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Switching between these every day

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There's this interesting phenomenon where when you're a child, or some other vulnerable minority dependent on a job for shelter, you are actually under duress almost constantly. You can't say "I don't want to work today," you cannot say "I don't want to do the dishes, actually," you cannot choose not to participate. In a lot of cases, the punishment is explicit. Your parents might yell at you. Your boss might fire you. But in other cases, it's implicit. The mood will sour. You lose leeway. People get mad at you. And that creates a really shitty environment where you're constantly being coerced to do things!

And here's the kicker; you're not allowed to acknowledge that. You cannot acknowledge that you are being coerced, you cannot acknowledge that your free will is not being respected, because that's punished too. Your boss insists that you act excited. Your parents punish you for acting surly. You are forced to fake enthusiastic consent, constantly. It's a fucking nightmare. Your hand is being forced, you do not have the option to say "no," and if you ever, for a second, try to acknowledge that, everyone acts like you're the aggressor.

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I think people often mistake having a soft personality for being a pushover. I don’t take shit but that doesn’t mean I get angry or vengeful, I just know when to walk away and leave you behind

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"I don't wanna bother you"

Have you considered that this is how your presence feels?

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erinstwitsexual on twitter

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"never kill yourself" is perhaps my favourite meme these days. there will always be joy in your future and you just need to stick it out to find it

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i think there’s actually nothing better than being randomly told “I love you” after doing something characteristically stupid. Like what do you mean I’m a lovable person and I just did something silly and you thought “of course you would do that. I love you.”. No better feeling

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Mary Oliver, from "When Death Comes"

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you can’t do good if you’re wishing bad on others

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why do you and others like vaccines so much?

not dying of preventable diseases is actually one of my favorite hobbies

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Nobody talks about how your first toxic experience is often with your family—the people who were supposed to love you unconditionally. It shapes the way you see yourself, love and trust others. You learn to walk on eggshells, question your worth and mistake survival for connection. Healing means unlearning what hurt you and realizing that love should feel safe, not like something you have to earn

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*has two bad days* no one has ever lost the plot this severely. theyre coming for me. theyre coming for me right nowwww….

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don’t worry. it’s easier to love you than you think

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a big part of being happy is being excited. be excited for everything - making a cup of tea, decorating your future apartment, seeing a friend again, falling in love unexpectedly, the next episode of a show you like, finishing something stressful, buying something you’ve been saving up for, a new album, sunsets, traveling, road trips, and the feeling of going to bed after a long day. think of something to be excited about and daydream about it often when you’re sad.

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