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rage baiting your bf!sunghoon smau
let’s just say… you never joked about handing out his number again. but you definitely teased him into “getting mad” a few more times after that. because flustered, territorial sunghoon?
Yeah. Worth every second.
rierie’s note: found this trend funny and i need to try it out😭 ENJOY! REBLOG AND FEEDBACKS will be deep appreciated typos ahead!






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𝓓𝓻𝓪𝔀𝓷 𝙸𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚈𝚘𝚞 | psh
pairing: fictional character sunghoon! x reader
wc: 21.2k :))
synopsis: Y/N finds comfort in a quiet webtoon about Sunghoon, a gentle boy who feels more real than her exhausting life-until one night, he steps out of the screen. As they share slow mornings, stargazing, and healing moments, she begins to rediscover joy. But not all stories are meant to last... or are they? Drawn Into You is a soft, magical romance where love steps off the page and into reality.
a/n: new format! tried to squeeze all 21k words hehehe FEEDBACK AND REBLOGS are deeply appreciated! lowcaps intended! not proof read!
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the rain didn’t stop for three days.
by the third afternoon, the city was gray all the way down to its bones—skies overcast, sidewalks slick, students shuffling across the streets with umbrellas like slow-moving insects in a muted watercolor painting. somewhere among them was y/n, shoulders hunched beneath her oversized hoodie, earbuds tucked in without music playing.
she didn’t want music. not today. not when everything inside her already felt too loud.
another skipped lecture. another ignored message in the group chat. another unread announcement from her professor about an upcoming deadline she was pretending didn’t exist. she had planned to go to class that morning. even made coffee. even put on lip balm. but one step outside her apartment and it felt like the world was pressing on her chest again—like breathing in too deep might shatter something.
it wasn’t always this way.
there had been a time, not long ago, when y/n moved through the world with a little more color. not quite shining, not exactly loud, but steady. present. the kind of girl who always had tissues in her bag, who remembered birthdays, who checked in on others with quiet sincerity. people liked her. at least, the version of her they knew. the one who didn’t cry in the shower or fall asleep with textbooks open beside untouched meals.
university changed her. or maybe it just peeled back the layers. revealed the cracks.
the loneliness didn’t arrive all at once—it crept in slowly. a missed lunch here. a one-sided friendship there. a roommate who transferred without warning, a study partner who stopped replying, a professor who barely remembered her name despite calling roll weekly. no fights. no betrayals. just… fading.
she became someone who was always around but never really there. background noise in everyone else’s story. so she clung to stories that made her feel seen.
at first, it was dramas. then comfort movies. but eventually, she found something better. something quieter. a little webtoon tucked in the “underrated” section of the reading app. barely two thousand followers. no splashy art or dramatic plotlines. just a boy who worked in a secondhand bookstore, made tea for people who looked sad, and watered succulents on the windowsill every sunday.
it was called a place to rest.
and the boy’s name was sunghoon.
he wasn’t the type to save the world. or fall into forbidden romances. there were no love triangles or magical powers or childhood promises.
sunghoon was the type to notice when the mail carrier looked tired and offer him an extra chocolate biscuit. the type to walk customers to the bus stop if it rained. the type to sit quietly beside a crying child and not say anything until they were ready to talk.
gentle. patient. soft in a world that often wasn’t.
y/n had stumbled upon the webtoon one sleepless night when her thoughts wouldn’t stop circling like birds trapped in a room. she read all 32 available episodes in one sitting. the pacing was slow. the art style minimal. but sunghoon’s presence bled off the screen like warmth from a hidden radiator. it wasn’t about plot. it was about breathing.
and for the first time in weeks, she could. from that day on, the series became a lifeline. she set alarms for updates. left quiet, heartfelt comments under each post. she never expected replies. that wasn’t the point. it was like whispering into a forest—you didn’t need an echo. you just needed to speak.
her apartment was barely 30 square meters. one main room, a bathroom with weak water pressure, a desk she hadn’t used in months, and a mattress on the floor with an old duvet that smelled faintly of fabric softener and dreams she no longer chased.
that night, she returned from campus later than usual. her body moved on autopilot—drop her bag, change into soft clothes, tie up her hair, warm up leftover rice that she wouldn’t eat. she didn’t even take off her shoes properly before collapsing onto the floor, knees tucked to her chest, phone clutched in one hand like a talisman.
she didn’t check her messages. didn’t reply to her mother’s missed call.
she just opened the webtoon.
there it was—episode 41.
her heart gave a small, tired flutter.
the scene opened with the bookstore again. warm yellow lighting. a rainy evening. a girl wandered in, soaked to the bone, holding a crumpled letter in her hands. she didn’t speak. neither did sunghoon. but he made her tea, found her a towel, and let her sit in silence. it was such a small moment. maybe nothing to others. but y/n’s eyes blurred halfway through.
because she understood.
she knew what it meant to need someone and not know how to ask.
she finished the episode, chest aching. and for the first time in months—maybe years—she whispered aloud:
“sometimes, i want to run to you and tell you everything.”
her voice cracked. but she kept going.
“when i’m completely exhausted… is it still right that it’s your embrace i long for?”
she wasn’t sure who she was talking to. the boy in the comic? herself? the ceiling? tears rolled down her cheeks in hot, stinging streams. it wasn’t fair, really. to fall for someone who didn’t exist. to crave comfort from a hand-drawn smile and panels inked by someone she didn’t even know. but it hurt—how much she wished he was real.
“i’m so tired,” she whispered again, curling into herself. her breath hitched. it wasn’t one big thing. it never was. it was a thousand small weights stacked on her shoulders. missed chances. quiet failures. being the second choice. the forgettable face. the invisible one.
she hugged her phone to her chest like it could hear her heartbeat.
“i just… wish you were here.”
and then—
the screen went black.
she blinked.
the light above her flickered.
for a moment, everything in the room was still. too still. then—her phone vibrated. once. then twice. the screen didn’t return. instead, it glowed, a soft pulse like a heartbeat, then flared bright—so bright she had to shield her eyes.
she sat up in shock.
the air in the room changed. warmer. thicker. a scent like lavender and rain and something unreal filled the space. the center of the light began to take form. her breath caught.
first a silhouette. then lines. then color.
a boy.
tall. lean. soft dark hair.
a cardigan draped over his frame, sleeves pushed up. eyes searching. brows furrowed as if confused by the world around him.
and then he looked at her.
not through a screen. but at her.
and he said, in a voice that matched every line she’d ever read:
“…y/n?”
her world broke apart. and started again.
you don’t move.
not at first.
because this can’t be real. because he’s not real. but he’s standing there, the golden glow of his arrival slowly fading into the quiet hum of your cheap desk lamp. the corners of the room settle again, the pulse of lavender soft in the air, but the tremble in your hands only grows. your phone lies forgotten at your side, its screen dark once more—silent.
he takes one step forward, then another. the way he moves—it’s so familiar. like the way the artist always drew him: gentle lines, soft posture, an aura that never disturbed the peace of any room. his eyes are warm, exactly as you remember from every episode—soft brown, thoughtful, deep enough to fall into. his hair falls slightly over his forehead, and the cardigan—that cardigan—rests loose on his frame just like always. a little frayed at the edges, sleeves slightly too long.
“y/n,” he says again, voice low, steady, impossibly real. “are you okay?” that’s what undoes you.
not the miracle. not the impossibility of it.
but the question.
are you okay?
you shake your head, your voice trapped somewhere deep in your throat, fingers trembling at your sides. “no,” you croak. “i don’t think i am.”
and he’s moving before you can think—kneeling in front of you with slow, careful hands, as if afraid you’ll shatter at the slightest touch. his presence is warm, grounding. he doesn’t hover. doesn’t crowd. he just is. you stare at him—your eyes wide, searching, afraid to blink.
“this isn’t… this isn’t happening,” you whisper, your voice ragged. “you’re not real. you’re a drawing. you’re—you were in my phone. you can’t be—”
“i wasn’t real,” he says softly. “not until you needed me.”
your chest tightens so suddenly, so violently, it steals the breath from your lungs. a tear slips free. “i didn’t mean to…” you look away, ashamed. “i just… i was tired. i said things. i didn’t think anyone could hear.”sunghoon lowers his gaze for a moment, then lifts it again. “i heard.”
there’s no judgment in his voice. no confusion. just gentle truth, like everything he’s ever said in the panels you knew by heart.
“i’ve read your words,” he says. “every comment. every time you thanked me. every time you stayed up to read about my little bookstore, or smiled when i made tea. i remember all of it.” your shoulders shake. “it’s just a comic. it’s supposed to be fiction.”
“it was,” he agrees, a faint smile pulling at the corners of his lips. “but your heart made it real.” he shifts then, just slightly, and you don’t resist when he reaches out—his hand brushing yours with a featherlight touch, asking permission. and when you don’t pull away, he gently pulls you into his arms.
and you fall.
fall into him with the kind of collapse that only comes when every wall finally breaks. when the burden of pretending, of enduring, of functioning becomes too much.
you sob. hard.
no holding back. no more quiet cries into your pillow. this is different. this is years of exhaustion, months of isolation, weeks of pain you never admitted to anyone—not even yourself—pouring out in heavy, aching waves. he holds you through all of it.
not with words. not with solutions.
just with presence. his arms are warm, wrapped around you tightly but never too tight. his hand rubs slow, comforting circles along your back, the fabric of his cardigan catching your tears. his chin rests gently atop your head as you bury your face in his shoulder and sob harder than you ever have.
“i’m so tired,” you whisper again, over and over like a mantra. “so, so tired.”
“i know,” he says softly, barely more than a breath. “you’ve been holding so much for so long.”
you nod helplessly, curling closer. “i didn’t mean to fall apart.” he doesn’t respond right away.
then, in that gentle voice that’s carried you through so many lonely nights, he says, “falling apart isn’t weakness. it means you’ve been strong for too long. you’re allowed to need rest, y/n. you’re allowed to ask for help.” another sob breaks from your lips. “i didn’t think anyone would notice. i thought i’d just disappear and no one would care.”
he pulls back only enough to look at you—really look at you. his eyes search yours, soft and sincere.
“i care,” he says. “i’m here.”
you shake your head slowly. “but… why?”
“because you reached out. and because i wanted to come.”
“i don’t understand,” you whisper. “you’re from a story.” he smiles faintly. “a story you loved. a story you believed in when you didn’t believe in yourself.”
his thumb gently wipes a tear from your cheek. “sometimes… that kind of belief is powerful. powerful enough to bring something to life. or… someone.”
you take in a shaky breath. “will you stay?”
he doesn’t answer right away.
instead, he leans his forehead against yours.
“i don’t know how long i can,” he admits. “but i’ll stay as long as i’m able. as long as you need me.” the tears return—but they’re softer now. laced with relief.
he hugs you again, and this time, it’s less like falling apart and more like being put back together.
you don’t know what happens next. you don’t know what this means—how or why or what tomorrow will look like.
but in this moment—this impossibly quiet, comforting, miraculous moment—you let yourself rest.
with sunghoon beside you, solid and warm and real.
for the first time in so long, you sleep without fear. and he stays, watching over you.
it takes a long time for the sobbing to slow.
even longer for silence to feel safe.
but sunghoon never moves. not once. he sits there on the floor, knees bent beneath you, one hand supporting your back and the other curled loosely around your wrist — just enough to remind you he’s there. not pulling. not pushing.
just… holding. the kind of holding that means i see you. i’m not going anywhere.
eventually, the crying fades into quiet hiccups. your face is pressed against the soft knit of his cardigan, damp from your tears, and there’s a part of you that almost feels guilty about it — ruining something so beautiful. but he doesn’t seem to care. if anything, he leans in a little closer, like his entire body is trying to tell you you don’t have to apologize for being human.
your voice is a whisper when it finally returns.
“i’m sorry.”
his arms tighten just slightly, as if to hush that thought before it settles. “you don’t have to be.”
“but i—” you draw in a slow breath, chest tight and sore. “i didn’t expect… i didn’t mean to… bring you here.”
“i know,” he says gently. “but maybe i was always meant to come.”
the words sit between you like soft velvet — strange, surreal, but warm.
the clock ticks on. somewhere in the distance, a motorcycle passes. the fridge hums. your phone lies dark beside you, still and quiet now, like the magic it summoned has settled for the night. “i don’t understand,” you murmur. “how can you be here? you’re… a character. you’re not supposed to move outside a panel.”
he pulls back just enough to look at you. you blink up at him, and the sight steals the breath from your lungs all over again. because his real.
his skin. his eyes. the tiny mole beneath his left eye — the one that was always so subtly drawn, like a secret only longtime readers would notice.
“i don’t understand either,” he admits. “i only know that i was with you… one moment i was part of a story, and the next… i heard your voice.” you don’t realize you’ve been gripping the edge of his sleeve until you let go. your fingers leave little creases behind.
“i didn’t mean to say that out loud,” you say, cheeks burning. “i was just… tired.” “i know.” his voice is quieter now, as if afraid that if he speaks too loudly, the moment might dissolve. “you’ve been tired for a long time.”
you nod, eyes brimming again — but not like before. these tears come slower. softer. like rain after a storm.
“i’m always trying to be okay,” you say. “i have to show up to things, i have to pretend i’m fine, because if i don’t, everything falls apart. but sometimes it just… builds and builds. and i don’t even notice how bad it’s gotten until i’m shaking on the floor.”
he listens without interrupting. not like a therapist.
not like a friend. but like someone who was written to hold silence without letting it become loneliness.
“i’ve been watching you,” he says after a moment, and there’s no creepiness in his tone — just wonder. “not the way you think. i mean… in the story, it’s like i felt you watching. when you read my moments. when you left those comments.”
you glance away. “that’s embarrassing.”
“no,” he says, softly but firmly. “it’s beautiful.”
you meet his gaze, startled.
he smiles gently. “do you know how many times you saved me?”
you blink. “saved you? but you’re the one who—”
“comforted people?” he finishes. “made tea. talked softly. loved gently?”
you nod.
“well,” he continues, reaching for your hand again, “that version of me… only existed because you believed in him. you understood him. you saw him. when others skimmed through or gave up on the story, you stayed.” your breath catches.
“you brought me to life just by caring,” he says. “you gave me meaning.”
it’s too much. too kind. too unbelievable.
you bury your face in your hands. “this feels like a dream.”
sunghoon gently pulls your hands away. “then let it be a good one.”
you exhale shakily, and he rises to his feet slowly, stretching out a hand. “come on. let me do something for you.”
you hesitate. “like what?”
he grins — that lopsided, warm grin that only showed up in chapter 12, after he helped the neighborhood kid find his missing cat. “make you tea. just like i always do.”
he’s awkward in your kitchen. doesn’t know where anything is. doesn’t know how the faucet works. frowns at the electric kettle like it might talk back. you watch from the doorway, a small, bewildered smile curling onto your lips despite everything.
“you’ve never boiled water before, have you?” you tease, voice hoarse.
he scratches his neck, sheepish. “i usually just appear with it already made.”
“story logic,” you mumble, amused.
but you help him. guide his hands. show him where the tea bags are. where the mugs live. you laugh once—just a breath of a laugh—when he blows on the steaming cup too hard and spills a little. and he freezes.
looks at you like that sound could rewrite the stars. then he sets your mug down gently and says, “i hope i can hear that more often.”
later, you’re curled on the couch, legs tucked beneath you, cradling the warmth of the mug against your chest. sunghoon sits across from you on the floor, watching you like you’re the scene that matters most.
the television is off. no music plays. just silence.
but it’s not empty anymore.
“i’m scared,” you admit finally. “that i’ll wake up, and this will all be gone. that you’ll be gone.” sunghoon leans his head back against the couch. he’s so close now you can see the little fold in his collar, the way his lashes cast tiny shadows against his cheeks.
“if i disappear,” he says, “i want you to remember something.”
“what?” he looks up at you.
“that your sadness doesn’t make you unworthy of comfort. and that you never have to pretend around me.”
you nod slowly, the words carving themselves gently into the ache in your chest.
“i still don’t know why you’re here,” you whisper.
“maybe i’m the part of the story that stepped out because the reader needed to be held.”
you close your eyes, and for the first time in forever, you feel safe. he doesn’t leave that night.
when you fall asleep, it’s not to the hum of anxiety or the weight of loneliness — it’s to the quiet rhythm of him breathing beside you on the floor, the steady presence of a boy who was once only ink and imagination, now watching over you like he always wanted to.
the tea goes cold. the lights stay on. but your heart, for once, doesn’t.
let’s linger more, sinking deeper into that fragile, quiet space where healing starts—not with grand gestures, but in the stillness between breaths.
the clock’s soft tick-tock fills the room, but time feels strange—like it’s folded in on itself, stretching and folding, bending just enough to hold this moment open.
you lie curled on the couch, the mug of now-cold tea resting forgotten on the small table beside you. the dim glow from the streetlight outside seeps through the curtains, casting long, gentle shadows that play across the walls.
sunghoon sits nearby on the floor, knees pulled up to his chest, his gaze tracing the patterns of the carpet as if trying to understand how this strange new world fits together.
neither of you speaks. words feel too fragile right now, like they might shatter if spoken too loudly.
instead, you listen to the quiet: the faint rustle of fabric as he shifts, the soft breath escaping your lips, the occasional creak of the old wooden floor beneath him.
it’s a silence that doesn’t demand anything from you, doesn’t rush or push. it simply is — a pause from the chaos, a shelter from the storm you’ve carried for so long. after a while, your hand moves on its own, reaching toward him hesitantly, fingers brushing the sleeve of his cardigan.
he looks up, eyes soft and patient. you don’t say anything. you just let your hand rest there, seeking comfort in the warmth beneath your fingertips.
he reaches out, closing his hand gently over yours.
it’s a simple touch, but it feels like a lifeline.
“i’m here,” he says, voice barely more than a whisper.
you nod, tears brimming but not falling. the tightness in your chest loosens just a bit, like the first slow crack of dawn after a long, dark night.
“i don’t want to be alone,” you admit, voice trembling.
“you won’t be,” he promises.
his words aren’t magic. they don’t fix everything. but they wrap around you like a soft blanket, and in this quiet moment, that’s enough.minutes stretch into hours. you talk in fragments—half-formed thoughts, whispered confessions, memories shared in the low glow of the room.
he listens without judgment, never pushing for more than you’re ready to give. sometimes he tells you stories from the comic—small behind-the-scenes details no one else knows, like the time he wanted to wear a different sweater or how a certain panel was almost cut.
you laugh softly. it feels strange to hear those words from him—the boy who was only ink and pixels yesterday. he smiles at you, the kind of smile that reaches his eyes and stays there, warm and steady.
“i’m glad i’m here with you,” he says.
you lean your head on his shoulder, heart aching and hopeful all at once.the room smells faintly of lavender and spilled tears, but also of something new—something gentle and real.
and for the first time in a long time, you believe that maybe, just maybe, you’re not alone anymore.
the sun filtered in through the thin curtains, casting soft golden lines across the hardwood floor and onto the curve of your cheek. you stirred slowly, blinking against the early light, your limbs still heavy with the kind of sleep that follows a storm of tears.
at first, it felt like waking from any other night—hazy, distant, the remnants of emotion clinging to the corners of your mind. a dream, maybe. a vivid one. the kind that lingers like fog on the skin. you half-smiled into your pillow at the thought of him—the cardigan, the way he looked at you, the warmth of his voice saying, “i’m here.”
but dreams always fade.
you rolled onto your back, letting out a long sigh, preparing to meet another ordinary, aching morning. your phone lay beside you, dark screen still faintly reflecting your face. you reached for it, not ready to check the time or scroll. just… holding it.
and then, the sound.
a quiet clatter—something metal tapping against porcelain. then a thud followed by a sharp inhale. you froze, heart leaping.
you weren’t alone.
the scent hit you next—something warm and vaguely sweet, layered with a hint of something burning, like bread that had stayed in the toaster too long. the sharpness of it jolted your memory.
your eyes snapped open fully.
he had been here. last night.
you sat up slowly, the blanket falling from your shoulders. the room still carried that faint lavender scent, but something was different now. alive. present. another sound—this time the unmistakable hiss of a pan, followed by a very quiet, very sincere:
“ah… i think i did that wrong.”
you pushed yourself up, slipping your feet into your fuzzy slippers, heart hammering like it was trying to catch up to your realization. this wasn’t a dream.
you stepped into the narrow hallway leading to your kitchen, pausing in the doorway.
there he was.
sunghoon, in your kitchen.
his hair was a bit messier now, like he’d slept sitting up and never quite figured out what bedhead meant. he was wearing the same soft cardigan from the night before, sleeves slightly rolled as he stood barefoot by your tiny stove, an apron awkwardly tied around his waist—your apron, actually, the floral one with the fading straps. he looked like a character from a comfort movie: boy-next-door energy, sweet concentration etched onto his face as he carefully turned something over in a skillet. french toast? probably. there was a carton of eggs open on the counter, a half-used loaf of bread, cinnamon spilled like confetti across your cutting board.
he didn’t notice you right away.
he was humming. that surprised you more than anything.
that soft melody—familiar and low—it took you a moment to realize it was the ending theme from his webtoon’s fourth chapter. the one that played in your mind whenever he smiled in the story. now, he was humming it like it had always been his.
you finally cleared your throat, softly. he turned, eyes wide, spatula still in his hand.
“oh,” he said, like he wasn’t entirely sure whether to be sheepish or proud. “you’re awake.”
you blinked. “you’re… real.”
he smiled that same soft smile from the rooftop panel you always saved to your favorites.
“i hoped i would still be,” he said gently, setting the spatula down and wiping his hands on the apron. “you fell asleep last night. i didn’t want to leave.” you stepped further into the kitchen, still dazed, your gaze flicking between the mess on the counter and the boy in your apron.
“you cooked,” you murmured, awestruck.
“i tried to cook,” he corrected, scratching the back of his neck. “is it supposed to puff up like that?”you leaned over to inspect the toast—slightly crisped, maybe a little too golden on one side, but undeniably edible. and it smelled… good. comforting.
your eyes watered, just a bit. the sheer absurdity and wonder of it all.
“i never had to before,” he added, quietly, like an apology. “in the comic, i just… kind of had food. it was drawn in. but i wanted to do something for you.”
you looked at him then—really looked.
and it hit you, how he stood in your kitchen, uncertain and soft and strangely determined. how he somehow matched the boy you’d adored on a screen, yet felt infinitely more real.
the loneliness that had clawed at your insides yesterday—the ache, the exhaustion—it hadn’t disappeared. but in that moment, it felt a little less crushing. it was quieter, somehow.
“thank you,” you whispered. he tilted his head. “for the toast?” you smiled, shaking your head slowly. “for staying.”
a quiet beat passed between you.
“i thought maybe,” he said after a while, “we could eat together. and then maybe… you could show me how this place works?” you laughed softly, not bitterly like before. “you mean earth?”
“i mean your world,” he said, more serious than you expected. “the parts of it that matter to you.” you nodded, swallowing thickly, and pulled two plates from the cupboard.
he stood beside you, close but careful, watching as you portioned out the slightly-overcooked but heartfelt french toast.
you didn’t know what today would bring—if he would stay, if this was a temporary miracle—but as you sat beside him on your living room floor, knees brushing, plates balanced on mismatched cushions, you knew one thing:
for the first time in a very long while, you weren’t starting the day alone. and maybe that was enough.
the breakfast was, by all accounts, slightly burnt and uneven in sweetness — but she ate it like it was a five-star meal. sunghoon beamed when she asked for seconds.
after the dishes (which he offered to wash, only to get more water on himself than the plates), they spent the rest of the morning sitting on the floor of her living room. her tiny apartment didn’t have much — a beanbag chair, a small, scuffed-up coffee table, a dying potted plant named “leaf erickson,” and the sofa that creaked if you looked at it the wrong way.
and now: him. a boy who didn’t belong to this world but looked like he did. he sat with his knees pulled up, watching her as she sorted through a shoebox of tangled charging cords and old keychains.
“what’s this?” he asked, holding up a small plastic creature with stubby arms.
she smiled. “that’s a tamagotchi. sort of like… a digital pet?” he blinked. “do you feed it?” “yeah, and clean its poop. a whole childhood in three buttons.”
sunghoon turned it over in his hands like it was a sacred relic. “your world is amazing.” she laughed. “you haven’t even seen the dumbest parts yet.”
“oh?” he raised an eyebrow. “show me the dumbest part.”
so she did.
first, the cursed sock drawer: a graveyard of mismatched, single-color soldiers and novelty socks with holes in them.
he gasped dramatically when he found a neon green one with a slice of pizza on the ankle. “why is this wet?” she shrugged. “why is it still alive?”
he looked her dead in the eye and whispered, “this belongs in a museum.”
next: her “junk chair,” where clothes went to die. she flopped onto it and let out a deep sigh, while sunghoon gingerly picked up a crumpled hoodie like it might bite him.
“is this… dirty?”
“technically? it’s in limbo.”
“between life and laundry?”
“exactly.”
they laughed until their stomachs hurt. and when she looked at him, his head tilted back and cheeks flushed from laughing, something in her chest ached. but not the bad kind. the kind that meant this is real. or this matters.
when she offered to take him outside, he brightened like the concept of sunlight itself had clicked. “i want to see everything,” he said, lacing his fingers behind his back like a little boy ready for an adventure.
she made him wear a baseball cap. “for stealth,” she said.
“is this a disguise?” he asked seriously, eyes peeking out under the brim.
“you’re literally drawn from the prettiest pixels i’ve ever seen. people are gonna stare.” sunghoon flushed. “you’re prettier.” she stopped. blinked. “you can’t just—say things like that casually.”
“i’m not casual. i’m sincere.”
she threw a scrunchie at his chest and missed.
they walked to the bus stop together, sunghoon marveling at everything like a tourist who had only read about earth in books. he stood too close to traffic cones. tapped every vending machine they passed like it might hand him a prize. waved at a pigeon.
“that one looks wise,” he said of the pigeon, watching it hop sideways across the sidewalk. “like a street prophet.” she snorted. “it’s probably plotting to steal a hotdog.”
sunghoon’s eyebrows rose. “do birds here eat meat?”
“don’t think too hard about it.”
at the bus stop, he stared at the arrival screen like it was coded in ancient runes.
“okay, so this one takes us downtown,” she explained. “just don’t talk to anyone who smells like fruit loops and regret.” he nodded solemnly. “those are the dangerous ones?”
“always.”
when the bus came, he flinched at the hydraulic hiss and grabbed her wrist instinctively. she turned her head and caught the flash of fear in his eyes — real fear — and realized: this world might be beautiful to him, but it was also overwhelming. loud. fast. unfamiliar.
she gently squeezed his hand. “it’s okay. just follow my lead.”
he did.
they found seats at the back. sunghoon pressed his face to the window, watching the city unfold like panels in a comic he didn’t write. his smile returned when a golden retriever passed by with a baby hat on its head. when he saw a street violinist playing under an overpass. when she pointed out the bookstore where she spent hours reading webtoons without buying anything.
he asked her everything — why the buildings were so close, why people walked so fast, why she said hello to the barista but not the woman who nearly elbowed her in the ribs. it wasn’t judgmental — just… fascinated.
like he wanted to understand her world because it was hers. they bought coffee (sunghoon tried a frappuccino and declared it “liquid sunshine”), then sat on the ledge by the koi pond in the park. “i like it here,” he said quietly. “the wind is soft.”
she looked at him.
“you’re different here,” she murmured. sunghoon turned his head. “from the comic?” “yeah. there, you were comforting. familiar. safe. but here… you feel more alive.”
he smiled, a little shy. “you make it easier.” there was a beat of silence. then he leaned closer. “can i tell you something dumb?”
she smirked. “please.”
“i thought escalators were portals.”
she burst into laughter, nearly spilling her coffee. “portals to what?” “i don’t know! they move without walking. it just felt suspicious.”
she was still giggling when she leaned her head on his shoulder. he stiffened just slightly — then relaxed. “is this allowed?” he asked softly.
“yeah,” she whispered. “you’re real enough now.”
and for a while, they sat like that. just a girl and her former fictional comfort character. eating bad toast, chasing pigeons, watching koi, and sharing silence like it was the most honest language they had.
that night, the city was quieter.
they stayed longer than planned in the park — her head resting against his shoulder, their empty coffee cups stacked like a small monument to the comfort they found in each other.above them, the stars blinked like they were watching too.
“do they look different here?” she asked softly.sunghoon tilted his head. “brighter,” he said after a moment. “and lonelier.” she blinked. “lonelier?”
“in the comic,” he murmured, “stars were just background. pretty noise. filler for the sky. but now that i’m here… i think i finally understand what it means to look up and feel small.”she didn’t say anything at first — just looked at him. the slope of his nose, the gentle curve of his mouth, the way his eyes reflected light like polished amber.
“you’re not small,” she whispered.he turned to her “you’re… maybe the biggest thing that’s ever happened to me.”his breath caught. and for a second, she swore the world paused — like even the wind wanted to hear her say that again.
but instead, she stood up, brushing crumbs off her jeans. “come on. let’s get groceries. we’re out of soy sauce and your attempt at breakfast used the last of the eggs.”
he blinked. “it was a noble attempt.” “it was slightly charcoal-flavored.” “i was going for smoky sophistication.” she snorted, tugging on his sleeve as they started walking again. he followed easily, falling into step beside her like he’d always belonged in that spot.
the nearest convenience store was still open — humming under pale fluorescent lights. a small bell jingled as they stepped inside, and sunghoon immediately wandered toward the snack aisle like a child in a toy store. she caught him staring in awe at a wall of ramen cups.
“do you want one?” she asked.he pointed to one with animated shrimp on the packaging. “is this spicy?” “probably not. that one looks innocent.” “i don’t trust innocent,” he said, and grabbed two.
they spent way too long there — him holding up random items like they were ancient artifacts. “this is toothpaste?” “that’s a glue stick.” “oh.”
he put it back, clearly trying to act like that hadn’t happened.
by the time they reached the counter, they had ramen, milk, eggs, a toothbrush (his, picked with serious care), cookies shaped like bears, and a single sticky note pad that he insisted they needed.
“for leaving notes around the apartment,” he said with a small smile. “i’ll draw on them.” “you’re going to doodle instead of doing chores, aren’t you?” “highly likely.” on the way home, he held the grocery bag carefully in both hands, like it was something precious. she glanced at him and bit back a smile.
“you really like it here,” she said. “i like it with you. her heart skipped. she looked forward quickly, letting the warmth in her chest linger as quietly as his words.
later, back in the apartment, after putting things away and arguing about where the cereal should go (“top shelf for dominance!” “you can’t even reach the top shelf, sunghoon—”), she found him standing by the window.
he was staring out again, into the city night. she came up beside him. “tomorrow,” he said suddenly, eyes still on the skyline. “can i go with you?” “to where?” “university.” she blinked. “it’s just classes.”
“i want to see what your days are like when i’m not in them,” he said softly. “the parts of your life i’ve never seen.” there was a beat. “you won’t be bored?” “not if i’m with you.” she didn’t answer right away. but she reached for his hand. and he let her take it.
after brushing teeth — side by side, giggling when he accidentally put your cleanser on his toothbrush — you padded across the small apartment, still smelling faintly of the cookies you’d baked together hours earlier (well, you baked, he mostly stood around marveling at pre-heated ovens like a caveman seeing fire).
you slipped into your room and crouched by the bottom drawer of the old wooden cabinet you rarely touched. inside was a mess of tangled earphones, a broken polaroid camera, and a pile of oversized shirts and sweatpants — your older brother’s, left behind from when he used to crash here after long drives.
you held up a few and poked your head out into the living room. “sunghoon?” he turned from the window, where he’d been staring out like he was still trying to memorize the shape of city lights against glass. “yeah?”
“catch,” you said, tossing him a folded navy-blue hoodie. he fumbled it like a rookie but managed to cradle it to his chest like it was a newborn kitten “these are my brother’s,” you said. “you guys are… kind of the same size?”
he held up the joggers you tossed next with a strange sort of reverence. “these are very… real. you blinked. “yeah? what does that mean?” he looked at you, a bit sheepish. “in the webtoon, all my clothes just sort of exist. they’re never scratchy. or warm. or full of lint. they don’t smell like someone’s laundry detergent and a little bit like nostalgia.”
you blinked again. “you’re kinda poetic for someone who still can’t tell the difference between glue and toothpaste.” he gave you a look but didn’t argue. later, you came out from changing and found him still standing in your room doorway, barefoot, awkwardly holding the folded clothes and peeking in.
“you okay?” he rubbed the back of his neck. “i don’t… where do i sleep?” you paused. your place wasn’t exactly luxurious. a one-bedroom unit, too small for a real guest setup. the couch was technically long enough to lie down on, but not with comfort — especially not for someone like him, who moved delicately, like he wasn’t used to having a body that bumped into things or needed soft landings.
you looked at the bed. then back at him. “just sleep here,” you mumbled, tossing a pillow to the far side of the mattress. “beside me.” his eyebrows rose. “are you sure?” “there’s no foam mattress or extra futon, and the couch will murder your back.”
“i don’t think i can be murdered by furniture “that’s a very fictional-man thing to say.” he smiled but didn’t protest further. you crawled in first, facing the wall. you heard him shuffle behind you, the faint rustle of fabric, the hesitant creak of the mattress dipping under his weight.
silence settled in. soft. tentative. real.
you could feel his presence — not too close, not too far — like the warmth of a space heater humming beside you. and for a while, neither of you said a word. then, gently:
“does it always feel like this?” he asked. you turned slightly. “like what?” “being… alive. real. it’s a lot of small things. cold floors. the sound the fridge makes at 3 a.m. the weight of a blanket.”
you smiled into the darkness. “you noticed all of that?”
“how could i not?”another pause. then he whispered, “thank you… for letting me stay.”your chest tightened. you didn’t know how to explain the ache in your bones before he arrived — or the way it eased, little by little, in the way he looked at you like you mattered, even in your pajamas with mismatched socks.
so you just said, quietly, “good night, sunghoon.”“good night,” he murmured back. “i hope i dream for the first time.” you didn’t know if he would. you didn’t even know if fictional people could. but you fell asleep that night with a steady warmth pressed near your spine and a strange kind of peace in your bones.
the next morning, you woke to an unfamiliar sound.a crack.followed by a muffled curse.you sat up quickly, blinking through the soft morning light seeping into your bedroom.
the other side of the bed was empty. and something smelled… burnt? you rushed out into the tiny kitchen, half-expecting disaster — only to freeze in the doorway. sunghoon stood in front of the stove, frowning intensely at a pan of scrambled eggs that looked, frankly, edible. a little overcooked maybe. but still yellow. still vaguely egg-shaped.
he was wearing your brother’s hoodie, sleeves slightly too long, the hem swaying as he turned toward you holding a spatula like a microphone.
“good morning!” he said brightly. “i may or may not have tried to make you breakfast.”
you stared.
“i googled a youtube tutorial. ‘how to cook eggs for someone you like,’” he added, voice way too casual. you blinked at him. “did you just say—” “it said to serve it with toast, but i burned that part.”
“…fair.” he scratched his head. “still edible though. probably. maybe.” you walked over slowly, peeking into the pan. “you didn’t… like, microwave the shells or anything weird, right?”
“give me some credit.” he handed you a plate with clumsily plated eggs and exactly one cookie from last night on the side. you laughed softly — the kind of laugh that curled into your chest and stayed there. “thank you, chef sunghoon.” he beamed. “you’re welcome. i’m taking full responsibility for all gastrointestinal side effects.”
as you sat across from him at the little dining table — two mugs of warm milk between you, legs brushing under the wood — you felt a strange and gentle realization settle over you. maybe he wasn’t just here to comfort you.
maybe, in some odd, universe-bending way…he came to belong.
it was a mild tuesday morning when you took him with you to campus. you didn’t announce it. didn’t make a big deal of it. just quietly handed him one of the older backpacks you kept around, slipped your keys and id into your tote, and said, “come on. if you’re going to stay in my world, you should see where i live in it.”
he didn’t say much — just nodded and zipped up the hoodie, sleeves brushing past his fingers.the walk to the university was quiet. it always was, usually. you liked mornings that way — low sun, low traffic, the city still rubbing sleep from its eyes. but with him beside you, it felt… fuller somehow. not louder. just more present.
he didn’t speak, but he watched everything. the street signs, the cafés you passed, the dog waiting outside the flower shop wagging its tail at no one in particular. he kept pace with you naturally, sometimes stepping closer when a bike sped too fast around the corner. always gently, always silent.
when you reached campus, students flowed like water around you — half-awake and coffee-fueled, some with headphones in, others already chatting about assignments. sunghoon stayed close, his gaze flickering curiously from building to building.
“this is where i spend most of my time,” you said as you led him to the humanities wing. “lecture halls, library, vending machines that eat your coins…” he smiled. “looks peaceful.” “it is. most days.”
he didn’t press for details. you liked that about him — his presence was quiet, never demanding. in your first class, you pointed toward the far back. “you can sit there. no one really asks questions if you look like you’re writing.”
he nodded and took the seat without hesitation, pulling out a notebook you’d given him. you weren’t even sure if he knew what to do with it, but he opened it anyway, pen poised, eyes calm. you kept glancing at him during lecture.he looked like a daydream — head tilted, lashes low, occasionally scribbling down something. you couldn’t tell if he was actually writing notes or just drawing shapes, but it didn’t matter. he looked like he belonged.
after class, you stopped by the small campus café tucked in the corner of the main building — your usual spot. you ordered your regular drink and he stared at the chalkboard menu like it was in a foreign language. “it’s not that serious,” you whispered, nudging his arm.
“i’ve never had this many choices,” he replied seriously. “what is a dirty matcha? why is it dirty you laughed into your scarf. “try the iced honey oat latte. you’ll like it.”
he did. the two of you sat outside, on one of the cold metal benches under the sparse shade of a maple tree just starting to bloom. spring was crawling in slowly, and the air carried the soft chill of morning with a hint of warmth underneath.
“you do this every day?” he asked after a while. you nodded, sipping slowly. “this is where i feel most myself. my own pace. my own routine. nobody expects too much. i like it.” he was quiet for a beat. “it suits you.”
“what does?” “this life. it’s steady. like the way you breathe. it’s full, but never noisy.” you looked at him. there was a stillness to the way he said things. not dramatic. not performative. just present. like he was speaking to a version of you even you sometimes forgot.
you didn’t know what to say to that. so you offered him your last bite of pastry instead. he took it with a small, grateful smile. you spent the rest of the day like that. walking through campus. sitting on library steps. watching students pass, talking softly about nothing important. you showed him the place you always sat during finals — a bench tucked behind the chemistry building — and the vending machine that once trapped your chocolate bar for three days.
at one point, he reached out and quietly brushed a leaf from your hair. it felt like the world tilted a little. not in a dizzying, overwhelming way. just in the way a life might quietly shift to make space for someone else.
it’s been a few weeks now. the world hasn’t changed, not really — buses still run late, coffee still spills, your alarm still rings too early. but you have. quietly, steadily. the pain hasn’t left you — not fully. but it’s no longer the loudest thing in the room.
sometimes grief sits beside you like a shadow, but now there’s another presence — one that brushes against your fingertips when you reach for your mug in the morning. one that makes your apartment feel less like a place you’re trying to survive in and more like a place you’re beginning to live in.
sunghoon folds the laundry with a weird kind of concentration. he still doesn’t understand why socks disappear in the wash or how pillowcases are supposed to be put on. but he tries. and it’s kind of adorable. he holds up a shirt — yours — and frowns.
“this shrank,” he says. “it’s a crop top,” you laugh, sitting cross-legged on the floor. “it’s supposed to be that short.” he tilts his head, then slowly nods. “i don’t get fashion.” you shrug. “you wore a cardigan in 28-degree weather. i could tell.”
he pretends to look offended. then smiles, wide and sheepish, the way he only does when he’s truly at ease. you throw a rolled-up sock at him and he lets it hit him dramatically, flopping backwards onto the rug like he’s been wounded.
these are the kind of days you never thought you’d have again — not after everything. they’re soft and small, like pages from a well-loved book. but they’re yours. yours and his, somehow.
the mornings are quiet but not empty. he brews your tea exactly how you like it now — not too hot, just a splash of oat milk. he even warms the mug in the microwave before pouring it, “so your hands don’t feel cold,” he says. it’s something no one’s ever done for you.and on days when you go to campus, he walks you halfway — all the way to the small convenience store on the corner. you pretend it’s because he wants a snack, but you know he just likes seeing you off.
sometimes, he even sits on the bench across from the bookstore, sketching people in his notebook while he waits for you to finish class. you caught him once — eyes focused, brows drawn in concentration, tongue peeking out at the corner of his mouth. when you teased him, he blushed so hard he almost dropped his pencil.
you’ve taken to carrying two umbrellas now. one for you, and one for him — even if he always forgets his and ends up borrowing yours anyway. he hums when he does the dishes. not well, and not in tune. but it fills the space in your kitchen with something bright. once, you caught yourself humming with him, and for a moment, it felt like you were singing your way back to yourself.
there’s a picture frame on your shelf that you used to keep turned down — the one with your brother’s blurry grin, arm slung around your shoulder, both of you laughing like idiots.
sunghoon never asked about it. he just quietly stood beside you one day when you picked it up, dusted it, and set it upright again.“i think he would’ve liked you,” you said. he didn’t speak — just gave your hand a gentle squeeze.
that night, you dreamed of your brother laughing. not that quiet, faded laughter you’d heard in your grief — but loud, bright, real. it felt like maybe he had finally seen.
one evening, you sit out on the fire escape, a blanket wrapped around both your shoulders. it’s chilly, but not freezing. the stars are clearer than usual, peeking through the city haze. sunghoon leans into you, his head resting lightly against yours. “i read once that stars are just old light,” he murmurs. “light that traveled a really long way to reach us.” you nod, eyes on the sky.
“kind of like hope,” you say. he doesn’t reply, but you feel the way he smiles against your shoulder. and maybe that’s what this is — not perfect, not fixed, but something glowing, finally reaching you after such a long, dark stretch of sky.
it started with a flyer. bright pink, slightly crumpled, slipped under her apartment door by a classmate. “open mic + market night!
hosted by the litsoc + art club ????????
join us for an evening of music, zines, poetry, thrift racks, snacks, and soft lights.
6 pm — courtyard amphitheater.”
you’d barely glanced at it the first time. life had only recently started feeling stable again, and part of you worried that if you pushed too far, too soon, the calm might slip through your fingers.but sunghoon was the one who picked it up again later that night, holding it between two fingers as he swayed side to side in front of the fridge, pretending to decide on a yogurt flavor.
“this looks… warm,” he said thoughtfully, eyes on the corner doodles someone had hand-drawn in black ink — a sleepy fox playing guitar and a teacup with stars inside. you gave him a look. “warm?”
he nodded. “warm. not scary. like… friendly music and gentle people. maybe some mismatched socks.” you snorted. “that’s your metric for a good event?”
he shrugged. “that, and whether you’ll smile.” you blinked, momentarily caught off-guard. then you sighed, gently, tugging the flyer from his hand. “it’s open to the public anyway. wanna go with me?”
sunghoon smiled — not the usual shy curve of his lips, but something wider, brighter, edged with a quiet joy. “i thought you’d never ask.”
the night of the event, the air was soft with the scent of popcorn and lavender-scented bug spray. string lights hung from tree to tree in soft arcs, casting glows on thrifted blankets and makeshift wooden stalls. you could hear the strum of a guitar echoing from the corner where the open mic was already underway. sunghoon looked around with open curiosity — eyes tracing the fairy lights, watching students laugh, vendors pouring hot cider into paper cups. he wore one of your brother’s old sweaters again — sleeves a bit too long, color faded in the shoulders — and it suited him in a way that almost made you ache. you tugged at his sleeve gently. “come on, let’s look around.”
you tried on rings from a student metalworker’s stall, held up a vintage cat mug at a thrift booth and made a face, and sampled way-too-salty popcorn from a guy who looked like he’d never used a stove in his life. sunghoon followed beside you like a second heartbeat — laughing when you laughed, quietly stepping behind you when the crowd got too tight, offering you his cup of ginger cider without a word. at one of the last booths, someone had set up a tiny zine corner — hand-folded pages filled with poems, illustrations, short thoughts scrawled in ink. sunghoon picked one up, flipped it open, and read out loud softly:
“there’s no word in any language
for how it feels
when the ache gets quieter
and you notice yourself laughing
and don’t stop.”
you didn’t say anything. but you took the zine from him and bought it quietly.
you sat under one of the trees afterward, both of you on an old quilt, watching someone read poetry under the microphone string lights. your head rested against his shoulder. you weren’t crying. you weren’t even thinking too hard. just… breathing.
you whispered into the quiet, barely loud enough for him to hear. “i’m happy.” sunghoon turned his head slightly. “with me?” he asked, tentative. hopeful. “with you,” you repeated, a little firmer this time. then, after a pause, a softer:
“i didn’t think i’d feel like this again.”
he didn’t say anything, but his hand slid into yours and squeezed — not too tight, just enough to say i’m here. still. and when a girl came on stage with a ukulele and sang something slightly off-key about her cat and her anxiety, you both laughed quietly into your shoulders, your fingers still laced together. the night was winding down, but neither of you were quite ready to let it go.
after the last round of applause at the open mic faded into the gentle hum of chatter and music, you and sunghoon wandered away from the crowd. the air had cooled just enough that you clung to the sleeves of your cardigan, fingers brushing his every now and then as you walked down the cobblestone path behind the campus library — the one lined with warm paper lanterns hanging from trees like stars that got tangled in branches.
it was quiet here. just the two of you, the slow sound of footsteps, and the lingering scent of kettle corn and autumn. then he stopped suddenly.
“wait.” sunghoon tugged lightly on your wrist and pointed. you followed his gaze and blinked.
tucked into a shadowy corner just before the footbridge was an old, battered photo booth — the kind with a crooked sign reading 4 poses, 2 copies, ₱50. it looked like someone had dragged it there from a past decade and forgotten it under the willow tree. faint fairy lights blinked lazily around the top, flickering warm and gold.
you tilted your head. “i didn’t even know this was here.” “maybe it’s only here for tonight,” he said, voice low, almost conspiratorial. “like magic.” you laughed, but something about the softness in his tone made you pause. you watched him — the way his eyes reflected the gold lights, the faint tug of his lip as if waiting for you to decide.
“wanna try it?” you asked.he looked at you like you’d just asked him if he wanted to bottle the moon.
the booth was small. really small. you both squeezed in, knees bumping, shoulders pressed close, the plastic curtain falling back into place behind you like a veil separating you from the world. the screen flickered to life — a countdown began in glowing numbers.
“okay, first face,” you said, leaning in. “smile.” he did — that gentle one, soft and bright, and you smiled too. click. “now funny,” you grinned, puffing your cheeks. he mirrored it almost too well. click.
“serious model stare,” you said dramatically, both of you turning toward the lens with furrowed brows, but ended up cracking up halfway through. click.then the last countdown started.
you looked at him, about to suggest something — maybe a peace sign or goofy face again — but he was already looking at you. and he didn’t look away. in that beat between the numbers, he gently leaned forward — his forehead against yours, a soft smile curving into the corners of his mouth. no words. just warmth. a shared breath.
click.the light dimmed.
you stayed like that for a moment — not moving, barely breathing.then you heard the whir of the machine as two small photo strips printed and slid into the tray.you pulled them out.
the first three were cute. goofy. real.but the last one — the one where he leaned in — made your heart squeeze.his eyes were on you. yours were on him. it wasn’t posed. it wasn’t planned.
it just… was.you stared at it for a while. then handed him one of the copies.“here,” you said. “to prove you were really here.” he took it with reverence — as if it were something sacred — and tucked it gently into his cardigan pocket.
“do i… look real in it?” he asked quietly.you nodded. “yeah. too real.” he looked down at the photo once more. then at you.
“i like that we can remember this,” he said softly. “even if it’s just in four little pictures.” you smiled. and for the first time in a long time, it reached all the way to your eyes.
the walk home from campus was quiet — not in an awkward way, but in the way only a night filled with just enough warmth and shared laughter could be. you clutched the little strip of photobooth pictures in your hand like a fragile secret, feeling it burn through your palm with every step. it was silly — four poses, half of them barely in frame, one where you were laughing too hard to keep your eyes open. but the last one… the last one lingered in your mind like a heartbeat.
sunghoon walked beside you with his hands tucked in his cardigan pockets, a calm expression on his face, but you could feel it — the air around him was humming. charged. he was quiet, yes, but not absent. he was paying attention in the way only he could — the occasional glance your way, the way he slowed his pace to match yours even if it meant shuffling awkwardly on the uneven pavement, the small smile that never quite left his lips since the moment you stepped into that cramped photo booth.
when the two of you boarded the near-empty bus, you found yourselves at the very back, the windows fogged slightly from the autumn air. you sank into your usual seat by the window and he slid in next to you — shoulders brushing. not quite on purpose, not quite by accident.
you stared outside at the streetlamps streaking past, your bag clutched in your lap, heart too full to speak.then he did something so sunghoon that it made you blink. he pulled the photobooth strip out of his cardigan pocket and held it up to the faint bus lighting, his brows furrowed in gentle focus. he turned to you with the softest smile, nudging your elbow.
“do i always look this… awkward when i smile?”
you stared. then laughed — the kind of real, surprised laugh that bubbles up from somewhere you thought had been quiet for months. “yes,” you replied through your grin. “but it’s the best kind.”
he looked pleased at that, folding the photo carefully and tucking it away again, like something precious. then he tilted his head and leaned it lightly against the bus window.
a comfortable silence stretched between you. the kind that only existed when the world outside didn’t demand anything. just motion. just stillness in motion.you didn’t even realize how tired you were until the bus rounded a bend and your eyes fluttered closed for just a second.
then a shoulder pressed softly against yours. a quiet hum of comfort. and when you leaned your head — just slightly, just naturally — you didn’t expect him to remain so still. so warm. so solid.he didn’t move. didn’t flinch.
he let you lean on him like you’d been doing it for years.and for a long moment, all you could think was: this. just this. the bus rumbled quietly through the night. city lights slid past in lazy patterns. you shifted just a little closer in your sleep, your forehead brushing his arm, and in your half-conscious haze, you heard it — barely a whisper, like something tucked between breaths.
“i’m glad i found you.” but when you stirred again, eyes heavy as the bus slowed to a stop near your neighborhood, he was just sitting there, silent and still. he helped you up gently, guided you down the steps and through the streetlight-lit path home. not a word about what he said. but you felt it.
later that night, the apartment was still. the distant hum of traffic filtered through your window, muted by the curtains, and the glow from your desk lamp painted everything in quiet amber. you stood at the edge of the bed, brushing your teeth slowly, watching sunghoon from the corner of your eye. he was sitting cross-legged near the pillows, scrolling curiously through the music playlist on your phone like it was some sort of puzzle — brows furrowed, lips slightly pursed. he looked completely at home.
it wasn’t strange anymore. not the toothbrush he kept in your bathroom, or the way his socks sometimes ended up mixed in your laundry. not the second pillow on your bed that always smelled faintly of him. he looked up when you approached, phone resting easily on his lap. “you added the song i showed you,” he said, a little pleased.
you smiled, crawling into bed beside him. “of course i did. you have good taste.” as you both settled in under the blankets — your sides brushing, the warmth between you effortless — you caught yourself staring. he caught it too “what?” he asked, voice low and amused.
you hesitated for a moment. then shook your head.”nothing. just… i’m glad you’re here. sunghoon’s smile softened. he turned slightly, one arm resting behind his head as he watched you.
“i’m glad i’m here too,” he murmured. you rolled onto your side, facing him in the dim light. your voice dropped with it — something more vulnerable slipping out.
“i used to cry myself to sleep, you know. before all this. i’d curl up in the same spot every night and wish… i don’t know. for something to feel less cold.” his eyes didn’t move from yours. he didn’t rush to reply. “i don’t feel cold anymore,” you added, barely a whisper. silence settled around you like a blanket — warm and steady.
sunghoon reached over, fingers brushing lightly against your knuckles under the blanket. just enough to let you know he was there. that he heard you. that he’d stay.
“i’m happy,” you said suddenly, and it cracked a little when you said it. like it surprised you. like you weren’t used to it tasting so real in your mouth. his expression softened even further. “you deserve to be,” he said simply. you didn’t say it aloud, but in your chest bloomed the quiet ache of what you’d lost. of what once was. you thought of your brother — his old hoodie still folded neatly in the closet, the way your apartment used to echo more sharply when you came home to no one. you never told sunghoon directly. but maybe you didn’t need to.
because when he reached out, gently threading your fingers together under the covers, you felt it. he knew. and still, he stayed — not to fix anything, but to be here. steady. real. that night, you slept without needing to wish for comfort. because it was already there, breathing beside you.
it wasn’t a dramatic shift. no sudden realization. no firework moment where you both looked at each other and just knew.it was slower than that — gentler. like tea cooling in a cup, or a flower stretching open to the sun after days of rain. a love that wasn’t hurried, but grew in the soft pauses between your days.
you started noticing the way sunghoon looked at you when you weren’t paying attention — with a quiet sort of awe, like the very fact that you existed in the same space as him was something precious.it showed in small things. like how he’d hold your backpack strap while you dug for your id at the school gate. how he started packing you snacks when you had long lectures, slipping them into your tote with a sticky note that just had a doodle and a tiny, “eat when you’re tired. -sh”
how he always waited for you after class, leaning on the railing just outside the lecture hall, headphones in — not because he didn’t have anything better to do, but because you were what he wanted to do. and you—god, you didn’t know love could be this quiet. this easy.
you were smiling more now. laughing without guilt. waking up with something to look forward to, even if it was just sunghoon’s latest attempts at cooking or his curious commentary about your uni professors. one rainy afternoon, you were sitting on the floor of your apartment, surrounded by tangled fairy lights you’d pulled out of storage for no real reason. sunghoon had a strand in his hands, frowning slightly at a knot.
“you know,” you said, handing him another tangled part, “you don’t have to help.” “too late,” he said with a playful shrug. “we’re in this knot together.” you laughed. the kind that bubbled up naturally from your chest. the kind you hadn’t heard from yourself in a long time. sunghoon looked up at the sound, and his breath caught just slightly.
you caught it too. “what?” you asked, blinking.his hands stilled over the lights. he didn’t say anything right away. just looked at you — really looked — like maybe he hadn’t let himself before “you’re beautiful when you laugh,” he said softly. your cheeks warmed, but you didn’t look away.“you make it easier,” you said, matching his softness. “to feel okay.” and there it was — the unspoken understanding that something deeper had taken root. that somewhere between shared playlists, midnight ramen, and folded laundry, something had shifted in the air between you. something that made your heart settle. something real. later that week, as you were walking home from campus under the early evening sky, sunghoon reached out and laced his fingers with yours. it was the first time he’d done that in public. you didn’t say anything. you just squeezed his hand and kept walking — and somehow, that silence said everything.
in the stillness of this new rhythm, love bloomed — not in declarations, but in details. in all the ways he became a part of your life. in the extra toothbrush. in the half-drunk mugs of tea. in the way your pillows were never quite arranged the same when you woke up beside him. it wasn’t perfect. some days you still felt the old ache tug at your chest — the loss of your brother, the heaviness that didn’t vanish just because someone held your hand.
but now… the ache wasn’t so lonely.now, when it rained, there was someone to pull the blankets up to your chin. when you came home tired, there was always someone humming softly in the kitchen, trying to make your favorite meal.
one night, curled beside him in the dark, you whispered without thinking: “i think i’m falling in love with you.” you didn’t mean to say it — not yet, not now — but it slipped out, honest and bare. sunghoon didn’t answer right away. he shifted slightly, arm tightening around your waist, tucking you closer into his warmth. “then let me fall too,” he murmured, lips brushing the top of your head. and in that quiet, tangled space between sleep and truth, love bloomed — not loud or bold, but steady.
just like the two of you. still writing the story. one shared morning at a time. it had been weeks. maybe months. you weren’t counting days anymore. not when life had taken on such a golden, easy rhythm. there were sleepy mornings filled with tangled limbs and the smell of toasted bread. afternoons spent sprawled together on the living room floor, bickering over puzzle pieces or reading side by side with music humming low in the background. evenings curled up under blankets, watching old movies with subtitles sunghoon still struggled to follow but refused to skip.
he insisted on joining you on your campus walks now. wore your brother’s hoodie like it was his own, sleeves swallowing his hands, hood always pulled up like he was trying to hide from the world. he’d nod along as you vented about group projects and professors who took forever to grade, and you’d always catch him staring—softly, like the world paused for him every time you laughed. and you were okay. not just okay. better.
you didn’t flinch at silence anymore. you didn’t cry yourself to sleep. one night, lying beside him after an especially exhausting week, you turned toward him and whispered, “i’m happy.” he blinked, surprised. you’d said it like you were admitting something forbidden. “i didn’t think i’d say that again,” you added, voice breaking just slightly. “not after—” you swallowed. the name, your brother’s name, still got stuck in your throat sometimes. you didn’t finish.
but you didn’t have to. sunghoon only brushed a knuckle along your cheek, his gaze so unbearably kind you almost cried. “you don’t need to explain,” he said gently. “your sadness is still a part of you. but so is this.” “this?” “this peace. this warmth. your laughter. it’s okay to carry both.” you bit your lip, eyes welling, but you nodded. and when he pulled you close, you burrowed into his chest and let yourself believe it.
it happened subtly at first. a mug in his hand that suddenly flickered, turning slightly translucent before becoming solid again. a moment where he forgot the layout of your apartment — standing at the wrong cabinet for the sugar, blinking like he didn’t know where he was.
you noticed. but you didn’t say anything. not yet. because maybe it was just stress. maybe you imagined it. but the pit in your stomach didn’t believe that. then one evening, after he’d fallen asleep beside you, hand still loosely wrapped around yours, you reached for your phone and opened the webtoon. you hadn’t checked it in ages. not since the day he came.
the title page greeted you, familiar and oddly foreign now. but something was off. you scrolled.
and saw it. status: hiatus. the date listed?
the exact day sunghoon arrived.
your heart lurched.you scrolled further. there were no new chapters. no updates. no author’s notes. the once active comment section had slowed, confused fans wondering why everything had stopped. some were worried. others assumed it had been dropped. but you knew the truth, didn’t you? he had crossed over into your story.
and his had paused.
you stared at the glowing screen, heart pounding. the quiet hum of the fan filled the silence, and beside you, sunghoon stirred slightly in his sleep, murmuring something you couldn’t catch. you looked at him. the way his brows furrowed slightly, even in rest. the soft rise and fall of his chest. so real. so warm. but… still tethered to a world that wasn’t this one.
the next morning, he noticed something in your eyes. “you okay?” he asked, flipping a pancake with more confidence than skill. you hesitated, then forced a small smile. “yeah. just tired.” he didn’t push. but he stepped a little closer and gently bumped his forehead to yours. “then let me carry your tired, too.”
and you nearly cried. because you wanted to believe he could. that this life you’d built together could go on forever. but the truth loomed in the corner of your thoughts like a shadow. waiting.
you told yourself not to panic. you told yourself you’d just watch. you’d wait. maybe it meant nothing. but when he reached for the syrup and his hand flickered again — for just a heartbeat — the world tilted under your feet. you reached for his fingers and held them tightly. and he smiled at you, none the wiser.
it was raining.
a gentle drizzle that coated the windows in glassy trails and painted the sky a dull silver. campus was quiet for once—lectures cancelled, students huddled indoors, and you had the rare gift of a slow afternoon with nowhere to be. you were curled on the couch in your oversized hoodie, laptop balanced on your knees, editing a paper while sunghoon sat beside you, legs tucked under him like he belonged here. like this was normal.
he was flipping through a campus magazine he’d found on your bookshelf, utterly fascinated something as mundane as a crossword.
“what does ‘five-letter word for temporary happiness’ mean?” he asked, furrowing his brows, pencil in hand.you blinked, smiling faintly. “you don’t have to finish that, you know.” “but i want to.” he looked up, and his gaze caught yours like sunlight on still water—gentle, but deep. “i like learning the words you know.”
and something in your chest squeezed. he was so here. so alive. so absurdly himself in this world he wasn’t meant to belong to. you set your laptop aside and leaned toward him, brushing his hair back from his face. “you’re such a dork.”he leaned into the touch without thinking. “maybe. but i’m your dork.”
the words weren’t planned. they hung between you, unpolished and real, and suddenly the air in the room felt charged. you met his eyes, lips parting to say something—anything— but he beat you to it.he leaned forward, brushing the faintest kiss against your cheek. feather-light. reverent. just there. and gone.
you sat there frozen, heat blooming up your neck like fire.“is that… okay?” he asked quietly.you nodded, throat tight. “yeah. that’s… yeah.” he smiled like you’d handed him the moon.
the days that followed were filled with more of those quiet, luminous moments. you taught him how to use your record player, and he spent an entire morning making a playlist titled “coffee & you.” you baked cookies at 2 a.m. because he said he was curious how dough turned into happiness. you walked in on him humming while folding laundry, your favorite sweater draped across his arms like it was a sacred object.
and one night, as you watched him rinse rice with almost comical focus, you said it without thinking.
“i love this.” he looked up, wet hands pausing over the pot “this,” you said again. “you. here. us. i never thought i’d get to feel… full again.”
he didn’t answer for a moment. then, softly: “me too.” but his voice cracked just slightly.and you noticed it again—barely, but it was there.
the flicker. not in his hands or his form this time. but in his eyes. just for a blink—like a screen buffering, skipping a frame. you didn’t say anything. and neither did he.
but later that night, when you had fallen asleep against him—hand curled in his shirt like always—sunghoon lay wide awake. his fingers ghosted over your hair, gentle and slow. he stared up at the ceiling like he was trying to memorize it. and he whispered into the dark, so quiet you didn’t stir:
“am i… supposed to still be here?” he waited for an answer he knew wouldn’t come. but the silence that followed didn’t feel like peace. it felt like goodbye waiting in the wings. the next morning, sunghoon stood at the window for a long time.
you stirred awake to the smell of coffee and the sound of rain still tapping against the glass. the sky outside was a dull grey, soft with fog, and your blanket had fallen halfway off your bed, pooling near the floor. you sat up with a yawn, eyes adjusting to the soft light. and there he was — not in the kitchen this time, but in your room, standing still. he had your old hoodie draped around his shoulders, fingers gently gripping the curtain edge. his eyes weren’t fixed on anything in particular — just the sky. as if waiting for something to break through it.
you padded over, the floor cool beneath your feet. “hey,” you said gently. he glanced back at you, smile immediate but distant. “morning.”you reached up and fixed the hoodie over his shoulders, tucking it a little tighter like he always forgot how to wear it properly. “you okay?” “yeah.” a pause. then, “do clouds always look like that before sunrise?” you blinked. “like what?”
he hesitated, then looked out again. “like… they’re not supposed to be there.”you followed his gaze. but they just looked like clouds to you — heavy with rain, streaked with pale light. “maybe it’s just the weather,” you said softly, slipping your arm around his waist. “you’re thinking too hard again.”
but something in your stomach twisted — because sunghoon never commented on the sky before. not like that. still, he nodded and leaned into your side. “maybe.”
that day, he followed you to campus again. he loved your uni — the café tucked behind the science building, the koi pond where he always lingered too long, the vending machine with “surprisingly good strawberry milk.” but something was off. he kept walking ahead and forgetting the direction — something he never did. and twice, you caught him staring at his own reflection in the library window like he wasn’t quite sure it was solid.
later, as you both sat under your favorite tree outside the courtyard, he quietly murmured, “if i disappeared… would you still look for me?” you turned sharply toward him. “what?” he didn’t meet your eyes. “just wondering.” “why would you say that?” “i don’t know,” he whispered. “i’ve just been feeling… strange. like my body’s made of glass and i’m only here because i’m trying really hard to remember how to be.” your chest tightened. you wanted to lie. you wanted to say, you’re here. you’re not going anywhere.
but you’d seen it too. and he knew it. so instead, you took his hand and brought it to your chest. pressed it flat against your heartbeat. “then remember this,” you whispered. “this is real. even if everything else fades, this moment — you and me right now — is real.” his lashes fluttered.
and for the first time, he looked afraid.
that night, you sat in bed beside him, your head on his shoulder as he scrolled through your camera roll, laughing softly at a blurry picture of the two of you with whipped cream on your noses “i like this one,” he said, voice warm. “you look happy here.” “you made me happy here.” he stilled. just a moment. then slowly, he set the phone down, turned to face you fully. “i’ve been thinking,” he said.
you could already feel it coming. that creeping ache behind his smile. “i came from a story… one you followed, loved, cried over.” he exhaled. “but what if… i was only allowed to come here because you needed me? because you were hurting?” your throat tightened. “and now that you’re healing—now that you’re okay—maybe your story doesn’t need me anymore.”
“stop.” your voice cracked, and you shook your head, refusing to cry. “you’re not some tool. you’re not a character that served a purpose and expires. you exist, sunghoon. here. with me.” he looked at you, like he wanted to believe that more than anything. then, gently — painfully — he reached forward and placed a soft kiss on your forehead. it lingered.
“you saved me too, you know,” he whispered. “maybe i was written to comfort others… but you made me real.” you swallowed your sob and held him like the world was slipping. because you knew, in your heart, that the countdown had begun.
it started with the kettle. you were making tea — something warm and sleepy, because your head was pounding and sunghoon had suggested, with that soft tilt of his head, “you need to rest. you’ve been tired lately.”
he was right. you had been tired — emotionally more than physically. but he’d been tired too. even if he never said it out loud. even if he still smiled every time he handed you your jacket or brought your phone charger to bed or memorized the way you liked your toast. you were stirring honey into your mug when you noticed the silence.
sunghoon was in the living room just seconds ago — you’d left him with a blanket, flipping through the same page of your class readings over and over, pretending to read. but now it was dead quiet. not a creak. not a hum. “sunghoon?” you called. no answer. your heart tugged. a pinch of unease bloomed at the base of your spine. you stepped out of the kitchen with your mug in hand—and that’s when you saw it.
he was standing perfectly still. right in the center of your room. not facing anything. not holding anything. just there. his hands twitched at his sides like static. “sunghoon?”
he turned his head. but his face didn’t.njust his head — sharp, unnatural, as if someone had dragged the frame too far in a video. his eyes lagged half a second behind, then blinked in slow motion. his lips parted soundlessly.
you dropped the mug. ceramic shattered on the floor. “hey—sunghoon—sunghoon, look at me” he didn’t move. then his hands twitched again—violently this time—and you swore you heard something like feedback, a harsh buzz in the air, a sound you could feel in your teeth. you reached him and gripped his arms. “breathe—hey, i’m right here—look at me—” “y/n.”
your name came out twice. layered. glitched. once in his voice. once in something deeper. like it wasn’t coming from him at all. you choked out a sob. “please—come back—sunghoon—stay here—stay—please—” and then, all at once—he gasped.
his whole body jerked like he’d just surfaced from underwater. his knees buckled, and you caught him in your arms as he collapsed to the floor. he blinked up at you, dazed. confused. terrified. “did i…” he swallowed. “was i… gone?” you couldn’t answer. you were crying too hard. you just cupped his face and kissed his forehead over and over like it would keep him tethered here.
