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I’m angry. I keep thinking about what could have been. But instead I live what is right now. And I can’t make peace with it. I just can’t. So I’m angry. Angry with myself for wondering wtf I did to deserve this.

No one saved me. I didn’t and still don’t have someone in my life telling me to keep going. Someone telling me I’m doing amazing at the gym. Telling me I have a beautiful mind. Telling me it’s all gonna be fine. And I’ll be ok. And whatever happens, they’ll be there for me. I was broken. And I didn’t have anyone to put me back together let alone even fucking help me. Nothing was easy. Nothing is easy. I did this alone. If I’m ok. If I’m better it’s because I constantly put myself back together.

So why am I so consistent and disciplined and why do I show up for myself and for you? Well because I’ve never had that person in my life and I know how hard it is to do everything alone, and I will always make sure you never feel how I felt and still feel.

I saved myself. And none of it fucking matters

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I’m just tired of caring. Why did I have to meet Kinley. I learned nothing from that

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i will always be pro-abortion, pro-trans, pro-women, and anti any man who thinks he has a say in whatever a woman chooses to do with her body. if you don’t like that please fuck off

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I used to say more on here. When I first started talking on here it was because Taylor broke up with me and this was my way of staying connected to her cause she would read it. But it’s been over 2 years. And I’m not that person anymore. So I don’t want the reason I use this to mean I’m the same. So if I talk on here, it’s not for her but for me to say things I can’t say to anyone else.

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“Realize who’s worth it, and who’s not.”

— Unknown

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I have severe body dysmorphia and need to lose fat

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why do protein things always taste like That

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It’s fucking crazy how different my life is.

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crazy how trauma makes u push people away when all u want is love

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“Try to be a rainbow in someone’s cloud.”

— Maya Angelou

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“You deserve to need me, not to have me.”

— Augusten Burroughs, Running with Scissors

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I get a lotta shit for spending outside time with my attendings. With pretty princess. He was there for me. No one’s ever noticed when I was depressed. Ever. But he did. And checked up on me. He made an ig just so I could send him posts. He invited me to workout with him. He’s been my best teacher. If im a good doctor it’s because of him. When no one was there for me, he was. So thank you pretty princess

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I’m happy.

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I saw my favorite artist shallou last night. It was the best night of my life. This life I’ve had. I don’t get it. But whatever. Keep going

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My crush is Kinley. Literally the only human I find interesting