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[throwawayov]

The Case of You, Who Saved Me on Mondays - pt.2

The second and final part,

Sorry the grammar is still shitty I can’t proofread this lol

Also I can’t write smut askjaskhdka

Thank you for even reading this shit

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Wednesday, Ranmaru Kurosaki POV

What made Ranmaru opened his eyes slowly was the strong smell of antiseptic. Next, the strange beeping from electronic device beside his head. After that, the massive throbbing pain in his head. He struggled to open his eyes. The sudden light from the ceiling blinded him for a second, but he tried to adjust quickly. This… is a hospital, isn’t it?

Then suddenly he realized something warm on his left hand. He tried to look below and saw Reiji’s head and hands were rested on Ranmaru’s hand. Reiji?

Sitting on a chair beside the bed, Reiji didn’t move at all so Ranmaru thought he’s asleep. He could feel Reiji’s strong grip on his hand as he couldn’t move it. “Reiji?” Ranmaru called him with croaky voice.

Reiji jolted up, surprising Ranmaru. “Ranran!? You’re awake!”

“Why—What are you doing here?”

Reiji stood up, clenching his fist. Ranmaru, still feeling dizzy, totally did not expect what happened in the next second; he got slapped hard by Reiji. What the—

“What the FUCK have you done you STUPID RANMARU,” Reiji screamed on the top of his lungs. His whole body trembled, and his face looked so red and colorless at the same time, if that’s even possible.

Ranmaru was shocked. “What—That freaking hurts, what the hell!” he stroked his cheek in pain.

“Good, you—you look okay! You—You better start ta—” Reiji’s stammer was suddenly cut by his cellphone’s buzz. He quickly grabbed them and cleared his throat. “Yes, Kotobuki here,”

Ranmaru stayed silent. He’s still confused on what’s going on. His mind tried to remember what happened…

And it hit him. Shit, did I just…

“Yes, he’s fine now. The doctor said it’s just overwork. Just a bad case of stomach ulcer, he’s gonna be discharged soon… yes, I’ll tell him that. Thanks!” he clicked his phone off and almost literally threw it away on to the bed.

Reiji’s attention went back to Ranmaru. “You see, I’m covering up for you so this won’t go out of hand,” he sat down again beside him. “I know you don’t want to worry anyone. So now, please, talk to me,”

Ranmaru sighed. “Talk about what? What is there to talk about?”

Reiji grabbed his hand hard. “For God’s sake can you make this easier, Ran? You know full well what am I talking about,”

“Let go of my hand,”

Reiji tighten his grip. “No sir I don’t think so, now talk,”

“Yes yes, gosh, Reiji,” Ranmaru closed his eyes in frustration. “Yes, I am an omega, a filthy one at that, the one using funny drugs to hide it all these years, and it took a toll on me physically and now mentally as well, and I was trying to end it all. That’s the freaking explanation, happy?”

Reiji fell silent. “But, why… why you—I don’t… Is it because what happened that night after the interview? Because I found out your secret?”

Ranmaru opened his eyes but trying to avoid Reiji’s. “No,” he muttered. “Well, maybe,” Ranmaru can sense Reiji’s breath stopped for a second. He might have said a wrong thing and he kind of regretted it now.

“What—what can I do to help, Ran? I don’t want this to happen again. Can you—can you stop taking that dangerous drugs? Can you stop taking too many suppressants?” The way Reiji talked, Ranmaru knew he’s holding back his tears. He sounded mad.

“And risking myself go into heat? No way,”

“It’s going to be okay if you take normal suppressants, you know that, right?”

“Even then, people will know that I’m an omega, I don’t want that,”

“Why are you so ashamed of it? Look at Tokki, he’s totally fine with it!”

“He’s had it hard as well before Otoya paired with him, you know,”

“Fine, then pair with me!”

Ranmaru’s eyes went wide. “The fuck are you talking about?”

“Yes, become my pair, Ran,” Reiji stood up. “That way, only I can smell your pheromones and you’ll be fine,”

Ranmaru clenched his fist. He felt his whole body tensed and heated up for all the wrong reason. He gritted his teeth trying to calm himself down. “I. Don’t need. Your pity.”

“Ran, no, listen to me, this is not pity. I—I care a lot about you, you know,”

“Get out of here,”

“Ranmaru, I always like you, all this time, I always like—”

“Get the fuck out of here you crazed alpha,” Ranmaru slapped Reiji’s hand away in fury. “Don’t you dare joke around like that, now that you know I’m an omega, you suddenly like me? Fuck you.”

