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Working

The outline seems inspired, the first draft seems moronic. The revision feels fantastic but the next go round reveals the amateur mistakes. Polish, polish, polish, make it shine until I feel like maybe I can make it with this strangled art. Dreams of my soul in text, refined until I hate myself a little less. At day’s end, I’m always the only one who cares. So cheers to me, you vile prince. Maybe one day you’ll learn to love yourself.

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Provoking Obsession

Never did I dream love could so silent stab in pain

This shared fierce fondness shackled in repression

Each affection’s stroke upon your face in vain

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In silence whispers the echoes of your name

An emptiness to follow heart’s confession

How could I dream love would silent stab in pain?

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As one we burn so bright the stars pale in shame

Blinded by you my soul begins to question

Is each tender touch between us all in vain?

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In my arms, against my chest so softly lain

You spur my heart to pound, my will to lessen

Knowing it shall end, this love does stab in pain

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Alone and free from public pretense’s game

We fervent feel our desire’s expression

Is it really true my heart does yearn in vain?

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I will stand with open arms and naught to gain

For this true love asks of you no concession

I will let our love to silent stab in pain

Though each stolen kiss upon your lips shall fade in vain

-K. Vendamora

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Excerpt

This is a brief look at a scene involving an important character in the first book of the Heroes of Ragnaheim saga.

The blood-baptized man stood at the foot of a fresh mound, his heart heavy as he struggled to speak his parting words to her. Not because he could not find them, but because he did not want to go.

“In the end,” he muttered softly, his throat constricting against his speech before he gritted his teeth in anger at his meakness and said again, louder, “In the end, I leave you after all. I know not why or how I am spared, and perhaps the Spirits mock me for all my years a fool. All my life I thought to leave and here I stand wishing desperately that I could have this home with you. I failed to die, and so you wait in vain. But not for long, my love. I dared to dream that we would be mated souls joined into a life anew… I’ll find the fight that brings me to you at last, you have that solemn vow.”

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Daydream

Cloudy day and sneaky sun beams

Bathing wisps with golden light

Streams of liquid color

Dancing away

-K. Vendamora

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An overcast day

Heavy air and heavy heart

Lonesome but in love

-K. Vendamora

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Misfortune

Wonderously wretched are my follies 

Hindsight’s cruel clarity 

Ever taunting my efforts to achieve 

Never knowing the path 

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Worry reigns triumphant in every choice 

Insecure in my role 

Leading my brood toward a fate unknown 

Leading them far astray 

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The errant notions that control my mind 

Hinder my potential 

Insecurity leading me awry 

Surety ever absent 

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Hedonism grants a selfish repose 

Escaping wont of soul 

Lewd behavior in lieu of commitment 

Losing faith in my heart 

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Bile boils as I consider me 

Uniquely vile prince 

Regret and remorse beg me to atone 

Not yet condemned to woe 

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Determination and true heart’s resolve 

Offer my only grace 

When wit and wile fail to see me through 

Now I face the fire

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-K. Vendamora

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I now no longer know

What to say or do

How it is that I should

Speak my heart to you

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What have we now become

Sitting in this pain

When truest virtue love

Silent cries in vain

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Oh what a fool am I

Still so very blind

There is no meaning here

Or peace of weary mind

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No longer can I give

Freely from my soul

Empty as I am now

Loss does take its toll

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K. Vendamora

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Untitled Song Lyrics

Should ever I be blessed to feel your skin on mine

In tangled sheets with tangled limbs that passion entwine.

I pray it be in quiet private precious romance

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The dream of we blended as one deep in love’s chance

Is no idle carnal pining but love’s longing trance

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Laughs; muttered moans hot on necks between each clumsy kiss

Every mistake and stumble a guide to shared bliss

How we will learn the art of us every loving stroke

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The melody of our hearts merged a perfect cloak

An aegis against pain and refuge when restraints revoke

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Let me start slow, doting hands, your body I caress

I crave you panting over this yearning I profess

Together we can figure out this sultry dance

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The dream of we blended as one deep in love’s chance

Is no idle carnal pining but love’s longing trance

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With every treasured velvet strand lain upon my face

I breathe you in, the scent of each lustful need awoke;

So my own shall swell and in desire we embrace

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The dream of we blended as one deep in love’s chance

Is no idle carnal pining but love’s longing trance

The melody of our hearts merged a perfect cloak

An aegis against pain and refuge when restraints revoke

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Oh how perfect it could be

Love making with you and me

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K. Vendamora

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Head Upon My Shoulder

I now hold in my soul a cherished memory 

You, soft and rhythmic breathing, laying close to me 

Head upon my shoulder leaping heart within my breast 

Eased by your kind and gentle hand lain across my chest 

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And sometimes face! I would in quiet laughter rouse 

Touched to find head pressed to mine the time that pose allows 

Until you shift and arms hug in sleep around you 

Soon shrug rebuffed from such a striking beauty true 

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Thrice in the night I did awake to find you there 

Head upon my shoulder and doting hand so fair 

Often would I hold you in terror of its end 

But ever will I treasure what we were just then 

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Oh to feel your mind and mine oh so very close 

Unto myself all your pain! Even lethal dose! 

