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The answer is that you slowly lose your sanity (which is saying something when your base level is stumbling around eating people) and have break-your-own-arm level crashouts. As anyone would do in that position!!

Giggling and kicking my feet, you captured this scene so well, it's truly an honour!!!

zombie au...(secret 4 now) aka. what if I was a zombie and obsessed with you to the point of derangement and I wanted to protect your fragile human self at all times so I hold you close and put my zombie pheromones on you and we're both so incredibly starved for touch that it feels like the whole world shifts when we make the slightest contact ...haha what then? ^_^

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HORRIDO!!

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hiii!! i just wanted to say that im sorry if i ever made you uncomfortable when i asked if you liked and ships or something a a while ago it wasn't my intention to do so and i understand ur reasons as to why any uhm i hope u have a great day BYEEE( ´ • ·̫ • ` )💗

Don't worry, it doesn't make me uncomfortable. Sometimes I just need a little bit to figure it how to respond since it's a more complicated subject than just yes or no for me. I hope you have a great day too! ^^

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Today when I logged on, people were talking about their wallpapers, my PC wallpaper is a 'do it for him' collage of Scout, my mobile wallpaper is darkra's fanart of Duckling with Scout all covered in blood. Someone said "I'm getting a sense you like Scout" and I said "I like petting him and I like hitting him with a closed fist"

It all comes back to Scout abuse in the end

It's a beautiful thing how you can be on a completely non- TF2- related forum, mention the game in passing, and immediately the thread devolves into talking about maiming Scout. And only 2 people had ever even played the game, the rest just knew about things via internet osmosis. It's too powerful

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So I wanted the demo to destroy a sentry but accidentally got timeless footage instead

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Also I don't think there's any [accurate] way of interpreting Medic's character that doesn't give him at least SOME traits of a personality disorder.

I like the way he's represented in Emesis Blue where he's very much unsure of himself, guilty, unstable, having several wild mood swings an hour. So when I write him I tend to lean more into the BPD side of things.

But with the aforementioned interpretation of him being bored and detached and seeing other people as experiments, a means to pique his interest, to basically take them apart and sew them back together without feeling any guilt as to how that would affect them, to me it sounds like AsPD.

And when it comes to the whole God complex thing, of course that's associated with NPD, and he has a lot of power over his teammates as well as constantly inventing new things that let him cheat death, or even condemnation in the afterlife, it's reasonable to say that'd be a kind of supply for him.

Personally I don't see much already-canon traits from either cluster A or C but that might just be from personal experience bias/ lack of knowledge. And I'm sure there's ways or situations you could press his character into to show cracks along those seams.

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While I have my own personal interpretation of Medic's behaviour which is heavily dependent on the existence of Archimedes &co (thus Dove Theory) that makes him out to be a lot more of a sympathetic person. I also find interesting the idea that he sees his teammates mostly as really interesting experiments. He doesn't want them to get hurt or be modified by outside circumstances because he feels possessive over the things he finds interesting about them. And I don't think the interaction has to stop there, you know, maybe he genuinely cares for some of them in his own way, maybe he's able to form a deeper and more emotional connection than just fascination. But a core character motivator being boredom and detachment from others isn't something I've seen explored a lot and I really like it, even if it doesn't fit into my own writing.

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day 4!!

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While drawing this and then deciding whether or not to finish it I was like "does it really matter? I liked drawing it which is the important part, and it's guro, so who will even see it in the end" and then proceeded to be blown out of the water as this became one of my all-time most popular posts

What if we were killing people and then you got impaled by shrapnel and the dust on the battlefield irritated the injury sites and made them swell shut and then we had to curl up in a closet right outside the enemy base while I tried to pry the metal out of your body or something like that haha<3

Full under cut. Organs guts etc !!

Please click for better quality...... ToT

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If you want to literally be Patient with me, my Steam friend code is 1260840172

I run Stock > Quick-fix > Kritz and hate using the Vac. Be nice to me via donations of compressed air, sandvich, and/or milk and I'll right click on you.

Sometimes I also play as Pyro or Spy or Engie if inspiration strikes.

Hi guys.

I discharged myself against strong clinical and medical advice. Yay, adulthood, I can do that now. I hate hospitals. So much so that I only agreed to go due to home being so awful. Obviously this made it worse.

Don't worry about me. I can take a few hits. I've lived through worse and have the scarring to prove it. But please be patient with me, and please pray for me. I'm tired. My leg's screwed and I have limited options to fix it. I think I'm in a little over my head.

