thinkingofyoualways06

[thinkingofyoualways06]

you are so happy to give me rides! I met your parents on accident, but it was nice. I already knew their names of course, but I pretended like I didn’t and shook their hands respectfully. When you were taking me home, you purposely stopped in front of the train; did you want to be alone with me longer? You could have easily taken a different route, but you insisted on waiting. “Hope you’re not in a rush to get home” don’t worry, I’m not. Anytime I’m with you, I never want to leave. The only kinda rush I feel is from you, the rush of blood in my body and rush of endorphins everytime I’m with you. You’ve gotten more playful lately, are you flirting with me? You’re so smart and it’s so hot. Who knew listening to someone talk about trains would make me ache with arousal. I love to listen to you talk about anything and everything.. I love looking at you and noticing the nervous eye contact we make.. I love how soft your hair looks, and how badly I want to pull it… you’re so addicting I just can’t stop. I want more.

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We’re going to see a play together this Saturday!!! You even said that you were going on a different day but you changed it just to go with me hehe..It was hard to muster up the courage to ask you, but you seemed almost surprised that I want to go with you. Why wouldn’t I? I’ll know exactly where you are, which will be right next to me for 2 or so hours.. and maybe we can go hang out somewhere else later. Your car is so damn clean, it’d be fun to mess it up.

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No wonder I always like the villains; my favourite characters are always terrible people, they kill, they rape, and they don’t care. I admit, I do still care sometimes. I stayed up all night, just to find information about you. I was having such a good time, so fucking aroused by my power, the fact that I can just do what I want, I found more people. Not even people I really like, passing distractions, unlike you. Obsession is so much fun. Thinking about parking outside of your house, late at night, waiting for a good opportunity to take my binoculars out and snap some photos, it’s so god damn good. No one understand this about me. My friends know I’m a bit of a freak, like I get obsessive and I’m intense, but it’s never past a certain line. “I want to wear his skin” doesn’t get off looks because it’s common phrase now, but “I want to watch his every move and stalk him for hours at a time” is just too far for others I guess. That’s why it’s a secret. I wish I had someone else, in my real life, that shared this interest of mine. But at the same time, a secret is so much fun. This is my secret, that I’m not the person people think I am. I’m not a bad person, if I was, I would have been caught already. Keeping this.. YOU a secret is worth what we have. You’re worth it. The joy and thrill of knowing you’re mine is all worth it.

Periods of reflection are essential to understanding what you want.

[thinkingofyoualways06]

I know where you live. I’ve seen the listing for your house online.. every single photo. I know which one is your bedroom.. your windows are so big and you have a one story house … you’re just asking for it. God, that was so easy to find. I’ll have to drive by some night, and see what I can find.

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march 15th. your birthday. really easy to find. next month I’ll get to surprise you and you’ll have no idea how I knew.

[thinkingofyoualways06]

you. You… YOU. Youuu!!!! you <3

[thinkingofyoualways06]

drugging you would be fun. I remember giving you a pack of skittles once, that you ate without question; I could totally give you an edible and just count the minutes.. the seconds until it hits. You won’t even know what it is as first, but soon you’ll feel a little weird. “Why is my mouth so dry? My hands are sweaty. The steering wheel feels stuck to my hands. What the fuck is happening!?” Ha. That’d be entertaining. Don’t worry honey, I’ll take over, get in the passenger seat for me. Lock your seatbelt in, take a look at what I’ve done to you. God, you’d look so hot all fucked up, not even knowing what’s happening. I would drive you to my house, or even YOUR house just because you can’t tell even count your fingers right now, why would I listen to you? What music would I play? Maybe I could show you one of the playlists I made for you, show you some songs that really amp up my fantasies. “Where are we going?” Aw, you don’t even know what road we’re on. On second thought, let’s go to the park, so I can take you in the dark night, where no one would hear you. You’d like it though. Maybe you’re feeling a little weird, maybe I can help you. I’m so sorry you feel off, how about I make you feel good instead? Just lay back and let me do what I need to do. When I fantasize about you, I can never decide which way I like you most; on top of me, or under me. On top of me, inside of me, dominating me; I know you can be aggressive, you love to degrade. I found your Twitter account, I know the sick shit you’re into, which is why you wouldn’t even fight back. You want to be taken advantage of. You want to take advantage of other people. I could do that for you, better than anyone else. Underneath me, you’d be the whore you try, and fail, to hide. I can be rough. I’ll bite you, mark you as mine, dig my fucking teeth into your skin till you cry. Make you beg, and make you beg some more. I’d totally put you on a leash, have the control you crave to be under. At some point, you’d get more adjusted to the drug and be more conscious of yourself. That would be the most fun, because now you have to fully comprehend where you are now. You can’t hide how much of a whore you are, I see right through it.

[thinkingofyoualways06]

You let me in your car again. You know where I live. You told me the street you live on… you shouldn’t have done that.. I wanna scope each and every house till I find out which one is yours.

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You keep asking if I’ll be there, if I’m going to certain events you’re going to. What’s your game? Do you want me there for a reason? Are you nervous that I won’t be there? At first I thought you were just curious, but it’s hard to not notice this pattern you’ve created.. makes me wonder why your forethoughts seem to involve me so often. It’s not like I’m the type to not go to events either, you just get worried I won’t be there, for whatever reason. I get worried when you’re not there; I don’t have someone pretty to look at, entertain me without even trying, watch. When I can’t watch your every move, it’s hard for me. It’s just so fun to observe your body language; the way you glance at me when I’m not looking, the random excuses to talk to me, getting in my space whenever you can, avoiding interaction occasionally due to nerves. It’s easy, you are so easy. It’ll be so easy to get into your pants too, I’m just waiting for the perfect time, which might be soon. Maybe I’ll convince you to give me a ride home, when I know I don’t really need it, just to be alone with you. Maybe I’ll make a move, maybe I’ll just make you nervous, maybe I’ll make you vulnerable. I will make you mine though, I know that for sure.

[thinkingofyoualways06]

Of all places to see you, my therapy place wasn’t one of them. I know what car your mom drives now. I know that you come here sometimes now. I recognized you because you opted to wear a green zip up jacket instead of a hoodie. I noticed the change, which made it easy to know it was you. Plus, I saw your shoes. You’re so easy to recognize even when I’m not even trying to find you. Maybe you are being sent my direction for a reason.. 🗡️

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Saw you running on the track today. I knew that if I was driving by, it wouldn’t be suspicious for me to catch a quick peek. You looked really good, good enough to make me wish you knew how I felt, even though you’d probably think I was crazy. You were sweaty and winded, perfectly vulnerable in the moment. I’m surprised you didn’t notice me as I slowly drove by, barely hidden by the fence. I wonder if you’ll ever notice… you should be more observant.

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I look forward to seeing you everyday. I find it entertaining that I know so much about you, and you have no idea. I’m sure I seem very normal, not the type to obsess over the thought of following you to your house and watching you. You’d have no idea I was there. I’d be able to gather so much information about you; blackmailing would be easy if that was what I wanted. I’d prefer to seduce you as organically as possible, but if it came down to it, I’d hold you captive till you learned to give me what I want, which isn’t much. Your undying and never ending affections are a dream of mine. I will find a way to claim you.

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the thought of making you beg and cry, marking you with my teeth and making sure it bruises and hurts. The more I hurt you, the more you’ll crave me. You want to be under someone and I can give that to you. It’d be so much easier if I knew where you lived… if only <3