“you’re here,” you whispered brokenly. “you’re still here. you’re still mine.” but his eyes flickered — again. and this time, they didn’t stop. it was small — barely visible. but one corner of his eye glitched like a flickering frame. again. and again. and again. sunghoon was breathing hard. “i can’t… i don’t know how much longer i can fight it.”
“no.” you shook your head, throat burning. “you don’t have to fight anything. we’ll fix this. i’ll fix this. just—please—stay—” and he leaned into your touch, trembling. “i don’t want to go. not when i finally… have this.” “you have me,” you cried. “you always will.”
but when he pulled you into his arms and held you like it was the last time — you knew he didn’t believe it. and worse — you didn’t either.
that night tasted like fear — thick and bitter, clinging to every breath, every heartbeat, every whispered word between the two of you. he was still shaking. not visibly, not like some dramatic trembling that would draw attention — but in that subtle way only you would notice. the way his fingers lingered too long at the hem of his sleeves. the way his thumb rubbed tight circles into the soft flesh of your wrist, not to comfort you, but to ground himself.
you didn’t know what to do — how to fix something that wasn’t supposed to break in the first place. sunghoon wasn’t supposed to glitch. he wasn’t supposed to fade. he was supposed to be warm smiles and tea shared on the balcony. sleepy conversations with your faces buried in the same pillow. quiet grocery runs and the way his voice softened when he said your name.
he wasn’t supposed to feel this real, only to leave. so you clutched his hand tighter and led him back to your bed. “i’m sorry,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper. “for what?” you asked softly as you helped him sit on the edge of your bed. “for scaring you. for… not being strong enough to stay normal.” you crouched down in front of him, both your hands wrapping around his. “you’re here. you came to me. that’s all that matters.”
“i don’t know why i’m breaking.” his gaze dropped, lashes fanned low like a shadow across his cheeks. “maybe i wasn’t meant to stay this long. maybe… this is what happens when a story ends.” “don’t say that.” your voice cracked. “but what if it’s true?” you stood abruptly — you had to. your body felt too tight, too filled with panic and grief to sit still.
you paced the room as tears welled again, threatening to spill. “it’s not fair. you’re not just some character. you’re him. you laugh. you get shy. you hate bitter coffee. you kiss the top of my head when you think i’m asleep. that’s not fiction. that’s you.”
you stopped mid-step and turned to him, voice trembling. “i don’t care what you were meant to be. you’re mine now. you’re part of this world.” he looked up at you then — slowly, like it hurt. like the weight of your words had landed right on his chest and cracked him open. “i never thought i’d get to love something this real,” he whispered. “or… be loved back.” you sat beside him again and reached for him, pulling his head to your shoulder. his body leaned into you with the kind of heaviness only trust allowed.
“i’ve never said it,” you murmured. “but i need to.”
his breath caught. “i’m happy with you,sunghoon.”the silence that followed was sacred — the kind you don’t dare ruin. you could feel it in the way he held still, barely breathing. you let your hand drift to his hair, fingers sliding gently through the soft strands.
“i didn’t think i’d feel this again,” you confessed. “not after—” you stopped yourself.the words were too heavy. too tender. but he waited. patient, warm.so you continued, just barely, just a whisper.
“i lost someone. my brother. we… we lived together before. this apartment used to feel like his too. but when he died, it just felt hollow. like everything got quieter.”
he didn’t speak. he only leaned into you more. “i used to come home and forget he was gone. i’d wait for him to walk in the door, even months after. and then i stopped waiting. i stopped feeling much at all.”you turned your head, pressing your cheek to his hair. “but then you were here. and the apartment didn’t feel empty anymore.” sunghoon’s arms came around you then — strong and trembling — and you both sank into the bed without letting go. you curled into each other like survival. his lips pressed gently to your shoulder. you weren’t sure if he meant it as comfort or a promise — but it settled into your bones like both.
he whispered, “you brought me to life. maybe that’s why i came to you.” you said nothing. you just pulled him closer. the room was dark except for the faint streetlight glow through the curtains.
and even though you knew — knew — that something was wrong, that this peace might be borrowed, that the seconds were slipping from your fingers… you still clung to the night like it might never end. because for now, he was still here. and you loved him.
you didn’t sleep. not really. your body stayed still, curled into his, your arm slung over his waist as if that alone could hold him here. but your mind wouldn’t shut down. not when your heart was racing, not when every few minutes your breath hitched just waiting for another glitch. waiting for his warmth to disappear. waiting for a silence too still to mean anything good.
sunghoon slept soundly beside you. or… you hoped it was sleep. you weren’t even sure anymore. your alarm went off at 6:15 am, but you’d already been awake for hours by then — barely blinking, barely breathing. you silenced it before it could stir him and slipped out of bed, quietly as possible, heart heavy.
you needed answers. because this couldn’t keep happening.you made your way to the kitchen, your knees weak from exhaustion and nerves. the mug you’d shattered last night was still on the floor — the jagged ceramic in pieces across the tiles. you ignored it. you opened your laptop at the table, pulled your hoodie tighter around your shoulders, and started typing.
“webtoon character glitching real life?”
“story character coming to life breaking down?”
“dream person glitching?”
“can fictional characters stay in our world?”desperate questions. ridiculous ones.
each search gave you either crack theories, urban legends, or deep reddit threads filled with posts like:
“my oc came to life (here’s what happened)”
“creepypasta? i think i met a character i created irl”
“ai hallucination or another universe merging?”
none of it felt like an answer.
until.
you hesitated. then opened your bookmarked webtoon page — the same one that once gave you comfort during late nights and sad days. the one where you first fell in love with the version of him that came in frames and speech bubbles.
still on hiatus. still the same pause message as the day he arrived. you stared at the author’s username.
for the first time, it didn’t feel like just a handle on the screen. you clicked on it. no updates. no blog. no social posts. but there was an email address.
your fingers hovered above the keyboard. you couldn’t believe you were about to do this — send a real email to the creator of a fictional story, hoping they had an answer for why the character they made was lying asleep in your room.
but what choice did you have? you clicked compose.
subject: please. i need to know what’s happening.
and then you started typing:
hi… i don’t know how to explain this without sounding insane, but…something is wrong.
one of your characters — sunghoon — he’s here. i mean physically. in my world. he showed up a few weeks ago and it was impossible, i know. but he’s real. he’s him. he knows things from the story, but he’s different too. he’s more than the webtoon version. he’s warm, he’s funny, he’s scared, he’s trying. and now he’s glitching.
please. i don’t know if you’ll ever read this, but if you do… i need help. i can’t lose him.
you stared at it for a long moment before pressing
send.
there was no way to know if it would reach anyone. no way to know if they’d believe you. no way to know if it would help. but you had to try. because that boy asleep in your room, the one who now stole your hoodies and tried to cook breakfast with too much garlic, the one who curled into your side when you stayed up watching terrible romcoms — he was worth it.
you shut the laptop slowly and stared at the screen. just then, from the hallway— “y/n?” his voice. you turned around, heart slamming into your ribs.sunghoon stood there, sleepy and messy-haired, one of your brother’s old sweatshirts hanging off his shoulder.his smile was gentle. a little confused. like he’d just woken from a dream.
“why are you up so early?” he asked.and for a moment, just a breath—he looked perfectly okay. so you smiled back.and lied. “couldn’t sleep.”he walked over and wrapped his arms around you from behind, resting his chin on your shoulder. you leaned into him, forcing yourself to breathe, forcing your heart to calm.
“should we make pancakes?” he mumbled. “the fluffy ones you like.” “yeah,” you whispered, closing your eyes. “let’s do that.” and for now, you let yourself pretend the world wasn’t cracking beneath your feet.
the reply came that night. you weren’t expecting it. honestly, you didn’t think it would come at all. after all, it had been hours — long, dragging ones where sunghoon wore your brother’s too-big hoodie and insisted on making pancakes shaped like animals (which turned into vaguely blob-shaped attempts that still made you laugh). you had gone to class, he tagged along and dozed off beside you on the quad grass, arms behind his head like he belonged there. you studied a little in the campus library while he ran off to explore the shelves, his eyes wide at the smell of old pages and quiet, ancient silence.
it had been a good day.so good it made your heart ache with fear.and then your phone buzzed it wasn’t a text. it was an email. from “author studio - contact”. your breath caught. you quickly turned your back to sunghoon, heart pounding as you clicked it open.
subject: you shouldn’t have seen him.
your stomach dropped.
hands trembling, you opened the body of the message.
dear y/n,
this message may feel impossible — but i need you to believe me when i say:
you are not alone.
what you described… it isn’t the first time something like this has happened.
i didn’t expect it to happen again. not like this.
i created sunghoon as a story — as a fictional person. but something in the system broke. when a story becomes too deeply connected to the reader… sometimes, very rarely, it tries to cross over. i didn’t write this part. i didn’t tell him to go to you. he made that decision.
you must understand — he’s glitching because he’s not built for your world.
he’s only stable as long as the story continues, but—
i haven’t been able to update. because the moment he crossed, the data loop froze. that means if he stays in your world too long… he will break.
you need to send him back.
i’m sorry.
you stared at the screen. the world didn’t just crack. it collapsed.
“hey, what are you reading?” his voice — light and curious — floated from the kitchen where he was washing the dishes, badly humming a tune you once played for him on your phone. you couldn’t speak. you couldn’t even move. tears were welling, your throat tight and chest aching.
you need to send him back. but he was looking forward to tomorrow.he wanted to take you to the small weekend art market near the old bookstore. he was excited to find a used sweater that fit better than your brother’s old clothes. he wanted to buy strawberries for pancakes again.
he wanted to stay.he chose you. “y/n?”his voice again — closer now, as he padded toward you barefoot, wiping his damp hands on your dish towel. you quickly clicked your phone off and forced a smile, blinking back tears fast. “it’s nothing. just spam mail.” he tilted his head, clearly not buying it. “you okay?” you nodded. “yeah. just tired.”he walked up behind you again, arms sliding around your waist in a now-familiar hug, chin resting on your shoulder.
you leaned into him again, just like earlier. but this time, you clutched his hands like you were afraid he’d vanish. because now you knew. you knew every smile, every gentle moment, every sleepy blink, and slow kiss you hadn’t even had yet — it all came with a timer.he didn’t know it. but you did.and now?you had no idea how to tell him.
that night, you stayed up longer than usual. the lamp on your nightstand bathed the room in a warm, amber hue. outside, the crickets sang faintly under the late summer breeze, the night still and silent. the fan above hummed in slow, lazy circles. the sheets smelled like lavender and something else now—something unmistakably him. that soft, warm scent you couldn’t describe except with the feeling of comfort itself.
sunghoon was already in bed, lying on his side, facing you. his hair was slightly messy, damp at the tips from the shower you made him take after dinner. he was clutching the stuffed whale you’d jokingly handed him weeks ago. now it was always in his arms when he slept. you were curled up on your side too, just a few inches away, but tonight, your body felt stiff—eyes open, staring into the quiet, dark edges of your room.
your phone sat facedown beside you.
the message burned in your mind.
he will break.
you need to send him back.
you hadn’t answered. you couldn’t. what would you even say?you weren’t ready to let go.sunghoon stretched a little beside you with a soft sigh, the kind you’d come to recognize—peaceful and sleepy. then, without a word, he gently reached out and pulled you closer. his arm slid beneath your pillow, drawing you in until your foreheads lightly touched, and you could feel the soft flutter of his breath against your lips. he always slept like this. tucked into your warmth. like you were the anchor he never had in his own story.
“today was fun,” he murmured, voice drowsy. “that mural on campus… and the cupcakes at the art event. i liked how the frosting got stuck on your nose.” you forced a chuckle. “you didn’t tell me.” “i wanted to take a picture first,” he admitted, smiling sleepily. “but i forgot.” you smiled too, even though your chest throbbed.
“you make everything feel like a memory,” he whispered, words heavy with sincerity. “even the boring parts. like brushing our teeth together… or arguing about which playlist to listen to while doing laundry.” you looked at him, heart aching. “is that a good thing?” “it’s the best thing,” he said. “it’s like… living finally feels like living.”
he yawned, then, snuggling closer, eyes fluttering shut. you stared at him long after. and when he drifted off, breathing soft and steady, you turned on your side and faced the wall—eyes wide open, mouth pressed into the pillow to muffle the sound of your quiet tears.
the next morning, you acted normal. you made his eggs the way he liked—slightly runny yolk, no onions. he wore your brother’s old hoodie again, the sleeves pushed up just above his wrists as he balanced a spoon on his nose for no reason at all.
you laughed, even clapped when it fell and he tried to play it off like he meant it. you walked to campus together. he held your hand the whole way, swinging it lightly between you.
you gave him your headphones during your break in the university garden, letting him lean against your shoulder while he scrolled through random pinterest boards and talked about which cloud looked like which animal. when you got home, he insisted on helping you fold laundry, and you mock-scolded him when he folded your socks all wrong. he offered to cook dinner, and you let him, even when he confused basil for spinach and ended up burning the first batch of pasta.
and all the while— you smiled. you laughed. you touched his hand just a little longer. looked into his eyes just a little deeper.you didn’t say anything about the message. you didn’t tell him you were scared. instead, you let the quiet denial wrap around your days like a soft blanket. maybe, if you pretended hard enough, if you didn’t say it out loud—it would go away.
maybe he’d stay. maybe the story wouldn’t need to end. and maybe your heart wouldn’t break all over again. but that night, as he lay beside you once more, whispering sleepy little stories about the stars he saw while walking home, you knew.
you were lying to him.
you were lying to yourself.
because one day soon… the story would ask for him back.
and you didn’t know how to let go of someone you never truly had in the first place. the days kept moving—slow, sweet, borrowed.they were quieter now. there were fewer “let’s go here” and more “let’s just stay in.” fewer photos, more soft silences. a kind of stillness settled between the two of you, not heavy, not cold—just something tender that neither of you dared to break. sunghoon didn’t ask at first.
maybe he saw how your hands lingered on him a little longer. maybe he noticed how you woke up too early sometimes, staring at his face with a kind of desperation he couldn’t name.or maybe he was just trying to pretend the same way you were.
but that didn’t last forever.it was one of those evenings again. after your last class, he had waited outside the campus gate like always, leaning against the old tree where he knew you’d spot him instantly. his hair ruffled by the wind, hands tucked in the front pocket of that faded hoodie, the cuffs stretched out from him fidgeting with them all day.
you had smiled. he had smiled back.you took your usual route home, hand in hand, talking about nothing—your professor’s weird jokes, the girl in class who kept trying to borrow your pens, the squirrel you saw trying to steal a soda from a trash bin. and yet, something about your voice trembled. something in your laugh sounded like it cracked at the edges. that night, you were brushing your teeth together. him on the left, you on the right, both of you spitting toothpaste at the same time and laughing at the weird synchronization. his eyes met yours in the mirror and lingered.
“hey,” he said softly, drying his mouth. “have i done something wrong?” you paused, towel pressed to your face, freezing. “no,” you whispered too quickly. “why would you think that?” he stepped closer, turning you toward him. you were still holding the towel like it could shield you from the way his gaze pressed right into your soul. “you’re sad,” he said. not accusing. just a quiet, steady truth. you didn’t answer.
“even when you smile,” he added. “i see it. i feel it.”you wanted to lie. you wanted to pretend again. but you couldn’t. not when he looked at you like that. not when he reached up and gently tucked a strand of hair behind your ear. “you don’t have to tell me,” he whispered. “not yet. but i’m here. and i want to be here.” and before you could pull away or break apart or fold under the weight of it all, he leaned forward and pressed the gentlest kiss to your lips.
soft. certain. unrushed. it wasn’t like in the stories. it wasn’t dramatic or filled with trembling hands or sudden confessions. it was just real.warm.present. like he was telling you without words: i’m staying. i choose you. but the moment he pulled away and looked at you again, your chest cracked open.
tears welled before you could stop them. his expression changed. concerned. quietly afraid.
“y/n…?” you swallowed hard, the ache in your throat now too full to keep down.
“i got an email,” you whispered. his brow furrowed. “what kind of—” “from your creator,” you said, voice thin and shaking. “from the one who made you. the one who writes the webtoon. he just stared at you. “i didn’t know how to tell you,” you breathed. “i still don’t. i— i thought maybe if i didn’t say it, it wouldn’t be real. but they said you’re not supposed to be here, hoon. that the story is frozen because you left it. that… that you’ll start to break the longer you stay.”
the silence in the room was deafening. he blinked, lips parting, but nothing came out at first. you looked at him, heart in your throat. “i didn’t want to ruin this. i didn’t want to scare you or— or push you away. but every time i look at you now, i keep wondering when i’ll lose you. again.” he took a shaky breath. and then he did something that completely broke you:
he pulled you into him and held you like you were the only thing keeping him grounded.you gripped his shirt, pressing your face to his chest, crying harder now because the moment was too soft for the pain it carried. “i don’t care,” he whispered into your hair. “i don’t care if i break. i don’t want to go back.” you shook your head, trying to pull away. “you’ll disappear. you’ll stop existing—”
“then let me exist here,” he said, holding you tighter. “with you. even if it’s just for a little while longer.” your breath hitched. because deep down, you wanted that too. you wanted every stolen day, every late-night grocery run, every shared laugh over burnt food and awkward kisses and the way he loved so easily despite being from a world that wasn’t meant to collide with yours.
you didn’t know what tomorrow held. but for now?
you let yourself hold him back.and he kissed you again. this time, longer. this time, with trembling hands and a promise that hung in the air like a fragile thread neither of you dared to cut.
the world hadn’t changed. not really.
the clouds still drifted lazily across the sky. the corner bakery still burned their croissants. your landlord still forgot to fix the hallway light. midterms were still looming, and your laundry pile was once again threatening to eat your bed. but you had changed. and so had he. after that night—after the kiss, the trembling confession, the quiet promises—you both woke up slower. softer. like the world might slip through your fingers if you moved too fast. you still shared a bed.
the stuffed whale still ended up between you. or under his arm. or tossed on the floor when he wanted to pull you closer in his sleep.
but now, the mornings were filled with things unspoken. longer eye contact. a lingering hand on your cheek. lips brushing your forehead like a seal. like a silent plea: remember me this way. he didn’t glitch that week.not once.not even when he got caught in the rain walking to your campus and his outline shimmered faintly under the downpour. you wrapped him in your coat and pretended not to see it. he kissed the top of your wet hair and didn’t say a word.
you made more memories.you had to.you needed to.on tuesday, you borrowed a polaroid camera from the uni’s art room and brought it home like a secret mission.sunghoon lit up like a child.he took pictures of you brushing your teeth, folding towels, even cutting onions (“you cry every time. i want proof.”) you took photos of him reaching for the top shelf in the kitchen, of his hands holding your coffee mug, of his soft smiles in stolen moments he thought you weren’t looking.
you filled the wall beside your bed with them. careless little snapshots of a life that didn’t feel borrowed anymore. and on wednesday, you taught him how to bake brownies—from scratch this time, not the mix. he wore a ridiculous apron with a cartoon carrot on it, swore under his breath when he cracked the eggs too hard, and got flour in his eyebrows from a sneeze.
you laughed so hard your stomach hurt. “stop laughing!” he groaned, holding up the batter-covered whisk like a weapon. “you’re supposed to be helping!” “i am,” you giggled, dodging him. “i’m emotionally supporting you!”he cornered you near the sink and kissed your cheek, smearing a bit of chocolate on your nose in the process.
you didn’t wipe it off.that night, you stayed up past midnight.he lay beside you, back against the wall, as you scrolled through your old playlist together, adding songs and assigning memories to each. “that one,” he said, pointing to a soft acoustic track. “that sounds like the time we stayed under the blanket fort for hours because it rained.”you hummed. “and that one?” you tapped a mellow indie song. he smiled. “that sounds like you… when you’re brushing your hair in the morning. calm and sleepy and too pretty for the world.”
you looked at him, heart in your throat.“you’re trying to make me fall for you harder, aren’t you?” you whispered.he only grinned. “maybe.”by thursday, the weather had shifted. cooler breeze. less humidity. a gentle reminder that summer was fading.you skipped your last class and dragged him to the tiny park five minutes from your apartment—the one with the old wooden swings and the sky just open enough to see the stars when the lights went out.
he brought your brother’s hoodie again, the one he always wore when he didn’t know what else to reach for. you didn’t say anything.you lay down on the grass side by side, arms brushing, fingers grazing. neither of you moved to lace them. “you scared?” he asked quietly, eyes on the sky.
you turned your head. he was blinking slowly, watching the stars but not really seeing them.
you took a breath. “yes.” “me too.” silence. then he reached for your hand and laced your fingers with his, like he’d just remembered how. “i think i was scared even before i knew,” he said. “even when i didn’t understand what was happening. it always felt like i was… borrowing this. all of it. you. the world. the sunlight. the way coffee tastes. like i snuck into something i shouldn’t have.”
you squeezed his hand. “you didn’t sneak in. you were always meant to find it. to find me.” he turned his head and looked at you—really looked.
and when he smiled, it was soft. a little tired. but still full of that same tenderness that had made you fall for him in the first place. “i don’t want to forget any of it,” he whispered. “you won’t.”
“how do you know?”you shifted closer, resting your head on his shoulder, wrapping your other arm around his. “because i won’t let you.” he didn’t reply for a long time.when you looked again, his eyes were damp—but he smiled. “i love you, you know.” it was the first time he’d said it. you didn’t cry right away. you just let yourself feel it.
the warmth. the weight. the truth.and you whispered it back, soft and certain.
“i love you too, hoon.”
and when you both sat up and looked at the stars again, your pinkies still entwined, the wind carrying the scent of rain and grass and something like hope—you could almost believe this wasn’t going to end. the days felt like honey—warm, golden, slow. everything was steeped in softness now. even the pain. you weren’t pretending anymore. not fully.
he knew what he was.
you knew what would happen.
but still, you both chose to stay in the lull between knowing and letting go.like a long exhale neither of you were ready to end.
sunghoon woke before you most mornings now. he’d make tea instead of coffee. he said the quiet bubbling of the kettle was gentler. said your face, when you sleep, looked too peaceful for anything loud.sometimes he’d sit at your little desk, sketching in the margins of your notebooks. scribbles of your hair. your socks. the folds of your blanket. he said he wanted to draw all the things he didn’t know how to name.
you called him ridiculous. he just smiled.in the evenings, you lit a candle on the table while he stirred whatever you decided to cook. you’d play music from your phone and sing off-key and he’d look at you like you were singing just for him.
and maybe you were.you didn’t say goodbye yet.
but everything you did started to feel like one.
on the friday after your last exam, you took him to the campus garden. it wasn’t anything fancy—just a few flower beds, benches, an old wooden swing near the back—but you used to sit there when things were heavy. sunghoon had never been there before. he looked at the lavender patch like it was a galaxy. you let him lie down with his head in your lap, fingers combing gently through his hair while the afternoon sun painted the world in soft, glowing brushstrokes.
he sighed. “what do you wanna do tomorrow?“what do you wanna do tomorrow?” you asked back.he blinked up at you, eyes a little glassy. “make one more memory.” you nodded.that night, he helped you write a list on a sticky note with little stars and hearts. your handwriting and his, side by side.
– go to the park early
– buy matching hair clips from that stall you always pass
– make strawberry milk from scratch
– take polaroids in the photobooth again
– lay on the floor with the fairy lights on
– say everything you’ve been too scared to say
you both stared at the last one in silence.
then sunghoon added one more.
– look at each other like it’s the first time
you looked at him then, heart crumpling, and he smiled like it was okay.
the next day bloomed like a dream. the weather was good. the wind soft. the whole city smelled faintly of bread and clean air. he wore your brother’s hoodie again. you didn’t ask why.
he said your name like it was made of sunlight. you made strawberry milk with cut-up fruit and ice cubes shaped like tiny stars. he kissed your cheek when you weren’t looking.you sat side by side in the photobooth, and this time he leaned in and kissed your temple just before the shutter clicked.
you kept that one. put it in your journal. wrote the date in the corner like it meant everything. because it did. later that night, he lay on the floor beside you while your fairy lights blinked lazily from above. he was smiling at the ceiling. humming something under his breath.
“this is my favorite day,” he said. “me too.” “not because we did a lot,” he added, turning his head to face you. “but because we did it… like us.” you looked at him. “us?” he nodded. “whatever we are. whatever we’ve become. it feels real. even if it’s not supposed to be.”
you swallowed. he reached out, and you let him cradle your face. his thumb brushed your cheekbone, his breath soft when he leaned in. “i want you to remember this part,” he said quietly. “this version of me. not the broken pieces when it happens.”
you tried to blink the tears away, but he kissed them off your cheeks before they fell. “you’re not breaking,” you whispered. “you’re here.”but the silence afterward was heavy. like you both knew the glitch was waiting around the corner. still, you kissed him. because what else could you do? when he pulled back, he touched your forehead to his and whispered, “if this is the end, let it be beautiful.”
you didn’t say anything.
you just kissed him again.
he glitched the next morning. not a flicker. not a shimmer. it was worse. you were brushing your teeth when you heard the thud. ran into the kitchen with foam still in your mouth. sunghoon was on his knees, hand on the wall, the mug he’d dropped still spinning on the floor. “hoon?” you rushed to him. “what’s—are you okay?”
his skin was trembling. like static. like snow in an old tv screen. his voice cracked. “i saw… them.”you knelt beside him, grabbing his wrist. “what? saw who?” he blinked, dazed. “the panels. i saw them again.” your breath left your lungs. his eyes searched yours. “you knew. you know what’s happening.” you nodded. barely.
he reached for you. clung to you like a man drowning.“i don’t want to go.” you broke. you let yourself sob into his chest. let yourself say it, over and over: i don’t want you to go either. i don’t. i don’t. i don’t— his hands stayed firm on your back. but his outline shimmered again. longer this time. like something was unraveling.
you didn’t know how much longer you had.but you knew one thing.you would remember all of it.no matter what.
the final day arrived quietly.
no warning. no glitch. no crack of thunder.
just… peace. too much peace.
you woke up with your fingers curled into sunghoon’s shirt, your face tucked into the crook of his neck. his arms were already around you, as if he knew. as if he hadn’t slept at all.the sun had barely risen, casting golden shadows across the wooden floor. everything was still.
you tilted your head and looked up at him.
he was already looking at you. he smiled.
but it was different this time. softer. heavier.
“hey,” you whispered. “hey,” he said, just as gently. you reached up to touch his cheek, but before you could, he caught your hand and brought it to his lips. held it there. kissed the inside of your wrist like it was sacred.
you both lay there for a while, not saying anything. then he spoke. voice like a breeze.
“it’s today.” you closed your eyes. not because you didn’t believe him. but because your heart wasn’t ready to say it out loud. when you finally looked at him again, your throat was tight.
“how do you know?”he smiled again, brushing his knuckles across your cheek. “because the story’s been quiet all night. like it’s holding its breath.”
you tried to laugh. it came out broken. “what do we do?” you whispered. sunghoon’s eyes softened. “we live it.”
you made breakfast together. burned the toast again. laughed through tears.he said he didn’t care as long as he got to see you chew and complain like you always did.he brushed your hair behind your ear. you pressed your forehead to his. he kissed you like it was the first time all over again.
you went to your favorite bench at the edge of campus. the one by the mural he always liked.he traced his finger along the painted stars on the wall. “i always thought this one looked like you.”“how can a star look like me?” “bright. a little lonely. but always trying.” you laughed and tried not to fall apart again.
he took your hand, lacing his fingers with yours.
“if there’s something after this… another version of me, another version of you…” you looked at him. “i’ll find you,” he said. “i swear i will.”
you nodded, blinking back more tears. “and i’ll wait.”
“you don’t have to,” he said gently. “you can live. fall in love. laugh. eat burnt toast. have a messy, full life. just… remember me. even if it’s just in a quiet way.” you shook your head, trembling.
“i don’t want a world without you in it.” he smiled. his thumb brushed away the tear sliding down your cheek.
“then i’ll stay,” he whispered. “right here.”
he tapped your chest with his finger, right over your heart. “you kept me alive. you wrote the ending differently. even when you weren’t the author.” you leaned into him, sobbing softly.
he held you. held all the broken parts you didn’t know how to name. kissed the top of your head like he was memorizing it.
by the time the sun dipped below the horizon, your apartment was quiet again. you curled up on the bed together. no music. no fairy lights. no distractions. just your breathing. your hands. your silence. sunghoon turned to you, tears in his eyes.
“can i be selfish?” he whispered. you nodded. “
you always could.”
“can i kiss you until it hurts?”
“please.”
and so he did.
again and again and again—
kissing you like it would keep him here. like his lips could rewrite fate. your tears mixed with his.when he finally pulled back, your foreheads touching, you whispered the words you had kept buried for so long.
“i love you.”
sunghoon smiled, eyes glistening.
“i love you too.”
his body started to flicker.
this time, not a glitch.
a fade. gentle, soft—like dust caught in light.
he didn’t panic.
he just held your face, and said it again.
“i’ll find you.” and then—
he was gone.
not in a flash. not in shattering light.
just…
gone.
you sat there, knees to your chest, arms wrapped around the last warmth he left behind. and for the first time in a long time,
you cried.
not because you lost him.
but because you had him.
and he had you.
even if only for a chapter.
-
you didn’t move at first.
you just stayed on the bed, curled into yourself, arms still tingling from where he’d last touched you. your cheek was damp, your chest hollow, breath shaky like the silence was too loud now that it didn’t include him.
but eventually…
you looked up.
half-hoping, half-fearing—
maybe everything would vanish.
his hoodie on your desk chair.
the cup with his toothbrush beside yours.
the slippers by the door, a little too big for your feet.
the stack of polaroids on the corkboard.
but they were all still there. untouched.
as if the world hadn’t just ended inside you. you stood slowly, bare feet against the cold floor. each step felt heavier than the last, like your body already missed his gravity. like the room knew.
your eyes landed on the tiny desk in the corner, the one he always sat at when he waited for you to finish your readings. a notebook still sat there—your brother’s old one he had adopted—open to a page with a rough sketch of your back, drawn in pen. it wasn’t perfect, but the details were there.
the slope of your shoulders. the shape of your bun. your name written under it in messy handwriting with a heart at the end.
you choked back a sob and turned away. then you saw the polaroids. they were still pinned in that same uneven row along your bedroom wall. every moment you had tried to immortalize was still there. his laughter mid-bite. your blurry smile holding up burnt brownies. the one where he had kissed your cheek and you’d been caught mid-blush.
and the first photo strip —the photobooth tucked at the edge, forgotten by everyone but you and him. you walked over and carefully took it off the wall. your fingers trembled.
the four tiny squares were slightly worn, the corners curling just a bit from being touched too often.you remembered the way he laughed when it printed.
how he softly said, “i like that we can remember this,even if it’s just in four little pictures.”
you clutched the photo strip to your chest.
it was all still here.
his hoodie still smelled like him.
his favorite mug still had a lipstick stain from where he made you tea last night.
the books he picked out from your shelf were still in the same crooked order he left them.
nothing disappeared.
just him.
just him.
you sank to the floor, knees drawn to your chest, the photo strip shaking in your hands as the weight of it all pressed against your ribs.
he had been real.
he had been here.
not just in your heart, not just in a screen or a panel of a webtoon—but here, living, loving, laughing in the same space as you.
and now—he wasn’t.
but he didn’t take anything with him.
he left it all for you.
because he wanted you to remember.
because he believed you would keep going.
because he knew the love you shared was too strong to disappear just because he had.
and even through the ache—
that mattered.
that still mattered.
so you stayed there for a while, curled up in his hoodie, photo strip clutched to your chest.
and for the first time since he faded—
you whispered into the quiet room, through tears and cracked breath:
“i’ll find you too.”
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BACKROOM DIPLOMACY ⠀─── PSH



( ꒰ঌ⸝⸝) ⠀─── Folding silk scarves, styling customers, and dealing with the occasional entitled mother—just another day working in luxury retail.
But when Sunghoon gets dragged into his mother’s bussiness, he doesn’t expect to meet you—a sharp-tongued store assistant who’s all too good at pretending not to care.
What starts with a damaged bag ends with a secret affair neither of you saw coming.
wc ꒱ 6.3k — legislative assistant! sunghoon ⨯ store assistant!fem. reader
warnings! 18+ smut, angst, pwp ✸﹕ oral(fem), petnames, affairs & cheating, exhibitionism, arranged marriages — TOTALLY INACCURATE REPRESENTATION OF PSH’ MOTHER
an ·˚ ༘ first piece for this account! reader realises a bit ate shes the side piece…
The perfume section always smells like bitterness and exhaustion, laced with overpriced musk.
To the rich, though, it’s intoxicating — the scent of spending for the sake of it.
Iris and sandalwood might be comforting in a home. But here? Under glass lights and superficial smiles, they settle like dread beneath your skin.
And that dread only festers the longer you look at the woman in front of you.
Her previously smooth, glassy skin now creases around a permanent snarl. Her dark bob is razor-straight and shoulder-skimming, not a strand out of place. A Celine Triomphe necklace gleams against her sternum, rising and falling with every syllable she spits.
“This is truly unacceptable. Never in my life would I have expected such terrible service.”
“Ma’am, as I said, I’m sorry—”
“Sorry does not cut it.”
You force your brow to unfurrow, fighting to keep your expression neutral. Six years in luxury retail, and somehow the worst part of the job is still pretending someone like this is always right.
“Ma’am, the lady who helped you last week is a trainee. It was an honest mistake — she gave you the display model by accident. Unfortunately, we’re out of stock on that item.”
“What am I supposed to do with this mess?” Her voice rises. “The lacquer on the straps is melted.”
“Yes, ma’am. I understand. We can send it to France for repair, but—”
“I don’t have a week!”
You flinch. The glass display table between you offers little defense.
She’s tall. Elegant in a cold, precise way — five foot ten, in pointed kitten heels that echo like threats against the marble. A Mini Lady Dior dangles from her manicured fingers as if warning you.
You had just sold the last Oura bag — THE 8TH HOUSE’s viral release — ten minutes before she arrived. You left that part out. Mistake.
“I bought this bag to wear for a special dinner in 4 days,” she snaps. “As a paying customer, I expect a partial refund — and a replacement. Now go check the back.”
“Ma’am, as I said—”
“I don’t like your attitude.”
You blink. “Excuse me?”
“Do you know who my son is?”
And just like that, you’re done for.
No, you don’t know who her son is — but from the way she’s dripping in gold, and you’re dripping in sweat, you know it’s about to get worse.
“May I take a name?”
She tongues her cheek. “It should be on file.”
Now playing Guess Who, you reach for the store tablet, pretending to type. She watches you like a hawk with dangly earrings.
“You know what? I’ll call him myself.”
“Ma’am, that’s not necessa—”
Three rings. A pause. Then:
“Darling, hi honey. I’m sending you my location.”
A low murmur vibrates through the speaker.
“Don’t be like that — I need help. Terrible service! I think I’m being scammed. Should’ve just bought the Kelly instead.”
Another pause, followed by a curt response. Then:
“Thank you, sweetheart. Please come as soon as—”
The call ends. She turns back toward you, expression smug.
“My son works in the government. He’ll deal with this. He has power. He can get you fired.”
You barely open your mouth before she continues.
“Surely there’s someone with a bit more authority who could’ve handled this. I was told this boutique had standards.” She judges, eyeing the store’s shelves of purses, mannequins posed with elegance.
“My Son’s fiancée recommended this place. She’s a proper woman, well-raised. Polite.”
The woman only continues with her remarks for what seems like hours, leaving you no choice but to be verbally beaten. You’re one passive-aggressive breath away from quitting on the spot—
—but then the door chime ring; soft, high pitched, delicate.
And the room goes still.
Not the kind you get when a customer’s thinking. The kind that spreads in the air when something powerful walks in.
You keep your head down, still reeling from the mother’s constant barrage — until the shift in the room makes it impossible not to look up.
He doesn’t speak. He doesn’t have to.
His steps are smooth and deliberate. The tap of leather dress shoes against marble echoes like a countdown.
And then you see him.
Tailored charcoal blazer, cinched just right at the waist. Crisp white dress shirt underneath, with sleeves that don’t wrinkle. Broad shoulders. A jaw sharp enough to cut through pleasantries.
And a face. God, the face.
Smooth ivory skin, cool-toned and clear. A beauty mark dusted beneath his right eye. Straight, dark brows. Deep eyes that look at you — like he’s trying to memorize you on sight.
You swallow. Too loudly.
“Sunghoon, my dear,” his mother says, voice suddenly sweet. “Listen carefully—”
“Please step aside, mother.”
He doesn’t raise his voice. He doesn’t need to.
He walks past her, long strides cutting straight across the store toward you. You’re already standing, but somehow you still feel like you need to rise to meet him.
“Sir,” you manage, stiff and formal. “I’m deeply sorry.”
“I was pulled out of a meeting with a constituent.” His voice is calm, smooth, but carries weight. “What seems to be the issue?”
“Your mother was given a damaged item by a new trainee. I offered a full repair or a refund, but both options will take a week or more.”
A long breath leaves him. Not annoyed — more resigned.
Then, he reaches into his inner pocket.
And pulls out a sleek black card. He lays it on the glass counter between you, perfectly centered.
“Take my card. Source the bag from anywhere. Overnight it if you can. Charge whatever you need, just make sure it arrives before her event.”
You blink, words tangled on your tongue.
“Sir, I’m not sure we can guarantee delivery that fast—”
“That’s fine,” he cuts in gently. “Do your best. That would be greatly appreciated.”
You feel your chest jump.
Polite. Hot. Rich. You’re in actual danger.
You’ve spent your whole shift aligning belts and folding scarves, and now you’re talking to someone who looks like he belongs on a magazine cover and speaks like he was born in diplomacy.
Your brain short-circuits.
“Mother,” he says, turning without looking at you. “I’ll handle the rest. I’ll bring the new bag to your house once it arrives.”
She nods once, satisfied. The mask of arrogance slips right back into place.
“I’m glad we could come to an understanding. Thank you, sweetheart.”
Then to you, her voice sharper again:
“Next time, let’s make sure it’s handled correctly the first time.”
She spins on her heel and glides toward the exit, her skirt swaying dramatically with each step.
You watch her go. And then — finally — exhale.
Your shoulders slump in relief. The worst is over. You’re alone now, finally.
Until:
“Not going to be a next time for her until she fixes that bob.”
The words leave your mouth before you can stop them.
Silence.
Then a soft chuckle.
“What’s the issue with her haircut?”
You freeze.
He heard you. He heard you.
Your eyes shoot up, wide and panicked.
He’s still there, tilted slightly to the side, one eyebrow raised in mild amusement.
“You look like a gaping fish.”
“Sir—”
“You’re quite brave for that comment.” He pauses. His gaze sweeps the store like he’s trying to understand it, deep in thought. “Though I can’t imagine what she said to you. She becomes cruel, sometimes. For that, I apologize.”
His tone is casual, but there’s something under it. Weight. Restraint. The air around him feels… taut. Like he’s holding back.
You straighten up without thinking.
“Thank you. That means a lot.”
“You’ve handled her better than most.”
And then — a flicker of a smile. Subtle, but it knocks the breath out of your lungs all over again.
He doesn’t wait for a response. Instead, he nods once, a quiet conclusion to the chaos.
Turning, the soft click of his shoes echo again, that same calm intensity he arrived with, except now with the tension lifted and resolving.
He reaches the glass doors, pushing them open.
And pauses. Just long enough for you to catch it.
“Thank you.” He says, voice low — not out of shynes, control. “I know you didn’t have to handle it the way you did.”
You blink, surprised. The store feels too quiet again.
The door swings shut behind him with a soft chime.
Just like that, he’s gone. However, it feels like he left something behind.
You exhale, finally, letting your shoulders drop.
Your fingers reach up, absently smoothing your shirt collar — like you could erase the way he looked at you. The way his gaze didn’t linger, but settled.
‘What the hell was that?’ you mutter under your breath.
The display mannequins don’t answer.
You’re not sure you want them to.
You found a bag that same night.
Laptop open, notebook at your side with scribbled codes and international numbers, you combed through headquarters one by one until you finally located it — Bangkok. Last in stock.
The next morning, you placed the order through the boutique’s internal system. It wasn’t cheap — express international shipping never is — but Sunghoon’s black card handled it.
A day later, you sent a short confirmation text to the number linked to the card.
The bag is ready.
And the day after, the same familiar chime rang out,
However it wasn’t a rampage that walked in, instead, refinement.
A stark black tux.
Hair parted clean down the centre, styled just enough to look effortless. A few loose strands fell forward, deliberate in their messiness.
He looked like he stepped out of a campaign shoot.
Straight toward the glass counter. The same one where he’d first met you.
“Good afternoon.” his voice is the same, low, even.
You hate that it still sounded like silk. Hated it more that you remembered it exactly. Dreamed of it, even.
‘I’m here to pick up the replacement bag for my mother.’
‘Of course sir — right this way.’
You lead him past the counter to a teak table — smooth, low, with a warm ivory lamp and curated bottles of cologne lining its edge.
He follows in silence.
His gaze trails over you: the soft trail of your perfume, the gleam of your earrings, the clean movement of your skirt. His eyes linger too long on the way the fabric hugs your hips.
Your voice pulls him back.
‘One moment, Sir. I’ll go get the package.’
You disappear to a back door, heels softly clicking. Only now, you emerge with an ashen grey box with the store’s logo pressed into the middle, gently settling it onto the table.
The box feeling weightier than usual, and you lift the lid, unveiling the pristine bag.
“Here it is,” you say, calm and measured. “I secured the last one from Bangkok. Express shipping has been charged to your card.”
You slide the matte black metal card back across the table toward him.
‘If all is correct, I’ll have this packaged and ready for you, Sir.’
‘Delightful.’
Cutting black silk ribbon and wrapping the box corners, your line of sight is diverted to a lighter grey shopping bag sliding onto the table.
Paying no mind towards it, you continue your task only pausing when Sunghoon stares at you expectedly.
‘Sir?’
‘This is for you.’
You blink. ‘For me?’
‘An apology for the other day.’
You glance into the bag, half-expecting some overpriced chocolate.
Instead — a candle. Heavy glass. Minimal label. Tom Ford.
The label reads: ‘Bitter Peach’
Upon reading, you snort. ‘Subtle.’
Sunghoon tilts his head, replying ‘It felt… appropriate.’ His face unchanging, but his eyes glint — barely.
Resuming your task, you gently place the box into a matching gift bag, tie the ribbon seal, and face the bag logo towards Sunghoon. Suddenly aware of his staring, you look back.
‘So’ you murmur, ‘the government pays you to harass boutique staff and deliver passive - aggressive gifts?’
A blink.
‘I’m not usually this involved in retail diplomacy.’
‘Could’ve fooled me.’
His lips twitch. Just slightly.
Your eyes darted across him again, small details further push your daydreams for later tonight. He doesn’t fidget, thinned lips plush and moistened — which was irritating in itself.
After a beat, you speak again.
‘You didn’t have to.’
‘No.’ He replies softly, but final, ‘I wanted to.’
‘Thank you.’
He nods slightly, taking the bag to leave, only turning before stepping away too far, glancing back.
‘You’re not like the people I usually deal with.’
‘Good or bad?’
‘Still deciding.’
And he takes his leave, leaving you only with the faint scent of his cologne, and a candle on the table.
He started coming in more often after that.
Always with a reason. A question about leather treatment, a last-minute gift, coming in to ask what tie colour would go well with a new suit — exchanges he easily could’ve sent someone else to do. He never said anything too forward, but the way he looked at you… it was far from businesslike.
You got used to the smell of white musk and clean linen, and the way your breath would hitch just a little when it was him.
Eventually, he asked. Quietly. Smoothly. The way Sunghoon always speaks when he wants something.
“Dinner — unless you’ve got a policy against those who make them.”
You said yes.
One date turned into two. Then three.
And each time, he looked at you like you were the only thing that mattered.
You made him smile. He kept you steady.
Suddenly your apartment was filled with flower bouquets every other day; roses, dahlias, peonies.
Your kitchen island went from being empty to being covered in shopping bags full of jewellery, perfumes and shoes.
It felt like a permanent state of bliss, one that created a hazy filter every time you were together — sweet and serene.
Until today.
The work day was busy, customers coming for gifts, new season releases and more. You couldn’t recall how many times you’ve given lipstick samples today, but the crowd slowly lessened as the day passed.
Now, the store was quiet — late afternoon light glinting off the perfume bottles. Suddenly, the door opened again, the small bell ringing out.
You looked up — and it was him.
But he wasn’t alone.
A woman walked beside him. Beautiful in that way that doesn’t even try. Everything she wore was sleek, tasteful. Cream-like skin caught in soft daylight, framed by brown silk-smooth hair that fell in deliberate, brushed lines. Her eyes, wide and clear, and her cheeks were delicately blushed.
And she was a regular customer, one who's racked up plenty of store credit.
Your spine stiffened as they approached. You could barely look at him — you couldn’t
Sunghoon stood behind her as she smiled, soft and sweet. She greeted you as you did numerous times in the past when you served her. But now as you smile back, your lips crack and your chest feels bitter.
You wanted to hate her. Couldn’t. She hadn’t done anything wrong. She didn’t even know.
“Hello again. I was wondering if you could help me and my fiancée find a few pieces?”
Fiancée.
A surge of vivid memories crashed over you, taking you back to that memorable first encounter with his mother.
My son. His fiancée.
You nodded. “Of course. Right this way.”
You led her to the lounge, walked her through options, gave polite suggestions from necklaces to sunglasses, all while your chest burned with something between anger and humiliation.
He watched you. The whole time.
And you never met his eyes once.
Eventually, she excused herself to the changing room, a few options draped over her arm. You moved to restock a few things — anything to keep your hands busy, anything to avoid him.
You didn’t notice him approach until you felt his presence at your side.
“Angel.’
You didn’t answer. Just kept folding a scarf that was already perfect.
“Look at me.”
You didn’t.
Sunghoon reached out — a hand barely brushing your wrist. “Y/N.”
You turned, sharply.
“What?” you seethed. “You want styling advice for her too?”
His jaw tensed. “It’s not like that.”
You stepped back half a pace. “No? What is it like, then? Because from where I’m standing, I’m the mistress that you picked up when you got tired playing house.’
“That’s not fair.”
“You’re not playing fair,” you muttered. “Bringing her here. Where you knew I’d be.”
He didn’t reply. Just stared at you like he was trying to find the right words — and failing.
But then he stepped closer.
Too close.
The air thickened. His eyes dropped to your lips, then back to your eyes.
“You didn’t look at me once,” he said quietly.
You scoffed, “Was I supposed to?”
“No — but I wanted you to.’
You opened your mouth to say something — anything.
But he didn’t wait.
His hand slid behind your neck, pulling you in with the same calm intensity he always carried — and he kissed you.
No hesitation.
No apology.
Just tension finally, finally breaking.
You kissed him back — angry, confused, burning.
Soft lips melded together, holding and wanting to stay.
When you finally pulled away, the space between you sparked like static.
“She’s trying on dresses,” you whispered.
His voice was low. “You think I care?”
You stared at him, breath trembling, heart louder than your thoughts.
And for a second, it felt like in the whole store, it was just you two again.
You took a full step back, pulse still hammering behind your ribs.
His gaze followed you, lips parted like he still hadn’t come down from the kiss.
You turned away, suddenly needing space. Distance. Breath.
And then — the sound of a velvet curtain pulling back.
“Sunghoon?”
You froze.
She stood in the changing room doorway, one arm hugging a dress to her figure. A neutral beige silk clung to her like it had been tailored hours ago. Her hair was tucked behind one ear, eyes searching the boutique calmly.
“I think I found one I like.”
Sunghoon didn’t move for a beat.
He then stepped toward her with practiced ease, voice sliding back into something smooth. Controlled.
“Let’s see.”
She turned toward the mirror, shifting her weight in the heels. “It’s hard to tell if it’s too plain… what do you think?”
You forced a smile. “It’s elegant. Minimal. It’ll layer well with accessories.”
“Exactly what I was thinking,” Sunghoon said. His tone was light, effortless. Like nothing had happened.
But when his eyes flicked to you — just for a second — they weren’t weak at all.
You dropped your gaze immediately, heat crawling up your neck.
She moved back toward the fitting room, mumbling something about trying another size.
And as soon as she disappeared behind the curtain, Sunghoon turned toward you again.
But this time, you stepped away before he could speak.
“I’ll prepare a few alternatives,” you said, almost cold.
He didn’t stop you.
Didn’t speak.
Just stood there, silent in his perfect suit, in a store full of mirrors and unsaid things.
it was a last minute reschedule.
A senior stylist had called in sick. With half the team scrambling to rearrange client slots, your manager kindly booked you for the 4PM appointment.
You didn’t think twice. Not until you saw the name on the tablet.
Park Sunghoon.
Too late to swap shifts. Too late to call out.
The boutique was silent as you walked out the elevator doors, slowly approaching the showroom with the feeling of impending doom.
The muted hum of air vents and the soft scent of cedar wood from the new display candles filled the silence.
You heard his footsteps before you saw him.
Dark slacks. Crisp shirt. No tie this time.
Still immaculate. Just as infuriating.
He stepped into the showroom like he belonged there, meeting your eyes upon the sound of your heels.
“Miss,” he greeted, voice smooth as ever.
You didn’t smile. “Mr. Park.”
His eyes flicked over you. Not intrusive — but not neutral either.
“I wasn’t expecting you.” he said quietly.
“Your stylist called in sick.” you replied sharply, leaving no room for empty small talk.
You turned towards the table without answering. ‘I’ll walk you through the selections as your assistant requested. If you have any preferences before that, let me know.’
Silence behind you. Until,
“So we’re doing it like this?”
You looked up from the layout. “Doing what, sir?”
He blinked at the formality, his jaw clenching under the pressure of his bite.
“You haven’t returned any of my calls.”
“I’ve been working.”
“For two weeks?”
You didn’t answer. Instead, you gestured to the curated items organised on the table. “These were brought in from the Milan line — cashmere. Limited run.”
He stepped forward, stopping just across from you. The air felt thinner between you. He didn’t look at the clothes.
“Why are you pretending none of it happened?”
You forced yourself to meet his gaze. “Because it shouldn’t have.”
His expression shifted — barely. A flicker of frustration, or something heavier.
“Right.” he muttered. ‘Back to be being professional”
“I’m doing my job.”
“We kissed.”
Your breath caught, just a little.
“And then you brought your fiancé here. Remember?”
His voice dropped. “I didn’t know she was coming.”
“She tried on champagne silk and asked if it looked plain — you said nothing.”
“I didn’t plan that. I didn’t plan any of this.”
“But you let it happen.”
That silence again. Sharp and close and intimate.
Then, the softest he’s ever spoken. “You disappeared.”
“I had to.” you sighed deeply, your chest aching, “Sunghoon, this isn’t professional.”
His fingers grazed the edge of the table. “I didn’t want you to.”
You looked away, pulse climbing. “You still have a ring in your finger.”
“It’s arranged.”
That made your gaze snap back.
‘The engagement,’ he says. Voice flat, like the words taste sour. ‘It’s a contract. A bussiness move.’
‘And that's supposed to make what you did okay?’
‘No it doesn’t,’ he says. ‘But I need you to know it wasn't fake. None of it.’
You face him, hugging yourself with your pulse hammering.
‘Why tell me now?’
‘Because you won’t even look at me,’ he says — low and raw. ‘And I’m going insane not being able to fit it.’
You falter as he steps closer.
For the first time, Sunghoon looks almost unguarded. His thick brows draw down in stress, while his eyes speak a thousand words.
You allow him to get closer, closing the distance between you two until you feel your back hit the edge of the display table.
His gaze intense, you meet his eyes properly for the first time in weeks, ‘I’ve wanted you the moment I saw you. Please believe me when I say I didn’t choose her, but you.’
It was the unravelling.
With both hands you pull on Sunghoon's collar, bringing your lips together in a harsh kiss.
His lips were as good as you remember, perfectly fitting and moulding to yours. You pulled him by the collar and kissed him hard. He met you with equal force; tongue, teeth, and hands. Nothing gentle. Months of repression dissolved into that kiss. You both fight for dominance, tugging on any surface of each other you can grasp, teeth hitting each other as the kiss becomes louder, messier.
Sunghoon groans into the kiss, his hands finally finding purchase on your hips, however, the intensity doesn’t fade as he tightens his grip, pushing a knee between your legs.
‘You’ve made me wait so long for this.’ he says, separating the kiss whilst still slightly brushing his lips against yours.
You laugh softly, looking up into his eyes that pool with yearning, ‘You deserve it.’
His lips twitched against your neck.
Gentle kisses turn into rough sucks and bites along your neck as he bit down, leaving swelling reds and deepening purples in his wake. He takes his time, slowly trailing the slope of your body, his lips placing one last gentle kiss on your sternum before he begins to unbutton your blouse — unwrapping you like a secret he already knew was his.
‘Turn around for me angel.’
You turn around, hands mounting your body weight onto the display table as you slightly arch your back. Shivers travel down your body as Sunghoon smooths his hands down the contours of your body, as if memorising the shape.
Slowly unzipping your pencil skirt, he lets it drop and pool around your ankles. You whine in anticipation, the air conditioning hitting your skin through the mesh material of your hosiery.
You feel Sunghoon lightly palm your ass, the hosiery giving friction against his as he lightly slaps your thigh.
‘Sir,’ you whisper, looking over your shoulder to see Sunghoon’s hungrier eyes absorbing your form.
Then a soft tug.
riipp
A sharp gasp left your mouth as sunghoon tore your hosiery open, a stretching hole between the seam revealing your lace underwear exposed to lustful eyes.
You felt yourself clench, the cold air making you feel even more exposed, your blouse slowly dropping off your shoulders and the balls of your feet prickling with heat in your heels.
‘Fuck, youre soaking already.’ Sunghoon relishes, sinking to his knees in his perfectly tailored dress pants.
“The black looks stunning on you, angel,” he breathes, his voice low and enticing as he inches closer, his nose teasing the damp fabric. “But just imagine how breathtaking you’d be in white. Light pink would be absolutely mesmerising.”
You moan at the friction, the tip of his nose bumping your clit, with whines spilling out of you.
Instead, he pushes the lace aside, dragging his tongue in one long, aching stripe from your clit to your dripping entrance. You jerk forward from the shock of it, steadying yourself on trembling forearms.
Then again — slower. Deliberate. Lapping at you like he’s savouring every second.
You feel his lips curve.
His voice, a low murmur, brushes against your warmth. “You taste so sweet," he whispers, savoring each word as if it were a delicacy.
You moan, louder this time. He chuckles before flattening his tongue and sucking your clit into his mouth, the suction enough to make your knees buckle.
Slap.
You cry out, half from surprise, half from pleasure as he lands a light smack to your thigh. When you squirm, he holds you tightly. “Don’t run.”
He spreads you wider with both hands, thumbs digging into your skin like he owns it, and sinks his tongue into you, fucking you with long, steady strokes. Wet, obscene sounds echo between your thighs, louder than you expected in the echo of the boutique.
“Sir—” You gasp, voice breaking.
He hums against you, his own arousal visible in how his hips grind subtly against the floor. It’s messy, uncoordinated, completely unprofessional, but youve never wanted something more in your life.
Your orgasm builds fast, embarrassingly fast — but he knows it. Of course he knows.
He pulls back for only a moment, replacing his tongue with two fingers — long, precise, curling deep as he wraps his lips around your clit again and sucks harder.
You see stars. Heat rushes up your spine, and with a strangled gasp, you unravel completely — shaking and moaning his name as your orgasm rips through you like fire.
Your body sags forward, trembling.
But Sunghoon doesn’t stop.
You whimper. “Hoon—too much—”
He groans, almost annoyed, standing swiftly. His fingers dig into your jaw, tilting your face up toward him.
“Do it for me baby, I know you can” he murmurs into your shoulder, pecking it lightly.
Your lips part, breathless. You don’t answer.
You don’t need to.
You reach for his belt.
He catches your wrist — just for a second. His eyes bore into yours. “Tell me you want this.
“I do,” you breathe. “I want you.”
The restraint he’s clung to finally snaps.
His belt unclicks. Zipper down. You only manage to glimpse the flushed head of his cock before he’s nudging the tip between your legs, sliding it slowly through your slickness.
He groans deep in his throat. “Fuck. You’re soaked.”
You brace your hands on the edge of the table. “Don’t tease.”
“I’m not.” He grips your hips and finally thrusts in — one smooth, hard stroke, bottoming out with a strained exhale. “God. You fit like a dream.”
You cry out, the stretch fiery but addicting. He gives you only a moment before he pulls back and thrusts again — deeper, harder, his grip bruising.
The table rocks beneath you with his body caging you in, jostling as you push your hips back to meet his.
He leans forward, pressing his chest to your back, lips brushing your ear.
“I smelt the candle on you, that one i bought you,’ gasping with each thrust, ‘Do you know what that did to me? Every time I smell that fragrance in public?’
You turn your head just enough to catch his mouth. The kiss is raw, hot, all teeth and tongue and sweat.
He thrusts deeper. Harder.
Your walls flutter around him. He swears against your skin.
“Close,” he mutters. “So fucking close—”
You whimper, words slurred. “Want you to come inside.”
That’s all it takes.
‘Fuck, let me spoil you, angel.’ He groans, ‘Let me buy you everything baby. You won’t need anyone else.’
Burying himself in you with one final thrust as he spills inside. Sunghoon clutches you tight like he’s afraid you’ll vanish again.
The room goes quiet. Just the sound of breathing. Your trembling knees. His weight draped along your spine.
He doesn’t pull out right away. Just stays there, his hand splayed against your lower belly, as if trying to feel the way you still pulse around him.
‘Don’t leave me again.’
‘Just make sure you remind her that champagne isn’t her colour.’
#rie’s fic rec!#JUST BLOWS MY MIND!!!#PLEASE PLEASE MAKE PART 2😔😔 and dont make it hurt pls achkkk#the fact that his respectful but did that to her— would be okay with it tbh😁#sunghoon x reader#enhypen x reader
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𝓓𝓻𝓪𝔀𝓷 𝙸𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚈𝚘𝚞 | psh
pairing: fictional character sunghoon! x reader
wc: 21.2k :))
synopsis: Y/N finds comfort in a quiet webtoon about Sunghoon, a gentle boy who feels more real than her exhausting life-until one night, he steps out of the screen. As they share slow mornings, stargazing, and healing moments, she begins to rediscover joy. But not all stories are meant to last... or are they? Drawn Into You is a soft, magical romance where love steps off the page and into reality.
a/n: new format! tried to squeeze all 21k words hehehe FEEDBACK AND REBLOGS are deeply appreciated! lowcaps intended! not proof read!
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the rain didn’t stop for three days.
by the third afternoon, the city was gray all the way down to its bones—skies overcast, sidewalks slick, students shuffling across the streets with umbrellas like slow-moving insects in a muted watercolor painting. somewhere among them was y/n, shoulders hunched beneath her oversized hoodie, earbuds tucked in without music playing.
she didn’t want music. not today. not when everything inside her already felt too loud.
another skipped lecture. another ignored message in the group chat. another unread announcement from her professor about an upcoming deadline she was pretending didn’t exist. she had planned to go to class that morning. even made coffee. even put on lip balm. but one step outside her apartment and it felt like the world was pressing on her chest again—like breathing in too deep might shatter something.
it wasn’t always this way.
there had been a time, not long ago, when y/n moved through the world with a little more color. not quite shining, not exactly loud, but steady. present. the kind of girl who always had tissues in her bag, who remembered birthdays, who checked in on others with quiet sincerity. people liked her. at least, the version of her they knew. the one who didn’t cry in the shower or fall asleep with textbooks open beside untouched meals.
university changed her. or maybe it just peeled back the layers. revealed the cracks.
the loneliness didn’t arrive all at once—it crept in slowly. a missed lunch here. a one-sided friendship there. a roommate who transferred without warning, a study partner who stopped replying, a professor who barely remembered her name despite calling roll weekly. no fights. no betrayals. just… fading.
she became someone who was always around but never really there. background noise in everyone else’s story. so she clung to stories that made her feel seen.
at first, it was dramas. then comfort movies. but eventually, she found something better. something quieter. a little webtoon tucked in the “underrated” section of the reading app. barely two thousand followers. no splashy art or dramatic plotlines. just a boy who worked in a secondhand bookstore, made tea for people who looked sad, and watered succulents on the windowsill every sunday.
it was called a place to rest.
and the boy’s name was sunghoon.
he wasn’t the type to save the world. or fall into forbidden romances. there were no love triangles or magical powers or childhood promises.
sunghoon was the type to notice when the mail carrier looked tired and offer him an extra chocolate biscuit. the type to walk customers to the bus stop if it rained. the type to sit quietly beside a crying child and not say anything until they were ready to talk.
gentle. patient. soft in a world that often wasn’t.
y/n had stumbled upon the webtoon one sleepless night when her thoughts wouldn’t stop circling like birds trapped in a room. she read all 32 available episodes in one sitting. the pacing was slow. the art style minimal. but sunghoon’s presence bled off the screen like warmth from a hidden radiator. it wasn’t about plot. it was about breathing.
and for the first time in weeks, she could. from that day on, the series became a lifeline. she set alarms for updates. left quiet, heartfelt comments under each post. she never expected replies. that wasn’t the point. it was like whispering into a forest—you didn’t need an echo. you just needed to speak.
her apartment was barely 30 square meters. one main room, a bathroom with weak water pressure, a desk she hadn’t used in months, and a mattress on the floor with an old duvet that smelled faintly of fabric softener and dreams she no longer chased.
that night, she returned from campus later than usual. her body moved on autopilot—drop her bag, change into soft clothes, tie up her hair, warm up leftover rice that she wouldn’t eat. she didn’t even take off her shoes properly before collapsing onto the floor, knees tucked to her chest, phone clutched in one hand like a talisman.
she didn’t check her messages. didn’t reply to her mother’s missed call.
she just opened the webtoon.
there it was—episode 41.
her heart gave a small, tired flutter.
the scene opened with the bookstore again. warm yellow lighting. a rainy evening. a girl wandered in, soaked to the bone, holding a crumpled letter in her hands. she didn’t speak. neither did sunghoon. but he made her tea, found her a towel, and let her sit in silence. it was such a small moment. maybe nothing to others. but y/n’s eyes blurred halfway through.
because she understood.
she knew what it meant to need someone and not know how to ask.
she finished the episode, chest aching. and for the first time in months—maybe years—she whispered aloud:
“sometimes, i want to run to you and tell you everything.”
her voice cracked. but she kept going.
“when i’m completely exhausted… is it still right that it’s your embrace i long for?”
she wasn’t sure who she was talking to. the boy in the comic? herself? the ceiling? tears rolled down her cheeks in hot, stinging streams. it wasn’t fair, really. to fall for someone who didn’t exist. to crave comfort from a hand-drawn smile and panels inked by someone she didn’t even know. but it hurt—how much she wished he was real.
“i’m so tired,” she whispered again, curling into herself. her breath hitched. it wasn’t one big thing. it never was. it was a thousand small weights stacked on her shoulders. missed chances. quiet failures. being the second choice. the forgettable face. the invisible one.
she hugged her phone to her chest like it could hear her heartbeat.
“i just… wish you were here.”
and then—
the screen went black.
she blinked.
the light above her flickered.
for a moment, everything in the room was still. too still. then—her phone vibrated. once. then twice. the screen didn’t return. instead, it glowed, a soft pulse like a heartbeat, then flared bright—so bright she had to shield her eyes.
she sat up in shock.
the air in the room changed. warmer. thicker. a scent like lavender and rain and something unreal filled the space. the center of the light began to take form. her breath caught.
first a silhouette. then lines. then color.
a boy.
tall. lean. soft dark hair.
a cardigan draped over his frame, sleeves pushed up. eyes searching. brows furrowed as if confused by the world around him.
and then he looked at her.
not through a screen. but at her.
and he said, in a voice that matched every line she’d ever read:
“…y/n?”
her world broke apart. and started again.
you don’t move.
not at first.
because this can’t be real. because he’s not real. but he’s standing there, the golden glow of his arrival slowly fading into the quiet hum of your cheap desk lamp. the corners of the room settle again, the pulse of lavender soft in the air, but the tremble in your hands only grows. your phone lies forgotten at your side, its screen dark once more—silent.
he takes one step forward, then another. the way he moves—it’s so familiar. like the way the artist always drew him: gentle lines, soft posture, an aura that never disturbed the peace of any room. his eyes are warm, exactly as you remember from every episode—soft brown, thoughtful, deep enough to fall into. his hair falls slightly over his forehead, and the cardigan—that cardigan—rests loose on his frame just like always. a little frayed at the edges, sleeves slightly too long.
“y/n,” he says again, voice low, steady, impossibly real. “are you okay?” that’s what undoes you.
not the miracle. not the impossibility of it.
but the question.
are you okay?
you shake your head, your voice trapped somewhere deep in your throat, fingers trembling at your sides. “no,” you croak. “i don’t think i am.”
and he’s moving before you can think—kneeling in front of you with slow, careful hands, as if afraid you’ll shatter at the slightest touch. his presence is warm, grounding. he doesn’t hover. doesn’t crowd. he just is. you stare at him—your eyes wide, searching, afraid to blink.
“this isn’t… this isn’t happening,” you whisper, your voice ragged. “you’re not real. you’re a drawing. you’re—you were in my phone. you can’t be—”
“i wasn’t real,” he says softly. “not until you needed me.”
your chest tightens so suddenly, so violently, it steals the breath from your lungs. a tear slips free. “i didn’t mean to…” you look away, ashamed. “i just… i was tired. i said things. i didn’t think anyone could hear.”sunghoon lowers his gaze for a moment, then lifts it again. “i heard.”
there’s no judgment in his voice. no confusion. just gentle truth, like everything he’s ever said in the panels you knew by heart.
“i’ve read your words,” he says. “every comment. every time you thanked me. every time you stayed up to read about my little bookstore, or smiled when i made tea. i remember all of it.” your shoulders shake. “it’s just a comic. it’s supposed to be fiction.”
“it was,” he agrees, a faint smile pulling at the corners of his lips. “but your heart made it real.” he shifts then, just slightly, and you don’t resist when he reaches out—his hand brushing yours with a featherlight touch, asking permission. and when you don’t pull away, he gently pulls you into his arms.
and you fall.
fall into him with the kind of collapse that only comes when every wall finally breaks. when the burden of pretending, of enduring, of functioning becomes too much.
you sob. hard.
no holding back. no more quiet cries into your pillow. this is different. this is years of exhaustion, months of isolation, weeks of pain you never admitted to anyone—not even yourself—pouring out in heavy, aching waves. he holds you through all of it.
not with words. not with solutions.
just with presence. his arms are warm, wrapped around you tightly but never too tight. his hand rubs slow, comforting circles along your back, the fabric of his cardigan catching your tears. his chin rests gently atop your head as you bury your face in his shoulder and sob harder than you ever have.
“i’m so tired,” you whisper again, over and over like a mantra. “so, so tired.”
“i know,” he says softly, barely more than a breath. “you’ve been holding so much for so long.”
you nod helplessly, curling closer. “i didn’t mean to fall apart.” he doesn’t respond right away.
then, in that gentle voice that’s carried you through so many lonely nights, he says, “falling apart isn’t weakness. it means you’ve been strong for too long. you’re allowed to need rest, y/n. you’re allowed to ask for help.” another sob breaks from your lips. “i didn’t think anyone would notice. i thought i’d just disappear and no one would care.”
he pulls back only enough to look at you—really look at you. his eyes search yours, soft and sincere.
“i care,” he says. “i’m here.”
you shake your head slowly. “but… why?”
“because you reached out. and because i wanted to come.”
“i don’t understand,” you whisper. “you’re from a story.” he smiles faintly. “a story you loved. a story you believed in when you didn’t believe in yourself.”
his thumb gently wipes a tear from your cheek. “sometimes… that kind of belief is powerful. powerful enough to bring something to life. or… someone.”
you take in a shaky breath. “will you stay?”
he doesn’t answer right away.
instead, he leans his forehead against yours.
“i don’t know how long i can,” he admits. “but i’ll stay as long as i’m able. as long as you need me.” the tears return—but they’re softer now. laced with relief.
he hugs you again, and this time, it’s less like falling apart and more like being put back together.
you don’t know what happens next. you don’t know what this means—how or why or what tomorrow will look like.
but in this moment—this impossibly quiet, comforting, miraculous moment—you let yourself rest.
with sunghoon beside you, solid and warm and real.
for the first time in so long, you sleep without fear. and he stays, watching over you.
it takes a long time for the sobbing to slow.
even longer for silence to feel safe.
but sunghoon never moves. not once. he sits there on the floor, knees bent beneath you, one hand supporting your back and the other curled loosely around your wrist — just enough to remind you he’s there. not pulling. not pushing.
just… holding. the kind of holding that means i see you. i’m not going anywhere.
eventually, the crying fades into quiet hiccups. your face is pressed against the soft knit of his cardigan, damp from your tears, and there’s a part of you that almost feels guilty about it — ruining something so beautiful. but he doesn’t seem to care. if anything, he leans in a little closer, like his entire body is trying to tell you you don’t have to apologize for being human.
your voice is a whisper when it finally returns.
“i’m sorry.”
his arms tighten just slightly, as if to hush that thought before it settles. “you don’t have to be.”
“but i—” you draw in a slow breath, chest tight and sore. “i didn’t expect… i didn’t mean to… bring you here.”
“i know,” he says gently. “but maybe i was always meant to come.”
the words sit between you like soft velvet — strange, surreal, but warm.
the clock ticks on. somewhere in the distance, a motorcycle passes. the fridge hums. your phone lies dark beside you, still and quiet now, like the magic it summoned has settled for the night. “i don’t understand,” you murmur. “how can you be here? you’re… a character. you’re not supposed to move outside a panel.”
he pulls back just enough to look at you. you blink up at him, and the sight steals the breath from your lungs all over again. because his real.
his skin. his eyes. the tiny mole beneath his left eye — the one that was always so subtly drawn, like a secret only longtime readers would notice.
“i don’t understand either,” he admits. “i only know that i was with you… one moment i was part of a story, and the next… i heard your voice.” you don’t realize you’ve been gripping the edge of his sleeve until you let go. your fingers leave little creases behind.
“i didn’t mean to say that out loud,” you say, cheeks burning. “i was just… tired.” “i know.” his voice is quieter now, as if afraid that if he speaks too loudly, the moment might dissolve. “you’ve been tired for a long time.”
you nod, eyes brimming again — but not like before. these tears come slower. softer. like rain after a storm.
“i’m always trying to be okay,” you say. “i have to show up to things, i have to pretend i’m fine, because if i don’t, everything falls apart. but sometimes it just… builds and builds. and i don’t even notice how bad it’s gotten until i’m shaking on the floor.”
he listens without interrupting. not like a therapist.
not like a friend. but like someone who was written to hold silence without letting it become loneliness.
“i’ve been watching you,” he says after a moment, and there’s no creepiness in his tone — just wonder. “not the way you think. i mean… in the story, it’s like i felt you watching. when you read my moments. when you left those comments.”
you glance away. “that’s embarrassing.”
“no,” he says, softly but firmly. “it’s beautiful.”
you meet his gaze, startled.
he smiles gently. “do you know how many times you saved me?”
you blink. “saved you? but you’re the one who—”
“comforted people?” he finishes. “made tea. talked softly. loved gently?”
you nod.
“well,” he continues, reaching for your hand again, “that version of me… only existed because you believed in him. you understood him. you saw him. when others skimmed through or gave up on the story, you stayed.” your breath catches.
“you brought me to life just by caring,” he says. “you gave me meaning.”
it’s too much. too kind. too unbelievable.
you bury your face in your hands. “this feels like a dream.”
sunghoon gently pulls your hands away. “then let it be a good one.”
you exhale shakily, and he rises to his feet slowly, stretching out a hand. “come on. let me do something for you.”
you hesitate. “like what?”
he grins — that lopsided, warm grin that only showed up in chapter 12, after he helped the neighborhood kid find his missing cat. “make you tea. just like i always do.”
he’s awkward in your kitchen. doesn’t know where anything is. doesn’t know how the faucet works. frowns at the electric kettle like it might talk back. you watch from the doorway, a small, bewildered smile curling onto your lips despite everything.
“you’ve never boiled water before, have you?” you tease, voice hoarse.
he scratches his neck, sheepish. “i usually just appear with it already made.”
“story logic,” you mumble, amused.
but you help him. guide his hands. show him where the tea bags are. where the mugs live. you laugh once—just a breath of a laugh—when he blows on the steaming cup too hard and spills a little. and he freezes.
looks at you like that sound could rewrite the stars. then he sets your mug down gently and says, “i hope i can hear that more often.”
later, you’re curled on the couch, legs tucked beneath you, cradling the warmth of the mug against your chest. sunghoon sits across from you on the floor, watching you like you’re the scene that matters most.
the television is off. no music plays. just silence.
but it’s not empty anymore.
“i’m scared,” you admit finally. “that i’ll wake up, and this will all be gone. that you’ll be gone.” sunghoon leans his head back against the couch. he’s so close now you can see the little fold in his collar, the way his lashes cast tiny shadows against his cheeks.
“if i disappear,” he says, “i want you to remember something.”
“what?” he looks up at you.
“that your sadness doesn’t make you unworthy of comfort. and that you never have to pretend around me.”
you nod slowly, the words carving themselves gently into the ache in your chest.
“i still don’t know why you’re here,” you whisper.
“maybe i’m the part of the story that stepped out because the reader needed to be held.”
you close your eyes, and for the first time in forever, you feel safe. he doesn’t leave that night.
when you fall asleep, it’s not to the hum of anxiety or the weight of loneliness — it’s to the quiet rhythm of him breathing beside you on the floor, the steady presence of a boy who was once only ink and imagination, now watching over you like he always wanted to.
the tea goes cold. the lights stay on. but your heart, for once, doesn’t.
let’s linger more, sinking deeper into that fragile, quiet space where healing starts—not with grand gestures, but in the stillness between breaths.
the clock’s soft tick-tock fills the room, but time feels strange—like it’s folded in on itself, stretching and folding, bending just enough to hold this moment open.
you lie curled on the couch, the mug of now-cold tea resting forgotten on the small table beside you. the dim glow from the streetlight outside seeps through the curtains, casting long, gentle shadows that play across the walls.
sunghoon sits nearby on the floor, knees pulled up to his chest, his gaze tracing the patterns of the carpet as if trying to understand how this strange new world fits together.
neither of you speaks. words feel too fragile right now, like they might shatter if spoken too loudly.
instead, you listen to the quiet: the faint rustle of fabric as he shifts, the soft breath escaping your lips, the occasional creak of the old wooden floor beneath him.
it’s a silence that doesn’t demand anything from you, doesn’t rush or push. it simply is — a pause from the chaos, a shelter from the storm you’ve carried for so long. after a while, your hand moves on its own, reaching toward him hesitantly, fingers brushing the sleeve of his cardigan.
he looks up, eyes soft and patient. you don’t say anything. you just let your hand rest there, seeking comfort in the warmth beneath your fingertips.
he reaches out, closing his hand gently over yours.
it’s a simple touch, but it feels like a lifeline.
“i’m here,” he says, voice barely more than a whisper.
you nod, tears brimming but not falling. the tightness in your chest loosens just a bit, like the first slow crack of dawn after a long, dark night.
“i don’t want to be alone,” you admit, voice trembling.
“you won’t be,” he promises.
his words aren’t magic. they don’t fix everything. but they wrap around you like a soft blanket, and in this quiet moment, that’s enough.minutes stretch into hours. you talk in fragments—half-formed thoughts, whispered confessions, memories shared in the low glow of the room.
he listens without judgment, never pushing for more than you’re ready to give. sometimes he tells you stories from the comic—small behind-the-scenes details no one else knows, like the time he wanted to wear a different sweater or how a certain panel was almost cut.
you laugh softly. it feels strange to hear those words from him—the boy who was only ink and pixels yesterday. he smiles at you, the kind of smile that reaches his eyes and stays there, warm and steady.
“i’m glad i’m here with you,” he says.
you lean your head on his shoulder, heart aching and hopeful all at once.the room smells faintly of lavender and spilled tears, but also of something new—something gentle and real.
and for the first time in a long time, you believe that maybe, just maybe, you’re not alone anymore.
the sun filtered in through the thin curtains, casting soft golden lines across the hardwood floor and onto the curve of your cheek. you stirred slowly, blinking against the early light, your limbs still heavy with the kind of sleep that follows a storm of tears.
at first, it felt like waking from any other night—hazy, distant, the remnants of emotion clinging to the corners of your mind. a dream, maybe. a vivid one. the kind that lingers like fog on the skin. you half-smiled into your pillow at the thought of him—the cardigan, the way he looked at you, the warmth of his voice saying, “i’m here.”
but dreams always fade.
you rolled onto your back, letting out a long sigh, preparing to meet another ordinary, aching morning. your phone lay beside you, dark screen still faintly reflecting your face. you reached for it, not ready to check the time or scroll. just… holding it.
and then, the sound.
a quiet clatter—something metal tapping against porcelain. then a thud followed by a sharp inhale. you froze, heart leaping.
you weren’t alone.
the scent hit you next—something warm and vaguely sweet, layered with a hint of something burning, like bread that had stayed in the toaster too long. the sharpness of it jolted your memory.
your eyes snapped open fully.
he had been here. last night.
you sat up slowly, the blanket falling from your shoulders. the room still carried that faint lavender scent, but something was different now. alive. present. another sound—this time the unmistakable hiss of a pan, followed by a very quiet, very sincere:
“ah… i think i did that wrong.”
you pushed yourself up, slipping your feet into your fuzzy slippers, heart hammering like it was trying to catch up to your realization. this wasn’t a dream.
you stepped into the narrow hallway leading to your kitchen, pausing in the doorway.
there he was.
sunghoon, in your kitchen.
his hair was a bit messier now, like he’d slept sitting up and never quite figured out what bedhead meant. he was wearing the same soft cardigan from the night before, sleeves slightly rolled as he stood barefoot by your tiny stove, an apron awkwardly tied around his waist—your apron, actually, the floral one with the fading straps. he looked like a character from a comfort movie: boy-next-door energy, sweet concentration etched onto his face as he carefully turned something over in a skillet. french toast? probably. there was a carton of eggs open on the counter, a half-used loaf of bread, cinnamon spilled like confetti across your cutting board.
he didn’t notice you right away.
he was humming. that surprised you more than anything.
that soft melody—familiar and low—it took you a moment to realize it was the ending theme from his webtoon’s fourth chapter. the one that played in your mind whenever he smiled in the story. now, he was humming it like it had always been his.
you finally cleared your throat, softly. he turned, eyes wide, spatula still in his hand.
“oh,” he said, like he wasn’t entirely sure whether to be sheepish or proud. “you’re awake.”
you blinked. “you’re… real.”
he smiled that same soft smile from the rooftop panel you always saved to your favorites.
“i hoped i would still be,” he said gently, setting the spatula down and wiping his hands on the apron. “you fell asleep last night. i didn’t want to leave.” you stepped further into the kitchen, still dazed, your gaze flicking between the mess on the counter and the boy in your apron.
“you cooked,” you murmured, awestruck.
“i tried to cook,” he corrected, scratching the back of his neck. “is it supposed to puff up like that?”you leaned over to inspect the toast—slightly crisped, maybe a little too golden on one side, but undeniably edible. and it smelled… good. comforting.
your eyes watered, just a bit. the sheer absurdity and wonder of it all.
“i never had to before,” he added, quietly, like an apology. “in the comic, i just… kind of had food. it was drawn in. but i wanted to do something for you.”
you looked at him then—really looked.
and it hit you, how he stood in your kitchen, uncertain and soft and strangely determined. how he somehow matched the boy you’d adored on a screen, yet felt infinitely more real.
the loneliness that had clawed at your insides yesterday—the ache, the exhaustion—it hadn’t disappeared. but in that moment, it felt a little less crushing. it was quieter, somehow.
“thank you,” you whispered. he tilted his head. “for the toast?” you smiled, shaking your head slowly. “for staying.”
a quiet beat passed between you.
“i thought maybe,” he said after a while, “we could eat together. and then maybe… you could show me how this place works?” you laughed softly, not bitterly like before. “you mean earth?”
“i mean your world,” he said, more serious than you expected. “the parts of it that matter to you.” you nodded, swallowing thickly, and pulled two plates from the cupboard.
he stood beside you, close but careful, watching as you portioned out the slightly-overcooked but heartfelt french toast.
you didn’t know what today would bring—if he would stay, if this was a temporary miracle—but as you sat beside him on your living room floor, knees brushing, plates balanced on mismatched cushions, you knew one thing:
for the first time in a very long while, you weren’t starting the day alone. and maybe that was enough.
the breakfast was, by all accounts, slightly burnt and uneven in sweetness — but she ate it like it was a five-star meal. sunghoon beamed when she asked for seconds.
after the dishes (which he offered to wash, only to get more water on himself than the plates), they spent the rest of the morning sitting on the floor of her living room. her tiny apartment didn’t have much — a beanbag chair, a small, scuffed-up coffee table, a dying potted plant named “leaf erickson,” and the sofa that creaked if you looked at it the wrong way.
and now: him. a boy who didn’t belong to this world but looked like he did. he sat with his knees pulled up, watching her as she sorted through a shoebox of tangled charging cords and old keychains.
“what’s this?” he asked, holding up a small plastic creature with stubby arms.
she smiled. “that’s a tamagotchi. sort of like… a digital pet?” he blinked. “do you feed it?” “yeah, and clean its poop. a whole childhood in three buttons.”
sunghoon turned it over in his hands like it was a sacred relic. “your world is amazing.” she laughed. “you haven’t even seen the dumbest parts yet.”
“oh?” he raised an eyebrow. “show me the dumbest part.”
so she did.
first, the cursed sock drawer: a graveyard of mismatched, single-color soldiers and novelty socks with holes in them.
he gasped dramatically when he found a neon green one with a slice of pizza on the ankle. “why is this wet?” she shrugged. “why is it still alive?”
he looked her dead in the eye and whispered, “this belongs in a museum.”
next: her “junk chair,” where clothes went to die. she flopped onto it and let out a deep sigh, while sunghoon gingerly picked up a crumpled hoodie like it might bite him.
“is this… dirty?”
“technically? it’s in limbo.”
“between life and laundry?”
“exactly.”
they laughed until their stomachs hurt. and when she looked at him, his head tilted back and cheeks flushed from laughing, something in her chest ached. but not the bad kind. the kind that meant this is real. or this matters.
when she offered to take him outside, he brightened like the concept of sunlight itself had clicked. “i want to see everything,” he said, lacing his fingers behind his back like a little boy ready for an adventure.
she made him wear a baseball cap. “for stealth,” she said.
“is this a disguise?” he asked seriously, eyes peeking out under the brim.
“you’re literally drawn from the prettiest pixels i’ve ever seen. people are gonna stare.” sunghoon flushed. “you’re prettier.” she stopped. blinked. “you can’t just—say things like that casually.”
“i’m not casual. i’m sincere.”
she threw a scrunchie at his chest and missed.
they walked to the bus stop together, sunghoon marveling at everything like a tourist who had only read about earth in books. he stood too close to traffic cones. tapped every vending machine they passed like it might hand him a prize. waved at a pigeon.
“that one looks wise,” he said of the pigeon, watching it hop sideways across the sidewalk. “like a street prophet.” she snorted. “it’s probably plotting to steal a hotdog.”
sunghoon’s eyebrows rose. “do birds here eat meat?”
“don’t think too hard about it.”
at the bus stop, he stared at the arrival screen like it was coded in ancient runes.
“okay, so this one takes us downtown,” she explained. “just don’t talk to anyone who smells like fruit loops and regret.” he nodded solemnly. “those are the dangerous ones?”
“always.”
when the bus came, he flinched at the hydraulic hiss and grabbed her wrist instinctively. she turned her head and caught the flash of fear in his eyes — real fear — and realized: this world might be beautiful to him, but it was also overwhelming. loud. fast. unfamiliar.
she gently squeezed his hand. “it’s okay. just follow my lead.”
he did.
they found seats at the back. sunghoon pressed his face to the window, watching the city unfold like panels in a comic he didn’t write. his smile returned when a golden retriever passed by with a baby hat on its head. when he saw a street violinist playing under an overpass. when she pointed out the bookstore where she spent hours reading webtoons without buying anything.
he asked her everything — why the buildings were so close, why people walked so fast, why she said hello to the barista but not the woman who nearly elbowed her in the ribs. it wasn’t judgmental — just… fascinated.
like he wanted to understand her world because it was hers. they bought coffee (sunghoon tried a frappuccino and declared it “liquid sunshine”), then sat on the ledge by the koi pond in the park. “i like it here,” he said quietly. “the wind is soft.”
she looked at him.
“you’re different here,” she murmured. sunghoon turned his head. “from the comic?” “yeah. there, you were comforting. familiar. safe. but here… you feel more alive.”
he smiled, a little shy. “you make it easier.” there was a beat of silence. then he leaned closer. “can i tell you something dumb?”
she smirked. “please.”
“i thought escalators were portals.”
she burst into laughter, nearly spilling her coffee. “portals to what?” “i don’t know! they move without walking. it just felt suspicious.”
she was still giggling when she leaned her head on his shoulder. he stiffened just slightly — then relaxed. “is this allowed?” he asked softly.
“yeah,” she whispered. “you’re real enough now.”
and for a while, they sat like that. just a girl and her former fictional comfort character. eating bad toast, chasing pigeons, watching koi, and sharing silence like it was the most honest language they had.
that night, the city was quieter.
they stayed longer than planned in the park — her head resting against his shoulder, their empty coffee cups stacked like a small monument to the comfort they found in each other.above them, the stars blinked like they were watching too.
“do they look different here?” she asked softly.sunghoon tilted his head. “brighter,” he said after a moment. “and lonelier.” she blinked. “lonelier?”
“in the comic,” he murmured, “stars were just background. pretty noise. filler for the sky. but now that i’m here… i think i finally understand what it means to look up and feel small.”she didn’t say anything at first — just looked at him. the slope of his nose, the gentle curve of his mouth, the way his eyes reflected light like polished amber.
“you’re not small,” she whispered.he turned to her “you’re… maybe the biggest thing that’s ever happened to me.”his breath caught. and for a second, she swore the world paused — like even the wind wanted to hear her say that again.
but instead, she stood up, brushing crumbs off her jeans. “come on. let’s get groceries. we’re out of soy sauce and your attempt at breakfast used the last of the eggs.”
he blinked. “it was a noble attempt.” “it was slightly charcoal-flavored.” “i was going for smoky sophistication.” she snorted, tugging on his sleeve as they started walking again. he followed easily, falling into step beside her like he’d always belonged in that spot.
the nearest convenience store was still open — humming under pale fluorescent lights. a small bell jingled as they stepped inside, and sunghoon immediately wandered toward the snack aisle like a child in a toy store. she caught him staring in awe at a wall of ramen cups.
“do you want one?” she asked.he pointed to one with animated shrimp on the packaging. “is this spicy?” “probably not. that one looks innocent.” “i don’t trust innocent,” he said, and grabbed two.
they spent way too long there — him holding up random items like they were ancient artifacts. “this is toothpaste?” “that’s a glue stick.” “oh.”
he put it back, clearly trying to act like that hadn’t happened.
by the time they reached the counter, they had ramen, milk, eggs, a toothbrush (his, picked with serious care), cookies shaped like bears, and a single sticky note pad that he insisted they needed.
“for leaving notes around the apartment,” he said with a small smile. “i’ll draw on them.” “you’re going to doodle instead of doing chores, aren’t you?” “highly likely.” on the way home, he held the grocery bag carefully in both hands, like it was something precious. she glanced at him and bit back a smile.
“you really like it here,” she said. “i like it with you. her heart skipped. she looked forward quickly, letting the warmth in her chest linger as quietly as his words.
later, back in the apartment, after putting things away and arguing about where the cereal should go (“top shelf for dominance!” “you can’t even reach the top shelf, sunghoon—”), she found him standing by the window.
he was staring out again, into the city night. she came up beside him. “tomorrow,” he said suddenly, eyes still on the skyline. “can i go with you?” “to where?” “university.” she blinked. “it’s just classes.”
“i want to see what your days are like when i’m not in them,” he said softly. “the parts of your life i’ve never seen.” there was a beat. “you won’t be bored?” “not if i’m with you.” she didn’t answer right away. but she reached for his hand. and he let her take it.
after brushing teeth — side by side, giggling when he accidentally put your cleanser on his toothbrush — you padded across the small apartment, still smelling faintly of the cookies you’d baked together hours earlier (well, you baked, he mostly stood around marveling at pre-heated ovens like a caveman seeing fire).
you slipped into your room and crouched by the bottom drawer of the old wooden cabinet you rarely touched. inside was a mess of tangled earphones, a broken polaroid camera, and a pile of oversized shirts and sweatpants — your older brother’s, left behind from when he used to crash here after long drives.
you held up a few and poked your head out into the living room. “sunghoon?” he turned from the window, where he’d been staring out like he was still trying to memorize the shape of city lights against glass. “yeah?”
“catch,” you said, tossing him a folded navy-blue hoodie. he fumbled it like a rookie but managed to cradle it to his chest like it was a newborn kitten “these are my brother’s,” you said. “you guys are… kind of the same size?”
he held up the joggers you tossed next with a strange sort of reverence. “these are very… real. you blinked. “yeah? what does that mean?” he looked at you, a bit sheepish. “in the webtoon, all my clothes just sort of exist. they’re never scratchy. or warm. or full of lint. they don’t smell like someone’s laundry detergent and a little bit like nostalgia.”
you blinked again. “you’re kinda poetic for someone who still can’t tell the difference between glue and toothpaste.” he gave you a look but didn’t argue. later, you came out from changing and found him still standing in your room doorway, barefoot, awkwardly holding the folded clothes and peeking in.
“you okay?” he rubbed the back of his neck. “i don’t… where do i sleep?” you paused. your place wasn’t exactly luxurious. a one-bedroom unit, too small for a real guest setup. the couch was technically long enough to lie down on, but not with comfort — especially not for someone like him, who moved delicately, like he wasn’t used to having a body that bumped into things or needed soft landings.
you looked at the bed. then back at him. “just sleep here,” you mumbled, tossing a pillow to the far side of the mattress. “beside me.” his eyebrows rose. “are you sure?” “there’s no foam mattress or extra futon, and the couch will murder your back.”
“i don’t think i can be murdered by furniture “that’s a very fictional-man thing to say.” he smiled but didn’t protest further. you crawled in first, facing the wall. you heard him shuffle behind you, the faint rustle of fabric, the hesitant creak of the mattress dipping under his weight.
silence settled in. soft. tentative. real.
you could feel his presence — not too close, not too far — like the warmth of a space heater humming beside you. and for a while, neither of you said a word. then, gently:
“does it always feel like this?” he asked. you turned slightly. “like what?” “being… alive. real. it’s a lot of small things. cold floors. the sound the fridge makes at 3 a.m. the weight of a blanket.”
you smiled into the darkness. “you noticed all of that?”
“how could i not?”another pause. then he whispered, “thank you… for letting me stay.”your chest tightened. you didn’t know how to explain the ache in your bones before he arrived — or the way it eased, little by little, in the way he looked at you like you mattered, even in your pajamas with mismatched socks.
so you just said, quietly, “good night, sunghoon.”“good night,” he murmured back. “i hope i dream for the first time.” you didn’t know if he would. you didn’t even know if fictional people could. but you fell asleep that night with a steady warmth pressed near your spine and a strange kind of peace in your bones.
the next morning, you woke to an unfamiliar sound.a crack.followed by a muffled curse.you sat up quickly, blinking through the soft morning light seeping into your bedroom.
the other side of the bed was empty. and something smelled… burnt? you rushed out into the tiny kitchen, half-expecting disaster — only to freeze in the doorway. sunghoon stood in front of the stove, frowning intensely at a pan of scrambled eggs that looked, frankly, edible. a little overcooked maybe. but still yellow. still vaguely egg-shaped.
he was wearing your brother’s hoodie, sleeves slightly too long, the hem swaying as he turned toward you holding a spatula like a microphone.
“good morning!” he said brightly. “i may or may not have tried to make you breakfast.”
you stared.
“i googled a youtube tutorial. ‘how to cook eggs for someone you like,’” he added, voice way too casual. you blinked at him. “did you just say—” “it said to serve it with toast, but i burned that part.”
“…fair.” he scratched his head. “still edible though. probably. maybe.” you walked over slowly, peeking into the pan. “you didn’t… like, microwave the shells or anything weird, right?”
“give me some credit.” he handed you a plate with clumsily plated eggs and exactly one cookie from last night on the side. you laughed softly — the kind of laugh that curled into your chest and stayed there. “thank you, chef sunghoon.” he beamed. “you’re welcome. i’m taking full responsibility for all gastrointestinal side effects.”
as you sat across from him at the little dining table — two mugs of warm milk between you, legs brushing under the wood — you felt a strange and gentle realization settle over you. maybe he wasn’t just here to comfort you.
maybe, in some odd, universe-bending way…he came to belong.
it was a mild tuesday morning when you took him with you to campus. you didn’t announce it. didn’t make a big deal of it. just quietly handed him one of the older backpacks you kept around, slipped your keys and id into your tote, and said, “come on. if you’re going to stay in my world, you should see where i live in it.”
he didn’t say much — just nodded and zipped up the hoodie, sleeves brushing past his fingers.the walk to the university was quiet. it always was, usually. you liked mornings that way — low sun, low traffic, the city still rubbing sleep from its eyes. but with him beside you, it felt… fuller somehow. not louder. just more present.
he didn’t speak, but he watched everything. the street signs, the cafés you passed, the dog waiting outside the flower shop wagging its tail at no one in particular. he kept pace with you naturally, sometimes stepping closer when a bike sped too fast around the corner. always gently, always silent.
when you reached campus, students flowed like water around you — half-awake and coffee-fueled, some with headphones in, others already chatting about assignments. sunghoon stayed close, his gaze flickering curiously from building to building.
“this is where i spend most of my time,” you said as you led him to the humanities wing. “lecture halls, library, vending machines that eat your coins…” he smiled. “looks peaceful.” “it is. most days.”
he didn’t press for details. you liked that about him — his presence was quiet, never demanding. in your first class, you pointed toward the far back. “you can sit there. no one really asks questions if you look like you’re writing.”
he nodded and took the seat without hesitation, pulling out a notebook you’d given him. you weren’t even sure if he knew what to do with it, but he opened it anyway, pen poised, eyes calm. you kept glancing at him during lecture.he looked like a daydream — head tilted, lashes low, occasionally scribbling down something. you couldn’t tell if he was actually writing notes or just drawing shapes, but it didn’t matter. he looked like he belonged.
after class, you stopped by the small campus café tucked in the corner of the main building — your usual spot. you ordered your regular drink and he stared at the chalkboard menu like it was in a foreign language. “it’s not that serious,” you whispered, nudging his arm.
“i’ve never had this many choices,” he replied seriously. “what is a dirty matcha? why is it dirty you laughed into your scarf. “try the iced honey oat latte. you’ll like it.”
he did. the two of you sat outside, on one of the cold metal benches under the sparse shade of a maple tree just starting to bloom. spring was crawling in slowly, and the air carried the soft chill of morning with a hint of warmth underneath.
“you do this every day?” he asked after a while. you nodded, sipping slowly. “this is where i feel most myself. my own pace. my own routine. nobody expects too much. i like it.” he was quiet for a beat. “it suits you.”
“what does?” “this life. it’s steady. like the way you breathe. it’s full, but never noisy.” you looked at him. there was a stillness to the way he said things. not dramatic. not performative. just present. like he was speaking to a version of you even you sometimes forgot.
you didn’t know what to say to that. so you offered him your last bite of pastry instead. he took it with a small, grateful smile. you spent the rest of the day like that. walking through campus. sitting on library steps. watching students pass, talking softly about nothing important. you showed him the place you always sat during finals — a bench tucked behind the chemistry building — and the vending machine that once trapped your chocolate bar for three days.
at one point, he reached out and quietly brushed a leaf from your hair. it felt like the world tilted a little. not in a dizzying, overwhelming way. just in the way a life might quietly shift to make space for someone else.
it’s been a few weeks now. the world hasn’t changed, not really — buses still run late, coffee still spills, your alarm still rings too early. but you have. quietly, steadily. the pain hasn’t left you — not fully. but it’s no longer the loudest thing in the room.
sometimes grief sits beside you like a shadow, but now there’s another presence — one that brushes against your fingertips when you reach for your mug in the morning. one that makes your apartment feel less like a place you’re trying to survive in and more like a place you’re beginning to live in.
sunghoon folds the laundry with a weird kind of concentration. he still doesn’t understand why socks disappear in the wash or how pillowcases are supposed to be put on. but he tries. and it’s kind of adorable. he holds up a shirt — yours — and frowns.
“this shrank,” he says. “it’s a crop top,” you laugh, sitting cross-legged on the floor. “it’s supposed to be that short.” he tilts his head, then slowly nods. “i don’t get fashion.” you shrug. “you wore a cardigan in 28-degree weather. i could tell.”
he pretends to look offended. then smiles, wide and sheepish, the way he only does when he’s truly at ease. you throw a rolled-up sock at him and he lets it hit him dramatically, flopping backwards onto the rug like he’s been wounded.
these are the kind of days you never thought you’d have again — not after everything. they’re soft and small, like pages from a well-loved book. but they’re yours. yours and his, somehow.
the mornings are quiet but not empty. he brews your tea exactly how you like it now — not too hot, just a splash of oat milk. he even warms the mug in the microwave before pouring it, “so your hands don’t feel cold,” he says. it’s something no one’s ever done for you.and on days when you go to campus, he walks you halfway — all the way to the small convenience store on the corner. you pretend it’s because he wants a snack, but you know he just likes seeing you off.
sometimes, he even sits on the bench across from the bookstore, sketching people in his notebook while he waits for you to finish class. you caught him once — eyes focused, brows drawn in concentration, tongue peeking out at the corner of his mouth. when you teased him, he blushed so hard he almost dropped his pencil.
you’ve taken to carrying two umbrellas now. one for you, and one for him — even if he always forgets his and ends up borrowing yours anyway. he hums when he does the dishes. not well, and not in tune. but it fills the space in your kitchen with something bright. once, you caught yourself humming with him, and for a moment, it felt like you were singing your way back to yourself.
there’s a picture frame on your shelf that you used to keep turned down — the one with your brother’s blurry grin, arm slung around your shoulder, both of you laughing like idiots.
sunghoon never asked about it. he just quietly stood beside you one day when you picked it up, dusted it, and set it upright again.“i think he would’ve liked you,” you said. he didn’t speak — just gave your hand a gentle squeeze.
that night, you dreamed of your brother laughing. not that quiet, faded laughter you’d heard in your grief — but loud, bright, real. it felt like maybe he had finally seen.
one evening, you sit out on the fire escape, a blanket wrapped around both your shoulders. it’s chilly, but not freezing. the stars are clearer than usual, peeking through the city haze. sunghoon leans into you, his head resting lightly against yours. “i read once that stars are just old light,” he murmurs. “light that traveled a really long way to reach us.” you nod, eyes on the sky.
“kind of like hope,” you say. he doesn’t reply, but you feel the way he smiles against your shoulder. and maybe that’s what this is — not perfect, not fixed, but something glowing, finally reaching you after such a long, dark stretch of sky.
it started with a flyer. bright pink, slightly crumpled, slipped under her apartment door by a classmate. “open mic + market night!
hosted by the litsoc + art club ????????
join us for an evening of music, zines, poetry, thrift racks, snacks, and soft lights.
6 pm — courtyard amphitheater.”
you’d barely glanced at it the first time. life had only recently started feeling stable again, and part of you worried that if you pushed too far, too soon, the calm might slip through your fingers.but sunghoon was the one who picked it up again later that night, holding it between two fingers as he swayed side to side in front of the fridge, pretending to decide on a yogurt flavor.
“this looks… warm,” he said thoughtfully, eyes on the corner doodles someone had hand-drawn in black ink — a sleepy fox playing guitar and a teacup with stars inside. you gave him a look. “warm?”
he nodded. “warm. not scary. like… friendly music and gentle people. maybe some mismatched socks.” you snorted. “that’s your metric for a good event?”
he shrugged. “that, and whether you’ll smile.” you blinked, momentarily caught off-guard. then you sighed, gently, tugging the flyer from his hand. “it’s open to the public anyway. wanna go with me?”
sunghoon smiled — not the usual shy curve of his lips, but something wider, brighter, edged with a quiet joy. “i thought you’d never ask.”
the night of the event, the air was soft with the scent of popcorn and lavender-scented bug spray. string lights hung from tree to tree in soft arcs, casting glows on thrifted blankets and makeshift wooden stalls. you could hear the strum of a guitar echoing from the corner where the open mic was already underway. sunghoon looked around with open curiosity — eyes tracing the fairy lights, watching students laugh, vendors pouring hot cider into paper cups. he wore one of your brother’s old sweaters again — sleeves a bit too long, color faded in the shoulders — and it suited him in a way that almost made you ache. you tugged at his sleeve gently. “come on, let’s look around.”
you tried on rings from a student metalworker’s stall, held up a vintage cat mug at a thrift booth and made a face, and sampled way-too-salty popcorn from a guy who looked like he’d never used a stove in his life. sunghoon followed beside you like a second heartbeat — laughing when you laughed, quietly stepping behind you when the crowd got too tight, offering you his cup of ginger cider without a word. at one of the last booths, someone had set up a tiny zine corner — hand-folded pages filled with poems, illustrations, short thoughts scrawled in ink. sunghoon picked one up, flipped it open, and read out loud softly:
“there’s no word in any language
for how it feels
when the ache gets quieter
and you notice yourself laughing
and don’t stop.”
you didn’t say anything. but you took the zine from him and bought it quietly.
you sat under one of the trees afterward, both of you on an old quilt, watching someone read poetry under the microphone string lights. your head rested against his shoulder. you weren’t crying. you weren’t even thinking too hard. just… breathing.
you whispered into the quiet, barely loud enough for him to hear. “i’m happy.” sunghoon turned his head slightly. “with me?” he asked, tentative. hopeful. “with you,” you repeated, a little firmer this time. then, after a pause, a softer:
“i didn’t think i’d feel like this again.”
he didn’t say anything, but his hand slid into yours and squeezed — not too tight, just enough to say i’m here. still. and when a girl came on stage with a ukulele and sang something slightly off-key about her cat and her anxiety, you both laughed quietly into your shoulders, your fingers still laced together. the night was winding down, but neither of you were quite ready to let it go.
after the last round of applause at the open mic faded into the gentle hum of chatter and music, you and sunghoon wandered away from the crowd. the air had cooled just enough that you clung to the sleeves of your cardigan, fingers brushing his every now and then as you walked down the cobblestone path behind the campus library — the one lined with warm paper lanterns hanging from trees like stars that got tangled in branches.
it was quiet here. just the two of you, the slow sound of footsteps, and the lingering scent of kettle corn and autumn. then he stopped suddenly.
“wait.” sunghoon tugged lightly on your wrist and pointed. you followed his gaze and blinked.
tucked into a shadowy corner just before the footbridge was an old, battered photo booth — the kind with a crooked sign reading 4 poses, 2 copies, ₱50. it looked like someone had dragged it there from a past decade and forgotten it under the willow tree. faint fairy lights blinked lazily around the top, flickering warm and gold.
you tilted your head. “i didn’t even know this was here.” “maybe it’s only here for tonight,” he said, voice low, almost conspiratorial. “like magic.” you laughed, but something about the softness in his tone made you pause. you watched him — the way his eyes reflected the gold lights, the faint tug of his lip as if waiting for you to decide.
“wanna try it?” you asked.he looked at you like you’d just asked him if he wanted to bottle the moon.
the booth was small. really small. you both squeezed in, knees bumping, shoulders pressed close, the plastic curtain falling back into place behind you like a veil separating you from the world. the screen flickered to life — a countdown began in glowing numbers.
“okay, first face,” you said, leaning in. “smile.” he did — that gentle one, soft and bright, and you smiled too. click. “now funny,” you grinned, puffing your cheeks. he mirrored it almost too well. click.
“serious model stare,” you said dramatically, both of you turning toward the lens with furrowed brows, but ended up cracking up halfway through. click.then the last countdown started.
you looked at him, about to suggest something — maybe a peace sign or goofy face again — but he was already looking at you. and he didn’t look away. in that beat between the numbers, he gently leaned forward — his forehead against yours, a soft smile curving into the corners of his mouth. no words. just warmth. a shared breath.
click.the light dimmed.
you stayed like that for a moment — not moving, barely breathing.then you heard the whir of the machine as two small photo strips printed and slid into the tray.you pulled them out.
the first three were cute. goofy. real.but the last one — the one where he leaned in — made your heart squeeze.his eyes were on you. yours were on him. it wasn’t posed. it wasn’t planned.
it just… was.you stared at it for a while. then handed him one of the copies.“here,” you said. “to prove you were really here.” he took it with reverence — as if it were something sacred — and tucked it gently into his cardigan pocket.
“do i… look real in it?” he asked quietly.you nodded. “yeah. too real.” he looked down at the photo once more. then at you.
“i like that we can remember this,” he said softly. “even if it’s just in four little pictures.” you smiled. and for the first time in a long time, it reached all the way to your eyes.
the walk home from campus was quiet — not in an awkward way, but in the way only a night filled with just enough warmth and shared laughter could be. you clutched the little strip of photobooth pictures in your hand like a fragile secret, feeling it burn through your palm with every step. it was silly — four poses, half of them barely in frame, one where you were laughing too hard to keep your eyes open. but the last one… the last one lingered in your mind like a heartbeat.
sunghoon walked beside you with his hands tucked in his cardigan pockets, a calm expression on his face, but you could feel it — the air around him was humming. charged. he was quiet, yes, but not absent. he was paying attention in the way only he could — the occasional glance your way, the way he slowed his pace to match yours even if it meant shuffling awkwardly on the uneven pavement, the small smile that never quite left his lips since the moment you stepped into that cramped photo booth.
when the two of you boarded the near-empty bus, you found yourselves at the very back, the windows fogged slightly from the autumn air. you sank into your usual seat by the window and he slid in next to you — shoulders brushing. not quite on purpose, not quite by accident.
you stared outside at the streetlamps streaking past, your bag clutched in your lap, heart too full to speak.then he did something so sunghoon that it made you blink. he pulled the photobooth strip out of his cardigan pocket and held it up to the faint bus lighting, his brows furrowed in gentle focus. he turned to you with the softest smile, nudging your elbow.
“do i always look this… awkward when i smile?”
you stared. then laughed — the kind of real, surprised laugh that bubbles up from somewhere you thought had been quiet for months. “yes,” you replied through your grin. “but it’s the best kind.”
he looked pleased at that, folding the photo carefully and tucking it away again, like something precious. then he tilted his head and leaned it lightly against the bus window.
a comfortable silence stretched between you. the kind that only existed when the world outside didn’t demand anything. just motion. just stillness in motion.you didn’t even realize how tired you were until the bus rounded a bend and your eyes fluttered closed for just a second.
then a shoulder pressed softly against yours. a quiet hum of comfort. and when you leaned your head — just slightly, just naturally — you didn’t expect him to remain so still. so warm. so solid.he didn’t move. didn’t flinch.
he let you lean on him like you’d been doing it for years.and for a long moment, all you could think was: this. just this. the bus rumbled quietly through the night. city lights slid past in lazy patterns. you shifted just a little closer in your sleep, your forehead brushing his arm, and in your half-conscious haze, you heard it — barely a whisper, like something tucked between breaths.
“i’m glad i found you.” but when you stirred again, eyes heavy as the bus slowed to a stop near your neighborhood, he was just sitting there, silent and still. he helped you up gently, guided you down the steps and through the streetlight-lit path home. not a word about what he said. but you felt it.
later that night, the apartment was still. the distant hum of traffic filtered through your window, muted by the curtains, and the glow from your desk lamp painted everything in quiet amber. you stood at the edge of the bed, brushing your teeth slowly, watching sunghoon from the corner of your eye. he was sitting cross-legged near the pillows, scrolling curiously through the music playlist on your phone like it was some sort of puzzle — brows furrowed, lips slightly pursed. he looked completely at home.
it wasn’t strange anymore. not the toothbrush he kept in your bathroom, or the way his socks sometimes ended up mixed in your laundry. not the second pillow on your bed that always smelled faintly of him. he looked up when you approached, phone resting easily on his lap. “you added the song i showed you,” he said, a little pleased.
you smiled, crawling into bed beside him. “of course i did. you have good taste.” as you both settled in under the blankets — your sides brushing, the warmth between you effortless — you caught yourself staring. he caught it too “what?” he asked, voice low and amused.
you hesitated for a moment. then shook your head.”nothing. just… i’m glad you’re here. sunghoon’s smile softened. he turned slightly, one arm resting behind his head as he watched you.
“i’m glad i’m here too,” he murmured. you rolled onto your side, facing him in the dim light. your voice dropped with it — something more vulnerable slipping out.
“i used to cry myself to sleep, you know. before all this. i’d curl up in the same spot every night and wish… i don’t know. for something to feel less cold.” his eyes didn’t move from yours. he didn’t rush to reply. “i don’t feel cold anymore,” you added, barely a whisper. silence settled around you like a blanket — warm and steady.
sunghoon reached over, fingers brushing lightly against your knuckles under the blanket. just enough to let you know he was there. that he heard you. that he’d stay.
“i’m happy,” you said suddenly, and it cracked a little when you said it. like it surprised you. like you weren’t used to it tasting so real in your mouth. his expression softened even further. “you deserve to be,” he said simply. you didn’t say it aloud, but in your chest bloomed the quiet ache of what you’d lost. of what once was. you thought of your brother — his old hoodie still folded neatly in the closet, the way your apartment used to echo more sharply when you came home to no one. you never told sunghoon directly. but maybe you didn’t need to.
because when he reached out, gently threading your fingers together under the covers, you felt it. he knew. and still, he stayed — not to fix anything, but to be here. steady. real. that night, you slept without needing to wish for comfort. because it was already there, breathing beside you.
it wasn’t a dramatic shift. no sudden realization. no firework moment where you both looked at each other and just knew.it was slower than that — gentler. like tea cooling in a cup, or a flower stretching open to the sun after days of rain. a love that wasn’t hurried, but grew in the soft pauses between your days.
you started noticing the way sunghoon looked at you when you weren’t paying attention — with a quiet sort of awe, like the very fact that you existed in the same space as him was something precious.it showed in small things. like how he’d hold your backpack strap while you dug for your id at the school gate. how he started packing you snacks when you had long lectures, slipping them into your tote with a sticky note that just had a doodle and a tiny, “eat when you’re tired. -sh”
how he always waited for you after class, leaning on the railing just outside the lecture hall, headphones in — not because he didn’t have anything better to do, but because you were what he wanted to do. and you—god, you didn’t know love could be this quiet. this easy.
you were smiling more now. laughing without guilt. waking up with something to look forward to, even if it was just sunghoon’s latest attempts at cooking or his curious commentary about your uni professors. one rainy afternoon, you were sitting on the floor of your apartment, surrounded by tangled fairy lights you’d pulled out of storage for no real reason. sunghoon had a strand in his hands, frowning slightly at a knot.
“you know,” you said, handing him another tangled part, “you don’t have to help.” “too late,” he said with a playful shrug. “we’re in this knot together.” you laughed. the kind that bubbled up naturally from your chest. the kind you hadn’t heard from yourself in a long time. sunghoon looked up at the sound, and his breath caught just slightly.
you caught it too. “what?” you asked, blinking.his hands stilled over the lights. he didn’t say anything right away. just looked at you — really looked — like maybe he hadn’t let himself before “you’re beautiful when you laugh,” he said softly. your cheeks warmed, but you didn’t look away.“you make it easier,” you said, matching his softness. “to feel okay.” and there it was — the unspoken understanding that something deeper had taken root. that somewhere between shared playlists, midnight ramen, and folded laundry, something had shifted in the air between you. something that made your heart settle. something real. later that week, as you were walking home from campus under the early evening sky, sunghoon reached out and laced his fingers with yours. it was the first time he’d done that in public. you didn’t say anything. you just squeezed his hand and kept walking — and somehow, that silence said everything.
in the stillness of this new rhythm, love bloomed — not in declarations, but in details. in all the ways he became a part of your life. in the extra toothbrush. in the half-drunk mugs of tea. in the way your pillows were never quite arranged the same when you woke up beside him. it wasn’t perfect. some days you still felt the old ache tug at your chest — the loss of your brother, the heaviness that didn’t vanish just because someone held your hand.
but now… the ache wasn’t so lonely.now, when it rained, there was someone to pull the blankets up to your chin. when you came home tired, there was always someone humming softly in the kitchen, trying to make your favorite meal.
one night, curled beside him in the dark, you whispered without thinking: “i think i’m falling in love with you.” you didn’t mean to say it — not yet, not now — but it slipped out, honest and bare. sunghoon didn’t answer right away. he shifted slightly, arm tightening around your waist, tucking you closer into his warmth. “then let me fall too,” he murmured, lips brushing the top of your head. and in that quiet, tangled space between sleep and truth, love bloomed — not loud or bold, but steady.
just like the two of you. still writing the story. one shared morning at a time. it had been weeks. maybe months. you weren’t counting days anymore. not when life had taken on such a golden, easy rhythm. there were sleepy mornings filled with tangled limbs and the smell of toasted bread. afternoons spent sprawled together on the living room floor, bickering over puzzle pieces or reading side by side with music humming low in the background. evenings curled up under blankets, watching old movies with subtitles sunghoon still struggled to follow but refused to skip.
he insisted on joining you on your campus walks now. wore your brother’s hoodie like it was his own, sleeves swallowing his hands, hood always pulled up like he was trying to hide from the world. he’d nod along as you vented about group projects and professors who took forever to grade, and you’d always catch him staring—softly, like the world paused for him every time you laughed. and you were okay. not just okay. better.
you didn’t flinch at silence anymore. you didn’t cry yourself to sleep. one night, lying beside him after an especially exhausting week, you turned toward him and whispered, “i’m happy.” he blinked, surprised. you’d said it like you were admitting something forbidden. “i didn’t think i’d say that again,” you added, voice breaking just slightly. “not after—” you swallowed. the name, your brother’s name, still got stuck in your throat sometimes. you didn’t finish.
but you didn’t have to. sunghoon only brushed a knuckle along your cheek, his gaze so unbearably kind you almost cried. “you don’t need to explain,” he said gently. “your sadness is still a part of you. but so is this.” “this?” “this peace. this warmth. your laughter. it’s okay to carry both.” you bit your lip, eyes welling, but you nodded. and when he pulled you close, you burrowed into his chest and let yourself believe it.
it happened subtly at first. a mug in his hand that suddenly flickered, turning slightly translucent before becoming solid again. a moment where he forgot the layout of your apartment — standing at the wrong cabinet for the sugar, blinking like he didn’t know where he was.
you noticed. but you didn’t say anything. not yet. because maybe it was just stress. maybe you imagined it. but the pit in your stomach didn’t believe that. then one evening, after he’d fallen asleep beside you, hand still loosely wrapped around yours, you reached for your phone and opened the webtoon. you hadn’t checked it in ages. not since the day he came.
the title page greeted you, familiar and oddly foreign now. but something was off. you scrolled.
and saw it. status: hiatus. the date listed?
the exact day sunghoon arrived.
your heart lurched.you scrolled further. there were no new chapters. no updates. no author’s notes. the once active comment section had slowed, confused fans wondering why everything had stopped. some were worried. others assumed it had been dropped. but you knew the truth, didn’t you? he had crossed over into your story.
and his had paused.
you stared at the glowing screen, heart pounding. the quiet hum of the fan filled the silence, and beside you, sunghoon stirred slightly in his sleep, murmuring something you couldn’t catch. you looked at him. the way his brows furrowed slightly, even in rest. the soft rise and fall of his chest. so real. so warm. but… still tethered to a world that wasn’t this one.
the next morning, he noticed something in your eyes. “you okay?” he asked, flipping a pancake with more confidence than skill. you hesitated, then forced a small smile. “yeah. just tired.” he didn’t push. but he stepped a little closer and gently bumped his forehead to yours. “then let me carry your tired, too.”
and you nearly cried. because you wanted to believe he could. that this life you’d built together could go on forever. but the truth loomed in the corner of your thoughts like a shadow. waiting.
you told yourself not to panic. you told yourself you’d just watch. you’d wait. maybe it meant nothing. but when he reached for the syrup and his hand flickered again — for just a heartbeat — the world tilted under your feet. you reached for his fingers and held them tightly. and he smiled at you, none the wiser.
it was raining.
a gentle drizzle that coated the windows in glassy trails and painted the sky a dull silver. campus was quiet for once—lectures cancelled, students huddled indoors, and you had the rare gift of a slow afternoon with nowhere to be. you were curled on the couch in your oversized hoodie, laptop balanced on your knees, editing a paper while sunghoon sat beside you, legs tucked under him like he belonged here. like this was normal.
he was flipping through a campus magazine he’d found on your bookshelf, utterly fascinated something as mundane as a crossword.
“what does ‘five-letter word for temporary happiness’ mean?” he asked, furrowing his brows, pencil in hand.you blinked, smiling faintly. “you don’t have to finish that, you know.” “but i want to.” he looked up, and his gaze caught yours like sunlight on still water—gentle, but deep. “i like learning the words you know.”
and something in your chest squeezed. he was so here. so alive. so absurdly himself in this world he wasn’t meant to belong to. you set your laptop aside and leaned toward him, brushing his hair back from his face. “you’re such a dork.”he leaned into the touch without thinking. “maybe. but i’m your dork.”
the words weren’t planned. they hung between you, unpolished and real, and suddenly the air in the room felt charged. you met his eyes, lips parting to say something—anything— but he beat you to it.he leaned forward, brushing the faintest kiss against your cheek. feather-light. reverent. just there. and gone.
you sat there frozen, heat blooming up your neck like fire.“is that… okay?” he asked quietly.you nodded, throat tight. “yeah. that’s… yeah.” he smiled like you’d handed him the moon.
the days that followed were filled with more of those quiet, luminous moments. you taught him how to use your record player, and he spent an entire morning making a playlist titled “coffee & you.” you baked cookies at 2 a.m. because he said he was curious how dough turned into happiness. you walked in on him humming while folding laundry, your favorite sweater draped across his arms like it was a sacred object.
and one night, as you watched him rinse rice with almost comical focus, you said it without thinking.
“i love this.” he looked up, wet hands pausing over the pot “this,” you said again. “you. here. us. i never thought i’d get to feel… full again.”
he didn’t answer for a moment. then, softly: “me too.” but his voice cracked just slightly.and you noticed it again—barely, but it was there.
the flicker. not in his hands or his form this time. but in his eyes. just for a blink—like a screen buffering, skipping a frame. you didn’t say anything. and neither did he.
but later that night, when you had fallen asleep against him—hand curled in his shirt like always—sunghoon lay wide awake. his fingers ghosted over your hair, gentle and slow. he stared up at the ceiling like he was trying to memorize it. and he whispered into the dark, so quiet you didn’t stir:
“am i… supposed to still be here?” he waited for an answer he knew wouldn’t come. but the silence that followed didn’t feel like peace. it felt like goodbye waiting in the wings. the next morning, sunghoon stood at the window for a long time.
you stirred awake to the smell of coffee and the sound of rain still tapping against the glass. the sky outside was a dull grey, soft with fog, and your blanket had fallen halfway off your bed, pooling near the floor. you sat up with a yawn, eyes adjusting to the soft light. and there he was — not in the kitchen this time, but in your room, standing still. he had your old hoodie draped around his shoulders, fingers gently gripping the curtain edge. his eyes weren’t fixed on anything in particular — just the sky. as if waiting for something to break through it.
you padded over, the floor cool beneath your feet. “hey,” you said gently. he glanced back at you, smile immediate but distant. “morning.”you reached up and fixed the hoodie over his shoulders, tucking it a little tighter like he always forgot how to wear it properly. “you okay?” “yeah.” a pause. then, “do clouds always look like that before sunrise?” you blinked. “like what?”
he hesitated, then looked out again. “like… they’re not supposed to be there.”you followed his gaze. but they just looked like clouds to you — heavy with rain, streaked with pale light. “maybe it’s just the weather,” you said softly, slipping your arm around his waist. “you’re thinking too hard again.”
but something in your stomach twisted — because sunghoon never commented on the sky before. not like that. still, he nodded and leaned into your side. “maybe.”
that day, he followed you to campus again. he loved your uni — the café tucked behind the science building, the koi pond where he always lingered too long, the vending machine with “surprisingly good strawberry milk.” but something was off. he kept walking ahead and forgetting the direction — something he never did. and twice, you caught him staring at his own reflection in the library window like he wasn’t quite sure it was solid.
later, as you both sat under your favorite tree outside the courtyard, he quietly murmured, “if i disappeared… would you still look for me?” you turned sharply toward him. “what?” he didn’t meet your eyes. “just wondering.” “why would you say that?” “i don’t know,” he whispered. “i’ve just been feeling… strange. like my body’s made of glass and i’m only here because i’m trying really hard to remember how to be.” your chest tightened. you wanted to lie. you wanted to say, you’re here. you’re not going anywhere.
but you’d seen it too. and he knew it. so instead, you took his hand and brought it to your chest. pressed it flat against your heartbeat. “then remember this,” you whispered. “this is real. even if everything else fades, this moment — you and me right now — is real.” his lashes fluttered.
and for the first time, he looked afraid.
that night, you sat in bed beside him, your head on his shoulder as he scrolled through your camera roll, laughing softly at a blurry picture of the two of you with whipped cream on your noses “i like this one,” he said, voice warm. “you look happy here.” “you made me happy here.” he stilled. just a moment. then slowly, he set the phone down, turned to face you fully. “i’ve been thinking,” he said.
you could already feel it coming. that creeping ache behind his smile. “i came from a story… one you followed, loved, cried over.” he exhaled. “but what if… i was only allowed to come here because you needed me? because you were hurting?” your throat tightened. “and now that you’re healing—now that you’re okay—maybe your story doesn’t need me anymore.”
“stop.” your voice cracked, and you shook your head, refusing to cry. “you’re not some tool. you’re not a character that served a purpose and expires. you exist, sunghoon. here. with me.” he looked at you, like he wanted to believe that more than anything. then, gently — painfully — he reached forward and placed a soft kiss on your forehead. it lingered.
“you saved me too, you know,” he whispered. “maybe i was written to comfort others… but you made me real.” you swallowed your sob and held him like the world was slipping. because you knew, in your heart, that the countdown had begun.
it started with the kettle. you were making tea — something warm and sleepy, because your head was pounding and sunghoon had suggested, with that soft tilt of his head, “you need to rest. you’ve been tired lately.”
he was right. you had been tired — emotionally more than physically. but he’d been tired too. even if he never said it out loud. even if he still smiled every time he handed you your jacket or brought your phone charger to bed or memorized the way you liked your toast. you were stirring honey into your mug when you noticed the silence.
sunghoon was in the living room just seconds ago — you’d left him with a blanket, flipping through the same page of your class readings over and over, pretending to read. but now it was dead quiet. not a creak. not a hum. “sunghoon?” you called. no answer. your heart tugged. a pinch of unease bloomed at the base of your spine. you stepped out of the kitchen with your mug in hand—and that’s when you saw it.
he was standing perfectly still. right in the center of your room. not facing anything. not holding anything. just there. his hands twitched at his sides like static. “sunghoon?”
he turned his head. but his face didn’t.njust his head — sharp, unnatural, as if someone had dragged the frame too far in a video. his eyes lagged half a second behind, then blinked in slow motion. his lips parted soundlessly.
you dropped the mug. ceramic shattered on the floor. “hey—sunghoon—sunghoon, look at me” he didn’t move. then his hands twitched again—violently this time—and you swore you heard something like feedback, a harsh buzz in the air, a sound you could feel in your teeth. you reached him and gripped his arms. “breathe—hey, i’m right here—look at me—” “y/n.”
your name came out twice. layered. glitched. once in his voice. once in something deeper. like it wasn’t coming from him at all. you choked out a sob. “please—come back—sunghoon—stay here—stay—please—” and then, all at once—he gasped.
his whole body jerked like he’d just surfaced from underwater. his knees buckled, and you caught him in your arms as he collapsed to the floor. he blinked up at you, dazed. confused. terrified. “did i…” he swallowed. “was i… gone?” you couldn’t answer. you were crying too hard. you just cupped his face and kissed his forehead over and over like it would keep him tethered here.
“you’re here,” you whispered brokenly. “you’re still here. you’re still mine.” but his eyes flickered — again. and this time, they didn’t stop. it was small — barely visible. but one corner of his eye glitched like a flickering frame. again. and again. and again. sunghoon was breathing hard. “i can’t… i don’t know how much longer i can fight it.”
“no.” you shook your head, throat burning. “you don’t have to fight anything. we’ll fix this. i’ll fix this. just—please—stay—” and he leaned into your touch, trembling. “i don’t want to go. not when i finally… have this.” “you have me,” you cried. “you always will.”
but when he pulled you into his arms and held you like it was the last time — you knew he didn’t believe it. and worse — you didn’t either.
that night tasted like fear — thick and bitter, clinging to every breath, every heartbeat, every whispered word between the two of you. he was still shaking. not visibly, not like some dramatic trembling that would draw attention — but in that subtle way only you would notice. the way his fingers lingered too long at the hem of his sleeves. the way his thumb rubbed tight circles into the soft flesh of your wrist, not to comfort you, but to ground himself.
you didn’t know what to do — how to fix something that wasn’t supposed to break in the first place. sunghoon wasn’t supposed to glitch. he wasn’t supposed to fade. he was supposed to be warm smiles and tea shared on the balcony. sleepy conversations with your faces buried in the same pillow. quiet grocery runs and the way his voice softened when he said your name.
he wasn’t supposed to feel this real, only to leave. so you clutched his hand tighter and led him back to your bed. “i’m sorry,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper. “for what?” you asked softly as you helped him sit on the edge of your bed. “for scaring you. for… not being strong enough to stay normal.” you crouched down in front of him, both your hands wrapping around his. “you’re here. you came to me. that’s all that matters.”
“i don’t know why i’m breaking.” his gaze dropped, lashes fanned low like a shadow across his cheeks. “maybe i wasn’t meant to stay this long. maybe… this is what happens when a story ends.” “don’t say that.” your voice cracked. “but what if it’s true?” you stood abruptly — you had to. your body felt too tight, too filled with panic and grief to sit still.
you paced the room as tears welled again, threatening to spill. “it’s not fair. you’re not just some character. you’re him. you laugh. you get shy. you hate bitter coffee. you kiss the top of my head when you think i’m asleep. that’s not fiction. that’s you.”
you stopped mid-step and turned to him, voice trembling. “i don’t care what you were meant to be. you’re mine now. you’re part of this world.” he looked up at you then — slowly, like it hurt. like the weight of your words had landed right on his chest and cracked him open. “i never thought i’d get to love something this real,” he whispered. “or… be loved back.” you sat beside him again and reached for him, pulling his head to your shoulder. his body leaned into you with the kind of heaviness only trust allowed.
“i’ve never said it,” you murmured. “but i need to.”
his breath caught. “i’m happy with you,sunghoon.”the silence that followed was sacred — the kind you don’t dare ruin. you could feel it in the way he held still, barely breathing. you let your hand drift to his hair, fingers sliding gently through the soft strands.
“i didn’t think i’d feel this again,” you confessed. “not after—” you stopped yourself.the words were too heavy. too tender. but he waited. patient, warm.so you continued, just barely, just a whisper.
“i lost someone. my brother. we… we lived together before. this apartment used to feel like his too. but when he died, it just felt hollow. like everything got quieter.”
he didn’t speak. he only leaned into you more. “i used to come home and forget he was gone. i’d wait for him to walk in the door, even months after. and then i stopped waiting. i stopped feeling much at all.”you turned your head, pressing your cheek to his hair. “but then you were here. and the apartment didn’t feel empty anymore.” sunghoon’s arms came around you then — strong and trembling — and you both sank into the bed without letting go. you curled into each other like survival. his lips pressed gently to your shoulder. you weren’t sure if he meant it as comfort or a promise — but it settled into your bones like both.
he whispered, “you brought me to life. maybe that’s why i came to you.” you said nothing. you just pulled him closer. the room was dark except for the faint streetlight glow through the curtains.
and even though you knew — knew — that something was wrong, that this peace might be borrowed, that the seconds were slipping from your fingers… you still clung to the night like it might never end. because for now, he was still here. and you loved him.
you didn’t sleep. not really. your body stayed still, curled into his, your arm slung over his waist as if that alone could hold him here. but your mind wouldn’t shut down. not when your heart was racing, not when every few minutes your breath hitched just waiting for another glitch. waiting for his warmth to disappear. waiting for a silence too still to mean anything good.
sunghoon slept soundly beside you. or… you hoped it was sleep. you weren’t even sure anymore. your alarm went off at 6:15 am, but you’d already been awake for hours by then — barely blinking, barely breathing. you silenced it before it could stir him and slipped out of bed, quietly as possible, heart heavy.
you needed answers. because this couldn’t keep happening.you made your way to the kitchen, your knees weak from exhaustion and nerves. the mug you’d shattered last night was still on the floor — the jagged ceramic in pieces across the tiles. you ignored it. you opened your laptop at the table, pulled your hoodie tighter around your shoulders, and started typing.
“webtoon character glitching real life?”
“story character coming to life breaking down?”
“dream person glitching?”
“can fictional characters stay in our world?”desperate questions. ridiculous ones.
each search gave you either crack theories, urban legends, or deep reddit threads filled with posts like:
“my oc came to life (here’s what happened)”
“creepypasta? i think i met a character i created irl”
“ai hallucination or another universe merging?”
none of it felt like an answer.
until.
you hesitated. then opened your bookmarked webtoon page — the same one that once gave you comfort during late nights and sad days. the one where you first fell in love with the version of him that came in frames and speech bubbles.
still on hiatus. still the same pause message as the day he arrived. you stared at the author’s username.
for the first time, it didn’t feel like just a handle on the screen. you clicked on it. no updates. no blog. no social posts. but there was an email address.
your fingers hovered above the keyboard. you couldn’t believe you were about to do this — send a real email to the creator of a fictional story, hoping they had an answer for why the character they made was lying asleep in your room.
but what choice did you have? you clicked compose.
subject: please. i need to know what’s happening.
and then you started typing:
hi… i don’t know how to explain this without sounding insane, but…something is wrong.
one of your characters — sunghoon — he’s here. i mean physically. in my world. he showed up a few weeks ago and it was impossible, i know. but he’s real. he’s him. he knows things from the story, but he’s different too. he’s more than the webtoon version. he’s warm, he’s funny, he’s scared, he’s trying. and now he’s glitching.
please. i don’t know if you’ll ever read this, but if you do… i need help. i can’t lose him.
you stared at it for a long moment before pressing
send.
there was no way to know if it would reach anyone. no way to know if they’d believe you. no way to know if it would help. but you had to try. because that boy asleep in your room, the one who now stole your hoodies and tried to cook breakfast with too much garlic, the one who curled into your side when you stayed up watching terrible romcoms — he was worth it.
you shut the laptop slowly and stared at the screen. just then, from the hallway— “y/n?” his voice. you turned around, heart slamming into your ribs.sunghoon stood there, sleepy and messy-haired, one of your brother’s old sweatshirts hanging off his shoulder.his smile was gentle. a little confused. like he’d just woken from a dream.
“why are you up so early?” he asked.and for a moment, just a breath—he looked perfectly okay. so you smiled back.and lied. “couldn’t sleep.”he walked over and wrapped his arms around you from behind, resting his chin on your shoulder. you leaned into him, forcing yourself to breathe, forcing your heart to calm.
“should we make pancakes?” he mumbled. “the fluffy ones you like.” “yeah,” you whispered, closing your eyes. “let’s do that.” and for now, you let yourself pretend the world wasn’t cracking beneath your feet.
the reply came that night. you weren’t expecting it. honestly, you didn’t think it would come at all. after all, it had been hours — long, dragging ones where sunghoon wore your brother’s too-big hoodie and insisted on making pancakes shaped like animals (which turned into vaguely blob-shaped attempts that still made you laugh). you had gone to class, he tagged along and dozed off beside you on the quad grass, arms behind his head like he belonged there. you studied a little in the campus library while he ran off to explore the shelves, his eyes wide at the smell of old pages and quiet, ancient silence.
it had been a good day.so good it made your heart ache with fear.and then your phone buzzed it wasn’t a text. it was an email. from “author studio - contact”. your breath caught. you quickly turned your back to sunghoon, heart pounding as you clicked it open.
subject: you shouldn’t have seen him.
your stomach dropped.
hands trembling, you opened the body of the message.
dear y/n,
this message may feel impossible — but i need you to believe me when i say:
you are not alone.
what you described… it isn’t the first time something like this has happened.
i didn’t expect it to happen again. not like this.
i created sunghoon as a story — as a fictional person. but something in the system broke. when a story becomes too deeply connected to the reader… sometimes, very rarely, it tries to cross over. i didn’t write this part. i didn’t tell him to go to you. he made that decision.
you must understand — he’s glitching because he’s not built for your world.
he’s only stable as long as the story continues, but—
i haven’t been able to update. because the moment he crossed, the data loop froze. that means if he stays in your world too long… he will break.
you need to send him back.
i’m sorry.
you stared at the screen. the world didn’t just crack. it collapsed.
“hey, what are you reading?” his voice — light and curious — floated from the kitchen where he was washing the dishes, badly humming a tune you once played for him on your phone. you couldn’t speak. you couldn’t even move. tears were welling, your throat tight and chest aching.
you need to send him back. but he was looking forward to tomorrow.he wanted to take you to the small weekend art market near the old bookstore. he was excited to find a used sweater that fit better than your brother’s old clothes. he wanted to buy strawberries for pancakes again.
he wanted to stay.he chose you. “y/n?”his voice again — closer now, as he padded toward you barefoot, wiping his damp hands on your dish towel. you quickly clicked your phone off and forced a smile, blinking back tears fast. “it’s nothing. just spam mail.” he tilted his head, clearly not buying it. “you okay?” you nodded. “yeah. just tired.”he walked up behind you again, arms sliding around your waist in a now-familiar hug, chin resting on your shoulder.
you leaned into him again, just like earlier. but this time, you clutched his hands like you were afraid he’d vanish. because now you knew. you knew every smile, every gentle moment, every sleepy blink, and slow kiss you hadn’t even had yet — it all came with a timer.he didn’t know it. but you did.and now?you had no idea how to tell him.
that night, you stayed up longer than usual. the lamp on your nightstand bathed the room in a warm, amber hue. outside, the crickets sang faintly under the late summer breeze, the night still and silent. the fan above hummed in slow, lazy circles. the sheets smelled like lavender and something else now—something unmistakably him. that soft, warm scent you couldn’t describe except with the feeling of comfort itself.
sunghoon was already in bed, lying on his side, facing you. his hair was slightly messy, damp at the tips from the shower you made him take after dinner. he was clutching the stuffed whale you’d jokingly handed him weeks ago. now it was always in his arms when he slept. you were curled up on your side too, just a few inches away, but tonight, your body felt stiff—eyes open, staring into the quiet, dark edges of your room.
your phone sat facedown beside you.
the message burned in your mind.
he will break.
you need to send him back.
you hadn’t answered. you couldn’t. what would you even say?you weren’t ready to let go.sunghoon stretched a little beside you with a soft sigh, the kind you’d come to recognize—peaceful and sleepy. then, without a word, he gently reached out and pulled you closer. his arm slid beneath your pillow, drawing you in until your foreheads lightly touched, and you could feel the soft flutter of his breath against your lips. he always slept like this. tucked into your warmth. like you were the anchor he never had in his own story.
“today was fun,” he murmured, voice drowsy. “that mural on campus… and the cupcakes at the art event. i liked how the frosting got stuck on your nose.” you forced a chuckle. “you didn’t tell me.” “i wanted to take a picture first,” he admitted, smiling sleepily. “but i forgot.” you smiled too, even though your chest throbbed.
“you make everything feel like a memory,” he whispered, words heavy with sincerity. “even the boring parts. like brushing our teeth together… or arguing about which playlist to listen to while doing laundry.” you looked at him, heart aching. “is that a good thing?” “it’s the best thing,” he said. “it’s like… living finally feels like living.”
he yawned, then, snuggling closer, eyes fluttering shut. you stared at him long after. and when he drifted off, breathing soft and steady, you turned on your side and faced the wall—eyes wide open, mouth pressed into the pillow to muffle the sound of your quiet tears.
the next morning, you acted normal. you made his eggs the way he liked—slightly runny yolk, no onions. he wore your brother’s old hoodie again, the sleeves pushed up just above his wrists as he balanced a spoon on his nose for no reason at all.
you laughed, even clapped when it fell and he tried to play it off like he meant it. you walked to campus together. he held your hand the whole way, swinging it lightly between you.
you gave him your headphones during your break in the university garden, letting him lean against your shoulder while he scrolled through random pinterest boards and talked about which cloud looked like which animal. when you got home, he insisted on helping you fold laundry, and you mock-scolded him when he folded your socks all wrong. he offered to cook dinner, and you let him, even when he confused basil for spinach and ended up burning the first batch of pasta.
and all the while— you smiled. you laughed. you touched his hand just a little longer. looked into his eyes just a little deeper.you didn’t say anything about the message. you didn’t tell him you were scared. instead, you let the quiet denial wrap around your days like a soft blanket. maybe, if you pretended hard enough, if you didn’t say it out loud—it would go away.
maybe he’d stay. maybe the story wouldn’t need to end. and maybe your heart wouldn’t break all over again. but that night, as he lay beside you once more, whispering sleepy little stories about the stars he saw while walking home, you knew.
you were lying to him.
you were lying to yourself.
because one day soon… the story would ask for him back.
and you didn’t know how to let go of someone you never truly had in the first place. the days kept moving—slow, sweet, borrowed.they were quieter now. there were fewer “let’s go here” and more “let’s just stay in.” fewer photos, more soft silences. a kind of stillness settled between the two of you, not heavy, not cold—just something tender that neither of you dared to break. sunghoon didn’t ask at first.
maybe he saw how your hands lingered on him a little longer. maybe he noticed how you woke up too early sometimes, staring at his face with a kind of desperation he couldn’t name.or maybe he was just trying to pretend the same way you were.
but that didn’t last forever.it was one of those evenings again. after your last class, he had waited outside the campus gate like always, leaning against the old tree where he knew you’d spot him instantly. his hair ruffled by the wind, hands tucked in the front pocket of that faded hoodie, the cuffs stretched out from him fidgeting with them all day.
you had smiled. he had smiled back.you took your usual route home, hand in hand, talking about nothing—your professor’s weird jokes, the girl in class who kept trying to borrow your pens, the squirrel you saw trying to steal a soda from a trash bin. and yet, something about your voice trembled. something in your laugh sounded like it cracked at the edges. that night, you were brushing your teeth together. him on the left, you on the right, both of you spitting toothpaste at the same time and laughing at the weird synchronization. his eyes met yours in the mirror and lingered.
“hey,” he said softly, drying his mouth. “have i done something wrong?” you paused, towel pressed to your face, freezing. “no,” you whispered too quickly. “why would you think that?” he stepped closer, turning you toward him. you were still holding the towel like it could shield you from the way his gaze pressed right into your soul. “you’re sad,” he said. not accusing. just a quiet, steady truth. you didn’t answer.
“even when you smile,” he added. “i see it. i feel it.”you wanted to lie. you wanted to pretend again. but you couldn’t. not when he looked at you like that. not when he reached up and gently tucked a strand of hair behind your ear. “you don’t have to tell me,” he whispered. “not yet. but i’m here. and i want to be here.” and before you could pull away or break apart or fold under the weight of it all, he leaned forward and pressed the gentlest kiss to your lips.
soft. certain. unrushed. it wasn’t like in the stories. it wasn’t dramatic or filled with trembling hands or sudden confessions. it was just real.warm.present. like he was telling you without words: i’m staying. i choose you. but the moment he pulled away and looked at you again, your chest cracked open.
tears welled before you could stop them. his expression changed. concerned. quietly afraid.
“y/n…?” you swallowed hard, the ache in your throat now too full to keep down.
“i got an email,” you whispered. his brow furrowed. “what kind of—” “from your creator,” you said, voice thin and shaking. “from the one who made you. the one who writes the webtoon. he just stared at you. “i didn’t know how to tell you,” you breathed. “i still don’t. i— i thought maybe if i didn’t say it, it wouldn’t be real. but they said you’re not supposed to be here, hoon. that the story is frozen because you left it. that… that you’ll start to break the longer you stay.”
the silence in the room was deafening. he blinked, lips parting, but nothing came out at first. you looked at him, heart in your throat. “i didn’t want to ruin this. i didn’t want to scare you or— or push you away. but every time i look at you now, i keep wondering when i’ll lose you. again.” he took a shaky breath. and then he did something that completely broke you:
he pulled you into him and held you like you were the only thing keeping him grounded.you gripped his shirt, pressing your face to his chest, crying harder now because the moment was too soft for the pain it carried. “i don’t care,” he whispered into your hair. “i don’t care if i break. i don’t want to go back.” you shook your head, trying to pull away. “you’ll disappear. you’ll stop existing—”
“then let me exist here,” he said, holding you tighter. “with you. even if it’s just for a little while longer.” your breath hitched. because deep down, you wanted that too. you wanted every stolen day, every late-night grocery run, every shared laugh over burnt food and awkward kisses and the way he loved so easily despite being from a world that wasn’t meant to collide with yours.
you didn’t know what tomorrow held. but for now?
you let yourself hold him back.and he kissed you again. this time, longer. this time, with trembling hands and a promise that hung in the air like a fragile thread neither of you dared to cut.
the world hadn’t changed. not really.
the clouds still drifted lazily across the sky. the corner bakery still burned their croissants. your landlord still forgot to fix the hallway light. midterms were still looming, and your laundry pile was once again threatening to eat your bed. but you had changed. and so had he. after that night—after the kiss, the trembling confession, the quiet promises—you both woke up slower. softer. like the world might slip through your fingers if you moved too fast. you still shared a bed.
the stuffed whale still ended up between you. or under his arm. or tossed on the floor when he wanted to pull you closer in his sleep.
but now, the mornings were filled with things unspoken. longer eye contact. a lingering hand on your cheek. lips brushing your forehead like a seal. like a silent plea: remember me this way. he didn’t glitch that week.not once.not even when he got caught in the rain walking to your campus and his outline shimmered faintly under the downpour. you wrapped him in your coat and pretended not to see it. he kissed the top of your wet hair and didn’t say a word.
you made more memories.you had to.you needed to.on tuesday, you borrowed a polaroid camera from the uni’s art room and brought it home like a secret mission.sunghoon lit up like a child.he took pictures of you brushing your teeth, folding towels, even cutting onions (“you cry every time. i want proof.”) you took photos of him reaching for the top shelf in the kitchen, of his hands holding your coffee mug, of his soft smiles in stolen moments he thought you weren’t looking.
you filled the wall beside your bed with them. careless little snapshots of a life that didn’t feel borrowed anymore. and on wednesday, you taught him how to bake brownies—from scratch this time, not the mix. he wore a ridiculous apron with a cartoon carrot on it, swore under his breath when he cracked the eggs too hard, and got flour in his eyebrows from a sneeze.
you laughed so hard your stomach hurt. “stop laughing!” he groaned, holding up the batter-covered whisk like a weapon. “you’re supposed to be helping!” “i am,” you giggled, dodging him. “i’m emotionally supporting you!”he cornered you near the sink and kissed your cheek, smearing a bit of chocolate on your nose in the process.
you didn’t wipe it off.that night, you stayed up past midnight.he lay beside you, back against the wall, as you scrolled through your old playlist together, adding songs and assigning memories to each. “that one,” he said, pointing to a soft acoustic track. “that sounds like the time we stayed under the blanket fort for hours because it rained.”you hummed. “and that one?” you tapped a mellow indie song. he smiled. “that sounds like you… when you’re brushing your hair in the morning. calm and sleepy and too pretty for the world.”
you looked at him, heart in your throat.“you’re trying to make me fall for you harder, aren’t you?” you whispered.he only grinned. “maybe.”by thursday, the weather had shifted. cooler breeze. less humidity. a gentle reminder that summer was fading.you skipped your last class and dragged him to the tiny park five minutes from your apartment—the one with the old wooden swings and the sky just open enough to see the stars when the lights went out.
he brought your brother’s hoodie again, the one he always wore when he didn’t know what else to reach for. you didn’t say anything.you lay down on the grass side by side, arms brushing, fingers grazing. neither of you moved to lace them. “you scared?” he asked quietly, eyes on the sky.
you turned your head. he was blinking slowly, watching the stars but not really seeing them.
you took a breath. “yes.” “me too.” silence. then he reached for your hand and laced your fingers with his, like he’d just remembered how. “i think i was scared even before i knew,” he said. “even when i didn’t understand what was happening. it always felt like i was… borrowing this. all of it. you. the world. the sunlight. the way coffee tastes. like i snuck into something i shouldn’t have.”
you squeezed his hand. “you didn’t sneak in. you were always meant to find it. to find me.” he turned his head and looked at you—really looked.
and when he smiled, it was soft. a little tired. but still full of that same tenderness that had made you fall for him in the first place. “i don’t want to forget any of it,” he whispered. “you won’t.”
“how do you know?”you shifted closer, resting your head on his shoulder, wrapping your other arm around his. “because i won’t let you.” he didn’t reply for a long time.when you looked again, his eyes were damp—but he smiled. “i love you, you know.” it was the first time he’d said it. you didn’t cry right away. you just let yourself feel it.
the warmth. the weight. the truth.and you whispered it back, soft and certain.
“i love you too, hoon.”
and when you both sat up and looked at the stars again, your pinkies still entwined, the wind carrying the scent of rain and grass and something like hope—you could almost believe this wasn’t going to end. the days felt like honey—warm, golden, slow. everything was steeped in softness now. even the pain. you weren’t pretending anymore. not fully.
he knew what he was.
you knew what would happen.
but still, you both chose to stay in the lull between knowing and letting go.like a long exhale neither of you were ready to end.
sunghoon woke before you most mornings now. he’d make tea instead of coffee. he said the quiet bubbling of the kettle was gentler. said your face, when you sleep, looked too peaceful for anything loud.sometimes he’d sit at your little desk, sketching in the margins of your notebooks. scribbles of your hair. your socks. the folds of your blanket. he said he wanted to draw all the things he didn’t know how to name.
you called him ridiculous. he just smiled.in the evenings, you lit a candle on the table while he stirred whatever you decided to cook. you’d play music from your phone and sing off-key and he’d look at you like you were singing just for him.
and maybe you were.you didn’t say goodbye yet.
but everything you did started to feel like one.
on the friday after your last exam, you took him to the campus garden. it wasn’t anything fancy—just a few flower beds, benches, an old wooden swing near the back—but you used to sit there when things were heavy. sunghoon had never been there before. he looked at the lavender patch like it was a galaxy. you let him lie down with his head in your lap, fingers combing gently through his hair while the afternoon sun painted the world in soft, glowing brushstrokes.
he sighed. “what do you wanna do tomorrow?“what do you wanna do tomorrow?” you asked back.he blinked up at you, eyes a little glassy. “make one more memory.” you nodded.that night, he helped you write a list on a sticky note with little stars and hearts. your handwriting and his, side by side.
– go to the park early
– buy matching hair clips from that stall you always pass
– make strawberry milk from scratch
– take polaroids in the photobooth again
– lay on the floor with the fairy lights on
– say everything you’ve been too scared to say
you both stared at the last one in silence.
then sunghoon added one more.
– look at each other like it’s the first time
you looked at him then, heart crumpling, and he smiled like it was okay.
the next day bloomed like a dream. the weather was good. the wind soft. the whole city smelled faintly of bread and clean air. he wore your brother’s hoodie again. you didn’t ask why.
he said your name like it was made of sunlight. you made strawberry milk with cut-up fruit and ice cubes shaped like tiny stars. he kissed your cheek when you weren’t looking.you sat side by side in the photobooth, and this time he leaned in and kissed your temple just before the shutter clicked.
you kept that one. put it in your journal. wrote the date in the corner like it meant everything. because it did. later that night, he lay on the floor beside you while your fairy lights blinked lazily from above. he was smiling at the ceiling. humming something under his breath.
“this is my favorite day,” he said. “me too.” “not because we did a lot,” he added, turning his head to face you. “but because we did it… like us.” you looked at him. “us?” he nodded. “whatever we are. whatever we’ve become. it feels real. even if it’s not supposed to be.”
you swallowed. he reached out, and you let him cradle your face. his thumb brushed your cheekbone, his breath soft when he leaned in. “i want you to remember this part,” he said quietly. “this version of me. not the broken pieces when it happens.”
you tried to blink the tears away, but he kissed them off your cheeks before they fell. “you’re not breaking,” you whispered. “you’re here.”but the silence afterward was heavy. like you both knew the glitch was waiting around the corner. still, you kissed him. because what else could you do? when he pulled back, he touched your forehead to his and whispered, “if this is the end, let it be beautiful.”
you didn’t say anything.
you just kissed him again.
he glitched the next morning. not a flicker. not a shimmer. it was worse. you were brushing your teeth when you heard the thud. ran into the kitchen with foam still in your mouth. sunghoon was on his knees, hand on the wall, the mug he’d dropped still spinning on the floor. “hoon?” you rushed to him. “what’s—are you okay?”
his skin was trembling. like static. like snow in an old tv screen. his voice cracked. “i saw… them.”you knelt beside him, grabbing his wrist. “what? saw who?” he blinked, dazed. “the panels. i saw them again.” your breath left your lungs. his eyes searched yours. “you knew. you know what’s happening.” you nodded. barely.
he reached for you. clung to you like a man drowning.“i don’t want to go.” you broke. you let yourself sob into his chest. let yourself say it, over and over: i don’t want you to go either. i don’t. i don’t. i don’t— his hands stayed firm on your back. but his outline shimmered again. longer this time. like something was unraveling.
you didn’t know how much longer you had.but you knew one thing.you would remember all of it.no matter what.
the final day arrived quietly.
no warning. no glitch. no crack of thunder.
just… peace. too much peace.
you woke up with your fingers curled into sunghoon’s shirt, your face tucked into the crook of his neck. his arms were already around you, as if he knew. as if he hadn’t slept at all.the sun had barely risen, casting golden shadows across the wooden floor. everything was still.
you tilted your head and looked up at him.
he was already looking at you. he smiled.
but it was different this time. softer. heavier.
“hey,” you whispered. “hey,” he said, just as gently. you reached up to touch his cheek, but before you could, he caught your hand and brought it to his lips. held it there. kissed the inside of your wrist like it was sacred.
you both lay there for a while, not saying anything. then he spoke. voice like a breeze.
“it’s today.” you closed your eyes. not because you didn’t believe him. but because your heart wasn’t ready to say it out loud. when you finally looked at him again, your throat was tight.
“how do you know?”he smiled again, brushing his knuckles across your cheek. “because the story’s been quiet all night. like it’s holding its breath.”
you tried to laugh. it came out broken. “what do we do?” you whispered. sunghoon’s eyes softened. “we live it.”
you made breakfast together. burned the toast again. laughed through tears.he said he didn’t care as long as he got to see you chew and complain like you always did.he brushed your hair behind your ear. you pressed your forehead to his. he kissed you like it was the first time all over again.
you went to your favorite bench at the edge of campus. the one by the mural he always liked.he traced his finger along the painted stars on the wall. “i always thought this one looked like you.”“how can a star look like me?” “bright. a little lonely. but always trying.” you laughed and tried not to fall apart again.
he took your hand, lacing his fingers with yours.
“if there’s something after this… another version of me, another version of you…” you looked at him. “i’ll find you,” he said. “i swear i will.”
you nodded, blinking back more tears. “and i’ll wait.”
“you don’t have to,” he said gently. “you can live. fall in love. laugh. eat burnt toast. have a messy, full life. just… remember me. even if it’s just in a quiet way.” you shook your head, trembling.
“i don’t want a world without you in it.” he smiled. his thumb brushed away the tear sliding down your cheek.
“then i’ll stay,” he whispered. “right here.”
he tapped your chest with his finger, right over your heart. “you kept me alive. you wrote the ending differently. even when you weren’t the author.” you leaned into him, sobbing softly.
he held you. held all the broken parts you didn’t know how to name. kissed the top of your head like he was memorizing it.
by the time the sun dipped below the horizon, your apartment was quiet again. you curled up on the bed together. no music. no fairy lights. no distractions. just your breathing. your hands. your silence. sunghoon turned to you, tears in his eyes.
“can i be selfish?” he whispered. you nodded. “
you always could.”
“can i kiss you until it hurts?”
“please.”
and so he did.
again and again and again—
kissing you like it would keep him here. like his lips could rewrite fate. your tears mixed with his.when he finally pulled back, your foreheads touching, you whispered the words you had kept buried for so long.
“i love you.”
sunghoon smiled, eyes glistening.
“i love you too.”
his body started to flicker.
this time, not a glitch.
a fade. gentle, soft—like dust caught in light.
he didn’t panic.
he just held your face, and said it again.
“i’ll find you.” and then—
he was gone.
not in a flash. not in shattering light.
just…
gone.
you sat there, knees to your chest, arms wrapped around the last warmth he left behind. and for the first time in a long time,
you cried.
not because you lost him.
but because you had him.
and he had you.
even if only for a chapter.
-
you didn’t move at first.
you just stayed on the bed, curled into yourself, arms still tingling from where he’d last touched you. your cheek was damp, your chest hollow, breath shaky like the silence was too loud now that it didn’t include him.
but eventually…
you looked up.
half-hoping, half-fearing—
maybe everything would vanish.
his hoodie on your desk chair.
the cup with his toothbrush beside yours.
the slippers by the door, a little too big for your feet.
the stack of polaroids on the corkboard.
but they were all still there. untouched.
as if the world hadn’t just ended inside you. you stood slowly, bare feet against the cold floor. each step felt heavier than the last, like your body already missed his gravity. like the room knew.
your eyes landed on the tiny desk in the corner, the one he always sat at when he waited for you to finish your readings. a notebook still sat there—your brother’s old one he had adopted—open to a page with a rough sketch of your back, drawn in pen. it wasn’t perfect, but the details were there.
the slope of your shoulders. the shape of your bun. your name written under it in messy handwriting with a heart at the end.
you choked back a sob and turned away. then you saw the polaroids. they were still pinned in that same uneven row along your bedroom wall. every moment you had tried to immortalize was still there. his laughter mid-bite. your blurry smile holding up burnt brownies. the one where he had kissed your cheek and you’d been caught mid-blush.
and the first photo strip —the photobooth tucked at the edge, forgotten by everyone but you and him. you walked over and carefully took it off the wall. your fingers trembled.
the four tiny squares were slightly worn, the corners curling just a bit from being touched too often.you remembered the way he laughed when it printed.
how he softly said, “i like that we can remember this,even if it’s just in four little pictures.”
you clutched the photo strip to your chest.
it was all still here.
his hoodie still smelled like him.
his favorite mug still had a lipstick stain from where he made you tea last night.
the books he picked out from your shelf were still in the same crooked order he left them.
nothing disappeared.
just him.
just him.
you sank to the floor, knees drawn to your chest, the photo strip shaking in your hands as the weight of it all pressed against your ribs.
he had been real.
he had been here.
not just in your heart, not just in a screen or a panel of a webtoon—but here, living, loving, laughing in the same space as you.
and now—he wasn’t.
but he didn’t take anything with him.
he left it all for you.
because he wanted you to remember.
because he believed you would keep going.
because he knew the love you shared was too strong to disappear just because he had.
and even through the ache—
that mattered.
that still mattered.
so you stayed there for a while, curled up in his hoodie, photo strip clutched to your chest.
and for the first time since he faded—
you whispered into the quiet room, through tears and cracked breath:
“i’ll find you too.”
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— 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨



everyone in sunghoon’s life knows that there’s one person he will never let go of. his girlfriend finds this out too late.
❥ PAIRING: park sunghoon x female reader
❥ GENRE: best friend au, smut
❥ WORD COUNT: 8k
❥ CW/TW: yandere themes, infidelity, sunghoon can lift reader, vomiting, drinking, jealousy, possessiveness, nipple play, fingering, pussy job(s), oral sex (f), unprotected sex, riding, squirting, creampies, having sex while another person is in the room
NOTE: don’t like, don’t read.

Everyone knows Sunghoon has someone he’s madly in love with. His acquaintances know that it’s an amazing girl who he’s known for most of his life. His friends know it’s the girl who’s all over his social media and usually by his side. His closest friends know that it’s not his girlfriend, Song Jihyun.
No one ever brings it up because it’s obvious that Jihyun (and every girl before her) is a placeholder until he gets what he really wants. It’s not right, but Sunghoon never feels guilty. He’s never hidden how important you are to him, and he never will.
That’s why he doesn’t care that his girlfriend is eagerly waiting for his call like she does every night. Instead of acting like a caring partner, he’s more interested in drinking with you after bar hopping all night. It’s not like he can be fully to blame for his disinterest in Jihyun. You are, without a doubt, the prettiest, most alluring girl Sunghoon has ever seen. He would do anything to spend more time with you even if it meant disregarding his girlfriend’s feelings.
Even just drinking and talking with you is more exciting than any time he spends with her. That’s why he always keeps a bottle of wine for when you come over. You two have gone through a full bottle, and Sunghoon hopes you’ll be too tired by the end of the night to go home.
“You know how pretty you are?” Sunghoon sighs dreamily as he watches you drink the remainder of his favorite wine.
Endearing laughter fills the room as you nod. There’s a mischievous gleam in your eyes when you look back at your friend. “Yeah. I see how you and your friends look at me.”
Sunghoon’s gaze is lidded. He loves how confident and secure you are—how you’re not afraid to show it. Everything about you is completely mesmerizing, and he can’t help but want to have you all completely to himself.
“Me?” He tries to act surprised as he tilts his head.
You nod and give him a grin that has his heart pounding in his chest. He knows you can have any guy you want, and that’s why he has to push your buttons so he can get you where he wants you.
“You couldn’t pull me.”
Sunghoon holds back a smirk when he sees that he’s successfully gotten under your skin. His cock starts to come alive when he sees you pause, eyes alight with a challenging look he recognizes all too well.
“Is that what you think?”
You don’t let him answer. “I could, and we both know that. That’s why your little girlfriend hates me so much.”
It’s true. Ever since Sunghoon introduced Jihyun to you, she all but asked him to find another best friend. He was quick to shut that ridiculous idea down. There was a lot he was willing to do so he could be a decent boyfriend, but cutting you off was where he drew the line. If Sunghoon had any say, you would never leave his side.
Jihyun caught onto this almost immediately after she met you. The way her boyfriend’s eyes light up any time you enter a room or whenever he gets a call from you. How attentive he always is to your needs and how he practically drops everything to run to you—even when he’s balls deep in her. Obviously, Sunghoon is obsessed with you. It killed her to realize it, but Jihyun still refuses to let Sunghoon go. After all, no matter how much he likes you, he’s still hers. She is the winner in this, not you.
“You think I’m that easy?” Sunghoon says with a faint blush.
You smirk at him, tongue swiping your bottom lip to capture the remnants of wine. His eyes are locked on your movements, and you have to hold back a laugh.
“So if I asked you to fuck me right now, you wouldn’t?”
Sunghoon smirks, and your fate is sealed.
Minutes later, you end up on your best friend’s bed in only your underwear. Sunghoon stares down at you like a hungry beast as his large hands smooth over the inside of your thighs. You can see the thick outline of his cock in his underwear, and you have to stop yourself from squirming in excitement.
“Fuck, you’re already so wet,” he groans when he sees that your panties are starting to stick to your cunt.
Sunghoon savors the sight. He feels something insatiable burning inside him as he pulls your panties to the side.
“Oh fuck me,” he whispers reverently. “You have the cutest pussy I’ve ever seen.”
His fingers delicately trace your slit before they circle your clit. Your best friend pulls away when you start to whine.
“So fucking pretty,” he moans before licking the juices from his fingers. “And you taste good. Fuck.”
Sunghoon’s pupils are blown wide when he finally pulls his heated gaze away from your pussy to meet your own half lidded gaze. “You’ll let me eat you out, right? Let me kiss and suck on this cute pussy until you cream on my face?”
“Fuck, Hoonie,” you whine, knowing you’ve gone too far, but feeling too good to stop. “What about Jihyun?”
Sunghoon’s fingers go back to toying with your wet cunt. You roll your hips up into the motion with a needy mewl. His brain hears you a second later, and he rolls his eyes. As always, you’re goading him into being honest for your own satisfaction.
“What about her? She never has to find out.”
You smile and bite your lip as he slowly circles your clit until you whimper again. A mean grin spreads on your face. “Filthy boy. She must not be enough for you.”
Sunghoon doesn’t feel any guilt because this is something he’s wanted for a long, long time. His girlfriend is nice and sweet, but the intimacy between them is boring and unexciting. He’s never even fucked her raw.
“I knew it,” you laugh gleefully as your best friend’s fingers trail down your slit to gather more juices. “Don’t worry, baby. This’ll be our dirty little secret.”
Honestly, Sunghoon can care less if Jihyun does end up finding out. All he can think about is your pretty pussy as he presses his slick coated fingers down on your throbbing clit. He grabs you and tugs you closer until you’re straddling his lap.
“Oh fuck,” you whimper, aroused by his display of strength.
Your best friend smirks as he goes to nip at your collarbone. “Our little secret? I like the sound of that.”
With that, he dips his middle and ring finger into your soft pussy. You moan and clench around his fingers, eagerly bouncing on his lap. His bulge presses against you and makes your mouth drop open with a sigh.
“Yeah?” You breathe out harshly. “You like that I’m gonna let you fuck my tight little pussy?
“That’s so—fuck. You’re so hot,” he scissors his fingers slowly in and out of your cunt. “I’m gonna treat this pussy so good, baby. Way better than I treat Jihyun’s.”
Your cunt clenches down on his fingers as you go to tangle your own in his hair. A loud whine escapes you as you ride his fingers, pussy wet and dripping all over his lap.
“God, Hoon,” you mewl as he grinds his long fingers across your g-spot. “Right there, fuck.”
Shuddering, your eyes roll back as his fingertips rub the spongy spot at the front of your cunt until your arousal gushes around the digits. Sunghoon licks a stripe up your neck, eager to have you fall apart for him.
“You don’t know how long I’ve wanted this, baby. Fuck. You always get me so hard every time I see you. Just want to shove my face between your thighs and eat you out until you’re crying.”
Your head is swimming as he tells you all his dirty desires. You’ve always known it, but hearing it out loud just makes it so much better.
“Hoon,” you sigh into his mouth when he goes to kiss you heatedly. “God, you’re so hot.”
“Fuck. I need to taste you before I fill you up,” he murmurs against your lips. “Need to kiss your sweet little cunt until you’re soaking my sheets.”
It shouldn’t sound this hot—him cheating on his girlfriend with absolutely no remorse—but you’re kissing him again as arousal pools in your abdomen. Sunghoon eases you off his lap before he spreads your legs and wedges himself between your thighs.
He slowly takes off your underwear, groaning loudly when he sees the clear strings of arousal connecting to your pretty lips and panties. His eyes are dark when you take off your bra and toss it somewhere in his room.
Sunghoon’s dark gaze drags up and down your body. It makes you clench and drip with more arousal. He drops to his elbows and pushes your thighs up to your stomach. He whispers another sweet praise before he licks a broad stripe up your slit with his tongue. You cry out loudly when the wet muscle circles your clit softly before pulling away.
“So wet,” Sunghoon moans, kissing your pussy lips sweetly. “Fuck. I can’t wait to get my cock in this pretty pussy.”
“Hoon,” you moan when he goes back down on you.
Lewd slurping noises mix in with your filthy moans as Sunghoon devours your pussy like he’s never tasted anything better in his entire life. His tongue spears you open before fluttering against your walls. He repeats the delicious motions until your toes curl and your eyes cross. Your best friend pulls away with a grunt, licking and sucking his way back up to your swollen bundle of nerves. Another loud moan tears from your throat as he starts to kiss and suck on your puffy bud.
One last swipe of Sunghoon’s skillful tongue has your thoughts slowly turning into mush. His tongue flattens and he laps at your cunt with broad stripes until your hips start to move to roll your pussy against his mouth.
With a devious laugh, Sunghoon pulls back and moves his hands to spread your cunt. His cock throbs as your pussy pulses and glistens with your juices and his saliva. He groans at the erotic sight.
“So fucking pretty,” your best friend murmurs before he gently kisses your clit.
You whine desperately. “Please, Hoonie. I’m so close.”
As always, he’s eager to give you what you want. Sunghoon fucks his tongue back into your pussy with a low groan that sends vibrations up your cunt. You mewl out his name as he buries his face into your pussy. His thumbs hold your pussy open, nose bumping and grinding against your clit with every toe-curling movement. Sunghoon fucks his tongue in and out of your clenching hole until you’re making a mess all over his sheets.
“Fuck! I’m gonna cum!” You moan as your hips roll into his face.
Licking back up your pussy, Sunghoon sucks your clit into his mouth and runs his tongue around the swollen bud until you’re writhing and yanking on his hair. You let out a loud cry as you toss your head back and soak Sunghoon’s face with your orgasm. Your best friend moans and drinks up all of the slick gushing from your pussy.
“That’s it, baby,” Sunghoon hums fondly. He kisses your messy pussy before straightening up. “You came so hard. Did it feel that good?”
You give him a fucked out grin before yanking him down to give him a sloppy kiss. Sunghoon swallows your moans as he gives you a taste of yourself. He grins before sucking your tongue into his mouth. Eventually, he pulls away and gives you the prettiest smile.
“My cock’s going to feel even better.”
That’s how you end up in his lap with your bare pussy grinding down on his clothed bulge. Your juices and his precum have soiled the fabric of his underwear, and you’re becoming more desperate with each grind. Sunghoon is patient enough to savor the moment as he watches you with hooded eyes.
“Wanna sit on my cock, pretty girl? Want me to stretch this cute little pussy out?” He coos as you continue to rub your needy cunt all over him.
“Yes,” you hiss when he moves his hips to meet your movements. “Let me sit on your big cock, Hoon.”
Sunghoon grins victoriously and lets you tug his underwear down to free his aching cock. He raises his hips to slip them off completely before settling you right back on his lap. You both moan in sync when his girthy cock presses against your dripping pussy.
“God, Y/N. You drive me crazy,” Sunghoon groans before he leans forward to take one of your stiff nipples into his mouth.
You whine when he sucks it into his hot mouth. “Fuck, Hoon.”
His dark eyes watch you as his tongue circles your nipple before he nips it with those pretty fangs of his. The sight has you dripping with more arousal as you slide your cunt up and down his throbbing dick. He switches to the other one, giving it the same treatment before he starts to leave gentle bites all over your pretty tits. The more he teases at your nipples, the more juices drip onto his dick. Sunghoon groans at the feeling of your pussy parting around his cock perfectly.
“You’re soaking my cock with that cute pussy,” Sunghoon whispers against your heated skin. “You love having my mouth on your tits, don’t you, baby?”
“Yeah,” you whine. “I fucking love it.”
Sunghoon grins when you press his face against your tits, forcing him to suck your nipple back into his mouth. Your best friend groans when as he runs his tongue over your stiff bud until you’re tugging on his hair.
“Fuck, Hoon. I want your cock,” you mewl desperately. “Need to feel you inside me.”
“Soon, baby,” Sunghoon grunts as he continues to lathe his tongue over your sensitive nipple. “Let me finish having my fun first.”
You moan again, pussy leaking even more juices. To have Sunghoon worshipping your tits makes you feel a pleasure you didn’t think was possible. You run your nails across his scalp and down his neck, watching with a satisfied grin as his eyes flutter from your touch. His eyes lock with yours, and they’re completely dark as his hand slides down your body to thumb your slippery bud.
“Whose pussy is this?” Sunghoon wonders as he pinches your clit to make you cry out. “It’s mine, isn’t it, pretty girl?”
You nod through a needy whine. The sharp smack to your clit that follows makes you moan his name. Sunghoon smirks deviously as he repeats his actions until your cunt soaks his palm.
“Of course it is.” Sunghoon laughs in delight.
Then, he drags the leaking head of his cock up your slit to smack against your puffy clit. Sunghoon groans when he notches the head of his dick against your hole. You moan quietly when he sinks the tip inside your cunt. Your best friend laughs and pulls out of you completely. His grin is devious as you whine in protest. Once again, his leaking cockhead teases your fluttering hole.
“So hot and tight,” Sunghoon’s dark eyes seem to be sparkling as he looks up at you. “So fucking pretty.”
With that, he sinks the fat head of his dick back inside your fluttering walls. Your eyes roll back with a loud moan as you slide down his cock. The stretch is delicious, and you’re eager to take him down to the hilt.
“Gonna fuck this cute pussy until my balls are empty. Keep you stuffed full and dripping with cum.”
“Fuck, yes,” you moan as you bounce down to try to get Sunghoon to bury his cock all the way inside your pussy. “Want your cum, Hoonie.”
His large hands squeeze your ass as you lean down to kiss him. Sunghoon readily welcomes the messy kiss as he sinks you down on his cock. A loud plop fills the room once you sit on it completely.
“Goddamn,” he groans. “You’re so fucking tight, baby. Feels like your little hole’s never had a cock in it.”
You whine at the praise, happy that your pussy is clamping down on the biggest cock it’s ever taken. “Never had a cock this big, Hoonie. I love it.”
“Yeah?” Sunghoon grunts as he rolls his hips up into you until his fat tip is hitting the deepest part inside you.
You miss the pleased grin on his face when you slump against him with a fucked out nod. Sunghoon takes the opportunity to ram his girthy cock into your hot little cunt. His hips pump into you in a punishing rhythm, loving how you’re clearly already addicted to his cock.
“Want me buried as deep as possible, pretty? Want me to rearrange your guts until you cum all over my cock?” Sunghoon hisses against your ear.
“Yes, yes! I want it so bad, Hoon!” You moan as you start to roll your hips and clamp down on his dick.
Sunghoon lifts you up, letting his cock slip out halfway before thrusting up at the same time he drops you back down on his cock, plunging so deep in your pussy that it makes you scream. He repeats the actions with the most attractive smirk on his face. Your eyes roll back in ecstasy as he keeps using you like a fucktoy.
“That’s it, baby. Fucking scream for me,” Sunghoon groans as your pussy paints his cock with your juices. “Let everyone know how much you love my cock.”
Your cries of pleasure fuel the insatiable beast inside Sunghoon. He wraps a strong arm around your waist and flips you on your back while keeping his throbbing cock inside you. The carnal look you give your best friend has him pressing your legs to your chest. Your mind is dizzy with white hot pleasure as Sunghoon starts to drill his cock into your g-spot.
Filthy moans fill the room along with the lewd squelching coming from your cunt. Sunghoon pumps his cock into your greedy pussy, loving how your tits bounce with every thrust. The sound of skin slapping together mix in perfectly with your pretty cries of pleasure as he fucks you stupid.
“You’re getting so tight around me, baby,” Sunghoon moans. His eyes are locked on where you’re connected, and just the filthy sight of being buried balls deep in your cunt pushes him closer to the edge. “Shit, Y/N. I’m gonna keep you on my cock until you’re cumming over and over again—fuck—gonna cream your little pussy until you’re full of me.”
Your eyes roll back at the promise, pussy clenching and dripping around his girthy cock. “Please, Hoonie. Fuck. Give it to me!”
Somehow, his thrusts get rougher. Loud cries spill from your pretty lips, and it makes Sunghoon drive his fat cockhead right into your g-spot.
“I’m close!” You mewl, completely lost in pleasure.
Sunghoon gives you a tantalizing grin before dragging his hand down your body to slap your clit. You writhe like you’ve been electrocuted, and Sunghoon laughs in delight as he goes to smack your clit again. He thumbs and presses into your clit as you grind into his movements.
“Cream on my cock, pretty girl. Do it for me so I can fill you up with my load,” Sunghoon groans as he swoops down to give you a sweet kiss.
“Fuck, Hoonie. Fill me up,” you moan as he continues to run rough circles on your puffy bud.
Sunghoon pounds his cock into your squelching pussy so hard that it makes his bed shake. “I will, baby. Just tell me who this pussy belongs to.”
Even fucked out, you give him a teasing grin that he loves so much. “Yours, baby. Just yours.”
“That’s right. All mine.” Sunghoon growls as he presses down on your clit until your toes curl.
You cry out his name as the tight band of arousal in your stomach snaps. Sunghoon’s fingers and hips don’t stop even as your orgasm bleeds into a second one.
“Just like that, baby. Squeeze my fucking cock.”
“Cum inside me, Hoon,” you say deliriously. “You promised.”
Sunghoon’s moan is loud as he buries himself balls deep in your cunt, cock kicking and throbbing as your pussy milks him for every drop of his cum. You feel the hot spurts of his thick spunk filling your hole until it slowly drips out around his cock. He grunts and rocks his hips a few times, pumping the last ropes of his seed deep into your pussy before slowly pulling out. His dark eyes watch your messy pussy drip with his load, wanting nothing more than to go again.
Instead, he lays next to you and pulls you into his chest.
“You drive me crazy,” Sunghoon hums into your hair.
You grin into his collarbone. “I know.”
“Can you please answer Sunghoon’s messages?” Jay groans as soon as you let him into your house.
“Bro has not stopped bitching in the group chat,” Jake adds as he comes in right after Jay.
You try not to smirk as you lead your friends into the kitchen. It’s not like you meant to ignore your best friend, but after you two fucked you got unexpectedly busy and didn’t have time to hang out. After a few days, you realized unintentionally ignoring him made him react in a way that gave you a sick amount of pleasure.
“I did answer,” you say as you get some water bottles for them. “Told him I’d see him at Jihyun’s party on Friday.”
Jay raises a doubtful eyebrow while Jake zeroes in on the massive bouquet on the kitchen table. The size and detailed arrangement of the pretty flowers make it obvious that it’s expensive.
“Who are these from?” Jake wonders when he doesn’t see a card.
Luckily, you put the card in your room. It’s not like they couldn’t guess the flowers are from Sunghoon, but that card would go into details that you’re not ready to get into with them. Not yet, anyway.
“Don’t know,” you say casually. “There was no card.”
“You should throw them out.” Jay says.
“Yeah. What if they’re from some creep?” Jake exclaims as he recoils from the bouquet like it bit him. “Plus Sunghoon will actually crash out if he finds out some guy sent you flowers.”
“You don’t know that they’re from some guy!” You exclaim to cover the laughter bubbling in your throat.
“Guy or girl, it doesn’t matter. Hoon will still go crazy if he finds out someone is sending you flowers with romantic intentions.”
“He has a girlfriend,” you remind Jay with a small smirk.
Your friends roll their eyes at the same time. Everyone knows Jihyun is his girlfriend in name only. She doesn’t compare to you when it comes to where you stand in Sunghoon’s heart.
“Sure,” Jake laughs. “Are you going to show us this dress or what?”
You squeal in excitement and lead them to your room.
The party is in full swing by the time you get there. You say hi to a few people before going to the kitchen to find Jake. As luck would have it, he’s in the middle of a conversation with Sunghoon. You try your hardest to keep the smirk off your face as you call their names.
You don’t miss the way your best friend’s eyes get dark once you reach them and give them friendly hugs. He doesn’t let you give him a side hug like you do to Jake. Sunghoon pulls you flush against his body and cages you against him.
“I missed you, baby,” he whispers in your ear. “You’ve been torturing me lately.”
You pull back just enough to look him in the face since he refuses to let you go. “I told you I was busy, Hoonie. Don’t be mad, okay?”
His arms tighten around your waist as he lightly sways you. The cute pout you’re giving him is irresistible, and he knows he won’t be able to pretend to be mad at you anymore.
“Park Sunghoon.”
Jihyun saying his full government name doesn’t make him let you go. Instead you two turn to her like she’s interrupting.
“Hey, Jihyun,” you say with a friendly smile.
Her glaring eyes flicker to you for a fraction of a second before they settle back on her boyfriend. “I need to talk to you. Alone.”
Sunghoon still doesn’t let you go, and you decide to have a little fun. “Go ahead, Hoon. I saw Hee earlier, and I want to go say hi.”
Sunghoon’s head snaps back to you, a dangerous anger already swimming in his pretty eyes. Lee Heeseung is a friend of Jay’s who you’ve hooked up with once before. The idiot thinks that he actually has a real shot with you. Everyone knows it, and Sunghoon thinks he’d rather break up with Jihyun right now than let you go anywhere near him.
“It’s okay,” you reassure him when you see that he still makes no move to let you go. “I’ll see you in a bit.”
Your words hold a promise and so does your gaze. It’s the only reason Sunghoon lets you go and wander off to find the boy with the stupidly pretty eyes. With a glare he turns back to Jihyun who’s red in the face and looks angrier than he’s ever seen her.
“What do you want?” Sunghoon asks, wanting to get her tantrum out of the way so he can go find you.
“I want my boyfriend to stop embarrassing me in front of all these people,” she hisses, close to tears.
Sunghoon rolls his eyes. He can’t believe he let you get away just for Jihyun to bring up some bullshit like this. “Here we go again. When are you going to stop being so fucking insecure?”
Jihyun sucks in a sharp breath like she’s been hit. Up until now, Sunghoon had never been mean or disrespectful even if he did things that bothered her.
“You looked like you would’ve literally kissed Y/N if I hadn’t walked in!” She exclaims hysterically.
Sunghoon rolls his eyes. “And what if I had? Don’t act like you don’t know how I feel about her—how I’ve always felt about her.”
Jihyun’s heart is pounding and her throat is tightening up. Yes, she’d known it, but she also thought he was starting to really like her.
“So that’s it then? I was just a placeholder?”
Sunghoon rolls his eyes. “Think what you want, Jihyun. If you have nothing else to say, I’m going to go find Y/N.”
Before he can leave the kitchen, she stops him with tearful words. “You’re still mine, Sunghoon. I’m still your girlfriend no matter how you feel about her.”
There’s a tense pause, and just as Sunghoon debates breaking up with her, she says something that makes the most insane part of him snap.
“Y/N doesn’t feel that way about you. That’s why she’s never picked you in all this time.”
Jihyun lets out a quiet sob when her boyfriend walks away from her instead of responding.
Several shots later, Jihyun stumbles into her balcony where you and Lee Heeseung are talking and laughing. She scowls, hating that the second most attractive guy she’s ever met is also very enamored with you.
“Y/N, where’s Sunghoon?” She slurs as she stumbles into you.
Your eyes widen as you catch her. You help her stand, nodding back to the living room where Sunghoon is watching with the most predatory stare you’ve ever seen on him. “Over there.”
Jihyun unseeingly glances his way before settling her angry gaze back on you. “Is he watching me or you?”
“No idea,” you say placatingly. “Probably you since you’re his girlfriend.”
Even on the verge of blacking out, Jihyun catches the way you say that to her mockingly. She frowns again, stumbling slightly as she looks back at a watching Sunghoon.
“Will you get her some water, Hee?” You ask sweetly. “I think she’s had a little too much to drink.”
The boy gives you a pretty smirk. “Sure. Be right back.”
“Are you gonna fuck him?” Jihyun slurs as you settle her into one of the chairs. “He’s hot.”
You laugh a little as you watch her slump into an awkward position. “He is, but I don’t feel like fucking him tonight.”
“Then are you gonna fuck my boyfriend?” Jihyun wonders through a hiccup. “I know you want to.”
“It’s the other way around,” you say with a mean smirk. “You’ve always known that it’s the other way around.”
Jihyun scoffs, getting angry all over again. “You two really are best friends.”
It’s silent for a while until she looks at you with a determined glare.
“Why can’t you just leave us alone? Why can’t you go fuck Heeseung or Jake or–or anyone else that’s not my boyfriend?”
Jihyun sounds hysterical at this point, but you remain unfazed. After all, you’re not the third wheel here.
“Sunghoon is the one who can’t leave me alone. Why do you think he chose the same university as me? He’s the one who moved to the same city as me and always assimilates himself into my friend groups. You think he did all that just because he’s my best friend?” You laugh.
Only you know about his stalker tendencies, but you doubt Jihyun will remember any of this. Even if she does, you don’t care. You’re sick of her and her willful blindness.
“H-He did all that?” Jihyun feels like throwing up, and it’s not because of the alcohol.
You laugh again. “I think you’re mistaken about something, Jihyun. I’m not coming between you and your boyfriend. You’re the one who’s coming between Sunghoon and I.”
Jihyun’s head is spinning, and the last coherent thought she has gets in oblivion as darkness takes over her consciousness. You laugh again and go to help her up. Even though you don’t feel bad, you’re not mean enough to leave her passed out on her balcony.
“Let me help, baby.”
You let Sunghoon pick her up. He looks at you, waiting for his next orders. You smile and tell him to lead the way to her room. Sunghoon dumps Jihyun onto her bed, not caring to be gentle. You laugh and turn her on her side so she doesn’t choke on her vomit if she gets sick later.
Sunghoon stands behind you and settles his hands on your hips. “You look so good, pretty girl. I didn’t get to tell you earlier.”
“Did you break up with her?” You wonder through a grin.
“Not yet. Not until you tell me to.”
“You can do what you want, Hoon,” you say as he presses himself closer to you.
“What I want is to fuck you right here, right now.”
His nasty words send a thrill straight to your cunt. “Filthy boy. You want to fuck me on your girlfriend’s bed while she’s passed out?”
“She won’t know,” he says as he rolls his bulge into your ass. “And I’ve been wanting to break this bed in.”
You laugh in disbelief. Of course he wouldn’t have fucked Jihyun in her own bed. Instead he’s giving you that pleasure, and you can’t say it doesn’t please you. Arousal starts to make the fabric of your panties stick to your cunt. You bite your lip and let Sunghoon carry and set you down on the other side of the bed. He follows in suit and gives you a messy kiss. You moan into his mouth as he slips a hand under your dress to brush across your soaked slit.
“Fuck, baby. You’re already so wet. You want my cock that bad?”
“Yes,” you whine. “Probably as bad as you want this pussy.”
Sunghoon groans as he pushes your panties to the side. He uses his middle and ring finger to part your slick folds. You whine softly and roll your hips into his hand.
“Gotta prep this tight little hole or I’m not gonna fit,” Sunghoon grunts. “Cute little pussy hasn’t had a cock this big in a while.”
He knows because he’s been watching to make sure it hasn’t. Arousal burns hot inside you as he fucks his fingers into your fluttering hole.
“Seems like you haven’t had some good pussy in a while,” you counter through a moan. “That loser doesn’t fuck you like you need, huh?”
Sunghoon groans when he finds the spot inside you that has your pussy squeezing down on his fingers. “No one compares to you, baby. Just look at this pretty pussy. It’s the best I’ve ever had.”
Your cunt clamps down on his digits again. A fleeting glance to the side confirms that Jihyun is still very much passed out. You grin and give him the look that drives him crazy.
Sunghoon slips his fingers out of you with a wet squelch and pops them into his mouth with a loud groan. “So fucking good.”
You watch with hungry eyes as he gets up and takes his clothes off. The tip of his fat cock drips precum down the length of it, making your mouth water for a taste. He grips the base and shakes his dick at you. Your clit throbs and your pussy drips with more arousal. He’s so big and thick. Just knowing he’s about to fill you up and stretch you out on his cock makes your pussy clench in eagerness.
You get up and push Sunghoon down on the bed. You slip your dress off, only leaving your panties on. He settles against the headboard as you straddle his lap, you trap his cock inside your panties, grinning as your dripping pussy rubs along his throbbing cock
“Fuck,” you whine as you grind slowly against Sunghoon.
“God, baby,” Sunghoon groans as he watches your pretty tits bounce. “You know how to drive me crazy.”
“Yeah? You like feeling my pussy rub all over your fat cock?” You goad as you rock against him harder.
“You know I do,” Sunghoon groans as he tosses his head back when your clit catches in the tip of his cock. “Let me suck on your pretty tits, baby. I know you like when I do.”
Licking your lips, you lean forward and shove your tits in his face. Sunghoon captures one of your hard nipples in his mouth, sucking and licking like he can’t get enough. He groans deeply as his lips and tongue work one hard bud while his fingers tweak and pinch the other. Your hips keep grinding into him as arousal pulses in your clit. Sloppy sounds of sucking fill the room along with your moans and whines as Sunghoon lathes your tits with his hot tongue.
“Fuck, Hoon. You’re so hot. Need your cock inside me,” you gasp as he bites your nipple and runs his tongue across it over and over until you’re squirming against him.
“Think you deserve it?” Sunghoon wonders as kisses across your breasts, teeth nipping at the skin as he swaps to the other nipple.
“Don’t I?” You wonder through a moan.
“I don’t know. You’ve been ignoring me, pretty girl,” Sunghoon says as he pouts up at you. “You know I hate that.”
“I’ve been busy, baby. Plus, you had your hands full with your little girlfriend.”
Sunghoon pinches your nipples hard until you’re grinding against him. “You know that loser means nothing to me.”
With that, he slides his girthy cock into your pussy. He’s so much bigger than you remember. The painful stretch has you arching your back in pleasure. You toss your head back with a loud moan as Sunghoon bullies his cock deeper into your pussy until he’s bottoming out. He kisses you sweetly as you sink down on his dick with a lovely moan.
“That’s it, pretty girl. Fuck. I missed this tight little pussy.”
You shove your tits into his face when his hands tighten on your hips. Sunghoon kisses across your tits, sucking bruises into the sensitive skin. With a deep groan, he suckles on one of your nipples eagerly until you’re bouncing on his dick. You let your hands hold onto his soft hair as you rock your hips down on his throbbing cock. Mewling, you tug on the silky strands as Sunghoon’s tongue laps across your swollen nipples. His hands move up to your waist as he fucks your hot pussy.
Your eyes cross as he pounds your fluttering hole. Neither of you care to be quiet even though Jihyun is lying next to you. That’s the last thing on either of your minds as Sunghoon buries his cock deep in your throbbing cunt. Sunghoon groans, suckling your hard bud deeper into his mouth. His cock kicks and throbs as you slump forward, messily smashing your tits into his face.
“You’re gonna leave marks, Hoonie,” you whine as he nips at the swell of your breasts before pulling away.
“But you like it, pretty. I can feel you squeezing down on my cock,” he grins, shaking the hair from his face as he tilts his head up. “Now give me a kiss.”
You whine in the back of your throat and drop your mouth down on his. Unlike most people believe, you’re just as weak to Sunghoon as he is to you. You’re just a little better at controlling it.
Sunghoon moans in pleasure, licking into your mouth to run his tongue against yours teasingly. He tugs you closer, and the kisses become more sloppy. He laughs softly when your fingers drop from his hair to cup the back of his head, pulling him forward until there’s no space between you.
Even after you pull away for a short breath, Sunghoon just tugs you back in for another messy kiss, his hot tongue licking into you once again.
“You have no idea how bad I missed you, baby,” Sunghoon whines as you keep rolling your hips into him. “You gave me the best sex of my life and then pretended like I didn’t exist after it.”
“I’m sorry, baby,” you say, pussy fluttering when his cock grinds against the spongy spot inside you. “I didn’t do it on purpose. You’ll forgive me, right?”
“You know I will,” Sunghoon coos up at you, letting one of his hands drop down to tease your swollen clit. “But to make it up to me, you’re gonna let this sweet pussy milk a nice thick load outta me, right?”
“Fuck yeah. I’m gonna milk your cock so good, baby,” you slur, arching your back so your tits brush against his mouth.
He grunts and bites at your soft tits. “That’s it, squeeze my cock.”
You whine, body jerking as he pinches and rubs your pudgy clit. Sunghoon sucks each of your nipples between his teeth before running his tongue across them. The coil in your stomach is winding tighter and tighter as Sunghoon teases your nipples and clit at the same time.
“Oh!” You gasp. “I’m gonna cum, Hoonie—!”
A loud cry spills from your mouth as you clamp down on Sunghoon’s dick, pussy walls fluttering and milking his throbbing cock as he fucks you through your orgasm.
“So fucking hot,” Sunghoon groans as he fucks his cock up into your squelching pussy. “Fuck. Gonna make me cum, baby. Ready to get your cute little pussy creamed?”
“Yes, yes, please,” you moan, digging your nails into his shoulders, making him curse under his breath and bury his cock deep into your sopping wet hole.
You feel rope after rope of hot, sticky cum spurt inside your cunt. It doesn’t stop. You’re stuffed so full that it leaks out around his throbbing cock.
“So pretty,” he places open mouthed kisses across your clavicle up to your neck, letting his tongue tease across your skin. “My pretty girl.”
You sigh, feeling blissful and completely satisfied. He tugs your head down to kiss you softly at the corner of your mouth. You two kiss for a while until you have another urge.
“I want more.”
Sunghoon gives you a filthy grin and slips out of you to lay you on your back. He kneels in front of you and rips off your panties in one fluid movement. You mewl when he slides his aching cock between your messy pussy lips. His cock rubs against your slick folds and across your clit deliciously. With a whimper, you spread your legs to entice him.
“Please, Hoonie.”
His leaking cockhead presses against your hole but doesn’t sink in any further. He grips his cock and rocks the tip in and out of your cunt. Sunghoon slaps the fat head of his dick down onto your wet pussy. “I’m gonna stretch this little pussy out until you’re shaped like my cock.”
With a filthy moan, your eyes flicker over to Jihyun. She’s still passed out, completely oblivious to all the filthy things her boyfriend is doing to you on her bed.
Sunghoon clicks his tongue. “This pretty pussy wants my cock, huh? Look at how wet it is.”
“Just fuck me, Hoon,” you whine. “Please.”
Your eyes roll to the back of your head when Sunghoon finally sinks his thick cock into your hot cunt inch by inch. He buries himself to the hilt with a deep grunt.
Your pussy flutters and pulses around his cock as your juices coat his length. “Fuck, it’s so big.”
“Yeah, it is,” he laughs before kissing your temple. “And your cute pussy is a perfect fit. So tight and wet.”
You scream in pleasure when Sunghoon starts to fuck you with hard, deep strokes. Eyes rolling back in your head and toes curling in pleasure, you rock your hips against his thrusts. His pelvis grinds against your clit every time he bottoms out in your cunt, making your pussy grip his cock like a vice.
Just knowing his girlfriend right next to you as Sunghoon pounds into your needy pussy makes everything feel so much better.
Sunghoon drops all his weight on you, pinning your body to the bed and grinding the fat tip of his cock into your cervix. Tongue feeling heavy and useless, you babble out his name. That’s his cue to pump his cock in and out of your greedy pussy so fast that it sounds obscene. Loud, wet squelches and the slap of skin are barely heard over your own cries and screams as Sunghoon fucks you stupid.
“I’m gonna cum inside you,” he whispers with a grin. “Gonna fill up this slutty pussy.”
“Yes!” You cry out. “Do it, baby. Cream this tight little pussy!”
Sunghoon swivels his hips, the fat tip of his cock rubbing against your g-spot hard enough to make you squeal. “Just look at you. Fucking gagging to have me stuff you full. Fuck. You love my cock rawing this sweet little pussy.”
You tangle your hands in his hair and bring him closer for a dirty, tongue-filled kiss. Your pussy grips his dick tightly as you whine impatiently. “Want you to cum in me.”
“Fuck, baby. What if Jihyun wakes up and hears you?” Sunghoon laughs in your ear, dick harshly rutting in and out of your squelching cunt. “This cute pussy’s so loud. You’re gonna get us caught.”
“Don’t care,” you whine, nails digging into his bare shoulders. He hisses in pleasure, thrusting harder into your clenching heat. “She knows you belong to me.”
Sunghoon’s cock throbs in delight. “That’s right. And you belong to me. That’s why this tight pussy can’t stop creaming my cock,” He coos in your ear.
Eyes fluttering closed, you moan loudly, legs wrapping around his waist to lock behind his back. Sunghoon groans as his hips roll against yours, cock plunging deeper into your dripping hole. “Gonna blow my load in your greedy cunt until you can’t handle it.”
Pulling out suddenly, he grips your hips to manhandle you over onto your front. He yanks your ass back, pressing his palm on your shoulders to push your head onto the pillow. His cock bullies back into your sopping wet pussy. Filthy plap plap plap sounds fill the bedroom along with your cries of pleasure.
You moan into the pillow, drool soaking the material as Sunghoon rails you into the bed his girlfriend sleeps on every night. Eventually he slows his pace, dragging his dick halfway out before sinking back in. “Whose cock is better, mine or Heeseung’s?”
“Huh?” Your brain is mush at this point, your thoughts concentrating on cumming all over his cock while he creampies you.
“I said, ‘Which cock is better?’” Sunghoon punctuates his question with thrusts deep enough that his tip bumps your cervix, making you moan weakly. “‘Mine or Heeseung’s?’”
You stumble over your words, not able to think until he reaches under your body to play with your clit.
“Better question,” he purrs into your ear. “Which cock do you love more?”
“Yours, Hoonie,” you cry out when he fucks his cock deeper into your cunt. “Love your cock. It’s the only one that makes me cum.”
Sunghion smirks as he pounds his cock into your drippy hole. “And? What else?”
“A-and it’s the only cock I want to creampie my pussy,” you mewl, thrusting back against him. “Please, Hoon. I want you to cum in me. Cum in my little pussy.”
“Goddamn,” he groans, fucking you so hard and fast the bed shakes. He slips his hand around your hip and begins rubbing your slippery clit in quick circles. “Good fucking girl. So fucking good—fuck! Cum for me. Need to feel this slutty pussy creaming my cock so I can fill you up. Cum for me, so I can give you what you want.”
He slaps your clit with the flat of his fingers, and it pushes you over the edge, climax overtaking your body. You squirt with a loud cry of his name. Slick gushes from your hole and completely coats his pelvis until it’s running down your thighs and ruining Jihyun’s sheets
“Fucking shit. That’s it, baby. Show me how much this pussy likes my cock,” Sunghoon moans.
You tremble and cry out, burying your face in the pillow to muffle the noise. Fireworks explode behind your eyes while your pussy milks his cock over and over, dripping slick all over the two of you.
“That’s it, fuck, gonna cum inside you nice and deep like I promised,” Sunghoon curses under his breath and thrusts against you a few more times before sinking his cock inside you to the hilt.
Hot, thick spurts of cum fill your fluttering walls until it spills out around his cock. Rutting against your ass, he grinds his cock in your pulsing cunt. After a few minutes, he takes in a deep breath and pulls out with a low groan. You lay there, panting heavily into the pillow, body completely spent.
He smacks the head of his cock against your sensitive and puffy cunt, “Since this naughty little pussy is just pushing out all my cum, guess I’ll have to stuff it again.”
You wiggle your ass in agreement.
Jihyun wakes up with a terrible headache. She recognizes her room, and she has faint memories of a conversation with you before it all goes black. When she slowly sits up, a nasty, familiar scent hits her. She looks around, eyes zeroing in on the filth left on the opposite side of her bed. She feels sick, and before she can process anything, her phone buzzes.
Several messages are waiting for her, but the one that sticks out is the one of a video her friend sent to her. It’s a short, five second clip of Sunghoon carrying her into her room with you following behind.
It doesn’t take long for Jihyun to put two and two together. She leans over and retches, emptying the contents of her stomach on the floor beside her bed. Tears and pathetic sobs follow, and she can’t help but think that she should’ve believed Sunghoon when he said he was never going to let you go.
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and if i tell you this is only a snippet 👀👀 aaaa ilysm
It’s Called a Hustle, Sweetheart.
Hacker!Sunghoon x Journalist!Reader
“You tracked me down just to lecture me?”
His voice was smooth, amused, laced with a smug sort of pride as he leaned back in his chair — feet kicked up on the desk like he wasn’t currently on the run from half the city’s cybersecurity division.
“I tracked you down,” you snapped, jabbing a finger into his chest, “because your little stunt last week crashed half the city’s power grid.”
He raised a brow, grin spreading slowly. “Technically, that wasn’t me. That was my code. Very different.”
You exhaled sharply through your nose. “You’re unbelievable.”
He smirked. “It’s called a hustle, sweetheart.”
You stared him down, jaw tight, ignoring the heat crawling up your neck.
He tilted his head, amusement flickering in his eyes. “Careful. If you glare at me like that again, I might think you actually like me.”
You huffed. “In your dreams,Sunghoon.”
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It’s Called a Hustle, Sweetheart.
Hacker!Sunghoon x Journalist!Reader
“You tracked me down just to lecture me?”
His voice was smooth, amused, laced with a smug sort of pride as he leaned back in his chair — feet kicked up on the desk like he wasn’t currently on the run from half the city’s cybersecurity division.
“I tracked you down,” you snapped, jabbing a finger into his chest, “because your little stunt last week crashed half the city’s power grid.”
He raised a brow, grin spreading slowly. “Technically, that wasn’t me. That was my code. Very different.”
You exhaled sharply through your nose. “You’re unbelievable.”
He smirked. “It’s called a hustle, sweetheart.”
You stared him down, jaw tight, ignoring the heat crawling up your neck.
He tilted his head, amusement flickering in his eyes. “Careful. If you glare at me like that again, I might think you actually like me.”
You huffed. “In your dreams,Sunghoon.”
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i just need to say this but they way nick from zootopia looks at judy with the lazy gaze IS GIVING THE SAME GAZE SUNGHOON DO😭😭

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hello new mootie ! i saw you followed me yesterday and i followed you tooo but i was at the beach so i didn’t get to say a proper hello ! SO HAI what’s ur name
why is this sweet achkk!! I go by Rie!!🫶🏻🫶🏻 HEWOOOOOOOO YOUR LAYOUT IS SOOO PRETTYYYYY🥹🫶🏻💗
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TO MY FIRST 𓆝 ⋆。𖦹°‧



⭑.ᐟ A rainy Highschool reunion trip with Exes Med Student!Y/N and Lawyer!Sunghoon You knew Sunghoon would be there. Of course he would be. You had made your peace with it. You’re friends now, kind of. It’s fine. Really. Seeing him at your Highschool reunion was kind of a given. That you agreeded going onto a trip with your friends, including him, later that year, however surprised yourself. Sunghoon can somehow still read you like an open book. Of course he could. He was the person you once planned to marry...until life got in the way. You buried yourself in work, in reaching your goals. Between helping out with Jay's toddler, pretending you're not running on empty, and trying to avoid old feelings during the trip , you start to realize something: Somewhere along the way, you stopped living the life you actually wanted. And maybe, just maybe, there’s still time to fix it.
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ᝰ genre. exes to lovers, fluff, angst (just a tiny bit tho) and loads of yearning, heavily inspired by the kdrama 'Love Next Door' ᐟ₊ ⊹ ᝰ warning. stress at work and uni , mention of burnout, insomnia, mentions of death, Y/N is lowkey unhappy with some life choices she made .ᐟ₊ ⊹ ᝰ word count. 31.5 k .ᐟ₊ ⊹

“Y/N. You have to come”, Yunjin whined into the phone loud enough for you to lower the volume of your phone with your free hand.
“I don’t know Yu”, the emart you were in was fuller than you expected it to be on a Thursday morning at 9 am. “I really don’t see the point in going. We are still in contact, aren’t we? All the people that I want to see, I do, and there are way too many I am glad to not see ever again.”
“Y/N that's the whole point! What about Chaehyun? Or Jake and Jay? Or, oh I don't know, Gaeul? You haven’t met up with her in months?” You signed and walked towards the frozen section in the supermarket. Lately you didn’t really feel like cooking nor had the time to do so. Jaemin did cook sometimes but most of the time the two of you just got takeout or cooked ready to eat meals. Ramen was your top contender. You’ve tried probably every flavour on the market. “I called her pretty recently? And I know I haven’t really caught up with the boys. Don’t you think it would be weird to be close to my exes best friends?” “First of all you called Gaeul like two months ago, that's not recent,” Yujin huffed. “And I don't think it would be weird? We were all friends, even after the two of you broke up, remember?” “I know. I just…”, you really didn’t know why the thought of meeting everyone made you feel so queasy, Yunjin was right, they were your friends, or at least close acquaintances. “I don’t know Yu, I feel like it would be weird. I mean I am really a shit friend. I don’t keep up with everyone's life and I never have much to talk about except work or uni right now. That's all my life is.” “Oh, I know. I’ve never seen a worse texter than you, Y/N. But I don’t think the others would mind, they would probably all be excited to see you. It’s been a while and you really deserve a break Y/N. Even if it’s just one evening. Working yourself to the ground only to get your licence won’t make you graduate faster or a better doctor. I am worried you’re working yourself into a burnout”, she said softly.
You swallowed and stopped in front of the big freezers, looking at the rows after rows of frozen products. She was right. In the last few years your focus has fully been on your studies, your residency or your Board Certification Exam and you didn’t have much time or mental space for other things. Right now work took up most of your awake hours, but somehow it was really fulfilling. Most of the time at least. You loved being a doctor, a gynecologist to be exact. You loved your job, helping people, healing people, bringing new life to the world. Of course there were the shadow sides like the almost 100 hour work week or the days you lose patients. Losing a life is never easy, and would never get easier. You hated shifts in the NICU. “I know. I know.”, you sighed again. “Look Yu, I’ll see what I can do. Maybe someone can switch shift with me, don’t get your hopes too high tho.” “Yes! I knew I could convince you! You absolutely will be there!”, Yunjin cheered loudly again. “I just said don’t get your hopes up?”, you shook your head and threw three packets of frozen vegetable mixes into your basket. “Nah uh! You’ll come. I’ll personally call the hospital to ask them to give you that day off, I swear.” You chuckled, “Please do. I would love to see that happen.”
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You stood in your old room at your parents house, looking at yourself in the mirror. You looked so different to the girl you were 10 years ago when you graduated high school. Your face looked pale in the reflection and your eyes lost the spark they once had. In the pictures glued to your mirror they were so full of life, of ambition. You were so excited for the future that was to come, not fully realizing that the path you choose to take will be harder than you and anyone else back then could have imagined. Nonetheless, you were proud of yourself and still excited to do what you do. You just wanted to finally be done studying, work in an office outside the hospital until you had enough to open your own, give care to mothers and young girls and whoever else has to go to a Gyno. The way to get there would be hard but so worth it. It was your dream after all. You opened your bag and fished for your makeup pouch, applying generous amounts all over your face. The blush you stole from your mother gave you a bit of color back. You were staying at your parents house, since it was a lot closer to the event location where the 10 year reunion was taking place. It was weird to sleep in your childhood bedroom. Not much has changed in the last 10 years here. Your parents had enough rooms in the house to not really have a purpose for your room anymore. So they just left it be. All your pictures and trinkets in the places you left them. It was like walking into a different world.
The picture of Sunghoon and you at your high school graduation that was glued to your mirror was fading in the sunlight, the colors slowly losing their vibrance. You reached up and straightened the corners, where the paper lifted from the tape and smiled. Sunghoon was really handsome back then. The way he looked at you instead of the camera made you feel so bittersweet. You always thought he would be the one you would marry, that you would have your first and only love for ever. But life was weird sometimes and it didn’t work out. With the breakup and your life at uni getting more stressful you never really had much time for anyone but yourself and your friends maybe. Dating wasn’t really on your mind for a long time after you’ve overcome the heartbreak. You hoped he did. That today he would come to the reunion telling you about his wife, his kids, how great his life was. He deserved nothing more.
You sighed when the paper curled into itself again and turned around to get dressed. You and Jaemin, and Jeno, who had no choice, spent almost an hour trying to figure out what you should wear and the final verdict was a black pair of dress pants, the only pair of heels you owned for occasions like this, and a red wrap around top with rather delicate silver jewelry. You loved living with Jaemin, it was a lot of fun. The two of you met on your first day of uni and have been inseparable since then. When you and Sunghoon decided to end your relationship he immediately suggested moving together. He was living in the student dorm and was sick of it.
So for the last almost 3 years now, you and Jaemin have been living in a rather beautiful apartment near the Seoul National Hospital. Last year he decided to adopt 3 cats, so now there was almost always a bit of chaos in your home. He got together with Jeno, a student, well back then a student a semester higher than the two of you almost 3 years ago now. They were super cute together, but Jeno decided to do his residency in Gangwon hospital, which meant the two of them didn’t really get to move together until Jeno is done and hopefully gets a job in Seoul.
“Y/N?”, your mother startled you out of your thoughts, “Are you ready yet darling? If you want to be on time we have to go now.” “Oh”, you turned around and looked at your mother, who was standing in the doorway to your room. She herself was attending a dinner with her colleague and an important client from overseas and offered to take you with her. She was styled impeccable, her gray hair in a strict bun and she was wearing a stunning one piece. You could gladly say you inherited her beauty and grace and annoyingly her work ethic. „I‘m done, mom.“, you nodded and grabbed your purse. „Oh look how pretty you look!“, your mom rubbed her hands up and down your arms when you passed her in the doorway. „My beautiful beautiful daughter. Let’s hurry! I don’t want you to be late!“ She ushered you towards the entryway, where both of you changed from slippers into your heels.
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The restaurant that was picked out for the reunion was an expensive looking one. The tables were all covered in thick white cloth, decked with wine glasses and multiple plates. Classical music was gently playing in the background when you made your way inside. The place was already buzzing with laughter coming from various groups at the entrance to the main room, enjoying champagne and the small appetizers displayed on various high tables. You spotted Yunjin pretty quickly. She was talking to Heeseung and Jay, laughing at something she said. You didn’t really keep in touch with either of them after you and Sunghoon broke up three years ago. You all did grow up together but you didn’t want to make it awkward for them by still meeting up with them. And you honestly just didn’t want to know how Sunghoon was doing and you know you would have asked. Which wouldn’t have helped you getting over him. Heeseung spotted you first, waving at you and smiling in your direction. You gave him a small wave back and continued your way through the crowd. “Y/N!” Chaehyun, who was standing a few feet next to them, lit up the moment she saw you, standing to hug you tight. “You look so good! You cut your hair!” “Oh. Yeah. A few months ago,” you mumbled, glancing at your hair.
“It looks fantastic, right? Do you know how long I had to endure her going back and forth about cutting it? Horrible!”, Yunjin whined and wrapped her arms around yours. “I wanted to cut enough to donate it, but it wasn’t long enough, but I also desperately wanted to get rid of the hair”, you grumbled and shoved her away gently. “Did you have enough to donate in the end?”, Chaehyun asked and passed you a flute of champagne from the table you were standing around. “Yeah. I cut around 25 cm off.” “Oh shit thats a lot”, Jake whistled and threw his arm around your shoulder, “Hi Y/N.” “Hi Jake”, you laughed and boxed him into his side to get off you. You and Jake were going back to kindergarten days. Together with Sunghoon you attended kindergarten and elementary school until Jake went to Australia for a few years. The three of you were inseparable up until you and Sunghoon ended things. “My mom told me you're almost done with your residency, will we be calling you Dr. Y/L/N soon?”, he asked and stole the flute out of your hand. You took a deep breath in, “I already am Dr. Y/L/N if I might correct you. I’m done with my residency in a few months and then I have to study for the board certification exam. So some time next year I’ll be done with everything, yeah.”
Just the thought of having to study for that exam made you want to curl into a corner and cry. The amount of stress that came with that exam and working at the same time was nothing anyone looked forward to. “It’s so crazy you are pulling this through. You’ve got my deepest respect for that, Y/N.”, Jake tutted and shook his head. “I’ve always wanted to be a doctor”, you shrugged and smiled at him. “Everyone!”, Daewhi, your former class president, was standing on a stage further into the event location, “It’s lovely to see you all. Please take a seat, as we would like to start with ordering food. You’ll have enough time to mingle later on.” “Let’s go,” Jake pulled you with him toward one of the tables in the middle of the room, where your friends were already walking towards. You settled down next to Jake and smiled at Ningning, who was seated opposite of you. “I can’t believe it’s been ten years since we graduated,” Yujin said, glancing around. “When was the last time we were all together?” Jay answered without looking up. “The funeral.”
Ah. Right. You averted your gaze to look at your hands. “Yeah,” she murmured. “That wasn’t exactly the best time to catch up.” A suspicious looking ring on Ningning's ring finger caught your attention. But before saying anything you let your gaze wander towards Heeseung's hand. He was also wearing a suspicious looking ring. You weren't sure if you just missed it, or if they just didn’t tell you they got engaged, but your heart dropped a bit. “Hey Jake,” you lowered your voice, to not raise suspicion if you just simply haven’t been told, “did Hee and Ningning get engaged?” His head snapped into your direction and then towards the couple, “What?”
“Look at the rings,” you said, having trouble suppressing your smile. Apparently they didn’t tell anyone. “Heeseung what the fuck? You got engaged?”, Jake said excitedly. Heeseung looked up mid-sip of water, blinking like a deer caught in headlights. “Huh?”. “You are wearing a ring!” Yujin leaned in from the other side, eyes wide. “Wait, are you serious?!” Heeseung scratched the back of his neck, the tips of his ears turning red. “Well... yeah. We wanted to tell you all tonight.” “You got engaged and didn’t tell me?” Jay looked personally offended. “We wanted to tell everyone at the same time,” Ningning said quickly. “We only told our parents. It’s been, like, three days.” The table erupted in noise, demanding details. You couldn’t help the small laugh that bubbled up. You felt pure relief, knowing that you weren’t the only one who didn’t know. You were never really close with Heeseung and Ningning joined your friendgroup a year after you graduated Highschool, when she and Heeseung got together, so you weren’t as offended as the rest. “Okay, but where did he propose?” Yujin was practically bouncing in her seat. “Yeah, Hee, if it wasn’t romantic I’m gonna be mad,” Jake added with mock severity. Heeseung shot Ningning a sheepish smile before answering. “Her apartment. I brought flowers, cooked dinner, and then... just kind of asked.” Jay snorted. “Classic. That’s the most Heeseung thing I’ve ever heard.” “It was perfect,” Ningning said softly, and the way she looked at him made your chest ache just a little. You smiled again, this time more to yourself, and leaned back in your chair. The second you glanced away from your friends you noticed a very familiar figure making its way towards your table.
Sunghoon looked immaculate. He was wearing a navy suit, with his hair styled neatly and a bag slung over his shoulder. Your eyes met for a second and he gave you a small smile. You returned it almost automatically and then looked back at Ningning who was talking about her parents' reactions, but you weren’t really listening. He made his way over, greeting Jake with a handshake and Yunjin with a hug, then slid into the empty seat next to you without hesitation. “Sorry I’m late,” he said lightly, reaching for a glass of water. “Client wouldn’t stop talking.” “Do they ever?” Heeseung offered. Sunghoon laughed, low and tired. “I don’t mind as long as they keep on paying.” He was immediately informed about the engagement and his eyes lit up excited as he started asking the same questions the couple already answered. You had to almost physically fight the urge to stare at Sunghoon. The last time you saw him was at Jay’s girlfriend's funeral a few months after your break up. A few minutes of excited chatting later, the waiter brought the menus. The whole table quieted down for a few minutes while everyone was deciding on what to eat.
You were flipping back and forth not sure what you wanted to eat when Sunghoon leaned a little closer. “Take the fish,” he said quietly. “You’ll like it.” You glanced at him, surprised. “The fish?” “I’ve been here before. It’s good. Not too heavy either. You’ll like it.” You gave a small nod, lips twitching. “You always did like telling me what to eat.” “You always needed help deciding,” he replied easily, looking at his menu again. A moment passed before he gently closed it and turned towards you again. “So…” he said, “how’s work? Are you still at SN?” You nodded. “Yeah. I didn’t think changing hospital would have changed my workload after all.” “Do you still like it?” he asked with a small hum. You hesitated. Your residence was one of the main reasons why you and Sunghoon broke up. It felt like a touchy topic. “Most days, yes. Some days are just hard. But every job is like that, right?” “Mhm. That’s true”, he turned aback towards the table, reaching for the wine card. “Are you still living with Jaemin?” “Yeah.”, you nodded. “He adopted three cats a few months ago.” He laughed, eyes flicking back to you. “Three?” “Yep. And of course, Kai’s allergic, so I have to deep clean everything whenever he visits.”
That made Sunghoon pause, his brow ticking up slightly. “Kai?” “Yeah, you probably remember him. Tall, really soft-spoken, kinda chaotic. We study together sometimes.”, you shrugged. Sunghoon didn’t say anything right away. Just nodded a little. You tapped the edge of your napkin and glanced sideways. “So… how have you been? With work and everything.” Sunghoon leaned back slightly in his chair, resting an arm casually along the back of yours. “It’s been good. I made partner this year.” You blinked. “Already?” He gave a small smile. “Yeah. I mean, it’s brutal hours, constant travel, and my phone might actually be fused to my hand now, but… I like it. Most days.” You nodded slowly. “That’s… impressive.” There was something oddly comforting about that echo of your own answer. “You started studying for the board already?”, he tilted his head a little toward you. You blinked. “Yeah. I mean yes, I am. How did you…?” “My mom,” he said with a small grin, not even pretending to be subtle. “She keeps me updated. Involuntarily.” “Oh.” You paused, a little surprised. “Right.”
Your mother and his mother were close friends. You forbade your parents to talk about Sunghoon and they have never said anything about him to you. Your mother surely knew he was a partner, with how much his mother flexed with her golden son. “She said you basically live in the hospital.” You huffed a soft laugh. “Oh lord. That comes from my mom. But yeah, she is kinda right. But, what can I say, night shifts pay better.” “Didn’t think she was wrong,” he said, glancing sideways. “After all, these ladies are the heart of the gossip mill in our neighborhood.” “That is right.”, you nodded slightly. The waiter came and took your orders, interrupting your conversation. You ordered the fish. Once the waiter stepped away, Sunghoon leaned in slightly, fingers idly tracing the stem of his champagne flute.
“And your parents?” he asked. “Still working?” You smiled a little. “Yeah. My mom’s been talking about retiring for three years now, but we both know she’d go crazy without it. She seriously has to find a hobby. My dad is still working in the hospital but not as chief physician anymore. He said he was too old for that amount off stress.” Sunghoon laughed quietly. “Sounds about right.” You glanced down at your hands. “I try to visit when I can or go on holidays with them, but it’s... not often. Last time I came down with a fever halfway through and spent most of the weekend in bed. My mom still complains about not having someone who actually takes good pictures around in Venice." “Didn’t know med students were allowed to get sick.” “We’re not. It’s humiliating,” you deadpanned, and he laughed again. You let yourself look at him, really look. His hair was a little longer than you remembered, styled neatly. There was a soft crease between his brows you hadn’t noticed when he first walked in. Tiredness, maybe" “Do you still live around Gangnam?” you asked. “Or did you move for work?” “I moved.” He hesitated. “Actually, I moved back in with my parents. Just a couple months ago.” You blinked. “Didn’t your sister move back in as well?"
“She did,” he said, then glanced down at his watch for a beat too long. “She and her husband divorced last year. But she’s back in Busan now.” “Oh.” You paused, not sure what to say. “I’m sorry. I didn’t know.” Sunghoon never really liked his brother-in-law, claiming he wasn’t good for his baby sister. They fought really hard when she told him she would marry him. SUnghoon and Yeji didn’t talk for months afterwards and he was devastated by it. He shrugged lightly, but didn’t meet your eyes. “It’s alright. She’s doing better now.” There was a small silence. “Why did you move back?”, you asked softly. He tilted his head slightly. “Mhm. I was living with my girlfriend. For about a year. We broke up in the spring and I moved into her apartment when we got together.” You felt a soft pang in your heart. As much as you wished for him to be happy, to have found love, it hurt a bit to hear that he actually did, while you were distracting yourself with work instead of tackling your feelings. “Oh. I’m sorry, Sunghoon.” “It’s fine. I am over her, she was nice but…it just… wasn’t working. I was always gone. And when I wasn’t, I wasn’t really there, you know?” He looked at you then, and you knew exactly what he meant. “We were both too tired to argue about it. It felt like a dejavu.” He chuckled softly at that and took a sip of his champagne. A beat passed. “And you? Any boyfriends in sight?”
You glanced toward where Ningning was showing off her engagement ring to Yujin, her hands gesturing animatedly. “Not really,” you said. “I thought about it. Dated here and there. But it’s hard when you fall asleep with your face on a chart at 2 a.m.” “That does sound romantic,” he said dryly. You grinned, a little ruefully. “I’m told I snore.” “I can confirm.” You laughed, eyes crinkling and slightly shoved him. “Hey! You snore way worse than I do.” Before he could say anything else, the lights dimmed slightly and Daewhi stepped back onto the small stage at the front of the room. “Alright everyone! Before the food comes out, we’d like to say a few words...” You both turned toward the front, Sunghoon’s arm brushing yours lightly as he shifted in his seat. As the speeches started, you leaned in a little, voice low. “So… partner, huh? What are you working on currently?”
Sunghoon chuckled under his breath. “Right now? A cross-border IP case. A Korean company’s suing a European firm over design plagiarism, branding, packaging, whole lineup. My team’s handling compliance and preparing expert reports. It’s mostly just emails at 2 a.m. and arguing over clauses in licensing agreements.” You blinked. “That sounds miserable.” He shrugged with a half-smile. “It is. But weirdly satisfying. I kind of like picking apart their statements line by line, figuring out where they copied, what we can use." You tilted your head. “You always did like arguing.” “I prefer ‘debating.’ But yeah. The job’s a lot of drafting, negotiations, risk assessment. We do corporate governance stuff, too! Restructuring, audits, employee protection frameworks. Internal messes that execs don’t want to touch.” He smiled, lifting his glass. “And you?” You groaned. “Don’t even get me started.I honestly do too much in one day to summarize it all. Lots of rotation, many many crying babies and many many grandmas and grandpas that tell me I am doing my job wrong at 3 am when I just helped deliver their grandchild for like 4 hours.”
His eyes widened slightly. “You still don’t sleep much then?” “Not unless it’s at a nurse’s station in an empty hallway,” you said, trying to laugh. “But yeah… third year’s a step up. More decision-making, more pressure. I scrub in way more now. Still supervised, but I’m technically managing my own cases.” “Jesus.” He shook his head, then looked at you. “Also,” you added, leaning back a little, “I have become frighteningly good at drawing blood. I could probably even handle a crybaby like Jake.” Sunghoon gave a theatrical shudder. “Remind me to never pass out near you.” You grinned. “Too late. I already have a target vein.” He lifted his glass in a mock toast. “To poor life choices and me never fainting near you.”
You clinked it lightly. “And to knowing exactly what we signed up for.” “You know…” He ran a finger along the stem of his glass after setting it down again. “I still think it’s kind of insane, what you do.” You blinked at him, head tilting slightly. “What do you mean?” “I mean, yeah, my job’s intense. But I don’t have people’s lives in my hands. No one's bleeding out during a client pitch,” he said, his tone light but eyes sincere. That caught you off guard. You opened your mouth, but he was already continuing. “And…” He paused for a second, rubbing the back of his neck before glancing back at you. “I never got to say it, but, thank you. For what you did for Jay. And you helped with Haneul after.” Your fingers stilled on your napkin. “I just did my job.” “Maybe,” Sunghoon said quietly, “but it was important. To him. And to her.” You looked away for a moment, your throat tightening. “I still think about it sometimes. About whether I could’ve done more. Maybe she would have survived” “There wasn’t more to do,” he said, firm. “You know that." “I do,” you murmured. “But that doesn’t really make it easier.” Silence settled briefly between you. “Jay said you were really good at doing what you do,” Sunghoon added, his voice lower now. “And kind. That you didn’t panic.”
You huffed a small laugh. “That’s because I did the panicking in the locker room after.” He smiled faintly at that. “Still.” Sunghoon shifted slightly in his seat, reaching into his inner jacket pocket. “Wanna see pictures? Jay sends way too many, and I’m not strong enough to delete them.” You gave a small laugh and nodded. “Yeah. I’d love to.” He unlocked his phone, thumb moving swiftly through albums until he turned the screen toward you. “Here, this was last month. She dressed up as a tangerine for kindergarten.” You leaned in, your smile slowly growing. “Oh my god… she’s huge already. And her hair’s gotten so long." “Right?” He grinned, flicking to the next picture. “This one’s my favorite.”
You let out a soft laugh, one hand subconsciously lifting to your mouth. “Wow. She looks so much like her mom.”
Sunghoon’s smile faded just a little, more fond now. “Yeah.”
You were quiet for a second, watching his screen as he kept scrolling, birthday parties, park visits, messy dinner selfies. Her in a doctor costume, holding a stethoscope upside down.
“She’s really cute,” you said, smile tugging at your lips as Sunghoon tapped through another photo. “She looks like trouble.”
“She is,” Sunghoon said, clearly proud. “But only when she doesn’t get her strawberry milk.”
You gave a small laugh and leaned back a little.
You didn’t say much else, but something in your chest tightened. You were happy for them, you really were. For Jay. For Sunghoon. For this whole, messy, beautiful life they had grown into. You’d just forgotten how far away you’d placed yourself from it all. The waiter brought your drinks and before you even took a sip Sunghoon tsked next to you.
“No Coke Zero?” Sunghoon asked, tilting his head. “Who are you and what have you done with Y/N?”
Your rolled our eyes. “I had three cans this morning.”
“There she is.”
You scowled and hit hid foot under the table. “I had to stay awake. We had a five-hour surgery and the scrub nurse kept humming the same damn trot song.”
Sunghoon snorted into his drink. “Still addicted, I see.”
“You know what?” You raised a finger at him, fighting a smile. “If you mock my Coke Zero consumption one more time, I will curse you out.”
“Oh, have fun with that. I’ll probably enjoy it,” he said with mock gravity. “I’ve heard you curse. It’s like poetry. Angry, caffeine-fueled poetry.”
You leaned in, smiling sweetly. “Park Sunghoon.”
“Yes?”
“I hope your protein shaker leaks in your work bag.”
He gasped, hand to chest. “You take that back.”
“Never.”
“You’re still evil,” he muttered, shaking his head with a grin.
“And you’re still annoying,” you replied, sipping your water, resting, giving him your middle finger like you did when you were sixteen.
“I am actually not drinking too many protein shakes anymore. I’ve switched to actually eating healthy and protein rich meals.”, he said, sounding almost proudly.
Yunjin snickered from across the table. “Now you do. I clearly remember a time where the only thing you all ate was chicken, unseasoned chicken, and protein shakes.”
Jay groaned, slumping back in his chair. “Don’t remind me. I was protein-shaking my soul away for like six months straight.”
“Six months?” Jake snorted. “Heeseung tried to bulk for a year. He was eating boiled eggs between classes.”
Heeseung shrugged, totally unfazed. “And I looked great.”
“You also smelled like eggs,” Ningning added flatly, reaching for her water.
You were shaking your head, your head gesturing accusingly towards Sunghoon. “You were the worst of all of them. I swear to god, if you’d asked me to meal prep plain chicken breast one more time I would have used my anatomical knowledge for some illegal activities.”
He gave a sheepish grin. “I was trying to hit macros. And you yourself claimed to appreciate my biceps.”
“I still have nightmares about our air fryer,” you deadpanned. “There were weeks the entire apartment smelled like chicken and eggs.”
“You’re exaggerating,” Sunghoon said, nudging you gently with his elbow.
“I am not,” you insisted. “You once brought chicken breast to brunch with our parents cause you were afraid they wouldn’t prep anything with proteins in it.”
Sunghoon shrugged, unbothered. “Gains don’t rest.”
“You were unbearable,” you muttered, leaning back in your chair, arms crossed as you gave him a narrowed look.
Sunghoon didn’t even blink. “I was bulking.”
“You were insane,” you shot back. “Do you remember the protein powder in your coffee?”
“It tasted fine.”
“You mixed it with my expensive vanilla almond milk. And you made the entire kitchen smell like dirty socks.”
He grinned. “And yet you still ate my chicken.”
“Because I was too tired to cook my own, you menace”, you said flatly.
You took a sip of your water, the conversation around you dissolving into background noise as Sunghoon leaned a little closer, resting one arm on the back of your chair again.
“I still don’t get how you survived my meal prep,” he said casually, eyes flicking to yours.
You gave him a look. “Oh, I didn’t survive. I suffered.”
He grinned. “That dramatic streak of yours hasn’t changed, huh?" “Park Sunghoon,” you warned, narrowing your eyes slightly, “I swear, if you say one more thing about me being dramatic, I will curse you out so thoroughly you’ll have flashbacks to every anatomy study session I ever made you suffer through.” “Oh, jeez please not. I don’t think I would survive that. You were so mean.” “I was under a lot of pressure!” you said, biting back a smile. “Do you know what it’s like to come home after a 28-hour shift just to find someone boiling chicken again at midnight?” He leaned in slightly, eyes gleaming. “I said I’d do the dishes.” “You never did the dishes.” “I did them… eventually.” “Exactly my point.” He just smiled at you, warm and unhurried.
You exhaled, tipping your head slightly toward him. “Do you still eat like that? Like are you still obsessing over your calories and everything.”
“Sometimes,” he said. “But my mom doesn’t curse me out if I stink up the kitchen.”
You hummed. “Tragic. I’d do it again in a heartbeat.”
He smirked. “Ah you and your endless compassion.”
“Oh shut up,” you muttered, lips twitching. “I’m about to be compassionate all over your fancy suit.”
He laughed again, quieter this time, and nudged your knee under the table.
“Still so scary,” he murmured.
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Since the reunion, Sunghoon somehow slithered his way back into your life. You’ve seen him at least 3 times in the last month, which is more than the last three years. Probably due to the new outbound clinic you were transferred to being close to your parents house, which caused you, much to your parents delightment, to sleep at home. And considering Sunghoon is living just over the street, meeting him after work was somehow something that happened now.
Today though, you were prepared. You were standing in the kitchen of the venue your and Sunghoons mother rented out to celebrate their birthdays, cutting up a watermelon into bitesize pieces. Your mothers turned 60 last week, yours on Tuesday and his on Thursday and decided to celebrate together, renting out a small hall and inviting a ton of people. Sunghoon was currently carrying boxes of wine to put into the kitchen's cooler. Both of your mothers roped you in to help out preparing the celebration and who were you to say no.
“That’s the last one,” he said, breath short. “The cooler’s full now.”
You huffed a strand of hair out of your face.
“Good. We still need to plate the sandwiches, preslice the cake, move the drink station out front and deck the tables.”
He gave you a sidelong look. “Should we demand hourly payment for all of this?”
“We’re being paid in love, you dumbass.”
He chuckled, stepping around your dad and his, who were currently wrangling a caterer sized metal food warmer. It took both of them to maneuver it through the narrow doorway without crashing into the counter.
You leaned away instinctively to avoid the chaos, and Sunghoon did the same, which brought him just a bit closer to your side of the counter.
“Remind me why we agreed to this again?” he asked, settling beside you and propping one elbow against the metal surface.
“Because your mom is scary,” you muttered, fighting with the watermelon rind. “And because mine is lovely and we love helping her.”
“They could have asked our siblings to come earlier.”
You shot him a look. “Don’t act like you weren’t the one who volunteered to organize the drinks as if you didn't know it meant carrying twelve crates of wine.”
“I thought that was the easier job,” he said, rubbing his shoulder with a wince. “I didn’t want to get my hands dirty.”
Just as he said that a watermelon slice slipped in your hands, leaving a pink stain on your white shirt and arm, when you caught it out of reflex. You hissed and leaned over the sink to rinse off quickly.
“You know we have, like, an hour left for everything? Including changing, right?” Sunghoon said, tossing you a towel as you returned from the sink.
You caught it, half-heartedly drying your hands, looking at the watch hanging on the kitchen wall. “Fifty-five now.”
He groaned. “Perfect. I sweat like a pig carrying those wines inside. I still have to shower.”
You wrinkled your nose, pretending to lean closer. “You should. You kind of stink.”
“Thank you, Y/N. Such lovely compliments you give,” he deadpanned.
You grinned, just a little. A piece of your bun came loose and a strand of hair slipped forward again.
He reached out and brushed it gently behind your ear. His fingers warm against the skin on your cheek.
Sunghoon and you both froze.
His hand dropped the moment it registered what he’d done.
“Sorry–uh. Reflex,” he said quickly, stepping half a breath back.
You blinked, laughing awkwardly. “Yeah, well… I guess I give great compliments.”
You cleared your throat before he could say anything else.
“Anyway,” you said, turning slightly so he couldn’t read your face. “Let’s just carry the rest of the stuff out so we can go shower. Whatever we don’t finish, someone else can do.”
“Yeah. Okay,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck.
Before either of you could move toward the trays, the kitchen door swung open.
“Sunghoon,” his mother snapped, stepping inside with her arms crossed. “Why are you standing around while poor Y/N is doing everything? You were supposed to be helping, not loitering.”
You blinked, startled, still holding the towel.
“Oh, no, no,” you said quickly, straightening up and pasting on your best polite smile, you reserved for his mom specifically. “He was just about to carry the platter outside, Aunty. I was making sure he didn’t grab the wrong one.”
Sunghoon blinked at you, seemingly caught off guard for a second. His mom narrowed her eyes.
“Well, don’t dawdle,” she muttered, brushing past him to hover over the nearest table. “We still have to set the cakes out.”
Sunghoon mouthed thank you as he picked up the platter.
You just winked at him and turned back to your watermelon.
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You locked your front door with your clutch tucked under one arm, heels clicking against the pavement. The sun had just started to dip behind the trees, casting a golden wash over the quiet neighborhood. When you stepped onto the sidewalk, you saw Sungoon.
He was walking a few feet ahead of you, dressed in a dark navy suit. One of his hands was smoothing his hair and while the other typed something on his phone. He seemed tense.
You cleared your throat loud enough to make him glance up.
He blinked in surprise, then gave you a half-smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes. “Well, look at that. Fancy seeing you here.”
You stepped toward him slowly, eyeing the suit. “You still wear suits every day?”
“Sure.”
“You’re rumpled,” you said, frowning. You reached forward, tugging at the slightly crooked collar with practiced fingers. “God, how do you wear a suit every day and still not know how to wear one properly?”
His breath caught just slightly as you straightened the fold, your knuckles brushing his jaw for a split second.
“Your mom would eat you alive if she saw this,” you added, trying to justify why you were suddenly in his personal bubble.
“Thanks for the save. Again,” Sunghoon huffed. “Ever since I moved back, she’s been on my ass non-stop.”
Your brows shot up. “How long are you planning on staying here?”
“Just temporarily,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck. “My lease ended and I figured I’d take a break from paying Seoul rent. Mistake.”, he huffed, “She’s like: ‘You should be saving. You should get married. You should eat more. You should work less. You should stop slouching.”
You laughed, full and unfiltered. “Your mom is so intense. No offense, but she’s kind of terrifying. Like, how did your sweet dad end up with her?”
He laughed. “Everyone wonders. I think he just blinked and thirty-five years passed.”
You both chuckled as your steps fell into sync.
“She was grilling me earlier,” you said. “Asked if I had any ‘good eggs left.’ I thought she meant for the deviled platter, but nope she meant my ovaries. She told my how my job is so hard and asked whether I plan to freeze my eggs, because she would love me to have some precious kids. I think it came from the right place, but it was still kinda weird.”
Sunghoon winced. “That sounds about right. She still talks about us sometimes. Complains that I let you go.”
You looked at him sideways. “Seriously?”
“She always liked you more than she liked me,” he muttered. “Back when we were together, she used to ask at least twice a week if we were thinking about marriage. Said we’d have ‘sturdy’ children.”
You burst out laughing. “Sturdy? What does that even mean?”
“I think she meant athletic? Or that you wouldn’t let them do the stuff we did as a kid. YOu know sturdy kids. Clever and not trouble maker kids? "I dont know.”
“I probably wouldn’t. We did a lot of shit when unsupervised,” you said, grinning. “But she really did ask you that?”
“Repeatedly. Said she knows if you had my kids, she could more or less flex with her beautiful and clever daughter in law and even prettier kids, since you bring your moms genetics.”
You snorted. “Oh my god. I don’t know if that’s horrifying or flattering.”
“Both,” he said. “Mostly horrifying.”
“Well, lucky for you, I’m no longer your ticket to high-functioning offsprings.”
“Tragic,” he said, with a dry smile.
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You hadn’t even made it ten minutes into the party, standing near the table with the drinks, waiting for Sunghoon to finish pouring himself a glass of wine when one of your moms coworkers came up. You recognized her but couldn’t put a name to her face, she certainly has been kinda friends with your mother for a while.
“Oh, Y/N!” she beamed. “Your mom never mentioned you had a boyfriend and such a handsome one!”
You blinked. “Oh no. No, no, that’s not–he’s not my–”
“Sunghoon,” Sunghoon offered, stepping beside you with a polite smile, holding his glass of wine and your glass of juice. “Just a friend. My mom is the other one celebrating.”
“Ahhh,” the woman said, "I was so sure you were. You are in so many of those pictures together.”
You gave your best awkward laugh. “Yeah, I guess we’ve known each other forever.”
“Oh, I can tell,” she said, waving her wine glass toward the giant photo collage near the dessert table. “Look at that one,” She pointed at a photo from your family trip to Oahu. Your two moms beaming in flower leis, both of your dads awkwardly squinting into the sun… and in the middle, on a striped beach towel, were the two of you. You were in a sundress sitting sideways in Sunghoon’s lap, laughing at something he was whispering in your ear. His arms were loosely wrapped around your waist, while your hand rested comfortably on his knee.
"Yeah…” you said weakly, stomach dropping. “Those were… taken a while ago.”
Sunghoon stayed quiet. Just sipping his drink. You could feel the heat rising up your neck.
“We… used to date,” you offered, forcing a smile. “Our moms are best friends. So, you know…”
She nodded. “You don't have much choice to stay friendly with each other?”
You nodded mutely. Sunghoon gave a vague hum of agreement, and then someone called her name from across the room.
“It was nice talking to the two of you.”, she patted your shoulder, winked at Sunghoon, and wandered off.
You exhaled sharply.
Sunghoon tilted his head toward you. “You good?”
You nodded, eyes flicking toward the photo wall. “Yeah. Why did they have to choose that picture.”
He smiled faintly. “Because my mom is still hoping you freeze your eggs so I can give you some sturdy kids someday.”
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You were lying in your bed, your blanket pulled up to your chin, one arm shielding your eyes from the light bleeding through your half closed blinds. Everything was either too bright or too loud. And the cats kept taking turns climbing onto your chest or pawing at your face in demand of affection.
It was almost 1 a.m. and you were acutely aware that in just under four hours, your alarm would go off. You really, really needed to sleep.
But you hadn’t been able to, not properly, for a few nights now.
Ever since that dinner a few months ago, the old Kakao group chat had burst back to life. The others were texting and sending pictures what felt like nonstop. For a few weeks now they were talking about going on a trip in the mountains in the South, to relax and just hang out with each other again before the winter started. They were thinking about renting out a house with enough rooms for everyone and their partners. It sounded... really nice, if you were being honest.
But you weren’t sure.
You didn’t know if you could get the time off. You were still in residency, and vacation days weren’t exactly handed out like candy. And at that point you should probably be studying for your board certification like a maniac.
Eventually, you gave up. Tossing your blanket aside, you swung your legs over the edge of the bed and shuffled out of your room. You were somehow too tired to sleep and too restless to stay still.
The apartment was dark, the only light coming from the kitchen. You padded in barefoot and found Jaemin hunched over the microwave, heating up leftover curry. He was still wearing his scrubs and his hair was a mess.
You stood there for a moment, just watching him. Then, without a word, you stepped forward and dropped your forehead onto his back.
“Jesus,” he jolted slightly, startled. “You scared me.”
You didn’t say anything, just stayed there, your face pressed between his shoulder blades. He let out a breath, softening immediately.
“Long day?” he asked, turning around and opening his arms automatically.
You nodded and stepped into the hug, arms wrapping around his middle. He smelled faintly like antiseptic.
He held you for a moment, rubbing a slow hand up and down your back. “You’re warm,” he mumbled.
You nodded into his shirt.
“Can’t sleep again?” he asked after a beat, his voice gentle now.
You pulled back slightly but didn’t let go. “My friends from school are planning. In October.”
Jaemin leaned back just enough to look at your face. “That sounds fun.”
“It does,” you admitted. “But I don’t know if I can get the time off. And even if I do... I should probably be studying.”
“You’ve been studying since July,” he said, deadpan.
You sighed. “I just… don’t know if I can justify it.”
He gave you a look.
“Take your books with you. Study there. Wake up early and do your flashcards while everyone else is making pancakes or whatever. I am sure no one would be mad if you did a bit of revising.”
You pressed your forehead against his collarbone again, muttering, “I’ll think about it.”
He smiled into your hair. “You always say that.”
“Because I always do,” you mumbled.
The microwave beeped, and the smell of curry wafted up between you. He reached behind you blindly to open it, still holding you with one arm.
“I’ll warm you some up too,” he said, already grabbing a second bowl.
You just hummed and just closed your eyes not moving from where your arms were wrapped around his torso. He set the curry down on the counter with one hand and petted your hair softly with the other one.
“You know,” he said slowly, “you were so excited when you came back from the reunion. You kept talking about how good it was to see them again, how you missed this version of yourself. How you didn’t realize how much time had passed until you were sitting next to them.”
You blinked, but stayed silent.
“So don’t pretend like you don’t want to go,” he added, eyes narrowing ever so slightly. “You do. You just feel guilty about it.”
Your silence must’ve been answer enough, because Jaemin gently pushed you away from his chest so he could look into your eyes properly.
“You’re allowed to miss people,” he said, softer now. “And you’re allowed to want something that isn’t hospital walls and emergency pages and OB rounds at 3 a.m. You can take your books. You can wake up early and study. Hell, you’ll probably shame everyone into feeling productive.”
That earned a small, reluctant laugh from you.
“But you can also sit on a porch with your friends and a cup of tea and just be for a few days,” he said. “You’re burning yourself out againat this rate, Y/N. You deserve a break.”
You looked down, chewing on your bottom lip. The idea of a break sounded so nice it almost hurt.
He tilted his head and gave you a knowing smile. “And don't pretend like you're not already halfway convinced. You wouldn’t be standing here with your head on my spine at 1 a.m. if you weren’t.”
“Traitor,” you muttered.
He grinned. “Guilty.”
You huffed, then finally gave a slow nod.
Jaemin slid a bowl across the counter toward you and sat down beside you, spoon clinking lazily in his curry.
“I mean,” he said between bites, “if I play my cards right, pull a few strings here and there… maybe sweet-talk your boss…”
You snorted. “You’ve never even met my boss.”
“I’ve seen him once. He looks like the type who caves when someone brings good snacks and compliments his hairline.”
You gave him a look. “He’s bald.”
“Exactly. Low bar.”
You rolled your eyes, but the edge of your lips tugged upward despite yourself.
Jaemin shrugged. “Just use like… two vacation days. Plan your night shift compensation properly. Worst case, you stack five NICU shifts and hate yourself for a week?”
“But wouldn’t I hate myself during the trip then? You know, the week after five NICU shifts?”, you asked, blowing the curry on your spoon, to cool it down slightly.
He grinned into his food. “When don’t you hate yourself tho? I’m just saying: go. Take the trip. Drag your flashcards along, torture everyone with study sessions if you must. But don’t skip it. You’ll regret it.”
He was right. You would regret it. You would regret missing out again. But you couldn’t let that be a distraction. You didn’t look up, but your voice came out a little smaller. “What if I get behind?”
“You’re already ahead. You’re always ahead. For God's sake I haven't even bought the books I’ll need Y/N. You started two months ago. And you still have 7 to go.”
There was a long pause.
Then you murmured, “Okay. I’ll ask.”
Jaemin smiled, finishing his last bite. “Good girl.”
You lifted your head just to smack his arm with your spoon.
He winced dramatically. “Are you assaulting your emotional support roommate? Unbelievable.”
“Three cats are my emotional support. You just do the dishes.”
He gave you a lopsided grin. “Then let me earn my keep and make sure you don’t work yourself into an early grave.”
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You were taking your time walking home from work a few weeks later. You were stationed at an outbound clinic near your parents house this week again. Half of that clinic's staff was sick with Covid and the hospital stationed some of their residents there. So you decided to stay over at your parents house, sleeping in your old room and helping your mom babysit your niece for the weekend. You'd been spoiled with warm dinners and unsolicited affection all week as well. Honestly, you weren’t complaining.
You were walking slowly, enjoying the last beams of sunshine when you noticed Sunghoon walking past you. His jacket was slung over his arm and he was typing furiously on his phone.
You accelerated your speed, stepping in sync next to him: “Sir, do you perhaps live in this neighborhood? I'm in dire need of directions, I might be a bit lost here.”
He flinched and his head snapped into your direction.
“Jesus, you just scared the shit out of me, Y/N.”, he said, breathless, holding his phone against his chest.
“Sorry Sunghoon,” you laughed and padded his shoulder.
“I am afraid I can't offer you directions though. I might be equally lost right now. It seems like we are in dire need of a guide, that guides us towards a certain gs25 to buy some ice cream, perhaps?" he said, raising his shoulders in faux confusion.
“Oh! I think I saw a particular gs25 on my way here, but I am afraid I really want to get home! It appears like my niece has been brought to my mothers and I really want to cuddle my very adorable niece, perhaps an ice to go?”, you nodded and walked backwards up the hill.
“That’s a noble excuse,” he said, adjusting his bag and shifting his jacket to the other arm. “But would you accept delivery instead? My mom’s in a bad mood today and if I stay home any longer I might spontaneously combust.”
You tilted your head, pretending to think. “Hmm. I suppose if you’re fleeing maternal wrath, I can offer sanctuary. My mom will probably force-feed you soup the second you walk through the door.”
“I’m counting on it,” he said, grinning as he fell into step beside you.
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The second you stepped through the door, your mom peeked around the corner from the kitchen, eyes lighting up.
“Y/N-ah! Oh, you brought a surprise with you!” she said, hands still dusted with flour. “How lovely!”
You sighed dramatically, kicking off your shoes. “I found Sunghoon on the street and had to rescue him.”
Your mom tutted but looked pleased. “Come in, come in. Look at you! So skinny! You need to eat something.”
She reached up without warning and patted his cheek affectionately, like she used to when you were teenagers. Sunghoon just blinked and let it happen, offering a half-bow and a sheepish smile.
“Hi, Aunty. Sorry to show up uninvited.”
“Nonsense. You’re always welcome here,” she said, already turning back toward the kitchen. “Sit, sit! I just made some jeon. Do you still like that?”
"Sure, Aunty!", Sunghoon said and took off his shoes.
You followed her into the kitchen. “Is Gaeun awake?”
Your dad’s voice echoed from the hallway. “Fell asleep about an hour ago. She’s still out cold.”
You groaned, deflating and turning back to walk to the living room, where she usually slept and played when she was over. “Ugh. I wanted to shower her with kisses. Telepathically tho. I am not about to get her sick.”
Sunghoon followed you. “Didn’t spend enough time with babies today?”
You shot him a look. “Not the cuddly kind.”
He raised a brow as you crossed to the blanket pile on the couch and gently peeked in at the sleeping baby. “Weren’t you at the clinic today?”
“Outbound rotation,” you said. “Lots of prenatal consults. It’s mostly OB-GYN. So yeah technically babies but unborn babies.”
“Ah,” he said. “Makes sense.”
You knelt beside Gaeun and ran your fingers softly through her hair. “She’s my one and only baby though.”
Sunghoon leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed. “Do you have another niece I missed out on?”
You shook your head. “Nope. Just Gaeun. Which is why she’s getting spoiled for life. Everything she wants she will get from her cool aunt Y/Nie.”
“She’s lucky.”
Gaeun shifted in her sleep, one chubby fist curled near her cheek.
“She’s literally the cutest thing I’ve ever seen,” you whispered, doing your best to not wake her up.
Sunghoon crouched beside you, resting his arms on his knees. “You say that every time you see a baby or a dog.”
“Because it’s true every time,” you said, gently pulling her blanket up. “Look at her cheeks. I want to bite them. Is that weird?”
“A little.”
You gave him a side-eye. “She smells so good as well. I would die for her.”
He laughed under his breath. “You’re ridiculous.”
“I’m in love, Sunghoon. You wouldn’t understand.”
He just shook his head, smiling. “You’re completely gone.”
“She’s going to grow up thinking I’m the cool aunt who brings stickers and inappropriate snacks and teaches her to lie about bedtime.”
“Which… would be accurate.”
“Exactly.”
You watched her for another long beat, her tiny chest rising and falling steadily.
“She’s going to be such a menace,” you whispered fondly.
Sunghoon’s voice was quieter now. “With you as her guide? No doubt.”
"Hey I am not that bad of an influence," you protested, brushing one finger over the babies soft cheek.
"Yeah. Jake and I totally didn't have to cover for you whenever you did something stupid at school. You were always a lawful student," Sunghoon chuckled.
You rolled your eyes and huffed. "Looser. At least I had fun."
From the kitchen, the smell of jeon drifted in, followed by your mom’s distant voice calling your name.
You sighed, standing up and stretching. “Alright. Let’s go eat before she decides we’re both too skinny and starts force-feeding us.”
Sunghoon followed you out of the room, glancing once more at the sleeping toddler.
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The four of you sat around the small kitchen table, your dad pouring more makgeolli into his cup, while your mom fussed over whether Sunghoon had eaten enough rice. The overhead light cast a golden hue over everything.
“So, Sunghoon,” your dad began, leaning back slightly in his chair. “Are you still working yourself to death?”
Sunghoon let out a small laugh. “Trying not to. But yeah, it’s still busy.”
“Busy is good,” your mom chimed in, but she gave him a narrow look. “But are you eating? Sleeping? The two of you never did when you moved out and were left to your own devices.”
“Mom,” you groaned.
“Don't tell me I am wrong. And now look at the two of you. So skinny and overworked. You should eat another serving Sunghoon, you have to stay strong.”
“I go to the gym 4 days a week, Aunty. I am strong," Sunghoon said, deadpan.
Your parents started grilling him with questions you were pretty sure they already knew the answers to. It was coming from a good place and very lighthearted though. After all, Sunghoon had practically grown up in this kitchen so it was a given they wanted to hear from the man himself where he was now in life. You couldn’t count how many times he’d skipped out on dinners at his own house to crash yours instead.
He answered patiently, a bit sheepish but not uncomfortable. You could tell he didn’t mind it, really. Not here.
By the time your dad had moved on from work questions to retelling the same story about your high school prank war for the third time, Sunghoon had finally settled deeper into his seat.
His sleeves were rumpled now. He’d unfastened the top button of his shirt at some point and rolled his shoulders back, laughing at something your mom had said about his childhood appetite. The tight line at the edge of his jaw had softened. His posture was less perfect. He looked younger.
You couldn’t stop watching him.
It wasn’t intentional, you weren’t even sure what had pulled your gaze back to him in the first place. You couldn’t stop thinking how familiar it all felt.
How natural it still was to have him here.
Like nothing had changed at all in the last ten years.
And maybe, in some ways, nothing had. Your parents still looked at him like he was the son they never had. Your mom still offered him second servings before anyone else. He still used the honorifics around your dad even though he’d been told not to twenty years ago. He still looked like the same boy who had come over three or four nights a week in high school, when his own house, despite being spotless and felt… cold. Unforgiving.
Sunghoon had always been the golden boy: top grades, varsity athlete, polite to a fault. Your teachers loved him, which was why he was able to get you and Jake out of sticky situations almost easily back when you were in highschool. He was admired by everyone. You couldn't remember a single person that didn't like him. But at home, he had never been enough.
You’d seen it yourself, how tense he got when his mother called. How he flinched slightly at praise, like it was a test he had to pass again. How he learned to be charming because being himself was never quite the right answer. You hated his mother for doing that.
He could’ve brought home the moon and his mom still would’ve asked why it had craters.
And yet your mom loved him the second you brought him home at age 5. She gave him as much food as he wanted, gave him all the attention he needed, and came to every skating event, even if his parents couldn’t make the time. She somehow managed to get off work, every time, sitting in the bleachers of those ice rinks cheering for SUnghoon together with you. She had treated him like a teenage boy deserved to be treated: not perfectly, just kindly.
He was laughing at something your dad said, his hands working though the perfectly styled hair, messing it up in the progress.
That was the version of him you fell in love with so many years back.
Not the one in suits. Not the one fielding client calls at eleven. Not the one sitting in meeting rooms with the weight of a multi-million euro deal in his jaw.
But this Sunghoon.
The one who grinned with his whole face. Who passed side dishes to your dad before being asked. Who muttered sarcastic little asides only you would catch. The one who used to steal bites from your plate and fall asleep on the living room floor with his head resting against your knee.
The version of him you thought you knew forever. The version you thought you would always have.
You were different now too, older, sharper. Always tried and always rushing. Every time you saw him now, which was admittedly only 7 or 8 times over the last months, he seemed stressed and tired.
Sunghoon looked over, just briefly, catching your eye mid-laugh.
“What?” he asked, mouth still curled into a smile.
You blinked, startled. “Nothing.”
“You’re staring.”
“I’m digesting.”
He narrowed his eyes in mock suspicion, but let it go.
You glanced down at your plate, heart suddenly too full and too tired at once.
So much had changed.
And yet sitting here, in your moms kitchen, her ugly table cloth spread under your dishes and you wondered if maybe not everything had.
Just then a sharp wail echoed from the living room.
You were already halfway out of your chair. “It’s okay, I got her–”
“Y/N, sit–” your mom began, but you were already waving her off.
“I got her,” you said again, grinning as you darted out of the kitchen. “My favorite niece is calling for me!”
Sunghoon chuckled as you practically sprinted down the hallway.
In the living room, Gaeun’s face was red and scrunched, tiny fists balled up near her cheeks, her cry high-pitched and frantic.
You knelt beside her, scooping her up in one smooth motion, pressing soft kisses to her temple.
“Shhh, it’s okay, it’s okay,” you whispered, rocking her gently as you reached for the bottle your mom had prepped earlier. “You’re hungry, huh?”
She latched on instantly, her cries quieting between gulps.
You sat down with her in your lap, humming softly under your breath as she fed, your hand gently stroking her soft hair.
From the hallway, Sunghoon leaned on the doorframe, arms crossed, watching quietly.
“Impressive diagnosis, Dr. Auntie,” he said softly.
You turned to look at him, bouncing Gaeun gently. “Years of clinical experience. And also I just… really love her.”
He tilted his head slightly, watching you cradle the tiny baby. “I can tell.”
You smirked. “Why do you sound surprised?”
“I’m not,” he said, but his voice had gone quieter. Softer. “You’re just… good at this.”
You glanced down at Gaeun, who had started to calm a little, blinking up at you with watery eyes.
Sunghoon didn’t speak for a moment, he came over and lowered himself onto the sofa next to you. When he did speak again, his voice was softer than before. “You’ve always loved kids.”
“Yeah,” you murmured. “Still do.”
He nodded slowly. Then, without looking at you: “You used to say you wanted three.”
You laughed under your breath. “I did. I also said I wanted a dog that talks and a husband who bakes soufflés.”
He smiled at that but didn’t respond.
After a moment, you added, quieter: “I don’t know. The older I get, the more it feels… unreachable. Like even if I wanted a kid right now, I couldn’t. I’ve spent so long working toward this career… I’m just now getting to the part where all of it might pay off.” You took a breath. “Having a baby would derail everything.”
“That’s so sad,” he said quietly. “You always wanted this.”
You didn’t answer right away. Just rocked the baby gently and let the silence stretch between you.
After a few beats you glanced at him sideways. “How was your day?”
He groaned lightly and leaned forward, elbows on his knees. “Oh, you know. Same circus, different set of clowns.”
You raised a brow. “That bad?”
He let out a quiet laugh. “Not even surprising anymore. I spent my whole morning fixing a report someone else screwed up, then got blamed for responding ‘too bluntly’ in an email. And someone scheduled a meeting over lunch. Again.”
“That’s cruel.”
“It should be illegal,” he said, shaking his head. “I don’t mind the job. Honestly, I like it. I worked my ass off to get here. It’s just…some of these people make me question humanity.”
You laughed. “That bad, huh?”
He turned to you with a dry smile. “If natural selection applied to PowerPoint formatting, I’d have peace.”
You snorted. “You’re ridiculous.”
“Am I wrong though?”
You shook your head, a little smile playing on your lips. “No. Just dramatic.”
His tone softened then. “But really... I’m lucky. I know that. I’ve got a solid team, good salary, stability. I just wish I didn’t have to babysit full-grown adults while pretending to care about their feelings.”
You nodded slowly, gaze dropping to the baby in your lap. “Sounds exhausting.”
“It is. But…” he paused, voice dipping into something more honest. “You kinda just accept it. Like, this is what it looks like. Being a grown-up.”
You were quiet for a second.
“Yeah,” you murmured.
You both sat in silence for a bit, the baby sleeping peacefully in your arms now.
“You know,” Sunghoon said after a long moment, still gazing at the crib, “your mom… she really did take me in like a son.”
You turned to look at him.
“I don’t think I ever said it out loud, but I’m so grateful for her. And for your dad too. They’re such–” He paused, trying to find the right word. “They’re just… really good people.”
Your heart tightened a little. He wasn’t the kind of person to say things like that unless he truly meant them.
A beat passed before he added, more quietly, “And you… you’re turning out just like them, you know?”
You blinked, caught off guard by the sincerity. You opened your mouth, unsure of what to say, but before you could respond, your mom’s voice came from the hallway.
“Sunghoon-ah, my son,” she called warmly, stepping into the room in her worn slippers and a floral apron still tied around her waist. “I’m heading to bed. You should go home too, it’s getting late, you look tired.”
Sunghoon stood, his posture straightening instinctively. “Yes, of course. Thank you for having me.”
She waved him off, already moving to turn off lights and tidy a stray cushion. “Oh, don’t you worry about that! Come over more often, please, even if Y/N isn’t here.”
She paused in the doorway, narrowing her eyes at him. “You’re getting too skinny again. Tell your mother to feed you properly.”
He laughed, rubbing the back of his neck. “I’ll let her know.”
With a soft goodnight, your mom disappeared down the hallway, the floor creaking familiarly under her steps.
The room was quiet again, save for Gaeun’s slow breathing.
Sunghoon turned to you, his smile lopsided, softer than before. “Guess I better go before she packs me leftovers for the whole week.”
You grinned, standing to walk him to the door. “You know she probably already did.”
At the door, he slipped on his shoes and turned back toward you.
“Thanks for letting me crash dinner.”
“No worries,” you said, leaning against the frame. “You apparently needed it.”
He nodded, then paused, as if he wanted to say something else, but didn’t.
Instead, he gave you a little wave. “Night, Y/N.”
“Night, Sunghoon.”
The door closed with a quiet click.
You stood there for a moment, staring at the empty hallway.
You looked down at Gaeun, now snuggled against your chest, fast asleep. Her tiny breaths warmed the fabric of your shirt.
After a few minutes, you brought her into your childhood room, gently lowering her into the crib your mom had set up earlier. She stirred slightly, but didn’t wake.
You stood there for a moment, just watching her, the soft rise and fall of her chest, the little sigh she gave as her fingers curled near her cheek.
Then, slowly, you turned and climbed into bed.
The ceiling hadn’t changed. Neither had the faint sound of cicadas outside the window or the way the floor creaked when someone walked down the hallway.
But you had.
And lying there, in the same room you used to stay up in texting Sunghoon under the covers, you felt the quiet ache of time slipping past.
So many things had changed.
And yet tonight, for just a few moments, it had felt like nothing had.
You turned onto your side, pulling the blanket up over your shoulder, your gaze drifting toward the crib in the corner.
“Night, Gaeun,” you whispered
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You were sniffling slightly when you stepped into your apartment two months later. It was quiet except for the soft clicking of claws on the hardwood floor when Luna wandered to the door to greet you. Her fur was soft against your hand, when you squatted down to pet her. “Hi love.”,you whispered and nudged her head against your palms, purring loudly. You closed your eyes for a second and took a deep breath before standing up again. You dropped your bag in the door, only taking out your water bottle and empty bento box. The hallway mirror catched your attention when you looked up again. Your eyes were puffy, skin pale, your once neat braid now slipping out of its tie and clinging to the back of your neck.
Jaemin was right, you did get 4 days off, but you did hate yourself a bit. Five nightshifts in a row was almost as bad as it got, but you got to spend your time in the NICU so it was even worse. You were used to the intensity of the NICU, as it was one of the stations you worked most frequently, but today had just been a horrible shift. You lost two babies. Both were premature and it was almost clear from the start that their tiny bodies were too weak to fight for long. You had been the one to talk with the parents.
You hated that part most. Hated the way their faces crumbled when they realized what you were about to say, how it somehow had gotten to be so normal for you that the words weren’t stuck in your throat anymore, how you now had enough experience with grieving families to stay professional.
Your stomach growled loudly and you groaned because you knew you wouldn’t have time to eat anything. Jay would be here in less than thirty minutes and you still had to shower and finish up packing the rest of your clothing. You figured you could ask him to stop at a rest area on the way and get something to eat and a coffee there. Afterall, the others wanted to hike today so kaffeein sounded reasonable to keep you awake.
You rolled your shoulders back and padded to the bathroom. Setting the water to the coldest temperature you could bear, you quickly washed off the hospital. You didn’t even bother applying makeup or properly styling your hair, only blowdrying it. You said yes to this trip because everyone kept telling you it would be good for you. A break. A reset. But right now, standing barefoot and with wet hair in your bedroom, the idea of spending four days around people felt more overwhelming than comforting and refreshing.
You got dressed anyway. Jay would be there soon, and he was punctual to a fault, even at 7:30 am.
You pulled on a random hoodie that was draped over your chair and sank down on your bed for a second. The hoodie still faintly smelled like Kai, who had borrowed it to you after you forgot to bring a jacket to the library and he had insisted you wear it on your way home to avoid getting sick. You really should text him again.
For a second you thought about calling your mom, telling her how or anyone you were just tired and wanted to sleep, how you wanted to come home to her having cooked lunch, how you just wanted to spend time with her but it was early and she always rushed through morning phone calls with too many things on her plate. Your dad would probably be mid-surgery prep, he was the one who understood you the best at the moment, having gone through this exact process already. Yunjin would understand, or pretend to, but you’d see her in a few hours. You didn’t want to drop all of this on her before the trip even started.
And Jaemin had been running on empty lately too. He and Jeno were going through a rough patch at the moment, with Jaemin spending his time working or studying, just like you were. It was hard for other people to understand, the constant pressure to be working perfectly and Jeno wanted to get at least a bit of his boyfriend's attention and time, which Jaemin just couldn’t offer right now.
At least the cats were here.
Lucy had followed you from the bathroom. The second you laid back, she jumped onto the bed and curled up beside your hip like a small, warm stone. The other two weren’t far behind, hopping onto the foot of the bed and stretching out without a care in the world.
You reached out and gently scratched behind Luks ears. The silence of the apartment settled around you, soft and heavy. You closed your eyes for a second, trying not to think about the hospital or the certification. Just anything else.
You stayed there, curled up with your cats, waiting for your body to gather just enough energy to stand again. You still had to pack. Jay would be here soon. You’d feel better once you hit the road and were under people again. Being alone never did you any good.
A few minutes after you finished packing the rest of your clothing and fed the cats. You grabbed a mask and a cap, anything to make your puffy face feel a little less exposed, slung your laptop bag over one shoulder and wheeled your small suitcase out the door.
The elevator was empty on your way down.
Jay’s car pulled up a few minutes later. You straightened a little as he stepped out, smiling that big, comforting Jay-smile that hadn't changed since high school. His girlfriend was in the passenger seat, stretching backwards to hand Haneul, who was sitting in a booster seat, a piece of apple. Sunghoon sat next to her in the middle seat. He waved at you and you plastered on a tired smile.
“Hey,” Jay said as he popped the trunk. “You look like hell.”
“Thanks,” you murmured, lifting your suitcase in before he could. “I came straight from the hospital.”
He blinked. “You serious?”
You shrugged. “Yeah.”
“Did you work a night shift?”, he asked while closing the trunk door.
“Man, I worked five nightshifts in a row for this trip. Just to see all of you losers.”, you joked as you followed him around the car, sliding into the seat next to Sunghoon. Before you could greet any of the others Haneul screeched: “Kitty!”
“Kitty?”, you said, blinking at her and then Sunghoon, who was looking at the toddler with an equally confused face.
“Kitty!”, she just said again and pointed at you.
“Oh.”, Sunghoon laughed lowly, “On your hoodie.” He gestured to the two cats that were printed on the front of your hoodie. “She really loves cats.”
“Oh.”, you said and smiled at the child, “Yeah kitties, you’re right Haneul.”
Sunghoons whole side was pressed into yours in the tight space of the backseat of the car.
“Good morning Y/N,” he said softly.
“Hi,” you answered just as softly as you adjusted your bag in your lap.
“Y/N, this is Seol,” Jay’s girlfriend turned around from the front, a warm smile on her face.
“Nice to meet you,” you said quickly.
“Yeah! It’s so nice to finally meet you as well! I’ve been told a lot about you by the rest.”, she said and laughed gently.
“Only good stuff I hope!”, you nudged Sunghoons shoulder with yours.
“Nah I exclusively told her about how you are an awful cook and are obsessive about cleaning and hate chicken.”, he shrugged and smirked.
“Okay Seol. Those are lies and he is exaggerating. I can cook decently and he is just as obsessive with cleanliness!", you exclaimed and punched him this time.
Everyone laughed and Jay threaded the car into the morning traffic.
“Is it okay with you if I sleep a bit? I just came from a nightshift and I am really tired.”, you asked shyly after a while.
“Oh no no. Just sleep, we will wake you when we are there.”, Jay said and lowered the volume of the radio, which was currently playing kids songs.
“Okay, thank you,” you nodded and rested your head against the cold window.
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You stirred as the car slowed to a stop, the rumble of the tires on gravel pulling you halfway out of sleep. A moment later, a hand brushed your shoulder and gently nudged you awake. You blinked one eye open.
“Y/N,” Sunghoon said softly. “We’re at a rest stop. Do you wanna stretch, pee, get something to eat?”
You squinted at him, brain lagging behind. “Mhm,” you mumbled, not even sure what you were agreeing to.
He huffed a quiet laugh, and the sound made you smile for a split second before your eyelids slid shut again.
“I’ll get you something,” he said under his breath, already maneuvering himself out of the car. You caught a glimpse of him awkwardly twisting his long legs past Haneul’s booster seat on the other side before the door shut with a thud.
The warmth of his body left with him.
You must’ve dozed off again, because the next thing you knew, the door creaked open, cool air slipping inside. Then something cool and plastic pressed lightly against your arm.
“Hey.” His voice was closer this time. “Here.”
You blinked up at him, disoriented. Sunghoon was standing just outside the car, holding out a plastic container and a bottle of water. His hair was a little messy from the wind, his sleeves pushed up.
“Will you let me in? I really don’t feel like climbing over Haneuls seat again”, he said, shaking his head.
You groaned. “Ugh. Yeah. Gimme a sec.”
You unbuckled your seatbelt and made your way outside of the car, taking the bowls and the bottles Sunghoon was holding. He climbed in and waited for you to hand him your breakfast back before returning to your original position.
He handed over the lower plastic container. The lid was already cracked open slightly. It was an acai bowl. The same one you used to get back in med school when you had early study mornings. He bought them every time he went grocery shopping, picking out the bananas for you, because he knew you didn’t like them. You glanced down. No banana slices, not a single one. His bowl had what looked like an excessive amount of bananas inside.
You didn’t say anything. Just swallowed quietly and dug the spoon in.
The car started rolling again, Jay humming along to some pop song on the radio, and Haneul giggled as Sunghoon tried to open her triangle gimbap without tearing the nori apart. You ate slowly. The fruit was tart and cold, the granola soft but still sweet. It settled your stomach a little. When you were done, you capped the empty container and leaned forward, slipping it down onto the floor near your feet.
“Thanks,” you murmured, eyes half-lidded again.
Sunghoon gave a small hum of acknowledgment, still focused on cleaning sticky rice off Haneul’s fingers with a napkin.
You let your head fall back against the seat, eyes drifting shut again. You didn’t notice when your head tilted to the side, bumping softly against the firm line of Sunghoon’s shoulder.
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“Y/N,” a voice said softly near your ear. “We’re here.”
You blinked awake, your vision was slow to adjust as you realized your head was resting on something warm.
Oh no.
You jerked upright, barely catching yourself with your hand against the door. Sunghoon’s shoulder was right there, where your cheek had been. Heat rose fast in your chest and flushed up your neck.
“I- ” you stammered, brushing hair out of your face, “sorry, I didn’t mean to-”
He just laughed quietly, unclipping his seatbelt. “You were dead asleep. It’s fine.”
“But I-seriously, I didn’t realize I-”
“Y/N.” He looked at you, a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Shut up and get out. We both know you needed the sleep and I was not about to wake you because you used me as a pillow. ” He slid out of the seat with practiced grace and stretched his arms out. “I would have if you drooled on me tho.”
You nodded, flustered and still not fully awake, but you managed a muttered, “Right. Okay. Thanks.”
Outside, the mountain air was noticeably cooler than the air in Seoul. The morning fog hadn’t lifted completely yet, and the gravel crunched as you all moved toward the house you rented. Haneul was skipping ahead to Seol, her tiny backpack bouncing with every step.
The house was bigger than you expected. It was a two-level cabin-style place with warm wooden siding and wide windows.
The house had enough rooms for each couple…and one for you and Sunghoon. Yunjin and Ningning both offered to room with you while Sunghoon slept in their room with Heeseung or Taesung. You declined, not wanting them to be forced to sleep in a room with you when they could be spending time with their partners just because you might feel a bit awkward. For the record you were feeling a bit awkward but this was also the ninth or tenth time you saw Sunghoon after breaking up. But not awkward enough to switch rooms, that's for sure.
You followed, a step behind Jay and Sunghoon, your own suitcase rolling quietly over the gravel. At the base of the staircase, Sunghoon paused again and turned halfway to you. His voice was lower this time, not as even. “Um. You want me to carry yours up?”
You blinked. “No, it’s fine. I’ve got it.”
He nodded once and started up the stairs with your suitcase anyway, the quiet creaking under his steps the only sound for a moment. The hallway upstairs was lined with doors, the floorboards creaking softly under your steps. Sunghoon led the way, peeking into rooms, mumbling under his breath about finding the one with two beds. When he finally found it at the end of the hall, he stepped aside so you could see inside.
"Looks like this is us," he said, nudging the door open.
Two single beds, pushed against opposite walls, faced each other. A shared dresser stood between them, and soft afternoon light filtered in through gauzy curtains. You stepped in and dropped your backpack on the closest bed with a sigh.
“Man,” you mumbled, kicking off your shoes and letting yourself fall face-first into the mattress, “I’m so tired I might actually cry.”
Sunghoon let out a low chuckle behind you, the familiar sound making your shoulders unclench just a little.
“Then sleep,” he said, dropping your suitcase beside the dresser and his own against the far wall. “No one’s gonna judge. We’ve all been in the car for hours, and you came straight from work.”
You rolled onto your back with a groan, one arm over your eyes. “No, no. It’s fine. I’ll just power through.”
“Y/N,” he said flatly, crossing his arms. “Sleep. I am not dealing with a grumpy you just because you want to prove a point.”
You cracked one eye open and squinted at him. “I’m not grumpy.”
He gave you a look. “Y/N.”
“What?”
“Sleep.”
You huffed and repeated yourself. “I’m not grumpy.”
He snorted. “Yeah. Right. You’re worse than a toddler.”
Your jaw dropped. “Liar.”
“I’ve dealt with an actual toddler. Extensively. Believe me. I know the signs.”
You grabbed the nearest pillow and launched it at his head. “You absolute menace.”
He caught it midair, smug as ever. “I lived with you for almost seven years. You were sleep-deprived for at least four of them.”
“Exactly, and I was very pleasant.”
“You were a hazard.”
You squinted at him. “Say that again and I’ll smother you with your pillow tonight.”
He just laughed, tossing the pillow back at the foot of your bed. “If you don’t sleep, I swear I’ll lock you in this room and take your phone and laptop with me.”
You stared at him. “You wouldn’t.”
“I absolutely would.”
He raised a brow. You narrowed your eyes. Then flopped back down dramatically with a heavy sigh. “Fine.”
“That’s what I thought.”
You rolled onto your side, hugging the pillow. “Maybe I was a toddler. But you still loved me.”
There was a pause.
“Shut up and sleep.”, he threw the pillow back at you and it hit your back with a dull thud.
You smiled into the blanket, smug despite the exhaustion. “That’s what I thought.”
“Seriously, Y/N. If you don’t pass out in the next five minutes, I’m calling your attending and request sedation.”
But you didn’t argue further. You curled up properly, pulling the blanket over your shoulder and tucking your legs in. The bed was soft and smelled faintly of laundry detergent and cedarwood. The last thing you registered before sleep pulled you under was the quiet creak of the door as Sunghoon stepped back out. ──────────────────────── You had no idea how much time had passed when you felt the full weight of another person slam onto you. “Wakey wakey sleeping beauty.”, Jake whispered in your ear. “Jake,” you groaned, voice muffled into the pillow. “Get off me.” “I missed you too,” he said cheerfully, wiggling around on top of the blanket and fully ignoring your attempt to shove him off. “Congrats, you’ve been selected for a special mission.” “What,” you grunted, “the hell are you talking about?” “Grocery run,” he said, as if this was the most exciting thing ever. “You, me, and our favorite law nerd.” You pried your eyes open. “Jake. Move your fat ass.” “No can do,” he sang, “not until you confirm your participation.” You growled something unintelligible and tried to sit up anyway, managing to half-shove him off as you groggily blinked around the room. It was brighter now, early afternoon, probably. You felt puffy-eyed, warm, and absolutely not ready to deal with Sunghoon or Jake or any decision-making. Still, you sighed, stretched, and got up. “We were picked in a fair game of rok paper and scissors and Yunjin lost for you. So we’re going to emart.”, Jake grinned and watched how you tried to shake yourself awake. “Fine. Whatever.”
Jake grinned and clapped like a seal. “Let’s go, Sleeping Beauty.”
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The glass doors slid open with a cheerful chime, and you immediately veered off to grab a shopping cart.
"Okay, let’s be efficient and quick," you began, only to slow down as you reached the ramen aisle. "Actually… should we grab some for Heeseung?"
Jake perked up immediately. “Oh yeah, let’s goooo.”
Sunghoon groaned behind you. “God, not again. This is gonna be just like that trip to Sokcho, isn’t it? Where you and Heeseung lived off Shin Ramyeon and triangle kimbap for three straight days?”
Jake grinned. “Those were elite meals.”
You snorted, grabbing a couple packs. “You two are actual menaces. There’s a toddler on this trip now. No one’s living off processed soup. I will feed her and anyone else who might want to participate healthy and nutritious meals.”
Sunghoon nodded solemnly. “Y/N is right. We have to be responsible adults now.”
Jake blinked. “You literally bought Haneul cereal with marshmallows inside.”
“Okay, and?” Sunghoon raised a brow. “I was totally planning on having an overly excited two year old running through my flat.”
You whacked the handle of the cart gently with your hand. “I swear to god, if either of you tries to feed Haneul overly processed sweet cereal on this trip i will murder.”
“She liked it!” Jake argued.
“She’s two!” you shot back, exasperated. “of course she would like Lucky charms!”
The three of you kept bickering your way through the aisles, Sunghoon and Jake tossing in snacks and frozen dumplings while you tried your best to balance out their food choices with fresh produce and at least two kinds of leafy greens.
Eventually, as you neared the checkout, Sunghoon slowed near a display stacked with colorful plushies and plastic toys.
“Ha-neul would love this,” he said, reaching for a giant bubble wand shaped like a bunny, which apparently made fairy noises when used.
“Nope,” you warned, grabbing the cart tighter. “Absolutely not. Put it down.”
“But–”
“Sunghoon.”
“She’d be so happy–”
“She’d also swing that thing like a sword and decapitate one of us.”
“Honestly, I’d accept it,” Jake said, nodding solemnly. “I’ve lived a full life.”
You sighed. “You two are impossible.”
Sunghoon, completely ignoring your scolding, tossed the wand back dramatically like a child denied his favorite toy. “You’re no fun.”
“And you,” you said, pointing at him with a cucumber, “want us to not be able to sleep cause Jay's already very loud and energetic toddler has a very loud and annoying toy, Sunghoon.”
Jake just laughed, loading the conveyor belt with ramen packs.
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“You holding up okay?”
You were slumped a little in the back seat, elbow propped against the window only paying half paying attention to their conversation. “Dude,” you said, rubbing at your eye, “I am so tired. I’ll probably go to bed before Haneul tonight.”
Jake laughed a little and Sunghoon piped in: “She fell asleep in the car and snored.”
You shot him a look so sharp he should’ve bled. “Okay, stop.”
He raised his hands in faux innocence, grinning. “Just saying.”
You groaned and pointed accusingly at both of them. “Sunghoon snores like a fucking chainsaw and Jake, you do too. So if I might have quietly snored a little after crying my eyes out because I had to tell two parents their baby died–” Your voice cracked for half a second, and then you snapped your mouth shut, looking out the window. “I get a pass. Okay?”
It was silent for a long moment.
“Yo, what the fuck,” Jake said softly.
You didn’t look back at them. “Let’s just not talk about it, yeah?”
There was another beat of silence, filled only by the soft sound of the radio playing another overplayed song. You really wanted to change the topic, Jake and Sunghoon would definitely never not talk about it so you had to distract them somehow.
“You know what,” you said, reaching for Sunghoon's phone, which was resting on the middle console, “This radio channel is shit I will now be the DJ of our ride.”
Sunghoon gave you a side glance. “I won’t listen to any of your musical songs right now. I can’t handle Hamlet while driving a car full of idiots.”
“That’s because you have zero taste,” you shot back, unlocking his phone. His pin hasn’t changed since high school, it was his sister's birthday. “We’re going full nostalgia today.”
Jake perked up. “Like, high school bangers?”
“Exactly.”
You scrolled through your old shared playlist, the one you all made back in your second year. A beat later, the opening notes of Hello by Joy filled the car, and you couldn’t stop the grin spreading across your face as you cranked the volume up.
“Oh no,” Sunghoon muttered. “Turn it down before you break a window.”
You ignored him and immediately began singing along.
“You’re throwing off my depth perception,” Sunghoon complained over the music. “I can’t see with you murdering the melody like that.”
“Oh really?” you leaned forward slightly, singing louder now and way off-key on purpose “Hellooooo~”
Jake wheezed but joined in.
“I’m pulling over,” Sunghoon threatened, though there was an unmistakable smile tugging at his lips. “You’re going to get us arrested for noise pollution. Turn the music down at least a bit Y/N.”
“I can’t do that,” you said and shook your head, “but I can switch to the next song!”
The moment Jake heard Twenty-three start playing, he perked up.
“No way,” he grinned, mouth still full of seaweed chips. “Turn that up even more.”
You obliged. Sunghoon groaned audibly. “Absolutely not.”
Too late. You and Jake launched into the chorus at full volume, harmonizing terribly on purpose.
“I’m twenty-three, I’m a riddle~” you sang, leaning toward Sunghoon with a smug grin. “Try to figure me out, boy~”
Jake chimed in with a falsetto, “But you still won’t get itttt~!”
Sunghoon had his head resting against the steering wheel at a red light. “I’m going to crash this car on purpose.”
“Oh, come on,” Jake laughed. “You love us.”
“I used to,” Sunghoon muttered. “Before you both decided to assault me with IU.”
You turned around in your seat, eyes squinting like a grandma. “You used to like this song. You said it was genius lyricism, remember?”
“I was young and stupid.” ──────────────────────── The house was buzzing when the three of you returned. Everyone had already changed into hiking gear, sneakers laced and backpacks slung over shoulders.
“You’ve got ten minutes to change, my loves!”, Yunjin said instead of a greeting when the three of you arrived back.
You groaned playfully. “We’re not even allowed to sit down first?”
“Nope,” Heeseung said, tossing a protein bar at you. “Fuel up and get moving, we don’t wanna miss the sunset.”
Jake was already halfway up the stairs, so you trudged up behind him with Sunghoon following suit. When you pushed into your room, you headed straight for your suitcase, searching for the leggings and the hoodie you brought for going on a hike.
Sunghoon stood awkwardly near the door for a second, “Uh, I’ll just use the bathroom, give you a minute to–”
You cut him off without even looking up. “Sunghoon, you’ve seen me naked like… many, many times.”
He froze.
You tugged out a hoodie and looked up with a raised brow. “In the last two years, not much changed aside from maybe me gaining some weight. Just turn around and change. Even if you peek, I don’t really care.”
He blinked. “Are you sure?”
“Yeah,” you nodded, already pulling off Kai's hoodie over your shoulders.
Sunghoon turned around and reached for his suitcase.
You both changed in mostly silence. Mostly, because you started muttering curses under your breath when your sock got stuck in the corner of the suitcase and Sunghoon, still facing the wall, chuckled.
“I heard that,” he said.
“Great. I am glad your ears haven’t lost their function in the last ten minutes.” ──────────────────────── This was a mistake.
You were maybe thirty minutes into the hike and already regretting every life decision that had led to this moment. The incline was steeper than you remembered from Yunjin’s very casual description of the hike, and your thighs were burning. Your hoodie stuck uncomfortably to your back, your water bottle was nearly empty and you still had almost an hour to go, if not more.
You tugged your cap down further, wiping your sweat-slicked forehead with the back of your hand. You were never really a athletic person and considering you’re spending your time studying or working, this ‘small hike up the hill’ was a bigger workout than you anticipated. “Who the hell thought walking uphill for two hours to eat dinner was a good idea?” you muttered mostly to yourself.
Sunghoon glanced back over his shoulder and grinned. He was only a few steps ahead, walking backwards now with infuriating ease.
“You’re the one who said you wanted to see more green.”
“I meant, like. Spinach in my rice. Not trees around me.”
You huffed and slowed a bit more. Your calves were screaming. This was not what people with four night shifts behind them should be doing. You should be home sleeping or studying, not sweating through your hoodie and trying not to trip over exposed roots.
Sunghoon waited at a bend in the path, hands on his hips. “You okay?”
You gave him a flat look. “Do I look okay?”
“Honestly?” He tilted his head. “You look like you’re about to just lie down on the floor and wait until someone is going to pick you up, like Haneul just did.”
You snorted. “I’m wasting precious study time to walk around trees, Park. I have fetal monitoring notes to memorize. Placenta slides to cry over. Meanwhile, I’m out here, climbing hills.”
He laughed. A real, full laugh that pulled his shoulders up and crinkled his eyes.
“Want me to carry you like the toddler you are?” he offered, already half-turning like he might actually mean it. You knew he could and would if you asked.
You waved him off. “Absolutely not. If I’m dying, I’m dying with dignity.”
“Noted.” But he slowed down anyway, matching your pace without a word as the rest of the group drifted further ahead. ──────────────────────── The hike was worth it. The view was ridiculous.
Golden light spilled over the horizon, washing the mountains in soft warmth and making the little patio of the restaurant glow like something out of a movie. The food was incredible, grilled meat, fresh vegetables, jjigae bubbling in the middle of the table.
You leaned back in your chair, a half-full bowl cradled in your hands, and watched the others laugh.
Heeseung and Ningning were teasing Yujin’s boyfriend, who looked overwhelmed but pleased. Jake was narrating a story about a ski trip you did a few years ago to Seol, while Jay kept adjusting the tiny blanket wrapped around Haneul’s shoulders where she was now curled up asleep in his lap, her tiny face smushed against his chest. You felt something crack a little inside your chest.
This was the sort of evening you used to dream about. Group trips with the people you loved most.
You used to think… you’d bring your kid along. You always dreamed of having kids early, to raise them with your chaotic group of friends, just like Jay had.
You blinked slowly, staring down into your bowl of rice.
You really should have been there. You should have taken the time out of your schedule when it wasn’t as stressful as it was now to stay in contact with your friends, to see Haneul grow up. To help Jay whenever he struggled. For god sake if someone knew how to handle kids, or well new borns, it was you. But you felt so guilty that you couldn’t even look Jay in the eyes.
You hadn’t meant to drift so far away. You just… kept choosing work. Kept telling yourself there’d be time later. That after the internship, after year one, after the shift change, after this week of nightshifts… But the weeks had somehow stretched into years.
You looked up, eyes flicking across the table. Jay was murmuring something to his girlfriend, brushing a bit of rice off Haneul’s cheek. He looked happy.
You cleared your throat and reached for the water pitcher, blinking hard. ──────────────────────── Back at the house, everyone slowly said goodnight one after another, apparently drained from the hike up to the restaurant. You moved on autopilot, brushing your teeth, tying your hair up in a sloppy braid, pulling a hoodie over your tank top. Sunghoon was already in bed when you slipped back into the room.
The air in the room was warm, a little stuffy, but somehow very familiar. A faint mix of detergent and something you couldn’t name but had always been his. Just... him.
“Goodnight,” you mumbled, tugging your phone charger to your side of the room.
“Night,” he said, his voice already thick with sleep. And not five minutes later, his soft, uneven snore rumbled gently through the quiet.
You laughed under your breath. He always snored when he was dead tired.
But somehow you weren’t even close to being dead tired.
You laid there, eyes open, staring at the slats in the ceiling. Your blanket was bunched at your waist, legs too warm to be under it, arms too cold to be free. The soft rise and fall of Sunghoons breath should have been comforting, it always was when you couldn’t sleep, but all it did today was echo in your chest. Usually if you couldn’t sleep and Jaemin was home you would have slithered into his bed and tried to fall asleep listening to his heartbeat or his breathing, but you really didn’t want to ask your ex to cuddle you because you couldn't sleep.
God, the whole room smelled like him. That was unfair.
You gave up just before 2am.
Silently, carefully, you slid out of bed, grabbed your iPad from the tote near the door, and crept into the hallway.
The house was quiet. Not the hospital quiet you were used to, filled with beeping and heavy footsteps, but real quiet.
You made your way into the main room and curled up in the corner of the couch, dragging your hoodie sleeve over your hands to warm them. With a sign you opened anki and tried to focus.
Somewhere around half an hour later, your phone buzzed.
Jaemin: The restaurant looks really good. How did they get you to hike up there tho?
You huffed out a soundless laugh.
You: It’s 2:37. Why are you alive.
Jaemin: Nightshift. And I’m on break. Why are YOU alive.
You: Can’t sleep. Again. Brain won’t turn off. So i am studying.
Jaemin: Of course you are. You absolute gremlin. If you are still active on anki when i take my next break ill come to that house and steal your electric devices!
You in fact were still active on anik when Jaemin had another break at 4:30 am but decided not only because he was scolding you, but also because you finally felt exhausted, to sleep. ──────────────────────── The floor creaked under your weight when you tiptoed back into your room. Sunghoon stirred as you slid into your bed again, but didn’t wake up.
You weren’t sure what woke you, the creak of the door, maybe, or the sudden burst of cold air against your legs when the blanket shifted, but the next thing you registered was a high-pitched squeal:
“Uncle Sunghoon!”
You heard the thud of a small weight launching itself onto Sunghoons bed, followed by the sound of tiny feet thumping against the mattress and Sunghoon’s very quick, very groggy, “Shhh, hey. Haneul, not so loud. Shhh.”
You blinked your eyes open slowly. The light in the room was already too bright for how little sleep you’d gotten. Your head ached dully behind your eyes and your limbs felt like lead, every cell protesting the idea of being awake.
Still, a part of you couldn’t help the soft pull at your mouth when you saw Haneul crawling over the covers, tugging at Sunghoon’s sleeve.
“Aunt Y/N is still very sleepy so we have to be very quiet, okay?”, he asked her while sitting up and pulling the giggling toddler into a hug.
“Breakfast”, she said with a bit too much enthusiasm into her pacifier, only to be sushed by Sunghoon again.
“Let’s get some breakfast for you and let Aunt Y/N sleep, huh Haneul? Is that fine for you?”
The toddler nodded enthusiastically and clinged to Sunghoon's upper body when he untangled himself from his blankets.
You didn’t say anything, just pressed your cheek into the pillow and let your eyes close again, heart catching strangely at the sound of Sunghoon’s voice speaking for you.
The door clicked softly shut behind them. ──────────────────────── When you woke up again, it was well past ten.
It was quiet. You took a deep breath and rubbed your eyes harshly before making your way into the bathroom on the hallway. It was cold inside, someone left the window open after showering. Soft morning light filtered into the room while you washed your face and brushed your teeth.
The floor creaked faintly when you shuffled into the kitchen. It smelled like food and your stomach grumbled loudly when you saw the plate of fried egg and toast on the counter. A stickynote was glued to the waterbottle next to it: “We took Haneul to the petting zoo! Didn’t want to wake you, you looked exhausted. We’ll be back around lunch. Text if you need anything ♡”
You stared at the note for a moment, rubbing at the sleep still clinging to your face. They left without you. You reached for the note. Somehow you were glad that they let you sleep in but you were missing out. Again. Even though you finally had the time to actually come along. You shook your head to get rid of the thoughts quickly, they meant well. And them not being there until lunch meant you could maybe be a bit more productive than last night. After a long warm shower you actually styled your hair for once, curling the edges slightly and bundled yourself up to go down to the city. The air outside was crisp and smelled like rain when you took a deep breath through your nose. You wandered without much direction, letting your feet carry you past a few small shops before finding a little cafe tucked between two houses. Its windows were fogged up and it seemed like half of the town was squeezed into the little space. The bell above the door chimed quietly when you made your way in. A couple sitting near the window stood up the moment you entered so you settled into their seat as soon as they gathered their used cutlery. You ordered a coffee and one cookie and pulled out your Ipad. You almost didn’t notice the waitress returning with your order, already flipping through your notes. It was almost embarrassing how much comfort you found in pharmacology charts.
Almost an hour later you took a toilet break and used the chance to look at your phone.
Yujin: where u at?? we're back!!!
You smiled a little and typed back a short reply: Y/N At a café. I didn’t feel like staying in the house alone. Thanks for letting me sleep in
Yujin: No worries. It was boring anyway. There were like 3 sheeps and a fuck ton of mud. Haneul was excited tho so it’s whatever She is napping rn and we’re gonna nap as well. She woke the whole house up at 7 am. What do you wanna eat for Lunch later? Jay is cooking
Y/N Yikes. I don’t really care. Text me when you wake up, I’ll come back to the house <3
Yujin:Will do <3
Fifteen minutes passed, maybe twenty, before someone tapped your shoulder. You glanced up, expecting it to be the waitress. But when you turned around it wasn’t the waitress, it was Sunghoon.
His hair was slightly tousled from the wind and he was holding up two cups, wearing that same quiet smile you’d seen on him a hundred times before. One that was more eyes than mouth.
"Hey," he said, setting the drinks down before sliding into the seat across from you.
You blinked. “Hi Sunghoon. What are you doing here?”
“I didn’t feel like sleeping,” he said shrugging. “And I have to work a bit. One of my clients has been sending me emails nonstop. So I figured I could join you.”
“I-uhm- sure,” your gaze dropped to the cup he placed in front of you. It was Yuja tea. Your favorite.
He leaned back in his chair, unzipping his laptop bag. “I swear this client is causing me to grow gray hair prematurely,” he said casually.
You huffed a soft laugh, watching as he opened his laptop. “I know a good hair dresser that could help out with that.”
“Thank you Y/N. I’ll come back to that in a few years.”, he just chuckled.
You stared at him for a second longer than you should’ve before shaking yourself out of it and turning back to your tablet. “I’m sure it will be sooner than later if you can’t catch a break even on a vacation day,” you murmured without thinking.
He glanced at you, eyes crinkling. “Look at who’s talking.”
You didn’t reply, just hummed and pouted at him.
You were halfway through your second set of flashcards when Sunghoon asked, voice soft but curious, “Did you sleep alright?”
You leaned back a little. “Yeah. Thanks for saving me from the Haneul alarm clock, by the way.”
That made him laugh quietly. “You owe me big. She was already so energetic at 6 am, I barely managed to keep her from waking up the whole house. Jay the traitor sent her to us cause he wanted to continue sleeping.”
You raised your brows. “He sent her to us? Why that? How did you manage to keep her quiet?”
“Bribery,” he said immediately. “I promised her the chocolate bread Yujin brought if she let you sleep. And that kid loves me. I am officially the favourite uncle so it's just logical.”
You smiled behind your cup. “You’re a real hero.”
“I know,” he said dramatically, then lowered his voice. “Honestly though, I don’t get how she has that much energy.”
You snorted. “Probably from her mom. Minhee was a morning person afterall. And I mean don’t complain you used to wake me up at the crack of dawn when you went out for a run.”
He gave you a look. “Please. Just cause you’re lazy and an evening person, I don’t have to be.”
“Still am,” you said with a grin. “Don’t judge me.”
“I’m not judging,” he said, mock-serious. “I’m just saying I’ve seen you do night shifts on nothing but Coke Zero and mint gum. And suffer when having to go to a morning shift even though you slept a whole 8 hours.”
You rolled your eyes, biting back a laugh. “I function just fine, thanks.”
He hummed like he didn’t believe you, then went back to typing something into his laptop.
For a few minutes, the only sounds were the tapping of keys and the soft hum of conversation around you.
It was strangely… familiar. The two of you, sitting in this calm pocket of the afternoon, sharing space again. Studying or working together in silence. ──────────────────────── Almost two hours later Jake called Sunghoon to come back to the house. Everyone, including the actual toddler, had woken up from their nap and they were about to start cooking.
You looked up from your Ipad to look outside. Streams of rain were streaking down the foggy windows.
“Mhm,” you said, wiping the condensation from the window with your sleeve. “Looks like we are going to get a free shower.”
Sunghoon's gaze followed yours. “I think I have an umbrella in my bag. Wait a second.”
He leaned down to lift his laptop bag onto his lap. A small teddy plush was dangling from its handle.
You chuckled and reached forward to turn it into a front facing position while Sunghoon was searching around in his bag. “This is cute. Where did you get that?”
“A colleague gifted it to me for my birthday last year,” he said absentmindedly, “ah ha! Look at that. An umbrella.”
You laughed at him when he triumphantly held it up into the air. “Now nothing is stopping us from eating whatever Jay cooked!”
You both slipped your shoes on and stepped out into the drizzle. The umbrella opened with a snap, and Sunghoon tilted it slightly toward you as you huddled close, bags clutched to your chests.
After five steps, your shoulder was already soaked.
“Can you hold it higher?” you asked, trying to wedge in under the tiny canopy.
“I am holding it higher. You’re just hoarding the dry space,” he shot back, elbowing you lightly.
“Oh, please. I’m sacrificing my entire back right now.”
A gust of wind caught the umbrella from underneath, flipping it slightly and splashing a cold stream of water down both your necks. You shrieked.
You shoved him gently with your shoulder, nearly knocking him into a puddle. “Maybe if you worked out less, there’d be more room under here.”
He snorted. “Don’t blame the broad shoulders. You yourself said my arms are delectable, if i might remind you.”
“I did!”, you said, pressing your side closer into his, “but I didn’t know the consequences of you having a beautiful back and arms would be me being drenched in rain.”
By the time you made it back to the house, your jeans were clinging to your legs, your hair was stuck to your cheeks, and the only dry things were your laptop bags.
You both stopped in front of the door and stared at it.
“Please tell me you have a key,” you said, already knowing the answer.
Sunghoon patted his soaked pockets uselessly. “It’s inside. I didn’t think we’d get locked out in the wilderness.”
You rolled your eyes and reached up to jab the doorbell. From inside, you heard the muffled sound of footsteps and then the click of the lock.
The door swung open and Ningning blinked at you both, horrified.
“Jesus Christ, what did you do?”
Without missing a beat, you shrugged. “Sunghoon and I decided to share a free shower.”
Ningning took one look at the sad excuse for an umbrella dripping on the porch and stepped aside. “You two are a cautionary tale.”
You walked past her with your bag clutched to your chest like a lifeline. “Now, if you’ll excuse me, Ning, I called dibs on being the first one in the proper shower.”
“I didn’t hear anything about dibs,” Sunghoon protested behind you.
“I made it spiritual,” you called over your shoulder. “Go dry your pretty arms somewhere else.”
“Unbelievable,” he muttered, kicking his shoes off. ──────────────────────── Jay had cooked enough to feed an army. The whole table was filled with plates and drinks, most of them non-alcoholic, to your surprise. Hanuel had claimed Sunghoons to be her chair of choice for the dinner.
You’d ended up on the far end of the table, half-listening to a conversation between Heeseung and Jake about whether or not a smart fridge was a worthy investment, but your gaze kept drifting. You weren’t even trying to be subtle about it.
Sunghoon had one arm loosely wrapped around Haneul to steady her, the other wielding a spoon with exaggerated precision.
“Here comes the airplane,” he said, swooping the spoon in mid-air. “It’s approaching the hangar! Landing initiated in three… two… one!”
Haneul squealed and opened her mouth wide, clapping her hands when he made a whooshing sound as the spoon “landed.”
You smiled. You just couldn’t help it.
He did it again. And again. Each time with a new variation. Rocket ship. Puppy taxi. Bubble boat. Her tiny body rocked with laughter, head thrown back as he played along, utterly unbothered by the food smeared across her cheek or the rice sticking to his sleeve.
You watched the scene unfold with something warm and gentle blooming in your chest.
It felt a bit bittersweet at the same time. You were a stranger in a room full of uncles and aunties, despite knowing all the uncles and aunties for years, god forbid you even helped her being born, but you were never there. You never gave her a chance to know you as auntie Y/N.
Your eyes stayed on them.
He was so at ease. Smiling, shoulders relaxed, wearing a oversized hoodie, his hair still slightly damp from his shower.
He glanced up once, catching you watching. He gave you a little wave with the spoon before turning back to Haneul.
You looked down at your plate, cheeks flushed, fingers suddenly fidgety.
Jake nudged your elbow. “You okay?”
You nodded quickly. “Yeah. Just… tired.”
Jake hummed and you knew he didn’t believe you. You didn’t believe yourself either. ──────────────────────── After you finished eating and cleaning the dining room, the group gathered in the living room. Haneul had asked if you could watch Cinderella so the whole group decided that, ten adults should somehow squeeze onto the two sofas in front of the TV to watch Cinderella.
Someone had dimmed the lights, and you ended up tucked into one corner of the couch, knees bent, feet slipped under Yunjin’s thighs for warmth. She didn’t even blink, just handed you the end of the blanket.
Sunghoon was on the floor, his back against the couch, Haneul wrapped around him. Her small body had gone lax with exhaustion, one cheek pressed to his chest, her breathing deepening slowly halfway through the movie.
You had your kindle on your lap. You were reading one of the books you downloaded a while ago. It was something sweet and uncomplicated, the kind of story that usually soothed your overworked brain. But tonight, you couldn’t concentrate on the story at all. You signed and closed the book. Your gaze wandered through the room until it was stuck on Sunghoon again.
He wasn’t watching the movie either. His eyes were half-lidded, head tilted slightly toward the toddler, arms looped protectively around her. The flickering light from the screen caught on his lashes and jawline.
Your stomach twisted. Not sharply. Just a soft, odd pull, warm and aching all at once.
He looked good like this. You had such a weak spot for kids and seeing him holding her like that just did something to you.
You ducked your head, trying to focus on your book again. But somehow, your hands wandered. You scrolled past your current novel and opened a medical textbook.
Prenatal Cardiac Anomalies: A Diagnostic Overview.
Somehow the thought of continuing reading through your textbook felt easier than reading a romance novel right now. ──────────────────────── You were tired.
God, you were tired.
But your brain… your brain was still ticking. It didn’t matter how warm the blanket was, how silent the house had gone once everyone scattered to bed. It didn’t matter that Sunghoon was across the room, already passed out, snoring softly into his pillow.
Your eyes stayed open.
You lay there staring at the ceiling for ten minutes. Then twenty. Then maybe thirty. And still, your thoughts didn’t quiet down.
So you slipped out of bed and crept down the stairs to curl up in the armchair in the wintergarden. You told yourself you’d just review a bit more.
Just enough to stop your brain from chewing itself alive.
But ten minutes in, you were still reading the same sentence.
Something about estrogen receptor profiles.
It might as well have been written in Greek. You read it. Then reread it. Then again.
Your fingers clenched around the edges of your iPad, frustration was simmering somewhere between your sternum and your throat. You knew this topic. You’d studied it three times already. Why wasn’t it sticking? Why did your eyes feel too dry, your brain too foggy and your heart too tight all at once?
You didn’t even hear his footsteps until a voice broke through your haze.
“Y/N?”
You flinched so hard you nearly dropped the iPad.
“Jesus,” you gasped, clutching your chest. “What the fuck, Sunghoon.”
He stepped inside, hoodie tugged over his hair, barefoot. “I didn’t mean to scare you.”
You gave him a look and pouted. “Maybe don't sneak on at me then.”
“Sorry,” he said, coming closer to peer onto the glowing screen. “You coming back to bed?”
You shook your head quickly. “I’m fine. I just…couldn’t sleep.”
He looked at you, brow furrowed gently. “So you decided to study?”
“I had to,” you mumbled. “I didn’t finish everything I wanted to finish today.”
“You studied like 4 hours in that cafe today, Y/N.”
“I know, but I am still behind on my plan, since I didn't do enough yesterday.”
He didn’t say anything to that just let himself sink down on the chair opposite to yours, watching you.
You tried to go back to the flashcards, but your fingers were trembling slightly now. You felt stupid. Weak. Like no amount of time would ever be enough to catch up. Like your worth was balancing on how much you crammed into your already overflowing brain. You did study for hours today, but it felt like nothing stuck. Everything you revised was gone.
“You do this often?” he asked after a while, voice quieter.
You hesitated. “Sometimes.”
“Do you always study when you can’t sleep?”
“Not always,” you murmured. “Sometimes I just… go to Jaemin’s room. Or he comes to mine. It helps. Being around someone. You know.”
He nodded slowly, eyes soft. “I get that.”
There was a long pause.
Then, wordlessly, he leaned forward and gently pulled the iPad from your hand. Your fingers twitched, but you didn’t stop him.
“You’re done for today,” he said.
“Sunghoon–”
“You’re done,” he repeated. “Come on.”
You blinked at him, heart thudding. “But I haven’t finished–”
“I know you haven’t.” His voice stayed calm. “But you look like you’re about to cry and that’s when it stops being useful.”
You stared at him for a second longer. Then finally, with a tiny exhale, you let him take your hand and pull you up. He was right, this was just a waste of time at this point.
Neither of you said anything as you padded through the hallway together. He didn’t say a word as you crawled back into your bed and turned to face the wall and finally let your eyes close.
But you knew he was still awake, laying in the bed across from you. You heard him shifting across the room, rustling his blanket in the process.
After a few moments he softly said your name.
“Y/N?”
He moved again and his bed creaked. “Would it help… if we shared one bed?”
You blinked against the darkness of the room but didn’t answer him. ──────────────────────── You came down later than usual the next morning.
The floorboards creaked under your socks as you descended the stairs, the scent of toasted bread and instant coffee already filling the air.
When you turned the corner, Sunghoon was sitting at the table, a bowl of cereal in front of him. His hair was slightly damp and unstyled and he looked just as tired as you felt. His laptop was in front of him, the light reflecting in his glasses and he was frowning at the screen.
“Morning,” Jake offered cheerfully, mouth half-full of toast.
You smiled faintly at him, tearing your gaze away from Sunghoon's figure. He shouldn’t be working right now, he was on vacation. “Morning.”
You moved around the kitchen on autopilot, pouring yourself a cup of coffee and grabbing a plate.
You sat down diagonally across from Sunghoon, not quite opposite, since you knew he didn’t like it when drinks stood behind his laptop. He didn’t look at you, but his foot nudged the table leg once, just enough to make the water in your glass ripple slightly and you look up. He smiled and winked at you. You just rolled your eyes and went back to your slice of toast.
Maybe you should have just said yes yesterday. You knew he didn’t sleep until he was sure you’ve fallen asleep, he never did. He was always too afraid that you would go back to studying if he slept before you did. You did your best and fell asleep shortly after laying down, your body was apparently exhausted enough to just sleep and overpower your ever running brain in the comfort of knowing someone, of knowing Sunghoon, was there. ──────────────────────── The small market Yunjin made you go to was filled with noise and way too many people.
The air was sticky and warm in the alleyway the market was located in, thick with the scent of frying oil and sweet batter, fresh fruit and grilled meat. You weaved your way past a stall selling steamed buns, following your friends. They were trying to find the small samgyeopsal restaurant Ningning found on Naver yesterday. You slowed down a bit to ask Sunghoon if he would like to get some tangerines for his mom. She loved tangerines, especially those from the South of the country, claiming they taste sweeter and better. Whenever you were on trips, Sunghoon and you always brought some for her. You stopped walking when you realized he wasn't behind you anymore, and turned around to scan over the crowd of people. He was a few meters behind you, by the fish tanks, big plastic tubs filled with live octopus and silver fish darting through shallow water.
Sunghoon stood just behind the crowd, Haneul slumped against his shoulder, pacifier in her mouth, red-eyed and sniffly.
She must’ve cried recently, her face was blotchy and her nose was slightly runny. It was pressed against Sunghoon's shoulder, little hands fisted in the back of his shirt. His free hand was gently supporting her back, rocking her ever so slightly as they watched the fish dart around in the shallow water.
You frowned. Haneul had been off all morning, a bit clingier, a bit paler, her usual chatter reduced to sleepy murmurs. The market noise and heat couldn’t have been helping.
“She didn’t want to be set down,” he said when you approached, his voice quiet. “She started crying again when I tried. We even had to get out her pacifier," he grumbled, seemingly unhappy about that fact.
You stepped closer and softly reached out to stroke her cheek with the back of your finger. “Oh no, Haneulie. Don’t cry, pretty girl,” you murmured.
The toddler blinked at you, her lower lip wobbling around the pink piece of plastic in her mouth.
You turned to Sunghoon. “Do you think she’d be okay with a little sugar?”
He glanced down at Haneul, then up at you. “Sure. I’m not her dad. Why would I say no to sugar? We will just give her back to Jay if she has a sugar high.”
You laughed under your breath. “Good point. I'll be back in a second. Don't move.”
With that, you turned on your heel and started weaving through the crowd again, dodging a group of elderly women with shopping trolleys to reach the fried snack stall. You came back with three twisted dough sticks wrapped in parchment, still warm in your hands.
"Here," you said already in motion to hand Sunghoon one of the kwwaebggis, when you realized he had his hands full of a toddler, "I thought you'd like one aswell."
"Thank you, Y/N", he said and tried to lower Haneul to the ground. She made an unhappy noise and strengthened her grip on Sunghoon's Shirt.
He paused mid-motion. “Okay, okay, I got you,” he murmured, adjusting her on his hip again. “No setting you down today.”
Her head dropped against his shoulder with an exaggerated sigh through her pacifier.
“She’s really attached to you, huh?” you asked, watching them both with an amused smile as you tore off a piece of the warm kwabaegi.
Sunghoon gave a helpless little shrug. “I don’t know what I did to deserve this loyalty, but I’m too scared to test it.”
You laughed softly and stepped a bit closer to the two of them. “Look what I got you,” you said softly, holding out a piece of the kwabaegi to the toddler.
She looked at it and shook her head, burying it more in Sunghoon's shoulder.
"Would you like to give me your pacifier to try? I promise it's very yummy, Haneul.", you said, offering the piece again, but she pushed it away with her tiny palm.
You ate the piece to demonstrate to her that it really is yummy. "Mhm. I really like kwabaegi, Haneul. Uncle Sunghoon does too."
He nodded and adjusted her in his arms. "You should really try one, baby. I am sure you'll feel better afterwards."
She just whined a ‘no’ again.
“Look, Haneul-ah,” you cooed, exaggerating your tone, ripping a piece of kwabaegi off and making an airplane motion towards Sunghoons mouth. “Uncle Hoonie says this is soooo yummy. Right, Uncle?”
Sunghoon’s eyes widened for a beat before he caught on. “Oh, yes. Delicious.” He leaned forward slightly and opened his mouth like a child, eyes wide and dramatic. “Mmm! So yummy!” he moaned, chewing the tiny piece you gave him like it was the best thing he’d ever tasted.
You snorted and ate a piece as well. “See? ”
Then you held out a small piece toward Haneul, who’d lifted her head just a little, eyes watching closely.
“Wanna try, baby?” you asked softly.
She hesitated… then grabbed her pacifier, let it fall to her shirt and opened her mouth.
You placed the kwabaegi gently on her tongue, and she blinked, chewed slowly and then reached for another piece from your hand, a clear sign of approval.
Sunghoon chuckled. “I see how it is. You trust Y/N, but not me.”
“She just knows I am the cooler one between the two of us,” you replied sweetly.
“Thats unfair and a lie. I did the dramatic chewing and everything!”
You rolled your eyes, but you couldn’t wipe the grin off your face as you broke off another bit and handed it to her. Haneul leaned forward eagerly this time, her little fingers brushing yours as she took it.
You fished a small pack of tissues out of your bag and started gently wiping the powdered sugar from the corner of Haneul’s mouth, when the three of you finished your twists. Then you handed Sunghoon the tissue while reaching for her water bottle.
“Here, have a sip,” you said, coaxing the toddler into taking a few careful gulps. She wriggled on his hip but didn’t protest much. She was already visibly more content, cheeks flushed from the heat and her earlier tears, but she was neither pouting nor asking for her pacifier so you took that as a win.
Sunghoon stood still, holding the pack of tissues in one hand and watching you quietly.
You glanced up and caught him staring.
“What?” you asked, a teasing lilt in your voice as you dabbed Haneul’s sticky fingers.
He blinked, then immediately looked away, letting out a small laugh, the awkward kind he did when he was trying to downplay something.
“Nothing,” he said quickly, taking a step back only to bump into a lady browsing dried squid behind him.
“Ah, sorry!” he murmured, half-bowing in apology, before shuffling back toward you with a sheepish wince.
You raised a brow. “Sunghoon. What was that?”
“Nothing,” he repeated, but his ears were turning red.
You didn’t drop it. “Seriously. What?”
He hesitated, then gave a tiny shrug, eyes darting to the toddler in his arms and back to you.
“It’s just… I don’t know.” His voice dipped lower. “That was really cute. You, with her.”
You blinked.
He scratched the back of his neck with his free hand, clearly regretting saying it out loud. “I mean…seeing you with kids. Your whole face just lights up. It’s…yeah. That.”
For a moment, all the noise of the market faded.
You swallowed, caught off guard by the softness of his tone, by how gently he was looking at you now.
You cleared your throat, quickly turning back to fish another tissue out of your bag, trying not to read too much into what he just said.
“Well, good thing I’m not completely useless,” you said, half under your breath.
Sunghoon smiled at that and Haneul reached forward again, tugging on your sleeve.
“Aunt Y/N… carry me?” she asked softly, rubbing her cheek against Sunghoon’s shirt.
You blinked, momentarily stunned. “Me?” you asked gently. “Oh sweetheart, I’m not nearly as strong as your uncle. I think he’s better for the job.”
Haneul frowned in protest, her bottom lip wobbling.
“But,” you added quickly, holding out your hand, “I can hold your hand while Uncle Honnie carries you, if that’s okay with you.”
She sniffled once, then nodded solemnly, her tiny fingers curling around yours.
You nodded and smiled at Haneul, who slumped back down onto Sunghoon's shoulder, again, her hand clasped in yours between you.
And when you glanced up, Sunghoon was already looking at you.
Not at the toddler, not at the path ahead. At you.
With a look so full of fondness it nearly knocked the breath from your chest.
You knew that expression. It was the same one he used to wear during study sessions in your kitchen. When you were half-asleep in your shared bed in the morning. When you’d laugh too hard at something dumb and he’d just… stare. Quietly.
Your stomach flipped, and you looked away with a soft smile
Together, with Haneul nestled between you, the three of you made your way back toward the group. And for just a second, your brain jumped to a version of you and Sunghoon where you weren’t carrying your friend's daughter, but your own. ──────────────────────── By the time you got back to the house, everyone was exhausted from hiking all day.
Haneul had refused to let go of either of you since the market. She clung to Sunghoon during the cable car ride, her tiny fingers twisted into his jacket. And when the buggy proved too slow and bumpy, she’d whined until you picked her up, only to eventually find her way right back into Sunghoon’s arms, where she dozed off on his chest for most of the walk back from the skywalk.
Now, sprawled out across the largest sofa, she lay curled into Sunghoon’s chest, half-asleep again, one small hand still gripping yours with determined force. Her hair was mussed, her cheeks pink from the sun, and her other fist clutched the sleeve of Sunghoon’s hoodie like a lifeline.
The rest of the group had put on Knowing Bros, half-watching while chatting quietly, half-dozing through the comfortable hum of the evening.
A heavy weight pressed into your side suddenly and you heard Heeseung grunt, while he tried to get comfortable in the small space between you and Ningning.
“Heeseung,” you groaned, cracking one eye open as you felt your entire side get squashed into the person on your right.
"Just continue sleeping Y/N. I'll just get comfortable here," he mumbled curling around his fiance and stealing part of your blanket you were sharing with her.
“You're stealing my space and my blanket,” you muttered, elbowing Heeseung without much force. There was nowhere to go, except closer to Sunghoon, who didn’t seem to mind when you shifted closer, pressed shoulder to shoulder now.
He didn’t say anything, just adjusted the blanket around Haneul’s little body to cover you as well and let her keep dozing on his chest.
The movie played on, and you decided you’d just keep your eyes closed. Not asleep, just letting yourself rest. You didn't want to fall asleep and miss out. You loved being with your friends, you loved how clingy Haneul was to 'Aunt Y/N' so you were simply resting your eyes a bit.
“Wow,” Jake muttered, grinning. “You two stole Jay’s kid and just… went straight back to being disgusting. Feels like high school all over again.”
Sunghoon huffed, not annoyed, but not amused either. His voice was low, careful. “Can we not do this right now? She’s finally sleeping.”
Jay chuckled. “She didn't get enough Coke Zero today.”
“Yeah,” Sunghoon said. You could feel him shift, tucking the blanket tighter around you both. “She isn't sleeping at night. She comes up with us and gets ready and then an hour later goes downstairs to study. I had to talk her into going back to bed yesterday.”
There was a small pause, the only sound in the room coming from the TV.
Jake softly asked: “Is she okay?”
“I mean, yeah,” Sunghoon said. “She says she’s fine.”
“You don’t believe her?”
“I didn’t say that,” he muttered. “It’s just… She’s tired.” “She’s always tired,” Yunjin said gently. “That’s what happens when you work twelve-hour shifts and study during breaks.” “No one would be surprised if she was burned out,” Heeseung added. “Honestly, with the way she pushes herself? She hasn’t slowed down in years.” There was a beat of silence. Then Yunjin spoke again, her voice tinged with guilt: “I kind of hoped this trip would be a break for her. Some actual rest. Not… cramming after we all pass out.”
Your fingers curled slightly under the blanket. You hadn’t meant for them to know. You were just trying. Trying to stay on track. Trying to not fall behind. Trying to not lose the rhythm you’d worked so hard to keep. Sunghoon’s voice was quiet now, something resigned in it. “She just doesn’t know how to stop. She never has." Ningning shifted beside you and whispered, “She’s gonna be okay, right?” Sunghoon exhaled. “She’s Y/N. She’ll keep going. Even when she shouldn’t.” You wished you could say something. Reassure them. Reassure yourself. But instead, you curled slightly closer and let yourself feel what you usually didn’t have time to: the ache of being known and the comfort of being loved, even if it was from behind closed eyes. ──────────────────────── It was past midnight again, and the house had long since gone quiet. The others had woken you up when they got ready for bed and you followed them upstairs, bruising your teeth, washing your face and curling into your bed, trying to fall asleep again.
But sleep just wouldn’t come.
You hadn’t reviewed any of your material today. Not even one section. Not one concept. You should’ve done more.
You needed to do more.
The exam wasn’t going to wait for you to stop being tired. You knew that.
So when Sunghoon's soft snores filled the silence in your bedroom, you silently removed the thick blanket of your body and crept out of the room, hoping he would stay asleep tonight. You felt incredibly guilty for worrying them all, but there was nothing you could do, nothing would help quiet down your head but finishing what you had on your study planner for today.
The soft creaks of the old wood under your feet were the only sounds as you tiptoed downstairs.
You settled on the stairs between the living room and the winter garden, legs tucked beneath you.
You weren’t reading anything. Not really. Just staring at the same sentence for the fourth time, not even blinking.
The door creaked open and you flinched slightly.
You didn’t look up until he dropped beside you on the stairs, a water bottle in one hand, his sweatshirt pulled on backwards.
“I thought you were asleep,” you said quietly.
“I was,” he replied, voice even quieter. “Until I wasn’t.”
You both sat in silence for a minute.
Then, finally, he asked, “Do you know why this keeps happening?”
You stared at your cards, thumb brushing one edge again and again. “I can’t shut it off. My brain. It just… keeps going.”
He just nodded slowly, indicating he was listening, so you kept going.
“After we broke up,” you said, your voice low, hesitant, “I was at the hospital.”
He blinked. “Yeah, I know. You worked there even before we broke up.”
“No,” you said. “Not as an employee. I was in the ER. I fainted during my shift. They diagnosed me with burnout.”
His head turned toward you sharply. “You what?”
“In the middle of rounds,” you said softly. “One second I was standing, next thing I know, I was in a hospital bed with an IV. They said it was burnout.”
“Jesus, Y/N…” he whispered.
You gave a small, humorless smile. “I think I knew it was coming. I just didn’t want to admit it.”
His brows furrowed, his jaw tense.
“It wasn’t just the job,” you continued staring outside. “It was the exams, the night shifts, the pressure, that one asshole attending who made my life hell and still trying to be a good girlfriend and friend. Going on dates, and meeting up with the others.”
You drew a shaky breath. “And then… Minhee.”
His head turned at you but you shook your head, not wanting to look at him.
“That night…” you said slowly. “I think that broke something in me. I’ve never lost anyone before. Not like that. I mean I’ve lost patients yeah. But no one I knew personally. And then suddenly I was holding her hand while her heart stopped. Watching my colleagues trying to save Hanuel's life while her mother was dying right there.”
He closed his eyes.
You nodded. “I think everything that had been stacking up just… collapsed after that. I checked out. I barely remember the two months after.”
He opened his eyes and looked at you, raw and unguarded. “I am so sorry Y/N.”
You didn’t mean to say it, not really, but your voice came out anyway, small and rough.
“I just would’ve needed you back then.”
Sunghoon didn’t move.
You swallowed hard. “Not to fix anything. Not even to do much. Just… a little understanding. I wasn’t avoiding you because I didn’t care. I was drowning. Studying felt like survival, and everything else, dates, trips, even replying to texts, it felt like walking barefoot through fire.”
His voice was barely above a whisper. “Why didn't you tell me, Y/N?”
“I didn't know how to,” you said. “You were as close to burning out as I was. We barely even saw each other, and if we did, every conversation we had was around school or my residency or we fought.”
You felt him watching you.
“I’ve never stopped worrying about you,” he said eventually, voice thick. “Not once since we broke up. We’ve known each other since kindergarten, Y/N. I thought I knew you better than anyone.”
“You did, probably still do.”
“I didn’t know you were collapsing at work,” he said. “I didn’t know you were–fuck, I didn’t help. I kept pushing you to spend time with me when you clearly weren’t doing okay, and I didn’t even see it.”
“Sunghoon.” You finally turned to him. “You were going through the same thing. You were studying for your bar exam. Your internship. Your parents were on your ass about everything. You weren’t supposed to fix me.”
“I still feel like I should’ve seen it,” he murmured.
You exhaled slowly, your head tipping just enough to rest against his shoulder.
“It wasn’t your fault,” you said. “It wasn’t mine either. It just… happened. Life just happened.”
There was a long pause until he broke the silence.
“I’m sorry.”
You didn’t lift your head. You just waited, breath held tight in your chest.
“I missed you so much,” he said, his voice wavering a bit. “And I hated myself for how things ended. For how I let it get to the point where we couldn’t even talk without hurting each other.”
Your throat tightened.
“I knew you weren’t okay. Not really,” he went on, a little steadier now. “And then…then you just… disappeared. Cut everyone off like we were part of the problem. And maybe we were.” He huffed out a short breath. “I asked my mom about you a few times. But I stopped. I didn’t want to get her hopes up, you know how she is. She would’ve started preparing wedding invitations.”
You let out a sound that was half-laugh, half-sigh.
He didn’t laugh.
“I just didn’t want to believe we’d gone from everything to nothing. But I didn’t know how to reach you without making it worse. So I stayed away.”
You shifted just slightly, your hand brushing his.
“I missed you too.”
You were quiet once more, letting the sound of rain falling against the windows of the wintergarden fill the silence.
After a few minutes you spoke again.
"I think it's happening again," you said quietly, staring straight ahead. “Me burning out.”
Sunghoon hummed lightly, just enough to tell you he was listening.
You closed your eyes. “My last shift, it was NICU. We lost two babies. Two. I had to tell the parents. And I fucking hate that part. You never get used to it. How could I? Their whole world just…” You exhaled sharply. “It’s gone. And they look at you like you’re supposed to make it make sense.”
His hand found yours and he intervened your fingers, softly squeezing them.
“I love this job,” you went on, voice thinner now. “Or I used to think I did. I love the science, the surgeries, the rush of helping someone survive something impossible. But lately… I don’t know. I feel like I’m barely surviving. Like I’m pretending really hard every day. And no matter how hard I try, it’s never enough.”
A beat passed. Two.
Then you softly continued: “I think I just needed you back then. Even just a little. You didn’t have to fix anything. I just–” your voice caught. “I just needed someone to say I wasn’t crazy for feeling like I was drowning. That I was still me, even when I wasn’t holding it all together. Jaemin does that now. I think it's because he understands the situation I am in the best. He and his boyfriend are struggling a lot at the moment too. Will probably until we had our exam. We're selling our body and soul to work and the bar exam.”
Sunghoon didn’t speak right away. You could hear the sound of him swallowing.
“You should’ve told me,” he said eventually. “Even now. You shouldn’t be carrying this alone. I am glad you're telling Jaemin how you're feeling.”
“I didn’t want to be a burden.”
“You never were.” He turned his head toward you then, and your gazes met. “Y/N, you were right, we were both breaking back then. I think I was too scared to admit I was burning out and the fact that you weren't saying anything about overworking myself annoyed me. I saw my friends' girlfriends being attentive and making them go out on dates to distract them. I knew you were stressed, I knew it. And I was still pissed you wouldn't look after mw, when I should have probably done that for you, and should have tried fixing our relationship.”
That admission cracked something in you.
You shifted slightly, resting your forehead gently against his shoulder, your voice barely audible now. “I didn’t need you to fix anything. I'm sorry I couldn't be a good girlfriend at the time. I just–I just needed you to stay.
“I’m here now,” he murmured, squeezing your fingers again. You nodded against him. For the first time in years, you actually felt like crying. Your eyes burned, and you blinked aggressively, to stop your tears from falling. You weren’t going to cry. You couldn’t cry. Not again. You were over this, over him. Or at least you liked to pretend you were. But before you could even swallow it back, you heard it, the softest of inhales, the quietest shift in posture. You looked up.
Sunghoon had tears in his eyes. Your breath caught. Not because you didn’t think he’d care–you knew he did. But seeing it… seeing him like that, cracked something clean in your chest. You hit him lightly on the arm, voice a little hoarse. “You crybaby.” His mouth twitched. “Me? Look at you, Y/N. You’ve got, like, two tears in your eyes, while I only have one. ” You let out a half-laugh, wiping your face with your sleeve. “You’re such an idiot.” He smiled. The tension eased, just slightly, and he tilted his head toward the house. “Come on,” he said gently. “Let’s go back inside. Just lie down for a bit. Fifteen minutes, max. If it doesn’t work, you can go back to your flashcards or your mad scientist scribbles or whatever the hell it is you’re doing.”
You gave him a look. “I mean it,” he said, soft but firm. “Just try.” You hesitated. Then nodded. And let him lead the way. You let him pull you back toward the bedroom without protest this time. The cool night air clung to your skin. Your fingers brushed as you walked up the stairs, but neither of you said anything. Inside, the room was dim and still smelled like him, laundry detergent, something clean and woodsy, and a faint trace of his cologne. “Can you…”, you cleared your throat, “would it be okay for you if we slept in one bed?”
“Sure,” he nodded andpulled his blanket of his bed, waiting until you climbed into yours. When he settled beside you, it felt… natural. Not easy, not uncomplicated, but familiar in a way your body remembered even if your mind wasn’t sure how to handle it. You shifted closer, letting your head come to rest on his chest. His arm moved around you instinctively, pulling you in just enough. But under your cheek, you could feel his heartbeat, quick and uneven, a little too fast.
You blinked against his shirt. “Your heart’s racing.” There was a pause, then a small, sheepish laugh. “I’m a little nervous, okay?” You lifted your head slightly to look at him. “I’m in bed with my ex,” he added, grinning softly. “That’s a first. Cut me some slack.” You rolled your eyes and smacked his stomach lightly. “You’re so annoying.” He chuckled low in his throat, the sound rumbling under your cheek. “And yet you still chose my bed.”
“Shut up, Park Sunghoon.” “Alright, alright.” He held up his free hand in mock surrender, then shifted again, settling more comfortably. You closed your eyes again, letting the silence wash over you. You weren’t sure when his fingers started moving again. At first, you barely noticed it. Just the faintest drag of skin on skin, slow, barely-there motions on your back where your shirt had ridden up slightly. You stayed still, breathing shallow and quiet. But then he began tracing shapes. Letters. You tensed slightly.
A straight line… a curve… another curve…
“H.” Your brows knit together in the dark. He was spelling something. “I.” You bit the inside of your cheek. It took all your focus not to turn your head and answer. “S-T-I-L-L.” Still. He paused for a second. You weren’t sure if he thought you’d fallen asleep or if he just needed a breath.
Then more. “H-E-R-E.” Still here. “A-L-W-A-Y-S” You closed your eyes. Squeezing them shut to stop them from watering again. He kept going, slower now. His fingers drifted over your spine, across your shoulder blade, gentle and soft. He traced small hearts once. A spiral. A star. A shaky infinity sign that made your lips twitch the tiniest bit. Your heart pulled in two directions, overwhelmed by how tender it was, and aching because it had ever stopped being normal. You didn’t remember falling asleep. Only that somewhere between the letter R and the little loop he drew beneath your ribs, your mind finally, finally, shut up.
And this time, sleep came easily. ──────────────────────── When you woke up the next morning you were alone in bed. Sunghoon's side was still warm, so you assumed he just got out of bed a few minutes before you. You yawned and stretched yourself before making your way to the bathroom and then downstairs, where you found Jay and Sunghoon on the sofa, Hanuel curled onto Jay's chest watching bluey. "Good morning.", you said, letting yourself fall onto the sofa next to Jay. "Good morning Y/N."Jay greeted gently combing through his daughter's black hair.
Her face was flushed. "Is Haneul okay?", you asked and reached out to put a hand on the toddler's forehead. "She is a bit warm, isn't she." "Yeah she got sick.", Jay mumbled looking down at her with a worried facial expression. “She woke us up twice tonight. Seol spent half of the night down here, reading and watching TV. She is sleeping upstairs now.” “Mhm,” you said touching your and Jay's forehead, “she definitely has a mild fever. Did you bring any medication? I don’t have child approved medication on me, but I could go down to the farmacy?” “Oh. No no, don’t worry about that. I’ll go down by myself when she wakes up again. I just don’t want her to wake up right now, she has just fallen asleep.” “Ah Jay. It’s not a problem. Imma get Haneul the good stuff and she will be up and about in no time.”, you said, lifting yourself from the sofa. “Are the others still sleeping?” “Yunjin and Tae are on a sunset hike and Hee and Ningning are probably still sleeping. Jake and Hyerim are doing god knows what.”, Sunghoon answered, lifting himself enough to look into your eyes. “Do you want me to come along?”
“No it’s fine, Sunghoon. Just continue being a pillow. I know my way around medications.”, you smiled at him and walked back upstairs. ──────────────────────── When you came back from the pharmacy, almost everyone was flopping around in the living room. A rerun of Hotel De Luna was running on the TV, while the others were spread across the living room. Yunjin had returned from her hike and was now tucked into a beanbag with Tae sharing her blanket, both sipping warm drinks. Ningning was sprawled across Heeseung’s lap, sleeping in a seemingly very uncomfortable position. Jake and Hyerim were talking to themselves. The only person who looked truly awake was Sunghoon, who sat in the corner of the couch, his long legs stretched out in front of him, hair still slightly tousled. He looked relaxed, almost peaceful. You walked in quietly, the door clicking shut behind you. He turned toward the sound instinctively, eyes softening when they landed on you. “Mission successful?” he asked. You lifted the paper bag triumphantly. “She’ll be back to bossing us around in no time.”
A few of the others hummed in acknowledgment, but most were too absorbed in the episode or their own tired haze to respond. A few minutes later, you crossed the room and dropped into the open space beside Sunghoon with a dramatic sigh. You were holding your Kindle in one hand and tugging the edge of the blanket with the other. He didn’t say anything, just shifted slightly. You nestled into the sofa, tucking your legs up and leaning into his warmth. His hand rested loosely around your shoulder. You didn’t say anything, either. Just opened your Kindle and flipped through a few pages of a medical casebook, pretending to read. Truthfully, your attention was split, maybe 30% on the text, and the rest on the steady rhythm of his breathing, the way your body fit so easily against his again, the quiet intimacy that still lingered despite everything unspoken. You probably should really speak about what was happening right now, how you just shared a bed for the night, how you almost automatically curled back into him here on the sofa. He shifted once to help you get more comfortable, tugging the blanket up slightly over your legs. Somewhere in the background, IU’s voice echoed through the room, wistful and distant. ──────────────────────── You were half-curled into Sunghoon’s side, Kindle balanced against your thigh, when soft footsteps padded down the stairs. Everyone turned instinctively. Jay was holding a sleepy but clearly stubborn Haneul in his arms. Her hair was flattened to one side, and her cheeks were still flushed, but her eyes lit up as she spotted you across the room. “Oh no,” Jay said dryly. “She saw her targets.” You smiled and waved. “Hey, baby.”
Haneul wriggled immediately, demanding to be put down, and tottered toward the couch with single-minded purpose. You shifted to make space between yourself and Sunghoon, assuming she’d collapse into his lap. But she didn’t. Instead, she reached for you, tugging at your arm with surprising insistence. “Auntie.” You blinked. “Me?” Haneul nodded seriously. “Wanna sit with you.” “Oh,” you said, glancing briefly at Jay, then Sunghoon, who just shrugged. “Okay, come here then.” You lifted her gently into your lap, wrapping the blanket around the two of you as she cuddled in, her body still warm with fever. She exhaled with a small sigh and pressed her cheek to your chest, thumb slipping into her mouth. A few seconds passed before she spoke again. “Read me something.” You laughed softly. “I don’t have any kids books, sweetheart.” “I’ll get one,” Sunghoon said, already pushing to his feet. He disappeared toward the hallway bookshelf and returned a minute later with a battered picture book in one hand and his laptop under his arm.
You adjusted Haneul against your chest and cracked the book open. The toddler watched intently as you began to read in a soft, lilting voice. Sunghoon flipped open his laptop beside you, fingers flying over the keyboard. His brows were furrowed in concentration. You glanced at him once between pages, catching the faint crease between his brows as he focused on whatever email or report had stolen his attention. You weren’t sure if he was even hearing you read, but every time Haneul pointed at a picture or giggled at a silly voice you made, his mouth twitched upward. Your voice stayed low, barely above a whisper. You were careful not to disturb the others scattered across the room. The rain hadn’t stopped outside. It clung to the windows, soft and persistent, like background music. And as you sat there, Haneul tucked into your chest, Sunghoon typing beside you, the slow unfolding of a quiet day, you felt something strange settle into your chest.
A deep, aching kind of comfort. The kind that made you wish time could slow down just a little more. ──────────────────────── Haneul had dozed off again halfway through the story, one tiny hand still clutching your shirt. You eased the book shut, careful not to jostle her, and glanced sideways just in time to see Sunghoon exhale sharply and throw his head back against the backrest. He looked tense. His jaw clenched, one hand still hovering over the keyboard as if he couldn’t quite let go of whatever he’d been typing. His laptop remained open, screen glowing faintly in his lap. “You okay?” you asked quietly. He didn’t answer right away, just ran a hand through his hair, eyes fluttering shut for a second before opening again. “I want to commit murder,” he said flatly. You blinked. “That’s a strong reaction for a children’s book.” He huffed a mirthless laugh, rubbing at his temple. “No, the client I’m dealing with. Complete nightmare. I’m technically marked as absent and yet they’ve decided today is the perfect day to need everything from me. Everything. Like the rest of my team just collectively forgot how to think without me.”
You frowned. “Wait, they’re contacting you now? I thought you weren’t on call?” “I’m not,” he said, voice tight. “But apparently my senior colleagues are allergic to solving things on their own. And this client–” he cut himself off, then muttered under his breath, “not even a fucking day of peace.” You raised a brow at the rare slip in language. “Sunghoon.” “I know,” he said, eyes flicking over to you with a faint grimace. “Sorry. I just–I really needed this trip. I wanted to turn everything off and just breathe, you know? But now I’ve spent the last hour writing emails.” You reached out with your free hand, pressing your fingers lightly to the back of his arm in silent reassurance “I get it,” you murmured. “Really. And… for the record? You’re allowed to be mad. You work harder than half the people I know.” He shook his head slightly, lips curving into something tired. “Coming from you, that’s saying something.” You smiled faintly and leaned back against the cushions, careful not to disturb the sleeping toddler. ──────────────────────── The house had settled into that kind of stillness only rain could bring. Outside, water tapped gently against the windows, and inside, nearly everyone had retreated to their rooms or dozed off somewhere across the couch-filled landscape of the winter garden and living room. The only sounds left were the occasional creak of the old roof beams and the faint hum of Bluey reruns still playing on loop. You hadn’t meant to fall asleep.
But between the warmth of the blanket, Haneul’s little body curled into your chest, and the rhythmic clacking of Sunghoon’s keyboard across from you, your eyes had fluttered shut. The last thing you remembered was thinking I’ll just rest my eyes for a minute. When you woke again, the light had shifted, softer now, dimmer. Late afternoon. Your head felt heavy against the sofa cushion, and Haneul was still curled into your front, snuffling quietly in her sleep. You didn’t move yet, not wanting to disturb her. Sunghoon was still there. Still working. Still typing. He looked up the moment your breathing changed, gaze softening as it landed on you. “Hey,” he said, voice quiet. “You’re awake.” You blinked at him, still halfway between dream and reality.
He leaned forward and, with gentle fingers, brushed a loose strand of hair away from your cheek. The touch was fleeting but warm, and it made your chest ache in that familiar way. “You should go back to sleep,” he murmured. You made a low noise in your throat, the closest thing to a protest you could muster. “No. I gotta… study. A little.” He clicked his tongue in disapproval, leaning back into his corner of the sofa again. “You’re impossible.” You cracked one eye open. “You’re working too, Park. Don’t throw stones from your glass house.” That earned a small, reluctant laugh from him. “Touché. Without moving too much, careful not to jostle Haneul, you reached to your side and grabbed your iPad, placing it on the throw pillow next to you. Your thumb opened your note app with practiced ease, screen glowing softly in the dim room. You balanced it on your knee and leaned your chin against the top of Haneul’s head.
Sunghoon didn’t say anything more. Just returned to his laptop, fingers dancing across the keys, the occasional sigh slipping through his nose.

Hours later you sat curled in the corner of the bench, legs tucked beneath you and the blanket pulled tight around your shoulders. The rain beat gently against the windows of the winter garden, the soft patter rhythmic and constant. You weren’t sure how long you’d been out there, long enough for your tea to go cold and your thoughts to grow heavy. So much of your life has been made up of early mornings, late nights, bright lights, white coats, cold coffee. And now, watching your friends build lives around you, with children, with partners, with memories you weren’t part of, you wondered if you had ever truly lived at all. Or if you just... worked. You pulled the blanket tighter around your shoulders, knees tucked to your chest, trying to chase away the cold that wasn’t really from the rain. You hadn’t meant to think about the what-ifs again, but somehow, watching Sunghoon be so soft with you and Haneul all day, made you feel nostalgic for something you never had. He would’ve been a good dad. A quiet shuffle of feet behind you made you blink. You didn’t have to look. You knew it was him.
Sunghoon sat beside you, close enough for your shoulders to brush. The bench shifted under his weight. “Penny for a thought?” he asked gently. You didn’t answer at first. Just stared out into the night. “I always thought we’d get married,” you said eventually, voice smaller than you meant it to be. “I thought we’d have a kid by now.” He didn’t answer for a long moment, just let his gaze follow yours into the wet dark beyond the glass.
“I know,” he said. “I thought that too.” You finally turned to look at him. His profile was shadowed, the dim lights of the living room catching in his lashes, in the soft fall of his hair. “I had a whole proposal planned,” he continued. “In Vietnam, you know that trip we were planning? I was gonna pretend we were just taking pictures at sunset, hand you the camera, and when you turned around… I’d be on one knee.” You let out a shaky breath. “That sounds like something you’d do.” “Cheesy?” “Yeah. I would have loved it.” He laughed under his breath. “I thought so.”
You were quiet for a long moment, then said, “I’m sorry.” He looked at you, brows drawing slightly together. “I’m sorry for putting work ahead of everything. For choosing my studies over us. For shutting you out.” You paused, breath catching in your chest. “I thought I could balance it all. But I couldn’t. And then I didn’t know how to tell you that without feeling like I was failing at everything.” His gaze softened. “Y/N…” Your throat tightened and you had to fight the tears already. “I never stopped being proud of you,” he said quietly. “Even after everything. Even when you disappeared on us. I admired the hell out of what you’re doing. You’re literally helping people survive. I could never do what you do.”
You shook your head. “You don’t understand. I’m not–” You swallowed. “Jay. I let Jay down. I let Minhee down.” He turned to face you more fully. “What?” Your fingers twisted into the edge of the blanket. “Minhee. She–” You exhaled shakily. “I know it wasn’t my fault, I know that rationally. But every time I see Haneul, all I can think is… maybe I did something wrong. Maybe if I had caught something earlier or said something–” “Y/N.”
“–or checked her labs again, or called the OB sooner–" “Y/N,” he said again, firmer this time, but not unkind. “You know it wasn’t your fault.” “I do,” you whispered. “But that doesn’t make it feel any less like it is.” He was quiet for a long moment. Then: “Why didn’t you call me?”
“Because we had just broken up,” you said. “Like, just. And I didn’t want to burden you. You were trying to move on. And I felt like I was breaking into a thousand pieces. I kept telling myself I deserved it. That I couldn’t hold onto you and try to be this version of myself I thought I had to become. And you had to be there for Jay. His girlfriend just died and he had a newborn at home. And I couldn't bear being around him or her. I was too afraid he thought I was responsible, even if I wasn't.” “I would’ve dropped everything,” Sunghoon said, and his voice cracked slightly. “If I had known, I would’ve been there. No questions asked. Heeseung was there for Jay. Jake was too. His and Minhees parents. I could have been there for you.” You closed your eyes. “I wanted to call you. I did. A hundred times. But I thought… it would just make it worse.” He looked away, swiping a hand over his face. “I hate myself for not trying harder. For not asking. For just letting you go.” You exhaled slowly. “Do you think we would’ve made it?" He paused for a second. “Yeah,” he said. “If we’d had the time.”
Sunghoon was quiet for a moment again. Then he looked at you more fully, like he was trying to find the pieces of the girl you used to be underneath all the weight you carried now. “I never told you this,” he said softly, “but I used to love watching you dream. You were so sure about everything. Med school. Family. How you were going to do it all.” He paused. “Even when I didn’t believe in myself, I believed in you.” You closed your eyes, because if you didn’t you might really cry this time. “You know,” you whispered, “I feel like I’ve been running nonstop. And now that I’m here… I realize I haven’t really lived. I’ve just… worked.” He didn’t say anything. He didn’t have to. “I wanted to be with you,” you added, more quietly. “But I didn’t know how to let myself stop. Even now, the thought of having free time makes me anxious.”
He shifted slightly. “I think… we were both overwhelmed. I kept thinking it was just a phase. That we’d get through it.” “I should’ve fought harder for you.” “I should’ve known you needed help.” His hand found yours, slowly, uncertainly, but you didn’t pull away. Your fingers slid into his, warm and familiar. You turned toward him, your faces closer than they’d been in years. It would’ve been so easy. “We shouldn’t…” you began, voice trembling, uncertain. Sunghoon’s voice was low, steady, but there was a faint, familiar ache beneath it. “You remember when we weren’t supposed to kiss in your room? Back in high school?” Your breath caught.
You nodded, just barely. “We still did.” His lips quirked, but it wasn’t quite a smile. It was something softer. Sadder. Full of things unsaid. “Yeah. We still did.” His hand, warm and tentative, slid up your arm. A slow touch, like he was memorizing the shape of you all over again. Your skin tingled where his fingers passed, your breath tightening in your chest. There was a pause. A heartbeat. Then he leaned in.
You met him halfway. The first brush of his lips was featherlight. A ghost of contact. Barely there. You surged forward without thinking, lips slotting against his with years of yearning pressed into the space between you. His hand rose to your jaw, thumb grazing your cheekbone as he angled his head, deepening the kiss with. His mouth was soft but certain, moving over yours like he already knew how you liked to be kissed, because he did. There was no rush, no hesitation, just heat blooming slow and deep between you as your hands found the front of his sweater, curling into the fabric, anchoring yourself to him. You shifted closer, your knees brushing his, blanket forgotten as your body tilted into his space. One of his hands cupped the back of your neck now, his fingers sliding into your hair, holding you steady as his other hand gripped your waist, grounding you. You made a quiet sound, when his teeth grazed your bottom lip. It had been so long. Too long. You’d forgotten how it felt to be wanted like this. To want like this. When you finally pulled away, your breathing was uneven, lips kiss-bitten and your heart in your throat.
You didn’t move far. Just far enough to rest your forehead against his, eyes closed, trying to gather yourself. “Sunghoon,” you breathed. It was all you could manage. His thumb brushed gently over your cheek. “I’m sorry,” he whispered. “I didn’t mean to–” “Don’t apologize,” you said quickly, shaking your head. “I wanted to.” He nodded slowly, his breath warm against your cheek. For a long, fragile moment, neither of you moved. Then you exhaled shakily and leaned into him, your cheek resting against his chest, listening to the quiet thump of his heart. His arms wrapped around you without hesitation, one circling your back, the other rubbing slow, grounding strokes up and down your spine. “Come to bed,” he said after a moment.
Your gaze wandered to your Ipad again. “Y/N,” Sunghoon said again, gently. “Come inside?” You shook your head against his chest. “I can’t.” There was a pause, long and quiet. “I think,” you continued slowly, carefully, “if I lie down now, I might actually go crazy. Just for a bit. I… need to be on my own.” Sunghoon didn’t speak right away. “Are you sure?” he asked, low. You nodded. “Yeah. I’ll come in later.” He lingered for another beat before carefully pushing you off his chest, reaching for the blanket and draping it over your shoulders. “Okay,” he said softly. “I’ll leave the door open.” You managed a small smile, just enough to make him go.
The quiet that followed wasn’t peaceful. It was taut. Sharp. You felt like a wire pulled tight, humming with tension, unable to let go. You didn’t cry or move. You just sat there with your thoughts screaming and the rain falling and the cold slowly sinking in. Eventually, hours later, exhaustion became heavier than the noise in your chest. It didn’t quiet the buzzing under your skin, but it dulled it. You stood up slowly, stiff and aching, and crept back inside. The house was dark and still. You padded past the living room and paused. Sunghoon. He was asleep on the couch, arms crossed, head tilted back awkwardly against the armrest. Your heart cracked a little.
You crossed the room carefully and crouched beside him, brushing your fingers lightly against his arm. “Sunghoon,” you whispered. “Come on. Let’s go upstairs.” He blinked awake groggily, frowning like a confused toddler. “Y/N? Are you done?" You nodded, though it was only half-true. “Yeah. For today. Come on, let’s go upstairs.” You rubbed your eyes as you climbed the stairs, limbs heavy, thoughts slow and grainy. Sunghoon followed silently behind you, both of you lit only by the soft hallway light someone had left on. The house creaked with wind and sleep. When you entered your shared room, you automatically turned toward your own bed, but before you even made it halfway, his hand caught your wrist. You glanced back at him. His hair was a mess, his sweater wrinkled from the couch, his eyes soft in the dim light. There was no question in them. Just quiet certainty. The same kind he always used to have when he knew exactly what you needed before you did. He didn’t say anything, but gently pulled you towards his bed. You didn’t even hesitate. It felt like the most natural thing in the world to crawl in beside him. His arms settled around you like they never forgot how to, one draped around your waist, the other tucked under his pillow. You rested your cheek against his chest, his warmth bleeding into your skin. His heartbeat was steady today, unrushed. ──────────────────────── Seoul greeted you with dull skies and even more rain. The drive back had been quiet. Peaceful. Haneul had napped for most of it. You rested too, half-asleep with your head against the window, the lull of the road and Sunghoon’s soft humming lulling you into a strange kind of calm. The car slowed in front of your apartment. Jay helped unload your bag from the trunk while Sunghoon stood by, hands stuffed in the pockets of his jacket, his hair still mussed from sleep. Haneul, finally awake again, reached for you as Jay hoisted her up and you kissed her cheek, brushing her fever-warmed curls from her forehead. “Text me if she gets worse,” you said softly, and Jay nodded. Sunghoon lingered behind as Jay buckled Haneul back in. He didn’t say much, just held your gaze for a second too long. “I’ll see you soon?” he asked.
You nodded. “Yeah. Soon.” There was so much more you wanted to say. But not here. Not now. You gave them both a small wave and turned toward the building. ──────────────────────── The elevator ride up felt longer than usual. You dumped your bag, took a quick shower, and pulled your scrubs out of the drawer. It was already getting dark when you finished meal prepping for your nightshift. Seoul pulsed around you, busy and bright, and for once, you didn’t feel entirely swallowed by it. A few hours later the fluorescent lights buzzed above you, sterile and far too bright. The ward was quiet tonight. You sat at the small desk near the nurses’ station, soft white light illuminating the open binder in front of you. The gynecology wing always had this strange hush at night, even with the occasional monitor beeping, and the distant hum of a cleaning machine. You had just made your rounds, charted vitals, answered two sleepy buzzers, checked one incision site. Everything was fine. Calm. And yet, you felt like you might break. You blinked, slowly. Your limbs were heavy. Not because you were tired physically you were drained mentally. Your eyes wandered toward the window, where the sky was still black and the city lights blurred through mist. This was the life you had built, wasn’t it? Clean. Efficient. Hard-earned. You were good at this. You were doing everything right.
And still. Still, the ache didn’t go away. You rubbed at your eyes and tried to focus on the chart in front of you, but your thoughts slipped back to him.
To Sunghoon. You sighed. Being with him had felt so easy. So natural. His hand against your spine, his voice calling you inside, his quiet laugh when Haneul demanded your attention. His warmth at night.
You swallowed thickly. You had rested. Really rested. And now, sitting under fluorescent lights again, cold coffee untouched, you felt the absence of it so sharply it almost hurt. The thought of going home to your apartment, to Jaemin and the cats, made your stomach twist. You weren't lonely, no.
You were longing. For the life you hadn’t let yourself have. You could’ve had this. You could’ve had him. If only you hadn’t kept choosing the next task. The next round. The next shift. The next exam. You had kept saying later, later, later. And then later became never. Now, in the quiet lull of the gynecology wing, with healthy babies sleeping peacefully just down the hall, you sat and wondered if you had let your whole life pass by in the name of responsibility. A baby cried softly in the distance. You stood, checked your watch, and made your way down the hall with steady steps.
You were good at this. But you weren’t sure anymore if it was enough ──────────────────────── Two days later the taxi dropped you off just past ten pm. You hadn’t even texted ahead. Your body was still aching from your shift at the hospital today. It wasn’t a particularly hard one but you felt drained. You just wanted to go home. But not to your apartment. Not to Jaemin and the cats. Not to the stack of unread medical journals and the untouched laundry. You climbed the front steps to Sunghoon’s house slowly, heart pounding hard enough that you could hear it in your ears. You hesitated for only a second before knocking, not only because it was late, but because what you were going to do might be more than stupid. The door opened, and his mother’s eyes widened slightly in surprise. “Y/N?” “Hi,” you said, voice smaller than intended. You felt suddenly too casual in your hoodie and jeans, hair still damp. “I… Is Sunghoon home?” She blinked, recovering quickly. “Yes, of course, he just got back from a work dinner not long ago. He’s upstairs. Come in.”
You stepped into the hallway, offering a quiet “Thank you,” before climbing the stairs with shaky knees. You stopped in front of his door and raised your hand to knock, hesitated, but did it anyway. There was a shuffling sound, then the door opened a crack. He was undoing his tie, sleeves already rolled up, hair slightly tousled like he’d run his hands through it too many times. His eyes landed on you, and he froze. “…Y/N?” Your throat tightened. “I–” you started, then stopped. You blinked at him.
You laughed, but it came out broken. “I’m sorry. I don’t know what I’m doing,” you said quickly, words tumbling out faster than your brain could filter them. “I just– I finished my shift, and I was walking to the station and I couldn’t go home, I just– I kept thinking about you, and that trip, and how I felt like I could finally breathe and laugh and sleep for the first time in months, years, really–” You were rambling. You knew you were rambling, but you couldn’t stop. “I missed you,” you said. “I missed you so much it physically hurts sometimes, and I’ve been pretending I’m fine and that my work is enough and that I don’t need anything else, but it’s not true. I miss waking up next to you. I miss fighting over takeout menus. I miss your laugh, and how you always steal my side of the blanket." Sunghoon just stared at you, lips slightly parted, chest rising and falling slowly. “I’m sorry,” you whispered. “I’m so sorry I shut you out. I was scared. I thought I had to be this perfect version of myself and I pushed you away thinking it was the right thing, and now I just feel like I ruined everything.” You looked down at your hands.
“I know it’s not fair,” you said. “And I know it’s going to be hard. I have my exam in February, and things won’t suddenly be easy. But if you’d let me, if there’s even a small part of you that still wants this, I’d love to try again. I want to try to be better. To be someone who doesn’t run. To be your girlfriend again.” You hadn’t realized you were crying until his hands cupped your face. “Stop rambling, Y/N,” he said, voice low. And then he kissed you. All the air left your lungs at once. It wasn’t a desperate kiss, or a rushed one. It was slow. Familiar. Steady in a way you hadn’t felt in months. His lips moved against yours like they remembered every detail. His thumb brushed under your eye, catching a stray tear. When he pulled back, your hands had found their way into his shirt. “I would love to try again,” he whispered, forehead against yours.
You laughed softly, tears still running down your cheeks. “Are you sure? I come with a lot of baggage.” He smiled. “You always did.” You swatted at his shoulder. “Rude.” But his arms tightened around you. “I’m serious,” he said. “I don’t care how hard it is. Or how messy. I just want you. Whatever you can give me, I want it.” You closed your eyes and leaned into his chest. His heartbeat was steady under your ear. “I don’t want to go home,” you whispered.
“Then don’t.” You stood there for a long moment, wrapped in his arms like no time had passed at all. Eventually, he tugged you inside the room and closed the door behind you. “Come on,” he said gently. “You look like you need food and sleep in that exact order.” “I need a lot of things,” you said. “But sleep next to you sounds like a good start.” He gave you one of his shirts, a pair of shorts and a towel, to dry your face after you’ve washed it. When you stepped back into his room, Sunghoon was already under the blanket, hair messy, expression soft. You crawled in beside him and sighed as his arm wrapped around you. His warmth seeped into your skin instantly, and for a long moment, you didn’t move.
“This is so nice,” you mumbled into his chest. “Sleeping next to you.” “You used to complain that I snore,” he said softly.
You smiled. “You do.” He chuckled, fingers gently brushing along your arm under the blanket. A few quiet minutes passed like that. “Your mom’s probably already calling my mom. Bet she thinks there’s finally a realistic chance of sturdy grandkids now.”, you said, readjusting your head on his chest. Sunghoon snorted but then he stilled. And when he spoke again, his voice was softer, almost careful. “Would you want that?” he asked. “Kids… with me?” Your heart gave a small lurch. You blinked slowly, shifting so you could look at him in the dark. His eyes were on you. You swallowed. “Honestly?” You nodded. “I can’t imagine having kids with anyone else.” He exhaled, like he’d been holding his breath. You tucked your face back into his chest. “It’s not something I’m ready for. Not now. I don’t even know when I’ll be ready. But… if it ever happens… I’d want it to be with you.” His arms tightened slightly around you. “If this works out again, really works, I’d love that too. Just not right now. Not while you’re barely sleeping and fighting your way through hospital chaos and studying every free second.” You let out a breath. He wasn’t just saying what you wanted to hear. He meant it. You knew him well enough to tell. “I really would love that,” you murmured.
“I want you to have what you’ve worked for,” he said. “Your dream. Your degree. Your own timeline. I’ll support you through all of it. No matter what.” You blinked back the sudden pressure in your chest and reached for his hand, interlacing your fingers with his beneath the blanket. “Hoon…,” you whispered, not knowing what to say without breaking down in tears. “I’m not going anywhere and I won’t let you ever again,” he promised. And you believed him.

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TEASER: DRAWN INTO YOU | 1k Special
pairing: fictional character sunghoon! x reader
word count: tba
release date: tba
He was just a drawing. Until the night she needed him most.
No one knew who the creator was.
The art was soft, the pacing slow, the story barely shared.
But every Sunday night, she returned to it—this quiet little webtoon hidden between trending dramas and loud cliffhangers.
And every Sunday, there he was.
Sunghoon.
The fictional boy who brewed tea for his neighbors.
Who carried tissues in his pocket in case someone cried.
Who stood on rooftops when the world felt too loud and said, “You’re allowed to take a break.”
He was written to be kind.
And she, exhausted by university and grief that still echoed in her walls, clung to him like a lighthouse.
She left comments. Little hearts. Messages she never thought anyone would read.
Until one night—too tired to hold herself together—she stared at his picture and whispered,
“Sometimes I want to run to you and tell you everything. When I’m completely exhausted… is it still wrong that it’s your embrace I long for?”
And her phone screen went black. Then bright.
The room filled with light and lavender and the soft sound of something shifting.
He was there.
Not ink. Not code.
Not confined to still frames or imaginary panels.
But real—gentle-eyed, cardigan-draped, standing in her living room with a smile she knew too well.
“Maybe not before,” he said, kneeling beside her.
“But you called me.”
And she broke—not out of fear, but in relief.
She had been holding too much, for too long.
That night, she cried into his shoulder.
And when the morning came, he was still there—burning the rice, misusing the microwave, proudly offering her half-toasted bread like it was a masterpiece.
As if he’d always belonged in her world.
They found joy in the mundane.
Grocery runs. Uni coffee breaks. Late-night playlists.
She showed him how to fold laundry, where the good ramen was sold, how to pet the stray cat by the stairwell.
And somewhere in between… she began to heal.
Her smiles came easier.
Her sleep, deeper.
Her heart, quieter.
“I’m happy,” she whispered once as they stargazed on the dorm rooftop.
“I didn’t think I’d feel that again.”
(And he held her hand tighter. Because he knew.)
But nothing perfect lasts untouched.
She opened the app again, just once—
The webtoon hadn’t updated. Not since the day he appeared.
And lately, he’s been pausing mid-sentence. Forgetting what he was saying.
Once, he flickered like bad reception.
The soft fantasy is starting to ripple.
What happens when the boy written to comfort others is finally given comfort himself?
When the world he stepped into begins to remember he doesn’t belong?
A story about grief, healing, and the magic of being seen—
Of loving something enough to bring it to life…
And of holding on gently, even when everything feels temporary.
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TEASER: DRAWN INTO YOU | 1k Special
pairing: fictional character sunghoon! x reader
word count: tba
release date: tba
He was just a drawing. Until the night she needed him most.
No one knew who the creator was.
The art was soft, the pacing slow, the story barely shared.
But every Sunday night, she returned to it—this quiet little webtoon hidden between trending dramas and loud cliffhangers.
And every Sunday, there he was.
Sunghoon.
The fictional boy who brewed tea for his neighbors.
Who carried tissues in his pocket in case someone cried.
Who stood on rooftops when the world felt too loud and said, “You’re allowed to take a break.”
He was written to be kind.
And she, exhausted by university and grief that still echoed in her walls, clung to him like a lighthouse.
She left comments. Little hearts. Messages she never thought anyone would read.
Until one night—too tired to hold herself together—she stared at his picture and whispered,
“Sometimes I want to run to you and tell you everything. When I’m completely exhausted… is it still wrong that it’s your embrace I long for?”
And her phone screen went black. Then bright.
The room filled with light and lavender and the soft sound of something shifting.
He was there.
Not ink. Not code.
Not confined to still frames or imaginary panels.
But real—gentle-eyed, cardigan-draped, standing in her living room with a smile she knew too well.
“Maybe not before,” he said, kneeling beside her.
“But you called me.”
And she broke—not out of fear, but in relief.
She had been holding too much, for too long.
That night, she cried into his shoulder.
And when the morning came, he was still there—burning the rice, misusing the microwave, proudly offering her half-toasted bread like it was a masterpiece.
As if he’d always belonged in her world.
They found joy in the mundane.
Grocery runs. Uni coffee breaks. Late-night playlists.
She showed him how to fold laundry, where the good ramen was sold, how to pet the stray cat by the stairwell.
And somewhere in between… she began to heal.
Her smiles came easier.
Her sleep, deeper.
Her heart, quieter.
“I’m happy,” she whispered once as they stargazed on the dorm rooftop.
“I didn’t think I’d feel that again.”
(And he held her hand tighter. Because he knew.)
But nothing perfect lasts untouched.
She opened the app again, just once—
The webtoon hadn’t updated. Not since the day he appeared.
And lately, he’s been pausing mid-sentence. Forgetting what he was saying.
Once, he flickered like bad reception.
The soft fantasy is starting to ripple.
What happens when the boy written to comfort others is finally given comfort himself?
When the world he stepped into begins to remember he doesn’t belong?
A story about grief, healing, and the magic of being seen—
Of loving something enough to bring it to life…
And of holding on gently, even when everything feels temporary.
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appa hoon and jisung!🥹🥹🥹🥹
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act 59: Going Home

The airport was quieter than expected for a late-night arrival, and the drive home was a sleepy one. The adrenaline of the wedding and honeymoon had worn off just enough for you to snuggle against Sunghoon’s arm in the back of the car, your fingers interlocked, the faint scent of the ocean and his cologne clinging to your clothes. You sighed, “Can’t believe it’s over… our wedding. Our honeymoon.”
Sunghoon turned to you, his voice low and fond. “It’s only the beginning, loloves.”
You smiled sleepily at the nickname, your heart fluttering as the city lights blurred past the window. “Back to the apartment?”
He hummed noncommittally, pressing a kiss to your temple. “Sort of.”
That made you blink up at him. “Sort of?”
But he didn’t elaborate. Just squeezed your hand, his smile annoyingly mysterious. You let it go, figuring maybe he meant they’d stop by somewhere first, or he was just teasing. That was typical Hoon behavior. Still, your eyes narrowed slightly when the car took a turn you didn’t expect—heading not toward your shared apartment in the city, but toward a quieter, more residential road.
You lifted your head fully now, alert. “Hoon… this isn’t the way to the apartment.”
“I know,” he said calmly, too calmly, eyes twinkling with something hidden.
“Hoon,” you said again, suspicion sharpening your voice. “Where are we going?”
“You’ll see,” he said, his lips twitching into a smirk. “Just trust me.”
It wasn’t long before the car pulled into a familiar driveway—the one that belonged to the house he had surprised you with months ago. The one with the big windows, the soft light fixtures, the quiet neighborhood near the city, the backyard with a pool and the kind of space that made your heart imagine laughter, little feet running, late-night talks in the kitchen and peaceful mornings with the scent of coffee.
You sat up straighter, blinking at the house. The porch light was on, softly illuminating the warm tones of the home. “Wait… we’re just visiting?”
Sunghoon got out of the car and opened the door for you, reaching for your hand. “No. We’re home.”
Your brows furrowed, steps hesitant as you stepped onto the pathway. “Home?”
He grinned now, the way he always did when he had a surprise he’d been dying to share. “I moved everything while we were gone.”
You whipped your head toward him. “What?!”
“I had everything packed and delivered while we were in Maldives,” he admitted. “I just thought… why go back to a temporary space when this is already ours?”
You opened the door and immediately stepped into the familiar scent of home—your home now. The furniture from the apartment was already here, seamlessly blending into the new space. Your wedding photos—yes, already printed and framed thanks to your wedding planner’s hyper-efficiency—were hanging on the hallway wall. Your mugs were in the kitchen. Your fuzzy slippers sat by the staircase. Everything.
You turned back to him, wide-eyed. “You really moved everything… without telling me?”
“I wanted it to be a surprise,” he said, looking almost sheepish, like a kid who wasn’t sure if he was about to get praised or scolded. “I figured you’d want to start this new chapter… actually starting it.”
You stared at him, stunned. “Sunghoon… this is insane. But also… kind of perfect.”
He stepped closer, wrapping his arms around your waist and pressing a soft kiss to your forehead. “So… you’re not mad?”
You looked around again, letting the reality sink in. This was the house you both chose. The one he carefully looked for with you in mind. And now, it was officially yours together.
Your eyes softened, filled with unshed emotion. “No, I’m not mad. I just… I didn’t expect this. You really did all this for us?”
He brushed your hair back, cupping your cheek. “Of course. For us, for the life we’re building. I wanted our first night back not to feel like the end of something—but the beginning.”
You exhaled shakily, heart full. “God, I love you so much.”
He smiled, that slightly bashful one he reserved only for you. “I love you too, wifey.”
You grinned. “Say that again.”
“I love you, wifey,” he whispered, kissing your nose. “Welcome home.”
You kissed him back, arms tightening around him, then looked around again. “Okay. But you better help me figure out where they put my hair curler.”
He laughed, and together you stepped further into the house, hand-in-hand, surrounded by the quiet, peaceful warmth of a home that now held both your hearts—ready for all the mornings, the dinners, the arguments, the cuddles, the growth, and one day, the tiny feet that would run through its hallways.
Sunghoon closed the front door behind you, slipping off his shoes and watching as your eyes darted from one room to another, still half in disbelief. The house felt like a dream—the soft lighting casting a golden glow over the living room, your favorite throw blanket already draped on the couch, a new set of candlesticks on the coffee table, the scent of fresh linen and eucalyptus filling the air.
You stood in the middle of the space, spinning slowly in place with your mouth slightly open. “It feels… lived in. Like we’ve been here forever.”
“That’s the goal,” he said softly from behind you.
You turned to face him again, your hands resting on your hips. “Seriously though… you coordinated all this while we were sipping coconuts on a beach?”
He stepped toward you, smug and proud, sliding his arms around your waist again. “Had help from the planner and a few trustworthy people. But yeah. It’s all ready. Though…” His eyes scanned the room, then flicked back to you with that familiar sparkle, “you can re-arrange anything. Furniture, colors, layout. This is your home too. If you want to switch things up, I’m all for it.”
Your eyes softened as you reached up to fix a strand of his hair. “You already made it perfect, Sunghoon.”
“Perfect for now,” he shrugged playfully. “But I know you. You’ll get the itch to reorganize in a week.”
You laughed, leaning into him. “Fair enough.”
Then, he took your hand again and guided you toward the main hallway, stopping in front of a wall adorned with a massive wedding photo. You gasped.
It was from the moment right after you had walked down the aisle, your veil still slightly fluttering, your hand in his, your foreheads nearly touching as the sunlight filtered through the trees. The emotion in your faces was so raw, so genuine—it looked like a scene from a film.
“It came in while we were gone,” he explained softly, watching your reaction instead of the photo. “I asked them to hang it here so it’d be the first thing we see walking in.”
You couldn’t look away. “We look so happy.”
He pressed his chin lightly to your shoulder from behind. “Because we were. Are.”
You turned slightly to look at him, voice quiet with wonder. “How did I get so lucky?”
Sunghoon kissed your temple. “I ask myself the same thing every morning.”
You stood there in silence for a few seconds, the weight of the moment filling the air. It wasn’t just a house anymore. This was the beginning of your married life—the place where your love story would continue to unfold in a million tiny, beautiful ways.
Eventually, you moved to explore more, your feet carrying you across the wooden floors and into the kitchen, then upstairs to the master bedroom. Everything was thoughtfully placed—the way he knew you liked it. Your robe on the back of the door, matching sets of pajamas, a freshly made bed with a fluffy white duvet. A small stack of your favorite books sat on the nightstand beside his.
“I can’t believe we live here,” you murmured as you ran your fingers along the edge of the bedframe.
Sunghoon appeared in the doorway, arms crossed, leaning casually. “Believe it. Because tomorrow morning, you’ll be waking up here. And the morning after that. And all the mornings after that.”
You looked at him, heart so full it almost ached. “You make it sound so romantic.”
“That’s ‘cause it is,” he said simply, walking toward you and tugging you close by the waist again. “We’re not just married. We’re starting everything.”
You smiled up at him. “Everything?”
“Everything,” he echoed.
You leaned your head on his chest, listening to the steady beat of his heart. “I still can’t find my curler though.”
He chuckled. “Check the linen closet. I think I packed your vanity stuff together.”
You snorted. “You better hope that’s true.”
He kissed your forehead again, and together, you wandered back downstairs, hands brushing, steps light, the house echoing with soft laughter and the beginning of a new, beautiful chapter.
You followed the quiet creak of the hardwood stairs up to the second floor, fingers brushing the smooth bannister, eyes still scanning the hallways and walls that now felt like yours. The scent of freshly laundered linens grew stronger as you neared the master bedroom, your hand instinctively reaching for the doorknob.
Sunghoon stepped behind you, placing his hand gently over yours and opening the door with a soft push.
Your breath caught.
The room was bathed in warm amber light spilling from sheer curtains, a beautiful contrast to the crisp ivory and champagne tones that matched your wedding palette. But it wasn’t the lighting or the fresh linens or the elegant open windows that made your eyes widen—it was the bed.
The exact bed.
The curved velvet headboard in soft pearl gray, the rounded edges, the elegant tufted details—it was the very one you’d been drooling over on your laptop for months. You hadn’t said anything out loud. You’d just stared at it in passing one night, lingering on the image too long before closing the tab.
“Wait…” You stepped closer, blinking in disbelief. “This is the bed.”
He smiled, leaning casually against the doorway, arms crossed over his chest. “Yeah. It is.”
You turned to him slowly, eyes narrowing with playful suspicion. “How did you know? I never told you.”
“I may or may not have peeked through your tabs one night while you were in the shower,” he admitted, biting back a grin. “You left your laptop open, and you were hovering over the same picture for like… ten minutes.”
Your jaw dropped slightly in mock offense. “So you were spying!”
“I prefer ‘observant husband,’ thank you very much,” he said, walking over to you. “Besides, I figured it would be the best surprise. You’ve been dreaming about it, right?”
You nodded, running your hand along the luxurious edge of the mattress. “It’s perfect.”
Sunghoon looked around the room, scratching the back of his neck. “I actually told them not to decorate the rest of the room too much. I wanted you to have the freedom to choose. Colors, layout, rugs—whatever makes it feel like you.”
You turned to look at him again, heart softening at the thoughtfulness. “You really thought of everything.”
“I just wanted this room—our room—to feel like us. Not some staged version of us. We can fill it slowly. Together.”
You crossed the space between you and slipped your arms around his waist, pressing your cheek to his chest. “You make it so easy to love you, Park Sunghoon.”
He pressed a kiss to the top of your head. “Good. Because I plan on making it even easier every single day.”
You stood like that for a moment, quietly taking in the space around you—the room where you’d wake up on lazy Sundays, where you’d fold laundry while dancing barefoot to soft music, where you’d talk late into the night about nothing and everything. It wasn’t just a beautiful room—it was your beginning.
And with that, you both kicked off your shoes, laughing as you flopped onto the dream bed together, already dreaming about all the memories waiting to be made within these walls.
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Soft mornings with Appa
Pairing: Husband!Sunghoon x Reader
mini series: Appa, Always
The sun creeps through the linen curtains, spilling golden light across your bedroom floor. But for once, you don’t wake to the shuffle of small feet or the cry of a newborn. Instead, you’re curled beneath the comforter, undisturbed — and deeply asleep.
Because this morning, Appa’s got it.
[ Kitchen – 6:40 a.m.]
Sunghoon moves quietly, barefoot and shirtless with sweats hanging low on his hips. A burp cloth rests on his shoulder, and Jisung is tucked into the crook of his arm, blinking up at him with sleepy eyes while sucking on a bottle.
“There you go, baby boy…” Sunghoon murmurs, bouncing just slightly. “Slow and steady, like your noona when she eats cereal.”
He glances toward the hallway.
Jihoon’s perched on the dining chair, legs swinging, already dressed in her pink pinafore uniform. Her hair is half up, and the other half flops in messy strands because Appa tried to tie it using a YouTube tutorial—and gave up halfway.
“Appa,” she whines, spooning cereal into her mouth, “can you pleeeease make two pigtails again? Not the… the waterfall twist thing. It’s not cute.”
Sunghoon laughs under his breath. “That was a braid. Kind of.”
Jihoon stares at him like he just said broccoli tastes like chocolate.
“Okay, okay,” he chuckles. “After your milk. Deal?”
She nods, satisfied. “Deal.”
Jisung makes a soft sound—tiny cough, then a little whimper.
Sunghoon gently switches him from one arm to the other, lifting him to his shoulder. He pats softly, lips brushing against the baby’s temple.
“There’s my strong boy,” he whispers. “You’re helping Mommy rest today, huh? Good job.”
He feels Jisung go limp with comfort.
He grins.
[ Jihoon’s Room – 7:00 a.m.]
“Appa, tighter!” Jihoon says, gripping her plushie while he tries to redo the elastic on her second pigtail.
“I’m trying, but you have, like, so much hair, Ji…”
She giggles. “You sound like Mommy.”
He smiles at the mention of you, pausing to glance toward your closed bedroom door down the hall.
You’d been up all night nursing Jisung. Sunghoon had tried to help, but there are some things only Umma can do—and he saw the way your eyelids trembled, exhausted, just before sunrise.
So he whispered, “Sleep in, baby. I got them.”
And meant it.
Now, he finally gets the second pigtail decent enough—maybe not salon quality, but Jihoon beams when she looks in the mirror.
“You’re the best Appa in the world,” she says proudly.
“I better be,” he smirks, picking up her backpack and jacket. “You’re stuck with me forever, kid.”
“Good!” she chirps, then grabs his hand.
[7:30 a.m. – front door]
Yeji arrives to take Jihoon to school, already in comfy sweats and a top bun.
“Did you even sleep?” she eyes Sunghoon, who has Jisung now tucked into the baby wrap against his chest.
“Three hours,” he shrugs. “That’s like, a power nap, right?”
Yeji snorts. “You’re delusional.”
Jihoon runs to hug her. “Let’s go! Appa packed my snack!”
Sunghoon hands off the lunchbox and gives Jihoon a kiss on the forehead. “Be good. Don’t fight anyone over crayons today.”
“No promises!” she yells as she runs out.
Yeji waves. “Let your wife sleep. You’re doing great.”
Sunghoon smiles. “Trying.”
[ Bedroom – 8:00 a.m.]
The door creaks open gently.
You blink awake, confused at first. The sun is high. The silence is suspicious.
Then you hear it—faint hums of “Baby Shark” being sung off-key from the hallway.
You smile.
Moments later, Sunghoon walks in, hair slightly messy, baby Jisung still fast asleep on his chest in the wrap. He kneels beside the bed, brushing your hair back softly.
“Morning, love.”
“You let me sleep in…” you whisper, voice husky.
“You needed it.” He leans in to kiss your forehead. “Jihoon’s at school. Jisung’s fed and passed out. All good here.”
You look at the two of them—your husband, shirtless and glowing in morning light, your baby wrapped against him like he belongs there—and your heart aches in the best way.
“You’re amazing, Hoon,” you say, reaching out to cup his cheek.
He grins. “You tell me that when I’m not covered in spit-up.”
You laugh, tugging him closer.
“No,” you whisper. “I mean it. You’re the best appa… and the best husband.”
He blushes, nuzzling into your hand. “Well… you’re the reason I get to be.”
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enhypen reaction when they found out us getting hospitalized (idk but it might be cute or im just stewpid)
enhypen reaction to you getting hospitalized
- Lee Heeseung
Reason: Tried to prove you could chug five cups of iced coffee… on an empty stomach
Heeseung was halfway through a game when he got your text:
“Babe… I’m at the ER. Don’t panic. It’s not serious.”
He did panic.
He arrived in a hoodie, cap, and socks that didn’t match, clearly in a rush, and the first thing he did when he entered your hospital room?
Raised an eyebrow.
“Five?” he repeated. “Five coffee?? Empty stomach?? At 11AM???”
You gave a weak shrug from the hospital bed. “I was trying to stay productive.”
“Productive as in… self-destructive?” He paced around your bed, hands on his hips, muttering like a full-on worried boyfriend. “I can’t believe you’re the top of your class and still did something this unhinged.”
Then he turned to you and sighed. “You scared me.”
Your lips parted to apologize, but he softened before you could.
He leaned down, cupped your face gently, and kissed your forehead.
“No more coffee unless I’m with you,” he whispered. “And I’m bringing exactly one bottle.”
Heeseung may joke around, but the moment your hand found his under the blanket, he held it tightly. He stayed with you till you fell asleep—playing soft lo-fi beats on his phone, glancing at you every five seconds like you’d vanish.
- Park Jongseong
Reason: Burned yourself trying to flambé pancakes like Gordon Ramsay
Jay’s phone lit up mid-lunch with a message from you:
“Slight kitchen incident. I’m okay. Don’t freak out.”
He was already grabbing his car keys.
When he reached the hospital, he barely spoke. His brows were furrowed so deep, he looked like he was planning to file a lawsuit against every stove in existence.
“I told you,” he muttered, brushing a loose strand from your face, “do not play with fire when I’m not there.”
“It was just… a little flambé.” You offered a sheepish smile, holding up your bandaged arm.
Jay’s jaw clenched. “You used brandy. For pancakes.”
“…I thought it’d be fun.”
“I thought we agreed you’d leave the chaos to me and just be the pretty one.”
Despite the irritation in his voice, he placed a very soft kiss on your knuckles. Then he sat beside you and pulled out a small, warm container.
“I cooked,” he said, not meeting your eyes. “Normal, non-explosive pancakes. With butter. And maple syrup.”
He fed you himself, sighing after every bite. “From now on, we cook together. I’m not letting you Gordon Ramsay yourself into the ICU again.”
- Sim Jaeyun
Reason: Got a stomachache from eating 7 slices of cake
When Jake arrived, he had snacks, water, and a tiny plushie of a cupcake. Yes—a cupcake.
“Babe,” he said, approaching the bed with a grin that couldn’t hide the concern underneath, “you devoured seven slices?”
“Don’t say devour,” you mumbled, curling up under the blanket. “I’m still bloated.”
Jake let out a soft chuckle, brushing his fingers through your hair.
“I knew you were going hard at the dessert table, but I didn’t think you’d try to set a Guinness World Record.” He sat beside you, letting you lean your head on his shoulder.
“I was peer pressured… by frosting,” you muttered.
Jake laughed again and kissed your temple. “You’re something else.”
He took out his phone and showed you the playlist he made:
‘Songs for the Stomachly Defeated’
He even made a chill version of your favorite party song, slowing it down and looping it as your hospital room lullaby. And when the nurse came in to check your vitals, Jake insisted on writing down exactly what you ate and the cake brand—“for future reference,” he claimed.
Let’s be honest. You knew you’d probably do it again. And Jake? He’d still be right there, plushie in hand.
- Park Sunghoon
Reason: Slipped while doing a TikTok dance challenge in the bathroom
When Sunghoon saw your name flash on his screen with a text that read:
“Don’t freak out, but I’m in the hospital. I’m okay.”
He did the exact opposite.
He left his practice mid-stretch, tossing his towel aside and sprinting out with his shoes half-on. When he finally burst into your hospital room, the first thing he blurted out was:
“Did you get hit by a car?!”
You blinked at him, lying on the bed with your wrist wrapped and a small bump on your forehead.
“…No?” you mumbled. “I slipped… in the bathroom.”
His eyes narrowed. “What were you doing? Brushing your teeth while sprinting?”
“…Dancing.”
His soul visibly left his body. “You were doing a TikTok dance challenge in socks… on tiles?”
You nodded slowly. “It was trending…”
Sunghoon just stared at you for a long second before letting out a sigh so deep it sounded like a dad giving up.
“Of all the ways to go down…” He ran a hand through his hair, then leaned against the side of the bed. “I seriously thought something bad happened.”
“Well, it kinda did,” you pouted. “My pride’s broken. And maybe my hip.”
Sunghoon sat beside you, lips twitching like he was trying not to smile. “You’re lucky you’re cute,” he said, then gently ran his fingers across your bandaged wrist. “Don’t do stuff like that when I’m not around, okay? I have a reputation to protect.”
You rolled your eyes. “Protect yourself, handsome.”
He chuckled, then kissed your temple. “At least let me be in the next video. If you’re going down, I’m going with you.”
- Kim Seonwoo
Reason: Fainted at a concert because you forgot to eat
Sunoo didn’t walk into your hospital room. He marched.
You barely got a “Hi—” out when he pointed an accusing finger.
“YOU. DIDN’T. EAT.”
You winced. “I got too excited. And the music was loud. And—”
“AND YOU DROPPED LIKE A CHARACTER IN A DRAMA.” He pulled your blanket up, fixed your pillows, and narrowed his eyes.
You tried to act cute. “Sunoooo… I’m sorrrry…”
He dramatically turned away like he was in a soap opera. “Save it.”
But five minutes later, he was spoon-feeding you homemade soup with a mini heart-shaped egg on top.
“You will follow this new eating chart I made,” he muttered. “Three meals, two snacks, one dessert.”
“Color-coded?”
“Obviously.”
Despite the dramatics, Sunoo stayed the night, holding your hand and checking your forehead like an overprotective mom every 10 minutes.
- Yang Jungwon
Reason: Mystery street food sauce triggered an allergic reaction
When Jungwon got the call from your best friend saying you were in the ER for an allergic reaction, he didn’t ask questions. He was out the door in minutes with a small bag of essentials: wet wipes, antihistamines, your favorite drink, and a printed-out list of “high-risk street food ingredients” (because yes, he’s that boyfriend).
He stepped into your room with calm precision, but the second he saw your slightly puffy face, his heart cracked just a little.
“…You okay?” he asked, softly brushing your hair away from your cheek.
You gave a sheepish smile. “Yeah. Just… a little dumb. I tried that street stall you told me not to.”
He sighed, crouching beside your bed and reaching for your hand. “I literally said, if it smells too good to be true, it probably is.”
“But it had sesame oil and chili flakes—”
“Everything has sesame oil and chili flakes!” he half-whispered, half-hissed.
You frowned. “Don’t yell at me… I’m fragile.”
He exhaled, then gave your hand a gentle squeeze. “I’m not mad. Just… you scared me, babe.”
He stood and sat beside you, placing his bag on the table. “Here. Wipes, meds, and your favorite juice. Don’t ask how I smuggled it past the nurse.”
“Did you bribe her with your dimples?”
A small smirk appeared on his lips. “Maybe.”
Later, when you were resting, he leaned in and kissed your forehead softly. “You’re not allowed to try mystery sauces without me ever again. It’s a couple rule now.”
- Nishimura Riki
Reason: Twisted your ankle battling a 10-year-old in an arcade dance game
Ni-ki was casually scrolling on his phone when you FaceTimed him—except the camera was angled toward the hospital ceiling.
“Why’s the lighting so ugly?” he joked, before you turned the cam and showed your ankle propped up in a brace.
“Hi. I may or may not have been airlifted out of the arcade.”
Ni-ki dropped his phone. “WHAT?!”
He was at the hospital in record time, hoodie zipped to his nose, hair unbrushed, and jaw clenched.
When he saw you, though, he just stared. “Tell me again what happened.”
You played innocent. “I was defending my honor.”
“You challenged a 10-year-old to a dance battle.”
“He dissed my score.”
Ni-ki pinched the bridge of his nose. “And you thought going full ‘Step Up 3D’ in Crocs was the move?”
“…They were sport mode.”
He tried so hard to stay mad, but the laugh slipped out. “You’re insane.”
“Still beat him, though.”
That made him laugh harder. He pulled up a chair, placed your foot on his lap carefully, and adjusted the blanket around it.
“I swear, you’re gonna be the death of me,” he muttered.
“But a cool death, right?” you teased.
He looked at you with a fond expression, leaned down to place a kiss on your bandaged foot, and replied,
“The coolest.”
Then he whipped out his phone. “Now let me get this straight—did anyone record it? ‘Cause I need that rematch.”
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daddy’s girl
pairing ↠ dilf!sunghoon x (f) reader (ft. bf!jake)
genre .. warnings ↠ smut, age gap (18+), unprotected sex, stepcest, underaged drinking, toxic relationship, reader is barely 18, this is like extremely gross don’t say you weren’t warned
summary ↠ sunghoon has been your stepdad since you were maybe thirteen or fourteen. at first, you didn’t want anything to do with him - not to go to his and your mom’s wedding, not to move to his state, and definitely not to live in his house. you had convinced yourself that all men were the same. but sunghoon was nothing like the father that had abandoned you at the worst possible time and left you to deal with your emotionally unavailable mother. he was kind, sweet, caring. and as you grow older, you find yourself falling for the one person you should never, under any circumstances, want.
wc ↠ 20k
a/n ↠ my first real fic all year 🥹 as always, feedback is appreciated!
don’t like it, don’t read.
for as long as you could remember, you had never been particularly fond of your boyfriend’s friends.
they were outright obnoxious, and even that was you being kind and considerate. their voices boomed loudly and their laughter rang out, and the demeaning remarks they made too often to be mere jokes always made you a little uncomfortable.
though they knew better than to make any lewd comments about you, at least. most of them were about a pretty girl wandering the party, or their girlfriend of the week. but you weren’t dumb. you saw the way they looked at you every now and then, judging you. scorning you. tearing you apart.
no comments were spoken squarely to your face, but you knew they were conjured. it made you wonder what they said to jake when you weren’t there on his lap, and you wondered if he chimed along.
thick clouds of smoke loomed in the stuffy air, making it difficult to breathe. you coughed into your fist, feeling your throat itch. honest to god, you had absolutely no clue how they smoked that shit. the one time jake had coaxed you into putting a joint to your mouth, you had thought you were dying.
jay said something that abruptly made the group of boys burst into laughter. you jolted, lifting your head from jake’s shoulder. he tightened his arm, which was looped around your back, holding you against him. “jake?” you whispered.
“hm?”
you were reluctant to say anything, knowing how he would likely respond, but you didn’t want to be here anymore. “can we go somewhere else?”
jake exhaled through his nose. you knew he didn’t want to leave. to him, these nights with his friends were harmless little exploits that made his life a little easier.
it didn’t help that he was already annoyed with you. when he swung by earlier to pick you up, he looked you up and down, and the first thing to leave his mouth was a disgruntled, “why do you always dress so childishly?”
you had never thought of your bright colors and cute patterns as inherently childish. matter of fact, the cute, brown top with stitched teddy bears you were wearing was one of your favorite shirts.
“why do you want to leave?” jake asked softly, gently rubbing your back in hopes of soothing you.
“it’s too noisy,” you complained, peering up at him.
jake could have rolled his eyes. fuck’s sake, it was a party. obviously, it wasn’t going to sound like a prayer hall. “if you smoked a little, it wouldn’t bother you.”
“i don’t like smoking.”
“that’s because you’re not used to it, baby,” jake reasoned.
“i don’t want to get used to it,” you mumbled. “you guys all pass around the same joint. you’ve basically kissed each other. which means that when you kiss me, i’m kissing all of them.”
jake groaned, “you’re so dramatic, you know that, sweetheart? it’s just a joint.”
“can you please just take me home?” you pleaded. between the rings of smoke hanging over you and the resounding thud of music and the cacophony of loud voices, you felt like you were suffocating.
jake was silent for a few moments, jaw tight. something tightened in your chest, recognizing the look on his face as something angry. before you could change your mind, jake pushed you off his lap, watching you scramble onto your feet, and spoke, “gonna call it a night early, gang. my special princess over here is too good to hang with us.”
jungwon groaned. jay rolled his eyes. heeseung snickered, not so discreetly looking at your legs, and said, “bye, princess.”
jake flipped him off and guided you away, murmuring, “come on, baby.” his hand was on the small of your back.
the two of you pushed past the bundle of people partying in the main room, which was easier with your tall, respected boyfriend in tow. your shoulders relaxed when you were outside. you were happy to be breathing in the fresh air rather than smoking and doing whatever else people could get their hands on.
jake opened the door on the passenger side of his car, letting you climb inside. by the time you were on the road, his hand was on your thigh.
you didn’t mind that. jake was a very touchy boyfriend and he always had his hands all over you. the attention was something you needed, something you craved. it was just safe enough to make you feel wanted within the boundaries of your control.
but then, after maybe ten or fifteen minutes, his hand started to move. you tore your gaze from the window down to the motion on your lap, stomach churning as you sensed his hands slipping further and further. then, your eyes went up to his face. his eyes were on the road, but there was a hint of a smile on his lips.
everyone was nervous about losing their virginity. everyone was scared of firsts. but for you, it was a little more than that. you weren’t scared of what happened during the act; you were terrified of what came after.
would jake still want you after you gave him what he’d been coveting? would he come back for more? could you meet his expectations, compare to the fantasies he’d crafted in his mind and had been hoping to enact?
you couldn’t know for sure. once you gave him what he wanted, you had nothing to keep him around anymore; nothing to rein him back in after the night was over. and the last thing you wanted was to be alone again. it had been okay, the ice, the nip, when it was all you’d ever known, but now that you had known how it felt to be warm, you didn’t want to remember how it felt to freeze.
“jake,” you called out softly. “what are you doing?”
“nothing, baby,” jake lied sweetly, feigning innocence. all the while, his hand was continuing to move up your leg. slowly, but surely.
when he got too close, you decided that you were more than a little uncomfortable and gingerly pushed his hand away, as if not to upset him. “babe, i don’t think that’s a good idea.”
jake forced a smile, and somehow, that was more unnerving than if he had screamed at you, exasperated. “goddamn it, woman,” he murmured. “you already dragged me away from my friends. the least you could do is make it worth it.”
you swallowed, guilt hitting you like a punch in the chest. but the anxious stirring in your stomach was a thousand times worse, a million times louder, and potent tenfold. “i’m sorry,” was all you could bring yourself to say.
jake scoffed, refusing to look at you. which was probably not so bad, all things considered. “yeah, you should be,” he grumbled.
your eyes watered, but you looked out the window and tried to think of happier, kinder times. you didn’t want to cry, not until you were alone where no one could see. you hated crying in front of others. it was embarrassing. to say nothing of the fact that whenever jake reduced you to tears, he called you a crybaby, and he’d already made you feel childish enough.
the rest of the drive home was silent, save for the sound of the wind blowing through your hair and the occasional honking; your only refuge in the midst of your struggle to be the perfect girlfriend. the cool night breeze calmed you, soothed you, and traffic felt familiar. it was oddly comforting, being stuck between two things with nowhere to go.
a feeling you knew all too well.
the only downside was that the longer you stayed there, hardly moving, the longer you had to pretend everything was okay and try desperately not to sob.
it felt like forever before you were finally back home. you immediately got out of the car, having assumed that jake wanted nothing more to do with you right now.
to your surprise, he sighed and willed himself to get out of the car, walking you to your front door.
you peered up at him, trying to read his face, trying to understand where he was at and where you had pushed him. “are you mad at me?” you asked timidly, as if you didn’t truly want to know the answer.
jake took his time to answer, exhaling quietly. “no, baby,” he said after a moment. “i’m not mad. but you can’t avoid sex forever, you know. that’s what people do. it’s natural.”
he said it so outrightly, so bluntly. as if it was really, truly just another thing that everyone did, that had no risk and no consequence. you admired his fearlessness sometimes, wondering how his life had unfolded for him to be so bold, and realized you knew very little about him. “i know,” you whispered.
jake reached for your hand, tenderly brushing his fingers over your knuckles. “but?”
you released a shaky breath. jake understood you, some ways better than others. he may have been completely clueless in some regards, but your body language was not one. shy, you confessed, “but i’m scared.”
“why are you scared?” jake asked, keeping his voice soft and level. “do you not trust me, sweetheart?”
“no, i do,” you replied, though you weren’t entirely sure if that was true or not. “but what if it’s not what you’re expecting?”
jake chuckled, as if that was absurd. “baby, relax,” he whispered, leaning down to kiss your forehead. “you could never disappoint me.”
your eyes got a little wider, a little starrier, watching him as if he was your whole world. “are you sure?”
“yeah, i’m sure, baby,” he told you, pressing a final kiss to your lips. “goodnight, sweetheart.”
“goodnight,” you whispered, watching him slowly start to back away. “text me when you get home.”
jake bobbed his head in acknowledgment and started to walk back to his car.
you unlocked the front door of your house, hoping to god your mother wasn’t somewhere lounging around or smoking. your stepfather didn’t enjoy when she smoked inside the house, but he was gone for the weekend. which, to her, meant his rules didn’t matter.
there was no sight of your mother when you walked into the house. but you blinked in surprise when you saw your stepfather’s favorite coat hanging on the rack in the foyer. you didn’t know people actually had those until you moved in with him.
sunghoon was in the kitchen, his sleeves rolled up halfway to his shoulders, drinking coffee out of a mug you’d designed for his birthday when you were roughly fourteen. it was stupid and kind of ugly, but the fact that he still drank from it, even after four years, warmed your heart.
“daddy?” you called, stunned. you weren’t expecting him to be here for another day.
“hey, doll,” sunghoon greeted, setting down his mug for a second. “you look surprised.”
you nodded your head. compared to what you heard in endless amounts of fiction, sunghoon didn’t go on many business trips. one a month, usually, for less than three days. “i thought you were coming back tomorrow?”
“we were able to wrap things up early,” sunghoon explained briefly. he didn’t like to bore you with the details of his job, though you often asked him about it, which was somewhat endearing.
“oh,” you mumbled. you tried not to show how happy you were. most times when you were alone here with your mother, you tried to go out as much as you possibly could, which was the only reason you had agreed to hang out with jake and his friends tonight.
“yeah.” sunghoon’s eyes flitted over your body, making you feel a little self-conscious. he would habitually remember to pick up his mug and wince at how hot his coffee was. “you look cute.”
you blinked. sunghoon always complimented the way you dressed, often reminding you how cute and beautiful you were. you wished your boyfriend was more like that. “thanks,” you replied, coming over to hug him.
sunghoon set his mug down again and threw his arms around you, gentle as ever. but he smelled something on you that he didn’t exactly love. “you went out with that boy again, didn’t you?”
“how did you know?”
“you smell like weed,” he answered bluntly.
your cheeks burned. the smell had followed you home, clinging to you. you didn’t notice it on yourself, but you knew how much he hated it. “i didn’t smoke,” you told him. “i was just next to them.”
sunghoon chuckled. he knew that. you hated the mere smell of smoke, always scrunching up your face whenever it stuck to your mother or whatever spot she’d chosen to get high at. “you don’t need to explain yourself to me, doll. i know you.”
you nodded, even more embarrassed. reluctantly, you pulled away and sat on the barstool next to him. it was late and you were kind of sleepy, exhausted of having to try so hard, but you wanted to talk to him.
ironically, it was silent for a moment as sunghoon sipped his coffee and you tried to think of what to say. sunghoon spoke first, mentioning offhandedly, “i don’t like your boyfriend.”
you sighed, resting your head against the island. “i don’t really like him, either.”
that threw sunghoon off. “so why are you still dating him?”
“i don’t know,” you huffed.
sunghoon’s eyes were fixed on you, wanting to get to the bottom of it and willing to confront the issue that you weren’t. you had no business staying in a relationship you weren’t content with. “is he threatening you?” he asked.
your shot up, eyes widening. “no, he’s not making me date him.”
if anything, that only served to make sunghoon even more alarmed, and he pressed, “what is he making you do?”
“he’s not making me do anything,” you replied quietly, knowing that wasn’t the best way to put it. “it’s just that… he wants to have sex.”
“and you don’t?” sunghoon finished for you. the topic didn’t make him feel awkward or uncomfortable, even if you were, by law, his daughter. he was the one person in the world you could talk to about anything and everything without fear, and he took great pride in that.
you shrugged, repeating, “i don’t know.”
“well, you gotta know something, baby,” sunghoon teased. “do you, or do not you?”
ignoring the way the pet name made you feel, you tried to think about it, hard. “i mean, he’s cute. and he’s nice enough most of the time,” you murmured, engrossed in thought. “but i guess i don’t really trust him that much yet. and i don’t want to give my body to someone i don’t trust.”
sunghoon hummed in understanding. “you know that’s not a bad thing, right?”
you sighed, shoulders slumped. “i guess.”
sunghoon placed his hand on your cheek, his touch feather light, as if you had a fragile warning on your forehead. “you can do so much better than him,” he whispered. “i know you’re going to do whatever you want at the end of the day, but as your father, i’m going to look out for you.”
but could you do any better? jake was your first boyfriend in years. maybe he wasn’t perfect, but he was better than all the failed talking stages you’d been through. if you held onto the good memories, the ones like only a moment ago where he held you tenderly and touched you with affection, you could bear the hurt.
but there was nothing like that with sunghoon. the way he touched you now, his hand on your face, was something you could always expect. “thank you for that.”
sunghoon shook his head. “you don’t need to thank me. it’s what i’m supposed to do.”
no, you have no obligation to do that, you thought to yourself, bemused. for nearly five years, he had been going above and beyond for you, treating you as if you were his very own daughter. you couldn’t understand it.
but you appreciated it. you appreciated everything. the way he reminded you how beautiful you were, the way he spent time with you even when he was exhausted, the way he listened to your problems and told you everything was going to be okay. without him, you would be so much more broken.
but you didn’t let your thoughts wander there. it was too much suppressed pain that you weren’t ready to uncover. “daddy, are you tired?”
sunghoon shrugged. “not really. i probably won’t go to sleep until around two. why?”
“do you want to watch a scary movie with me?” you asked, hopeful. yearnful.
sunghoon could see it in your eyes. he had learned to become very good at reading you after so long, though you’d always worn your emotions on your face. especially when you were thinking. it was very hard for you to lie. chuckling at the thought, he replied, “why not?”
you smiled, removing his hand from your face to slip your fingers through his as you hopped off the barstool, and led him to the living room.
the two of you settled on a nightmare on elm street and you went on to complain about how much you disliked eighties horror, much to sunghoon’s amusement. he tried to remind you that the technology and equipment available decades ago wasn’t the same as in the current age, but you didn’t budge.
apparently, you found the movie so boring that you fell asleep watching young johnny depp get devoured by a mattress. your head was on sunghoon’s shoulder, the couch blanket draped over you as you snored softly.
when you woke up, you were in your bed, cocooned inside your comforter instead and surrounded by stuffed dolls as birds chirped outside your window and the morning breeze whistled through the air.
none of which you had time to enjoy or even perceive, because the thing that had jolted you awake was the sound of a fist banging against your bedroom door. you groaned and willed yourself to climb out of bed, grumbling something underneath your breath, and threw the door open exasperatedly.
your mother was standing there in her robe, eyes red. “why didn’t you wash dishes?”
you fought a groan. that was the first thing to come out of her mouth? really? “wasn’t aware i was supposed to,” you said groggily.
clearly, that wasn’t a satisfactory answer. “i don’t want to wake up to a dirty kitchen. we’ve been over this.”
you could have rolled your eyes at that. then, clean it up yourself, you retorted in your head. it wasn’t like you had made the mess. “you cooked while i wasn’t here and i didn’t have any.” i didn’t think i needed to clean up after you.
“that doesn’t mean shit,” she snapped. “you don’t have a job, you don’t do anything around the house. you need to take some responsibility.”
with that, your mother turned and walked away.
you closed the door and exhaled through your nose, trying to calm yourself. you had been awake for less than five minutes and she had already managed to piss you off.
and over the most ridiculous thing. it couldn’t have been that hard to clean up after herself instead of trying to make it your problem. maybe you didn’t have a job, but she didn’t either. and the only reason you apparently didn’t do anything around the house was because you never did anything to destroy it in the first place.
and because you very rarely left your room when your mother was there. something about her presence left you on edge. there were many times you went hungry just because you didn’t want to pass her in the living room on the way to the kitchen for a snack. for as long as you could remember, the familiar sound of her bracelets rattling and her sandals tapping the floor had made your heart race.
in the middle of trying to undo your frustration, you thought of something. you had woken up in bed, even though you’d most definitely fallen asleep on the couch with sunghoon, and you had no memory of making the journey upstairs.
which meant he’d carried you.
your heart fluttered. something about that thought - the thought of a bigger, stronger man carrying you - did unspeakable damage to your brain. you knew he was your stepfather, knew it was wrong, but you couldn’t help but picture what else he could do with all that strength.
it was also worth mentioning that you were very vulnerable when you were just lying there innocently, asleep. he could have done anything to you if he wanted. if only he had wanted it.
almost the whole day had passed when, to your surprise, you had gotten a text from jake inviting you to hang out with him again. you had assumed he’d want time to himself after last night. but you wasted no time in getting ready, doing something different with your usually dolly makeup, and putting on a miniskirt to seem a little more mature.
you had been close to walking out of the front door, hurriedly walking past sunghoon and your mother who were sitting in the living room, until you heard your mother say, “come back. now.”
you slowly grinded to a halt, muttering annoyances to yourself, and forced a smile as you spun on your feet. “yes, mother dearest?”
“where the hell are you going at this time of night looking like a whore?” she asked, snappy.
you tried to take that in stride, but it was hard. she never failed to hurt your feelings.
your mother didn’t even give you the opportunity to respond before she demanded, “take that off.”
you stood your ground. “no.”
your mother looked at you like she wanted to lunge at you. ever since you had turned eighteen, which wasn’t even that long ago, you had gotten bolder. “if you leave wearing that, you’re just begging for it. don’t come crying to me if something happens.”
your eyes stung. how could she say something like that?
sunghoon made a face and put a hand on her shoulder, trying to stop her before she went too far. “doll,” he said to you, taking over. “i know you’re an adult now, but we still want you to be safe. i don’t know where you’re going, but i don’t trust this world enough to honor that wish. can you change, please? for me?”
switching on a dime, you replied meekly, “okay, daddy,” and went back upstairs to change your skirt.
your mother gawked in disbelief. then her expression flashed to anger. “why does she listen to you and not to me?”
“you called her a whore,” sunghoon replied, unsurprised. “i wouldn’t have listened, either.”
“i said she looked like one.”
sunghoon sighed. “that doesn’t make it any better. you know she’s sensitive. either way, you shouldn’t have said that.”
your mother said nothing, sulking. in her mind, it didn’t matter the delivery. she was your mother and she didn’t enjoy being disrespected.
the skirt you changed into was a little longer, at the least halfway down your thighs. you had been quick to change, grateful your bed was still littered in pile of skirts you’d handpicked (and would unfortunately have to clean later), and rushed outside to slide into the passenger seat of jake’s car.
the party he took you to tonight was better than the last one, at least. there were probably still people smoking and partying hard, but jake had you in the kitchen, where thankfully few people were.
jake handed you one of two red plastic cups with some kind of liquid in them. “here you go, baby.”
though you accepted the cup, you looked at it with scrunched brows, then back up at him. “what is this?”
“a mix of things,” jake replied with extreme vagueness. “just try it, sweetheart.”
you didn’t question him, just turning the cup up like it was juice, which you quickly realized couldn’t have been further from the truth. you grimaced, ears and throat burning, and put a hand on your chest. “what the fuck?”
jake furrowed his brows, feigning innocence. “you don’t like it?”
you shook your head. you’d had alcohol before, a few times when you were maybe fifteen and had sneakily took a shot of tequila from your mom’s pantry, but you had grown out of that. plus, you were still underaged in terms of drinking. “no, it burns,” you complained. “i’m not supposed to drink anyway.”
“you have such a stick up your ass,” jake teased, taking the cup from you and throwing back a gulp like it was nothing. he was only a year older than you, nineteen, and had no business drinking, either.
you shook your head in disapproval, though you knew it probably wasn’t much worse than him smoking.
“here,” he said, giving you the other cup he had been holding. this one was clear. “try this one. i think you’ll like it.”
you were reluctant, considering how much you disliked the first one he’d given you, but with how expectantly he was looking at you, you grabbed the cup and took a tentative taste. your eyes widened. it tasted like juice.
jake chuckled at your reaction. “good, right?”
you nodded, taking another sip. which became another, and another, until your head started to feel a little woozy. by the time you started to recognize it, you were already more than tipsy.
jake hoisted you into his arms like it was nothing and sat you atop the counter, draping his hands over your exposed thighs. “you look so pretty today,” jake mused aloud, admiring your skirt. “you get all cute for me?”
“yeah,” you murmured, eyes fluttering. it was all you could do to keep them open and suddenly, you wanted to go to bed.
“sleepy drunk, aren’t you?” jake asked, moving his hands to your waist to keep you upright. “heeseung’s room is upstairs. wanna go to bed, baby?”
you did, but certainly not here. you were drunk, not stupid. with you and him alone in a closed bedroom, there was no telling what all he would and wouldn’t do. and the fact that it belonged to heeseung only strengthened your hesitation.
“no, it’s okay,” you told him, shaking your head softly. you gingerly pushed yourself off the counter and onto your feet. “i’m gonna go to the bathroom.”
jake grabbed your hand, not wanting to let you loose just yet. “let me help you.”
“it’s okay,” you repeated, brushing him off. your heart thudded, nervous. “stay here.”
jake begrudgingly let you go, watching you disappear in the crowd with his jaw set. you just always managed to evade him, didn’t you?
you stumbled a little at first, but found your balance, making your way through the flock of other drunk partygoers. you gripped the railing for dear life as you climbed up the stairs, searching for the bathroom.
it was by the grace of god that you were able to find it and lock yourself inside without walking in on a couple trying to touch and feel on each other. you sighed in relief, digging around your bag for your phone. you had to get out of here, now.
with two incorrect attempts, you were able to enter your password and immediately went to your contacts, dialing the one person you knew you needed at a time like this. the one person who you could trust would be there for you no matter what.
sunghoon picked up on the second ring, answering, “hello?”
“daddy?”
even if it was only one word, sunghoon could hear in your tone that something wasn’t right. “yes, doll? is something wrong?”
“i think i messed up,” you murmured, grabbing onto the sink counter to stabilize yourself.
sunghoon’s brows stitched with worry, even if you couldn’t see. “what did you do? are you okay? are you hurt?”
“i don’t feel so good right now,” you replied, feeling drowsy. “i drank and i shouldn’t have, and… can you just come pick me up? please.”
you heard shuffling in the background, like he was already moving. “send me your location.”
fifteen minutes later, give or take, sunghoon called you and told you that he was outside.
you grabbed your phone and unlocked the bathroom door, heading straight for the stairs and making a beeline for the front door, wanting to leave before jake could spot you and do more damage. the second you saw your stepfather’s car, you hurried over, nearly tripping over your own legs.
thankfully, you were able to get inside his car without any problems, shutting the door and dragging the seatbelt over you.
sunghoon glanced at you, relieved to see that you were in one piece, but still worried. “are you okay?”
you nodded your head, sighing in relief just as the seatbelt clicked. “i’m okay,” you said, quiet. “thank you.”
sunghoon knew he should have been scolding you for drinking when you were only eighteen, but he was more concerned about your wellbeing at the moment. “why were you drinking?” he asked softly.
you swallowed, knowing he wasn’t going to like the answer, but you had to be honest. “jake gave me a cup and told me to try it.”
sunghoon exhaled, starting the car. if you were going to talk about jake, it was best that he was far, far away from wherever he was. “he’s no good for you, you know that?”
you turned away and looked out the window, eyes watering.
sunghoon glanced over for a split second and reached out with his right hand, his left one gripping the wheel. “i don’t mean to make you cry, baby. but you know i’ll never lie to you.”
“i know,” you whispered, trying to fight the tears. god, you hated how you couldn’t control them, how they fell at any minor inconvenience and there was nothing you could do to stop them.
he would never understand; no one could. the reason you went back to jake even though you knew in your heart of hearts that he was just another boy that would never love you. hell, you hardly understood yourself. it was fair, considering you couldn’t say that you loved him either, but you felt something.
and it was this unidentified something that kept you tied to him like a knot rather than severing the bond. you didn’t love him, no, you hardly trusted him, but you liked him enough. he was your second best.
though sunghoon’s eyes were on the road, he still had a tender hand on yours, squeezing it firmly. “why do you keep hurting yourself like this, doll? you’re too smart to be fooling around with boys like that.”
“he’s all i have,” you said, your voice feeble.
sunghoon’s brows furrowed, confused. “that’s not true. you have me, you have your mom, and you have tons of friends and family that love you. what makes you feel like he’s all you have?”
family i feel disconnected from, friends i only show half of myself to, and an emotionally unavailable mother who wants to control my whole life, you thought with a resentment you had been nursing for years.
you swallowed it down, even though it was bitter and lingered on your tongue, and answered softly, “because sometimes, when he’s not angry, when he’s not smoking or drinking or trying to hook up, when he’s listening to me and looking at me like i mean something to him, i get to feel like he loves me.”
sunghoon didn’t skip a beat. “and how many times is that, baby?”
that hit you like the ceiling crashing down on your chest. all your life, you had just wanted somebody to love you. you had just wanted to feel like you mattered to someone and you had gone through great lengths just to hear it from another person’s mouth. you had always tried.
the only person in the world you never had to try with was your stepfather. the man had gone out of his way, since you were thirteen years old, to treat you like his own. at first, you had wanted nothing to do with him - not to go to his and your mother’s wedding, not to move to his state, and most definitely not to live in his house. you had convinced yourself from a young age that all men were the same.
but sunghoon was nothing like the father that had abandoned you just when you needed him most and left you to deal with your mother who was incapable of expressing any affection to you in a normal, healthy manner. sunghoon was kind, sweet, loving. he was patient with you, spent quality time with you, spoiled you with gifts and listened to your problems.
all things your father did when you were a little girl, when everything had been okay, once upon a time.
it was only natural that you found yourself gravitating towards him more often than not, wanting to be around him, wanting to hear his voice, wanting to hold him and spend every waking moment with him. and it was only even more natural that eventually, your heart began to flutter around him.
but you suppressed it, because you weren’t that dumb. you knew there were no chances of him reciprocating your feelings, not when he loved you with the love of a father. but the nipping void inside you was still there, and it had never felt more empty.
you knew it would be a bad idea to look at sunghoon, so you kept your eyes fixed on the gleaming towers and lights shimmering on the water as he crossed a bridge. “i know it doesn’t make sense,” you willed yourself to respond. “it doesn’t make sense to me, either.”
for a moment, sunghoon was silent. he may not have understood, but he wanted to deliver his words in the right way. in the end, he chose compassion. “feelings don’t always make sense, especially not right away, and especially not when you’re young and experiencing them for the first time. but that doesn’t mean you have to let them control you.”
arms crossed, you grumbled, “easier said than done.”