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Reblogging this here from my main. Get many frags on my behalf while I can't play TF2... the soul of my medi-gun is behind you, soldier🫡

Just a heads up to everyone that I'm going to take an unplanned hiatus starting in probably a little over 24h. I'm going to be admitted to the hospital without internet access for an indefinite amount of time [probably weeks], if I improve fast enough I will hypothetically be able to go online now and then but no guarantees. Don't leave cus I'm still going to make stuff and try to share it even if it's not that good!! Thank you guys for everything and I hope to get better quickly. Please pray and ask for intercession on my behalf if that's a thing you do! God bless

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Another hyper-specific Scout headcanon of mine: he has really good veins. Prominent, straight, dark, close to the surface of the skin, pop up easily with a tourniquet. Why? idk. Most phlebotomists are women so if he's God's gift to women then he'd have good veins I guess

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Hi! Hello! I just saw your most recent post in regards to your thoughts on ships and being AroAce and it got me wondering; are you okay with/comfortable with your work being reblogged to AD/NSFW blogs?

I really really enjoy your stuff! Like crazy!!! Blows my mind!!! Both your fics and your art and I want to be sure that I'm not making you uncomfortable in any way by putting it on my After Dark Blog.

Hope this wasn't too weird of an ask lol!

Not a weird ask at all. I don't have any problems with it, for the very reason that makes you ask: respect for the artist and their boundaries/ intentions. It's like I said in the post-- as long as there's not something externally superimposed onto what I was meaning when I made it, I don't mind anyone to engage with, reblog, share, bookmark, etc my works, in however they want to do that.

A lot of the topics and relationships I depict are dark and deal with serious, heavy themes. And I've honestly found ship and AD/NSFW blogs to be more respectful of this, of the fact that I'm showing them platonically and asexually. Meanwhile a lot of strictly 'family friendly' blogs are still figuring out if they think it's ok for someone to draw a character with a disability/mental illness.

Thank you for your compliments! I like seeing your thoughts and reactions to what I make!! ^_^

Edit: I should also add, I'm a grown adult and if I'm uncomfortable with what someone posts on their blog, I can just not look at it. Don't worry about that but thank you for the concern!

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You’re so good at this “making art” and “writing fanfiction” thing

Thank you!! I'm at a point where I'm quite proud of what I'm able to make and able to express the things I really want to. It's a wonderful thing, and a big thank you to every person that has expressed interest in my works + inspired me with their own works!!

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Context: @liria123 was playing Pyro and there were a bunch of enemy pyros so she was mostly extinguishing people for me (thank you) instead of rolling stickies. Also I wouldn't have seen this chat message without her pointing it out because I was desperately trying not to drop while being airblasted sky high. Thank you Liria, even though you didn't blow many balls away!

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"This will hurt. A lot."

"Aren't you meant to say 'this will only hurt a little'?"

"Would you rather I lie to you?"

"No..."

"Then this will hurt and it will be excruciating."

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Hi anon, sorry for taking forever with your question! It just leads into a lot of other stuff that I needed the proper time to figure out how to think over and phrase

The short version: I don't ship anyone in any media, ever, at least not romantically. I love my brotps, they're everything to me, but I don't do romance

The long version: I think I fundamentally am incapable of understanding romantic/ sexual attraction and relationships, as a whole concept. It's not just that I'm uninterested in them myself, but that I literally can't understand the feelings or thoughts that go into them for people who do partake. To me, my parents who are married and biologically created me, are just committed/ special friends who live together and split expenses.

I don't have anything against romance and shipping, I'm just not able to engage with it on a fundamental level. I can't understand a romantic relationship both in fiction and in irl.

There are plenty of things I like in shippy works! But I like them in a different way, and I view everything I can as platonic and skim everything I can't, because it doesn't appeal to me, because I can't connect or engage with it.

I know a lot of people follow me for mediscout [both & + /] and guro because that's what they like. Even though I like those things in different ways and for different reasons, I think the visceral and aesthetic appreciation is similar. Everyone has been really respectful in my intentions in my art and fics and I appreciate that. The attention is really nice and before I never had a community that appreciates and engages with my darker works so deeply; it means a lot to me.

But like, I just don't have any opinion on any ship because I don't get ships, I don't get romance. [Though there are some /ships that do squick me for the same reason an &ship would, and /ships I'll peruse due to liking them as &ships; for the latter, I tend not to engage publically though since I know a lot of people get upset at their / being seen as & which makes sense obviously]