“No no no, Ranmaru, that’s not—”

“GET OUT!” Ranmaru pressed on the nurse call button furiously.

Last thing Ranmaru saw before the door closed was Reiji’s face holding back his tears being dragged out by the nurse.

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Thursday, Reiji Kotobuki POV

“I messed up, Tokki, I messed up,”

Reiji planted his face onto his hands. In front of him, the only omega of STARISH, Ichinose Tokiya, sipped his tea trying to calm himself down from the surge of new information Reiji brought upon him. The way Tokiya always carried himself with poise fascinated Reiji, as expected from the most famous omega in the entertainment industry. All the alphas in the industry used to be crazy over Tokiya’s – unwanted, according to himself – erotic aura that he exudes whenever he went. That was, before he finally became a pair with his alpha Ittoki Otoya. Nowadays his scent only lingered on as a myth and legend. Otoyan must be one lucky bastard.

Around 30 minutes ago, Reiji just finished telling Tokiya the gist of the situation, sans the suicide attempt just because he couldn’t get himself to even mention about it. He only hoped Tokiya can really be trusted to keep this only to himself. At least for the time being.

Tokiya finally put down his tea cup. “Yes, the way I see it, you messed up big time,”

Reiji slammed his head on the table. “I knoooooow, now what should I dooooo??”

“I’m not sure. Kurosaki-san is difficult to understand, but I think he’s a pretty straightforward person,” he nodded to himself. “Just wait until he calms down and talk to him again? Make sure you’re being honest?”

Reiji chuckled a bit, “Despite his image, Ranran is far from straightforward, you know. He’s a total tsundere if I ever see one,”

Tokiya raised his brows, “Really? That doesn’t sound like him,”

“Yes, yes, you’ll be surprised to know how gentle he actually is, despite trying so hard to appear rough,” Reiji nodded to himself remembering the subject of the conversation.

Tokiya smiled. “Well, I guess you don’t need to consult to me. Afterall, the one who understands him the best is you,”

And Reiji couldn’t help but to agree on that one.

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Friday, Ranmaru Kurosaki POV

Ranmaru slapped his bass hard for his last big note. He stopped playing to think, played some more notes, and sat down onto his sofa. He leaned forward to jot down some notes onto his music sheet.

It’s 5 PM now and Ranmaru had been composing music non-stop for the day. He’s been avoiding coming to work, thanks to Reiji’s stomach ulcer excuse, it’s easier for him to hide in his place.

This rhythm is pretty good… Haruka should be able to work on the arrangement on this one.

Ranmaru knew putting all his focus into creating music was the best distraction for him at the moment. At least I don’t have to think about unnecessary stuffs now.

7 PM and Ranmaru had been playing around with his pencil on his hand for the last 15 minutes. Struggled to produce any lyrics for his newly composed music, he believed he just hit the writer’s block. “I can’t think of anything…” he mumbled.

Suddenly there’s a loud knock on his front door. “Ranran?”

…That’s Reiji. What the hell.

Ranmaru stayed silent, trying not to make any noise.

“Ranran? I know you’re in there! I just want to talk, give me 10 minutes,”

No. Ranmaru froze in his place.

“RANRAN IF YOU DON’T OPEN THE DOOR I WILL JUST SCREAM HERE AND LET YOUR NEIGHBORS HEAR EVERYTHING!”

Holy shit what is that idiot doing! Ranmaru ran to the front door and opened it quickly. “Shut up, I don’t want you here, go home,” and proceed to close the door again.

“Nope! Won’t let you this time,” Reiji quickly grabbed onto the door, pushed himself inside, and closed the door with his back.

Ranmaru was caught off-guard and took a couple steps back. “Hey, this is trespassing, you know. I will call the police,”

“Oh, go ahead, call them! I will gladly help them get rid of your stupid drugs while they’re here,” Reiji smirked and folded his arms as he walked past Ranmaru into the living room. He sat himself down, obviously pretending not to hear Ranmaru’s annoyed mumbles. “Ranran, I just want to talk, let me apologize to you,”

“Whatever, you have nothing to apologize for,” Ranmaru quickly walked past the living room and opened the door to his bedroom.

Reiji stood up quickly. “No, wait!”

“Stop,” Ranmaru put up his hand. “You can talk, but it’s really hard for me to see you in person now. So please just talk, I will listen from my room,” he proceeded to go into his room and closed the door with a bang.

