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THIS (post coming soooon)

Apologized to someone I hurt and who went no contact with me because of it. I'm just glad she accepted my apology because they are very important to me.

I know BPD and other cluster b's aren't inherently abusive or bad people but sometimes we do hurt people. And it's not okay. I feel like Tumblr is so romanticized and anti cluster b abuse that we forget that we do hurt people sometimes.

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Apologized to someone I hurt and who went no contact with me because of it. I'm just glad she accepted my apology because they are very important to me.

I know BPD and other cluster b's aren't inherently abusive or bad people but sometimes we do hurt people. And it's not okay. I feel like Tumblr is so romanticized and anti cluster b abuse that we forget that we do hurt people sometimes.

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It's such a shitty feeling literally wanting to crawl into a hole and stop existing, but knowing you promised someone you'd never give up on them; so that means staying alive even when you really don't want to. Because then the preemptive guilt kicks in, in case it ever does happen (again, and it's a success that time)

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Do you ever get the sense that no matter where you go or what you do...you are not welcome? You will constantly be *outside*. You'll always be clawing at the window of a warmly-lit house, watching everyone you love feast around a table full of sustenance while you're starving for a crumb. And when they see you, they give you this pitiful look. Half-guilt, half-disgust as they slowly close the blinds.

You will always be a monster.

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Do you ever get the sense that no matter where you go or what you do...you are not welcome? You will constantly be *outside*. You'll always be clawing at the window of a warmly-lit house, watching everyone you love feast around a table full of sustenance while you're starving for a crumb. And when they see you, they give you this pitiful look. Half-guilt, half-disgust as they slowly close the blinds.

You will always be a monster.

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I have bpd, of course I assume everyone is going to abandon me for no reason.

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YOU CAN GET FUCKING BETTER!!!! YOU GOT THIS SHIT!!!!!! KEEP GOING BITCH !!!!!!! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!!

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I feel empty, I feel a hole in my chest while sadness and anguish are invading me. I don't have enough strength to get up, move, concentrate and eat.

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“Life” via weheartit

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Neck Deep - Go Outside!

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“you’re so mature for your age” thanks I was not allowed to show any vulnerability as a child

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"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.

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i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.

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