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Hello, its been a long time since ive wrote here. Im currently in my final posting of year 3 and having my exams this week. SO many things has happen this year especially the past few months, its a wonder im still standing and studying for my exams. I really dont know where to start and how to start this new entry of 2023
For starters, ive got a boyfriend now. Its like God heard me and finally sent someone to be by my side and Im really grateful to have him. I wouldn’t be here right now if not for him, I dont even know how I would have survived my medical school years without him.
2023 has really been so tiring. I just cant wait for my sem break I really need a long holiday.
My grandpa passed away last month. Its been 2-3 weeks? Im still fighting with the fact that hes gone, its too sudden. Im not gonna say much for now because I dont want to cry again.
Im so so tired. Ive got this empty feeling in my heart and i dont know what it is. But things will get better right? At least the ones I love are with me and here for me. Thats enough.
Thats all for today, maybe ill update some more after my exams done
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Around one week left to PE, I’m not ready for it. I’ve been having panic attacks so frequently and it feels like i cant breath. All i want to do is sleep the whole day, im so fkng tired at this point
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its nearing my PE and im constantly at the verge of breaking down. Sometimes im just so mentally and emotionally drained that i want to hide away and just, cry. Sometimes i just feel.. empty.
I’ve come to realize that the circle im in, the medical society im studying in right now, is really toxic. There’s always drama going in, and as much as I enjoyed listening to all the gossip last time, I now regret. I now only pray to stay away from any drama or any rumor going on, I really do not want to be in the middle of anything cos that is really fking tiring.
I now understand why my mom and aunties tend to pray often, it’s a moment of peace and truth with Buddha. And I really enjoy the calmness, the relief I feel after praying. I love the silence of my surroundings and my mind while praying. I really really hope for a peaceful environment to continue my journey of being a medical doctor but, I know I can only hope. Because as much as I fear and hate to admit it, the society now is terrifying, ugly and sometimes disgusting.
I’ve felt shocked and at lost at some actions, words and characters I’ve encountered while studying here. Stuff I’ve never experienced made me very, uncomfortable. I wanted to scream and cry, and just run back home. I never imagined the society to be like this, but it is what it is. I was just too sheltered from it. Even now, after knowing all this, I am still very uncomfortable and scared of the people i’ll meet and the characters I’ll know.
But no matter what, or how the people I meet will act. I must stay as I am, I will not be influenced and I should not act as they act. I pray to stay with good thoughts and to always trust that there is kindness in the world. As my mom always tell me to grow like a Lotus, out of the mud but still untainted and beautiful.
And I will.
16/4/2022
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just thought id put down some happy thoughts here for onCE
so i had a clinicals skills assessment ystd and at the end of everything, my lecturer looked at me and said “perfect”
AHHHHHHHHHHHH i was so happy !
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i miss my dog
didnt get to say goodbye or hug him before returning back to my dorm in PD and now i feel fking depressed. i didnt know he played such a big part to my mental health until now, i need my dog
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as someone who is terrible at telling lies, i think the best lie i ever told was when my mom asked if I have ever thought of suicide. And i replied, “never, of course not”.
and i guess i lied pretty well because she seemed to believe it.
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i wish my parents didnt argue that much. I’ve lived 21 years of it so i should probably be used and numb to it by now right? But no, i still feel scared, my heart still pounds and shakes. I still hate it, i dont feel numb at all. I feel all the emotions and i want to hide away.
Idk how to tell them that theyve caused me to be afraid of arguments, conflicts, loud noises, getting scolded. All these makes me terrified and the tears come before i even know. I dont want to cry, i want to stay calm and fight back. But i cant, i feel fear before anything. And i hate it, i hate all of it. I want to be normal.
I dont want to have a panic attack in front of everyone. I’ve held back so many and everytime i struggle. i just want to be healthy..mentally
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i got asked what is the driving force of my life today. I answered mainly my family and it was funny for me cause no one knows that I mean it literally
Not to sound depressed or anything, just found it funny
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ok ive calmed down a little, so im gonna take the chance to type this down quickly before another panic attack hits.
Im really stressed out about planning the juniors orientation event. I dont know how to make it work, as in the planning. I rly dk how to start it out and every meeting i hold seems to be awkward as fuck. Idk they dont rly seem so keen on chatting about it, i thought theyd be more talkative but it didnt go that way..
im just lost rn. idk who to ask for help. i dont rly want to talk to that shit of a guy so it sucks cos hes the vp and we’re supposed to communicate. everything sucks.
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its back again. i thought i was ok for a while now but its back again. shit i cant deal with this rn i srsly cant. fk i forgot how bad this feels. fk i thought i was better f
shit ic ant type i cant i jsut cant
fk ok i need to calm down i need help
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im gonna study as hard as i can and get good fking results. fk everything for now, i gotta love myself. Stop waiting for someone to save me, save yourself. Yes. I can do this.
What i feel , what i think, what i want. Matters. Keep that in mind. Be kind to yourself too, not just to everyone else!
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i keep forgetting that im too sad to for anyone to like me. Honestly, starting a relationship with how I am now would just be troublesome for my partner. Lets save everyone the trouble and just keep away from it for now
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Been a long time since I wrote in here and I’m sad to say that I haven’t really gotten any better. Mentally, physically. I’m tired in both aspects. There are some moments, maybe like a week where I feel totally okay. I’m smiling and just enjoying myself then it just comes, like a goddamn tsunami and I’m forced to just handle it myself. I can’t even bring myself to cry. I want to but it just seems so insignificant right now, it feels like I’m just wasting time and energy.
Everything sucks. I’ve been saying this for so long now. I need a break.
Right now, its exams exams exams and I’m stressed as fuck. I really need a goddamn hug I can’t deal with it like this anymore. It feels like I might just burst at any time yknow. Like I’m suppressing everything but the buckets almost full, might just tip over any second now. I’m scared. Fcking terrified actually. What if I breakdown in front of my classmates ? Then they’ll find out how sick I actually am. goddddddd fuck it. i srsly cant rn. exams on monday and im not ready at all. fuck i cant breathe
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I’m struggling to keep up my best effort, I’m not sure why but my mentality has took a big turn downwards and I don’t know who to tell. But I’ll be alright, I always fight it through. I guess that’s why I try not to hurt anyone’s feelings, because I know how terrible a person can feel. Funny how the human mind works right? I don’t love myself yet I encourage the people around me to love themselves, damn. I’m not going to start self pitying, just writing out my thoughts, an effort to feel better.
I hope everything gets better soon, before I get worst at least
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still wishing and waiting for someone to see right through me
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