thoughtsofafruit

[thoughtsofafruit]

“But if you forget to reblog Madame Zeroni, you and your family will be cursed for always and eternity.”

[thoughtsofafruit]

To fall in love is to be changed. I'm slowly learning about DnD because he likes it. I do connections each day at midnight because he does it and its nice to compare results. I don't feel ashamed about my hobbies, and he actually asks about them. I reach out to my friends more because he reminds me to be more social

[thoughtsofafruit]

REMEMBER THAT POST WITH CINDERELLA WHERE HER DRESS CHANGES TO THE COLOR OF YOUR BLOG?

THIS ONE DOES IT TOO!!

I found a bunch more!!

x

[thoughtsofafruit]

well my sleep schedule is ruined, and for once its not because I was up late writing fanfic

[thoughtsofafruit]

grief is a strange thing

i'll never watch supernatural, at least not on my own, because my mum loved that show and she never got to finish it or drag me into it i'll constantly re-read or think about the brother grimm fairytales because my mum would read them to me as a little kid i have a nostalgia for eastenders because that was the show i watched with my mum i cry when i listen to old pink songs, and get sad when i listen to new ones because my mum loved her music

grief haunts you and it never goes, your life is forever changed by loosing someone and it's not just because they're not here anymore

[thoughtsofafruit]

light vent Damn depression is really trying to kick my ass again. Thank god for music and podcasts for distractions

[thoughtsofafruit]

Grief is a funny thing I say I don't watch eastenders because it's shit, I don't watch it because as a little kid I watched it with my mum and if I think about it too much I cry I say I don't want to watch supernatural because it doesn't interest me, I don't want to watch it because my mum never got to finish it I say I want to read the brother grimm fairytales because they're creepy and I like that, I want to read them because they were my bedtime stories when my mum was alive Nearly 15 years on and I am still fundamentally different because she's gone

[thoughtsofafruit]

trans masculine astronaut, I always wanted to be an astronaut as a kid

from now on your tumblr nickname is whatever you get from this sexual identity generator  ☆

[thoughtsofafruit]

my mouse voted for me, it glitches out sometimes and it said gay sex before I could even read the post, I think that speaks to something

[thoughtsofafruit]

i’m such a “i want your attention” but “won’t bother you” kinda person

[thoughtsofafruit]

Maybe hot take but I don’t think most of the hate directed toward Steven was racism. It was a proportional (if extreme) reaction to their public personas. Shane and Ryan are why everyone follows watcher, so of course they’re going to get less hate automatically. But even excepting that, this is how each of the boys is perceived:

Steven: CEO (meaning he’d likely be the one making the final decision here, and in the general public consciousness the assumption is that the CEO makes the most money), drives a Tesla, gets goop (notoriously expensive) salads door dashed (notoriously expensive) every day and admitted it without shame, wants to bring back a series that does not include Ryan and Shane (the reason people watch and the content they’d be most ok paying for) and that is at its core is a show of wealth and that previously included gold-flecked ice cream - something obviously expensive and ridiculous

Ryan: neither flagrantly anti-capitalist, nor a flagrant spender, a net neutral in terms of money

Shane: anti-capitalist, regularly tells you to steal from the rich, told you in the goodbye video to steal from the company (share passwords), has never spoken to any degree about what money he makes or what he buys with it, has spent years building this persona by joking directly with fans

I don’t think this is racism, I think this is a direct reaction to perceived classism judged by how each of the boys has shown their wealth and crafted their online persona over the years. The guy with the Tesla was always going to get the most shit. The guy who told you to share passwords was always going to get the least. I don’t think it’s right, all three made this decision together and they all believed in it enough to take it this far (they shot expensive overseas episodes of ghost files - Shane and Ryan’s show - already for god’s sake) but I think crying racism to make justifiably upset fans feel bad is a stretch

[thoughtsofafruit]

suffering (but with playlists that feel otherworldly)

[thoughtsofafruit]

How do I feel almost exactly the same rn as I do when I get tipsy?? Like all I'm doing is leaning back in my chair over and over again

[thoughtsofafruit]

Me when my health problems in fact health problem: what the fuck is wrong with me???

[thoughtsofafruit]

somehow tricking myself into a better sleep schedule????

[thoughtsofafruit]

I genuinely don't know what advice my dad's friend expected from me when he asked how to come out to my dad. Like yea I'm queer as well but you've known him longer than I've existed and coming out to friends is different to family members