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blogging?! insert cliché phoenix

So my name is Leah and I am totally new to the blogging atmosphere, just kinda wanted to have my life out there as it's anything but normal. Honestly, I really want to use this as a humorous outlet to remember this insane new world I am in. 

Long story super short and to save the drama for your mama, I was married for 12 years. We left my home state shortly after marriage, so I had no friends and no interests outside of my marriage and work. I am a fairly educated woman and hold a plethora of degrees and certifications. But looking back none of that matters now. Beyond my 3 children, I was a nobody for the vast majority of my adult life. 

It was during the freefall of my marriage falling apart, that I learned I could either fly or die. And honey, I grew wings. I started over. And learned things I never thought was possible. Hence my new "persona."

I met my now boyfriend, Jeff, years and years ago. He's a local tattoo artist, followed him on social media and would even participate in the shenanigans that he would post at times. Despite my being married, I *gasp* had a crush on this larger than life man. Never crossed any boundaries with him just idly sat and would engage in the pithy banter online. 

So to find out, when my marriage was falling apart, that he was shockingly interested in a wallflower like me, absolutely floored me. Besides both being nerds (comics, Star Wars, etc.) we hardly had anything in common. 

I had idealized this man so much I never thought I was even in the same league. But shock upon shock, we'd go on lunch dates and he would be shy towards ME. I MADE HIM NERVOUS! holy smokes! Could this *us* be a thing?! 

We talked daily, about our hopes, dreams, and aspirations. His heart bleeds music. While he is an artist, yes, I think he would rather go blind before ever going deaf.

Fast forward to today- I am a phoenix. Rising again from the ashes, but I am not the same woman who was burned. I am created anew. Not by him, but because of him (if that makes sense). 

I am aware that a man doesn't make me, but he does enlighten me and we mutually grow together. 

When I met him, I was a mousey blonde who only would listen to top 40 hits and never ventured outside my comfort zone because what would the world think? Today, I'm a fiery red-head who travels to experience new music and life adventures because you truly only have one life. I laugh deeper, love stronger, listen closer, and give a general helping of zero fucks. 

This blog's intent is truly unmuzzled and confused zombie walking through this new life. Learning new things, tasting new foods, and raising kids along the way to not be little shits at the finish line. 

Up until I met Jeff I had never been to a concert, so my reviews are hysterical and my videos and pictures are comically lame. I hadn't even heard of most of these bands but I instantly fall in love because, you know, reasons. I plan to use this platform to lamely attempt to explain and describe my new experiences from a non-musicians point of view. 

I had never truly been a girlfriend (as I had married young) and definitely not one of someone who works in such a radically different field that is absolutely night/day from the world in which I was used to. So I plan on passively talking about my experiences of late-night laughs and lots of alone time and other crazy experiences from my point of view. 

Also, I'm not an artist (hell, even stick figures beg to run off my page and onto a loser's game of hangman). So when I look at his work I'm like whoa that's purdy. So buckle up for the gooberish reviews and lame attempts at arting with a true artist. May even throw in a couple of movie reviews as he's forcing me to watch things BEYOND Harry Potter and other nerd porn. 

My parenting style is unique, not because it's different but because I'm not afraid to admit that I am a real human with real faults. There are days when I just look at my kids with disgust thinking holy hell I hope we make it out of here alive. So I look forward to the unmuzzled discussions on motherhood and coparenting :/

So buckle up buttercup or block me, its whatever. I am wordy and shit's about to go down. 

#unmuzzled #awakening #newworld #experiences #lifeismeanttobelived