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Derry Girls S03E06 "Halloween"

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'you still listen to music from 10 years ago 🤨?' bitch if prehistoric humans had audio recording technology id be sat up here listening to grog and unga bunga's greatest hits don't play with me

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one of my favorite parts of “the substance” is how clear the movie makes that the men you’re destroying yourself to impress are so utterly gross and not worth it at all. how it shows already beautiful women tearing themselves apart to reach the standards of males who can’t even be bothered to wash their hands after using the bathroom.

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NORMAL PEOPLE (2020) dir. Lenny Abrahamson, Hettie Macdonald

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i am interested in the secondary readings about frankenstein !!! i’m now super interested in mary shelley too if u know where i can read her journals or anything ?

yes! u should be able the find her journals on the project gutenberg site (as well as all of her other fictional work) - i’ll also try to add a few readings which go a little bit into shelley herself too. 

The Frankenstein reading list:

Angela Wright, The Female Gothic

Ellen Moers, Female Gothic: The Monster’s Mother 

Gayatri Chakravorty Spivak, Three Women's Texts and a Critique of Imperialism (includes an excellent discussion on the figure of the english woman & the unnamable monster existing beyond the text itself - something which calls into question who gets given a voice in frankenstein) 

Sandra M. Gilbert and Susan Gubar, Horror's Twin: Mary Shelley's Monstrous Eve.

Andrew Smith, Gothic Literature (section on sublimity in Frankenstein starts around page 42) 

Barbara Johnson ‘My monster/my self’ 

Anne K. Mellor, ‘Why Women Didn’t Like Romanticism: The Views of Jane Austen and Mary Shelley’

Carol M. Davison, ‘Monstrous Regiments of Women and Brides of Frankenstein: Gendered Body Politics in Scottish Female Gothic Fiction’

Mary Poovey, "My Hideous Progeny: Mary Shelley and the Feminization of Romanticism"

George Slusser, The Frankenstein Barrier

Nora Crook, 'Mary Shelley, Author of Frankenstein’ 

Fred Botting, Limits of Horror (not exactly about frankenstein but a great further reading)  

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how it went: we broke up.

i've been through so much anxiety lately, especially because of my masters but also because i was struggling with my mind about my sexuality and coming out "older" (i'm 25) etc. i became emotionally distant to my boyfriend and our relationship got a little worn out. then we decided to take a break and see how it goes... my heart is broken bc feels like i'm ruining everything but also i needed time to figure out how i'm feeling and finally embrace my bisexuality (like emotionally in my head, not going out lol)... i miss him so badly, i spent the entire day thinking about silly things to send him or complaints/ramblings about my friday seminar and my article for ethnographical theories. its so hard to feel like this. i cant focus, my sleep schedule is messed up, i lost something like 3 pounds and i look like shit. and i'm listening taylor swift like crazy.

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i've been through so much anxiety lately, especially because of my masters but also because i was struggling with my mind about my sexuality and coming out "older" (i'm 25) etc. i became emotionally distant to my boyfriend and our relationship got a little worn out. then we decided to take a break and see how it goes... my heart is broken bc feels like i'm ruining everything but also i needed time to figure out how i'm feeling and finally embrace my bisexuality (like emotionally in my head, not going out lol)... i miss him so badly, i spent the entire day thinking about silly things to send him or complaints/ramblings about my friday seminar and my article for ethnographical theories. its so hard to feel like this. i cant focus, my sleep schedule is messed up, i lost something like 3 pounds and i look like shit. and i'm listening taylor swift like crazy.

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I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.

Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

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persisting despite it all !

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i'm bi

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i think "it takes a village" shouldn't be just "to raise a child". we should understand it takes a village to do literally everything we do. all day every day. without our communities we would not have drinking water or electricity or clean streets or food or shelter or anything. we cannot do any thing alone. we just can't. and with that comes the fact that you are not alone. you already have a community, seek to be an active part of it, you will feel better. reach out and thank them, they're happy to have you too. i promise. it takes a village to live.