Inside, Ranmaru sat down with his back on the door, trying to calm himself down.

“Ranran, can you hear me?” Reiji’s voice came though the door. He must be standing right in front of the door now.

“Loud and clear,” Ranmaru answered.

“Okay, I—I don’t know where to begin, but—” the hesitation in Reiji’s voice was so obvious, but he proceeded anyway.

“I’m sorry for what I said in the hospital. It was—it was hassled and unnecessary, I didn’t consider your feelings at that time, I’m sorry for being selfish,” he paused for a moment.

It’s fine. I’m the selfish one as well.

“But that wasn’t a lie. I—I must have phrased it wrongly. I know you won’t believe me after I ruined my chance with my stupid mouth in the hospital, but please listen to what I have to say now,”

“I—I always looked up to you since the first time we met, you knew it, right? I admired you since the beginning. Your voice, your stage presence, your confidence, your strong principle,”

“But damn you were so difficult to understand, Ran,” Reiji chuckled. “You built this wall around you so people couldn’t get closer. But I always know how you secretly helped many people, even—funnily enough, those stray cats you always fostered,”

“The more I try to understand you, the more you drive me insane. You’re full of imperfections, yet you managed to fill those gaps with your sincerity. You’re the scariest, sharpest, bravest person I know, and sometimes I couldn’t even catch my breath trying so hard to keep up. There will never be another one like you. Millions of people will come and go into my life, but there will never be another one stronger than you.”

“And did you realize I was feeling all of this while thinking you’re a beta?”

“This has nothing to do with you being an omega, Ranran. This doesn’t happen in a day. If anything, the fact that you’re an omega helped me to overcome my hatred of being an alpha. For the first time in my life, I finally feel relieved I was born this way. It was at that moment I knew I have chance to save you. I want you to rest on me, Ranmaru. I want you to feel relieved that you’re born an omega as well,”

The prolonged silence was deafening. Ranmaru could only hear his own crazy loud heartbeat.

“Ranmaru Kurosaki, I love you, with your sins and all,”

“I just hope my feelings can reach you,”

And then Ranmaru can hear the front door closed quietly.

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Monday, Reiji Kotobuki POV

“Reiji-senpai?”

The practice room this afternoon was filled with Haruka and Reiji, but the younger one feels like she’s alone in it. “Reiji-senpai? Are you okay?” Haruka repeated her question.

Reiji snapped back to reality. “Ah, sorry Haru-chan!” He scratched his head. “I was just sleepy. What were you saying?”

That’s half-true, though. Reiji couldn’t get any decent sleep all weekend. He waited and waited with his cellphone in his hand. Waiting for any news, anything that came from Ranmaru, but it was naught. His mind kept on repeating what he said in Ranmaru’s place over and over again, trying to find a mistake, trying to find something that might be worth clarifying as an excuse to go back there…

Just flat out reject me and get this over with, Ran.

“Do you want to try singing this song?” Haruka asked, walking towards the piano behind the sofa.

Reiji noticed the sheets on the table in front of him. He grabbed it and skimmed through the notes. “What is this song?”

Haruka sighed. “Reiji-senpai, you didn’t hear any word I said, did you… It’s the song Ranmaru-senpai just sent,”

“Wait, what?” Reiji almost choked in his own words. “Ranran’s song?”

“Yes, I’ve been working on an arrangement for Ranmaru-senpai’s new song since last week… Over the weekend he just completed the first part of the lyrics,” Haruka searched through the sheets on her hand, “Ah, here it is” and gave the additional sheet to Reiji. “It’s the lyrics he made. Reading it, I wanted to change the arrangement from rock to ballad, what do you think, senpai?”

Reiji quickly grabbed the sheet. He’s done it over the weekend?

“I’m a bit confused with the lyrics, but I will try singing it,” Haruka sat down and started playing notes on the piano.

The Case of You, Who Saved Me on Mondays

I tried to be strong, all in the effort of chasing you

I thought I run towards you, but I was just running away

You were never in front of me, you are right next to me

Perhaps you are the only possible answer to my questionable life

My stain might never go away, I hope you are okay with it

Undress me with your warmth, and love me with your liberation

My most beautiful excuse to live.

Thank you for the great relief of having you to rest on

Come save me, we will be "us" I have always dreamed of being.

Reiji blinked once.

Twice.

“Senpai, what do you think?” Haruka broke the silence.

Reiji took a step back and ran towards the door, “Haru-chan, I’m so sorry but I have an urgent thing suddenly coming, I need to go now,”

“What? Is everything alright??”

