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Oh my god! Something I want to say to you is that you made my entire morning 🥹 and you are so so sweet and I see you like spn TOO! 😍

And I know it didn’t give the option to request a story BUT I am going to do one anyway so I can get that good fluffy angst you said you could write 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

Buck butt dials Tommy while babysitting Jee

I think you can squeeze some of both out in there 😂🫶

Aww it's nice to know I could spread a little bit of happy! I'm glad. And haaaa, yes, spn is my special interest/hyperfixation/the fandom that just won't quit.

Thank you for the prompt! I love it. I wrote a lot of this while in the waiting room at the vet's, so I make no promises about the quality. Also oooof, writing kids. How does Jee talk in canon? I could not tell you.

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Tommy groans and presses his face further into the couch cushion. If anyone—and he does mean anyone—needs anything they’re going to be shit out of luck because he’s cutting himself off from the whole damn world until his next shift.

But it’s fine. He’s fine. Everything is real fucking fine.

And then the phone rings.

The temptation to ignore it is strong, but there is the chance it’s something important. And if it’s not, then he can hang up unceremoniously. Maybe that’ll be fun. (Yeah, things are so “fine” that his bar for fun is on the ground.)

He grapples for the phone where the default ringtone is blaring on his coffee table. Without giving the screen more than a glance he answers, pulling himself upright.

He rubs the back of his neck and sniffs. “Hello?”

There’s nothing but muffled noises from the other end. Great. Tommy sighs and pinches the bridge of his nose.

“Hello?” He tries again, gruffer, voice pinched with anger.

And then a bright voice lets out a bubbling laugh—a child’s easy, cascading giggle. And oh goddamnit, he thinks. He knows that giggle.

“There you are!” another voice says, and it’s so familiar, so dear, that his whole chest squeezes. “What are you doing, huh? Thought you could steal uncle Buck’s phone?”

“For pictures!” Jee-Yun says. “I wanna show mama the cookies.”

“Well we can’t take pictures while they’re still in the oven. We’ve got to let them cook.”

Tommy’s heart plummets down into his gut. He knew it wasn’t outside the realm of possibility that he would have to hear Evan’s voice again, but he hadn’t expected it to be so soon. And he hadn’t expected him to sound so happy and open. Tommy had braced himself for cold or indifferent, maybe even some repressed suffering or quiet with a splash of bruised dignity. He'd been ready for that. The usual b-roll of disparaging self-talk was already set to play.

You hurt him. He's better off without you. You knew it wouldn't work out and look what you did, you tried again anyway.

He had not been prepared for a reminder of why he'd cared for Evan so much in the first place. That buoyant smile he wore, the sparkle in his eye, that heart so big it threatened to tear the very seams of him open. Tommy had done one better and taken the seam ripper to Evan himself.

He should hang up. His hand clenched tight around his phone.

No, really. He should hang up. This isn't meant for him. This is a domestic moment just between Evan and Jee - a cute kid and her kind, goofy uncle who's apparently helping her make cookies. It's invasive, he knows, and Tommy hates himself a little for it. (The self-talk A-side features such hits as "stupid bastard," "I'm worthless aren't I" and the seminal classic "fuck you, Tommy, you don't deserve to be loved.")

But he doesn't hang up.

He holds his breath instead and listens, hoping for even a crumb of the man he was falling in love with. That some part of him aches for still.

"More cookies!"

"Oh you want to make another batch?"

"Yeah, with more chocolate chips. All the chocolate chips!"

Evan laughs and Tommy wants to wrap himself up in the sound. "Well, uh, looks like we've got a bag left so we can at least use those chocolate chips. Wanna whip up some more while these are in the oven?"

Jee claps and cheers and Evan laughs again. To Tommy it's a shot right to the heart. "I like cookies," she says. "I'm going to eat them all."

"Well you can have them, Jee. I'll pack them up and you can take them home to your mom and dad."

"Dada says he doesn't want any more of your baking. He said he's had so much cake he's made of cake."

"Made of cake, huh? You know Hen made your dad a cake of himself once?"

"Yummy!" Jee and Evan giggle together and Tommy sinks down onto his couch and tries to fight back a smile. At this point he's invested. He needs to hear more about those cookies. Will they really use the whole bag of chocolate chips? What about the ones in the oven? What flavor cake would Howie be? Yeah, sure, maybe it makes him kind of a creep to stay on the phone after a butt dial - especially since he's the one who dumped Evan - but he feels like an asshole anyway so he might as well embrace it.

"But you'll take the cookies, right?"

"Uncle Buck! Yeah! My cookies. Make more!"

"Hmm." Evan laughs again, but this time he sounds bitter. Tommy wants to run to his truck right now and go wrap him up in his arms. "I don't think I'm going to stop baking anytime soon. You know, I... I had a friend. A really, really special friend. But we aren't going to be seeing each other anymore."

