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It's difficult to put into words how I've been feeling lately, I guess it's because I don't really know. I don't know my feelings. I don't understand my thoughts. I don't recognise myself. I sit at my desk and I write my notes. I pop pomegranate seeds into my mouth like I'm in a mid-Western and they're toasted sunflower seeds. I twirl the pen in my mouth around like it's straw - a cliché I picked up from the films I watched. I feel the sun beating down on my back, even though it is not there. There is only longing in its place.

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There are some moments where the atmosphere is just right but then the brain is just too tired to function.

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I think I'm starting to embrace this new reality - not the post pandemic one - but the one where I'm really no longer on the (intellectual) path I dreamt for myself.

But I find that in those moments of embrace, I struggle to move. Not physically move but mentally and intellectually move. It isn't that I'm not keen or interested in this new path that I've found myself in but that I cannot seem to bring myself to spend hours on it.

I love the ability to have some form of work/life balance but at present, some of the tasks that I do don't stimulate me intellectually.

I wonder whether it's the right path then. Do I stay on this path that provides better financial security and find side projects to stimulate me intellectually?

I thought your 30s means knowing who you are and where you're meant to be?

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I fell in love with you, not because of how you make me feel but for the way you make me think.

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Sometimes I think I'm going to have an insanely productive day and then three readings later and an evening walk, I find myself on Netflix till midnight and then I rationalise with myself that it is best for me to get a good night's sleep so that I have a good start to tomorrow.

Lol. Anyone else like this?

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I'm Lost

I've been waiting to feel awake and productive in the middle of the night when the entire household and neighbourhood are asleep. So that I can write in complete silence.

But here I am, awake and feeling productive yet all I seem to be able to ponder about is the feeling of 'absence'.

Is it because I've been living in a strict lockdown with no end in sight? Or is it something else that my brain has yet to identify.

I guess the best way to describe the emotions that envelop me now is this moment in Lilo & Stitch

-The Kind Academic-

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My Writer's Space

Every writer needs their own space to explore and materialise their ideas into concrete stories.

So as my new job is completely remote, I wanted to revamp my work space.

And viola! Thanks IKEA for making WFH that much nicer! :)

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It's the end of the weekend and I don't feel as caught up with the workload as I idealistically expected I would be.

That being said, I got the most important tasks out of the way and I've been thinking a lot about the next step for my personal education journey.

The pandemic has certainly put a spanner in the works for what I want to pursue.

-The Kind Academic-

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It has been a week of laying in bed to recover from the vaccine's side effects and then spending the last two days of the work week catching up on reading, writing and editing as fast I can go.

Other than setting aside time to have a virtual game session with friends and a dinner date with the bestie, the rest of the time will probably be spent working so that I will be caught up for the week ahead.

-The Kind Academic-

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The weekend before getting vaccinated

I know I said I would write a post everyday but some days I don't seem to have any words to say.

Does the absence of words mean something for writers? Does it mean we're too overwhelmed with our thoughts?

Anyways, my first piece as a writer with this organisation was just published on Friday.

And it confirmed in me that my aim/goal/objective as a writer is to ensure that all articles with my name attached to it focus on diversity, education, and mental wellbeing.

-The Kind Academic-

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I guess the goal is to write a post a day.

I don't know what the content is going to be about but the aim is to share the ups and downs of pursuing a career as a writer and educator.

-The Kind Academic-

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And I'm Back!

I'm sorry Tumblr that I abandoned you for who knows how long! Let's be honest I don't even remember the last time I went out seeing as Malaysia is still in a full lockdown 🤦‍♀️ so excuse me for the disappearing act.

And thank you to everyone who has kept following me ... if your Tumblr accounts are still active, that is. 😂

I've also decided to change my Tumblr name as I'm no longer on the path of pursuing my Egyptology dreams - that like many other people's dreams have been put in the back burner. Just kidding ... not really.

I still LOVE Egyptology and keep up with the field as much as I can but having had that opportunity to pursue my dream, I decided that I wanted to pay that forward so I became an educator.

While being an educator, I also decided to pursue a career as a writer. I know I want to write about education but I feel the need to write about so many thing as well.

That's why I am back because I just wanted a space to share my unfiltered thoughts as I pave my way as a writer.

-The Kind Academic-

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After a weekend of doing nothing intellectual - thanks to the amazing BF who took me to a book fair, 2 work our sessions and an at-home cooking affair - I feel so much better and ready to tackle the intellectually-driven work week ahead.

-the arcegyptologist-

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ig: herdrafts

This morning I woke up around seven, I went out in the chilly weather and I couldn’t feel any fatigue even though I slept 3h last night. When I got back home I had a cup of coffee and I started writing and sketching, it was a pleasing day and I feel so productive. 

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I love my home so much :’)) Plus I was pretty productive today after watching movies all day yesterday 🌿🌱✨ how are you all doing??