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How it feels with you in my life

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Uhhhm, is it Normal for people with autism to randomly start distrusting & kinda hating everyone they know because of small incidents where theyre misunderstood or am i,, like, Messed Up. if i am, Messed Up, should i like, look into that or like nahh, its probably the normal amount of messed up?

First of all, you aren't messed up!! I can promise you that <33

Second of all, it's definently not impossible that autistic people could experience this after ostracization, trauma, or other reasons, but I wouldn't say it's a common experience for autism in particular?

I have a special interest in personality disorders, and while this could be from anything disordered or not, I would look into paranoid personality disorder (ppd) and borderline personality disorder (bpd)!!

PPD deals with suspicion, distrust, and of course paranoia about the people around you, and BPD has factors like seeing things in extremes, or a "one or the other" or "all good and all bad" mindset. This is known as black and white thinking, or "splitting" as its known in the bpd community.

I have BPD, and something that happens frequently with me is hating people I come across (sometimes people I've never met) because of one small thing I didnt like about them. For example, If they looked at me weird in the hallway, said something that offended me, or even just walk or talk too slow to name a few, a switch in my brain will decide that they're the scum of the earth, and that often wont change unless someone influences me otherwise.

Sometimes it takes a few times for this to happen, or the hatred is less intense than other times, but this is a common theme for me. Another common thing with BPD if frequent and/or very intense anger that may be inappropriate at times, and this can tie back into the hatred involved in splitting.

I don't have PPD or as much knowledge as of like to have on it, so unfortunately I cant do another breakdown of it here :(

All of this isnt to concretely say you have BPD or PPD, because that's a decision that's up to you to explore, but I did recognize some b/p pd traits from what you said and took it as an opportunity to infodump mhehehehe-

Even if you dont explore these routes I hope u found this interesting!!! :3

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I love how I'm fine now cause I stopped hating myself and just talked about it LMAO

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pleas come back I need more attention plea-

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I want to cry and rip my hair out :')))

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Stucktoxic

A stuckID where one feels like they are stuck being toxic

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he hates me .m."

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transschizospec if you haven't already?

TRANSSCHIZOSPEC TIPS 𖦹

i am also transschizospec!!

i will separate this into categories: delusions, hallucinations, behaviors, emotions, and thinking

keep in mind these are all just symptoms and not every schizospec person experiences them all!! most probably dont experience all of them!!

delusions:

- a delusions is simply a fixed belief that doesnt change despite contradicting evidence. let your imagination run wild and then just gaslight yourself. eventually youll believe it.

- if you need more guidance, some common delusions are grandiose delusions (which i experienced), paranoid, erotomaniac (parasocial), somatic, and many more you can google.

- paranoia is very very common!! incorporate it!!

- look at the “how the delulu girls“ trend on tiktok!!

- whether or not you choose to talk to people about your delusion is up to you

hallucinations:

- honestly, make them up to gaslight yourself and/or manifest them

- draw whatever comes to mind and tell yourself its your hallucinations

- get sleep deprived!!

-watch things that make you anxious!!

- listen for small background noises and tell yourself its a hallucination

behaviors:

- periods of catatonia!! catatonia is a state where someone is awake but not responding to other people or maybe their environment. it may occur in the form of repetitive odd gestures, holding strange positions, mimicking others, or not moving at all. not every schizospec person experiences catatonia!!!!

- disorganized speech!! this is pretty much just word salads but with whatever and also with some garbled speech so ill make an example of this one no thank you i dont have the free time for that but yournrnnn you cna ask ted..if you wnt because hes to contamnnated to do that (but do that while talking)

- do repetitive movements and do things in patterns

- be impulsive

- schizophrenics tend to socially isolate

- be disorganized!! wear mismatch clothes (thats a thing with schizophrenics), have a messy room, etc.

emotions:

- apathy is common among schizophrenics and interestingly enough, so are heightened emotions!! sometimes just not react to things and SOMETIMES REALLY REACT!!

- anxiety is also very common

- paranoia!! what if everyone can read your mind? what if they know youre a terrible person? there are people watching you. where are they?

- inappropriate emotional responses!! such as laughing when something bad happens or crying over something really small. this ties in with heightened emotions.

thinking:

- disorganized thoughts!! this is pretty much just word salads but with whatever and also with some garbled speech so ill make an example of this one no thank you i dont have the free time for that but yournrnnn you cna ask ted..if you wnt because hes to contamnnated to do that (but do that while talking)

- memory issues!!

- inability to process social cues!! that means not getting the hint when someone is talking to you or not getting the hint someone needs to be comforted, for example.

- attention deficit!! struggle to focus on things and zone out a lot

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i hhope a silly little slime GETS YOU. /affectionate /platonic u need to be held by a magical alive halfliquid i think. you deserve that

sbshdbd thank uuuu >w< ur my bestest frien ',•w•`, <33

good thing my husband is a magical alive slime monster ^w^ ~

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practicing manifesting my hpd traits >>> existential crisis about fp

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i have to limp around :((( because i hurt by foot :(((( and i also have to do work too :(((( (ifnoring that it was my idea in the first place :((((()

NAOOO ,>m<, I so sorry to hear that frien :((((

pain really is the worst '.m.`

on the bright side... you can get lots of sympathy for it at work \^♡^/ !

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attention and distraction is all I need :')))

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weird request but. transgood?? but in like.. good person way.. like you want to be a better person.. like..

— transgood [ trans-good ]

when an individual wants to be / identifies with being good !

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I'll be forced out of my comfort space and replaced by these fools and hated because I get upset too easily over every little thing he does, huh?

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dont split dont split dont split dont split dont split dont split dont split dont split dont split dont split-

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MusP3T

A musid where one identifies with the song P3T by femtanyl

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wehhhhhhh cries at youuu falls over and whines at u

whatsa got u troubled there little fella? :<