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[thickthighsblueeeyes]

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just a reminder that you are what I think about

just a reminder you are the only one I want

just a reminder i’m thinking about between your thighs

just a reminder I can’t wait to be there tonight

#wlwpoetry #spilledink

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

And I still couldn’t say it

That I deserved more

More than overt avoidance

More than passing thoughts

More than silent spaces

More than moments of convenience

More than lies of omission

Though a part of me believed it

My lips had trouble moving

For the fear that I would be left alone with myself

Even more than I already am

The things we do not say aloud

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

some part of me still looks for it

the point of the needle

the tip of the blade

some part of my yearns for it

however all I find is my own mind

hungry to hurt

when all you offer is softness, warmth, and stability

I never assumed that I would be the one to hurt

but my brain can play tricks on itself

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

I don’t need to breathe when you look at me, all I see is green

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

i swore i’d never do it again

open up

let her in

but here I am

letting her build a home in a place that was once empty

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

I feel so wrapped up in your love

even when you aren’t here

the perfect blanket

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

every moment spent away from you is a waste

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

craving you

tangled sheets

warm skin

soft sighs

in need of your touch

how did I ever live without it

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

4 years later

1.460 days

i’m still not sure how I feel about you

strangely I miss you

strangely I don’t like you

your death has provided me no new answers

even after all this time

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

finally, you are mine.

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

I know we look at the same moon

I know we wish upon the same stars

but the stars aren’t strong enough to carry our desires

the moon isn’t bright enough to light the path to each other

i’m tired of lingering in this darkness

it weighs me down more than you know

i’m gathering the courage to walk away, just as I am gathering the courage to stay

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

it’s never enough

or it’s too much

when will I find equilibrium in the chaos?

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

of course I think of you

I am so grateful to you

for teaching me kindness, attraction, and gentle love

I will never forget

I am sorry for the hurt I caused you, just as you are for the same

I wish you nothing but the sweetest love

[thickthighsblueeeyes]

why do men act the way they do

a pretty girl is not an open invitation

hands and not meant to wander

eyes and not meant to stray

words are not meant to sting

women are not for taking

women are not for touching

i’m so exhausted

i might drown in this sorrow