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Shadow just has a resting bitch face and it’s his default face

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my copy of sxsh came today and i will not be normal

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just a space girl dreaming about being part of your world! ! like or reblog this post if you want to interact with an independent Maria Robotnik from STH universe with many many verses & aus. loved by alexa!

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space books ✨🪐🌘

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i am so pleased with the validation that maria is a little Earth Nerd but oh my gosh does it hurt to think about how shadow goes to earth and she doesn't, and his first real introduction to it isn't its beauty but its military violence. would some small part of him be relieved that maria never lived to see how cruel her precious earth really is...?

imagining, too, the emotion shadow must feel when he begins to remember his real promise made to maria to protect the earth. realizing that she'd want it and its people safe, even if their behavior would have crushed her (even if their cruelty is the sole reason she's dead).

then thinking about how shadow gradually opens up because he finds friends and reminders of The Good in people like sonic, amy, rouge, and omega... thinking about how maybe the earth shouldn't be hated for the cruel people who live on it, but loved for the people who defy that cruelty and fight to make it better, even at impossible odds.

gosh.

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gosh, i appreciate you guys being so wildly patient with me. i don't quite know when i'm going to be able to be reliably back, between work and everything, but i miss you guys.

i hope you've all been well. ♥

if i have time after homework, i'll try to be here for a few things.

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yells

i wanna be here SO bad

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.:Amy Riders:. by *caninelove

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Mau?

I'm so sorry, I've been gone so long that I do not remember the context for this, if there is any, but I am holding this tiny thing in my hands SO gently oh my stars.

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You're back!

Hello, hello! Sort of! Things have stabilized a bit, and the news about SxShG has really been stirring my muse for this guy. c:

It's really sweet to see that people missed me. Thank you. ♥ ♥ ♥

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Dissociation Starters

FROM THE EMPTY

“No… I’m not hurt.”

“I don’t…”

“… Sorry. Say that again?”

“Sometimes I just … do this. It’s fine.” 

“No, it’s bad, but I’m. Like. I’m fine. Just give me like, ten minutes.”

“I don’t - I don’t remember.”

“You waited how long?”

“… I don’t like [trigger].”

“Will you walk me home?”

“I love you, I just… I can’t… I’m dissociating.”

“I.. don’t know how I got here.”

“I didn’t feel that. At all.”

“Did I zone out?”

“Don’t touch me.”

“My name is [name]. I’m [age]. I live in [place]. My name is [name] -”

“I can’t think of anything to do that isn’t stupid, canyouhelpme?” 

“How did you find me?”

“I think I’m in [different State]. Will you come?”

FROM THE FULL

“Hey. [Name]? Look at me.” 

“I’m right here.” 

“How long have you been sitting here?”

“What happened?”

“Your shirt is on backwards.” 

“Is it okay if I touch you?”

“It’s windy today. This bench has a nice texture, don’t you think?”

“Do you mind if I sit with you?” 

“Okay, I’ll be here.”

“Hey - come in. Don’t worry about it. I’m glad you came.”

“Drink some water. It has ice.”

“I’ll run a shower.”

“Let me wash it for you.” 

“I can’t clean you up if I can’t touch you. Will you give me your hand?”

“We’ll ride it out. You’re safe here.”

“I’ll put on a movie.”

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"don't live in the past" okay well the people I loved are there

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learning that only the physical copy of sxsh will include gerald's journal makes me wanna ;n;

i don't want to play sxsh on switch bc the graphics are usually not great by comparison and the digital deluxe for ps4 comes with arguably more bonus content (2 more skins, an art book, an extra level).

but the JOURNAL.

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【SONIC：孤独のアカツキ】

静まり返った独りの暁よりも、月明かりの聖母に抱かれて眠っていたい。

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New released un cropped clip of Dark Beginning gifset of Shadow & Maria!

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EMERL?