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Andai kubisa menemukan bahasa baru

untuk menumpahkan perasaan cintaku

kepadamu, kamu mungkin takkan lagi bilang,

“Semua orang ngomong gitu”.

Sial, bahasa kita terbatas, gadisku.

Tapi, itu tak mengurangi fakta

bahwa ya, aku menyayangimu.

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Pulp dan Godaan Nakal

Source

You say you've got to go home

'Cause he's sitting on his own again this evening

I know you're gonna let him bore your pants off again

Oh God, it's half past eight

You'll be late

You say you've never been sure

Though it makes good sense for you to be together

Still you bought a toy that can reach the places he never goes.

Oh, now it's getting late

He's so straight

Do you remember the first time?

I can't remember a worse time

But you know that we've changed so much since then

Oh yeah,

We've grown

Demikian Pulp bernyanyi di kamar kosanku yang sempit. Lirik lagu Do You Remember The First Time? ini sering membuatku tertawa. Lirik yang meledek, nakal sekaligus manis. Bagaimana seorang lelaki menggoda partner lamanya dengan bilang bahwa ya perempuan itu sekarang bersama laki-laki pilihannya, yang membosankan tapi toh yasudahlah dia bisa menjadi penghilang sepi perempuan itu. Walau, walau... dia “bought a toy that can reach the places he never goes.” Lolol ini mesum dan nakal abis.

Senin pagi ini gerah dan Pulp bikin nyengir.

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Kita berhura-hura soal labelisasi si A sebagai jenius sastro, si B jenius teknologi tai kuda nil, padahal kosong blas—ya ga om haris? Lol

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Kekalahan, melihat sekujur lantai kusam

semua bergerak datar tanpa darah-amarah

lorong masih gelap

cahaya tak kunjung hinggap

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Malam gelap menyergap diri

yang sedang mengitari

orbit pikiran sendumu

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for there is no place

that does not see you.

You must change your life.

—Rilke, Archaic Torso of Apollo

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Couldn’t one translate Hegel into Gottlob Frege—the “old logic” into “the new”?

(Inspired by Carl Sachs)

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We (humanity, i.e. our mode of production) are not just “destroying nature,” we are co-creating a new nature in which there will be no place for us.

—Zizek, Pandemic! 2

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Kesepian adalah sebotol soju lawas yang ditenggak rakus saat hujan mengguyur dan pikiran meluncur gencar ke muaramu yang tak lagi kosong.

Atau kesepian adalah secangkir air liur yang tak kunjung ditenggak akibat terlalu lama halu membayangkan ciuman basahmu yang sudah lama pergi tanpa basa-basi.

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“One should therefore invert the common wisdom according to which sexual lust is bodily while love is spiritual: sexual love is more bodily than sex without love.”

—Zizek, Pandemic! 2

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Selamat Natal dan Tuhan baru

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“Let us say that in its fundamental use the phantasy is that by which the subject sustains himself at the level of his vanishing desire, vanishing in so far as the very satisfaction of demand hides his object from him.”

—Lacan, Ecrits: A Selection

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If you decide to stay in my mind,

let me build a dwelling for you

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Poor Schopenhauer

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120 Days of Sodom Pure

You said hello,

I smiled.

you hugged me,

I kissed you.

you’re gone,

I stay.

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It seems that

I have finally met

My Waterloo:

you.

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Your love hesitantly

creeps into being