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ufoundme2 · 4 years ago

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You know how I'm always saying that you've accomplished a lot of things in your life – with your job, the way you moved on from hard stuff, the way you're brave... All of that? Well, did i ever say how big of an impact you were for me? Yeah... I have probably talked about that a hundred times but it's okay, I can do it again.

I think you have no idea how badly you've shaped my life from the day we met. If I am this person today, it certainly is because of you – or at least, the "good" parts are. First of all, you made me way more open minded. How? Well... You know me. you know my background. I know i have educated myself a lot on my own, but you played a big role too. Mostly because you were never afraid – or at least, not in front of me – of speaking your tastes, your opinions, your way of thinking. And this, helped me a lot in gaining confidence to do the same. And also.. I was looking up to you. Basically, I would listen and learn, and think, and think again until i had my own opinion, until you helped me get one. A good one.

By making me more open minded, you made me more confident about my own tastes. Well... I know I can lose myself pretty easily.. It mostly happened when you weren't around. But now that i found it again, i can show it off. Of course sometimes im insecure and i feel awkward, but it's okay from time to time. - - - By making me more confident, you helped me try to reach my dream : Criminology. I told you before : You were my first thought when I applied, my first thought when I got in, my first thought when I graduated. At first, Criminology was just a goal, a date, only to say "I'll live til i get in" and it still is, but somehow – in my guts – i still wanna show you that im capable of achieving more, that im good at it, just like you cheered me up saying. So yeah, you literally shaped my career, you believed in me and also because, selfishly, i wanted to impress you, or something like that.

You also made me strong and you gave me hope. How? I don't know. You just made me. I would always think of you when I was going through a dilemma or something and end up picking the thing i thought you would like more.

Blah blah blah! Basically! You made me Lmao🙄🙄🙄🙄 Oh hell you're gonna use that against me if i piss you off someday... To be honest, you are the only person i trusted (still do), and who saw me truly. And that really helped me and im glad i met you at such a young age.

On top of that, you have always been my first and last thought. I know it's hard to believe, but everything reminds me of you. Cause i always wanna tell you about the most silly stuff. And back then, I always had a thought for you as well. Thats what i don't get, it was so obvious.

You had this freaking huge impact on me nd you can't even grasp around it. You helped me evolve and become the person I am and today still, I'm trying to become a better person because of you.

Oh, and you also save(d) my life. I'd want only one person to remember and it's you. That's also why i have clues nd stupid secret accs like this one everywhere... In case you went looking for me. I can't risk having other people tell you shitty stuff abt me 🤮 You only know the truth.

And truth is, without you I really don't exist.

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