thoughtfulbreadtraveler

[thoughtfulbreadtraveler]

(through gritted teeth) i love being out of my comfort zone it is necessary for my personal development

[thoughtfulbreadtraveler]

I'm so fucking angry and tired of people that don't give half of a shit about me, all they really want is a favor, always a favor and a helping hand that I don't want to give, but end up giving anyway

I am in fact no one, I don't exist beyond their convenience and what they can take away from me

And I am tired of feeling as a bad (horrible, not worthy, shitty) person because all I have is bad toughts and really can't come to care in a genuine way about people

The way I envision life is this: everyone just wants something that's good for them, and that's ok but don't pretend otherwise. Don't pretend to be a good person that stands on a fucking pedestal because you are not

I'm so sick of everyone around me and I feel like the anger is going to eat me alive and I don't know what to do because I have to suck it up for at least a whole year

And I really want to end everything and just tell them to go fuck themselves but I don't and I don't know why

But I am tired of people using me and looking down at me like I'm not a worthy person because I fucking deserve attencion and love and care

But no, all that is left for me is to feel like this for probably the rest of my life because there is something wrong and I am such a (there is litteraly no word big and angry enough to describe myself) that maybe doesn't want to change because sadness is all I have that's just mine and I wont share it, not when there's no one to care for my wealthbeing