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If women have a hard time accepting apologies, or declaring a public reckoning over, it may not be because theyâre vengeful grudge holders but because theyâve had little to do with the apology machine whose outputâmale epiphany, primarilyâthey are told they should accept. Women, in this arrangement, must be supreme apology catchers, grasping at any sorry volleyed into space, to no one in particular, for unspecified harms, on the assumption it was meant for them. Even in more private contexts, women are expected to accept some version of the thoughtless âflowers and chocolateâ routine in lieu of having their real concerns addressedâlike the women in This Is How You Lose Her, whose men cynically use âevery trick in the book,â as DĂaz writes in âThe Cheaterâs Guide to Love,â to pacify women injured by their betrayals (âYou blame your father. You blame your mother. You blame the patriarchyâ). Maybe women are simply exhausted from being insincerely managedâtreated like alien entities you appease with roses and Neruda rather than human beings whose rather modest desire is not to be lied to by people they love. The collection is called This Is How You Lose Her, but it functions, among other things, as an almanac of women who have stopped believing apologies made in bad faith.
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Because she left him, âhe made calls to several companies I received regular work from to get me fired by threatening to never work with them. He succeeded. I was blacklisted. With the assistance of a woman whoâd gained my trust and my heart over the past year, he steamrolled my career. The woman actively made it her mission to destroy my friendships. And she did, because by the time theyâd realized she was⌠an unreliable source⌠the damage had already been done. "To be fair, in break-ups like this one, some friends will just naturally gravitate towards the person who wields more power (and the ability to employ them), especially in the business Iâm in -- despite whatever history exists. Still, thereâs so much more to that womanâs story (including 6 other women whose reputations/careers she attempted to sabotage) but I donât want to digress too far from my point, which is abusive relationships, not friendships. This time in my life was agony.â
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Time and time again, spasms of violence in public places have been followed by investigations into the attackers and suspects. Many of those probes have unearthed reports of violence or threatening behavior against women in their lives. While research has shown that domestic violence is not universally a factor preceding public attacks, it has cropped up often enough following high-profile incidents to constitute a disturbing, recognizable pattern.
Mark Berman, "The persistent crime that connects mass shooters and terror suspects: Domestic violence"
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Why We Must Tell
In a moving defense of a survivor who has come forward about intimate partner violence in the leadership of the Manitoba New Democratic Party, journalist Melissa Martin writes:
Seven years ago, on a breezy day in late August, my live-in partner put his hands around my throat and slammed me into our couch. Weâd been arguing, again, and this time his anger lashed out like lightning, a sudden electric shock.
In retrospect, the attack didnât last long: a handful of heartbeats, a few seconds. At the time, it felt never-ending. All I could see were the dark pools of his eyes, which stared cold and glassy and hollow. All I could hear was a silence. I believe that âthenâ doesnât always have to mean âeverâ
Last week, I drove an old friend to the airport. Heâd moved away many years ago. So as I recounted my last relationship â with the flatness of time and years of practice â it fell on him as a fresh horror.
"I would have killed that guy, if I knew," my friend said.
I shrugged. "Nah," I replied. "Letâs not go there. Heâs not a bad guy."
And itâs true, believe it or not, that I donât consider the man who hurt me to be an irredeemably bad person. Years later, unprompted, he wrote me to apologize. It was a sincere apology, issued without requests or qualifications.
Because the apology was offered honestly, I accepted. Somewhere inside, old scars became mended.
So thereâs no torch for him in my heart now, but no anger either. He was not a healthy person back then, but I believe that "then" doesnât always have to mean "ever." For him and everyone around him, I want only for him to be better.
Yet if he were ever to step forward as a leader, and some enterprising reporter asked me about our time together, I would tell them what happened. I would tell them about those few seconds in August 2010, his hands, my fear.
Itâs something the public would deserve to know so they could test his avowed transformation. So they could hold him to account, with new information. So they could demand honest answers to the right questions.
