Kung wala lang sanang quali, tapos na ko for this term eh. Hay. Pati kung kelan dapat nag-aaral na ko quali, dun pa ko kailangan may icontribute sa paper na to. Putangina talaga. Sana pumasa ako quali. Ayoko na. Gusto ko lang makapag mods na para kahit matanggal ako, malaman ng magulan ko na lumaban ako. ( Pero sana wag ako ma shift out)