“I—I think so, yes, it’s alright,” and then he ran without hesitation.

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Monday Evening

“Ranran?” Reiji knocked on Ranmaru’s door loudly. He’s still trying to catch his breath as a result of running and nervousness combined.

Reiji’s phone buzzed. Ranmaru. “Hello?? Ranran?”

“It’s unlocked. Just come in,” Ranmaru said from the other side, and then quickly turn off the call.

Reiji quickly opened the door. “I’m coming in,” he announced as he came in. His stopped suddenly after taking a couple steps. He sensed…something.

There’s a…nice smell coming from inside.

Reiji moved forward following the source of the scent. “Ranran?” he called out again. The scent was coming from Ranmaru’s bedroom. Reiji tried to knock.

“You can come in, but be careful,” Ranmaru’s voice can be heard from inside.

Oh God please help me what is happening

Reiji slowly turned the doorknob and opened the door. Inside, he saw Ranmaru on his bed, sitting down, wrapped in thick blanket. Only his face was visible.

“…What are you doing in that blanket?” Reiji was dumbfounded.

“Hiding,” Ranmaru answered.

“Hiding from what?”

“Hiding my smell from you,”

Reiji burst out laughing. “What the hell, Ranran!”

“Don’t laugh! I stopped taking my medicine since 2 days ago,”

Reiji’s eyes widen in surprise. “You really did!?”

Ranmaru didn’t answer. He hid half his face into the blanket now.

Reiji stepped forward. “Can I sit there? With you?”

Still no answer. Reiji sat in front of Ranmaru anyway on the bed. “Ranran, I—I’ve listened to your song,”

Ranmaru was now hidden completely into the blanket. “Does it mean what I think it means? And—Hey why are you hiding completely now!?”

Reiji moved forward, kneeling on the bed trying to grab the blanket away from Ranmaru.

“No, stop! Don’t take away the blanket,” Ranmaru begged from inside. But it’s too late. Reiji had opened the blanket and pushed Ranmaru on to the bed.

Ranmaru was shirtless, laying on the bed, the only thing covering him was his track pants. His whole body was so red, the result of humidity and embarrassment merged into one.

Reiji’s heart skipped a beat. “Why—why are you shirtless!?” Reiji covered his face in embarrassment.

“It’s hot,” Ranmaru, facing away from Reiji, tried to cover his face with both his arms.

It’s bad, it’s bad, it’s bad. Calm yourself, Reiji.

Reiji took a deep breath. “Ranran, have my feelings reached you?”

Ranmaru was beet red now. His arms folded closer over his face.

Reiji kneeled forward, trying to grab Ranmaru’s arm away. “Ranmaru, look at me, please,”

“No, I don’t wanna,” Ranmaru closed his eyes.

“Okay then, hug me,” Reiji moved backward a bit and opened his arms. “You don’t have to look at me that way,”

The following silence drove Reiji mad. “Okay, I’m closing my eyes now. I won’t be able to see you. Reach on to me Ra—”

Reiji’s word was cut short by the sudden incoming embrace that is Ranmaru’s body. He hugged Reiji so tight, so sudden, he opened his eyes by surprise.

“Reiji, I—” Ranmaru’s husky voice was so close to his ear, Reiji’s heartrate felt doubled in a split second.

“I’m sorry, Reiji,” Ranmaru continued. “I’m—I’m not good with words. I don’t know how to say what I feel now, but I’m sorry for what I’ve done to myself and to you,”

“Save me, Reiji. I’m selfish and difficult, but you are my only solace. When I picture myself happy, I picture myself beside you,”

Reiji grabbed onto Ranmaru’s back tight. His scent is getting stronger it made Reiji dizzy, but he never tried to focus so hard before in his life.

“I love you, Reiji,”

And that’s it. That’s all it took for Reiji to lost it. He pulled away from the embrace and grabbed Ranmaru’s face for a kiss.

Reiji kissed Ranmaru hastily and the younger one took in a strangled gasp before closing his fist on Reiji’s shirt. Their eyes were squeezed shut. None of them could barely breathe. Reiji pulled away seconds later. It was a mess of a kiss.

“Sorry Ran, I—” Reiji was breathless. His mind was all over the place. Shit. I can’t control myself. I hate it.

Ranmaru, surprised by his own calmness, reached out his hand to Reiji’s face. “Reiji. Don’t hate it. Your…urge. It’s not… It’s not disgusting. If—If it’s…with me, it’s…alluring,”

“Fuck, Ranmaru. I can’t hold it anymore. Is it your heat talking?” Reiji hastily removed his own shirt.