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Itâs Not An Excuse
In this post, Buddhini Samarisinghe writes about the way that abusers use a history of trauma to excuse harm and enable further abuse. She writes:
I know that the man who abused me used his baggage to entrap me. I know that I explained away a lot of his abusive behaviors because of his baggage. The man who abused me is a skilled manipulator. Gaslighting is second nature to him, and he would spin stories to fit his agenda without batting an eyelid.
As a survivor of his abuse, itâs hard for me to separate the truth from his lies. I spend a lot of my time trying to do this â alone, with friends, with my therapist. Sometimes, questioning the things he told me feels wrong because of the essence of the question. Think about it â âdid he really experience childhood abuse or was he just saying that so I would feel sorry for him?â Now try to imagine how awful a childhood abuse survivor would feel to have their experiences questioned like this.
As a survivor of his abuse, I often notice that I am expected to take these extenuating circumstances into account when I consider his abuse. As if his baggage is somehow an excuse for what he did. As if I owe him empathy â as if I owe him the courtesy â to take these things into account when I take stock of my devastated sense of self. I hate how I am expected to be kind and empathetic and watch my language when I talk about this man who harmed me because he (allegedly) has a history of mental illness, substance abuse, childhood abuse. Accounting for his baggage and nuancing how I express my hurt and anger feels wrong.Â
Itâs wrong to expect the survivor of abuse to have empathy for their abuser.
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They Need Silence and Complicity
In this essay, Thomas Macaulay Millar examines the research on sexual assault, highlighting the prominence of acquaintance rape. His recommendations are worth reading:
Iâm directing this to men who inhabit het-identified social spaces, and Iâm not really limiting it more than that. Women are already doing what they can to prevent rape; brokering a peace with the fear is part of their lives that we can never fully understand. Weâre the ones who are not doing our jobs.
Hereâs what we need to do. We need to spot the rapists, and we need to shut down the social structures that give them a license to operate. They are in the population, among us. They have an average of six victims, women that they know, and therefore likely some women you know. They use force sometimes, but mostly they use intoxicants. They donât accidentally end up in a room with a woman too drunk or high to consent or resist; they plan on getting there and thatâs where they end up.
Listen. The women you know will tell you when the men they thought they could trust assaulted them; if and only if they know you wonât stonewall, deny, blame or judge. Let them tell you that they got drunk, and woke up with your buddy on top of them. Listen. Donât defend that guy. That guy is more likely than not a recidivist. He has probably done it before. He will probably do it again.
Change the culture. To rape again and again, these men need silence. They need to know that the right combination of factors â alcohol and sex shame, mostly â will keep their victims quiet. Otherwise, they would be identified earlier and have a harder time finding victims. The women in your life need to be able to talk frankly about sexual assault. They need to be able to tell you, and they need to know that they can tell you, and not be stonewalled, denied, blamed or judged.
Listen. The men in your lives will tell you what they do. As long as the R word doesnât get attached, rapists do self-report. The guy who says he sees a woman too drunk to know where she is as an opportunity is not joking. Heâs telling you how he sees it. The guy who says, âbros before hos,â is asking you to make a pact.
The Pact. The social structure that allows the predators to hide in plain sight, to sit at the bar at the same table with everyone, take a target home, rape her, and stay in the same social circle because she canât or wonât tell anyone, or because nobody does anything if she does. The pact to make excuses, to look for mitigation, to patch things over, to believe that what happens to our friends â what our friends do to our friends â is not (using Whoopi Goldbergâs pathetic apologetics) ârape-rape.â
Change the culture. We are not going to pull six or ten or twelve million men out of the U.S. population over any short period, so if we are going to put a dent in the prevalence of rape, we need to change the environment that the rapist operates in. Choose not to be part of a rape-supportive environment. Rape jokes are not jokes. Woman-hating jokes are not jokes. These guys are telling you what they think. When you laugh along to get their approval, you give them yours. You tell them that the social license to operate is in force; that youâll go along with the pact to turn your eyes away from the evidence; to make excuses for them; to assume itâs a mistake, of the first time, or a confusing situation. Youâre telling them that theyâre at low risk.
