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get u a man who can do both 

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So for a while I’ve had this headcanon that certain members of the Bureau of Balance correspond to the Seven Birds, whether just for literary purposes or for in-universe Lucretia missing her friends and surrounding herself with people who remind her of them. Some are fairly self-explanatory, Magic Brian and Taako, Leon and Davenport, Killian and Avi and Magnus, and some require a bit more digging like Lucas and Barry, two scientists who are passionate and willing to do anything for family, and Robbie and Merle, both laid back and seemingly stuck in their own world but ultimately they have their passions and are good at them. However, there was one wrinkle in this theory and that is for the life of me, I could never find Lup. That is, until my last relisten.

Lup is undeniably a very unique character. To quote her own breakdown of her character, she has “definitely some lust, some gluttony probably, pride for sure, hella wrath” but is also “pretty on her grind”. She’s emotional, full of anger over her situation, full of dissatisfaction with her situation and desire to be more than she is, but she’s also incredibly talented. She’s in canon a prodigy in her field and she only grows in power during The Stolen Century. She does everything she can to try and save her and her friends from this cycle of death and living, but in the end she regrets what she’s done and even dies trying to fix it. And on the surface, it’s hard to parallel that to anything until you find another character who is full of emotions, full of potential and talent, but also feels trapped. Sound familiar?

Lup’s BOB parallel is Johann. For starters, they’re both insanely talented, “the best violinist basically ever” and the one who “did this world already and kind of crushed it”. However, both of them take seemingly ambitious projects on and end up trapped, unable to move forward in life and frustrated. And then, their arcs become direct contrasts. Lup uses her power to create something and puts it out in the world and is stricken by the destruction and harm it causes everyone and tries to hide it away. Johann creates something that is destroyed and forgotten and can never be recognized and regrets not being able to share it with others. Lup lives clinging first to Taako and then to the rest of the Seven, terrified of losing the only people she has, and Johann lives in obscurity terrified of not being remembered for his work and forgotten. 

To quote @tazdelightful (who graciously listened to my rambling), “Lup and Johann are the forgotten”. Johann lives forgotten by the world and Lup dies forgotten by her friends. However, in the end, Lup returns to life and becomes remembered by those who matter the most to her, and Johann dies and in doing so his memory and songs are spread to the entire world and everyone around. Their character arcs compliment and contrast to one another, and they are both The Forgotten and in the end, The Remembered.  

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He wants her.

He wants her around because he’s tired of you

He wants her around because she laughs at everything he says

He wants her around because she has less baggage

He wants her around because she’s skinnier than you

He wants her around because she’s prettier than you

He wants her around because he’s wanting an excuse to leave

He wants her around because he’s going to replace you

He wants her

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True that

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“No offense but fuck You for using me to make you happy until you felt like you didn’t need me anymore and left me wondering where I went wrong.”

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I saw you in my sleep last night and for a moment I thought you were real. You looked so beautiful just like you always do and I fell for you once again. And I hate my mind for playing these tricks on me.

I will always be here.

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Cody Fern as Jim Mason in The Tribes of Palos Verdes (2017)

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Cody Fern being interviewed by The Wrap

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“Our relationship might be dead, but I still get a thrill in my stomach when I think I might see you again. Your eyes haunt me like a tune that’s stuck in my head. No matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to put these feelings to bed. I try to remember you took razor blades to my heart many times…leaving me broken and bleeding inside. But, I see ghosts of you in the faces of people I pass by; I’m jonesing hard to have you by my side. Maybe someday I’ll let the memories of you die, and I’ll undo the knot that has our souls tied. Until then, I’m linked to you across oceans and between skies…I’ll never forget you were the first to bring my heart to life.”

— Ghost Feelings

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