“I don’t—I don’t know. I feel so hot,”

Reiji gulped, trying to muster up his last strand of sanity. “I will only ask once, Ranmaru, do you want to become my pair?”

“Devour me,”

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Epilogue, the afternoon after

“What the actual fuck, Reiji, you’re supposed to bite only ONCE,”

Ranmaru stroked his own nape, squinting his eyes against the pain. Reiji proceeded to cuddle him under the blanket. “Oh come ooon, it’s not that bad, right?”

“You bit me SIX times, it hurts a lot!” he punched Reiji’s chest.

“Sorry, sorry,” Reiji kissed Ranmaru’s forehead. “I will help you cover the scar,”

“There’s no need,” Ranmaru muttered.

Reiji gasped. “Ranran, you’re gonna make me cryyyyyy! I’m so happy!!”

“Oh my God stop being noisy, my ears are ringing,” Ranmaru pushed his face onto Reiji’s chest. “Just… help me clean up your mess inside,”

Reiji couldn’t see Ranmaru’s face, but he could feel that his face became beet red again. Reiji couldn’t stop grinning.

“Come to think of it, Ranran,” Reiji thought of something. “You threw away your medicine already?”

“Yes,”

“ALL of them?”

“Yes, why?”

“…including your birth control pills?”

“Yes, what’s with the question?”

Both of them fell silent.

“…Oh,” Ranmaru finally got it. “It… It won’t happen that easily, right?”

“I… hope so?”

Well, who knows.

_END_

[throwawayov]

The Case of You, Who Saved Me on Mondays

ReiRan Omegaverse AU. Not proof-read yet. Apologize for horrible grammar this is written at 2 AM lol not really intended for being published as well buttt yeahhh

TRIGGER WARNING : substance abuse

 --Sunday, Ranmaru Kurosaki POV--

"Ranran, are you perhaps...an omega?"

Fuck.

Ranmaru had played this scenario over and over in his head for countless times. What to say when someone suspects something. What to answer when someone asks. What to say when someone confronted him. What to do when some batshit insane alpha attack him. What to do when someone smells something…

But he didn’t quite prepare when Reiji was the one who asked. Reiji, of all people. The only person Ranmaru ever respect in the industry so far… his most endearing and strong Reiji.

He then counted the pills in his head. The shot. The supporting ointment. All the nasty chemicals he took in the morning as his usual buzz. All seemed fine. All should be fine. But the fact that they just finished a very tiring live concert concerned him. Is it my sweat?

No, no. This is Reiji, afterall. Ranmaru knew full well how the guy can say the most random thing just to annoy him without batting an eye.

I’m fine. I’m fine.

He put down his bottled water carefully on the table. He glanced at his own hand, making sure he’s not trembling even the slightest.

“What nonsense are you talking about? Stupid.”

He walked to the sofa and threw himself without even looking at Reiji. “I’m taking a nap,” he covered his eyes with his arm. His mind is still racing. Thank God Camus and Ai went out of the room already, else they would’ve picked up his crazy loud heartbeat when they sat on the sofa.

A couple of seconds passed. The lack of response from the oldest Quartet Night member disturbed his act.

God fucking dammit say something, Reiji. Or should I say something? No. No. But—

“Ahahaa, sorry sorry! I just want to see your reaction! Don’t be maad~”

Ranmaru can hear Reiji sat down on the sofa across him. Ranmaru didn’t move. His heartbeat and breath were suddenly a lot steadier. He wanted to take a nap for real now.

“Maybe you’re stronger than I thought?” Reiji said suddenly.

Ranmaru moved his arm from his eyes as he tilted his face. “What?”

Reiji smiled, “Nothing!”

Ranmaru knew it was Reiji’s stage smile. And he’s got a bad feeling over this.

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--Sunday, Reiji Kotobuki POV--

Reiji Kotobuki never really liked being an Alpha. 

The pressure, the expectations, the way society treated him as the leader of the pack…it’s suffocating. The way some people smell so good that he needed to hold back his primal urge was maddening. He hates holding back. Yet he hates letting himself out bare. It’s disgusting.

His only channel to let out all his suppressed emotions were singing. The lights, the sound, the cheer, the dance, the team…they are his ultimate pills. On the stage, he never had to notice any tempting smells he always tried so hard to ignore. It feels so liberating.

