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It takes one to know one.

Its funny how people who know little to nothing about the academy talks as if they understand. What these people do not realize is that she lost a son. She is an institution who wants nothing but the best for her children. She too cries and she is also in great pain for the loss of one of our kind. Let her weep on her own. Leave her, respect her and let her be because Darwin is hers and she too lost a part of herself.

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I miss you.

We talked last night yet I miss you already.

23 September 2019

Your SR class convened today and your reception might have happened under the scorching heat of the sun.

I cannot help but worry. For the past hours, I kept seeing pictures of you getting beaten up, rolling sidewards & whichever direction. Then I saw a photo of Musang and I missed you more.

Please be safe there. Please be in good shape. Just please, be your usual happy self. Not a second is ever wasted for I pray fervently for your wellness.

As I sit here, I have come in good understanding with my wary. I know you are strong. You are there surpassing your challenges, thus I should also overcome my own here. One of which is that I must be strong for you and for us. I should not be a baby who cries about everything. I should do my part. I told you I will always be here to support you. Honeybear, you deserve a strong support system, thus, I shall be strong.

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Im proud of myself for having able to finish a book after years. Great thanks to my sister who shoved this piece of inspiration to my face.

This is the first non-romantic related book Ive read, hence I question myself, WHY? After 23 years, this is my first time to be engaged in a book that does not involve a boy and girl, crisis in between them and an ending that sometimes distinguishable as happy or sad and more often, sort of something to think for myself.

Thank you Mr Eric Barker.

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Alumni Homecoming 2017.

A throwback photo because we obviously have no latest pictures. Nevertheless, not a pinch of positive feelings faltered. Not a single regret in my heart nor any ounce of doubt that I keep. Everything grew actually. Since this photo, I can say outloud that we have known each other to somehow a deeper extent. The day of our commissioning up to date, we have been in a very long distance relationship. Its never easy and I know that whatever we've been through is just a fraction of the more challenges ahead of us.

I do not know what tomorrow brings, but I am certain that the Lord will never ever forsake us. He will not subject us to dilemmas we cannot surpass. He loves us dearly and means no harm for us. In Him alone should we give everything. Let us give Him our full trust, and honeybear, we will never go wrong.

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An exemptional night. An event that unexpectedly reminded me of a lot of things.

One is that not a fancy dress nor a grandiose make up can ever make a woman worthy. These things cannot surpass the traditional good manners and right conduct. I saw this first hand during the 2019 FEFE. These girls look classy & sophistocated in their majestic get ups, but why do their words speak the opposites and their actions imply the ugliest trait.

Second is that true friendship is really a treasure that cannot be easily found. Lucky are those who have them and knows how to dearly keep them.

More to come. . .

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Got this photo from my boss and I thought maybe I should share my thoughts about it.

ANYBODY THAT GIVES UP ON YOU WAS NEVER THERE TO BEGIN WITH.

I, however, do not agree or perhaps believe at this. We are not ultra humans who have superpowers to depict who are the people that are worthy of our trust and in turn, we do not manifest that kind of trust that the people around us search for. What I’m saying is we do not know whether or not our stay or our wait is worth the time and maybe the funds that we will spend, hence, it is a risk that we take. Just as how we invest money in a business, we also invest our love, time and effort in people or in a person. We do not know the percentage or even the probability of its return. 

The question therefore is are we all about the return? Are we just giving something in hope for a payback? Am I just loving someone so that I can be loved back?

It sounds pathetic, I know.

It is in this point where the broken glass of trust can never be formed back to its original state. Once this precious glass is shattered and its pieces spread on the floor, you cannot ever have it back to its perfect form of a shining and flawless piece of art. 

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Very well said 👏👏

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Mahirap kapag sa pagtagal ng relasyon nyo ay makalimutan mong mahalin sarili mo. Tama lng naman na mahalin mo sya, kasi nga kayo, pero wag na wag mo kalimutang mahalin ung totoong ikaw. Ung kung sino at ano ka bago pa man dumating ung taong pinaglalaanan mo ngaun ng oras at pagsinta. Eto ay hndi pagiging makasarili, eto ay pag iingat lamang dahil hindi natin alam ang tadhana. Hndi natin alam kung ano pwede mangyri dahil hndi palaging ung gusto natin ang nasusunod. Gustohin ko man na ikaw na nga sa dulo, marahil gusto mo rn, ngunit kung kasalungat nun ang dpat mangyri, pareho tayong walang magagawa. Kaya't payo ko sa sarili ko, habang maaga pa, wag muna mangumpyansa, sapagkat ika nga nila, masyado pa kayong bata. Napakadami pa pwedeng mangyari.