I saw economist James Galbraith not long ago â an economist beloved of progressives everywhere. Galbraith said, among other things, âFirst rule of economics: incentives work.â He was speaking in another context, but this applies to rape. The overwhelming prevalence of acquaintance over stranger rapes and of intoxication over overt force, and the relative rarity of weapon use and physical injuries, is easily explained. Rapists know what works. They like to rape, they want to keep doing it, they want not to be caught. It is in their interest to be very sensitive to which accounts of rape are believed and which are attacked and to know which targets and methods are lowest-risk for them.
What they do is what works. They rape their drunk acquaintances because it works. They rape their drunk acquaintances because we let them.
We need to revoke the rapistsâ social license to operate. We need to stop asking, âwhy do we think he didnât know she wasnât consenting,â which is the first question now, really. First as a cultural matter â leaving the legal matter aside â we need to adopt the stance that sexual interaction ought to always be had in a state of affirmative consent by all participants; that anything else is aberrant. If someone says, âI was sexually assaulted,â the first question should be, âwhy was a person continuing with sexual activity when zir partner did not want to?â
This is what it is: real rape happens when the attacker is drunk and the target is drunker and alone and isolated. Thatâs rape-rape. If he gets away with it, it will be, on average, rape-rape-rape-rape-rape-rape. If we refuse to listen, he can continue to pretend that the rapist is some guy in the parking lot late at night, when itâs actually him, in our friendsâ bedrooms half an hour after last call. If we let that happen, weâre part of the problem.
The rapists canât be your friends, and if you are loyal to them even when faced with the evidence of what they do, you are complicit.
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No Repercussions
This harrowing long-read by Melissa Jeltsen and Dana Liebelson outlines the intersection of state violence and intimate partner abuse:
In 1991, a researcher at Arizona State University testified to a congressional committee about a survey sheâd conducted of more than 700 police officers. Forty percent admitted that they had âbehaved violently against their spouse and childrenâ in the past six months (although the study didnât define âviolenceâ). In a 1992 survey of 385 male officers, 28 percent admitted to acts of physical aggression against a spouse in the last yearâincluding pushing, kicking, hitting, strangling and using a knife or gun. Both studies cautioned that the real numbers could be even higher; there has been startlingly little research since. Â Even counting arrests of officers for domestic crimes is no simple undertaking, because there are no government statistics. Jonathan Blanks, a Cato Institute researcher who publishes a daily roundup of police misconduct, said that in the thousands of news reports he has compiled, domestic violence is âthe most common violent crime for which police officers are arrested.â And yet most of the arrested officers appear to keep their jobs. Philip Stinson, an associate professor of criminal justice at Bowling Green State University in Ohio, uses an elaborate set of Google news alerts to identify arrests of law enforcement personnel and then attempts to track the outcome through news reports and court records. Between 2005 and 2012, he found 1,143 cases in which an officer was arrested for a crime of domestic violence. While he emphasized that his data is incomplete, he discovered convictions in only 30 percent of the cases. In 38 percent, officers either resigned or were fired and in 17 percent, he found no evidence of adverse consequences at all. Stinson noted that it wasnât uncommon for police to be extended a âprofessional courtesyâ in the form of a lesser charge that might help them avoid the Lautenberg Amendment [a federal law that prohibits anyone convicted of misdemeanor domestic abuse from owning a gun]. Officers could be booked for disorderly conduct instead of domestic assault. If they were charged with domestic violence, the prosecutor might allow them to plead to a different offense. Stinson has identified dozens of officers who are still working even after being convicted. Through public records requests, we also obtained hundreds of internal domestic abuse complaints made about police officers between 2014 and 2016 in 8 of the 10 largest cities in the country. Officers can be penalized internally whether or not criminal charges are filed âalthough the penalties may be minor and many complaints are not substantiated. An ABC 7 investigation this February found that nine of every 10 domestic violence allegations made against Chicago police officers by spouses or children resulted in no disciplinary action.