And then here he was. On the locker room with just his teammate, the beta-rocker Ranmaru Kurosaki.

Reiji really liked the guy. What started as an admiration of the younger’s work ethics now already became something more… precious. He’s still not sure what to label this feeling as. It always fascinated Reiji; the way Ranmaru sings wholeheartedly on the stage, moves his body around with rough yet gentle precision, his rare but tender smiles, his smell…

Wait, did I just think smell? Gosh. There’s that smell again.

Sometimes Reiji can smell something when he’s alone with Ranmaru. It was always faint. At first, Reiji just thought it’s the former’s perfume. But this time it is far from faint and more than just perfume.

Ranmaru just exudes a really really alluring scent around him.

"Ranran, are you perhaps...an omega?"

Ah shit. Why did I say that out loud?

“What nonsense are you talking about? Stupid.”

He watched as Ranmaru threw himself on to the sofa. “I’m taking a nap,”

Reiji couldn’t believe himself, but the smell is getting stronger. It’s definitely coming from Ranmaru. It matched perfectly with his reaction; it’s the smell of omegas when they are very nervous. Unfortunately, Reiji knew this smell too well.

He is an omega, alright. How—Wha-Why is he hiding this? D-Does anyone else know? Isn’t it dangero—

His mind halted. To hide the fact that you’re an omega is an enormous, if not impossible, task. Alphas can sense omegas presence in a heartbeat. Reiji is an Alpha. Hyuuga is an Alpha. God, they even worked closely with four freaking alphas in STARISH on daily basis. There’s no way none of them never picked this up these past 5 years.

But then again, Reiji never really sensed anything strong either, until now.

“Ahahaa, sorry sorry! I just want to see your reaction! Don’t be maad~”

He slowly walked to the sofa across Ranmaru and sat down. He studied the younger’s face intently, as Ranmaru covered it with his arm anyway so he wouldn’t noticed. The smell didn’t go away…

He didn’t want to think about it. If Ranmaru is a beta, then that means Reiji can now even smell a beta’s pheromones, which is very unheard of, but… it’s plausible. And it made Reiji want to throw up. Really? Even beta? I’ve evolved into something more disgusting than I already am.

But if Ranmaru is indeed an omega… Reiji didn’t want to imagine what crazy stuffs Ranmaru had done to cover this up really well for so long. That must’ve been extremely difficult and painful.

“Maybe you’re stronger than I thought?”

Oh, fuck me and my blabber mouth. Why Reiji, whyyyy…

“What?” Ranmaru tilted his head and looked straight at Reiji’s face.

Reiji tried his best to act natural. “Nothing!”

---

--Monday dawn, Ranmaru Kurosaki POV--

Ranmaru Kurosaki really hates being an omega.

The day they announced his secondary gender result was the worst day of Ranmaru’s life. His parents were both alphas so the result was crazy upsetting for his whole family. No one wanted to admit this. An omega? In Kurosaki family? It must be a fluke. They proceeded to test him 3 more times.

The result was always the same; a full-fledged omega. Cue the cymbals, a joke of the century for the family.

He still remembered how his parents told him during middle school that they found a way to help him cover this up. To convert him into a beta. To patch the embarrassing stuff. To basically neuter him of his being. It was risky and cost a fortune…but his father was willing to pay anything for it.

In the end, the procedure was botched. Literally nothing came out of it. If anything, it created a deep emotional scar for Ranmaru rather than physical one.

Then his parents business crumbled with all the financial and emotional burden it created and the story went on just like a fucked up drama that is Ranmaru’s life.

Ranmaru Kurosaki really despises being an omega.

Right after arriving in his apartment, Ranmaru ransacked through his medicine cabinet. One, two, four, eight… he gulped them all. All these disgusting pills that keep me sane.

He coughed and almost threw up. He held himself together over the sink.

They are really just normal pills omega used to suppress their hormones. Normally omegas only took two kinds of medicine; hormone suppressants and birth control pills if they are sexually active.

Ranmaru is a virgin and he took 4 kinds of birth control just for the heck of it.

Sigh…now comes the hard part.

He steadied his breath. He glanced at three blue vials in front of him. This stuff is the most expensive thing on his chemical cocktails. The experimental drug his fellow bandmates introduced him. The holy grail for omegas like him, the ultimate suppressant.

Even someone who is physically strong like Ranmaru dreaded the aftereffect of this drug. It made him want to claw out his insides just to stop the scorching sensations it caused.