Eda

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You never realize how lonely you are until its the end of the day and you got a bunch of things to talk about and no one to talk to.

Anonymous

Oo, panis na panis na mga kwento ko sa totoo lng. Dpat sa panahon ngayon sanay na sanay na dapat ako sa case natin. Sa punto ng relationship natin ngaun, dapat hndi na ako nag ddrama ng ganito. Pero hndi ko talaga maiwasan na malungkot, na magdamdam o na magtampo. Pareho tayong nasa service oo, kaya naiintindihan ko. Pareho tayong tenynte, pareho tayong may knya knyng boss pero bakit ganito. Dati naman hndi e. So pano na lng kapag nagtagal tagal pa??

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I remember when we were cdts, you said that you do not believe in someone being too busy for him/her not to have the time for his/her loved ones.

I am not demanding for anything because I am nobody. Im just a bit disappointed that you, according to you, are very busy.

I totally understand that I will never be your priority and that your hands will always be full. I just wish you tell me what are these things that make you very busy. What makes your schedule super hectic? I wish youd tell me without me having to always or all the time ask or wonder.

Iba na talaga siguro kpag nagtagal na at kapag nakuha mo na gusto mo.

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Friends worth keeping.

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Bahala na.

Because I cannot control everything,

Because I am nobody

Because my voice is inaudible

Because my word holds nothing

Bahala na, because things are the way they are

Because the system is strong, although erroneous

Because many have gone through the same

Because they, who have powers, do nothing

Bahala na so as not to be consumed by worry,

So as not to expect anything,

So as not to kill myself of ovethinking,

So as not to be disappointmented in the end.

Bahala na.

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WTH?!

I am E' adc, his wife is M. As much as I dont want to use their so called beautiful love story to escalate my grievances, Im so sorry sir, I cannot stop myself from doing so. So this M is friends with V who was the mistress & now the wife of a ret oscar. I just don't think that this V is in any position to question my whereabouts during this latest holidays. Why should she know? Why must be she involved? So what, after knowing that I was not here she goes proclaiming to M about it? Does that make her worthy of the respect she demands? Will that even suffice the prestige of his husband? I am sorry maam, but I cannot look or speak or even think of you the way I did before. Everything simply crashed down. You are a classic example of a woman of no class.

M. I know nothing about you. But please, do not belittle those who work for you. You may be ontop now, but mind you, the Earth does not stay put in one position, it rotates and revolves at the same time. We never know.

I am no saint. I am a sinner. I am not posting this for anything against you because I know I am nothing compared to the both of you. I did this to maybe somehow ease my hot head.

Btw, my ears jumped high when I learnt that you 2 will not join our trip to nfc! Karma's a bitch, bitches!

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Im happy when Im in this happy place.

This has nothing compared to the big cities nor to the fancy countries. It is not known for anything spectacular. It is a simple village, just like any other one. I am fortunate enough to have gone to several states, but the comfort of my place's trees and the smack of her sweet cold of a kiss makes every aching nerve of my body smile.

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When I bumped into something worth reading in this trendy stage that decreases every woman's self esteem and judge guys who crossdress, the platform of the millennials - social media.

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SA DULO NG WALANG HANGGAN. 

Ang sakripisyo ba’y may katumbas pagdating ng dulo ng walang hanggan?

Ang mga luha bang araw-araw kinukubli ay magiging ngiti sa pagtatapos?

Eto bang poot at sugat ay maglalaho sa paglipas ng agos?

Ang sakit ng bawat pighati bay malulunas sa dulo ng walang hanggan?

Sa paglubog ng araw, ang mga hirap ba’y unti-unting lulumbay?

Paglipas ng panahon, ang mga tinatagong hinanakit bay mawawalay?

Pagkatapos ba ng lakaran ay may tubig man lamang na naghihintay?

Sa pagdating ng wakas, may hahawak ba sa aking pagod na kamay?

Sa dulo ng walang hanggan ang nadaramay ba’y magiging tunay?

Ang pinapangarap bang kasihayan magkakaroon ng kulay?

Sa dulo ng walang hanggan, ang tayo ba ay magiging totoo?

Sa isang lugar ba sa malayo’y may espasyo para sa ting puso?

Kapag ika’y naniniwalang oo, ako’y handang maghintay

Sabihin mong sa dulo ng walang hanggan ay magiging tayo,

Aking pagsisikapan ang hamo’t pasakit ng buhay

Titiisin lahat, basta sa dulo ng walang hanggan ay ikaw at ako.

-Eda

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Like a boss huh 😎