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so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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GUYS GUYS GUYS

I JUST REALIZED WHAT TODAY IS

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Streak is Over

If you read the title…then you can probably guess what this post is about. The past 2 days were decent enough, since I hadn’t cried those days. I knew it wouldn’t be long till the streak ended and I’d go back to crying every night again. I thought I would maybe last a few more days and just break down on the 12th…but I forgot about one thing…it’s the weekend so I dont have work to distract me. I…

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I'm still not really up to talking about everything. It's been hard for me to really talk to anyone but I'm starting a blog about how I'm feeling and to just let out everything I've been holding back. If you guys want to stay updated on how I am you guys can go check it out. I'm going to try to post often but for sure at least once a week, maybe more. You'll also be able to see everything I am feeling and everything I have felt for the past few weeks...and about everything that lead up to how I'm feeling now. Sorry I've worried you guys...

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everyone who reads this post will get some big spicy joy within 24 large minutes (hours)

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reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

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5 Years

A lot can happen in 5 years. Some good and some bad. The past 5 years have been great. But as they say, “All good things come to an end”. 5 years ago, I started working for the YMCA…and I met the love of my life. I was in bliss. He made me feel happy, safe, and loved. I loved every minute I spent with him. I always felt like nothing could go wrong. Before I was with him, I didn’t think I’d really be in a long-term relationship. I got together with him and all those thoughts of being alone went away. I fell hard and I fell fast for him. I pictured being with him for the rest of my life. I thought we would last forever, have a loving family, and we would grow old together. Like all relationships we had our ups and downs and misunderstandings. We even broke up twice…once for a month and again for just a week. Sadly…this time I think we are actually over. On 7/17 my life crumbled around me and I felt like I lost everything. This week has been the hardest and longest week I’ve ever had to endure. The other times we broke up I was hurt…but not this bad because deep down I always felt we would get back together. This time however…it’s completely different. We both wanted different things…I wanted to focus on us, and he wanted to focus on his work. I keep telling myself that I’m happy to have just at least been there for the beginning of his journey into success, but I’m devastated that I can’t be there to watch him succeed and to support him in all that he does. No matter how much I wish, plead, pray, and hope…he’s made it clear he doesn’t see a future with me. I was so desperate these past few days just trying to cling onto him. I badly wanted to just hold on and keep him in my life, but I see that that’s an impossible task. When I last talked to him, he said that maybe we could stay friends and I’ll hold onto that hope forever…but I don’t know if I truly believe him. He’s mentioned before that he thinks staying friends with exes is weird and awkward and I don’t blame him. I’m not gonna lie, I know if we by some miracle do stay friends it’s going to be really hard for me. I spent 5 years with him and I’m not going to be able to just hold back my feelings and lock them away. I loved, and still love, him with all my heart. I’ve never felt this way about anyone, and as corny and cheesy as it sounds, I don’t think I’ll love anyone like this again. I don’t know how I’m going to make it through all this…I know I have friends and family around me who would love to help…but I don’t think they’ll be much help. My ex wasn’t just my boyfriend…he was the love of my life, the guy I wanted to be with forever, the one I wanted to start a family with, I wanted to be there with him through everything…he was also one of my best friends. I practically lost 2 people in my life on Wednesday. My other 2 best friends are on the other side of the country and though I know I could turn to them for anything, it was comforting knowing I had some one so close to me to turn to if I need anything right away. But now…I don’t have anyone. I have family here…but it’s not the same. I have other friends but it’s not the same I shared everything with these 3 people, and I can’t turn them anymore. They’re too out of reach for me and I don’t know how I’ll get through everything. These next few months are going to be the hardest months I’ll ever go through. So many things used to happen and get celebrated in my life in the upcoming months…but now I won’t have any of it. No more anniversaries to celebrate our love, just another regular day. No more birthday dates with the guy I love, just “celebrating” another year on this planet alone and longer needing to take a day off work just to see him. No more celebrating his birthday and showering him with love and gifts, just another day to spend in my room by myself. No more giving thanks for finding a guy I want to spend my life with, just another dinner. No more loving Christmases and New Year’s, just another time to put on a brave face and pretending to be happy. No more Valentine’s day dates with my guy…just an extra hard day of being reminded why I’m alone. These are going to be some long and hard months coming my way…and I don’t’ know how I’m going to make it through it all. I’ve barely made it through these past few days. I manage to keep a brave face and fake smile on my face for my family and for work…but the second I get time alone…I spend it crying my eyes out. All week I’ve cried myself to sleep…started the days off crying silently to myself so on one can hear me. When I’m alone I end up bawling my eyes out and nearly throwing up from the pain and sadness. No matter what I do, or where I go…I only have memories of him.  I open my closet to get ready for the day all I see our clothes I’ve bought for dates/days out with him. I sit in my room and think about the times I’d come home from seeing him or the joy of getting ready to go see him. I look at my phone and I catch myself looking at the last texts we had when he called it quits. I deleted past messages and pics of him…but I can’t bring myself to delete his number. I walk into the kitchen ad I think of all the times I spent making cookies and random lunches for him. I look at my recipe books and only see the dishes he loved that I wanted to perfect for him. I go to my car and I can still see his phone saved onto the car’s Bluetooth, but can’t bring myself to take it off. I look over at the passenger seat and I can still see him there smiling and reaching over to hold/touch me. The past few days I’ve caught myself driving towards his house…I haven’t drove by his house, just by his street. I know it’s desperate and stalkery…but I just subconsciously end up down that road. I’ve only had to go to my school site once since we broke up…but I had to pass by his office…and when school starts up again I’ll be passing by it everyday. I go to the grocery store and I catch myself walking towards the drinks to pick him up something, and have to tell myself not to. Everywhere I turn I get flashes and memories of him. I haven’t genuinely smiled all week and have barely eaten. I spent all my time in my room and my bed, periodically crying. I’ve barely seen my parents too, I’ll stay in bed in the mornings till they leave for work, then when I come home, I greet them with a smile and then lock myself up in my room. I’m trying to bury myself in work, so I don’t have a moment to think of him…but even that’s not working…I still somehow manage to end up thinking about him and crying again. I can’t take it…it all just hurts too much. It hurts seeing how happy everyone else in when my heart has just been ripped out. So, I’m going to be taking a break from Facebook and probably other forms of social media. I’ll keep everything open especially Facebook so people can still message me and to just occasionally look at things. If you do message me or text me I might not respond or just have quick responses.to my friends and family reading this…this is your first time finding out about the break up…I haven’t had the heart to tell you personally so I’m just letting you know this way.

