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[theofficialjason]

I just wanted to let you know that months back, you saved my life..

These messages are the things that keeps me going through rough times. And I’m glad I had the privilege to do that, and I’m glad you’re doing well. This message means the world to me, thank you. I love you.

[theofficialjason]

I dunno if you'll see this because you left and I'm not even sure if you remember me but I miss you.

I remember. I always remember. I miss you, too and I hope you’re doing okay.

[theofficialjason]

i have this bad habit where i care about people more than they care about me.

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at least i can admit i’m a piece of shit

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[theofficialjason]

I'm sure a lot of people have bullshit you with the whole "things will be okay" kind of pep talk? Well, I'm gonna be straight up with you, things aren't gonna be okay, and it's something we all just have to accept sooner or later. Things might not always be okay for everyone, but they do get better, only as long as you hang on long enough, you know what I'm saying?

Give yourself a few months, hell, give yourself a whole year. Try to focus on the positive and try new things. Do things you wouldn't usually do. Go to shows, jump in the pit and mosh a little ;) Whatever, just focus on the things that makes you happy and when you feel like it isn't worth it, live until tomorrow. And when tomorrow comes, live until tomorrow again, and repeat the process. By the end of the year, I promise, I promise you will see changes and you'd be so glad you didn't do anything the year before. You don't want to die, I know you don't. You just want the pain to go away. It'll be hard, but you can do it. Okay?

I want to die. I’m so sad and depressed. It won’t stop. I need to die.

[theofficialjason]

labyrintianpomp:

I just feel like I don't have anyone anymore. Everyone has their own lives and no one has time to ask me if I am okay or hold me. All I can think about is hanging myself.

Dude, that's just the way life is, and that's just how it's going to be. You're gonna meet people and you're gonna want the maximum attention from them because you just wanna feel that closure for once, I feel you. But you can't always depend on everyone, all the time. There's a lot of people who cares about you, there's no denying that, but not everyone is going to be around forever, and it's gonna hurt like a bitch when they leave, but you're gonna be okay as long as you don't let that drag you down.

It sucks feeling lonely, but sometimes, you just gotta forget about people for a little bit and start worrying about you, and what you can do for yourself. It'll be hard, shit, it'll be a pain, but you'll learn to accept the fact that the only people you can trust is you, and the big Man himself, y'know? You gotta be nice to yourself since people aren't going to be nice to you. Think about your actions before even you consider doing them, because it'll effect a lot of people, ahah, trust me. Don't do foolish shit 'cause you're going to regret it. Just hang on in there and be your own rock. It's cheesy, ayy, but you're a goddamn amazing ass person, and I guess you just needed someone to tell you that. Also, I care. :) Feel better.

[theofficialjason]

My little sister is 7. She currently suffers from an eating disorder. She doesn’t eat because she thinks she’s fat. She is 45 pounds. She gets bullied at school because no one wants to play with her. Please reblog this to show her that you think she is beautiful even though you don’t know what she looks like.

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[theofficialjason]

i want to get help.. but i don't i'm so indecisive tbh ;/

If you think you need help, then you should go with your first instinct. Don’t be afraid of what people think, fuck them. If you feel like you’re not okay, and that you want to be, then go for it. Give it a try, and if you don’t like it, don’t do it again. You’re not alone, I know you know that.

[theofficialjason]

I want an arrow tattoo because of the quote: An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backward. So when life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means it’s going to launch you into something great. So just focus, and keep aiming.

[theofficialjason]

God's plan for you is bigger than your problems.

[theofficialjason]

kidbutera:

This is a list of twenty-eight reasons why you should not commit suicide. I don’t think these are the best twenty-eight reasons, but I didn’t want to spend so much time on this list that I’d miss my chance to show you it. Thank you for taking the time to read them. 1. You don’t know what it means to be dead. You’ve heard a lot of theories and ideas, but they all came from living people who also don’t know what it means to be dead. You can guess, but you’ll never know what you’re stepping into. 2. You’ll end up dead anyway. You won’t miss out on your chance to be dead by choosing to stay alive. Waiting around to die is the most socially acceptable method of suicide, and it always works. 3. Actually choosing to go on living can be a bit of a rush. When it’s a firm decision - “I choose to live!” - it can give a sense of purpose or meaning to life, just from the idea that you chose it. It seems like you’re in control. The feeling fades, but it’s nice for a bit. 4. You’ll put your friends and family through grief. Even aquaintances will get a sinking feeling. Dying is usually sad, but suicide really spreads a lot of misery. There’s not much you can do to nullify that…your actions will speak louder than your words. 5. There might be an important purpose to your life that you don’t know yet. It may seem like a long shot, but who knows? Something could turn up. 6. There isn’t a great way to do it. Unless you’ve suppressed your self-preservation instincts quite well, you’re likely going to cause yourself grief, pain, hassle…and there’s the chance that your method will fail, causing all sorts of complications. If your life is going badly, why add more bad stuff to it? 7. There’s a lot of world out there. However much you’ve seen, you haven’t seen it all. 8. You can start over. Abandon your likes and dislikes and friends and memories, and begin a second life. Hitchhike away, get dropped off in a strange town, figure things out. 9. You can join just about any religion and find a different, interesting set of reasons to stay alive. The reasons seem to be pretty threatening though. 10. Your choice will be misinterpreted. If you’re trying to get a message to somebody, you’ll likely be better off sticking around to make sure they get it. 11. Flowers, cookies, a joke, being warmed by a fire, ice cream, stretching, leaves rustling, sunsets and sunrises, scratching a good itch, finding ten dollars, sand running through your fingers, a scented candle, a piece of velvet, a familiar story told again new. Ordinary things. 12. It’s illegal. Sort of a funny reason to choose. 13. You might push some borderline person to commit suicide too. Not really your fault, but it’s could be pretty sad regardless. 14. If you happen to consider life to be meaningless, then it’s an equally meaningless decision to commit suicide. Why should you die? Why should you do anything? There’s no real answer. 15. What if there really is a Hell? Odds seem against it to me but dang. Guaranteed eternal hellfire seems worse than any sort of life. 16. If you’re so close to the decision, you are in a powerful spot. If you have nothing to live for, you have a lot more options in how to live your life. Take risks. Gamble away everything. Shout in the streets, go to prison, be a corporate tool, break rules, kick over trashcans. Who cares? 17. Music. 18. Animals keep at it. Watch them, learn a different way of dealing with life. 19. Big things are underfoot. The future is coming faster than ever - the world could look completely different in just a bit. Aren’t you curious? 20. It’s cowardly, cruel, selfish, pitiful, infantile, if those things mean anything to you. I don’t know if any of those accusations are true, but a few of them will almost certainly be thrown at you. 21. You’re setting yourself up for some bitter ironic twist - “Oh, if he/she had only been alive one more [year, week, day, hour]!” 22. You can’t go back. Being alive, on the other hand, is a constant opportunity to change your mind. 23. Plant a seed, water it, watch it grow. If it doesn’t die, you might get a nice metaphor out of it. If it does die…well, at least this reason kept you around long enough to kill a plant. 24. It seems to me that most people who consider suicide change their minds before going through with it. Maybe you can trust that they’re on to something. 25. What if someone, right now, loves you dearly, and is too shy to say it? Even a glimpse of you sends them into a serene ecstasy. If you commit suicide, it would break this person’s heart - they’d never recover. Who knows? 26. You’re a speck of dust on a spinning dot of a planet in a remote solar system in one of millions of galaxies in an expanding universe. Deciding whether to live or die is as silly and unimportant a choice as deciding whether to wear white or gray socks. So go on living, just for the heck of it. 27. I don’t want you to die. Do me a favor. 28. This could be it. One life in one universe in one time. This is the single true history of everything - everything you do is part of that complete picture. One chance to live, one time to die, one set of experiences and worries and joys. The things you say and do are forever locked in this story of time and space. This is the only chance you’ll have to contribute to the story of the universe - to not only observe it, but sit down and write some of it yourself. It’s a unique opportunity, to take part in the history of everything. Write your best.

28 reasons not to kill yourself.

[theofficialjason]

Just run towards God. That's it. Everything else WILL fall into place.

[theofficialjason]

Happy Birthday to my favourite person, ever. ;)

Okay, so earlier today, I said “wait for a post”, but my family came over for a barbecue and my uncle wanted me to leave my computer, so I had to. *Saves into draft for later*

But that isn’t what my post is going to be about, ok. I didn’t want to be like everyone else who just sent you an ask saying “Happy Birthday” because I feel like as one of my best friends, you deserve more than that. So it’s your birthday??

Happy birthday, Arianna!! ;) A year ago this month, (I don’t remember what day omfg), I met an amazing little shit (you), and you weren’t like everyone else. You were nice, aw, and sweet, and funny, and you made me laugh a lot, and you weren’t boring, and I liked you from the start. This seems really cliché, and it seems like I say it a lot, but you were there from the start (basically since I came back, but from the start) and you have been nothing but a really good friend to me—a best friend, actually. Uh, I can always tell you anything, and I know you’ll yell at me for some of it, but it’s okay. I also know that even though you have your stupid moments, you can be serious when it comes to helping others, and that’s what I really appreciate about you. You not only help your followers, but also me. When I’m not having the best day, and I come to you, I know you would always be there, and that is something that makes me love you so much, aww. ;) You are basically my little sister because you’re the youngest in the group, and now it’s your birthday and you’re growing up, and I’m actually so happy omfg. Anyway, even though you’re much younger than me, you are one of the few most mature people on this website. You know when to give people your input, and you know when to shut up when it’s time to shut up, unlike others who constantly talk shit like shut the fuck up, I don’t care??!!?!?¿¿?

I don’t know, you’re pretty great. :) You’re a really good friend to a lot of people, and I know I can always count on you. I remember us being “yolo buddies”, and it’s honestly, the most embarrassing thing ever (right after Gabriela and me being Swaglena and Swagann) … Talk about embarrassing…

Yeah… We were so ugly back then, wow. But I guess we’ve all matured over time (at least some of us), and we learned right from wrong, and we’ve all been put through so much since the last year, and now that we have our heads screwed on right, we know how to handle things.

(I haven’t used gifs in so long and it’s all a new world to me now)

But yeah, happy birthday, Ari. I love you, a lot. You’re my favorite ;) You are my best friend; my little sister; the reason why I haven’t completely given up on the anon world, and so I thank you. Thank you for keeping my feet on the ground, and thank you for being there when the world decided to be bunch of cunts all at once.

I love you a lot, and I know I said that already, but I do. I love you. And today’s your day, and I hope you had a good day. I hope you’re enjoying New York, or wherever you’re going, and I hope you’re happy. I’m always gonna’ be here for you, kiddo, and I’m always gonna’ have your back.

Happppyyy birtthdayayyyayayay.

— Faggito

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[theofficialjason]

Just in case

The original post only has US helplines. I've added UK helplines underneath. It would be great if people could add numbers from everywhere in the world.

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk

b-eat youthline (for under 25's with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight