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December 27, 2018 — 12:06 PM

Reaching out ; after a few days of you being on my mind constantly I decided to reach out to you. I didn’t know how you would respond or if you would even respond but I did it anyway. I’m sure you were a bit skeptical but I’m just appreciative of that fact that you gave me a second chance to be apart of your life again. We slowly got back on track and eventually got back to the point where we left off. 🖤

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I’ll admit I was wrong....

Wasn’t sure if I wanted to include this but it’s apart of our story so why not right?

Well after our amazing times we shared one day I became very unsure about what we were doing.

I knew that I really liked you and that we were building a great relationship but I was also afraid of the unknown. As quickly as I fell for you I knew there was also potential for me to easily get hurt. I had just lost a friendship due to a failed relationship and I didn’t want that to happen to us because I had already endured enough pain from that. Not to mention I had never publicly been intimate with a guy and I was just scared what people would think. A lot was going throug my mind and the easiest way for me to escape was to cut you off. Instead of telling you these things like an adult I just ran from the truth and even after all that you never stopped contacting me which I 100% appreciate now.

We went months without talking to even blocking each other on Instagram. I was such an asshole for the way I handled things and I’m so sorry and so often think where we’d be if we had never stoped talking.

I was honestly at a very low point in my life and just didn’t know what I wanted. I was confused and LOST.

When you tweeted “This nigga Travis is "screaming for a purpose" but no sound is coming out literally #lostcause” you were 100% correct.

I needed someone but I didn’t know who to turn to. I isolated myself from not only you but the people I hung out with at the time. Then went back and tried to make things work with them which in the end didn’t work out.

I often thought about you and wondered what you were up to but didn’t know how to reach out to you. Pretty much a year went by and finally I decided to text you and give it a shot.

I’m so sorry for the way I handled things and wish I could get back the time we didn’t spend together.

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FROM THE BEGINNING:

I’m often surprised that we are where we are when I think about the two of us. I remember the first time I actually saw you in person my 8th grade year when you came to Jolliff to speak about the transition from middle to high school. I always knew who you were and saw pictures of you on social media and thought you were really cool but never thought WE would be cool. Fast forward to years later I randomly come across your instagram and the rest is history. I liked a couple of your pictures that night and was sure to like one of you in your speedo so you knew that there was a possibility that I was interested in you. After you DM’d me and we went back and forth a few times I ended up just giving you my number. We started texting literally every day and in my opinion I think we became close instantly. Talking to you was super easy and always seemed like I was just catching up with a old friend. You came into my life at a very weird point because I was going through A LOT. It was nice to have someone new to talk to and chill with especially someone like you because you’re just so easy to be around. I remember the night you came to my house and stayed til about 4 maybe 5 AM. You’re literally the only guy I’ve had over my house like that. We chilled, talked, looked at my old Facebook pictures & watched Boo. We held hands and we kissed. You saw me in my comfortable space and we even dozed off together for a little. When you left we stood on my porch hugged and kissed and ALMOST got caught by my dad (lol). We hung out a few times after that I came over your house we chilled we went to Duck Donuts we went to the movies to see Black Panther we went to the mall we ate Chinese food in the mall and in that short period of time we became super close! We kissed a lot you were always touching me, which I loved, you held me we cuddled in your bed we genuinely enjoyed each others company from the moment we met. I’ve never told you this but I never could see myself actually dating a guy till I met you. You make me comfortable being myself...you show me that you care about me....you take the time to get to know me...you’re funny...you’re cute.... I love your body... you’re just all around a good person. I made this page after my trip to Miami to see you because I miss you so much and I can’t wait to show you this but first I want to post more. 🖤

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Chick-fil-Aaaaaaa?? **soulja boy voice**

Well I’m sure we both know why I decided to post a Chick-fil-A logo to this page but for those who don’t know....Chick-fil-A is where we went on our first “date.”

I remember you ordering your food and telling the cashier your name was Thiago (lol) and she was like “Thiago? How do you spell that?”

Anyways that was our first time going out together and I knew that day that you were someone that I wanted to be in my life forever. As you know I can be super awkward and shy but that day you made me feel completely comfortable. We talked the entire time and there was not one quiet awkward moment.

I’ve never met someone and instantly clicked with them the way we did. We always say how it feels like we’ve known each other for years and I love that.

This is only the beginning and I can’t wait to see what the future has in store for the both of us.

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February 16, 2018

5:47 PM — Virginia Beach, VA

Our first picture together — who knew literally a year later to the date I’d be visiting you in Miami & the rest is history