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Had the pleasure of doing this commission for @tumblingxelian for transfem yang week for trans pride

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https://www.tumblr.com/transfem-yang-week

Plus some alts

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TRANSFEM YANG WEEK

never enough

A Yang Xiao Long character study

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64484182

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Transfem Yang Week

For the first time in a long time, Yang is unsure in herself. The kind words and support of her team help her to push through.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64308100/chapters/165566866

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Transfem Yang Week

For the first time in a long time, Yang is unsure in herself. The kind words and support of her team help her to push through.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64308100/chapters/165566866

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Transfem Yang Week

Day Six: Body Image or Disability

Blake helps Yang to get ready for the day, while engaging in her favorite past time of making Yang squirm.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64308100/chapters/165493183

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Transfem Yang Week

Day Five: Presentation/Exploration

Over the years, Yang has had a lot of different outfits to her name. None of them have ever really been her, not fully, until now.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64308100/chapters/165412459

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Transfem Yang Week (Day 4) - What it's like to feel loved

[Yang sighed and snuggled her secret Raven plushie]

Ruby - Yang ? Are you ok ?

Yang - Yeah , I’m just …thinking

Ruby - Bout what ?

Yang - I’m not sure if Dad really loves me

Ruby - Why not ?

Yang - I…I think he loves his SON. The one who’s going to carry on his name , and show how masculine he is. But if I showed him who I really am

[Ruby thought for a moment for something to say , but being a young baby child , the words escaped her. So she carefully climbed over Yang's Raven , and Yang herself , and hugged her sister tight from behind]

Yang - [giggles] What are you DOING

Ruby - [strain] Hugging you so hard !

Yang - Why ?

Ruby - So you know what love feels like

Yang - Is this what love feels like ?

Ruby - Yes

[Yang was about to respond when she considered Ruby’s actions. Sometimes love was quiet, but the actions spoke volumes]

Yang - Thanks Ruby , you’re the best little sister ever

Ruby - Thank you ^^

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Transfem Yang Week Day 5: Presentation/Exploration

Yang held a white dress to herself as she looked at her reflection in the mirror. The fingers of her mechanical hand clenched the dress tightly as she tried to imagine herself wearing it once more. She could remember a time when she was ecstatic to try on anything feminine. Skirts, dresses, anything that could help her feel more like the girl she was. But now, as she stared at the dress, it didnt feel like her anymore. 

She slowly lowered the dress to put it away, pausing when she finally noticed Blake behind her. “How long have you been watching?” 

“Long enough to be reminded how you looked in that dress.” Blake wrapped her arms around Yang, resting her chin on her shoulder. “Thinking about wearing it again?” 

“I’m not so sure it’d fit anymore. Besides, its not exactly me anymore.” 

“Then what is?” 

“I’m… I’m not sure.” Yang pulled away from Blake and folded the dress up. “Before Beacon, I would’ve told you that all that frilly stuff was what I wanted. But now, after everything we’ve been through…” 

“I think I can understand.” Blake sat down and looked over Yang. “When I left the White Fang, it took a bit for me to figure myself out again. Like I lost a piece of myself.” 

Yang nodded and sat down next to Blake. “I spent so much time worrying about you and Ruby and all the rest of our friends that I stopped worrying about what I wanted.” 

“Now that we have time to rest, we can spend time figuring you out.”

“And what did you have in mind?” 

“We can go shopping tomorrow. Though, I think what you’ve been wearing suits you.” 

“You think so?” 

Blake nodded and leaned against Yang. “Do you not?” 

“I do, but I want to find something more that screams me.” Yang moved a hand to Blake’s back and rubbed it. “Figure myself out beyond just being a huntress or trans.” 

“You have plenty of time to figure it out. And we can start tomorrow.” 

Yang took a deep breath to try to relax herself, nervous. And yet, she felt calm with Blake next to her. A small smile crossed her lips as her nerves slowly started to fall away. As much as she dreaded going shopping, she knew everything was going to be alright. 

She knew she was a girl, and with Blake at her side, she was sure she’d figure out the rest of who she was. 

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Transfem Yang Week

Day Four: What It's Like to Feel Loved

A reflection on Yang and the many ways that she has and has not been loved, openly or not.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64308100/chapters/165340450

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Transfem Yang Week Day 4: What's it like to feel loved?

Yang put up a fake smile as she listened to Ruby and Weiss prattle on about the boys they were dating. It wasnt that she didnt like Mercury or Neptune, or talking about boys or girls or anything like that, but the more she listened, the more she wondered if anyone could ever love her. Well, more than just her family did. 

And yet, it felt like a dream that could never be hers. 

When she started to transition, she had started to think about what it’d be like to have a boyfriend, to have someone that could care for her and love her, to make her feel like a real woman. But over the years, the more she tried to find that love, the further away it seemed to get. Most guys stayed clear from her, and those that didnt seem to not want her for her, only as a prize. No matter how feminine she presented herself, it never seemed to be enough. 

“Are you going to answer Weiss’s question, Yang?” Ruby asked. 

Yang paused for a moment as she looked up from her lunch. “I-I uh… I didnt hear it.” 

Weiss rolled her eyes and scoffed. “Of course you didnt. I asked if you had your eyes set on anyone.” 

“I dont-” Yang put her fork down and stood up with her tray. “I should go study.” 

“Just dont be late to class.” 

Yang gave a small nod and let her smile drop as she walked away from her team. It didnt feel like she was allowed to have a crush, much less allowed to talk about anyone she was supposed to like. Not that she had really met anyone that she would admit having a crush on. None of the boys caught her eye and-

“Everything okay, Yang?” 

