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me @ you lazy bitches who refuse to join me in free form ranting:

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i'm... so disgusted by het og character design couple art (or whatever the right order these words should be in) like, you had total control of the artistic direction and you chose violence

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the only ones who would mourn you "correctly" are those who you never would wish had to mourn you at all

so don't do it

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bitch i'm still MAD about the criticisms against Happiest Season i've seen!!!!!

need to vent it out Officially after i make felina watch it too.........

glad that i didnt fall into the trap of downing whatever the critics (queer ones at that!!) say without seeing something with my own two eyes

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"What began as survival carried forward in the name of culture."

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reading slave women's recounts is just.................. america really is built on non-white people's blood, sweat, and dead bodies

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here's an idea: jewish vampires surviving ww2 & zombie outbreaks at concentration camps

either someone pick these up or i'll write about them when i become a housewife

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also what chiyoh said to will - there are means of influence other than violence, but violence is what you understand

- not exactly the same but could be applied to protest & revolution against "authority" in some sense

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uh..... idk im thinking about dr lecter again - when he talked about Observation vs Participation. he was referring to homicide but it kind of applies to all sociopolitical issues, too

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ETHICS BECOME AESTHETICS @zobeides

TRULY.

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ehhh, is anyone interested in doing a bookclub type of thing.... @zobeides @spitouts @gyaeran

i'm starting The Wretched of the Earth by Frantz Fanon... maybe some of you have read it already but i have the pdf version if anyone wants it

please.........

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@zobeides i was wrong - i did not appreciate how far we've come and what we are doing now

you are working in a public office against sex crimes and i'm contributing to anti-discrimination research. we care, we think, and we do - like millions of others. it may be small but not trivial. we are only in our mid twenties and we will go further some day.

there isn't a comfortable time point to quit, just like there isn't comfort in keep going. if it's impossible to be a bystander, then the current best option is to try, try again.

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approaching the end of my seventh year in america. i chose to come here because i believed that despite all the problems the country has, any and all issues can be put on a table and be discussed. but i no longer believe that's the case any more. i decided to stay after the 2016 election because i thought hope wasn't supposed to be lost yet and efforts still counted. but i can no longer hold on to that thought firmly. it's very hard to want to do anything when nothing ever changes. 24 years old and already thinking to myself "i don't have it in me any more." not that it's any better elsewhere or that i can or should possibly escape from any of this, i just, don't know what to do

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watching hannibal makes me ... verbal lmao

i felt deeply unhappy earlier today, unstable, reckless as i've been for the better part of my life. lately i can usually tell that im in pit when i have the strong urge to watch horror films -_-

it's almost funny that i actually thought i Recovered from Depression when i stopped being suicidal. grad school is hard, likely as hard as the next profession. and quarantine is no less a mental test than it is a physical restriction. the phrase "semblance of normalcy" comes up so often in news. i've been through enough ups and downs to know that i, in my current state, should not seek normalcy. it is too much of a burden, and an unnecessary one. i want small dosages of happiness as an reward throughout the weeks. those are within reach, unlike a healthy routine, and therefore those are what will keep me going for now

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s3 of killing eve has reduced Eve to someone who's trying to escape from a romantic overture with Villanelle and clinging to Niko for the now-nonexistent leftover spousal obligations, completely countering what the previous seasons have built her up to be: lifelong obsession with (serial) killers and the desire to break bad and not be "the nicest person" in Niko's eyes. what happened to "wide awake"????

and Villanelle, under suzanne heathcote's penmanship, became this power-hungry assassin who previously wanted fun and "normal stuff" above all else. the kiss did fuck all but embedding another footnote in her diary of trekking around the world. all the scripted forced laughter makes my head ring

idek what the FUCK is going on with constantin and carolyn. the stories are so scattered that i can't even begin to analyze where they stand now

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man do i have SOMETHING to say about killing eve goddamned season three

dear jennifer is not caught up with the new season and i'd say rightfully and luckily so

i can not believe. how spectacularly season 3 has failed.

rewatching hannibal nbc for the twentieth time made me all the more disappointed about how killing eve has played out

it had so much potential, so much fun

it doesn't take much to see the parallel between the two shows. both saw the rage, tension, eroticism, bloodthirst, and freedom between and within the two protagonists; one had more existential flair whereas the other is doused with feminine charm. all in good fun.

the biggest failure of killing eve s3 lies within the new showrunner's decision to move AWAY from eve??? literally what is going through her mind? it's called killing EVE???? not to call it lowkey racism but idk what else could be the subliminal drive here 🙄 sure, dealing with the afterevents of having both protagonists having already gone at each other is difficult, but that's the writers' job is it not

and, my oh my, SCRIPTING to have the characters LAUGH does not make the lines funny?? just plain ridiculous

gosh i liked the idea of each season having a new head writer/showrunner but that doesn't mean different cinematic devices and narrative styles could be explored at any given point WITHIN a season

anyways it is so bad and i wish i could write it off like i'd do the entirety of 2020

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https://www.vulture.com/2020/04/jaboukie-young-white-twitter-quarantine-interview.html