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Even If I Am Not

Even if I am not the one

holding your hand as you run in rain

eyes shining bright,

showing no hint of sorrow or pain.

Even if I am not the one,

you are smiling at,

seeing your lips curl up,

makes my heart ripple.

Even if I am not the one,

walking by your side,

not the one kissing your lips,

I am glad my shadow touching you is no longer a fear.

Even if I am not the one,

in whose hand you slide the ring.

I am glad to disappear forever,

if it means I can see you smile for all eternity and everywhere.

I am glad I am not the one,

holding your hand, for you

would crumble away

be carried into nothingness.

Even if my selfish wish

for being able to call you mine

without taking that sparkling light

away from your eyes can never come true.

Never will I be able to

see you smile as you look at me,

I am glad my shadow will never

touch you or your smile.

Gladly I shall go away,

for it is a small price

for keeping on, your

face, that enchanting smile.

Even as I disappear,

I could only wish to gods

that forever on your lips

let there be happiness’ smile.

Even if I am not the one,

you hold in your sleep

I shall gladly disappear,

so you can keep your smile.

Even if it breaks my heart,

to see you hold a hand that isn’t mine.

I will suppress my selfish wishes

for all I ever want you to do is smile.

Even if those three words

can’t leave my throat.

It shatters me,

to know you will never hear me.

I plead before the gods and devil

for the last time,

to let you know

everyday and still today, I will always love you.

With everything I had,

with everything I have,

with everything I will ever have,

I love you, and will always do, till I take my last breath.

-@datpotatolover

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Picture perfect Misery™

She's clawing her way up my veins her beanstalk 

Digging into them a little too hard 

I feel her in the pangs that shoot down 

Quick enough for me to question 

Was it real 

Why can't the chemicals in my head flow around blithely as they did for her

Ive no good old days to look bck on 

As far as I can think bck I ve been 

Picture perfect Misery

Casting her shadows as she weaves in n out of my ribs 

Finds herself lurking at the 12th one 

Free, floating all by itself 

Destined to never meet another like it 

And my shoulder blades throb 

As if aching for the wings 

That never existed 

She's pounding hard 

Growing desperate 

against the walls of my dome 

Is there no way out of here 

Alas no one's out here dear lassie 

No one's coming to get you out 

It's just you and me 

Just us in our 

Picture Perfect Misery

I doodled that with my calloused index finger which isn't sensitive on tab screens , silly Lil me

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Veiled sculptures have got to be one of the top favourite art pieces ever of mine, the sheer talent to create this illusion of transparency on hecking marble blows my mind

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Every day makes me more closer to the belief I truly will never mean everything to anyone

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I don't see any purpose in life anymore, every day blends together and I never feel real. i hate the way I act, speak, walk, look, everything, I'll never be good enough for anyone, I'll die one day, why wait it out

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I be checking my phone like I mean something to someone

😂silly fucking me 😂

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Looking at myself and realizing I’ll never look the way I want to makes me want to peel my skin off piece by piece god I’m so fucking vile looking

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i love becoming distant to everyone bc one random thursday night i noticed the people i cared about didn’t care about me the way i did haha

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You can spam boop me!

reblog if you let people spam boop you

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Reblog if your blog is boopable-safe so you can get all the (probably new) achievements. I don’t care about notes I just want boops

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*knocks on your door*

its always open to you lovie

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ada limón, ‘salvage’ // broken social scene, ‘anthems for a seventeen year-old girl’ // v.e. schwab, ‘the secret life of addie larue’ // lorde, ‘ribs’ // my search history // @/delicatethunders, tumblr

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posts that make me want to rip my heart out part 5

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-despite everything, there is still love

@arthoesunshine/ @artsheila/ @daisies-on-a-cup/ @gayarsonist / @hjarta/ @yunawinter on twitter/ @bakwaaas/ @death-born-aphrodite/ anon on gentleearth/ @classicnymph on twitter

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"I love you , I'm glad we're friends"