trishaissleeping

[trishaissleeping]

i’m in spain but without the ‘s’ 🤩

physically, yes, i’m lying in my bed. but mentally? i’m in a beach resort ordering my watermelon juice. in all honesty, i am having those days where i yearn to be in this certain place and wish i could just shut myself right there. 

i just also want to say that online class has been so exhausting, there is no clear distinction between the school and the house. i don’t know when to have an actual rest since i am required to do some chores every break that i have. and also it thought me how to get disconnected to the world. i don’t have much energy left to socialize, maybe because i’ve gave it all with my school works. this quarantine affected and changed me A LOT. nonetheless, i am beyond grateful for having the opportunity to attend online classes but we can’t deny the fact that it is frustrating and exhausting.

everybody’s exhausted of this cycle.

photo from friends (1994)

[trishaissleeping]

life update: day 273/366

i just finished the first six weeks of my online class and oh my, it is intense. online classes are still a bit of an adjustment even if we had this setup last term, but i am slowly working my way through this. i am barely surviving my science class which is not surprising at all since i am not fond of it even before. but lately, i’ve been experiencing burnout so i shut myself out of the academic world to unwind and regain my energy. i can’t stress this enough but taking classes virtually is actually draining. can’t wait to go back to traditional classes where i can hear the noises of my classmates, where I can have a friend that i can actually talk to, and where I can be stuck in the HEAVY pulo traffic.

hoping that you’re safe 🕊

[trishaissleeping]

quarantine is the metaphor for hell

you even remember when quarantine was like: ~✨dalgona coffee✨~ 😗✌️ but, heck, we are now approaching 325,000 cases in total. studying in the midst of pandemic feels like hell. seriously, online classes and my attention span is the worst combination ever! it will take half an hour before i could finish a 15-minute video lecture. i’m usually calm and collected but this online class brings the worst in me. i’ve been all over the place which makes it hard for me to know where to start.

i must say, online class is effective…. in terms of giving stress and panic <3 kidding aside, everyone is still adapting with this new cycle. not only students but also teachers are worn out coping with virtual classes. we should be considerate to each other because we don’t know what the person is going through. knowing that this will last longer than expected will be a mental torture for many. but guess what, our government gives us nothing. they did everything but targeting this pandemic. i’m just straight fed up with their actions because we deserve better than this.

[trishaissleeping]

the weekend

[09.12.20]

i missed how weekends used to be weekends. today is just like the other days but with less work. rest? we don’t know her. but as much as i can, i accomplish all my tasks within the weekdays but the loads are not decreasing. my brain literally stops functioning when it’s weekends but deadlines are not going to adjust themselves so i got to work regardless.

i can conclude that this setup, asynchronous blended by synchronous, has not been effective to me. looking back to my academic performance from the previous term, i am at my maximum productivity. today….. it takes me an hour or two just too make a 100-word output. i get that some students prefer having synchronous session however, personally, i see myself better when in asynchronous mode because i own my time, i work with my own pace. unlike today, i have to follow a deadline that sometimes i tend to forget that there are also other existing tasks.

just a question…. can’t activities finish themselves????????? asking for a friend

[trishaissleeping]

i couldn’t [08.17.20] today marks the first day of a new school year and we will be utilizing online platforms for learning. i can’t help but to reflect on how my first day was before. i remember that i would wake up from a 4-hour sleep then leave the house without eating breakfast. i mean, i know it’s a bad habit but those are part of my daily routine before going to my class. now, i couldn’t buy a kopiko blanca for me to stay awake the entire day. i couldn’t chat with my seatmate then laugh at the same thing we found funny. i couldn’t go to thrift shop after classes where i can score a 50-pesos jeans. i couldn’t have the physical interaction that i’ve been longing, that everyone’s been longing. i couldn’t do the things that were normal before because we are not allowed to go outside. this pandemic robbed all of the opportunities we should have. we’re just…. stuck