Yang nearly dropped her tray when she heard Blake’s voice. “Yeah, I’m fine.” 

Blake slowly followed behind. “Is this about what Ruby and Weiss were talking about.” 

“No, of course not,” Yang lied 

“You’re about as bad of a liar as Ruby is. They struck a nerve, didnt they?” 

Yang dumped the trash off her tray and put it away. “Its not that its… I love that they’re dating people that can love them, but I… I’m not allowed to have what they have.” 

“Why wouldnt you be?” 

“Because I’m… different.” 

“Being different doesnt mean you cant have love.” 

“It does when I’m not a girl like them!” Yang spat out, eyes going red for a moment. As her eyes went back to violet, she paused and looked away from Blake. “I should go-” 

“You’re as much of a girl like the rest of us,” Blake calmly said as she took Yang’s wrist to stop her. “I know a quiet spot where we can talk more about it. To put your mind to ease.” 

Yang looked away from Blake for a moment until she felt her gently pull on her wrist. With a silent nod, she started to follow her. Her mind raced with thoughts about everything she thought Blake would want to talk to her about. She followed through the halls and up to the rooftop, taking a few deep breaths of fresh air as she stared out over Beacon and the forest. 

“The view’s great, isnt it?” Blake asked as she sat down and stared out. “Figured its a quiet place for us to talk.” 

Yang sat down next to Blake and let out a soft sigh. “Why out here?” 

“To be alone. Easier to talk about things that way.” 

“I guess.” 

Blake gently put an arm around her. “What makes you think you’re so different that you dont deserve love?” 

“I-I…” Yang took a breath and pulled her knees to her chest. “If I tell you, you wont look at me the same way.” 

“Because you were born a boy?” 

“How did you-” 

“You’re not as quiet as you think you are with your medication,” Blake said with a smile as she pointed to her twitching bow. “But that doesnt matter. What matters is that you’re happy as yourself.” 

“Being happy with myself wont help others love me.” 

“It wont, but you still dont have to worry about that. There’s someone who loves you already.” 

“Ruby doesnt-” Yang’s words stopped as she caught a glance of the blush that started to cross Blake’s cheeks. A blush started to cross her own as she felt a hand on her thigh. Without another thought, she put an arm around Blake and pulled her close. “Thanks. I needed this.” 

Blake gave her a smile. “I know a place we can go to after classes tomorrow to eat. Just the two of us.” 

“I’d like that.” 

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transfem yang week day 4 - what it's like to feel loved

thank you to the lovely @/frishbi for bringing one of my favorite @professorspork scenes to life!

there's TONS of moments that stand out to me where yang's existence as a trans woman are handled with care. to loosely quote it, as a disabled trans woman, yang falls out of cishetero society's definition of "normalcy", and she constantly downplays her own desires or fears to compensate. i like the nail scene bc it seems so minor -- "little milestones of girlhood that passed her by" but with yangs tendencies to perform to seem less 'complicated', a scene where she's slightly vulnerable and keen has tons of weight!

and the casual importance of this is nailed through her body language. she doesn't move and she's hyperfocused. obviously blake isn't perfect and has her own stuff going on, but she remains attentive & values yang's comfort with genuine, almost bittersweet excitement at the novelty.

throughout the fic, blake makes things easy as a partner and friend, brushing past insecurities she's never had to consider and reassuring yang that she loves her and is there to stay through words and action. this moment has weight, but it's super simple. it doesnt read as this

big grand gesture with flashing lights (plenty of that saved for later!). it's just two girls doing something to pass the time, and in doing so we get a scene where they both feel seen, respected, and cherished.

shout out to the added layers of yang being a trans butch lesbian and all the extra gender navigation that comes with it. the fic does a nice job nodding at yangs unique positioning and how the presence of and lack of certain experiences shapes her relationship with blake (ie first time getting flowers, hyperfemininity as performance, nail painting, roles during intimacy, her blue collar job, etc)

this fic revolves heavily around adult themes and so for obvious reasons i will not be linking directly to it. but it does hold a very special place in my heart. anyway i will stop rambling!

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/64389160

@transfem-yang-week Day 4: "What its like to feel loved. created by me.

Summary:

A short one-shot for TransFem Yang Week Day 4 prompt "What its like to feel loved" featuring Yang and Ruby reuniting with Summer after finding her in the dungeons of Salems Evernight Castle after her Defeat.

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Transfem Yang (Day 2) - Taking up Space

Tai - I found you a present today Ruby !

[Tai produced a cute keychain of a red teddy ursa]

Ruby - [eyes lit up as she held it in her hands] It's so cute !

[Yang glanced at her and let out a smile. She was happy Ruby had something she liked, but she was jealous. She didn't get much of a chance to get cute things, but to have them freely given ? Unheard of]

Ruby - [noticing Yang's face, but keeping her eyes on her dad] I think Yang would like one too !

Tai - Ruby honey, I don't think Yang would ….

Yang- [speaking up at the chance without thinking] I WOULD

[Tai looked down at her skeptically, and Yang looked back at him. She felt like a bother, like she was stealing from Ruby's moment….but Ruby had given it to her….so]

Tai - …what color ?

Yang- Y…yellow

Tai - Ok…I will get you one tomorrow

[Tai walked away into his garden]

Yang - I…I did it

Ruby - [clotheslines her sister] YOU DID IT ! ----- Writing Requests are OPEN

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