“i know it is, doll,” sunghoon whispered. “i know it is.”
something in his tone made you finally turn to face him. your eyes glimmered and you begged, “please, don’t tell mom.”
sunghoon looked conflicted, like he was weighing his options, but he knew what the most effective choice would be. “i won’t, but you can’t keep doing stuff like this, kiddo. it worries me.”
if there was anything you hated, it was that pet name. “i’m not a kid. i’m eighteen.”
“and thirty days,” sunghoon added dryly.
he said that like it meant something. you retorted, “what, are you keeping track?”
“i’m just good at quick math.”
you scoffed. it was probably true, considering all the things you saw him calculating when it came to complicated business things you never understood, but that didn’t make it any better. “okay. how old are you?” you asked knowingly.
“thirty-nine.”
“what’s thirty-nine minus eighteen?”
“twenty-one,” sunghoon answered without any forethought.
more than twice my age. you knew that. not that it was hard to figure out, but that wasn’t the point. at some point, you had become obsessed with those numbers, crafting a delicate list of reasons why it could never work with your stepfather. the age gap, the marriage, the this and the that.
but on the other hand, none of those things really mattered to you. you may have still been young, but you were an adult now. a legal adult.
“besides,” sunghoon continued, seemingly unaware of where your mind had wandered. “i’ll always worry about you, no matter how old you are.”
your heart did exactly what you didn’t want it to do, what you had been trying to fight against for god knows how long now; it soared.
if you weren’t regretting your night enough already, you definitely were by the time you went inside the house, realizing everything you had to do before you dropped into bed. “god, i have to shower and take off my makeup,” you grumbled, walking with a stammer.
sunghoon kicked his shoes off by the door and grabbed your hand, lest you fell and hurt yourself. “i’ll help you.”
your eyes flickered in surprise. “you don’t have to do that.”
“it’s okay,” sunghoon replied, already steering you upstairs. “you need some guidance.”
you didn’t know what he meant by that, or maybe you did and you were simply in denial, but you didn’t ask.
sitting you atop the counter in your bathroom, sunghoon picked out the pack of makeup wipes that were already sitting there and gently began to wipe your face, pushing a stray braid behind your ear. he seemed focused, eyes squinting and his thicks brows furrowing.
you were focused too, watching him intently the entire time. it was difficult to ignore the way your heart raced when he got so close, the way your body seared with heat when he touched your cheek. it wasn’t necessarily even affectionately, which only served to make you more disappointed in yourself.
but sometimes, when you were staring hard enough, much like right now, you noticed more than just how handsome he was. you noticed the little scrunch of his brows when he was concentrating, you noticed the way his chest rose and fell as he breathed. when it was as quiet as it was right now, you could even hear his breathing almost as subtle as the faint scent of cologne on him that had worn throughout the day.
maybe it was somewhat obsessive, but you didn’t do it on purpose. sunghoon made it easy to tune the world out and ignore everything that wasn’t him.
after washing your face, sunghoon grabbed you something to wear and asked, “need anything else, doll?”
“no, daddy. i’ve got it,” you replied, grabbing a towel for your shower. the water was running behind the curtains. “thank you.”
sunghoon grinned softly and bent down to press his lips to your forehead in a tender kiss. “goodnight, baby,” he whispered.
“g’night, daddy.”
the door closed. you hated knowing that you were alone, that he wasn’t right there with you. at times, you got tempted to do things you used to do when you were younger, crawling into bed with him in the middle of the night, but it wouldn’t be appropriate. no matter how much you hated being separated.
you usually liked to milk time with him for all that it was worth, especially because he was always working. you stole the seat beside him at the dinner table, you watched him mend items in the house, and you spent a lot of time on the couch of his study when he was taking calls and doing paperwork.
once you had gotten redressed after your shower, you slipped into bed with a sigh. there was always tomorrow.
the cereal boxes were pushed too far back again.
you couldn’t reach them. even standing on your tippy toes, waving your hand aimlessly in hope of even scraping the damn corner of a box of cinnamon toast crunch, they were just too far. “ugh,” you whined, irritated.
sunghoon watched. his eyes were less on your challenging endeavor and more on the swell of your ass peeking from underneath your tiny nightgown as you rose off the heels of your feet onto your toes, noticing the way it jiggled when you stood normally again. there was a pang of guilt in his chest, watching you like that, but at the end of the day, sunghoon was just a man.
“i’ll get it,” sunghoon insisted, standing up from the bar to swing over without even having to ask which one you wanted. he routinely saw you only eat the same cereal.
you thanked him when he grabbed the box of cinnamon toast crunch and placed it securely into your hands. walking over to the counter where the milk and bowl were waiting, you noticed sunghoon come up behind you. at first, you thought he was just watching for whatever reason, so you ignored the thud in your chest at his proximity and poured the cereal.
then, you carefully grabbed the milk, not wanting to spill it accidentally. you had been guilty of that before. without warning, his hands dropped below your waist and cupped your cheeks, making your eyes go wide. “daddy,” you gasped out, bemused. “what are you doing?”
sunghoon shushed you, giving your neck a fleeting kiss before he shifted his attention back downwards, pushing your nightgown up so that it would bunch around your hips. “quiet,” he whispered.
“daddy, the milk,” you whined, having lost control of your grip when he touched you, catching you by surprise.
most of it had spilled out of its container, the bowl overflowing with streams of milk dripping off the counter that would stink if not cleaned soon enough. but some of it had splashed onto your face, chest and tummy. “shh,” sunghoon repeated. “don’t worry about it. you can milk something else.”
your face warmed in realization just as he began to press himself against you from behind, and the very big, very hard bulge in his pants made your mouth run dry.
or maybe it was the morning breath. because you woke up, sighing quietly at first, and turned to stretch your arm from underneath your blankets.
“what the fuck,” you grumbled a few minutes later when it dawned on you exactly what kind of dream you’d just had.
sure, you’d had dreams about sunghoon before, but they were nothing to write home about; they were entirely random and didn’t make logical sense, or they were simple and mundane, and very often, you didn’t realize they were dreams at first because they were so realistic that they could have been memories.
that was definitely a dream. you couldn’t imagine sunghoon doing anything like that to you. well, you certainly could, but that wasn’t the point. it wasn’t realistic whatsoever, other than him extending himself to help you.
it made you horny to think about. everything about the dream had physically felt so real to you; sunghoon’s hands on your ass, his bulge pressing against you from behind, and his warmth radiating onto you hotly enough to make you melt.
part of you was tempted to go back to bed, ignoring the faint chirps of birds outside your window and the light reaching through white and pink curtains. if only you could have stayed asleep a little longer, just to see how it ended. if only sunghoon would have ever felt that way about you too, then maybe it could become true.
but he wouldn’t. and even if he somehow did, sunghoon was at work by now. so you did the one you never thought you would do.
“hello?” jake said when he picked up the phone.
your heart sped. you were about to propose something that you were none too sure about, but something had to be done about the festering ache between your legs. your fingers weren’t satisfying you anymore; they hadn’t in years. “jake,” you whispered. “hi.”
“hi,” jake repeated dryly, wondering what you wanted. you could hear in his tone that he still wasn’t particularly thrilled about last night.
you swallowed the lump in your throat. “i’m sorry for running away last night,” you murmured. “i didn’t want to abandon you like that. i was just… scared.”
jake made a noise, but it was so quiet and distorted that you couldn’t decide what to make of it. “you were scared,” he replied, echoing your words again.
you gave a deep, prolonged exhale. you knew that you were running out of time with him, that one day, he would grow sick of your excuses and your stalling. “i knew that… you were trying to have sex,” you explained. “and i didn’t… i didn’t feel comfortable. i was drunk. and then you said we were going to heeseung’s room, and i got even more worried.”
“why?”
“i don’t like heeseung,” you admitted, although you thought it would be obvious by now. “he looks at me weird.”
“baby,” jake sighed. you could hear how frustrated he was. “heeseung’s not gonna hurt you. he just likes to have a little fun. but if it makes you feel better, i’ll try to keep him in line.”
you were only half relieved. “thank you.”
“now, is that why you called me? to tell me heeseung makes you uncomfortable?” he asked.
“no,” you stammered, playing with the hem of your shirt in attempt to distract yourself from your nerves. “there’s something else i wanted to tell you.”
“what is it, sweetheart?”
you blurted, “i think i’m ready.”
you could practically feel jake perk up. “like, seriously?” he asked, stunned.
“yeah,” you replied, but it weak. there was a bit of regret in your chest when the word left your mouth, but you tried to swallow it down and keep it there. “i’m ready, jake. right now.”
jake was ruffling through something, probably his drawer. “shit,” he said, excited. you wondered if his heart was beating even half as fast as yours was. “where are you right now?”
“home.”
“can i come over?”
“yeah,” you muttered again. he lived far enough that you had time to wash up a little and get your mind together. “my dad is at work and my mom probably won’t be home until later. it’s just me.”
“i’m on the way,” jake said without missing a beat, quickly hanging up.
you took a deep breath, trying to relax yourself. jake was your boyfriend. you were supposed to call him when you had needs; itches that needed scratching.
it was a conflict that had been warring in your mind for weeks, maybe subconsciously months. on the one hand, your lust was only centered around sunghoon and you were afraid of having sex with jake for more reasons than one. but on the other, the human desire for release had ran to a peak and now it was unignorable, your body begging to be satiated.
you knew what the most prudent choice would have been: dumping jake, getting over these unrational feelings for your stepfather, and no longer settling for men that treated you as less than what you deserved. but what did you look like being alone again, waiting for someone to decide they loved you, especially when your heart belonged to someone who could never be yours?
clearly, you were in no way in the position to make prudent choices. not when the need burning inside you outweighed the reason.
time went by faster than you thought, considering that jake didn’t particularly live nearby. you had spent the better half of that time in your own head, wondering what would happen, and the sound of the doorbell ringing jolted you out of your thoughts.
your heart was pounding with all its might as you made deliberately slow, steadys steps down the stairs and to the front door where you knew jake would be waiting. seeing his face when you opened the door only made you more anxious.
jake, on the other hand, beamed when he saw you. you weren’t sure if you had ever seen him smile at you like that before. “hey, baby,” he greeted, stepping inside.
“hi,” you murmured, shutting the door behind him.
jake coiled his arms around your waist and pulled you into his chest. his alluring, familiar scent put you at ease a little more. “i missed you,” he whispered, fingers sliding underneath your shirt to draw patterns on your navel, almost as if he could sense your need for comfort. “you ran off on me last night.”
your smile was sheepish as you apologized again, “i’m sorry.”
“it’s okay. i know why you did it,” jake said, glancing around as you led him out of the foyer little by little. “i just realized i’ve never been inside your house.”
that was not only true, but intentional; for obvious reasons, you didn’t want to be in the house with jake by yourself, but you also didn’t want him around your parents, either. your mother would find some way to embarrass you and the few times sunghoon and jake had met, there was strange tension in the air.
based on your mother’s behavioral patterns and those interactions alone, you had made the unilateral decision that it would be better for everyone involved if you kept your relationship with jake outside. “yeah,” you said, happy to think about anything but what was to come. “it’s better that way, don’t you think?”
jake chuckled, nodding his head. when he saw the stairs, he instinctively started heading that way. “yeah. i don’t think your dad likes me very much.”
“he’s just protective,” you replied, although you remembered sunghoon telling you outright that he didn’t like your boyfriend.
“you don’t need protecting from me,” jake told you, slipping his hand down from your navel to your hand as you started up the steps. “have you been telling him mean things about me?”
define mean, was what you answered in your head. if anything, you had probably described jake too kindly, too gently. he had never hurt you, at least in the sense that he had never put his hands on you, but he was aggressive in other, more hurtful ways. “no, i told him the truth.”
“and what’s the truth?”
“that i love you,” you lied. “and i want to do this with you.”
jake looked like the happiest man alive, and something told you that it was unusual for him to be more enthusiastic in this moment than almost any other moment he’d spent with just the two of you. but the fear that had kept you close to him for so long was the same fear that had held you apart, and it was the same fear telling you to be silent.
but when jake opened the door to your bedroom, his face fell. “what’s all this?”
your brows furrowed. “…my bedroom?”
“yours?” jake echoed, apparently appalled as he scanned your bedroom from left to right.
the main culprit, however, seemed to be the miscellaneous plushies thrown about your bed. “oh,” you whispered, confused. your mother had found it childish and voiced her unwanted opinion every now and then, but you never thought it was so bad.
jake scoffed, “what are you, thirteen? i’m not fucking you on that.”
“but, jake,” you started, noticing him turning back around. your stomach churned. he was leaving.
shaking his head, jake threw the door open and said, “you really have to grow up, baby.”
you followed him, frantic. you knew he could your footsteps as you trailed behind him down the stairs, but he didn’t bother turning around, as if he had already decided he didn’t want to see you anymore. “jake, please don’t go,” you begged.
he didn’t listen. he didn’t even look at you, not until he made it to the front door and said, “goodbye,” followed by your name. then, he walked out the door, passing your mother on his way out.
as if this afternoon couldn’t get any worse.
as soon your mother stepped through the door, looking like she had been awake for the past twelve hours doing god knows what, she went, “really? you turn eighteen and think you can just do whatever you want? why the hell are you bringing boys over?”
you were already on the verge of tears and you didn’t have the strength to put up with her, so for the first time in your life, you chose to walk away. she called after you, demanding you to come back, but you ignored it and raced upstairs to your bedroom.
it hurt more than it should have, watching jake leave like that, watching him go despite your pleas. maybe because it felt all too familiar. your brain recognized the feeling belligerently attacking you and your heart weakly surrendered to it, still too broken.
maybe you were always too broken, maybe that was why they never stayed. this is what men do, you told yourself through hot, wet tears. they take what they want, and then when it becomes even a little too much for them, they leave. nothing will change that. they won’t change themselves.
sitting alone by yourself in your closed bedroom with only your stuffed toys to bear witness to your suffering, it still felt humiliating. you had already come to the conclusion that what you felt for jake was not love, at least not of a romantic nature. and yet for the life of you, you couldn’t wrap your head around why it still hurt so bad.
it was a dizzying, throbbing ache that only persisted the longer you sat on the carpeted floor, weeping. for a fleeting moment, you were twelve again, old enough to recognize your first heartbreak but not enough to put a name to it. you remembered like it was yesterday, watching your father’s back as he walked out of the door, hauling the last of what he would bring with him into his new life, and leaving you in the old chapter.
there was a certain shape of hopelessness that you’d molded into, the loud, petty arguments and traded hits culminating in the few seconds it took to realize that you didn’t mean as much as a toothbrush, a watch, a box of wrenches or an old, wrinkled tee. because if you had, maybe he would have taken you, too.
and maybe if you meant more to jake than what was between your legs, he would still be here now. denying him sex for so long made you feel powerful; he was wrapped around your finger at some point, submissive, so to speak, and willing to do anything with the hopes that you would give it up. you took advantage of that. you used him so that for once in your life, you could feel wanted and in control.
and as you had ultimately come to expect, your woeful thoughts soon wandered to the greatest manifestation of your desires so far: sunghoon. it only seemed just that the world would taunt and tantalize you with the most perfect man you’d ever known, the only one you could ever trust with your heart.
the cards had been dealt so that you had just enough access to admire how much of a dream he was, but not enough to let you slip away; you could doze off, vaguely picturing what it would be like in a world where the steep heights and pitless hollows of your affection could be reciprocated, but every time, you would be jolted back awake.
the more you thought about it, there had to be a reason why you seemed to want things more after coming to find there was no feasible way you could make them yours - because you wanted control.
control, particularly over your own life, was something you had long wanted yet long been denied. you wanted to be able to make decisions for yourself without having your circumstances be shaped around the decisions of others. you didn’t want to suffer the consequences of a choice you had no say in. you wanted to reap what was rightfully yours.
seeing someone like sunghoon, someone that you knew you could never have, only made him attractive tenfold. until now, you never noticed how this manifested similarly in other parts of your life, like in your overwhelming urge to prove yourself. to be the adult it seemed like everyone doubted you could be.
that’s why it’s so hard for me to accept denial and handle rejection, you rationalized as you peeled yourself off the floor and onto your bed, having finally stopped sobbing. because i’ve been denied simple pleasures my whole life, and yet people try to deny me even more.
thinking back to the little girl you once were, the one that was full of life and imagination, the one that foolishly had hoped her mother and father would stay together, the one that was innocent and naive, and knew nothing about how brutal reality truly was, you couldn’t help but burst into tears all over again.
because that little girl didn’t deserve to have to grow up so quickly. if you could have undone it all, if you could have spared that little girl the trauma of crying herself to sleep as she heard her parents arguing down the hall, if you could have stopped her dad from leaving for years, if you could have stopped her mom from inviting man to man into her life, you would have done it in a heartbeat.
and then there was the part of you that had always craved romance, the part of you that remained unfulfilled. combining this lifelong grapple with control with an unattainable lover, it was no secret why you wanted to prove the stars wrong.
just this once, you wanted to know that you deserved good things too.
after a long moment of drifting between the sickness in your mind that had been infecting your thoughts, you eventually cried yourself to sleep. it was something you hadn’t done in years, but when you woke up, you almost felt better.
you dragged yourself out of bed and slipped on your house shoes, trudging downstairs while mumbling prayers about how you hoped you wouldn’t bump into your mother. you knew she would give you an earful about earlier.
to your surprise, rather than your mother, sunghoon was in the kitchen. he turned when he heard your heavy footsteps. “hey, doll,” he said, shutting the refrigerator.
you grumbled a response and waved weakly, moving past the island so that you could join him near the refrigerator. you would have opened it yourself, but sunghoon beat you to it, handing you a water.
when your eyes widened a little in surprise, sunghoon snickered and asked, “what else do you drink?”
he had a good point there. it was rare you drank anything but water in the house, not that you had a specific reason for it. it was just a habit you hadn’t broken. “and what if i was hungry?” you asked playfully, accepting the water from his hands.
“you wouldn’t have touched the refrigerator, because you always get everything delivered.”
you gasped in mock offense. “hey, i cook sometimes!”
sunghoon chuckled. “yes, you do, doll. but i know not to expect you to cook anything if you look like you just crawled out of bed.”
you hummed, sitting down at the island and twisting the cap off the water. you didn’t realize how long you had been asleep, but it had to have been a while if sunghoon was home.
sunghoon followed you, sitting beside you. he didn’t say anything for a minute, wanting to carefully think over his words so that they came out as intended. “i went up to your room earlier to talk to you about something, but you were sleeping, so i left you alone.”
you glanced over at him, finishing your swig before you asked, “talk about what?”
“your mother wants me to address your… disobedience, as she puts it,” sunghoon started levelly.
you sighed, slamming your head against the counter. of course, she did. “i guess she told you jake was here earlier?”
“she did.”
you were almost certain that that woman just didn’t want you to breathe. she had been able to control you less and less over the years, and the more you resisted, the more determined she seemed. like mother, like daughter. “well, it’s your house. if you don’t want me to have boys over, then fine, i respect that. but she doesn’t have the right to police me.”
“it’s not just the boy,” sunghoon replied, although he had his own set of grievances about that. “she feels like you’re becoming rebellious in general.”
you almost rolled your eyes. “and why couldn’t she tell me that herself?”
sighing, sunghoon said, “because she pointed out that you only seem to listen to me, not her.”
“yeah, because it’s surprising i’m more inclined to obey someone who knows how to have an actual conversation than someone who just wants to yell and doesn’t care to hear me,” you retorted, voice dripping with sarcasm. “daddy, she’s been trying to control my life since forever. i’m sick of it.”
“i know how you feel, doll, but you haven’t exactly been making smart choices lately, either,” sunghoon answered gently, resting a hand on your knee. “like your boyfriend, for example.”
“i told you, i don’t like him.”
sunghoon didn’t skip a beat. “and i asked you, why are you dating him, then?”
“god, you just don’t get it,” you grumbled, opening your water bottle to take another large gulp.
“then, explain it to me,” sunghoon said gently, eyes meeting yours with a reservoir of adoration. “make me get it. i’m here to listen to you, baby girl. i want to understand you, but i can’t do that if you don’t let me in.”
but you couldn’t let him in, not that far, because then he would see something that startled him. it was easier to break your own heart over and over than it was to risk his opinion of you changing, all for some closure. “i don’t want to talk about it.”
sunghoon heaved a breath. he absolutely despised when you froze him out. he wasn’t stupid; he noticed that you were only this less forthcoming when it came to the topic of your boyfriend that he couldn’t understand for the life of him why you kept seeing. every time he thought he’d had a productive conversation with you about him, sunghoon heard something else about that boy.
something more infuriating than the last.
you stood up from the barstool, an idle box of cereal on top of the refrigerator catching your eye as you did, and you remembered the dream you’d had about him that inspired everything to happen today. “i love you, daddy,” you whispered, throwing your arms around him. “thank you for trying.”
“i’ll always try,” sunghoon told you, voice featherlight.
you believed him, you truly did, but it hurt to think that he was the only man that would ever say that to you and mean it. “i know.”
sunghoon placed a hand on his shoulder before you could leave, hoping to get one more sentence in. “i know it’s not easy for you, doll, but can you try to appease your mother every now and then? for me?”
you stifled a sigh, nodding your head. “i’ll do whatever you want me to do, daddy,” you murmured.
sunghoon smiled softly and pat your shoulder.
for the next couple of days, you pathetically waited by your phone, hoping to hear from jake again. normally, he would text you the day or two after an unresolved argument, apologizing profusely until you gave him a satisfactory answer.
or in other words, until you forgave him. but on the third day, you knew something was wrong. you hadn’t even argued, and yet he was ignoring your existence as if you had committed the most unjustifiable crime against humanity ever recorded.
this is really it, you thought fretfully, heart swelling with dread. he doesn’t want me anymore.
you tried to act like it didn’t hurt, like he didn’t wield this immense power over you, but you knew you were lying to yourself. and that jake had lied to you. he had said that you could never disappoint him, after all, but you were fairly certain that ship had sailed.
it was half past noon when you noticed a notification on your phone from one of your friends, an attachment with a text that read, hey, did you break up with jake? just asking because someone sent me a photo of him kissing another girl yesterday night.
surely enough, the attached image was of jake swallowing some other girl’s face, blurry in quality, but you knew your boyfriend’s face when you saw it. he had his hands round her waist, holding her close exactly like how he’d held you, only it seemed like it’d been so long since he’d touched you like that.
only one minute ago, you had been convinced that you had no more tears left to cry. staring at the image, pieces of your wounded heart dropping heavily to your stomach, you didn’t realize you were crying until the phone went black by itself and you faintly saw your reflection in its screen, mirroring you.
whatever had happened between you and jake the other day, you didn’t consider it a breakup. it was your understanding that you were still together, given that he hadn’t necessarily said something to indicate the opposite. maybe you were mistaken, but that didn’t make it feel like anything less of a betrayal.
but to call it a betrayal implied some level of trust, a level deeper than you thought you had possessed. your feelings for jake were complicated, but you knew that you had trusted him not to stab you in the back the second it was turned. you had trusted him to take care of you, to protect you. you had trusted him not to hurt you.
now that you thought about it, you weren’t sure why. the past couple of weeks alone had been hell, his advances becoming more frequent than ever now that you had turned eighteen, and he had always shown signs of wavering. but you ignored them. you were desperate to fill the void left behind by every man you’d ever loved.
torn from head to toe with the sting of emotion, you pushed open your bedroom door and went straight for your parents room. fortunately, it was empty, neither of them home to watch you sulk; the last thing you wanted was for your stepfather to see you sobbing over a boy he hated, and for your mother to say that she told she so.
the first place you touched was the closet, where you knew sunghoon kept his hoodies. you missed him. you missed him in ways you’d never genuinely known him, or felt him, or possessed him. perhaps it would have made more sense to say that you longed for him, but in your heart, those moments you’d dreamt of felt real sometimes.
taking one of his cozy, black hoodies down from where they hung, you hurriedly threw it on, quickly engulfed by its size. it was comforting. the smell was, too. if you closed your eyes, you could pretend that sunghoon was there, holding you in his arms and whispering in your ear that everything would be okay in the end.
you pinched the loose material of the hoodie that was dropping around your body as you sat on the floor and held it to your nose, eyes fluttering closed. he had been wearing it around the house a lot lately. you were very fond of the way he smelled. it was heavenly and masculine, but also safe and familiar.
it was uniquely his own, and, breathing in the scent of sunghoon, you exhaled calmly, pretending that he could want you.
his scent had another effect on you, too. it made you feral, to say the least. though you were mostly used to it, when you saw him for the first time after a while, it made you feel like a ferocious animal, hungry with lust and ready to pounce.
for a moment, you tried to be stronger. you tried to pull yourself together and remind yourself that this man was your stepfather, the man who was married to your mother. but the shame could only contend with the gravity of want for so long until one finally emerged triumphant.
you pulled the hoodie over your head and stared at it for a second, like you were giving yourself one final chance to not do something you’d regret, but lust prevailed over reason.
with nothing to hold you back, you wiggled out of your favorite pair of tiny house shorts, temporarily tossing them aside. you grabbed a hold of the hoodie and bunched it into shape between your thighs, slowly rocking your hips into it.
your eyes fluttered closed as you tried to think of something that would help get you off, every thought you were capable of developing revolving around your stepfather. what most of them had in common, however, was the vivid picture of sunghoon on top of you, weight crushing you hard as he rutted into you nice and deep.
it was too arousing to think about, what he would feel like buried so many inches deep inside you, face tensing as he fucked you with total abandon. you wanted him to lose self restraint, to whisper in your ear that he loved you, that he wanted you, that he needed you. and only you.
your needy hips moved faster. the muscles in your thighs were spasming, your whole body alive with the sparks of desire that were killing you slowly. breathy pants escaped your mouth, your jaw slacking as your body worked harder to exhale. you couldn’t breathe through the thick, muddled haze of your uncontrollable hunger.
how could you? the mere sight of sunghoon made your heart hammer sometimes, because it knew what it wanted. your entire body, at this point, knew what it wanted, but more importantly, it knew what it needed. you couldn’t shake the idea that sunghoon was good for you. that he was meant for you.
maybe thinking of sunghoon as some exquisite gift sent from the gods as a reward for enduring so much in so little time, rather than a titillating manifestation of everything you wanted but could never have, was merely an extreme sign of desperate coping, but you couldn’t help yourself. you deserved him, more than your mother ever would.
you could make him feel so good, if he only gave you the chance. if he only let loose for a moment and let himself indulge in the wonders between your legs that called out for him and sang his name. you didn’t know what you were thinking, almost letting another man claim what was so surely his, even if he didn’t know it yet.
one of your hands pushed up your skirt and you squeezed your breasts, imagining it was sunghoon’s bigger, stronger hand instead. your hips were now moving with a mind of their own, rough pants getting louder, and you thought of sunghoon touching you with just as much fervor and need. it felt more like you were hoping.
the heat in your core finally reached its peak and you orgasmed with a shaky moan, trying to milk the high for all it was worth, but the relief disappeared just as quickly as it had come. you sighed, hole throbbing emptily, and you inspected the hoodie for any signs of your arousal leaking through your underwear.
you pushed it aside and lied down on the floor, catching your breath as you tried to shake the guilt. you hated how much of a slave you were to this insatiable need, sinning in return for only a fleeting second of relief. but more than that, you hated settling. if you had it your way, sunghoon would have been fucking you every night.
the thought made your thighs clench against each other. sometimes, you foolishly hoped sunghoon would come into your room at night and ravage you in your sleep, fucking you awake. you knew he was so tired when he came home from work. he deserved to come home to a young, tight hole. and he deserved to use it whenever he wanted, however he wanted.
knees kicking up, your eyes shifted underneath your parents’ bed, and you noticed something hidden underneath. your curiosity got the better of you and you reached out to grab it. a tiny box came into your hands, and for a moment, you just looked at it, wondering what was inside.
there was no better way to find out than having a look yourself. you figured it was sunghoon’s, given that it was on his side of the bed, and that knowledge only made you want to open it more; you were itching to know everything about him.
your brows furrowed when you opened the box. the first thing you saw was a picture of a teenaged girl, maybe about thirteen or fourteen. you were confused about why he had it, but there were more pictures stacked beneath. the more you glanced through them, the more you realized she looked a little too much like sunghoon.
those cute, deep dimples, his deep, honey eyes, and his peachy, plump lips. you gasped, coming to only one reasonable conclusion: this was his daughter. but if true, why had you never seen her, or heard him speak about her?
you had to assume that he loved her. for one, he was keeping pictures and belongings of her beneath his bed. other than the photos, you saw a necklace with an initial that wasn’t his own, a charm bracelet, a bottle of feminine perfume and other items. a part of you felt like this was something you weren’t supposed to see, and out of respect, you put everything back just as you had found it and slid the box underneath the bed.
it felt like a violation of privacy and there was a pang of regret in your chest, but you couldn’t help but have questions. though sunghoon would be coming home later than usual tonight, so even if you somehow mustered the courage to ask him, it would be a while before you got the opportunity.
you reached out to grab your shorts and put them back on. the only thing left for you to take care of was sunghoon’s hoodie, which you weren’t sure what to do with. you could have put it back as if nothing had ever happened, but you would have felt bad if you didn’t wash it.
so, you did. mostly everything you did from that point on was to distract yourself from thinking about sunghoon. every now and then, you remembered what had happened with jake and there was a throbbing ache in your chest, but you pushed the thoughts away.
it was easier to think about sunghoon, to wonder how many things you really knew about him, this man that had taken on the role of father for the past five years of your life. after all, it was never him coming to you for advice on life, but you supposed that made sense. he was older than you, had gone through many of the things you were experiencing for the first time, and had the benefit of hindsight.
still, you were curious about him and the many years that had shaped him into the person he was now. were they kind? every person had their fair share of hardships and encounters with adversity, at least in some fashion, but you hoped he’d had it relatively easy. you knew what it was like to suffer and you wouldn’t wish it on your worst enemy, much less him.
the efforts to distract yourself went on for so long that you even ended up making dinner, considering that your mother wasn’t home for whatever reason and you figured sunghoon would be hungry when he came back; you were hungry, and you hadn’t even done anything but think about him excessively.
like clockwork, sunghoon came in through the foyer and went to the kitchen, spotting you putting the finishing touches on dinner. “you’re cooking?”
you laughed at his surprise and nodded your head, turning off the stove. “i’m basically finished now,” you chirped, donning oven mittens. “i told you, i cook sometimes.”
sunghoon leaned against the counter, watching you take a pan out of the oven. “smells good,” he commented, humming in approval. “is your mother home?”
“nope,” you replied, setting the pan down on the stove. you had no idea where she was, nor did you care as long as she was safe.
“mm.”
you turned around to face sunghoon, taking a deeper look at him. he looked tired, exhausted even. you knew he would always deny how bad it was, though. “hungry?”
sunghoon bobbed his head and set a hand on his stomach. “starving.”
you and sunghoon sat down at the table beside each other and ate dinner, talking in between bites. your heart warmed to see how delighted he was while eating, the smile on his face at the first spoonful putting one on yours. your relationship with your mother had always been strained, but you had to thank her for teaching you how to cook.
while you had contemplated bringing up what you had seen earlier during dinner, every time you tried willing yourself to mention it to sunghoon, you got nervous and didn’t follow through. it wasn’t like it was something you were supposed to know about and you knew that by mentioning it, you would be telling on yourself.
not only that, but you didn’t know how sunghoon would feel about telling you about it, or if he would even want to talk about it. the last thing you wanted to do was overstep your boundaries, which was something you probably had already done the second you went into his bedroom and pried into his personal belongings.
after the dishes were washed, something sunghoon volunteered to help you take care of, you followed him into the living room where he usually went to relax after work. you managed to stay quiet for all of fifteen minutes before the guilt overwhelmed you and you apologized, “i’m sorry.”
sunghoon turned his attention way from the television to look at you, brows furrowing. “for what?”
you swallowed the lump in your throat. you could have gotten away with it, but it didn’t feel right not to mention. “i went into your room today.”
sunghoon didn’t mind you being in his bedroom, but it was unusual that you were there when you had your own. “why?”
you smiled anxiously, fidgeting with your hands. that was the important part. you left out what you had done with the hoodie, deciding he didn’t need to know that. “i just did,” you replied, your voice quiet. “but that’s not the part i’m apologizing for. i saw something under your bed. and, i looked through it.”
sunghoon’s face changed, something more melancholy tensing his features. “oh.”
“i’m sorry,” you repeated, faint. the look on his face made you feel even more guilty than you already had.
sunghoon pat the top of your head, as if he knew that you needed the reassurance. “it’s okay,” he said, smiling thinly. “i guess you have questions now, don’t you?”
you nodded reluctantly. those questions were essentially all you had thought about it since you discovered that box underneath his bed. “i do, but… you don’t need to tell me anything if you don’t want to.”
“it’s alright,” sunghoon replied, exhaling. that shroud of melancholy was still hanging over him. “she was my daughter.”
your heart stopped. “…was?”
for a moment, sunghoon was silent and he didn’t immediately respond. you wondered if you had said the wrong thing, overthinking everything you were doing. he exhaled yet another breath and replied, “she passed away six years ago. car accident.”
that explained everything, but now you felt worse than you had before and it was killing you. “daddy…”
it looked like it pained him to talk about it, but he did it anyway. “i was married before i met your mother,” he explained. “everything was good. we had a few problems, but hey, no marriage is completely perfect. my ex-wife took our daughter out and they were coming back home when they got into a car accident. she wasn’t paying attention. she lived; our daughter didn’t.”
you were silent. you didn’t know what to say.
tensing a little, sunghoon continued, “we had a divorce because i blamed her, and i couldn’t stand to be around her anymore. i don’t think i can ever forgive her for being so reckless.”
“i wish that never happened to you, daddy. you didn’t deserve that,” you said compassionately.
“you lost someone, too.”
the thought of your father left a sour taste, and to be frank, you never wanted to think about him again. “yeah, my dad left me, but at least the bastard’s still alive. if i wanted to talk to him, i could. but you don’t have that option.”
sunghoon’s eyes flitted over you and he reached out to push your hair out of your face. “that’s why i want to protect you, doll. you mean more to me than you will ever know.”
there your heart went again, acting a fool at the smallest words and actions. “you mean a lot to me, too.”
after much internal wavering, sunghoon reluctantly confessed, “i was never going to tell you this, but when i met your mother, part of what i liked about her was that she had a daughter. just a year younger than my daughter would be. and i wanted her back. i wanted her back so badly. so to me, it felt like god was giving me a second chance.”
your eyes flickered. you had always wondered what it was he liked about your mother in the first place. they made a strange pair; he seemed so different from her type, and his personality was much softer than hers. “really?”
“that’s why i tried so hard in the beginning to grow on you. even though it couldn’t have been more obvious that you didn’t want anything to do with me,” he told you lightheartedly.
you giggled, remembering how much you had been against your mother getting married to this man you barely knew. “you’re a great father,” you whispered. “thank you for not giving up halfway.”
“i’ll never give up on you.”
you were beaming. “i know.”
this conversation had taken a different direction than you had initially expected, but ultimately, you were happy with it. you had been so afraid of him getting upset with you, and though it would have been justified, you knew rationally that it just wasn’t in his nature.
at least, not when it came to you. you had noticed the anger bristling within him when he spoke of the mother of his child; it made you angry on his behalf. but even then, sunghoon’s anger was nothing like the kind you had grown up surrounded with. it wasn’t loud, aggressive, or dangerous. it was quiet, composed, restrained.
much like the rest of him.
in the time that you had spent thinking about sunghoon’s life and all the secrets it contained, you had figured something out about yourself. “i’m going to break up with jake,” you announced.
though he didn’t expect the topic change, sunghoon couldn’t hide his relief. “what took you so long?”
you chuckled, because that was a good question, to be fair. “well, for one, at least to my knowledge, he hadn’t cheated on me until now,” you retorted.
the anger was back, only this time, you swore it had a more hostile air to it than ever. “he did what?” sunghoon exclaimed.
you shrugged your shoulders. it wasn’t that it didn’t bother you, because it did. come to think about it, it mostly hurt because you would have never done the same thing to him, no matter how much you lusted after your stepfather.
taking a deep, frustrated breath, you explained, “yeah. long story short, when he came over the other day, it was because i had agreed to have sex with him. but when he saw my room for the first time, he basically called me childish and said he wasn’t doing it there. then he marched out.”
sunghoon shook his head, but he wasn’t surprised. at least you had enough self-respect to end it now. he was starting to become afraid that he would need to shake some sense into you.
jake had served a purpose. he was unbelievably handsome, undoubtedly smart, and told you everything that you wanted to hear. he distracted you from what you were really after, and in return, you ignored what he was really after.
there was a large part of you that felt ashamed for lying to yourself for so long. but now you were being honest. you owed yourself that much. “i was so stupid. part of the reason i didn’t want to have sex with him was because i wanted him to stay, and i wasn’t sure if he would still choose me afterwards. i was scared he would get what he wanted and leave. but the reason i agreed to have sex with him was because i could feel him getting bored and pulling away. and in the end, he left me anyway.”
you had already decided you weren’t going to hold it against him, because you were both guilty of something. you had lied to each other, taken advantage of each other, and bled dry each other. both of you had tried to force something that was never really there. you would never forgive him for cheating, but you could understand him leaving.
sunghoon listened intently, watching your face as you talked about your relationship and what went wrong. he picked out his words, not wanting to be blinded by his lack of disappointment. “you’re not stupid for wanting someone to like you.”
your eyes met his. i want you to like me, you thought to yourself, wishful. “am i stupid for staying even though i knew deep down that it wasn’t really me that he liked?”
“no, doll,” sunghoon replied gently, bracing a hand on your knee. “you’re just disillusioned.”
you chuckled. “you sure you’re not just saying that?”
sunghoon squeezed your knee, giving you comfort that he knew you needed. it would be complicated, you already knew, coping with your feelings for him now that you wouldn’t have jake’s shenanigans to distract you. not that they really ever helped. “you’re young. even your mind has a mind of its own. i think it’s only stupid if you make the same mistake twice.”
you hummed, knowing that that probably wouldn’t be happening. you weren’t the type of person to jump from relationship to relationship. you were too afraid of abandonment for that. you could only handle so many of them before you snapped.
as sunghoon looked at you, he couldn’t help but feel guilty, thinking maybe he should have done more to keep you safe from a boy like that. but you were an adult now, and he was trying to give you the space to take care of yourself on your own. “did you ever really like jake?” he asked after a pause.
“i think i just liked feeling wanted,” you murmured, ashamed of your own stupidity.
sunghoon let that sink in. he knew you had been dealing with certain insecurities for years, and the thought that he still had yet been able to help you made him feel worthless. “what kind of boyfriend do you want?”
there was a lull of silence as you thought about it thoroughly. you had liked jake because you thought he could be everything you should have wanted, but he wasn’t necessarily your type. “someone who’s tender,” you decided, something jake selectively was. “someone who’s assertive, protective, and takes care of me.”
“mm.”
your heart was racing, but somehow you found the courage to add, “someone like you.”
sunghoon tried to rationalize that, he truly did. in his mind, the idea of wanting someone who embodied the traits of a strong father figure was a perfectly normal desire. but he wasn’t an idiot, and he could hear everything you didn’t say, and recognize the sudden change in your body language.
because you didn’t want a boyfriend; you wanted a father.
sighing, sunghoon relaxes his eyes for a second before he opens them again, taking in how fragile you appear and feel beneath his heavy hands. “doll, you’re my daughter.”
“stepdaughter,” you corrected in a heartbeat.
sunghoon ignored you, continuing, “and you’re so young.”
“i’m eighteen,” you replied, heart thudding so fast you couldn’t stay still. “i’m an adult.”
sunghoon didn’t seem pleased, or convinced for that matter. it was as you feared; he would always see you as this little girl that needed saving. “you may legally be an adult,” sunghoon started, quiet. “but mentally, you are still a little girl.”
that stung. you never knew sunghoon was capable of it until now, but he had really burned you with such few words. your eyes even burned with the threat of tears. “if that’s how you feel,” you murmured, standing up from the sofa.
sunghoon softened, immediately regretting having ever said anything. “doll, wait.”
you didn’t, making a beeline straight for the stairs. you weren’t sure what you were expecting. he thought of himself as your father and he was married to your mother. why would he see you like that?
why did you see him like that?
to make matters worse, sunghoon didn’t follow you. you didn’t turn around, but the lack of footsteps behind you wasn’t lost on your ears. pretending it didn’t bother you, you went to your bedroom, shut the door, and dropped on your bed.
maybe you should have been grateful that your biggest problem in life was unreciprocated feelings. you knew there were all too many things you had to be grateful for, especially things sunghoon provided for you, like education and a nice home and fatherly love. there was no good reason to expect more than that from him. maybe you were just greedy.
or maybe you were needy. at worst, you were a little bit of both, but that wasn’t completely your fault. when bred from incompetence and instability, no one could rationally expect anything but insanity. if no one had ever given you a fair chance at normalcy, then no one could expect you to know how to reinvent yourself into something ordinary.
it was just so exhausting to be continuously rejected, because you were too this or not enough of that. you never knew how to be what anyone wanted. you never knew how to make anyone stay. just once, you wanted someone to care for you the same way you cared about them, and nothing less.
just when you were beginning to accept that you were hopeless, there was a knock on your door. wiping at your eyes, you reluctantly called out, “it’s open.”
sunghoon came in, shutting the door behind him, heart clenching in his chest when he noticed your reddening eyes. “calm down yet?” he asked.
you shrugged your shoulders, but murmured, “i don’t know if i’ll ever calm down.”
he could tell that you didn’t just mean the exchange downstairs; no, whatever storm was raging and rushing within you unbeknownst to him, it was only festering. “i try not to say the wrong things,” sunghoon said, slowly coming to sit beside you on the edge of your bed.
you knew that. it was something you had come to like about him. he was careful, loving. it was never his intention to hurt anyone. but he was only human, and humans made mistakes and had lapses in judgment. “maybe you weren’t wrong. maybe i’m just immature.”
“maybe a little bit,” sunghoon told you, frank, but lighthearted. “but i could have said it a little better.”
you rolled your eyes, almost feeling better already. but the faint echo in your heart had yet to cease. “you don’t need to sugarcoat everything for me all the time, you know.”
sunghoon hummed. you were saying that, but he knew that he could break you into pieces if he wanted. tinier, more insignificant pieces than the ones you already were broken into. but he wouldn’t. he was realizing the full scope of power he wielded over you, and now that he knew, he wanted to be cautious. “i think i understand you now.”
your eyes leapt up to his face, almost like you were begging for that to be true. “what do you mean?”
“why you do the things you do,” sunghoon continued, dabbing at a tear that had fallen down your cheeks. “you don’t want a boyfriend. you want a father.”
saying nothing, you fidgeted with your thumbs and held your breath. you weren’t used to having your heart laid flat on the table.
sunghoon stopped you, setting his palm on the back of your hand. “you want me,” he said, making you wish you could disappear. “and that’s why you kept saying that you didn’t really want jake, but never explained to me why you kept dating.”
you leaned your head on his shoulder. “i love you so much, daddy.”
sunghoon’s heart was pounding in ways it hadn’t in a long time. “i know you do, baby girl. but you know that this isn’t right.”
“i don’t care.”
sunghoon sighed. “i’ve known you since you were thirteen, doll.”
“so? am i thirteen right now?”
“no, but you’re barely legal.”
“i’m legal. you don’t need to put unnecessary adverbs in front of it. i’m not some kid, daddy.”
there was no doubt that sunghoon was trying to change your mind, hoping to say something that would make you realize how foolish this was. too bad for him, you were too far gone. “your mother…,” he started.
“i don’t care,” you repeated a little harsher. “you told me yourself, you basically married her for me. and all she does is leech off you. i know it and you know it. we don’t even know where she is right now. say that you love her more than you love me, say it!”
“i don’t like your tone right now, doll,” sunghoon told you, stern, but level.
obeying the silent command in his voice, you quietened, murmuring, “i’m sorry, daddy.”
sunghoon sighed, stuck between a rock and a hard place. he put a hand on your thigh. “but you’re right. i do love you more.”
“then, prove it,” you whispered, inviting him. daring him. prove that you love me. prove that you’re just as sick as i am. prove to me that i have you in every way, that i’m not alone.
sunghoon knew that he shouldn’t. he was considering everything you had failed to acknowledge - your mother, his marriage, proper morality, and the fate of his relationship with you. but where he had been ignorant to your fermenting feelings, he hadn’t failed to notice exactly how much you had grown up.
the way your body had matured. the way you’d began coordinating your signature scents into something that was indisputably yours. the way your taste in fashion had changed from fluffy, pink skirts to short ones that were one wrong move away from flashing your plush cheeks and the cute, thin fabric of your underwear clinging tightly onto your cunt it just hardly concealed.
sunghoon had, too, noticed, and been rather fond of, how you were usually the meekest thing in the world only for him. with enough conditioning, in a world that was darker, he could put a gun in your hand and turn you into his little obedient vixen. you just wanted to heal him, please him, satisfy him.
but it would be wrong. and sunghoon had once prided himself on the fact that he did everything right. he got the most compelling grades in school to prove that he had genuine smarts to pair with his wealth, he went to a top university and worked hard, he got a job straight after graduation, met who he thought was the perfect woman, married her, bought a opulent house with her, and had a beautiful daughter with her.
so what if he still had to repeat a couple of steps, and so what if he had messed up on a few? at least he didn’t mess up on you. the only thing he regretted when it came to you was not completely noticing, not doing more to keep you from struggling.
you were more than just a reclaim of what he had lost. sunghoon didn’t think of his first daughter when he thought of you, not anymore. with you getting older and growing into your own person, your own way of life, it was difficult to see her in you. so, he accepted you as your own person, and in turn, he let go.
but that fact didn’t make him feel any less guilty or conflicted. you were still his stepdaughter, and you trusted him to protect you. your mother trusted him to protect you. everybody trusted him to guide you, steer you, lead you.
looking into his brown, troubled eyes, you instantly knew what it meant. he needed some persuasion, something to hinder his overthinking.
“please,” you pleaded, resting a hand on his lower abdomen just as gingerly as the way he handled you in mind and in body. he was still in his work shirt, broad shoulders catching your eye as you succumbed to the urge to rub your smooth palms over them.
look at you, begging him to fuck you. gazing up at him with those big, hopeful eyes with a shimmer that was so sweetly sparkling he almost mistook it as innocent. but he knew better. those were eyes that hoped for corruption, that sought comfort in destruction, and that were molded into the puppet of pain.
you lowered your hand again, stopping just shy of his crotch hidden by his work pants. fumbling with the fly, you looked into his eyes, searching for something. any indication that he was resisting. but you only saw him watching like even he didn’t know what he wanted.
it was surprising. you had been half expecting him to put his hand over yours and stop you, to remind you again that this was wrong and he didn’t see you how you saw him, but he just kept his eyes focused on you as if he was trying to see just how far you would go.
testing the waters, you undid his pants and went straight for his cock, the sound of a strained grunt making your cunt clench around emptiness. it was the sexiest thing you’d ever heard. you had imagined pulling those sounds out of sunghoon, closed your eyes and immersed yourself in a resewn fabric of another reality, but nothing measured up to hearing it for yourself.
sunghoon knew that things were rapidly approaching the point of no return and he groaned, “doll…”
“make me stop,” you whispered, gently wrapping your fingers around him and moving your hand in a relaxed motion. “make me stop, daddy.”
it wasn’t for lack of trying. sunghoon closed his eyes, wanting to will himself to be the rational person in the room since you had forwent reason entirely, but the second your small, supple hands tightened around his shaft, he knew he had failed.
he didn’t want you to stop. and you you didn’t want to stop, either.
you beamed victoriously, his silence being a telltale sign that he had succumbed to the same infectious wanting that had long plagued you. you moved your hand only a little faster, endeavoring to stroke him hard. it seemed that with every touch and movement of your wrist, his breathing was growing louder, more labored.
when he was fully hard, you had to suck in a gasp. you weren’t sure how you were going to fit every inch of him inside you, and the only thing that seemed clear was that you had your work cut out for you. nevertheless, you still wanted to make him feel good, so you glanced up at him and said sweetly, “tell me what to do. teach me, daddy.”
you caught a quiet, “fuck,” from underneath sunghoon’s breath as he heard what you had said, on the verge of losing his mind altogether, and it was doing unmistakable damage to his psyche. doing the right thing was no longer an option. all that was left was ache and need. without it, you didn’t know who you were.
releasing a shaky breath, sunghoon brushed his thumb against your bottom lip with affection and whispered, “take it in your mouth. go slow and gentle.”
you nodded your head obediently, opening your mouth just wide enough to fit his girth between your parted lips. the first inch was fine; the second inch had its complications, given that you hadn’t adjusted to the pressure of his cock in your mouth and breathing through your nose. by the third, you folded, withdrawing.
“i’m sorry,” you murmured, feeling like you should have at least been able to do that much.
sunghoon shook his head, smiling, and smoothed a hand through your hair. “that’s okay, baby,” he said, understanding. “try again.”
you sucked him into your mouth again, right between your lips, cheeks hollowed and everything, but for some odd reason, you couldn’t relax. you already felt like you were about to gag and it was only the first couple of inches. when you tried to take another, you had to pull back again.
there was a faint burning in the back of your throat. you didn’t even notice that a few tears had fallen from one of your eyes until you pulled your mouth off. you frowned, unable to shake the fear that you would disappoint him somehow if you couldn’t do it.
“you’re okay,” sunghoon reassured you, patting your head. “you’re okay, doll. i promise.”
with another nod, you decided to give it one more go, determined. not only because you wanted to prove yourself, but because you wanted to make him feel good. you couldn’t think of anyone that deserved it more than he did.
this time, sunghoon held your hair comfortably behind your head and caressed the strands as you tried to pleasure him once more, accepting what you could into your mouth bit by bit. you were less tense than before and it enabled you to concentrate on breathing and not overwhelming yourself too quickly.
afraid that you would gag again if you tried to take another inch, you decided to use your hand to take care of the remaining amount that wouldn’t fit. fortunately, it seemed to work; your mouth kept one part of him company, and your hands moved to prevent the other from becoming too neglected.
sunghoon moaned, curses falling here and there. you could feel the wetness soiling your underwear and he hadn’t even done anything yet. his voice was low and deep, sending jolts of electricity straight to your core. minute by minute, you became more and more aware of how aroused you were, and your mind, friend and foe, tempted you with pictures of what it would be like to finally have sunghoon inside.
to your surprise, sunghoon cautiously pried you off his cock, making you look up at him and wonder if you had done something wrong, but all he said was, “i don’t want to come yet.”
your thighs squeezed together in excitement. if not now, then later. and if not in your mouth, then hopefully deep, deep inside.
“daddy,” you called out, somewhat timid. “are you gonna fuck me?”
sunghoon was maybe a few seconds away from short-circuiting and it was admirable that he hadn’t done so already, all things considered. he didn’t reply immediately, having to catch his breath. “do you want me to?”
“yes,” you replied in a heartbeat.
the room felt hot, and sunghoon couldn’t tell if it was real or it was in his head. “say it.”
it was a little awkward for you to say it so bluntly, but given that you had come this far, you might as well. “i want you to fuck me, daddy.”
sunghoon grunted and said something that sounded like, “come here,” as he gingerly pulled you off your knees and back onto your mattress. before you even blinked, he was pressing his lips to yours, enveloping them in a sweet, fiery kiss.
it felt like a daydream. maybe because you had dreamed of him before and this captured the exact floaty, cloudlike feeling of his arms cushioning your body in a dream, only the speeding thud in your heart making it undeniably real.
you couldn’t liken it to any kiss that you and jake had shared. while you would admit that jake was objectively a good kisser, almost everything you did together lacked passion; there was no spark behind even the most tender of touches. and yet somehow just being this close to sunghoon made your whole body scorch with the fever of suppressed want.
sunghoon slowly forced himself away and began to descend down your body, tugging your shorts down your thighs. heat filled your cheeks when his fingers hooked under your underwear next, but you raised your hips so that he could pull them off. what caught you by surprise, however, was when his tongue flicked over your sensitive flesh.
you gasped, a jolt making your body snap. “wait, daddy, you don’t need to. i’m already wet enough.”
that you were. sunghoon could see plain as day how your wet folds glistened with an arousal that had been building longer than he could ever imagine, gone ignored and neglected no longer. “i know,” he grunted out. “i want to.”
then without another word, sunghoon went to town. he started slow, gentle; his larger hands were firm on your plush thighs as he held them apart, almost as if he expected you to eventually resist him. for now, though, there was no need; he was tasting your devotion on his tongue, in no apparent hurry to let this moment end.
your breaths were becoming increasingly heavy, and a part of you still couldn’t believe that this was really happening - sunghoon was in between your legs, prepared to make you seen every star that hung in the night sky. you did what you could to commit the sight to memory, refusing to let it get away.
sunghoon wanted to see you unravel. you nearly died when he pressed his tongue deep inside you, abruptly tearing a sweet cry out of your mouth. the muscle wandered over your walls, savoring what he would feel soon enough. but for now, he was more than content to gather every bit of your arousal on the very tip of his tongue and make you feel sensations unimagined.
“god, you taste so good, baby,” sunghoon groaned, hands clamping tightly around your thighs. “so goddamn good.”
it was from that moment forward he lost control; his self-restraint broke; he was consumed with abandon. sunghoon licked and sucked at your bundle of nerves, drawing out more noises than before. your hips jerked as you laid sprawled out before him, entirely at his mercy.
just the way you always wanted.
“does that feel good, baby?” sunghoon pulled away for the shortest second to ask. “do you want me to slow down?”
you shook your head, hands desperately fisting the sheets. “no, please. don’t slow down. down stop,” you begged.
hearing you say that only made sunghoon harder, but he was still a man with some inhibitions if it meant drawing out the pleasure you felt at his hands. “just tell me if you need me to switch things up, okay?”
then he went back to work. this time he steadily worked two fingers into you, and you knew without a shred of doubt that you were positively ruined. they were long and thick, much more compared to yours; you would probably feel his cock for days to come.
you could feel yourself devolving into pure madness. sunghoon’s fingers were working you open at the same time his tongue flicked over your clit, and you could hardly keep still, your body convulsing every which way. if not for how tight his hands were around your trembling thighs, you wouldn’t have been able to keep them spread for him.
“daddy, please don’t stop. i think i’m gonna come,” you said between quick pants.
“i know, baby girl. just relax for me.”
with every nerve in your body going haywire, you felt anything but relaxed. between your thudding heartbeat and the ecstasy shooting its way through your spine, your body was bursting at the seams with fervor. but you tried for him. you couldn’t think, at least. there was too much physical stimulation to allow for passing thoughts.
sunghoon only had only goal in mind and that was to make you feel nothing short of the absolute peak of pleasure. he could see what things your body was responding to best and he took advantage of every reaction you had to offer, twisting his tongue the way you so clearly loved.
you couldn’t handle it anymore, and something within you snapped; you cried out, back arching off your fluffy pink bed, jake and the stupid stuffed toys the furthest thing on your mind as warmth fluttered in your stomach.
“that’s it, doll,” sunghoon crooned. “you’re okay, baby. i promise. just let go.”
all the while, his fingers didn’t stop as he spoke. they kept moving as he assured you between gentle kisses to your thighs, almost as restless as your entire body was. “daddy,” you whimpered, thoroughly wrecked.
“i know,” sunghoon whispered, lips flush against your skin. “you did so good, doll. so good for me.”
sunghoon got up from his knees and draped himself over your body, leaning down to kiss you breathless. though you tried to ignore it, you could feel his hard cock pressing against you and just the feeling itself was mouthwatering.
“so perfect,” sunghoon murmured, pulling back to pepper kisses down your jaw. “did you really think daddy wasn’t gonna make sure his doll was taken care of?”
you had nothing to say, so you just watched him begin to peel off what was left of both of your clothes, piece by piece. when you completely naked, you noticed sunghoon’s unbudging eyes stuck to your figure. “do you think i’m pretty, daddy?” you asked with a smile.
“pretty?” he murmured, brows stitched in amazement. “you’re… you’re beautiful, doll. don’t you forget it.”
you wanted to hear him say that a thousand times over.
even as sunghoon moved to reposition himself between your legs, you could hardly believe that this was actually - genuinely - happening. but every touch of his body had felt so real, and you’d dreamed of moments like this enough to know the difference. giving you one last chance to back out, sunghoon asked, “are you sure you want to do this, baby?”
“please,” you begged. the brushing of his tip against your slick folds made your mouth run dry. “i need it. i need you.”
that was all it took for sunghoon to push inside you, slow and steady as ever. you sucked in a breath, your hands already clenching the sheets again as he coaxed the head of his cock deeper inside your sticky cunt.
“oh my god,” you gasped out.
sunghoon chuckled. “i’m barely inside you, baby.”
you knew that, but the feeling of him inside you even this far was enough to make your mind unravel. you’d imagined that it would be a tight fit, but despite him preparing you to take him, that seemed like an understatement. though you were nothing if not purely determined. you would take all of him, no matter how long it took.
sunghoon’s brows furrowed the deeper he sunk into you, his jaw slacked. “god, you’re so tight,” he murmured. to sunghoon, this was the moment that cemented everything into reality, the moment that made everything true. the tight, wet feel of you stretching around his cock as he moved deeper and deeper was too insane to be imagined even if he tried. and he had tried.
your chest and core fluttered at the compliment. you enjoyed the praise. knowing that you were satisfying him, that you were pleasuring him the way he was pleasuring you, was something that filled you with an immense sense of accomplishment. there was nothing you wanted more than to serve him, than to be his girl.
sunghoon took his time, still hardly moving. every time he heard you abruptly suck in a gasp, his hips ground to a stop, wanting to give you time to adjust. he knew better than anyone that he wasn’t lacking in the size category, and the last thing he wanted was to make his sweet girl’s first time uncomfortable. for the right reasons, he wanted to give you a time to remember.
“do you need a minute, doll?” he asked, one brow lifted as he glanced down at you.
you shook your head. “no, it’s okay. you can keep going.”
“you sure?” he pressed. it would be a lie if he said he wasn’t dying to move even deeper, but not at your expense.
not to mention that your mother probably wouldn’t return until after midnight, but that was another conversation.
“i’m sure, daddy,” you replied, reaching out to cradle his face in your hands. you didn’t want him to look away. “don’t stop.”
“fuck,” sunghoon groaned. you watched his lips part with the noise and felt his cock become buried further inside your cunt, working you open for him. he was taking his sweet time, because you both knew that if he was going to destroy you, he was going to make every second of it count.
“daddy, are you almost done?” you asked quietly.
“halfway, babe,” sunghoon told you.
you gawked. “halfway?”
sunghoon shushed you with a kiss, pushing himself yet another inch within your heat. he couldn’t wrap his mind around how perfect you felt around his cock and he wasn’t even fully seated inside you yet. you tried to focus on the way his lips moved against yours, but not even that could distract you from how he was stretching you out beyond belief.
“daddy, you’re so big,” you whined.
“i know, baby girl,” sunghoon replied softly, a hint of guilt on his face. “almost there, i promise. does it hurt?”
“a little bit,” you admitted. “but i can take it.”
sunghoon swept his finger over your bottom lip. “you sure, baby?”
you nodded your head. for him, you were convinced that you could do anything. and on top of that, there were no bounds to the things that you would do for him.
when sunghoon’s length had finally penetrated you to the very end, he stilled again, giving you a moment to recover before he started. it felt like an eternity before he actually moved, but when you gave him a nod of approval, he slowly drew back and penetrated you again. you were at a lost for words. nothing had ever been inside you that deeply. there were your fingers and maybe a hair brush, but neither rivaled the depth of your stepfather’s thick cock as he began to take you like you were his.
because you were.
“jesus christ,” sunghoon hissed. “you feel so good, doll. do you know that?”
“you feel good too,” you stammered out.
sunghoon took that as a sign that he was doing everything right, which was more than enough for him to relax. his mind was reeling. the mere wet sound of your skin meeting was making him lose control, and that was to say nothing of your pretty moans. the way you desperately called out for him was almost too much to bear.
you reciprocated his feelings. with every deep, guttural grunt that escaped sunghoon’s mouth, your body was less and less yours. he owned you, head to toe, inside out. you were more than prepared to surrender everything to him, to let him claim all that you were. because you relied on him. you needed him. and little did you know, in some twisted way, he needed you even more.
sunghoon’s hands were balled at your sides, clenching the sheets fiercely. he dreaded hurting you, but imagine his surprise when you grabbed a hold of his hands and redirected them to your perfect hips. “you can hold me, daddy,” you reassured him. “please. i won’t break.”
and even if you did, you were willing to let him put you back together. sunghoon could feel whatever remained of his restraint crumbling into pieces, and he held your hips in his palms tightly, his eyes boring into yours. his gaze, as relentless as it was, wasn’t challenging; it was piercing, loving, understanding. he saw you, he knew you, because you were familiar. you were what kept him whole.
something made sunghoon hold you even tighter. there was a thought that struck him. you needed him to take care of you, to depend upon, to guide you. and he needed you to bring back a purpose which was unfairly stolen from him. he knew it was wrong, that it was sick, but it couldn’t be helped. you had become everything to him, and there was no way in hell he was going to let that go.
“i need you,” he panted, his hips keeping a comfortable pace that you seemed to enjoy, judging from how you continued to throb and moan. “i need you so much, doll. you don’t understand.”
you shook your head, arms wrapped around his neck. you wanted to be inseparably close. “i do understand, daddy,” you insisted. “i need you too.”
sunghoon felt heat surging through his stomach. he said your name. “i love you.”
your lips curled into a smile. your body shook with rapture, so much that you thought you could cry. “i love you too, daddy. i love you so much. i’d let you have me whenever. i’m yours and i wanna take care of you.”
“mine?” sunghoon repeated, so quietly it could have gone unheard if not for how close his face was to yours.
you nodded your head.
sunghoon prodded, “all mine? and not that stupid little boy you call a boyfriend?”
the mere mention of jake made you feel disgust and you knew that you were over him, for good. “won’t see him anymore, daddy. i promise. i never wanted him. i always really just wanted you.”
sunghoon didn’t even bother willing himself to keep calm after he heard you say that. he was insane about you and he didn’t care to hide it anymore. “always?” he repeated.
you hummed. “the first time i came was on that bunny rabbit right there.” you turned your head to gesture towards the stuffed animal.
sunghoon saw it and his eyes darkened as he pictured you mounting the poor bunny, grinding your hips against it as you wished and hoped and prayed it’d soon enough be him bringing you pleasure. he wondered exactly how many times you had used it. how many times you had thought of him.
you cried out as his hips began slap against yours faster, but you took it. sunghoon wasn’t particularly rough, but each thrust drove you closer to insanity than the last. wrapping your legs around your waist, you drew him closer, your arms around his neck and his big hands firm at your hips. “fuck,” you stammered.
“you think about me a lot?” sunghoon asked.
you nodded your head eagerly. “yes, all the time!”
sunghoon was unrelenting. he lowered his head, sucking your nipple into his mouth, before he let it fall and pressed, “how much do you think about me?”
“every day,” you told him honestly. “there’s not one day… where i don’t.”
“every day?” sunghoon repeated. “you think about me fucking you every day?”
“sometimes i dream about it,” you confessed.
sunghoon groaned. he had dreamed of you too. he had constantly tried not to think about you in that light, but he couldn’t help what he dreamed of. “i dream about you too,” he whispered. “of making love to you and fucking you full of my cum. will you let me, doll?”
“yes,” you answered him without a second of hesitation. “please, daddy. come inside me!”
sunghoon almost came just from hearing those words, but he couldn’t yet. not before he felt you tighten around his cock with climax. removing his hand from his hip, he began to toy with your sensitive clit, eager and desperate to make you come, to see you come, to feel you come.
your body arched into his hand, knowing who its owner was and willing to submit to his every whim. it felt like your mind was floating somewhere between earth and heaven, lost in space where there was no life, no time. only infinity.
it wasn’t long before your vision brightened white and you swore you could see every star. your legs tightened their grip around his waist as you shuddered with ecstasy, and your mouth hung open as you moaned.
“that’s it,” sunghoon crooned. “good girl. you’re amazing, doll.”
you stilled after a moment, sated.
the sensation of your cunt gushing tightly around him as you orgasmed made sunghoon moan himself, and you listened to the sounds of your heat kneading his cock as he used your cunt to push himself to the end. it had felt so good to you too; having something to grip on as you came made the experience all that much better.
“come for me, daddy,” you said, trying to coax the orgasm out of him. “come inside your doll… i need it.”
that did it. hearing you referring to yourself as his doll sent him completely over the edge and you gasped out loud when you felt sunghoon dumping his thick, sticky hot load into your cunt with the deepest grunt of your name. it was so good, so warm. you held eye contact with him the entire time, not once daring to look away even as his hips slowed to a stop.
for a long moment, you both simply lay there in each other’s arms, neither of you wanting to move when you were this close. but you did pull him in for another heated kiss, because you couldn’t think of another way to somehow bring yourself even closer. sunghoon kissed you back passionately, holding your body against his protectively, almost as if he was afraid you’d be taken from him too.
you thought nothing could ruin the moment. then, out of the blue, your phone rang. you and sunghoon both let out a collective sigh of exasperation and you withdrew to peak at your phone on your nightstand, wholeheartedly expecting it to be your mother.
your eyes went wide when you saw that it was jake.
and you wouldn’t have answered it, but you needed to call it quits anyway. though you initially planned to meet him in person, in that moment, you decided he didn’t deserve to see you again in his life. “hello?” you answered.
“baby, you picked up,” jake said, sounding amazed. “listen to me, baby. i’m so sorry i haven’t been answering your calls. i just needed some space, you understand that, right?”
before he could utter another word, the phone was abruptly snatched from your hands. “don’t call my daughter again, or i swear to god, i will find you, and then i will fuck you up,” sunghoon hissed.
he hung up without another word and tossed the phone to the side.
you gawked at his words, but you both felt the way you’d throbbed. “daddy!”
“quiet,” sunghoon said, withdrawing from inside you. “now show me what you did to the bunny.”
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