#intimate partner violence#intimate partner abuse#interpersonal harm#emotional abuse#state violence#police#abuser tactics
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Definition of Hostile
Another woman involved with Fox News has filed a lawsuit against the news outlet, detailing a harrowing account at the hands of a network employee, as well as retaliatory actions taken by network executives when she came forward -- including attempting to preempt a disclosure of coerced sex by leaking to a tabloid an alleged affair between the survivor and abuser. The New York Times reports:
The charges in this recent lawsuit echo accusations made by several other current and former Fox News employees after the sexual harassment scandal at the network burst into public view last year, exposing a culture where women said they had faced harassment and feared reporting inappropriate behavior.Â
The initial scandal led to the resignation of the networkâs chairman, Roger Ailes, and subsequent allegations prompted the network to force out its most popular figure, Bill OâReilly, among other personalities. Fox Newsâs parent company, 21st Century Fox, has attempted to clean up its workplace and move past the crisis, yet new allegations and litigation have continued to roil the network in recent months.
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Regarding âTwo Sidesâ
In an incredible op-ed, actress and director Amber Tamblyn recounts the cost of coming forward for women, writing:
When I was 21, I went into the office of a producer of the television show I was starring in to discuss a big problem. By this point I had been acting for more than a decade, and the show was very successful and beloved. Still, I was nervous about facing the firing squad of Emmys that sat behind him and saying what I had to say.
A crew member had kept showing up to my apartment after work unannounced, going into my trailer while I wasnât in it, and staring daggers at me from across the set. I liked him at first. He was very sweet and kind in the beginning. We flirted a bit on set. But I was in a relationship. And liking someone certainly didnât merit the kind of behavior he was exhibiting, which was making me feel unsafe.
My hands were freezing and I balled my wardrobe skirt up around my fists as I spoke. It was all caught in my throat â my embarrassment that it had gotten to this point. The producer listened. Then he said, âWell, there are two sides to every story.â
For women in America who come forward with stories of harassment, abuse and sexual assault, there are not two sides to every story, however noble that principle might seem. Women do not get to have a side. They get to have an interrogation. Too often, they are questioned mercilessly about whether their side is legitimate. Especially if that side happens to accuse a man of stature, then that woman has to consider the scrutiny and repercussions sheâll be subjected to by sharing her side.
Every day, women across the country consider the risks. That is our day job and our night shift. We have a diploma in risk consideration. Consider that skirt. Consider that dark alley. Consider questioning your boss. Consider what your daughter will think of you. Consider what your mother will think of what your daughter will think of you. Consider how it will be twisted and used against you in a court of law. Consider whether you did, perhaps, really ask for it. Consider your weight. Consider dieting. Consider agelessness. Consider silence.
Itâs no wonder that the federal Bureau of Justice Statistics reported that from 2006 to 2010, 65 percent of sexual assaults went unreported. Whatâs the point, if you wonât be believed?
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In polyamorous relationships, where we often explore romantic territory without a map of cultural reference points, it can be especially difficult to discern all the nuances. The subtle, shifting dynamics and complex problems of multiple partners can be part of the thrill of nonmonogamy, but it can also lead us to overlook the particularly challenging and painful presence of abusive behavior. This guide by Rebecca G. Power explores various ways that emotional abuse can play out within non-monogamous relationships.
#emotional abuse#interpersonal harm#intimate partner violence#intimate partner abuse#metamour#polyamory#nonmonogamy#polycule#abuser tactics
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From the poem What Surviving Is by Bogui:
But let me be clear: Abuse. Abuse, did not make you stronger. It showed you how strong, how full of life force you already were. Abuse did not show you the way with his fists, you showed yourself out with your own two fucking feet.
And let me be clearer: Abuse.. Abuse, did not build you. You are not his work of art. Abuse did not build you. You are not his work of art.
The âThank Youâ cards can stay in your desk: you are artist, art, and audience; you are strong like an amazon. You dodged every bullet and stitched every cut yourself. Listen well, kid: Abuse did not build you. You are not his work of art.
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This Isnât Romance
In response to the much publicized stunt of a man who vowed to play his piano until the woman who rejected him relented and took him back, Tauriq Moosa writes an impassioned critique of our societyâs twisted ideas -- and portrayals -- of romance:Â
Rejection is painful, but that pain doesnât give anyone license to disregard another individualâs assertion of boundaries â which is what rejection is: a drawing of lines excluding us. People are allowed to draw up whatever boundaries they like in terms of who they wish to spend time with or date. As adults we should learn to accept this and move on. But men have long been taught to disregard boundaries, as any glance at statistics of street harassment demonstrates.
