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Reduction/Binding?

Hey, trans tumblr. I need some advice and recommendations.

I'm still trying to figure out whether I'm trans or not. If I am, then I'm non-binary―fluctuating between androgynous and femme of-center.

As part of my exploration, I want to try reducing the size of my chest as I think it will help a lot of my discomfort. I do NOT want to be completely flat. And I don't want my boobs turned into what looks like muscles. I'm a C or D cup (US) and from reviews I've seen, binders do one or the other. I just want my boobs to be smaller, to where they're unnoticeable some days (when I wear loose clothing) and not worth looking at on other days (when I wear more fitted clothing).

Does anyone know of any binders or similar items that can help me achieve this?

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Wait! Hold the phone. Why do I have those childhood repressed gay feelings™ when I see this movie mentioned?

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Nostalgia. Rich Grandma's candy in the special drawer that's there to this day.

Poor grandma only had this, but I ate it too 😂:

I have a major sweet tooth…

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My black peers who deemed me too white taught me to feel accomplished by not being "that kind of black person" through bullying and alienation. But did I hate them? No. I felt hurt because my own community―my family―said I didn't belong. As a kid, I wanted to be biracial because I naively thought I'd then be accepted by both sides. I didn't want to erase my blackness completely because it was what made me special to white teachers and white peers―no one would praise a smart and well-spoken white girl. I only hated my blackness in the sense that it wasn't "black enough." But I didn't want to force myself to pretend to be someone I wasn't. Instead, at 13, I forced myself to be with the crowd I "should've" been with as a black girl, but it was clear with everyone that I just wasn't meshing well. I was unhappy and felt out of place. When I moved to the white goth crowd I had more in common with, my black classmates and teachers attacked me. Nearly every day. At this point, I was hyper aware of my blackness in that it existed too much over here and not enough over there, but rather than resenting the black kids, I internalized their hate. I hated myself for not being black enough and my goth friends' acceptance was the only consolation to the glares I received. Still, I had no clue what I wanted to be―black, white, something else. I honestly just wanted to be me. At the time, I didn't know a lick of this was going on in my mind, but decades later, I can figure it out when I look back.

The first time I met another black weird girl was the best moment of my life. We were really good friends and I was more comfortable with her than anyone. She got things I got that my white friends didn't get. And we still bonded over band tees and anime.

I didn't become "black enough" until college when I went natural―after people had grown into adults and no one gave a rats ass "black enough." A part of me surfaced that never had before and it felt weird but freeing. Granted, I'd also just overcome a heavy load of crippling social anxiety at the time through counseling so maybe that contributed. Either way, I was reborn, still well-spoken and listening to indie rock, but I'd be that sassy AAVE-speaking black girl my childhood peers had expected me to be when I was bothered. And it didn't feel forced. And I embraced it. And for the first time in my life, I felt proud to be black―with more knowledge about my culture than I'd ever had before. Again, this pride developed at a time when there were no expectations for blackness around me. Correlation? 😏

Every "weird" black kid has different experiences and it's cool to share them. But I don't think anyone should act like it's... excuse the pun―a black-and-white matter that has universal bad guys and good guys. Or that every experience is the same. All of our experiences are important to note in black discourse.

There are plenty of “ghetto” kids who are willing to befriend the “weird” or “smart” black kid, but people say they’re the “wrong crowd.”

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Party member 1: "Boss is around the corner!"

Party member 2: "We need a mob! Where's our AOE?"

Party member 3: "Hey! Don't go that way! You'll draw boss!"

Me: *killed by boss*

Me: Oops.

Me: *zooms out of flower petal*

Holy fuck. This is me.

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Holy fuck. This is me.

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Happily Ever After? 😁

Well, this is awkward…

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Prince is sorry he hid the truth, but better late than never. Fingers crossed for Steve's reply!

Well, this is awkward…

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Steve made his entrance! Prince is so nervous.

Well, this is awkward…

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Well, this is awkward...

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I cannot make a serious post in the Starry Corridor these days.

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This is my version of creativity.

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Reblog because y'all know you jackhammer the story dialogue and missed this.

Just like me.

Love Nikki 2b: The Gay

(First post Second post)

So! This is Nikki:

This is Nikki’s “friend” Kimi:

THEY ARE IN LOVE, FIGHT ME.

“Tabloids: Many people are wondering whether Kimi and Joe are a couple. The truth is Kimi prefers Nikki.”

To be clear: there ARE dudes in this game. Like, literally a handsome prince shows up. Nikki’s sidekick Yoko drools over a lead singer and laments that Toto has dated her way through the zodiac while Yoko hasn’t had a single date. Nikki? Not. A Peep. But when they get magic mirror hallucinations of the “person on your mind”, who shows up? KIMI.

YES, MOMO. SHE IS ADORING LADY KIMI. BECAUSE THEY ARE GOING TO BE GIRLFRIENDS.

!!!

Anyway, sometime next week I will be back to scream more about pretty clothes in Love Nikki 3: A Fistful of Nikkis.

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Bobo is cute in some languages. I know it means stupid or sounds awkward in other languages, but this is a Chinese game. Step outside your narrow boxes for a second. The world is bigger and more diverse than just your culture.

Hey guys

Maybe the reason “Bobo” doesn’t have a boyfriend yet is because her name is Bobo…

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Can we backtrack? I am all for queer couples everywhere, but that woman in the orange has I'm Somebody's Mama Hips and the girl beside her is wearing a school uniform.

ಠ_ಠ

Can we change it to a single mama real excited to meet her daughter's teacher at the parent/teacher conference because the teacher is a bijin (beautiful lady)?

I have no idea what the story of this anime is, and it’s pretty obvious who the protag is, but I’m gonna add character to the girls to the left with no face

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Reblogging because I'm curious every season. Missed Fall 2017. So any then or Winter 2018?

I need respectable queerness in my anime!

‘Ey, y'all. Any surprise gay that isn’t offensive this season?

What I mean:

❌ Seikaisuru Kado

👍 Yuri on Ice

👍 Sengoku Rakugo

❌ Kuzu no Honkai

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I cannot hear a second of History Maker without grinning and thinking about the best anime ever and all its beautiful, encouraging themes.

So I made it my morning alarm.