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This was me sometime around NYE, When I had a social life, thanks to working nights an this covid 19 shit, that has all seemed to no longer exist.

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Need to find this lingerie set!

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Goals!

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If you're a trans girl who likes trans girls, please reblog this <3

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If I were a cis girl

I wouldn’t be suicidal.

I wouldn’t be a drug addict.

My parents would love me.

I'dve finished uni. (im 27 and still not graduated)

I’d have IRL friends.

I’d enjoy sex.

Wouldn’t have to close my eyes when in the shower.

I could go to the beach or a swimming pool.

I could paint my nails and wear makeup.

I could talk the way I really want to.

I could sing and not hate my voice.

I’d enjoy being a musician more.

I would probably sleep.

I’d enjoy cosplay.

I wouldn’t be shy and reserved.

I would have had a childhood.

IF I WERE A CIS GIRL I WOULD BE HAPPY TO BE ALIVE

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When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

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TRANS WOMEN RESOURCES MASTER POST

I tried to dig up as many resources and tutorials as possible from old master posts and normals posts as a lot of people have been complaining about the lack of resource posts for trans women. If you have anything to add please go ahead

CLOTHES ETC

Fashion71 (F/M)

ClothingUnder10 

$5 Fashions 

TenFifteen 

TenDollarMall (F/M) (No international shipping)

Eastclothes 

Gojane 

Dresslink 

Moddeals 

dress lily 

sammy dress

brave store 

viejos amores

chiara fashion 

love culture 

ami club wear 

fashion 71

east clothes

Miss A  (Accessory/makeups $1 shop)

glitter  Accessory/makeups

kmms  Accessory/makeups

mba cosmetics  Accessory/makeups

Cheap makeup (ELF)

MAKEUP TUTORIALS ETC

How to hide stubble (Tumblr post)

How to Contour and Highlight Using Makeup (video)

How to Apply Eyeliner with a Spoon (video)

How to Apply Foundation (video)

How to Apply Blush (video)

How to Apply Eyeshadow (video)

tutorials for beginners

quality makeup for less money

choosing foundation

ask mod li about makeu

How to apply makeup for the absolute beginner

 [trans-specific, p. useful]

Foundation for Dark Skin (2) (3) What products are and how they are used

A brand that makes products specifically designed to go over stubble

What brushes do what

, 

(2)

How to Choose Foundation

How To Apply Eyeliner (Using Tape)

WIGS

amphigory

lock shop

funny wig

quality low budget wigs

cute hairstyles on pinterest

more cute short femme hair

hairstyle guide & beauty

GL Wigs

Wowwigs

Arda Wigs

Wig Salon

Hairbird

Others (in list format from a myriad of sources)

TUCKING

tucking and creating gaffe [video] 

tucking forum and thread 

Tucking How-to Guide

BREASTFORMS

sewing pattern for silicone bead forms

low budget diy breast forms [video] 

creating cleavage with bras [video] 

“illusion” cleavage with makeup [video] 

Realistic Breast Form Tutorial (Video)

The Breast Form Store

Cheap (Sale) Breast Forms

Breast Form Adhesive Discs (For wearing breast forms without mastectomy bra)

How to create cleavage using a silicone bra (video)

Measuring Bra Size for Trans Women

Mastectomy Bras with Built In Flap for Breast Forms

Breast Form Adhesive Discs (For wearing breast forms without mastectomy bra)

How to make home made breast forms

amoena

OTHER

Women’s Clothing Terminology Chrysalis (Lingerie for Trans Women, autoplay music) Cheap Control/Shaping Briefs TheLeelahProject (Provides free essentials to those who cannot afford them)

surgery booklet 

hrt booklet

Trans Health Matters: Trans Women

Bust enlarging pads

Bum enlarging shapers

Transgender advice and resources list

Transfriendly- online forum for trans community

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Along time away

Well now that life seems to back on the up an up, I'd figure it's time for a post to try to stay up to date. I was homeless since around Sept 2018, up till the middle of this month ( Mar 2019). There have been afew positive things that have happened in between this time, I got a job finally, after being unemployed for nearly 2 years, and I finally started HRT at the end of Jan this year, about effin time! Some of the negetive things that happened, haven't spoken to family still, now going on two years. Spent the holidays with my dog, just to avoid any possible undue stress and negetivity. Now coming up on April, things are starting to look up and up more as each day passes. Still don't feel comfortable posting selfies, but, as I'm starting to feel better about myself as the days pass, maybe soon I'll actually post one soon. Right now I'm on 1mg estrogen, and 100mg Spiro. In late April, I get my 3month blood work, and possible medication adjustments, which will require another update. Soooo it gives me something to look forward to.

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I know the ferlung all to well!!!!

When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

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Sooooooo CUTE!!!!

(via painthands)

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Me and a good friend celebrating my first Pride Parade!!

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Waiting for my first Pride Parade in Dallas. Its HOT AS HELL! But atleast I'm made it, Fianlly!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/BnzupBUhjL18FZbkSzniYmEDc5HtNEWrOl74i40/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=15ehavdwqc690

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