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Sobbing while googling apartment prices gatta be my favorite coping mechanism

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I never wanted to make it out of Tennessee alone

I should jumping for joy I should kiss the ground I walk on each day I wanted this so bad I barely survived years of torture for this

But it's so bittersweet the happiness in the afterfall I think hurts even more than just totally destruction

I hate bittersweet

I hate that here I am making a new life for myself and God it's so free it's so new I have a future to plan for now I've got things to do, people to meet, lessons to be learned and all that wonderful life stuff but it's hurts

It hurts knowing I live in breathe free and clean air like I always wanted to

I never knew I'd have to do it alone

I never knew everyone else would get left behind and only I escaped, that's how I feel at least

I know in reality it's more like everyone else abandoned me, and I never stopped trying to save them

But the guilt I carry for breathing and being happy is hard to keep with me

And it's hard to accept it's not my fault

I promised the people I loved safety and now here I am, alone, safe

It's hard

It's so so hard

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I'll live long enough to spit on your grave

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It's not your job to pick up the pieces, but you do anyways