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May the 10 of Pentacles bless your account with more money than you can spend. 💵✨

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Also...this is just a thing that pisses me off...but in the live action the songs are all like a tempo too slow. So me and my original cartoon obsessed brain will sing along....but with the lyrics and tempo of the original and it becomes a shit storm for me trying to sing with the live action only to realize it's the wrong lyrics and im already 2 lines ahead of the live action

Follow-up on the live-action Beauty and the Beast thing.

Out of curiosity, I’ve been listening to the soundtrack for the movie on YouTube.

Oh, my God, you guys.

It’s so bad.

The actual production of the music is all well and good, but the writing… They’re using most of the lyrics and most of the script from the original movie, but every so often, they pepper in all these little changes in the words, just because they can, and it, like, actively damages the point.

This is going to be really nitpicky, but fuck it. I will pick some nits.

Here’s an example, a small conversation that happens within the song “Belle.”

Original version:

DUDE: Good morning, Belle!

BELLE: Good morning, monsieur.

DUDE: Where you off to?

BELLE: The bookshop. I just finished the most wonderful story about a beanstalk and an ogre and–

DUDE: Uh, that’s nice. [to his wife, off-screen:] Marie! The baguettes! Hurry up!

Live-action version:

DUDE: Good morning, Belle!

BELLE: Good morning, Monsieur Jean. Have you lost something again?

DUDE: Well, I believe I have. Problem is, I can’t remember what. Oh, well. I’m sure it’ll come to me. Where are you off to?

BELLE: To return this book to Pere Robert. It’s about two lovers in fair Verona.

DUDE: …Sounds boring.

This is… Ugh, there are just so many kind of insignificant but also really, really fucking obnoxious changes happening here.

Like, in the original version, Belle actually has an opinion about the book she read. She’s invested, and she jumps at the chance to talk about it.

In the live-action version, there’s literally no passion. Just, factually: “It’s about two lovers in fair Verona.” Well, thank you, SparkNotes.

Meanwhile, in the original version, Belle’s getting so worked up, but the guy just cuts her off right there because he doesn’t really care. He was just being polite. He doesn’t actually have time for her, and he truly doesn’t care to make any. He’s busy minding his bakery, all caught up in his “provincial life.”

You know, the thing Belle wants to avoid? The kind of thoughtless, shallow, workaday life she dreads the thought of having?

Because she wants adventure and whimsy and bigger, more dramatic things than just going to work or keeping house every day?

The…theme this song exists to express?

