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Sometimes, you just need time for you and yourself.

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I wish I can found myself lost somewhere in the dreamy place .

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I fell in love with my bestfriend. But he didn’t chase me. He had his doubts about me. Means he is careful about who he lets into his life. He didn’t whisper sweet nothings to my ears. But he will always answer my phone calls.  He doesn’t parade our relationship on social media.  I am not his shiny new toy. I am his hidden gem. He doesn’t put me first. He has his parents, his beautiful nieces and nephew, his siblings, his health, his life. He wasn’t jealous if I talk to my peers or work with other guys, he lets me grow. He didn’t care that I had 2 million followers. He knows all the 10 real friends I have and their names.  He can’t remember the title of my songs, but he remembers his niece’s birthday. He didnt forgo his friends for me. His friends were there for him when he needed them before i came into his life. He would never immediately agree to my thoughts. He tells me if im wrong. And when im right, he acknowledges it.

All this time I thought love was all about how a man should profess his love, flowers at my door, letters saying he’s in love, enslaving his entire being to me, but here is this person, who just wants to be sure he is the best man that he can be for himself, his family, and the world. And at the end of the day, he tells me all about it. All these things that he does or does not do, for some reason, he wants to share all of them with me. 

And at the end of our every conversation, he lets me know that he loves me too.

I am his best friend. And for that, I am the luckiest girl in the world.

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Saying goodbye to my 20s and my birthday wish to all my young hopefuls.

Today I will be saying goodbye to my 20′s. It has never been so clear to me that time is indeed real, and what you do with your time is crucial.

I remember when I turned 20.. actually, I don’t. My memories are blurry when I was young, solely because I choose not to care, because I was 20 and I thought I had all the time in the world. All I knew was that I was young, I was healthy,  I cared only about spending time with my boyfriend (I was determined to get married to him at the age of 21), and that I have to submit my assignment to my legal professor by Monday. Mediocre, and lazy- that was me. At 20, I had no idea that at 9.9 years later I would be in the kitchen of my apartment in the heart of Los Angeles, and writing this, with you in mind. Also at 20, I went to my first indie band rock show, and that changed EVERYTHING. And so, my life lessons began..

At 21, I decided I didn’t want to settle down so soon, I wasn’t ready. I went to an entirely different direction, went into music and discovered that my whole childhood of loving music and singing wasn’t a scam, and I started writing songs of my own.

Me at 20

22 (2008) was when I learned about dignity. I walked into my first record label meeting, sitting across a man, leaning back in his corporate chair telling me I will not go far in the music industry if I 1) kept my headscarves on 2) sang my English songs. I said no thank you, and proceeded to (with my little knowledge of Company law that I learned in school) start my own company called Yuna Room Records, with my 22 year old cousin, Wawa. We still run this company today. Also this year, I got interviewed for the very first time by my favorite music magazine at the time, Junk, by my all time fav person today, Didi Ramlan.

Young Yuna with bandmates Efry, Paan, Adil.

22 was also when I learned that quality is key. I wrote a song called Dan Sebenarnya, and was willing to let the rough recording of it live forever. Turns out I was wrong, radio wouldn’t play my music because of the crappy quality. I went to get a RM1000(about USD$200) loan from my dad, went to a professional recording studio, to record an EP so the radios will stop saying no to my song.

My bedroom in university. You can see my passion for photography and a photo of me performing my first show with a guitar on the wall, and my law notes sprawled across the table as I stay up studying.

23 (2009) I learned how to manage my financials. I received my first royalty paycheck in the mail, and when I opened it I had to sit down and made sure if it was meant for me, and remember thinking if I deserved all of it. Dan Sebenarnya EP was being downloaded almost 100,000 times a month, my first paycheck was almost RM30k. Too much. I paid off my dad’s loan, split it with my bandmates who helped recording it in the studio with me, and started my savings account and learned how to pay tax. I also graduated from legal studies this year.

With friends from law school. Already you can tell I’m out of place.

24 (2010) I learned that even if I thought I worked really hard for something, second place is a good place to be. I competed in my first national tv music award show performing my song, and lost to a very talented young man who I am now close friends with Aizat Amdan. Sometimes you have to know that some things are just not meant for you. That night, I didn’t get an award, but I got a wonderful friend that I can depend on forever. 2 years later, I got an award that was taken away from me, but because of this incident, I had already learned how to not care so much about awards. Awards do not define you. I also graduated this year, earning my degree in legal studies. Finally!

