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somewhere down the line, the blog got away from me. so, i’ll be moving to another one. this one will stay up because i know a lot of people aren’t always on here and i’d go out of my mind. i can’t lose it all fully because oops. from my new one, old threads will be continued, and new ones will start. if you’d like to know the new one, please, lemme know. 

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who’s your comfort fc. the one you could use a thousand times over and never tire of. you just see them and your heart warms. write them in the tags bc i’m curious

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Evan immediately shook his head at the question. “Huh? What? No! I don’t want you to go.” He frowned at the idea of Ferit leaving, especially after flying so far. “You came all this way and… I’m not going to tell you to fly all the way back. Or to leave.” he shook his head. “What?” His eyes widened as he wiped at his mouth. He groaned softly as he sighed. “God, I’m so slow right now…” He waved at his head. He couldn’t deny that he needed sleep. 

“I’m worried, Ferit… I’m always worried. But I am okay. I’ve been doing this for years. Well… Not the whole sleeping in the cafeteria part, but the… worrying about Bella in the hospital. This…” he sighed softly. “This isn’t anywhere near the worst it’s been… If I can handle that, I can handle this…” He shook his head though he did smile a little at the mention of Bella squealing. He knew his daughter adored Ferit, and he really liked having the other man around. 

“I’m not going home. They have beds in the children’s rooms that I’ve been sleeping on. I don’t… I’m not leaving her here alone. And I can’t ask Yules or mamí to come watch her all the time. She’s my daughter. My responsibility. I can’t just…” He shook his head, unsure where he even wanted to go with that. “I can handle it, Ferit… You don’t need to worry about me.” He sighed softly as he made himself finish the coffee before standing up. “Come on… I want to head back upstairs, if you want to come with…”

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again, ferit gave evan a look of confusion. he’d just told him that he’d told him he didn’t have to show up, and when he offered to leave he didn’t want him to go? “it’s not a problem, if you’d rather me not be here,” he contended, licking his lower lip, still, making no move to leave. he still had every intention to stay and see bella when she woke up. he was a man of his word after all. the man couldn’t help the chuckle and the small smile that curled the corner of his face. 

ferit remained silent as evan spoke, nodding slowly. he didn’t know anything past what evan had told him as far as bella’s sickness and what she’d been through. what he’d been through. “it’s not that you can’t handle it, i know you can.” but you don’t have to, at least not alone, but he refused to say that. something in him wouldn’t let him say that. tilting his head, he watched evan for a few moments, observing his movements and taking him in silently. when evan finally stood up, so did ferit, though he did finally make a move to block him for the moment. 

holding his hand out, ferit rested it on evan’s chest momentarily, “hayir, you need to go home. take a shower. get some rest. i’m here evan - she won’t be alone and she won’t be alone when she wakes up.” he could see it in the other’s eyes just how truly drained he was. “you’re right, she is your daughter, but right now, your responsibility is also to keep yourself in good health.” ferit knew how much of a broken record he sounded, but he did also care. probably more than he audibly admitted to anyone beyond emre who had a bad habit of talking in his ear like a fly.

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Danielle Campbell as Harper Tate in Famous in Love

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*  DAVINA CLAIRE // VISUALS

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How I feel with every RP

RP partner: (writes fantastic starter with intricate dialog and plot settings)

Me: I have to go I'm too stupid to talk to you

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Welcome to Eden - 1x08

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♥ Send a ship and I'll give you who:

Gives nose/forehead kisses

Gets jealous the most

Picks the other up from the bar when they’re too drunk to drive

Takes care of on sick days

Drags the other person out into the water on beach day

Gives unprompted massages

Drives/rides shotgun

Brings the other lunch at work

Has the better parental relationship

Tries to start role-playing in bed

Embarrassingly drunk dancer

Still cries watching Titanic

Firmly believes in couples costumes

Breaks the expensive gift rule during Christmas

Makes the other eat breakfast

Remembers anniversaries

Brings up having kids

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“I did call you and… I’m pretty sure that I told you didn’t need to come.” He pointed out before yawning. He frowned a little, furrowing his brow as he considered Ferit’s words. It was so strange to think that someone found him or Bella important enough to fill across the world for them. “Really?” He hated how shocked and confused he sounded, but no one other than his mother and sister had ever dropped things for them. Maybe he could just chalk it up to being so tired. 

He rolled his eyes at the joke before scoffing softly. “I was not taking a nap.. I just… closed my eyes for a second. No big deal.” he waved his hand dismissively even though he knew Ferit was right. He was running himself ragged, but that was what happened whenever Bella got any sort of sick. It was just the flu or something, but with her heart, the doctors were always concerned. 

“I am okay, Ferit. It’s just been a busy week and I’m tired. You really didn’t need to come… But… Bella will be really excited to see you.” And so am I. I really appreciate it. But he couldn’t get himself to say the rest of it.

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licking his lower lip over again, he cleared his throat, and smirked, “well, if you’d like me to go, i can?” holding a hand up, he pointed behind him with his thumb but made no motion to actually get up from his seat. even if evan said that he wanted him to go, ferit had already promised bella that he would be there when she woke up - so he would at least stay that long to say hello to her and talk to her for a bit before leaving if that was really what he wanted. “yes, really.” confusion brought up ferit’s brow at evan’s question. was he questioning his statement or questioning that he had thought that bella being in the hospital was more important than the work he had. that was what partners were for. take care of things when he had other matters to attend to. 

smirking, ferit’s brow remained raised as he lifted one of his index fingers to the corner of his mouth and pointed as he spoke, “no? you’ve got some drool.” did he? maybe a little but not too much to really be noticeable. he wasn’t saying anything negative about it, ferit was sure that if he were in evan’s shoes, he would be doing the same thing. barely keeping afloat but also taking care of everything that had to be taken care of. the more time he spent with evan and bella, the more he saw and admired evan for doing what he did. people always forgot, there were single fathers in the world that worked just as hard and provided just as much as single mothers did.

glancing over his other shoulder, ferit sighed softly, “your mouth says you’re okay but your eyes say different.” clearing his throat, he leaned forward onto the table, his arms crossing over each other as he did. “i got a sleepy squeal of excitement went i went to her room,” a smile forming on his lips as he tilted his head. “evan, you really need to go home. take a shower, get some sleep.” did he think he would do it? no, absolutely not, but he had to try. while he didn’t know exactly how evan felt - he’d been on his side with emre in the hospital and been bella with emre and zeynep doing what evan was. so he knew probably better than most. 