Demonstrating that concept is the entire reason this song and this exchange exist in the movie, but, somehow, the remake doesn’t seem to get that.

Instead of just being an average guy hard at work, an example of the “ordinary” person Belle doesn’t want to be, the kind of person who doesn’t have time for books or fantasy or fun conversations, he’s…some kooky whimsical dude aimlessly wandering through town for reasons he can’t remember.

That’s, like… Kind of the opposite.

Instead of being caught up in the needs of his work, he just…randomly thinks Romeo and Juliet sounds boring. Why? What’s the point?

So, then we actually get to the bookshop.

Original:

BOOK GUY: Ah, Belle!

BELLE: Good morning! I’ve come to return the book I borrowed.

BOOK GUY: Finished already?

BELLE: Oh, I couldn’t put it down! Have you got anything new?

BOOK GUY: [laughs] Not since yesterday!

BELLE: That’s alright! I’ll borrow…this one.

BOOK GUY: That one? But you’ve read it twice!

BELLE: Well, it’s my favorite! Far-off places, daring sword fights, magic spells, a prince in disguise…

BOOK GUY: [laughs] If you like it all that much, it’s yours!

Live-action:

BOOK GUY: Ah, if it isn’t the only bookworm in town! So, where did you run off to this week?

BELLE: Two cities in northern Italy. I didn’t want to come back. Have you got any new places to go?

BOOK GUY: I’m afraid not. But you may reread any of the other ones that you’d like.

BELLE: Your library makes our small corner of the world feel big.

BOOK GUY: Bon voyage.

Number one, intensely tortured metaphor.

Number two, you know, in the original, the book guy didn’t have anything “new” because the last time she came in was yesterday. It illustrates how borderline obsessed she is, how much she depends on this place and the books.

But the remake doesn’t mention that. In the remake, he just randomly doesn’t happen to have anything new. Just…in general.

Number three, I love how the cartoon made for tiny little children operates with more subtlety than the teen-y live-action remake. In the original, she talks about what she likes from that specific book, and the viewer naturally picks up the impression of why these books are so important to her. In the remake, Emma Watson’s just fucking narrating the subtext to the audience.

And then we get to Gaston’s introduction.

Original:

GASTON: She’s the one! The lucky girl I’m going to marry! The most beautiful girl in town! That makes her the best! And don’t I deserve the best?

Live-action:

GASTON: Belle is the most beautiful girl in the village! That makes her the best.

LE FOU: But she’s so…well read. And you’re so…athletically inclined.

GASTON: Yes. But ever since the war, I’ve felt like I’ve been missing something.

…What?

What?

What!?

Why is this here?

The original is so clear-cut. He thinks of women like objects and feels like he’s naturally entitled, by virtue of his ~stunning manliness~, to the prettiest one.

In the remake… He’s a veteran?

He’s a veteran. Of a war. Readjusting to life at home. Pursuing Belle. Because he thinks she’ll make him feel complete again.

What the fuck am I listening to?

I mean, you know they’re not even going to commit to this. You know this is not going to be, like, an actual new take on the character. This is not going to be a totally reimagined Gaston. This line is just here. Because…why?

Because someone sitting in a boardroom somewhere said, “Gaston needs a more sympathetic motivation. Sympathetic motivations sell toys”?

Because they’re hoping for a gritty Gaston war prequel somewhere down the line?

Because the writers are just really, really, really bad at their jobs?

- Mod A.

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I want that “drive safe,” kind of love, the “let me know if you need anything” kind of love, the “text me when you get there” kind of love, the “this made me think of you” kind of love, the “how was your day” kind of love, the “have fun, be safe” kind of love, the “good luck today” for something I only mentioned in passing kind of love, the “have a good day” kind of love, the “I remember you said you liked this so I got it for you” kind of love, the little ways of saying I love you without saying I love you kind of love. 

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Reblog if you’ve ever been told it was a “shame” that you cut your “beautiful hair.”

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Who decided we have to give up pure and wholesome things just to grow up? Sleeping with a little Pikachu plushie does not mean I don’t also make my own doctor appointments.

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Just a reminder - this was just officially announced as a HOT TOPIC EXCLUSIVE! It will be available starting this month! And, if he sells well, more will be on the way I’m sure.

So if you can, please pick him up. You know I will be!

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According to Know Your Meme, on August 18th, 2005, Erwin Beekveld brought forth this work into the world. HAPPY TEN YEAR ANNIVERSARY, THEY’RE TAKING THE HOBBITS TO ISENGARD.

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This shows humor is criminally underrated

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