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250 days after my first attempt, i open blender again for the second video

Day 1 of learning Blender: Setting monkey heads on fire

It's been some time since I grew an interest in Blender and a large chunk of that was spent watching videos convincing myself to download it. Once I installed it, I began watching tutorials about the more advanced stuff I knew I wouldn't understand but watched them in awe anyway. Another update to the latest version and continued blender youtube marathon later, I finally opened the program yesterday with the intention to learn it.

I began going through Blender Guru's doughnut tutorial. Tbh, I did go through a few of them before but this is the first time I'm doing it with the program open.

I finished the first video of the series which was mostly about the interface and the basics - you know, the beginner stuff.

When he promised to show how to set a monkey head on fire I guessed it would be a bonus lesson at the end of the entire tutorial, not the video. He was true in that he showed it instead of teaching it as it was a basic how to guide leaving out explanations of how and why it worked. That probably makes sense as it seems outside a beginners scope at the moment. Anyway, the interface seems to have been updated since the tutorial aired as I had to toy around a bit to actually get the fire effect to work.

Besides that, I learnt that my GPU was shit and that I should probably master modelling first before realizing my dreams of rendering animations.

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instead of, you know, actually reading, I’ve been searching for even more books to read. ya feel?

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Things are always either primitive or complicated, never advanced

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If I want to use “dead poets honor” in small talk that’s my business 

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literally my fave vid ever

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Hey, take it from someone creeping towards 40:

Ignore the fun police.

If you like it, order your steak well done. Get your bagel toasted with jam and butter. Put ice in your scotch and ketchup on your hotdog. Get red wine with fish and white with steak. Who cares?

If you want to, listen to pop music. Watch blockbuster popcorn flicks. Read dime store novels. Enjoy them.

Dye your hair or cut it off. Paint your fingernails blue. Wear whatever the fuck you want on your own time (ie, when not at a job or school or whatever where you can get penalized for breaking rules) as long as you aren’t like welding or shoveling snow.

Anyone who tries to tell you you’re wrong? Say “okay” and go back to what you were doing. You’re not hurting them by enjoying yourself or having things the way you like them.

There are no caveats or addendums to this. No “but what about x?” Nah. You’re allowed the things you like. You don’t have to justify your taste or apologize for it if it’s not hurting anyone.

And likewise, let other people live their lives. We’re all dead in the long run, so tend your own garden before you become fertilizer in it.

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When bigots say “you can’t explain being LGBTQ to kids!” they’re thinking of THEIR definition of being LGBTQ, which is often sexualized.

They think “explaining what being trans is to a kid” would go something along the lines of “I have a vagina. But I really want a penis. So you see, even though I have a vagina, I WANT a penis” because that’s how THEY view it. When in reality, trans people always explain it along the lines of “I have a boy’s body, but I’m actually/I feel more like a girl!”

They think “explaining what being gay is to a kid” would go something like “I have a penis, you see. And I like to have sex with other penises. It’s all about sex. I want to have sex with every man I see. So much sex” because that’s how THEY see it. When in reality, gay people always explain it along the lines of “I’m a girl, and I like other girls!”

Anyway it’s almost like queer people aren’t the ones “ruining kids”… it’s the bigots doing it…😶

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People don't realize how much strength it takes to pull your own self out of a dark place mentally. So, if you've done that today or any day, I'm proud of you.

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I just heard this woman say “you procrastinate because you are afraid of rejection. It’s a defense mechanism, you are trying to protect yourself without even trying.” and I think I just realized what was wrong with me.

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“Sometimes I remind myself that I almost skipped the party, that I almost went to a different college, that the whim of a minute could have changed everything and everyone. Our lives, so settled, so specific, are built on happenstance.”

— Every Last One (Anna Quindlen)

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Kyoto－清水寺 (by kieucumber)

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I love the scene in The Secret History where Richard is writing his greek essay late so he just writes it in english and then translates. And he takes a moment to acknowledge that Julian told them to never do that... and then he happily continues. Zero fucks were given that day

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me after finishing a movie: wow that was rly good!! im amazed

movie critics: trashiest movie ever created; possibly the worst movie of the year; complete disgrace

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We all lived the same life

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Oh mom if you only knew 😅✨