umakudal

[umakudal]

Surrounded and Drowning.

Days turn to weeks, weeks into months. 

I am supposed to be fine, at least that is what I try to convince myself of being. 

I am numb and also in immense pain, this feeling is indescribable but I must try.

The feeling of being a prisoner in my own body is something I want to escape,

Things I want to do, places I want to see, seem nothing short of a pipe dream now.

This pain is surrounding me like a plague like I am drowning in my own misery.

But I must stand tall, I must fight my own mind, for it is then I shall be truly free.

Maybe one day then when I wake up I won't feel like a facade of a human, 

maybe I will then feel as free as humanly possible.

- uma.