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I called about the case file.

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Welcome to Eden - 1x07

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humming softly at his words, ferit nodded. then silently counted the seconds before he could see the gears in evan’s head working overtime in his exhaustion. “evet, that’s what they call me,” he teased, giving evan a wink as he moved to sit in a chair across from the other man. “you called me, and here i am.” stating the obvious, he licked his lower lip slowly. 

chuckling softly, ferit glanced over his shoulder before looking back at evan, shrugging, “i’ve always got work to do - but somethings matter more than that.” like being there for someone you cared about. clearly he was talking about bella - right? he and evan had become friends since ferit acquired his aunt’s house and in doing so had become somewhat attached to evan’s daughter. bella was a force in her own and she just stormed right in and settled in past ferit’s guard. “no, i thought i’d travel across the world for some hospital food and just happened to see you here. what a coincidence.” a laugh escaped him, it was a bad joke, he knew it. “i know you did, but i also know you well enough by now to know you’ll run yourself ragged.” his brow raising and giving evan a knowing look. “you were napping in a hospital cafeteria. that tells me all i need to know.” his head soon tilted as he looked the other over.

“how are you really?” even over the phone ferit could tell evan’s voice cracked when he said that bella was okay. it was clear he was worried about her. which was why he was there. even if it wasn’t anything life threatening - ferit wanted to be there for them. for both of them, even if he maintained face on it only her that had brought him back to this side of the world.

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Evan blinked a few times when he saw Ferit, a little smile on his face. “That’s a bit of an understatement…” He shrugged. It took a few moments for him to fully process who was standing in front of him. He shook his head a little and rubbed his face and eyes. “Ferit?” He sat up straight as he looked over at the man. “What… Why are you here?” Last time he’d spoken to him, Ferit had been on the other side of the world and yet now he was standing in front of him.

He knew that he’d called the man, but he definitely hadn’t been expecting Ferit to show up. They were friends, sure, which was why he’d let the man know about Bella. And there was no denying how much it meant to Evan that Ferit was there. In fact, it made him feel warm and happy. Happier than he really thought he had the right to feel while in the hospital. “I thought you had work to do?” He frowned a little as he tipped his his head. “…you… Did you come all the way here to see Bella? I said that she’s going to be okay…”

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when evan had called and told ferit that bella was in the hospital, he silently began to let his partners know that he would be leaving. how long bella had been admitted, he didn’t know. honestly, he was surprised that evan had even told him but now that he had the knowlege, ferit had hopped onto his plane and headed straight for los angeles. the trip was long, very long, and far too many timezones crossed over for his liking during one trip but for bella it was worth it. evan too but he wouldn’t readily admit that outloud. he wanted to be there for them both. so once he touched down, he ran to the store and picked up a little something for bella and headed towards the hospital. parking his car quickly, the male jogged into the hospital and went up to the services desk and asked where bella’s room was. 

his first stop was there. when he quietly entered into the room, he was greeted with a very sleepy little girl, who squealed with joy, “hey princess, i didn’t mean to wake you,” he whispered as he made his way over to her. “brought you something.” handing her the bear, he leaned over and pressed a soft kiss to the top of her head. “go back to sleep, i’ll be here when you wake up, promise.” giving her a smile, it almost made him laugh that as soon as she was snuggled up with his present, she passed right out. must be nice to be able to do that in general. he never forgot, though, that they were in the hospital. as quietly as he entered, he walked back out of the room and headed down towards the cafeteria. if he knew evan, he wouldn’t have gone home. he’d have gone there if he wasn’t passed out in bella’s room. 

his eyes scanned the room when he finally made his way through the maze of the building. the area smelled of breakfast food and it almost made him hungry. spotting the man he was looking for, his head tilted as he watched him while he walked in his direction. poor guy looked purely exhausted and ferit couldn’t blame him, not one bit. “long night?” it was more of a rhetorical question as he remained standing, a small smile on his features when he finally met with evan’s tired gaze. “you looked like you were, evet.” though after he responded to the question, he went silent. curious to see how long it would take evan to realize that ferit was there and not where he had been over twelve hours earlier when he last spoke to him.

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It had been a long week. Between the showings and the open houses, it felt like he didn’t even get a chance to sit down in his office. Then on top of that, he’d had to run back and forth to the hospital to see Bella. It didn’t seem that it was anything major, but Evan was a little paranoid when it came to his daughter’s health. Maybe a lot paranoid. Bella meant everything to him, and he always did his best to keep her happy and healthy. 

But Evan was exhausted. He’d gone down to the hospital cafeteria, even though he absolutely hated the food. But he needed to eat something, and Bella was resting. He found a table over to the side and had really just planned to eat a snack and have some coffee. The exhaustion started to pull at him though, and he let his head tip forward as his eyes closed. He had no idea how long he’d dozed off for, but he still startled away when he heard a voice. He looked up at the person who’d spoken with a somewhat bashful expression. “…did I fall asleep?” 

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