toxicphobia

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i could try to run away from my mother but she would follow me. she would follow me in the way i smile, in the way i cry, in the way i turn silent when i am angry and she would follow me when i am in pain.

there are days where i hate her, where her silence gets too much to bear. there are days where i look into her eyes and i am sure there is no place better. but on days that i hate her and on days that i love her, i realise that she is a reflection of me. or i, of her.

and so, how can i hate her when she is what i am made up of?

-🐍

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Am I supposed to be silent for you?

Are you supposed to be a god?

I see your human ways, I see your flesh

You hold up this image that is so grotesque.

I will stand where I stand

I will take my side with the innocent.

I will take my stand with love.

Because that is one thing I know you lack.

A beast that just spits fire and venom

Your words are lethal.

You dance with the wicked

You kill the living soul with dread.

Am I supposed to be silent for you?

Well for you I will not.

You may have power

But that will never make you a god.

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laugh lines, stretch marks, eye crinkles, i love bodies that are lived in……

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During periods, I suffer from what I like to call "constipated diarrhoea". Like, I'm writhing in pain trying to get shit out but for the longest time it doesn't, but when it does man it just keeps on flowing that I need to sit on the toilet seat for an hour and IT FUCKING HURTSSSSSSS

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If there's one thing my 4 year old cousin taught me, it's that nothing is cringey unless you think so or someone else points it out. You like wearing cute clothes as an adult? That's cringey. You like listening to k-pop and anime music? That's cringey.

NO IT'S FUCKING NOT. It's just another way to put your interests down.

Yes, my cousin is way smarter than me and most of the adults I've ever met.

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I've been wanting to say this for a very long time, thanks for putting it into such eloquent sentences.

it’s so strange how the relationship dynamics u established with one person are so wildly different to the dynamics u have established with someone else. like yes I have one personality for u and a different personality for everyone else I know. it’s like we’re all just one person but also a hundred people at the same time

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my favorite love language is trying, actually

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Every "_world" performance by seventeen is such a serotonin boost omg like they look SO FLUFFY AND WARM AND COZY I WANNA CUDDLE EACH ONE OF THEM ESPECIALLY WONWOO OMFG

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physically I’m working, mentally I’m a cat dozing off in a quiet little bookstore