"Aww, that's sad."

Tommy can just imagine Evan leaning in and giving her a quick hug. "Thanks, sweetheart. It is sad. And so every time I think about him, or want to call him... I bake."

Jesus. Another shot to the heart. Bodied by talk of some fucking pastry is an embarrassing way to go. He puts his hand to his mouth to keep from making a sound.

"You must miss him a lot. I'm sorry, Uncle Buck."

"It's okay." There's a pause, with only the sounds of whatever they're doing in the kitchen. The clink of a glass mixing bowl. The rustle of the bag of chocolate chips. Maybe there's eggs, a container of brown sugar, a sweep of dusty flour across the soft plain of Evan's cheek. "I do miss him a lot," Evan says, and his voice is quiet. Tommy has to strain to hear him well. "I think I... Being an adult is hard sometimes, Jee. You can't just say sorry. I don't even know what I did wrong. But I think I could have loved him. Maybe I do love him."

"Mama says love's the secret ingredient. Is that why your cookies are so good? Because you stuff all the love in them?"

"Yeah, Jee. If Tommy doesn't want my love, that means there's that much more for you!"

And that's it. Tommy thinks he might throw up. Another hit, right in the net, a fucking hat trick to destroy him. He can't listen anymore. He hangs up, like he should have done right from the start. Then he tosses his phone onto the other side of the couch - but he overshoots, and it skids across the arm right onto the floor. It lands with a thud and with his luck it's probably broken.

Tommy lays down, hands pressed over his eyes. It's probably broken.

Yeah, he thinks. It's broken.

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the thing about lou is like he's hot, yeah, and very classically handsome, but he's also goofy and kind of weird and a little bit of a nerd and quite honestly that makes him like 50000000% hotter.

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after they get married, would buck take tommy’s last name? would tommy take buck’s? would they hyphenate? or would they keep their own names? tell me what you think

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hi! so i can guess what eddieblr means but wondering what exactly is considered eddieblr

idk if this is in good faith or not anon but eddieblr’s become shorthand for a lot of shitty behaviour in this fandom. I feel like this should be directed to @eddieblrs (mwah love you Hayden 😘) if you really wanna get into it

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some images to help you make your decision:

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hi! so i can guess what eddieblr means but wondering what exactly is considered eddieblr

idk if this is in good faith or not anon but eddieblr’s become shorthand for a lot of shitty behaviour in this fandom. I feel like this should be directed to @eddieblrs (mwah love you Hayden 😘) if you really wanna get into it

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shannondiazs »»»»» eddieblrs

if there's something i will do is commit to the bit ☺️🫶 tagging some lovely mutuals below so they don't block me if they see me in their notes lmao

@louisjude @ohithankyou @loullaby @misterapril @tommykinard @tommykinard217 @chimneyz @theweewooshow @louvemeanyway @kinardbuckleys @bucksboobs @kinardevans @robertsbarbie @loucifersbitch @louciferssacrament @shaunashipman @apartmentsmoke @thetommykinard

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RYAN GUZMAN as EDMUNDO "EDDIE" DIAZ 9-1-1 - S05 E16 · May Day

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(I'd lost my way but now I'm home) Why don't you show me a real life With your hand in mine?

(in/sp)

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Drunk Buck calling Tommy at 1:30 in the morning to ask him to pick him and Eddie up from a bar. Tommy shows up in his sleep sweats and an old t-shirt to carry his lovesick boyfriend and his angry best friend out of the bar before Eddie got into a fight.

I asked @hunnysfwart to draw this thought for me. Thanks babe 🥰

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TOMMY KINARD | 💜

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TOMMY KINARD | Daddy Issues.

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WICKED (2024) dir. Jon M. Chu

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EDDIE DIAZ + FUNNY MOMENTS 5/ ⋯ ▸4x01, the new abnormal

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but can I donate if I’m not a bucktommy fan

I know this is a bait ask but I’ll answer anyway.

As long as the donation link works for you, you can donate! In the event it doesn’t work, you can donate directly to the California Fire Foundation. After that, if you’d like, you can send me your receipt (private info removed) and I will add your donation to the GoFundMe.

The name “bucktommypositivityproject” was merely created because it’s the fandom I’m in. The fundraisers themselves have nothing to do with the characters or actors who play them. Anyone can donate, anyone can get involved. The only thing that matters is being kind! 😊 ❤️

*reminder that this fundraiser will be closing on January 23rd, then I will begin posting for a new fundraiser beginning in February*

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madney accidental pregnancy part 2 meant we were robbed of a montage of Chimney and Maddie trying to get pregnant

there could have been sexy shenanigans