People learn behaviours as they grow up in many ways, and itâs not just parents but society and pop culture that teach us whatâs acceptable. And these things teach us that such entitled behaviour is not only welcome, but a normal part of relationships. One of the highest rated sitcoms of all time, The Big Bang Theory, has a lead female character outline the basis of her romantic relationship with the male lead by saying: âHe started to slowly wear me down.â Cue laughter. On another occasion: âHe didnât trick me, he just wore me down.â More laughs.
Instead of being welcomed willingly into her life, he had to âwearâ down her boundaries until she felt forced to let him in. Thatâs not a love story, thatâs a home invasion. Films like Love Actually, The Notebook, and many others tell us that menâs persistence in the face of rejection is admirable. Itâs a âstruggleâ that a heterosexual man must go through to âget the girl.â
Showing this boundary crossing behaviour as acceptable, instead of a problem, tells men it is OK in real life. As the academic Julia Lippman noted, âdepictions of these romanticized pursuit behaviors can in fact have a clear and negative impact, in that they can lead people to see stalking as a less serious crime than they otherwise would.â
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On the evening of September 7, 2017, dozens gathered on the University of Minnesota (UMN) Minneapolis campus and marched in an open show of resistance against rape culture during the fraternitiesâ prime recruitment week. Independent news outlet Unicorn Riot reports on the recent history of gendered violence by fraternity chapters at UMN.
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State-Enforced Isolation
After the assault, Stephanie went home and looked up an article on consent that she recalled reading when she was younger. She posted it on Facebook with the note, "I think the world is due for a timely reminder about consent.â
This commonplace act of seeking and sharing the words of others to describe or communicate our own experiences would feature in her rapistâs acquittal. While reading her decision, Ontario Court Justice Leslie Chapin said "the fact that she did look up articles about consent when she was home, leads me to think that there was some genuine confusion on her part as to whether or not she was consenting."
As Manisha Krishnan reported for Vice, sheâs not the only rape complainant who has seen her social media output combed by the defense. During the course of her investigation, Krishnan was told by a Vancouver privacy consultant that the best bet for survivors is to shut down their social media accounts completely once they report a crime and to not talk about anything publicly until the proceedings are over.Â
Itâs almost like the system is built to isolate, neutralize and retraumatize survivors, or something.Â
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The Body Remembers
The journey to heal from trauma is a long one. In this piece on the BGD Blog, social worker and trauma-sensitive yoga instructor, Carmen Leah Ascencio describes six crucial things to help survivors on their journey to reintegration after trauma. Among them, she notes:
Know that trauma is remembered in the body, one has to do more than talk it out to heal.
Part of what is most difficult in recovering from trauma is the way our brain records and stores memories about trauma. Survivors not only have to contend with the negative stories they have internalized about themselves because of something bad that someone else did to them, but they also have to deal with their brains and nervous systems not being able to understand when they are in danger and when they are not.Â
People who have experienced violence or abuse donât remember traumatic events; they re-experience them. Traumatic memories are stored in the part of the brain responsible for human emotions and the fight or flight response. When a traumatic memory surfaces, the parts of the brain linked to emotions and physical functioning are stimulated, causing survivors to feel like the traumatic event is happening in the present rather than like it is something in the past.
If the trigger happens in the body, any helpful intervention must also happen there. There are numerous physical practices that can help rewire your brain to help calm the alarm that your survival brain is sounding. These practices include yoga, martial arts, dance, somatic therapy, specialized bodywork, and physical exercise, among other things. Anything that gets you to befriend your breath and body with awareness when you are triggered will help.