25. (2011) I learned to take a leap of faith. I went to America with a small bag and a big dream. I was a shy foreigner, I was alone and I was a little bit scared. But, I knew that if I don’t start talking, I will not go anywhere. Being awkward and shy is a waste of time, I learned. The more you want to talk to people, the more respectful you are, the more you will learn.

I learned that you are the only person who can sabotage yourself. When people say you can’t, the only person who can prove them wrong is yourself.

Pharell and I, 2011.

My very first apartment in Los Angeles. I remember every dollar i made from work was to pay for this rent.. I ate a lot of instant noodles and shopped at dollar stores. My furnitures (and one piano that I still have) were all hand-me-downs from my friend, Niles (now a big time DJ, KSHMR!)

26. (2012) I learned how to travel and perform at the same time. I was in different cities everyday, performing every night. Something I didn’t know I could do. I saw people from all races showing up at my show, a diversity and I learned to loved them all, something I didn’t know existed. All my ignorance and stereotypes melted away just from traveling across America. I also learned about loyalty, and the meaning of friendship. Didi, Faiz, Lincoln formed this experience together with me and I will never forget it.

Faiz, Didi and Lincoln, us on the road, across the country for a month in 2012.

Lollapalooza 2013.

27.(2013) I learned about the REAL treasures in life. That your parents are the true treasure that you will never find anywhere else, at any point of your life.  That breaking their hearts is never an option for as long as you live. 

My last moments with my late grandfather. I miss him so much.

28.(2014)  I learned that money is not everything. You can make millions, but you can’t buy happiness. Money will not save lives. I tried my best to save my uncle or my grandfather from their sickness with whatever money I had, and I lost this battle. God saves lives, and he takes them at His will. You can plan, but He is the best planner.

I learned that fame is not everything. You can have millions of followers, a few friends who thinks you’re awesome, but you can still feel very alone. Being liked, or dislike, does not give you infinite happiness. I also learned the horrible truth that for some, fame and money is everything.Time is the best gift you can give to your loved ones.

I learned that physical beauty of a person means nothing. We are all flawed. I am flawed. I learned how to see people’s hearts and hoping that my heart is worth seeing. I learned that being in love is not everything. I learned how to piece myself back together slowly after someone has broken every fragile part of me. I learned that the person you spend your time with can either bring the best out of you, or unleash a monster inside of you. People come into your life to teach you valuable lessons, and you have to learn from it. I learned that if you lose someone, it doesn’t mean its because you’re not worth it. It just means you’re growing. How you rise above this, will be your life’s best victory.

29,(2015-today) this is my favorite year. I learned to let go, and learned to realize that if you don’t love yourself, you can’t love someone else. I learned that I was not entirely healthy, and decided to take care of myself better before it’s too late.

I learned that you can find love in the calmness of being in someone’s presence. Never disrupt that calmness. ‘Don’t be an idiot’, I tell myself, ‘Don’t screw this up!’

I learned to stop caring what people have to say about me, because of the simple reason being- they have no clue what’s going on. They don’t deserve a space in my thought process. I learned about having the courage to be me. I learned the hard way, that there are givers, and takers. There are people who are here to take advantage of me and use me, and I have to walk away from them. I learned to shut doors to people who sees life in a negative way without any second guesses. I learned how to say no when people try to take away the best qualities that I’ve taken all these years to shape. I learned how to sever ties with people who drain my energy. I learned how to fight for my identity. I learned how to fight for my life and the lives of people that I care about. Most importantly, after all these years of thinking I should be this and that, I want this, I want that, .. blablabla. I learned one important thing - its not about me. It’s about how can I contribute to make the world a better place.

Al-fatihah for Aina.

On my 30th birthday, I don’t need gifts. I just wish for my young fans to not waste their time. Know that your time is yours, but it’s not yours. If you are in your 20′s, spend your time wisely. Go have fun, you’re young, but don’t forget to contribute your energy, you’re young. Time flies, but take your time learning. Make mistakes, but learn from them. Don’t try to grow up too fast, stay in your zone and be present as much as you can. Remember, you are so much more than what people say about you. People rush you into doing things.. but ask yourself what do YOU want? Go and live life fully, learn as much as you can. Achieve greatness and bring out greatness in others as well. Be aware of whats happening in the world, not just yours. Learn to see whats on the other side, and try not to settle in what your setup has been set up for you. 

