undeadgirlboy

[undeadgirlboy]

tboys with tranny voice i love you tboys whose voices go up when they excited i love you tboys whose speaking mannerisms are girly i love you tboys with faggy voices i love you. it is the trannyfag right to be proud of our voices as they are. tranny voice is a gift from god actually

[undeadgirlboy]

i can't do this anymore! i mean i can, and i will, obviously. but i can't fucking do this anymore!

[undeadgirlboy]

i don't need hrt to be valid i need it to make life worth living

[undeadgirlboy]

this hate the sin love the sinner bullshit was only tolerable during peace times. when my rights are under attack, you're either with me or against me

this is the year to block meemaw on facebook

[undeadgirlboy]

Look what I made last month >:P

It’s still a wip though. I’m planning to put some studs on it and upgrade the look of the bottle cap pins once I have the time.

[undeadgirlboy]

[undeadgirlboy]

weird as fuck having a psychiatrist who is also trans and also my age like shit girl in another life instead of prescribing me mood stabilizers you sold me weed. in another life we were coworkers at starbucks. in another life you were a dj

[undeadgirlboy]

“COME + FUCKIN’ TAKE IT!” (2024) on scrap fabric, hrt supplies, acryclic paint, upholstery & cotton thread.

[undeadgirlboy]

[undeadgirlboy]

1960s Snoopy Lighter

[undeadgirlboy]

I am not the first person to say this, but the whole "people act like nonbinary means woman-lite" is not exactly an accurate read of the phenomena it's intended to describe.

due to transmisogyny, (and transphobia more broadly, but the specific transmisogyny here is key to understanding why this is a structural thing everywhere from professional organizations to lgbt NGOs/nonprofits to housing listings) "nonbinary" in many spaces has come to denote specifically TME trans people who pass as cis women.

that's why it's always "women and nonbinary" as interchangeable with "women and femmes" phrasing.

that's why the "women" part never includes trans women, and the "nonbinary" part never includes TMA nonbinary people, and the "femmes" part never includes transfems.

if nonbinary was associated with womanhood and femininity then trans women and transfems and feminine TMA nonbinary people would be welcome in these spaces, but they are not.

"Nonbinary" isn't associated with being "woman lite" it is being associated with a very specific positionality of privilege* in which someone is not subject to structural transmisogyny and can, at least in some places, conditionally pass as cis.

it might seem like splitting hairs, but I do think a more precise analysis of this is needed. cis power is awarded to those who adequately adhere to their assigned gender, and so these spaces are looking for people who were assigned female, and obey the constraints of their gender assignment enough to not threaten the cis women running the space. of course, who exactly decides what counts as "enough" is wildly variable because it's essentially the collective will of cis women running the space.

but like if you, like me, are TME nonbinary, and getting frustrated with the constant aggressive coercion from cis women to push yourself back in the closet, feeling erased & misunderstood & dysphoric, it's important to recognize where this coercive force is coming from and what the intended effect is. if you're misdirecting your (justified) discomfort with this at TMA people instead of cis women, you've lost the plot.

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*hear me out, I'm talking contextual & conditional & relative to other trans people. not saying people in this demographic do not experience transphobia--in fact even inclusion in these predominately cis women spaces is emerging from transphobia & I think everyone who has ever been in this demographic who has entered these spaces feels this transphobia viscerally. cisnormativity is extremely enforced in these spaces and if you're loud about transfeminism & confronting transmisogyny in the space, in many cases you will quickly be socially excluded too even if you were welcomed initially. no one is getting cis privilege here. but there's a difference between being excluded for your actions & never being welcome in the first place. And that difference is transmisogyny.

[undeadgirlboy]

"there is something wrong with me" would imply theres something right with other people. which i dont believe

[undeadgirlboy]

a trans woman expressing love freely and openly to everyone in her life. a beautiful thing

[undeadgirlboy]

The Radical Queer Aesthetics of Gay Power Magazine

[undeadgirlboy]

wanting romantic relationships is a weakness btw and also a moral failing

[undeadgirlboy]

i sat my white ass down and got tortured

[undeadgirlboy]

kneeling down beside my bed and folding my hands and closing my eyes: dear god please let me have some gay sex soon and also maybe let me win the lottery so i never have to get a job again. okay goodbye i mean amen