#trauma recovery#trauma impact#reintegration#healing from abuse#healing from trauma#emotional abuse#sexual assault#domestic violence#domestic abuse#interpersonal harm
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Gaslighting in Action
In this long-read about gaslighting, Nora Samaran shows us an instance of gaslighting in action. Using an innocuous example of a friend who is not able (for whatever reason) to express his feelings and who lies about the meaning of his reaction, Samaran skillfully shows us just how destructive gaslighting is not only in terms of our ability to calibrate our understanding of others, but also in terms of our ability to trust ourselves -- even when the misdirection is not a big deal. She writes:
I phone a close male friend Iâve known for many years. Iâm upset, and Iâd like to vent, maybe hear some supportive loving words and maybe ask advice. This friend sometimes feels physiologically overwhelmed by emoting, and sometimes finds it brings him closer to people and welcomes it. In this moment, he snaps âI canât talk right now, here,â and tosses the phone to his female partner, who enjoys these kinds of conversations.
I feel mildly hurt by the abruptness and since weâre all very close, I mention it to the partner, who relays that to him. He says from across the room âNo no, Iâm not upset at all with you, I just am washing dishes and getting dinner ready, thatâs all.â She relays this to me: âhis tone of voice had completely nothing to do with anything you said, itâs just him feeling stressed about dinner.âÂ
We all agree thatâs all it was and I repeat those words. I believe it completely. I think I must have misread him, and say, âOh, sorry! Itâs totally okay!â and apologize for asking to talk when heâs got things on the stove. I decide my perception -- that he has just snapped at me while I am upset and tossed the phone away without any kind words, as if Iâve done something to make him angry -- must have been just me completely misreading him. I abandon my perceptions and calibrate my understanding of his needs with this new information; heâs okay with listening to emotions, just not at this time of the day.
When I say âsorry,â however, I feel a little funny -- some part of me is not sure if Iâm apologizing for my timing, or for having emotions. I think I am wrong to feel shaken at being snapped at. I doubt my perception. His words directly contradict what my limbic brain is telling me is happening.Â
We donât talk about it and I add to my repertoire of knowledge that that is just what my friend looks like when heâs multitasking, and that it wasnât a response to me being upset at all. Because that is what he said.
A few months later we are talking and heâs been doing some emotional work on some of his own feelings, increasing his capacity to handle emotion. He says âhey, you know that time you called needing an ear and I snapped at you and threw the phone away without checking with you, then said I wasnât upset with you and was just busy doing dishes and making dinner? I actually was having a really big physiological response to your emotions and couldnât deal." This isnât shared as a big revelation; heâs known for a while it was the case and just is sharing because heâs excited about what heâs learning. Nobody is upset at anybody in this moment -- itâs just an interesting conversation about feelings.
I stop. I realize that my perceptions had been accurate the first time. I try to take in that I had erased my perceptions of that small moment. And not only that: in order to be a good and loving friend, I had internalized a new pattern of information about the meaning of my friendâs behavior, which means I had continued denying my perceptions for weeks, any time I thought back on that moment.
And that maybe I didnât need to; maybe my perceptions were fine. He had snapped at me, and tossed the phone off like a hot potato, and seemed really emotionally overwhelmed, but I had taken in âjust doing dishes not upset with youâ and recalibrated my reading of him with that info, because I trust him and I wanted to take in his words about himself.Â
And yet in a very ordinary, everyday way, his words about himself were not actually true. More to the point, they did not match my bodyâs knowledge about what had just happened: his emotional overwhelm. His overwhelm was not, in itself, a big deal; people can have different bandwidths for emotions at different times. If heâd said âIâm feeling overwhelmed by emoting right now,â weâd both have been in the same reality and my response would still have been âoh, okay, all good, Iâll talk to her instead.â
I realize that while I can, in the moment, respect his needs either way, it would have been much less harmful to me to trust my own perceptions over his words, which were emotionally dishonest.cI could have heard his words ânot upset with you at all, just have my hands full with dishes and dinner," and thought âokay, he seems to just be feeling emotionally overwhelmed, and I guess he doesnât feel able to say so, so heâs saying something else. Thatâs okay.â
Either reason for not being available is okay; but one is true, and the other is not. One gives me an accurate ability to calibrate my internal compass; the other disrupts it â if I trust his words over my perceptions.
#gaslighting#emotional abuse#intimate partner violence#intimate partner abuse#domestic abuse#abuser tactics#interpersonal harm
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