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Okay you know what? Schizophrenia is way too demonized and, as someone who has had it for ten freaking years, I want to dispel some myths about hallucinations.

Aka talking about hallucinations using my own personal examples because I had an actual fucking THERAPIST tell me I was the ONLY person in the world who experienced hallucinations that were not solely visual or auditory. Warning for…hallucinations obviously.

Visual hallucinations - These are hallucinations you see. I usually experience these by way of inanimate objects moving (like dolls or mannequins moving on their own, before you ask yes I do hate clothing stores). Sometimes these can be scary and sometimes they’re mundane! I’ve hallucinated monsters and I’ve hallucinated pretty birds. Hallucinations don’t always have to be scary.

Auditory hallucinations - These are hallucinations you hear. I commonly hear crying, talking, music, and video game noises. If I play a video game for too long and it has a repetitive sound in it, I WILL be hearing that sound for minimum three hours. You think the sound that plays in LoZ when you’re low on hearts is annoying? Try having to listen to it on loop when you’re not even playing the game. Like with visual hallucinations, they’re not always scary! Contrary to popular belief, they can be totally mundane. Hearing voices is not always scary either. Sometimes they just say random stuff, sometimes they give me little pep talks, most of the time they just all talk over each other at once and I’m like GUYS ONE AT A TIME PLEASE jeezy cheez-it’s.

Tactile hallucinations - These are hallucinations you feel. I hear common tactile hallucinations are feelings of bugs on you and fur but I don’t usually have these, I mostly have tactile hallucinations of being choked which is…not fun.

Olfactory hallucinations - These are hallucinations you smell. Yeah I thought of farts first too. So far I haven’t heard of that being a common hallucination though. I hear a common olfactory hallucination is burning? But I just smell wet metal. I…don’t know why.

Gustatory hallucinations - These are hallucinations you taste. I don’t know how to pronounce gustatory either. I often taste blood or metal. I hear those are pretty common gustatory hallucinations.

None of these hallucinations are inherently scary! As a child, I thought hallucinations were a super power. After living with them for over ten years, they just don’t phase me that much. Remember: you don’t have to be schizophrenic to experience hallucinations! There are many things that cause hallucinations including and not limited to trauma, PTSD, psychotic depression, etc. (sometimes even stress!)

But please please please be kind to people who hallucinate. I’ve lived with it for over ten years and (rarely) it can still be terrifying to me sometimes. People say “But there’s nothing there and you know that-“ yes I know that! But it’s still very very real to me and very terrifying! Minimizing what people experience with their hallucinations is not helpful and will only make them feel worse.

Thank you for reading!

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"oh where did TPA go didnt he say he was cooking" yeah but also i've been banished to the sixth dimension (i forgot to post LOLOL) reworking character designs anyways Woe

Arthur concept sketch be upon ye

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Has this meme reached this app yet if not let me bless your eyes

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you guys aren't prepared for the cooking i am about to do

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showing him the fine arts

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KUROSHITSUJI REAPER OC

finally made a character sheet for veronica! get to know my favorite girl 💛

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me and my 10 self inserts with minor differences

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Probably the only time you'll see Grell's canon design in my style, it felt strange drawing her without my headcanons so I just snuck my Grell behind Canon Grell

This would techincally be day 1 of @rainetta 's Grelltober list but since I want to take art slow + I in general cannot draw everyday I'm just going by my own pace!! Yippee!!!

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Sleepy couple with their adopted son who crawled into bed because he had a nightmare and couldn't sleep alone because of it (he's refusing to turn towards Sebastian)

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was i going to draw all reapers? yeah did i get burnt out? ...yeh anyways ghostie ronald, it just fits, see you in a week

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a bunch of veronica sketches over the past month

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im never deleting tiktok

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Despite not knowing anything about each other or their new surroundings, they seem to keep each other close for safety and comfort

I did mention Sascha would be getting 2 new friends!!! Say hi to Soma and Ran-Mao!! They're glad to be here (not really)

Their designs are a bit of a work in progress so it might end up changing when I draw them again (they'll still be the same species of dragons I picked out for them, just their colors might shift around probably)

here's a messy concept doodle I did of them

Almost forgot, but Soma is based on a Skrill, while Ran-Mao is based on a Scauldron!

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SOOO homunculi/mid fantasy AU. who'd have thought, right? currently writing a oneshot, will explain more underneath cut + add closeups bc ik my handwriting is hard to read

The AU takes place in a fantasy-futuristic New London, 30 years after the 1,000 year war. WHAT IS THE THOUSAND YEAR WAR? The Empress, alongside her fellow kingdoms, made the move to invade the world of the living. Demons were starving to death, and the leaders of Hell decided that their people shouldn't suffer any longer. She fused Heaven, Hell, the Veil, and the Mortal Realm into one plane of existence. Heaven, alongside the Veil, fought back against the demonic invasion. Humanity were split in the middle, some joining the demonic crusade while others fought alongside angels and reapers. As the name suggests, this war lasted for exactly one thousand years!! HOMUNCULI?? Two reapers, 136649 and Othello, decided to invoke ancient alchemy to make invincible soldiers to combat the demon invasion about 200 years into the war. The original homunculi were mindless drones, easily breakable. 136649 figured that using the souls of the dead were more useful than just storing the souls away, so (without Othello's knowledge), he used two souls left over from two dead reaper officers. These creations- Known as Mercury Brimstone Venus (M.B.V.) and Mercury Sulfur Venus (M.S.V.) were the first two 'sentient' homunculi. With this success, 136649 began creating more without telling Othello the reason their Vessels/Homunculi were doing so well!! Eventually, Dispatch discovered what 136649 was doing, sending a small group to destroy the lab. Only one homunculi was found, M.S.V., who looked familiar to one of the officers. William, shocked and horrified that UT would do such a thing, took M.S.V. back to Dispatch and gave him his name back. M.S.V., now Ron Knox, was trained to be a reaper.

Ron doesn't have any memories from his life as a reaper. He shares similar traits, but he isn't quite...Ronald. Other people who had homunculi return to them wearing the faces of their loved ones have reported that it's off with the homunculi around. One reaper, Alan Humphries, says that Eric isn't like the man he loved at all. They look different, they act different, but life goes on. THE TOURNAMENT? So! Once every century a fighting tournament is held to give one lucky soul a 'Wish'. This wish, given by the Greater God itself, will grant the winner anything they want, except more wishes. The tournament allows any weapon, and 'duos' (demons who turn into weapons Soul Eater style with a 'Wielder' being another human/demon/angel/reaper). Magic runes activate to keep the contestants safe from fatal harm, but the reapers in charge are wary whenever demons enter, in fear that they can break the runes. RON?? Ron decided to take the name 'Ron Knox' instead of the real Ronald Mason Knox that died. He carries Ronald's soul, is a lot more laid-back and less prideful than the real Ronald was. He's also a natural blonde! I'll get into him fully later, but he is M.S.V!! Here's his design notes + notes for other homunculi :D

NEXT IMAGE IS THE CONTORTION/BODY HORROR IMAGE LOL

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could u please draw something with William? I really like ur drawing style and would like to see more Will from u :)

The bird man himself...

(doodle requests are now: CLOSED)

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the pipeline of fixating over some thingy

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Spook(y) season ‼️‼️‼️

Let’s pretend I’m posting this closer to Halloween