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Good bye

-- To someone

Thank you. Thank you for being there for me. You were my shelter. You were favorite fictional character brought to life. You were actually more than that. You were there to cope up with my dramas. You didn’t give up on me though I was too hesitant to take a risk on you. You were still there even though you knew I wasn’t already there for you. You were my prince. You were my hardest goodbye. I’ve never thought I could love you deeper. 

I don’t wanna be unfair to you. I don’t want you to end up crying. I’d rather see myself crying in front of the mirror. That’s why, I ended it. 

But, I never thought that you would give up. Oh well, you deserve to be happy. You deserve to be loved. I loved you. More than how your someone new loves you. I loved with all my heart that I think I don’t know who really owns my heart anymore. You owned it. You were the only person who grabbed it and never brought it back to me. 

Please, just let my tears roll down from eyes for now. I can’t keep them inside me. They’re eating me up. Please, just let me be for now. It’ll end up. But, my love for you will never end up. 

I am here waiting for you to be mine again. Just pray that this heart will never get tired. I’ll try not giving up on you. I’ll be here for you. Waiting. Patiently, waiting. 

You look happier with her. Maybe, because she had the guts to take risk for you right? 

-- To your someone new

Please, love him. Please take care of him. Don’t neglect his feeling like I did. As long as you can, don’t give up on him. Take risks as much you can because he deserve it. He deserve to be loved. But, please tell him, I will always be here when he needs me. 

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Good bye, my love. It’s a bittersweet feeling. But, I’ll try to take the sweetest feeling that you left. 

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Escape from Reality

Do you feel this kind of urge that you want to escape reality? Even though, you have a lot of things to do. Your requirements are lining up and need to be passed next week. But, you have this urge to escape everything even just for a moment. 

Maybe, because I’ve had enough. 

I’ve had enough of all the dramas and stress that I’ve got. I just needed a break from reality and take a peek of the bright side of life before everything goes black again. 

I just went from an escapade with my bff. Actually, we had a reason for it. It’s for our requirement actually. But, it just feels great that I had a quick fun. Even just for an hour, I got to let out all the emotions inside me that’s eating me up. 

I had the best time. I get to read my favorite book even just for an hour. 

It’s the best way to distress and think of happy thoughts for a second. 

xoxo 

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Hi! I'm finally back after how many months or maybe years! Lol haha. But, it's good to be back. I've been very busy at school. It was really tough, and my mind's very messy that time. Finally, I had the time to relax and get the sleep that I've been craving. First week of February. We finally found the time to bond!! This is Ate Chay. My sister by heart and my peyborit. After all the busy weeks, finally we had a chika again. I missed her so much. That day, she and Kuya Bry made an epic surprise for me. It was really unexpected because all I thought it was just the usual, we would just eat and catch up. But, it was a lot more. We were waiting for our order to come and when it finally came, I was wondering why we didn't start eating but then, hinayaan ko na lang because I was also busy talking to her. Then, suddenly, the crews of the restaurant started to sing the birthday song. I was really shocked and I was about to cry actually but I didn't. haha! I didn't know what to do. I kept looking at Ate Chay and at the cake hahaha! The crew who was holding the cake was handsome. Haha! Then, after all the surprises we had a good chat. Then, we decided to do our usual date - cinemaaa! We watched 'The Space Between Us' which made me go crazy over Gardner. It was nice and it made us cry. It was a fun post-birthday celebration. Thank you so much Ate Chay. I love you!

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I’m back!

I’ve been very busy these past few days guys! But, Im back again. I almost forgot my password tho! We’ll be writing or posting some stuffs here again. :-)  But, unfortunately I deleted some of my photos.  THANK YOU! xoxo

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Ughhhh 😍😍😍

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She may be weird, but she'll love you like it's the end of the world 🌹

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He was gone

He sends me good morning and good night messages With that word, my whole day spices up

He makes funny jokes and it literally makes me laugh And with that humor of him, I found him more attractive

One time, he sent me an “I love you” message And with that I felt loved

It was near Novermber.. And in that year he was suddenly gone

Like we were nothing. Like I was nothing.

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Sasha Kichigina at Roland Mouret FW 2016 - 2017 Paris Snapped by Benjamin Kwan Paris Fashion Week

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