Bitter sweet suffer smile as soul would smolder 

All to again know your head upon my shoulder

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K. Vendamora

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Life Born of Love

The forest of my love is now long dead,

Barren, dismal and dusky

Its green and bloom supplanted with thistle

Thorn and bramble ensnaring

All stirrings to protect its ever-gloom

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The gardens of my heart have known neglect

The borne fruit robbed in malice

Its strong stalks trampled to perish and rot

Once smooth stone paths bearing

Center now broken and lost to peril

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In the forest of my dry dreary love

There is a spark, a blaze

Birthed bright from green-eyed flames to spread clearing

Pain of old to grant life

Anew the barren land budding ardor

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In the unkempt gardens of my heart found

Infest with scorn’s vermin

There arises a keeper of honest

Heart with gentle hands plucking

Weeds of sorrow to sow seeds of passion

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Disorder

The fire's furious flames sizzle to burn through reason

All the hate and pain sating the unbidden maelstrom

What wild wile has provoked this visceral response?

The flame knows not, nor will its tinder soon to turn to ash

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The blaze burns out as a bitter breeze blows in frigid rains

So suddenly sad and unexpectedly cold inside

These sobs play out to precipitations rhythmic patter

As the world prepares for the next climate change

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Night falls as the sounds of the storm fade to a faint whisper

No stars twinkle in this bleak black somber sky

An empty void of a land without an echo of life

Abyssal and absent of any hope, hate, or sorrow...

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And again the turn to bright blue skies and singing songbirds

A springtime splendor of overwhelming and zealous life

So ready to release a raucous roar of defiance

Unconcerned with the inevitable mood transition

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K. Vendamora

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Death of a D20 Warrior

Across a grid-paper plane I journey with heroes bold

Lead by the DM adventuring to great lands untold

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I am a true brute of a fighter AC so high

Boundless HP to boot, my healing surges get me by

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Despite the great prowess and strength I can pridefully boast

I fail a perception, a skill in points our rogue has the most

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Foolhardy I lead my miniature’s charge over tiles

My checks fell short as I succumbed to enemy wiles

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Initiatives rolled once the goblin horde's ambush was sprang

Yet we held no fear when flanked, granted buffs as the bard sang

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Experience to my next rank and heroic tier

Urge me to cast my die each turn until the way is clear

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Greataxe wielded high in my mind as I try for a crit...

The quick roll plus my modifier guarantees the hit

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Thrilled with success I toss again - NO! It comes up a botch!

And I listen in dismay as my foe gains a new notch

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K. Vendamora

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EPDM Update

Hand-edited the prologue and I may just up load snap-shot examples instead of going through the effort of showcasing my process to an as-of-yet absent audience. Afterwards, I will post the updated draft. Not sure where I’ll go from there, nobody I know personally has been able to actually join in and discuss / critique this, and I wanted this to be a strictly open venture, guided by insight and input from my friends and peers. I think I’ll wait to continue until I see that pick up a bit and just go back to working on HoR.

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Never underestimate the power of a little positive feedback on another writer’s work. You could be the difference that convinces them to keep going or inspires them to write that next chapter. Spread positivity and support other writers ❤

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Hello! Once you get this you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly, then send this on to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is super cool!)

Lol great, a difficult task 💀 I don’t really care to talk much on myself, but I’ll give this a shot:1. The one thing I value the most about myself is also the thing that I struggle with the most: my mind. I’ve cultivated a strong intellect that is complemented by the culture, perspective, and interests I’ve developed through my studies and personal engagements. However, all this is offset by a pretty severe case of Borderline Personality Disorder, woo! 2. I am tenacious and, though riddled with anxiety, am fearless in the face of any mortal challenge. This often comes across as obstinance (and maybe that’s exactly what it is 😂). 3. I have a nice face, I guess. No, I will not reveal it. 4. I’m a dedicated father and husband, confident in the affection and guidance I provide them. 5. My heart. I’ve always loved more than I’ve hated, though for much of my life anger and unhappiness put a callous over that kindness and had me hiding from the world in a bitter shell.

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I’m trying to sell as much jewelry as I can to pay off some medical bills and debt that I’ve been struggling with for the last year and despite getting a job it sadly won’t be enough. 

So any purchase/sharing helps. And if needed I’ll provide proof of where the money is going. 

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