Just stop thinking and get this over with. He injected himself with the blue liquid quickly on his upper arm. He squirms. It’s painful. It’s painful. I’m dying. No—

He threw up on to the sink. Today is going to be great.

---

--Monday evening, Reiji Kotobuki POV--

“So, Kotobuki-kun, what is it like, being the only alpha of the group? You’re doing such a great job bringing the pack together nee~”

Reiji’s smile grew wider.

I want to punch this interviewer’s face right fucking now. Pack? Are we dogs now, bitch?

“Ah weeeeell, it’s just really fun because we are all friends, you know! It doesn’t matter whether you’re alpha or beta or omega, riiiight guys?” Reiji winked to all his teammates besides him.

Camus let out a scoff. “Hmpf. We never see him as an alpha anyways,”

“I believe we are a group of 4 betas here,” Ai added with a nod.

“Come on, guuyysss, why are you so meeeaaan!” Reiji pretended to cry. As usual.

The interviewer just laughed and move along with other questions. Reiji silently relieved that this antic never failed to please the outsiders. He glanced over to Ranmaru and caught the silver-haired staring at his face intently. That caught Reiji off guard.

“What is it, Ranran?” Reiji asked when both of them were in the changing room. Camus and Ai went out already for another interview regarding their duet project.

“What is what?” Ranmaru asked from the sofa in front of Reiji. He looked really tired his literal color almost gone from his face.

“The whole interview you’re just straight up staring at me and not saying much! Is there something wrong with my face? Or you just want to admit now that I look cool?? Is that it? Aaaww I’m so flattered, Ranran!”

Ranmaru put his palm over his face. “Ugh, just drop the act already,”

Reiji smirked. He knew already that Ranmaru is sharp. “Yeah yeah, but you know me, we need to be professionals,”

“You need to tell them to stop asking that kind of questions,” Ranmaru sighed. “You hate being an alpha, don’t you,”

Oh wow, it stings. “Hmm? Nooo? I never hated it?”

“I told you to drop the act. Just like me, you’re disgusted with yourself,”

Reiji drew his brows together. What feels like an eternity was only 5 seconds of silence. “What do you mean, just like you?”

Suddenly the room is filled with a really strong smell it almost suffocated Reiji. He put his hands over his nose and mouth, “What the—“ he saw Ranmaru on the sofa, clenching his chest. He didn’t know what happen but he looked so…red. And in pain. And breathless.

“Ranran, oh my God, are you okay??” Reiji stood up and tried to reach him. But the smell now literally suffocated him. It’s like a really strong chemical trying to burn and poison his head, but it felt so good.

What the hell—

“Get out, Reiji,” Ranmaru whispers under his labored breath. He’s drenched in sweat.

Reiji froze. His mind went blank but his body is burning for some reason.

“GET OUT, NOW!” Ranmaru now screamed. In pain.

Reiji took a step back. He clawed on his own head trying to control himself. What the hell what the hell what the hell—

“NO! Ranmaru where’s your medicine?? Where is it??” Reiji ran to the vanity desk and scrambled through all the bags on it. He trembled so bad he knocked everything off the desk. “RAN YOU BETTER TELL ME YOU BROUGHT YOUR MEDICINES,” He looked back quickly and noticed Ranmaru was crawling on the ground, both his arm clenching tight on his chest. He’s drooling a lot and struggled to breathe.

“My jacket,” Ranmaru whimpered. “—pocket,”

Reiji practically flied through the other side of the room to the hanger and scrambled through all the jackets in lightning speed. “This blue vial?? Is this it??” Reiji pull out something that looked like a strange blue epi-pen.

Ranmaru didn’t respond. His breaths become shallower and shallower. “Ranmaru!!” Reiji grabbed Ranmaru’s shoulder and shaking him hard. Though in this close distance Reiji actually almost fainted himself trying to keep his sanity intact.

He couldn’t think anymore. He administered the injection into Ranmaru’s outer thigh with haste. “UGH—” Reiji closed his eyes. He couldn’t take it anymore. This smell. This heat. He bit on his own lips hard.

“FUCK!” Ranmaru suddenly jolted open his eyes and screamed. He sat up and moved Reiji out of his way. He leaned on the wall and tried to catch his breath.

Reiji tried so hard to calm himself down. His labored breath and bleeding lips aside, his mind slowly creeped back to sanity. A minute passed just for them to slowly steadied their breath. “Ranmaru, listen to me, you fucker,” Reiji scratched his own head hard. “You are an omega, are you not?”

Ranmaru didn’t answer.