Be woke. Be intelligent. Be there for the people who need you. Keep your head up and be confident, but know when to keep your head down and be humble. Never underestimate what your heart tells you. It’s okay to be wrong, its okay to fail and know that you are flawed, and life will prove this to you again and again. Know that you will rise, again and again. Being flawless comes after you learned that you can accept your flaws and not giving up doing something beautiful for the world.

Happy birthday to me and to you, here’s to us, who will see today as Day 1.

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You are loved.

I look at all the questions from my young fans from Malaysia and all over the world & I realized they’re all stemming from insecurity, bullying & rejection.. So many of them asking how to be accepted, how to deal with depression, how to not have suicidal thoughts… All is just to worrying me. I’m sorry for not replying them all, so I’m just going to write this so it will reach anybody who needs it. If someone can translate this to Malay, that will be great and I will be greatly indebted to them.  

My dear young ones, you are brought into this world for a reason. Many reasons, actually. To be the protector of the planet, to care for your family, other people,and to inspire others to do good. You are special.

If you are struggling with studies, you think homework or assignment is hard, think of your country and your neighborhood - what is it about your country that you want to change? Are the schools accessible to all kids? Are the kids getting into violence? Think deeply, and then gain as much knowledge as you can because with all that knowledge, you can come back to change all that, make sure other kids will get the same opportunity as you. If you are already in engineering school, law school, art school.. you are already on your way to serve a purpose to the world. That’s why you need to study. That should be your drive. So go and SOAR and be the best, and go make a difference in the world. Because my sweet young ones, YOU ARE THE FUTURE LEADERS! If you are struggling with love and rejection, think of the people who are always there for you no matter what. Sometimes falling in love and getting hurt is one of the ways to learn how to care for yourself. A good friend of mine always remind me to pray and to ‘take care of your heart’. It is people like that you should keep close, they care only for your well-being. Look around you, if your friends are making you feel less than who you are -they are not your friends. These are people who are sabotaging your happiness.   Keep the ones who drives you to be better, who shares their knowledge with you, who genuinely cares about you, who stops you from wrecking yourself. If the person close to you is telling you you can’t grow into a better, more successful person, this person does not care about your growth, and only wants you to stay at their level. If you feel this, break free. You’re better off alone.

If the person you love leaves you, it is not their fault, it is not your fault. It’s just not meant to be, and it will leave an empty space that you can now fill with all the things you can do for yourself. Start a business, take your parents on a holiday, join a charity group, play sports, go to a music class, dance class.. Its an opportunity to work on your skills, to enrich your character and your life because YOU ARE SPECIAL. And in the future, someone who deserves you will come along. And you don’t have to worry about them being the wrong one - because you’ve train yourself to filter out the negative people in your life. And this person, as God has sent them to you, will love you for who you are. Remember, you are LOVED. 

If you’re struggling with yourself, remember, you are made beautiful since day 1. Good looks go away after sometime, what remains is your heart and how you made people feel.. It’s your choice to be beautiful or not, beauty is not a privilege - it can be yours. Through your actions, through your words. Being attractive is when you enrich your brain and soul with positive things and share them with the world. Real beauty is when you love yourself. When you don’t sacrifice your natural beauty or your identity just so that people will like you. When you take care of your health. Beautiful is when you’re pleasant. When you’re respectful in other people’s space, when you are classy dealing with people who upset you. In my life, I learned that nobody will want to be around you if you’re not a warm person & constantly talking bad about someone. When your heart is black, it is really hard for people to stick around. Being beautiful, is when you nurture love inside of you. It’s not the color of your skin, the shape of your nose, the thickness of your lips, its not the curve of your body.. its how you remain lovely in this cruel world that’s constantly changing and where there are people who are advocating violence in public, you exist to promote love and peace.

If there are things making you depressed, don’t give into it. You have to fight it. Find help, talk to someone, don’t create that dark hole for yourself, don’t crawl into it, you deserve better. Find something you love doing, go out, get some sun, go to beach, get your friends to cook together, share ideas. Pray, you will find peace, you will find acceptance. Just like your body, your brain, your heart, and your soul needs food too. Trust me on this.. IT WILL GET BETTER. You will find your real strength and you’ll realize you’re stronger than you thought you were! Imagine if you get through this, wouldn’t it be a wonderful accomplishment? YOU ARE SPECIAL. YOU ARE STRONG. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. YOU ARE LOVED. DONT LET ANYBODY TELL YOU ANY DIFFERENT. 

-Yuna Zarai. 💜

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Picnic date in a field? Heck yeah.

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Made my day .

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Rima Vaidila is wearing a grey knit oversized jumper from Pink Stitch

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