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How do I even tell my irls without seeming like I did smtg wrong

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They say they love me but SOMEONE WHO LOVED ME WOULDNT DO THIS

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I can’t stop crying rn but I KNOW God knew I’d be too powerful if I had parents that actually loved me

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#traumadump my dad said if I go to work tomorrow I’m not welcomed at home anymore and that I can live on the streets if I have to and that he’s rather I die than people not listen to him anymore.

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When you already feel like a stranger at home and your parents kick you out.

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It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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brains are literally so stupid.why is my mental health dictated by made-up ideas of what other people Might think of me . Get fucking real. Dumbass

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When a physicist falls in love :)

Richard Feynman's love letter to his deceased wife, 1946.

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can they make a being hydrated that doesn't have you pissing at emergency levels every 34 minutes

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i felt a glow like this. never before and never since. and so a touch that was my birthright became foreign. you told me i’m the love of your life. come one, come all it’s happening again. you said i’m the love of your life about a million times. how did it end? when your impressionist paintings of heaven turned out to be fake. you took me to hell too. lost the game of chance, what are the chances? i felt a hole like this never before and ever since. how did it end? you said i’m the love of your life. how did it end? something counterfeit’s dead. say it once again with feeling. i’m combing through the braids of lies. leaving me bereft and reeling. our field of dreams, engulfed in fire. my beloved ghost and me, sitting in a tree d-y-i-n-g. and i’ll still see it until i die. i can’t pretend like i understand how did it end? you’re the loss of my life.

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Deleted Instagram and Twitter to lock in and now I’m back on Tumblr. Can smo hold me at gunpoint and force me to study pls.

#ivebeenhavingahardtimeadjusting #hadtheshiniestwheelsnowtheyrerusting

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Saying this to myself because I have the whole 2025 to be free

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Currently singing this song about these two fucked-up suicidal people who are in the most dysfunctional codependent relationship ever but they stay cuz they feel seen cuz their madness matches HA HA HA

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Keep up the great work, lads

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my life has been forever altered since the day i turned 18 and went to college away from home and realized that “enjoy the trip” from bring it on the musical is no longer relevant to me. it’s weird cause it feels like yesterday i was crying in the middle school guidance counselors office about my intense fears of being this old and now that ive come to terms with it i feel wrong. who let me grow up and can we slow it down because idk what to do when i turn 19 i feel like i was sixteen and terrified last week

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Why am I only insecure abt myself when I like smo