“That,” Reiji gulped. “That is a freaking heat if I knew one. That’s one violent heat. I never see an omega went into heat that sudden and look like they’re dying at the same time. And then, and then—What—What the fuck, Ran?”

“Shut up,” Ranmaru muttered.

“NO, I WILL NOT SHUT UP!!” Reiji screamed. “The-Then—What fucked up drugs did you just take? It went away just like that, Ran. What the hell? That’s not normal!”

“SHUT UP, I AM NOT NORMAL, OKAY?” Ranmaru screamed on the top of his lungs. “What do you want me to say? Oh yes I’m sorry I’m an omega guys, please be careful around me I am craving to be filled all the time yada yada yada?”

Reiji was still trying to catch his breath. His mind is a lot calmer now. “No—no, I’m sorry that’s not what I’m trying to say, okay?” He stood up and walked slowly to Ranmaru. “I’m—I’m just worried about you,” he extended his hand to help Ranmaru stand up.

Ranmaru looked up. “I don’t need your pity,” he said while slapping Reiji’s hand away. He stood up by himself slowly.

“I need to take a shower” Ranmaru said before opening the door. “Reiji, can I trust you not to tell anyone about this?”

Reiji couldn’t say anything. “Please?” Ranmaru added.

“…Okay,” that’s all Reiji could muster up.

This is just too much for me to handle.

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Tuesday Dawn, Ranmaru Kurosaki POV

Ranmaru stood in front of his sink for a whole minute without even moving a single muscle. He looked horrible. He didn’t get a blink of sleep last night and the black lines around his puffy eyes looked worse than his ghostly Halloween makeup last year.

Out of all people, why Reiji?

He couldn’t stop asking this question in his head. His precious Reiji. The one who taught him how to be a professional on the stage. The one who smiled through all the sleepless nights just to not disappoint his fans. The one who showed him how to keep on going through anguish and distress. The one with the gentlest touch, literally and figuratively, out of all the people in the universe…

The only person who made Ranmaru want to appear strong every day.

The embarrassment of showing Reiji his weakest and most disgusting side had grown into gnawing pain in Ranmaru’s whole being. He always wanted to catch up to Reiji… It’s useless now isn’t it?

His eyes locked into his pills on his hand without care.

One, two, three…four…eight…

He fought back a sharp pain inside.

…twelve, thirteen…

And Ranmaru gulped them all.

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Tuesday Dawn, Reiji Kotobuki POV

Reiji was driving way above the speed limit for the most of his sudden early morning trip. He kept one of his hand on his phone’s handsfree, trying to call Ranmaru for the bazillionth time.

Still, no answer. Goddamit Ran please answer my call I know you’re always up early…

Since last night Reiji couldn’t sleep at all. His mind wandered to the big revelation that is Ranmaru being an omega after all this time. He couldn’t stop thinking about the weird drugs. He was extremely worried.

When his morning alarm suddenly blazed off, Reiji decided to check on Ranmaru by calling him. He didn’t answer. At the beginning Reiji just thought he’s still asleep…

But then he remembered how Ranmaru is. His Ranmaru who always put his pride on his performance above all. His confidence and rock-solid belief in his performance he always gives on the stage… his most beloved and strong Ranmaru. What happened last night must’ve been really took a toll on him, right?

He called again and again, but no answer still. He became extremely worried.

And now here he was putting the pedal to the metal trying to reach Ranmaru’s place.

Please please please please I hope I’m just being a paranoid…

He reached Ranmaru’s place in record time and bolted to the door. He knocked slowly. “Ranran? It’s me, Reiji. Let’s go to work together?” Reiji called.

He knocked again, louder. “Ranran?? Are you okay??”

Silence. He tried to call Ranmaru’s phone again and listened carefully at the door. Ranmaru’s phone ringtone can be heard from outside.

He’s inside. Damn it—

“Ranmaru, please open the door before I open it by force!” He banged on the door again.

The lack of sound except the ringing phone put Reiji on edge. He took a couple steps backward and readied himself. “I’m coming in!”

He put all of his strength to his shoulders and threw himself on to the door.

It didn’t budge. Fuuuuuck it huuuurts, it looks easier in the movies…

He tried again. Twice, thrice…

The door finally gave in on Reiji’s sixth try. “Ranmaru!!” He screamed when he got inside.

He looked around the spacious flat and found no one there. He checked the doors hastily before finally opening the bathroom door.

What Reiji found inside was a scene from his true nightmare.

--- TBC soon