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I am very proud (and sorta sad) to say I have finally finished the main parts of my SEALs Buck series. There will be a prologue and epilogue but I never realized how bittersweet it would be. Because this was just a little idea that had cropped up in my mind when I first jumped on this ship and it very quickly grew out of its confines. Then people started to really get into it and then I got really into it and...Well, it has definitely been a journey and here's to more to come!

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writing is 10% storytelling and 90% rearranging three sentences for an hour like you're trying to solve an ancient curse

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"He has joy right in front of him, and he's not able to access it."

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You're gonna do great. I'll hold up a card with your name on it.

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Chim!

And Eddie's back!

No Buddie roommates though?!? You had to take that from us too? 😭

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Not laughing now. Definitely crying.

Like, I suspected something was up with Graham, but to pull a Bobby and then have everyone there?

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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This is supposed to be so serious, but why am I laughing? What Bobby would yell at Buck for? That's one way to do it, Eddie! 😂

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I don't know why but that Narnia comment got me 😂

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Unlikely but what if Buck put in a transfer to El Paso? 😅

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the reverse eddieshannon fake out was incredible. like we were led to believe that eddie ran because it got too hard. eddie has said himself that reenlisting in afghanistan was him running from shannon. and then she ran from him. it was a cycle they both got caught up in, and then their marriage failed. shannon yelled at him. she didn't need a provider, she needed a partner.

this time, things got hard too. eddie pointed his finger in buck's face and he yelled and he was so so so angry. but instead of running, he brought his son home because he knew buck needed chris. he was able to push through everything else to be the partner buck needed. because buck was feeling isolated and like he was lacking connection, so eddie brought him family. family who may not be biologically related to buck, but who accepted him in their diaz ranks a long long time ago.

eddie broke the cycle. instead of doing the same things that destroyed his relationship with shannon, he took a step back and realized what buck needed. what they both needed. their family, in tact and together again. and so eddie made it happen.... eddie's first. and his last.

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Okay, hear me out. Eddie feels guilty about not being with the team during the lab, wondering if he could have done something and Bobby would still be alive, so there's no way he won't suit up to help the team when they’re trapped. But he has an nde. Buck, who never said ‘I love you’ back to Bobby, says ‘I love you’ to Eddie as to not regret not saying it to someone else he loves, not realizing until after it comes out of his mouth that he means it romantically. Eddie, not dying but remembering what Buck says, freaks out, trying to convince himself it’s platonic until he talks to someone and realizes that he might be romantically inclined towards Buck (though he does question whether or not Buck meant it romantically). Then, he goes home, knocking on the door and all in case Buck doesn’t want to see him since he freaked out and ghosted him or something. But of course Buck opens the door, and that leads to Buddie canon S9.

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PEPAAAAAAAA!

Ugh, I can’t believe we got Linda and Pepa and Chris coming back in this episode so FULL OF DAMN HURT

Also, carino? Evancito? Buck is so family to them too <3

And a Karen and Athena moment? Sign me up for more!

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So if Buck can’t get through this funk before he gets trapped, is he gonna want to come out? And then Eddie goes in to get him? But he’s at the airport? Would that be next episode then since he’s gotta come home this episode? There was bts with him in turnouts with Buck so…upvhperiuhcunpiwuhviouer

Look, I’m trying to not feel hurt by doing rapid fire speculations, okay?

But…NOT THE NOTE! EDDIE YOU DID NOT!

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Fuck this. Fuck. Fucking hell. Why does this all HURT?!

Also, someone on social media said there was a ‘leak’ involving a BUddie argument, Buck going to the priest, Buck getting trapped, and an Eddie feelings realization? We checked off two so…

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Also, what do you mean Eddie needs to report to the El Paso Fire Department by the end of the week? NOOOOOOOOOO

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Ouch. Like ten minutes in and I already wanna cry?! What are we doing? I miss my 9-1-1…

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So Buck picked Eddie up from the AIRPORT eh?