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Loving someone with a substance abuse issue is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life. There’s an emotional weight that comes with it. It’s added to every minute of every hour of every day. You can never be alone with someone like this. It’s always me, him, and his drinking problem. Everywhere we go, everything we do. It’s there. It never goes away and it doesn’t take a day off. It’s exhausting.

And watching someone you care about so much hurt themselves every, single, day is more than I can bear. I’m running out of ways to tell him that he deserves more. That life is worth living sober because there are still good parts of it left. I’m running out of everything. Patience, time, strength.

I don’t really know what else I want to say here other than that this sucks and I had to write it down. I have therapy tomorrow, so, this was probably a waste of time.

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if you pull away, i’ll pull away.

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i wish there were a way to know that the last time you kissed someone was the last time.

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What I mean by “ruin” my life I mean in a good way. Like no don’t get out of bed stay with me call into work. I would. Or your broke I’m broke but I spend the last of my money to get you the food you want or some sweet shit like that. Not ruin in a bad way. Just wanted to clear that up there.

i hope in the future you find it within yourself to have this conversation with me personally because i honestly am not quite sure of how to respond to this outside of making it known that i appreciate your interest in my life and wellbeing. i hope you’re being kind to yourself.

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I’d let a woman like you ruin my life

not a single fabric of my makeup as a woman aims to ruin. i do absolutely nothing but tend to the garden of others. you don’t know me at all but i appreciate the sentiment.

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images fade with seasons but memories of you spill out of me like cuts on pavement.

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by Pablo Dominguez

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If it feels good, do it.

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Why are guys so fuckin stupid?

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The Damned Being Cast into Hell, Frans Francken the Younger, between 1605 and 1610

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The difference is that I'll leave you alone and I won't come back.

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For once in my life I wanna know what it’s like to have someone tell me why they love me without having to mention everything they’ve put me through & everything I’ve put up with to be with them in the same sentence.