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omfg it's been like a month since i went to the doctor to start dealing with health issues and i've since been battling this stubborn af cold on and off and it is???? so annoying???????????? like why do i even try to take steps to not be a loser awkward anti-social leech hermit forever - i'm clearly in-fucking-capable of anything else and should just accept my fate lol

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also i've started playing baldur's gate 3 and i have a lot of screenshots already and

here's one i captioned "he so pretty"

most of my screenshots might be of him and/or possibly astarion-

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HADES (2020) | HADES II (TBA)

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sorry for not responding i kind of responded in my head and then when i realized i hadn't actually responded i couldn't just respond with what i had "responded with" in my head because it'd be too repetitive and too late and

edit: also i have to respond to things in a fair and balanced order except my brain doesn't work like that and this is very much the same old problems and i'm tired ok (also i have a cold. even though it is unreasonably warm. so everything just suCKS)

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oh and update i figured out a username i want and like and IS ME ENOUGH anD it is available at most every places ... buuuut i went YOLO the day before and just changed to something at a certain site that only allows you to change username once every 2 months ... ... ... so the dilemma persists

(2 months later - the dilemma persists still because i could change it and so i did and then guESS WHAT my brain did a bad again and now we’re back at can’t change it and don’t even know what to change it too but it is wRONG and jfc i have no sense of self)

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gOOD NEWS i have an appointment to maybe finally start finding the cause(s?) of the health issues that keep popping up now and then!!!

bad news it’s a whole ‘nother month away

also, i have a fantastic brain. somehow it manages to be convinced it’s not a big deal and i’m probably just exaggerating and i should just Get Over It, and at the same time it is freaking out about how the issues are most likely something VERY SERIOUS and, like??? pick a side??? wtf

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it’s not that i can’t think of any usernames it’s just that nothing i think of feels like me enough and that gets my brain twisting about how i am actually kind of just nothing and then i just sort of spiral into existential dread

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got ONE thing done, i like this accomplished-feeling

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modern!Ares i doodled a while back so why not to finally post it huh 👁👁

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tempted to change my url to something along the lines of THOUGHT OF SOMETHING ‘cause then i can be like “hehe see, i no longer need to think of somethin(g), i have thought of something!!” ... why am i like this

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Happy 10th birthday to one of the most albums ever 🎉

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also i’m so bad at tumblr i follow like a few tags?? somehow??? and a handful of blogs and then nothing else????

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... looking for a little bit of hope these days turned 6 today!

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istg t has helped with like, the strangest things?? like... “everything” doesn’t feel much like an exaggeration lmao

of course i still have many an issue and whatever but like ... whatever ??? idk

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— do you remember what you said to me?

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feel like being social/creative

start 5 different things at once

get stressed out and ignore everything/do nothing for months

feel too guilty/ashamed to attempt picking anything back up

consider starting over

continue doing nothing

conclude this stupidity pLEASE

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they should invent a type of sleeping where you wake up and feel rested